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<a href=>Jay</a> walked outside and blew warmth into his palms as the chilly evening air whipped across his face. He dug his hands in his pockets and walked down the empty block. He got to his post and stood there, looking in both directions. It had been a year. He was well on his way to a promotion, so he didn't sweat the lonely nights. He pulled out his iPhone and went through his contacts. He stopped on Monique's name, just as a young guy approached. He looked to be about 15. Jay looked him in the face and nodded.

"Mookie sent me." The guy said.

Jay dug in his pocket and handed him a dime bag. The dude handed him a crumpled twenty and walked off down the street. Jay pressed Monique's name and put the phone to his ear. Her voice broke the silence surrounding him and he looked down the street, as he leaned up against the building he shared this corner with.

"What you doin tonight?" He asked, his tone of voice implying that he wanted to see her.

"Mm, nothing if you tryna come through." She said.

"Be up when I call." He said, hanging up the phone and putting it back in his pocket.

He sighed and looked up at the sky and marveled at the number of stars he could count tonight. He wondered what was up there. He wondered who was sharing this view with him this evening.


3 miles to the north, <a href=>Selena</a> looked up at the stars and wished that she was there. She looked back at the crowd of kids surrounding the swimming pool, celebrating graduation. She spotted <a href=>Narvin</a> and his eyes were glued to her. She turned away and sighed. She heard his footsteps behind her on the concrete. He put his hand on her lower back and she stepped away.

"Are you crazy? What are you doing?" She asked, looking at him.

"I haven't heard from you." He said.

"I didn't know this was something I'd committed to." She said, frowning at him.

"So what? What happened doesn't mean anything to you?" He asked.

"No. She's my best friend, Narvin." Selena snapped.

"Can I have everyone's attention!"

Selena heard her best friend <a href=>Chelsea's</a> voice and she shivered.

"I wanna thank everyone for coming! Thanks to everyone who has ever been there for me. We're graduating you guys! This is huge. I've had so many good times with everyone out here. I'm gonna miss everyone. I really wanna thank my best friend Selena and my boyfriend Narvin for being there when I needed them. I love the both of you. I don't know who I'd be without you guys." She said.

Narvin smiled and Selena's face swelled with tears. She stared blankly back at her best friend and then at the sky. She didn't want to be here anymore.


Selena knocked softly on Shane's door and waited for him to open it. He came to the door finally, shirtless and eating a piece of bacon. <a href=>He</a> simply left the door open and walked back into the house. Selena walked inside and shut the door. He plopped down on the couch and put the TV on mute.

"f*** you here for?" He said finally, looking over at her.

"First off, cut the defensive bulls***." She said, sitting down across from him. "You cheated on Charity with Chelsea. That's wrong on SO many levels, Shane."

"You don't think I know that? Shut up dude." He said, shaking his head.

"No I'm not gonna shut up until you make some sense for once! Nothing you say ever f***ing adds up Shane. You want a good girl, but you treat Charity like s***." She said.

"I ain't s***." He responded.

"BUT YOU CAN BE, SHANE! That's what makes me so mad. You don't have to be an a**hole. You choose to be one. You don't see what that does to her?" Selena asked, her face swelling with emotion. "Those moments when she used to find a way to smile and she just doesn't anymore? You took away the sunshine in her face, Shane."

Shane sat back on the couch and let his eyes fall to the floor, "But she seem cool."

"Of course. She wants to save face with you...and me. But I see the difference. Her peaking over your shoulder when you're on your phone. Searching for your text 10 seconds after she sent it. She seems so...insecure and it scares me because I see myself. Charity was always stronger than me...but you had the power to take that from her and you <em>did</em>. That's why I'm so mad at you..." Selena said.

"I hear what you sayin and...I appreciate all of the love that you have for my girl but Selena, I would never do this s*** intentionally. Like, Chelsea gave me dome. s*** wasn't even supposed to happen. She was over here for Narvin or some s***. I come out of the bathroom and she pushin' all up on me, like, I'm sorry. I haven't built up that level of restraint yet and I'm still bound to f*** up. I just need Charity to deal with a nigga. I'm tryin man." He said.

"I just want her to be happy again...and I think that you can provide that I just, wish that you'd take better care of her. Weren't so careless with her feelings. I think you overestimate her resiliency." Selena said softly.

Shane nodded, letting her words sink in. "I know. Don't think that it was Chelsea 'cause I really wanted to f*** up, like, if she hadn't been there, I woulda be cool. It had nothing to do with who it was for real, just how it happened. And I apologize. Immensely." He said, making eye contact with Selena.

"Good. I just wanted to have this convo with you could see where I was coming from." She said.

"I'm with you." He responded. "I love you and...we're gonna disagree sometimes. I just wish you'd talk to me before you immediately thought the worse of me. Like let me explain myself. I can't justify why I did what I did coulda been a s*** load worse. I'll say that much." He responded.

She nodded and sighed, "...Well, I guess this is kind of irrelevant right now but I was hoping that you'd do something for me."

"What's that?" He asked.

She smiled a little, "Be in my wedding." She said softly.

He smirked and grabbed another piece of bacon, "I guess man."

Selena hugged James tightly and pulled back, looking up at him.

"I love you so much hubby." She said.

"I love you too, wifey." He responded, pecking her lips. "Don't be f***in with no other niggas down here Selena. I got eyes around here, watching. Waiting for you to f*** up."

"That's settling." She responded, grabbing her bags from the trunk.

"I got eyes too." She responded, "Make sure Milan's off of your radar."

"She is man." He said, shutting the trunk. "I'll be down here next weekend." He said, smiling.

She pecked his lips once more and smiled, "I love you James."

"Love you too." He said, walking around to the other side of the car and getting in.

Selena walked into her apartment building and got on the elevator. When she got upstairs, Shane and Charity were on the couch. Selena tossed Shane a look and smiled at Charity. Charity hopped up and hugged Selena.

"Hey wife-to-be!!!" She shrieked.

"Hi!" Selena said, hugging her tightly.

Shane stood up and grabbed his keys. "Babe I'm about to go." He said.

Selena cut her eyes at him and slung her bags over her shoulder.

"Don't f***in look at me like that Selena." He said.

"You really ain't s***." Selena said.

Charity sighed, "Seriously? Shane, I'll see you tomorrow." She said, pecking his lips.

Shane kissed Charity and shook his head at Selena before he left. Charity shut the door and looked at Selena.

"It honestly hurts me to my core to see y'all fighting like this..." She said softly.

"I'm so mad at him right now." Selena said, walking down the hall to her room. "He really cheated on you...with Chelsea. I can't even, start to wrap my head around the magnitude of that."

Charity stood at the door, "I found it in my heart to forgive him so you have to too." She said.

Selena shook her head, "No I don't."

"I did for you." Charity responded softly.

Selena nodded and lied back on the bed, "I'll think about it."

Selena and James lie awake that night, silently. She turned over on her side, facing him.

"Are you still upset?" She whispered.

He looked over at her, "I ain't mad. Lowkey hurt though. My mom was the first person I called. I just feel like...when it comes to your mom, you're still ashamed of the fact that we're together, 'cause I'm not who she pictured for you."

"I'm not ashamed." Selena said, sitting up and shaking her head. "I <em>love</em> you. I'm not ashamed of you, by any means. I just have to respect how she feels...even if I don't like it."

He shrugged and looked back at the ceiling, "I don't know Selena." He said softly.

Selena sighed and stood up, grabbing her phone. James smacked his lips from the bed.

"Childish." He mumbled. "Always runnin from s***."

She left the room and went out into the living room. She sat down on the couch and dialed her mom's number. Her mom answered on the third ring sleepily.

"Selena is something wrong?" She asked.

"No, I'm okay." Selena responded, pulling at the threading in her shorts. "I just had something to share with you."

Selena could hear her mother readjusting in bed, "Okay. What's on your mind?"

"...James and I are engaged." Selena said softly.

Her mom fell quiet and she heard a small sigh escape her mother's lips, "Did you pick a date?"

Selena heard her mother moving around in her room, and she was a little thrown off by the question, "Yeah, um, August 14th."

"The 14th? Okay..." Her mom said. "Well, I'll come down in February and we can, look at dresses and flower arrangements. I'll contact Vanessa, you know she's a wedding planner."

"Ma, wait. First, James and I can't afford a wedding planner. Second, why are you so...okay with this?" Selena asked.

"To answer the second question, you're my daughter. You love James and it's obvious that he loves you too. I can't fault him for he did in the past because you ultimately forgave him. I have to learn to, too. To answer the first, I'm paying for the wedding Selena. That's my job." She said.

"No it's not. Mom I-" Selena started.

"Don't fight this. I'm paying for the wedding Selena. Congratulations honey. I love you. Have a safe trip in the morning, okay?" She said.

"Um...yeah, I love you too." Selena said, hanging up the phone and looking around the room.

She walked back down the hall and James opened his eyes. Selena stood at the door.

"I talked to her..." She said.

"What she say?" He asked.

"..She's gonna pay for the wedding." Selena said, walking towards the bed and getting beneath the covers.

James rolled over and smirked. "And you were worried."

"Shut up." She responded, sighing.

He wrapped his arms around her and buried his face in her hair. She wrapped her arms around him and kissed his forehead. She smirked.

"Wanna do something for me?" She asked.

"What?" He asked, kissing her neck.

Selena pulled off her shorts and threw them on the floor. James met her gaze and bit her bottom lip.

"You look hungry." She responded, laughing.

He crossed his eyes and covered his head with the cover. They readjusted and Selena waited patiently, before she felt his tongue. She palmed his head with her hand and let a few moans escape. James came up after like 5 minutes and she punched him. He shook his head and pulled out his d***.

"I'm honestly not about to just eat you." He said, grabbing and condom and slipping it on. "I need you to do something for me too." He responded, entering her.

Now that James was engaged, he felt like he had to step his game up as a companion. He cooked dinner 4 nights that last week when Selena was home, and he tried listening to her random ass thoughts at 3 in the morning, when he usually just slept with his eyes open. It was their last night together before she went back to school and she was in the living room, writing music and eating ice cream. James was in his room watch ESPN when he stopped and turned the TV off. Selena would be leaving in the morning and they were in different rooms. He stood up and walked out into the living room. She smiled up at him from the couch.

"Hi baby." She said softly.

<a href=>He</a> walked over to the couch and plopped down next to her.

"What you doin?" He asked softly, looking over at her.

She shut her book and put it on the table, "Spending time with you."

He smiled and pecked her lips. She lied her head on his shoulder and put her legs in his lap.

"I don't want you to leave." He said, running his fingers over her engagement ring.

"Me neither." She said softly. "I'm getting...tired of this." She said, lifting her head and looking at him. "And to think that we have another 18 months of this...not having a home together."

He nodded, "I know. I was thinking about maybe, transferring after this year and just, paying to cancel my lease, you know? Get a place down there." He said, looking her in the eye. "I'll go wherever to be closer to you."

She smiled and straddled him.

"Let's have drunk sex." She said.

"What? Yo dumb ass. We're sober." He responded.

"Well...I wanna get drunk." She responded.

"No. I have to drive you back in the morning. You remember what happened that one time? That faggot Phil had to take you back." He said.

Selena punched him in the arm, "You hit like a girl." He responded, shutting his eyes and lying his head back. "What did your mom say about the engagement?"

Selena fell silent. He opened his eyes and looked her in the face. He knew immediately.

"Get off me." He said, angered.

Selena got off of him and he stood up, shaking his head. "Why haven't you told her?" He asked evenly.

She shrugged, "...I have a feeling that she'll be angry with me."

"When has making your mom mad ever stopped you, Selena? She was angry that you wanted to be with me from jump and you still are so what is her being mad honestly going to do?" He asked.

"James, you don't understand how I feel, okay? My dad's not around anymore. I'm all she has. I can't...put that in jeopardy." She said.

"So in other words, if she is angry, you're gonna call off the engagement?" He asked.

"No that's not what I'm saying, James. I'm just afraid to tell her..." She said, looking up at him.

James shrugged, "I'm going to watch TV."

Adding now.

Whoa! I meant to add the other day lol. I'm so sorry. There will be an add this weekend!

Omg I hope they make it.

i love selena and james together. i think they are so cute. Im glad they got back together (i know im late but i haven't been on in a while) and are engaged!! i hope they dont screw it up by doing something stupid...

Are We Getting An Add Tonight!!!;) RUN IT

awww! james proposed :) I'm so happy for them
run it

Runnnnnnnn hunn :)

Adding this evening!

Runnnnn It

Awww , omg yess I loved this add
Run it

Runnnnnnnn ittttttttttt


Please Tonight Because I Can't Wait Any Longer:) RUN IT

thanks readers! There will be an add tonight or tomorrow night

That last statement means more trouble may be ahead for the couple....hmm !
run it girl!

awwww! i known they will make it to august they r too cute n so meant for eachother!

Omg they are so freaking adorable lol I know they'll make it to Aug i have faith in them even if they are faced with problems i know they'll overcome it togetherl

That was so sweet
Their engaged
Selena thought that Jay forgot about her
She shouldnt of got upset though
Christmas isn't about the gifts anyway
But anywhoo that was so sweet
Run it

thanks readers (:

aw run it! she thought he forgot!

Awww, they are now engaged. :D
I'm so excited, James proposal was great.
It seemed like all he said meant to much,
it was true & not just made up to sound good.
I have a feeling, they gonna make it, of course
they gonna be stressed, argue because of stuff
and the wedding process, it's normal. They just
have to hold on! :)

Omgosh James Is An a**hole:)But I Love Him && Selena Together!!! Selena Shouldn't Be Worried Because Her And James Are Meant To Be Together!!!:)RUN IT

Awe, I am so happy for them! YaY!
Almost had my eyes watering!
They are so hiliarous together!
They have been thou it and back!
Awe, @ I'm glad I walked into McDonalds!

And, Aye don't she dare! Why she say that? We just got to make to then?? Why just why?

OMG That was beautiful. Again I'm so glad thy're together. I like that when they argue now, they don't hold onto it for long especially Jmaes he's rights his wrongs and apologizes before things go to far, love that. Aww Selena thought he didn't get her anything for xmas, bet she had egg all over her face when she saw that ring in that box lol. James proposal was sweet, and Im glad Selena went into that McDonalds as well lol. So an August wedding huh, I really do hope they make to that day too, I understand Selena has her worries but I hope she stays positive. Loved the add Carmen. It was sooooooo worth the wait. RUN IT!!!

Run it

enjoy (:

James rolled over one morning to find Selena up, with a stack of wedding magazines.

"What...the f***." James mumbled.

Selena looked over at him and smiled, "I'm just looking, that's all." She said.

"If you say so." He said, sitting up.

Selena knew that James wasn't as excited about the actual planning process. He just needed to know when he had to be there and what he had to say. She looked over at him, as he slipped into his slippers.

"Hey it too early to pick a date?" She asked.

He shrugged, "No I guess not." He responded. "I want it in summer."

"Before or after I graduate?" She asked.

James hadn't thought about that. "s***, if it's after, we got like what? 18 months? Hell naw!" He said, shaking his head.

"Okay. Then how about next August?" She said, smiling over at him.

He nodded, "Next August." He responded, leaving the room.

Selena smiled and pulled out the planner that she'd bought. She put her finger on a random Saturday and smiled. "August 14th." She said softly to herself.

She looked around the room and thoughts came rushing at her. Her smile faded. "...We've just gotta make it there..." She whispered.