no she 16 now

any more runs.?

*Chapter 7*
~Renee's POV~
after having Sammy drop me off at home I went straight to my room and just sat there in my bed thinking. to only be 13 years old I have been through a lot of bullshyt. sometimes I just wish I had a mother that actually cares about me and I can tell her anything because right now i'm so confused. I got up and went over to my mirror and picked up the locket brandun got me and laid back down staring at the picture and how happy we looked. at times I actually miss him. we never really got the chance to take things anywhere because he wanted to have another girl. sometimes I wonder why he even had this made in the first place. I put it back on and curled up in fetal position and slowly drifted off to sleep.

*Brandun's POV*
I cant believe this nigga got me running after him.! I don't know how many times I gotta tell these fools if you make me run its gonna be worst. as I get close I notice my lil homie kae-c had already caught up to him and body slammed him on the concrete. I slowed my pace and when I got up there me and brian went straight in on his ass. stomping and punching his ass for making us run. then we drug him to the abandon building around the corner to really get to what needed to be addressed.
"you know you fuxked up my nigga." I said to him whim lightening a cigarette.
"come on now b more let me explain." he begged.
"aint no more time for explaining rondell I told yo ass to stop fuxking with my money and look at you still doing the same shyt then to stop it off you ran."
"b-more please imam get your money I just need a little more time."
"your time is up playa."
"come on man I got a family I need to take care of."
"don't care. aye yo ghost." I said turn towards the open door as my ruthless partner ghost came in.
"what up B.?"
"he's all yours." as soon as I said those words ghost had a huge yet evil grin on his face as he walked towards rondell.
"B PLEASE MAN DONR DO THIS TO ME.!!!" I ignored rondell's plea and brian and I began walking out the door. you could hear his cries of pain like a alarm waking you up in the morning.
as we got in the care brian immediately needed to speak.
"aye B my uncle wants to put us in with his people in cuba."
"I don't need no new kind of weed to keep my customers."
"no nigga this aint no weed its better."
"what is it.?"
"coke and im talking pure cocaine."
"dude don't your uncle live in LA.?'
"yea so.?"
"nigga how we suppose to get that here.?
"my unc has connections. it will be here with no problem." I thought about it for a minute. I mean that is a whole lot of money that I could really use. but then again if was to get caught weed would give me less time then that shyt.
"let me think on that and get back with you." by now we were at brian's house and he was getting out.
"iight man just let me know."
after days of thinking I agreed and we went to LA to see brains uncle and it was official.

*THREE YEARS LATER*
man shyt couldn't be more better for me now. making that deal with brian's uncle was the smartest thing I have were done. I never knew there were so many crackheads in this city until I started this shyt.. and now that me and my niggas is set I decided to spoil myself with a new dogde charger SRT8 and got B-More in the head rests. and seven stash spots installed as well. after I picked my car up I got a call from kae-c school about a meeting they needed to have with me. kae-c lied to them people and said I was his older brother and current guardian while his parents were gone. I got to that meeting and when they told me his ass was selling weed in the bathroom I almost knocked the fuxk outta him. we left out the school and I immediately went off on his ass.
"nigga what were thinking doing that shyt here.?"
"man b I didn't know the lil nigga was a snitch. I always sell to him."
"yea in the streets. nigga you could have been arrested today."
"I know but-" he paused because some girls bumped into us.
"oh I am so sorry I didn't mean to do that." that voice. I remember that voice.
"renee.?"
"how do you know my name.?" she said not looking at me yet and still collecting her things.
"look up and find out." as she began to realize who I was she dropped her stuff again and hugged me.
" I cant believe your here." she said.
"I didn't know you went here."
"yea this is it." she giggled. "what are you doing here.?"
"oh my little homie told yall principle I was his guardian until his parents came back from outta town."
"that's funny."
"yea it is. what are you about to do now.?"
"um go home."
"that's it.?"
"yea and do some homework."
"oh yea that's gonna wait til later come with me."
"where's you woman im pretty sure Im the last one she wants near you."
"we aint together no more."
"are you sure.?"
"positive."
"iight imma stay." we got in the car and speed off down the road.
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runt it

author's side note ok so she is now 13 in the 7th grade...she's trying to get to being and acting her age since she had to grow up quick but every time she tries something always tries to pull her back to that side of her

forreal he need to listen to jamel cuz what he said is true and im so glad nae aint fall for it cuz he still healing and he aint ready for another relationship. she need to do her and not date tip like high school she just too young for all that! lol
run it

again... she too damn young for this!
got me conflicted!

girl I have seen worst for little
league cheerleading teams lol

any more runs.?

day by day I am able to let go of michael and its so peaceful. I never thought in a million years I would be head cheerleader for the junior league football team and a math tutor. Michael would flip if he ever saw me in any type of mini skirt and lets just say these uniforms are quite revealing. hell uncle joe almost pulled me out when he saw them but the coach begged him to let me stay since im pretty much the one making up majority of the cheers. john and I have really gotten so much closer. he was kinda upset that I broke up with Michael, seeing that I never told him or uncle joe that Michael was hitting me, but eventually he got over it and its been good ever since. me and my girls have been doing great as well. we are all in the 7th grade well except sammy, she's a sophomore in high school now and her dad even got her a car for 16th birthday. I love them to death and im glad they are in my life because I don't know what I would do with out them. oh and lets not forget to mention that I've kinda been seein brandun now. ever since that night at the movies he has never left my side. he says it was fate that brought us together and he was never letting go. at first I was kinda thrown off but him and why he wanted me of all the girls out here that are not so messed up and although he never gave me an answer he showed me he cared with every action, gesture, and kind act he did for me daily.
for my 13th birthday brandun took me,lania,kaydn,alana,and asia to the skating rink then applebees. then the next day he took me to the mall and got me this diamond incrested locket necklace. it had a picture of us in it and on the back he engraved 'the heart of Brandun Jerome Shane.' it was so beautiful and it brought a tear to my eye.
anyways, its been a few weeks since then and i havent seen brandun because hes been sick with the flu, so i decided to have sammy take me over to his house to see if he was feeling better.
"so have you even called him to let him know your coming.?"
"well no, but dont nobody but me and now you knows where this spot is so who else would be coming to see him except me." sammy shook her head obviously judging me but i really didnt care.
we pulled up to his house and my stomach was in knots. i got to the door and knocked. after about five minutes and girl answered the door.
"hey is brandun---" i stopped midsentence when i noticed two things about this hoe. one, she was mugging a little too hard asking for me to tap that ass and two, the bytch had on the shirt to the outfit i got him to wear on my birthday, so to say that im pissed was an understatement.
"is brandun here i need to talk to him like right now.!"
"and who the fuxk are you.?" she had the nerve to ask.
"that aint none of your concern just get the fuxk out my way." this c**k-eyed bytch had the nerve to roll her eyes and smack her lips at me but she made sure she gave me room to come in the door. i motioned for sammy to wait for me and i walked in towards his room.
"baby who ever it is at the door tell em to just fuxking leave. me and you got some unfinished business to handle." i heard him say. when i finally got to his room i found him handcuffed to his bed butt ass naked.
"hm and here i was thinking the exact same thing about unfinished business." as soon as he heard my voice his eyes popped open so big i thought they were gonna come right out his head.
"renee its not what you think. let me explain"
"you fuxking piece of shyt scumbag." i dived on him punching him and slapping him.
"SHYT.! STOP RENEE.! DAMN.! STOP DAMNIT.!" i got up and picked up my purse.
"fuxk you brandun jerome shane. i dont need this shyt from you. i hope yo sorry ass catches something from that dirty looking bytch." before i left the c**k-eyed bytch called herself trying to rush me but needed up running straight into a strong ass left hook. to show her exactly who she was fuxking with i beat her ass all the way to sammy's car then got that bytch on the ground and kicked her in the jaw until i heard that bytch crack.! a little something i picked up from michael when we use to play fight before the real hitting started to happen.
"renee get yo crazy ass in this car before you go to jail." sammy said looking at me like she was so shocked by my actions.
"girl lets get the fuxk outta here.!" i got in the car and as we pulled away I came to the conclusion that maybe im just not meant to be loved by anyone. because when ever I think they love me they always end up hurting me. so im done with relationships all together for a while.
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run it.!!!!

Girl im prode of u run it

sorry there was an error.!!!! bradun shane is TYGA.!

i woke up in the hospital with brandun by my side. he told me i got four stitches over my eye, my left wrist was broken, my jaw was fractured, and i had three broken ribs. thankfully thougg, brandun couldnt tell them my last name so uncle joe and john werent called. but somehow lania, kaydn, asia, and sammy were there too.
"hey guys what yall doing here.? how'd yall find me.?"
"i was at the movies last night with emily and i saw brandun carrying you out." lania told me.
"yall didnt call john did you.?"
"yes i did and hes on his way but you gotta tell us what happened." kaydn told me.
"i got jumped by these squad bytches for talking to him." i squeezed his hand so he knew not to say nothing. lania could tell i was lying out of all my girls she was the only one who knew michael hit me and i wanted to keep it that way.
we all talked a little more and when john and uncle joe came everybody left. the doctors told me i had to stay for another two days for more test. john stayed with me the whole time
michael never showed his face or even called but brandun was there everyday. he almost didnt even let me leave on my release day. he is so sweet and he really showed he cared even though he barely knew me.
after being home about a week with no call from michael i decided to go see him. the swelling in my face went down so all you can see is the black eye and the bruise on my cheek. i also had a cast on my hand and i was limping a little.
when i got there his mom answerd the door.
"oh my renee honey what happened.?" she said looking so devastated and almost in tears.
"your son ms. harris. we need to talk, please tell me your alone."
"yes baby i am come in here and tell me what happened." we walked in the living room, sat down and i told her everything, including all the times hes hit me before.
"aw renee baby im so sorry. i cant believe that son of mine was treating you like this." she was so hurt.
"its my own fault for letting it happen this long. i just thought maybe things would get better and they did for a while then this happened." she embraced me and allowed me to cry on her shoulder then the door opened.
"hey mom where you at.?" when he saw us together it was like he saw a ghost.
"renee.? what you doing here baby aint you suppose to be on bed.?" he came close and tried to kiss me but his mom stopped him.
"what you doing momma.?"
"keep yo dumb ass away from her. i should beat the fuxk outta you myself. i didnt raise you like this boy. "
"what you talking bout momma.?" he said tryna play confused.
"you know exactly what im talking about. look at her michael. how could you do this.?"
"bytch you told my mom on me." he said giving me a death stare. his mom slapped the shyt outta him.
"you watch your fuxking mouth boy. now look at me. if i i catch you near her or if she ever tells me you put your hands on her again then thats yo ass. do you understand me.?" he looked at me and if looks could kill then i woulda been on fire right about now.
"boy im talking to you. do you understand.? " she said grabbing his chin making him look at her.
"yes ma'am." with that he walked to his room.
"renee let jamal take you home. you and michael need to cool it for a while you know that right.?"
"ms. harris im so done with him. i just wanna move on and erase him from my life."
"i understand that honey. dont erase me though." she hugged me saying.
"i wont, i promise."
leaving that house and michael alone is what best for me. i need to be depending on myself and becoming a stronger person. i gotta start thinking about myself now.
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run it.!!!!

~Two Years Later~
this year itself has already brought on so much stress. my mother is out and keeps trying to make me move back in with her even though i truely just dont feel safe being alone with her just yet. michael and i are growing apart and he is becoming more violent. i've already had a broken arm, five black eyes, seven busted lips, a fractured rib, and countless bruises all over my arms and back. i've left him ten times since we've been together and each time it only lasted about a week or even less because of the love we share, plus i dont know what i'd do without him in my life.
on our second year anniversary we made love for the very first time and it was amazing. i met him at his aunt darleen's house because she gave him the house for the weekend. he had all the lights cut out and only had candles lit. once i got to the room i was so shocked when i saw what he did to the bed . he had kc &jojo playing and i felt so special.
"baby i know we had our bad times and all but my love for you never dies, it only grows stronger. so tonight i want you to forget about the past and all the heartache and pain and call this your first time and our new beginning." i was crying and smiling so touched by the words he spoke to me. i love him so much and now i love him even more.
he lead me to the bed and took off each piece of clothing i had on so carefully and slowly then layed me on the bed and took off all his clothes.he kissed me softly then stopped for a second and just stared at me.
"why are you looking at me like that.?" i said kinda feeling uncomfortable.
"because you look so beautiful i'm just savoring this moment." he climbed back on top of me and kissed me passionately. he put a condom on and began to slowly ease inside of me stopping when he saw that i was in pain and kissing away the tears i shedd. after about ten minutes the pain went away and i began to enjoy the moment just as much as he was. he was so gentle about it. we lasted about an hour and forty-five minutes and then he carried me into the bathroom and we took a bath together and then we went back to bed peacefully.
the next morning i woke up to michael doing his morning line of coke at the edge of the bed. i know i shouldnt even accept this but hey what can i do about it.? i crawled down to him and put my arms around him and kissed his neck.
"GET THE FUXK OFF ME GIRL.! DAMN .!" he yelled shaking me off him.
"come on now please dont start this today.!"
"shut up with that whinny shyt right now kuz i dnt feel like hearing it."
"whatever then. i dont need this shyt. hit me up when you sober up michael." i said putting my pants on. i got up to get my stuff together to leave but michael quickly got up and slapped me across my face.
"where do you think your going renee.? did i say you could leave.? HUH.?" he hit me again. "answer me girl. did i say you could leave.?" now he had me in the air by my arms shaking me.
"no michael you didnt." i answered crying. he threw me back down.
"didnt think so. now sit there until i say move."
"i shoulda known all that shyt you said last night was bullshyt just so you can get the puccy."
"didnt i say shut your fuxking mouth.?"
i did what he said afraid he may hit me again.

its been five months since that situation happened and i can honestly say michael has improved his behavior. he kept his word to not hit me anymore and he's begun to let me chill more with my girls. today for his birthday we were going out for dinner and a movie.
at dinner i gave him this 16 carat gold chain and bracelet set uncle joe picked out. he really loved it and i was glad to put a smile on his face. everything was going grat until we got to the movies and were in line for our drinks.
while waiting i notice this guy behind us staring me down. he looked to be about 17 or 18 years old and was obvious why he was looking at me. i mean when i first got with michael i had no type of shape to me but now at the age of 12 and i've filled out perfectly. the boy was not too bad looking himself. he was with three other dudes and i guess michael noticed who i was staring at because he immediately snatched me up and drug me into the hall.
"why is it that everytime we go somewhere you have to act like that.?"
"like what im not doing anything."
"bytch i seen yhu looking at that nigga so dont play me like im stupid renee."
"michael im not doing anything and he was looking at me so i looked back. relax, this is your day so lets enjoy the rest of the night please."
he cooled down and we went back to the line. by now the dudes were in front of us and michael pulled me close to his side. each time i tried to move his grip got tighter.
"michael your hurting me," he didnt care. "let me go now.!" i pushed him away and it seemed like he was about to hit me but he changed his mind and walked away to the room our movie was playing in.
"excuse me sweetheart i dont mean to be in your business but i just thought i'd let you know your too pretty to be putting up with him." the guy who was staring at me said.
"well i apprieate your advice but we're good. he's just a little upset right now but he'll get over it."
"if you dont mind me asking, can i know why.?"
"he thought i was flirting with you and that you want me."
"well he's right about one thing, i do want you. the question now is when will you let me have you beacuse if you were mine you wouldnt have to worry about me being jealous. i know if a nigga looking at my woman she must be a baddie and sweetheart are just that"
"im flattered but i love my man and would never leave him." he laughed.
"well my name is brandun shane but my friends call me B-More. can i know yours.?"
"its renee. i heard stories about you from my friend."
"really.?" he said with a smile. "like what.?"
"you sell the best dro in columbus." he laughed.
"yeah that's me." then outta no where i feel a strong hand grab the back of my neck and start pulling me away from the line.
"BYTCH WHAT THE FUXK YOU THINK YOU DOING.!" michael yells as he drags me to the restrooms yelling about how im disrespecting him and how he's tired of me. as soon as we got in the mens room he punched me in the face.
"no please.! you said you wouldnt hit me anymore.!" i cried crawling away from him.
"SHUT UP BYTCH.! IMMA TEACH YOU NOT TO DISRESPECT ME IN PUBLIC ANYMORE.!" with that he began punching me over and over then he got up and locked the door and took off his belt.
"michael please stop.! im sorry just stop.!" he ignored my pleds and pulled off my pants and began beating me with his belt buckle. he finished off with four kicks to my stomach and once in my jaw.
"i bet you wont fuxk up again now will you.? SPEAK BYTCH.!"
i couldnt say anything because i was too busy crying and coughing up blood.
"SHUT UP AND GET YO ASS UP.! LAYING THERE LIKE I KILLED YO DUMB ASS. GET UP.!" he said putting his belt back on and opening the door. right when he turned around brandun was at the door and when he saw me he attacked michael. he pulled out his gun and began pistol whipping him. it took ten people to get him off michael and into the hallway.
"let me get my girl yo." brandun yelled shaking everybody off him. he came back and gently scoped me up into his arms.
"its ok renee i got you." was all i heard before i blacked out.
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RUN IT.!!!

*The Truth Revealed*
its going on the seventh month since michael and i have been together and honestly i counldnt be more happier. but at the same time michael is not the same person he use to be. he has started being very aggressive and wanted to control where i was and who i was with. he has even hit me before. well that wasnt entirely his fault because i need break a promise i made with him.
on another note, in about two months or so my mother will be getting out of jail but then she has to report to the halfway house and be there for like eight months so they can make sure she's gonna stay clean. she wrote me a letter saying she wanys me to move back in with her when she got back on her feet but im not so sure about that so i never responded.
today michael is suppose to be taking me out somewhere to make up for missing our date last week. he got to my house at around noon and we ended up having a nice little picnic at franklin park. we also took a tour in the conservatory. after all that we put down a blanket and just chilled in the grass.
"renee you are so beautiful. you dont know how happy you make me feel everyday im with you." he said stroking my face.
"aw baby thats so sweet. i never thought in a million years i would ever let a man get closer to me after what happened but you, i just feel safe.." i said laying down on his lap.
"baby what happened that made you not wanna be with men.?" i was stuck for a second because i forgot i never told him about my past.
"huh.?" i said pretending like i didnt hear him.
"i heard what you just said renee so just tell me. we've been through alot lately but you know you can trust me baby. i love you."
"you what.?" hearing those words for the first time made my heart race. i've been waiting so long for him to say that.
"i love you girl."
"baby i love you too." with that i crawled up to him and kissed him long and hard.
"so tell me what happened baby."
"ok, a year or so ago my mother traded me for drugs from her supplier. dude was mad crazy. it lasted like five minutes but only because john came in and killed the guy. that night we moved in with john's friend josh and his mom. we where there for a long time before they made us move in with uncle joe. we never told uncle joe everything that happened because he would have sent me away somewhere and maybe even tell the police what john did causing him to get in trouble and we just couldnt imagine being apart from each other." i had a fear tears in my eyes recalling the days i was with my mom.
"so where is she now and where is your old man.?"
"she's in jail for now but aparently she's about to be getting out on good behavior soon but then she has to go to a halfway house. and as far as my father goes i cant even remember what the man looks like. he ran out on us when i was five aint heard from him since."
"wow baby you just been through somethings i see."
"yea but now its all looking up from here now that i have you."
"and trust me baby i aint going no where."
"and neither am i." we kissed and decided to lay back and enjoy our view of the kids playing and everything else around us.
after about twenty more minutes at the park we packed up and headed to his house so i could finally meet his mother. as we got closer i became nervous about what she may ask me and how she may think of me. it seemed michael could sense my fear because he immediately grabbed me and pulled me close telling me everything would alright and that i had nothing to worry about and that i should loosen up.
we get in the house and he immediately runs to the kitchen so i just make myself comfortable in the livingroom.
"renee come on she's in here." he came back saying after about ten minutes.
"mom this is renee flowers my girlfriend and renee this is my mother lillian harris .
"nice to meet you ms. harris." i attempted to shake her hand but she never looks my direction.
"ooookaay. imma leave you two ladies alone for a while. mom where's jamal.?"
"in the basement." and with that he was gone. his mother was cutting up vegetables for what looked like a stew. since thats one of my favorite things to cook i knew we would click.
"ms.harris would you like some help.?" i asked about to wash my hands.
" no thank you. just sit at the table for a second." i did as she asked kinda disappointed at the same time. after she got done with everything she came and sat across from me.
"so lets get right to this, how did you meet my son.?" she said wiping her hands with her towel.
"i was trying to get in the corner store and he wouldn't let me. then when he finally did he followed me around the whole store until i agreed to give him my number." i replied smiling a bit replaying the events of that day in my head.
"how old are you.?"
"i'll be ten in three months. i hope your not thrown off by the whole age difference thing because age shouldn't matter if you love somebody."
"what do your people have to say about the difference.?"
"they dont mind. i mean they did at first but after they saw how good we were together they acceptes us."
"is that so.?"
"yes ma'am michael and my older brother john even became really good friends when i introduced him to my family a few months back."
we went on talking for about another hour or so. it felt really nice having a woman to talk to about things. talking to ms. harris made me realize that i really miss ms. townsend. alot. all in all the night went great and she shows that she could grow to truly care about me. but even if she doesnt i still will be with michael.
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run it.!!!