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Don't Judge Me

The girls and I began to get ready for the Chris Brown concert. It was my 18th birthday and I've always been a die hard Chris Brown fan even through all the bad stuff he went through and all the changes. I did the finishing touches on my hair and make up then put on my sexy baby blue dress and the silver heels. I did the accessories and checked out the ending results in my full length mirror. Just looking at myself all I could say was DAMN!! I confidently walked downstairs and all eyes landed on me. I heard my step brother's friends whispering about how sexy I looked. He snapped himself out of the lil trance he was in and hit them.

"Well damn girl just make us look like some Goodwill swap meat rejects!"

Sasha yelled out and we all laughed. I hugged my mom and step dad then my step brother and we left.

The girls and I sat front row as Chris Brown performed 'Dont Judge Me', 'Countdown', 'Biggest Fan', and a throwback 'Invented Head'. In between songs he would clown, dance, and bring on other artists. The show was coming to an end in about 15 minutes. I swear those 2 hours went by as I glanced at the time on my iPhone 5.

"Now for this last song I'm gunna need a special lady up here. Where's my special lady at?? Let me hear ya!"

The girls began screaming at the TOP of their lungs. Chris looked around the audience then his eyes landed 1 place I thought they never would. On me.

"Shawty right there. I wan you."

My girls screamed as he pointed at me. The security guards came and escorted me to the top of the stairs then Chris gently took my hand in his and brought me to a chair.

"What's ya name gorges??"
"Well Ms. Kiara I hope you don't mind this."

He said as he pulled my body close to his and wrapped his arms around me from behind.

"Can I hold you like this??"

I nodded my head and bit my lip.

"What about if I do this??"

He began kissing on my neck and lightly sucking on it. I moaned a little and he smirked.

"Do you mind that??"

I shook my head no unable to speak fearing that another moan would escape. The beat to '2012' dropped and the crowd went wild. He sat me in the chair and gave me a sexy ass lapdance sneaking kisses in and sucking on my neck. After that song came on they came and took the chair then the 'Sweet Love' beat dropped and the crowd really went wild. He serenaded me as we grinded and he was shocked that I could keep up and move like this. After a lil while he laid me on the stage floor and humped me. I bit my lip and flopped him over so I was humping me. I rubbed my hand on his abs and I could feel him hardening. We stood up and he kissed me as the song ended and we disappeared under the stage.

"Damn. How old are you??"

He asked examining my body closely and biting his lip. Damn that man does things to me!

"As of today 18."

He nodded his head.

"You here alone??"
"I came with my girls."
"Well do me a favor. Let them know you're not leaving with them tonight."

I smirked and did just as he said then found him again and we left to his hotel room after he took pics with fans and signed autographs. From the time we hit the limo to the bedroom neither of us could take it anymore. Let's just said we definitely did it like it was the end of the world. ;-}

As much as I look back on that night and think about it I was not expecting the events that were to come ..


definitely need to get her act together..smh kiara u effin up..RUN IT

Yep girl as I said before you gotta love yourself first before you can love anyone else run it

Damn smh
Run it!

Run It....


{ CHAPTER 45 }

I debated on leaving. My heart was crushed and I didn't know if I wanted to be around him at this point. I walked into the hall as Chris was paying the man for the food. The guy eyed me and bit his lip. Chris looked back at me then to the guy.

"Chill lil nigga that's me. Take the money and bounce. Nothing in here for you."

Chris took his food then handed the guy the money and closed the door. He walked into the kitchen and I followed.

"How you gunna tell him I'm yours??"

He just continued opening up the bag and taking out the containers.

"If you want lil dude number then I'll call the place back and get it for you."
"Chris you can't claim me if you don't want me."
"You just don't pay attention when I talk do you?? I been telling you how I feel about you Kiara. You just choose to ignore it then argue with me hoping for make up sex. It's not gunna work. I don't have sex with girls that aren't mines."
"So what are you saying Chris?? Was that girl from earlier your girlfriend??"
"Yup. As of a week ago."
"You didn't think you should tell me!?"
"What are you getting so mad for?? You don't tell me about every nigga you date. She's 1 girl in 2 years. You can't count how many niggas you've dated in 2 years on 2 hands."

He sat down at the island and began eating.

"That was a low blow Chris."
"There was no blow at all."
"I need male affection Chris!"
"That's ya f***ing problem now!! You NEED a nigga in ya life. Ever since you came to V.A. you've needed a nigga. Is that why you let Trey beat ya ass and get his nut whenever he wanted?? You needed a man??"

I didn't say anything.

"What happened to the "Miss Independent Kiara" that I fell in love with?? Who didn't want a nigga and damn sure didn't NEED a nigga??"
".. I don't know .."
"When you find her let me know."

He took half the food downstairs to his half studio half chill lounge. I sat at the island alone and slowly began to eat. Alone. If I didn't get my act right then I would always be alone.

I Feel Bad 4 Her But She Needs 2 Kno Wat She Wants....
Run It....

He was still talking about marrying her ass though even after the two years

Run it

In school so updating after. Keep the comments coming!!!!

Kiara, the f*** you trippin for?! Y'all ain't a couple, and Chris is right. You need to grow the f*** up. If you can f*** around and date, then he can too. Lol when he told her to get used to the vibrator.
Run it

Damn two years and they ain't got together or smashed ugh. Important proud of Chris tho for stepping up and officially becoming Tanias dad. She even said dada first to Chris of course. Damn Chris ain't letting up about them getting together. Poor little Kiara tried to give him some and he turned her down. He's not playing around no more. Then she showed up to his spot unannounced and seen something she shouldn't have seen... Guess Chris finally moved on and she can't be mad she been dating too.... Man I be glad when they asses get together and married. RUN IT!!!

Kiara need to get it together!

*Claps* I know that's right Chris

Kiara the ball is in your court

He gave you the open door all you have to do is walk thru it!!

Run it!!

she cant be mad!! she aint showing him that she ready to settle down and be with him so oh well.. she think she can date around but he cant?.. dont work that way booboo

{ CHAPTER 44 }

I went shopping with Tootie and a few other friends then went to the movies with them. I drove to Chris' house around 11 / 12 and used my key to get in. I heard moaning and walked down the hallway to see him f***ing some girl on the wall.


I yelled out and he dropped the girl on the floor then pulled his basketball shorts up.

"Kiara what are you doing here?? Yanny go get dressed."

The girl got up picking up her clothes and headed to the bathroom.

"I wanted to spend some time with you, but I guess you're busy."

He sighed.

"You should've called 1st."
".. Who is she??"
"Why?? We're not together remember."

She walled out the bathroom fully dressed and kissed his cheek.

"I'll call you tomorrow."
"Text me when you get home so I know you're safe."
"Ok boo."

She kissed him then walked out. I just stared at him.

"How could you Chris??"
"What?? My daughter's aren't here and I'm a single man."
"What about us Chris??"
"What us?? You didn't wanna be with me remember."

He walked down the hall and started the shower. I went and sat on his bed in his room until he was done. He walked in dripping wet making me wet and smelling so delicious.

"I figured that after 2 years you were over me."
"Did you expect me to wait until you were ready??"
"Well yeah. I waited for you."
"You got with Tyga and Trey. Plus even over these 2 years you've been dating other guys. She's the 1st girl I touched since you."

He tossed his towel in the hamper and put on clean boxers then leaned against his dresser.

"Kiara the love I have for you is unconditional. You being the mother of my daughters just adds to it. I wanna be a family. I wanna marry you someday and grow old with you. I wanna be buried next to you. I can't make you want the same things I do. I grew up. Now it's your turn."

He went and ordered something late to eat.

DISMISSED! she cant play with his emotions lol RUN IT!

Feeling playeddddddddd, RUN IT!

lol thats what she gets, trying to use him...smh

Lol Im Sorry Tht Last Part Was Funny Lol....
Run It Plz....

Shes gonna have to work hard to get back wit chris lol run it

Really OMG why you playing with us man lol
This. b**** Kiara really can't be serious
That's what her ass get
Outta 2yrs of dating and you aint found a man yet
That should be telling you something

Chris played that ass

Run it!!

{ CHAPTER 43 }

A lot has happened within the last 2 years. Well for starters Diamond is now 10, Tania is 2, I'm 28, and Chris is 30. Chris and I still haven't gotten together, but he treats Diamond and Tania like queens. As far as I'm concerned he's still single, but I've been dating here and there. I just don't bring them around the girls because the only man that should be in their life is Chris. Oh yeah Trey gave up his rights as Tania's father and of course Chris G L A D L Y signed the papers. Tania's 1st word was Daddy anyway and of course it was Chris that she called that. Chris gave me the house, but he still pays the bills. He moved to a gorgeous apartment. He has his room, the girls have their own rooms, they have a playroom, Chris has a studio, and of course a nice sized backyard with a basketball court and swimming pool. It's summer time so of course everybody is out. I've gotten thicker for the better and the men love it. I can't lie I want Chris, but he doesn't seem to want me anymore.

"Mommy daddy here."

Tania said walking into the bathroom where I was just getting out the shower. I wrapped a towel around me and followed her out. Chris was in Diamond's room making sure she had everything.

"Hey Chris."

He turned to me and smiled a bit.

"Hey Kiara. How are you??"
"I'm fine. How are you??"
"I'm good. Are the girls ready for me to drop them off at Mama's for the weekend??"
"Yeah. Can I talk to you for a minute??"
"Sure. Diamond help Tania get ready."
"Yes daddy."

Diamond picked Tania up and walked thru their connected door. Chris followed me to my room and closed the door.

"What's up??"
"I .. I .. I .. I need you."

He raised an eyebrow at me.

"You need me for what??"

I dropped my towel and walked over to him whispering in his ear.

"I ( kiss on neck ) need ( kiss on other side of neck ) you ( kiss on lips )."
"Oh you need my d***."

He pulled me away from me and slowly licked his lips then kissed my neck and whispered in my ear.

"Better get acquainted with that customized vibrator then huh."

He smirked at me then pushed me away a little and walked out. The girls yelled out bye and I love you to me then I heard the front door and a few minutes later I heard his car.

Ok Kiara Put Tht On Herself She Didnt Want 2 Be In a Relationship So chris Told Her Right.... Smh...
Run It...

She's a f***ing idiot. Chris came to her rescue and changed for her and now this b**** wanna be single?? Y? Sure go party n have fun, but come home to Chris every night. What any other nigga got to offer that's gone b better? Idk WTF her problem is, but she need to fix it asap...she picked the worst time to bring that shytup too. After days of f***ing, now she wants 2 b single Smdh.

Run it!!!

what a big slap in her face.. when chris bring some other woman in there and start treating her all tpes of good she gon wish she stayed with him..smh.RUN IT

In school so I'll write when I get out. Keep the runs coming though.

Thanks for all the runs while I was gone btw!!!!!!!

Oohhh yeah. f*** YO FEELINGS b****!! Because you obviously didn't care about Chris'.
Run it

Really Kiara, that was a pussy move. You only got mad because you knew Chris was right. You chose to stay and get beat and raped. Man you a little b**** for that s***. I don't even wanna hear yo goddamn name being associated with Chris. Can Tootie come back and beat the hell out of her. s*** Chris should've. How bout we talk about you, how are you going to get out of an abusive relationship, and say you don't want another one. But then say you wanna live and be single. Umm b**** you got two kids, and if it wasn't for Chris, yo ass would be on the damn street. Think before you speak ratchet ass hoe.
Run it

Really Kiara, you lil bytch, that was some foul shytz you said to Chris. Taking them low blows about beating Rihanna and then the part about Tania not being his and never will be so wrong. All she ahd to say was she wanted to be single for awhile earlier, before she let it get so far. Chris is a changed man, and Im glad that even though she said those harsh words. He still takes care of BOTH his girls. Ats so messed up dude. RUN IT!!!

Oh my gosh Kiara get it together sweetie and get it together quick