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<a href=>Channing</a> stood at the top of the bleachers and watched as her <a href=>brother</a> took his last shot in the gym. She looked down at her watch.

"Hey!" She called. He looked up at his sister and then down at the ball in his hands. "We've gotta go. C'mon."

He dropped the ball and walked slowly towards the bench where he'd sat his backpack. Channing walked down the bleachers and they met halfway. She rubbed his head and kissed his forehead.

"Did you turn in all of your books?" She asked.

He nodded, "Yeah. I officially don't go here anymore." He said, looking up at her.

She smiled, trying to save face. "Let's hit the road. The movers should be on their way to the house now. It's beautiful, I promise."

He shrugged, "It'll never be home." He mumbled, walking ahead of her.

Channing sighed and followed after her brother. She turned on the radio as they drove out of the school parking lot. Aaron stared lifelessly out of the side view mirror as they drove away from the school. Channing rolled down the windows and got on the highway. Their destination was 400 miles away. 400 miles away from memories. 400 miles away from <em>home</em>.


Awwww, I'm very excitied & thrilled to know they are "together"
& not jumping too quick, I like where this is going, Ryan is the man.

Awww Ryan, made his way back into Channings life, I hope he doesn't dissapoint me again, like all the others. Aww Jasmine likes him He's so good with her. Love how she let him hold her and fell asleep on him ugh he'd be a good father figure to her. Least she didn't kick at him like she did Devin lol. I really hope he aint gone mess up even Aaron's giving him the benefit of the doubt. Man how will Nick and Devin act when they learn Channing's back with Ryan. And I wonder how is Tiny with having a baby in the house? LOVED LOVED LOVED IT.

Guess like Channing, I'M WEAK!!! LOL (sigh) Fine, I'll give him the benefit of the doubt that he'll treat her good this time...

Just have to see how things go I guess...


Aww she and Ryan I'm so happy for her. They make a good couple I think. He just better do right this time. RUN IT

hmmm cute


I think Ryan has learned his lesson

How sweet is that?!!! Awww Ryan is too cute! I like with him Channing. If she had to go back to anyone, I'm glad it's Ryan. I knew was a goner too! It was fate! Jasmine is soooooooo adorable!! Lol I think things are finally turning around for Channing. Aaron is all up in her biz, get a life boy! Lol Run it!!

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It was Friday, and Ryan was supposed to leave Saturday morning. They'd been tiptoeing around each other since that first night. Ryan spent a lot of time with Jasmine, reading to her and watching TV with her. Channing took notice. He played basketball with Aaron in the evenings and a few times she'd seen the two of them sitting on the court, talking. Usually, Aaron was simply listening. For dinner Friday, Mel agreed to watch Jasmine and Aaron had a scrimmage so it was Ryan and Channing left. He was in the living room, watching Seriously Funny while Channing ordered food in the kitchen. She walked into the living room and plopped down next to him. He kept his hands to himself and sat at a distance. Channing put her hair behind her ear and looked over at him.

"How slow are you willing to go?" She asked.

"As slow as you need me to." He responded, his eyes still on the TV.

"I don't even wanna hear about an engagement ring." She said, exhaling.

"Fine." He responded, looking over at her.

She pulled her knees close to her and looked over at him.

"I want, fidelity, Ryan. If you can't do that, don't even think about this...ever." She said, looking him in the eye.

"You're all I want." He said.

"You better mean that." She said, her face serious.

"I mean it." He responded.

Channing looked back at the TV and Ryan smiled and moved closer to her. He placed a sloppy kiss on her cheek and she smiled.

"Gross." She said, wiping her cheek.

He rested his chin on her shoulder and looked up at her.

"I missed you." He said.

She nodded and looked over at him, "Don't tell my mom, okay? She'll call me being a smart ass." Channing said.

"She predicted it, didn't she?" He asked, smiling.

"Yeah." Channing said, looking over at him.

He hugged her tightly, "Wish you could've said something before it was time for me to leave." He said.

"We still have a few hours." Channing said, looking over at him.

He put his arm around her and she wrapped her arms around him. He kissed her forehead repeatedly and she smiled.

"I guess you can change your ringtone." She said.

"I've got something in mind." He said.

Awww i hope she gives him another chance, everybody deserves to be happy

The first night that Ryan was there, she lied awake. She looked at the clock. It was 3:30. She sighed and turned over, like she'd been doing all night. There was a knock at the door and she didn't budge. Ryan opened the door and peaked his head in.

"Channing, you sleep?" He whispered.

"Yeah." She lied.

"Never mind." He whispered.

She turned over and looked at him, "What do you need?" She asked.

"Nothing." He said, standing there and looking at her through the darkness.

She sat up in the bed and nodded, "Come in." She said softly.

He shut the door and walked towards the bed. He sat down on the other side and looked at her. She could only see his silhouette. She smiled sleepily and put her hand on his cheek. He put his hand over her's and debated making his next move. Channing held her face there, searching his through the darkness. He inched in and pecked her lips, his eyes open. Channing didn't move. She was trying not to break, but then, in the dark, with Ryan's cologne surrounding her, she leaned in and kissed him softly. He kissed her back, much more passionate. He got underneath the cover and she lied back. He got in between her legs and leaned down, kissing her deeply. He slid his tongue in and she wrapped her arms around his neck. He broke the kiss and looked down at her. The moon was shining on one side of her face.

"I love you." He said softly.

She cracked. Her eyes began to leak and she shook her head and pushed him off of her.

"You shouldn't be in here." She said.

Ryan sat there, not sure what had just happened.

"Channing." He said.

"Just go, okay? I'll see you in the morning. Goodnight." She said, her back facing him.

He bit his lip and stood up to leave. He left the room and Channing lied back in the bed and covered her face with the comforter. She didn't sleep that night, so when she finally decided to roll out of bed at 11 AM, she crept down the hall to Ryan's room. She stood outside of the room, debating on going in. When she opened the door, he was lying there, staring at the ceiling. His eyes darted towards her.

"Did you sleep okay?" She asked.

"I didn't sleep at all." He responded, sitting up. "I'm confused. What was that?"

She shrugged, "Moment of weakness I guess." She said.

"Or moment of truth." He responded.

"I guess both." She said.

"So if you can't acknowledge my feelings, at least acknowledge yours. It's been 17 months in the dark without you, Channing. Last night was my first shot at light again." He said.

Channing sighed and scratched her head, "I'm sleepy and delusional, so don't hold this against me later but...truth is, I miss you. Um, this is hard for me. I with you but I, I don't want to seem weak." She said.

"Weak? Channing you're one of the strongest women I know. Who takes in a teenage boy and moves to another state to start her career? Not to mention, adopts an infant. With everything, your health, finding out about your mother, Chan, you're not weak." He said, looking her in the eye.

"And I did all of that without you." She said, her eyes watering.

"And I'm so proud of you. I'd never undermine your accomplishments. If anything, I'm your biggest fan. Tell me once when I didn't support you. I was always right there, for everything." He said.

Channing counted the number of blue circles in the carpet, before she thought of something to say.

"Give me a few days to...wrap my head around this. Figure out what all of this means." She said, looking over at him.

"I've waited 17 months. What's a few days?" He said.

Channing nodded and went to check on Jasmine.

aww, Ryan came to visit.

After dinner, Ryan disappeared so Channing finished washing the dishes and got some work done before Aaron got back. He walked in and put his keys down on the table.

"Where Ryan at?" Aaron asked, walking into the kitchen.

"I don't know. I think he's asleep." Channing said, typing away on her laptop.

Aaron grabbed a water and walked into the dining room.

"What ever happened to you and Devin's dinner?" He asked, sitting down at the table.

"We went. We talked. Nothing special." She said, looking over at him.

"He ain't try to get you back?" Aaron asked.

"Nope." Channing responded. "If he did, I didn't take the bait."

"You gonna take Ryan's?" Aaron asked, smirking.

"Absolutely not." She said.

"You don't stand a chance. You were a goner that first night that he called you." He said.

"You know too much about my life." She responded, shaking her head.

When she went upstairs, she went into the guest room to find Ryan <a href=>asleep</a>. She smirked and walked towards him. She stood there for a moment before she leaned over and kissed his temple. A smile fell upon his face. She kneeled down in front of him.

"Good nap?" She asked.

He nodded and yawned, "Is Jasmine awake yet?"

"Yeah. C'mon." Channing said, standing up and leaving the room.

He followed behind her, wiping his eyes. They walked into Jasmine's room, where the TV was on and she was in her crib, standing. Channing picked her up and walked towards Ryan.

"Jasmine, meet Ryan." Channing said, smiling.

Ryan smiled at Jasmine, "Will you come to me?" He asked, holding out his arms.

Jasmine looked at him for a long time and Channing wondered if she'd act the way she did with Devin, but she smiled and leaned towards Ryan. Ryan grabbed her and held her in his arms.

"You're beautiful." He said. He looked at Channing, "Can't believe you got a kid," He said, smiling.

"Me neither." Channing said, leaning up against the door frame.

Aaron walked upstairs and punched Ryan playfully. Ryan dapped him up, Jasmine firmly in his other arm.

"Where you been at?" Aaron asked.

"Channing got a restraining order against me." Ryan said.

"Shut up Ryan." Channing said, smacking her lips.

Jasmine lied her head on Ryan's shoulder and Ryan raised his eyebrows.

"You know I can't leave now, right?" He said, smiling.

"No you're leaving." Channing said, her face serious.

Ryan looked at Channing and their eyes locked.

"Okay, whatever you say, Chan." He said.

"I'm glad you're listening." She responded.

When the door bell rang, Channing took a deep breath and looked in the mirror. She fixed her hair and put on some lipgloss before she walked into Jasmine's room to find her asleep in her crib. She walked downstairs and pulled the door open. <a href=>Ryan</a> stood there with a backpack on his back and a duffel bag in his hand. She smiled a little.

"Hi." She said, looking him in the eye.

"Hi." He responded, before he kissed her forehead and pulled her into a hug.

She pulled him close to her and shut her eyes, taking in his cologne. She pulled back finally and he walked in. She shut the door and he looked around, noticing the toys and other signs of Jasmine scattered through the house.

"Where she at?" He asked, looking at Channing.

"Asleep." Channing said, staring a hole in him.

He walked towards the mantel and looked at the pictures, "Why are you staring?" He asked with is back turned.

"I'm not." She responded quickly, looking away.

"I always know when you are." He said, turning around and walking towards the steps. "Where my room at?"

He walked upstairs and Channing showed him the guest room. He put his bag down and tried out the bed.

"This straight. How close is it to your's?" He asked, smirking.

"We're on opposite ends...purposely." She said, folding her arms and standing near the door.

He shrugged and played with the pendant on his necklace, "Afraid that you'll wanna sleep next to me, when you get cold?" He asked, smiling.

"That's what covers are for." She said softly.

He sat up and nodded. Channing smirked.

"Do you still have a ringtone for me?" She asked.

"Nope." He responded quickly, pulling out his phone.

Channing knew that he was lying so she called him. "All Back" by Chris brown started to play and Channing raised her eyebrows.

"Well...that's awkward." She said, ending the call and putting in her back pocket.

"When we were engaged, it was Make Me Whole by Amel Larrieux. The songs are always accurate. I'm not gonna apologize for the way I feel." He said, looking over at her.

"I just can't acknowledge it." She said, before leaving the room.

hmmmm i wonder whats
gonna happen
whn he comes


Ryan had been calling Channing everyday, either on his way to work, or before she'd gone to sleep. It bothered her at first, but after a few days, she didn't mind. It was 12 AM and she was lying in the bed listening to him sing on the other end when she stopped suddenly and began to chew.

"What are you eating this late?" She asked, smiling and drawing her knees in.

"Captain." He responded.

"That's still your favorite? Figured you would've grown out of that by now." She said.

"I still love all of the same things, including you." He said.

Channing's smile faded, "Don't do that." She said softly.

"Do what? Be honest?" He asked.

"Yeah." She said. "I can't, do this with you."

"Do what?" He asked.

"You can't become part of my life again, Ryan. I've worked so hard to be okay without you. I don't want to have to need you anymore." She said.

"Chan, if you don't want me in your life, say so." He said.

Channing lied silently for a moment, running her finger up and down her arm.

"I mean I do...I just don't know if I'm ready for everything that comes with you." She said.

"What comes with me?" He asked.

"The whole...<em>love</em> thing." She said.

"I'm sorry that I have that affect on you." He said, smirking.

"Shut up Ryan." She said. "There's just so much history, you know?"

"Of course I do. Why do you think I've been calling everyday? I f***ing miss you, Chan. Relationship or not, we were best friends first. You know everything about me." He said.

"At least I used to. Not anymore." She said.

"So get to know me." He said.

Channing smiled, "When are you coming?" She asked.

"Mmm, 2 weeks. Get my room ready." He said.

"It's ready. I'm not changing anything for you." She said.

"In due time, you will." He mumbled.

now it's back to sweet 'ole Ryan I see, awwl.
To be honest, I like him or Nick for her, no DEVIN. :)

Channing walked into Jasmine's room to find her sitting up. She picked her up and kissed her cheek.

"Good morning my love." She said.

Jasmine's hair was a curly mess, and she still looked sleepily, as Channing carried her down the hall. She sat her down on the bed and Jasmine crawled towards the pillows and sat on top of one. Aaron walked into the room and looked at Channing.

"Coach called mandatory weight training today." Aaron said.

"It's a Saturday." Channing said, going through the mail on her dresser.

"I know. I gotta be there though if I plan to keep my spot on the team." Aaron said.

"Okay. Call me when you get to the school." She said, looking over at him.

Aaron nodded and left the room. Channing walked towards the bed and began to do some work. Jasmine crawled into her lap and rammed her head into Channing's chest repeatedly.

"What do you want?" Channing asked, using her hand to avoid the next collision.

Jasmine lied her head back softly as Channing continued to type away. Her phone vibrated from the nightstand and she pressed send and put it to her ear, without looking at the phone.

"Hello?" She answered.

"Chan." Ryan's voice came through the phone.

Channing smirked, "Who told you that it was okay to call me?" She asked.

"Figured I'd take a chance. How you doin though?" He asked.

"I'm okay. Sitting here with my baby girl." Channing said, smiling and running her hand through Jasmine's hair, who was now pressing random keys on the keyboard.

"Who is that?" Ryan asked.

"I'm looking after an orphan for a while, until I adopt her." Channing said.

"How old is she?" Ryan asked.

"She's 8 months." Channing said.

"Will you send me a picture? I wanna see her." Ryan said.

"Okay I will. How are you though? Everything okay?" Channing asked.

"Sure. I'm surviving." He responded.

"How's your love life?" She asked, looking absently out the door.

"Are you asking because you genuinely care, or..." He asked.

"I care." Channing said softly.

"Well it's nonexistent." He responded.

"Why's that?" She asked.

"I'm still waiting on someone." He responded.

Channing smiled and cleared her throat, "Jasmine's a little stinky. I should go change her." Channing said.

"Well I have a question for you." He said.

"Okay." She said, anxious about what he'd say.

"...When can I meet Jasmine?" He asked.

Channing looked across the room at the calendar she had on the wall.

"Whenever you want. No funny business." She said, standing up from the bed.

"What's funny business?" He asked.

Channing knew that he was smiling on the other end of the phone.

"Let's not launch operation: get Channing back." Channing said.

Ryan fell quiet for a moment before he chuckled, "I've gotta run, but um, I'll text you later on." He said.

"Okay." She said, before she hung up the phone.

Ryan had always been slick in his approach. She had to keep her guard up.


I've been ghost! But I'm adding tonight :)


So before I seen Jasmine I was about to say has Channing lost her damn mind taking in a kid, but after seeing Jasmine, I realized Channing made a great choice, Jasmine is such a beautiful and sweet little girl, and spoiled already. Too cute how excited she gets seeing Aaron lol, at Aaron getting upset when she was crying all night lol. I hope they do allow Channing to adopt her because I feel Channing will be so attached to her by then.Hmmm I wonder what Devin has to say at this lil dinner he wants Channing to join him in? And will he like Jasmine to? I already know Nick will get along great with her cause he already has the experince since he has Sade. Can't wait to read more. Loved the add Carmine. RUN IT!!!!

Jasmine is such a beautiful baby! Reminds me of my baby boy with his little spoiled butt lol jasmine makes me want to have a little baby girl though

aww im so happy for her, that is just wonderful!! and i hope the crying in the middle of the night gets better for aaron's sake, lol...Deving really wants to be with her, but he messed up. wonder where this will go...RUN IT!!

RUN IT!!!!

Thank you ladies (: RUNNNN!

Awww Jasmine is such a great addition in Channing's life!!


it's official, i've fell in love with baby Jasmine. <333 (:

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