??? every morning I wake up and im remined of tha fact that your no longer here, and every day I cry for you its so hard living life with out you. I never thought life would be so hard once you were gone but now I see first hand and its harder then I'd ever imaged it would be. Im trying to stay strong for jerimiah josh and ebony but it aint easy. I hear tha pain in their voice and I feel so bad because I don't know the words to say to help them feel better. I miss everyrhing about you mom, your smile your voice...I've learnd how precious life really is and how valuable time really is because if I had been just an hour earlyer I would have gotton the chance to tell you how much I love you and how much you mean to me. I need you now the most to keep me strong and to guide me in the right direction but now your gone and I have to figure it out on my own. You gave your life to give us the best and to give us a chance at life and I promise you to make the best out of the time I have left I promise I won't let you down. Even tho times were very hard for us I wouldn't have traded you for anyone else. You mean the world to me and I was proud to have you as my mother. I know your still here with me because at times when I feel like giving up I can feel you giving me the strenth to keep going. I love you and I can't wait for the day the lord blesses me with seeing you again. May you rest in peace. ???