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Don't Judge Me

( INTRO )
The girls and I began to get ready for the Chris Brown concert. It was my 18th birthday and I've always been a die hard Chris Brown fan even through all the bad stuff he went through and all the changes. I did the finishing touches on my hair and make up then put on my sexy baby blue dress and the silver heels. I did the accessories and checked out the ending results in my full length mirror. Just looking at myself all I could say was DAMN!! I confidently walked downstairs and all eyes landed on me. I heard my step brother's friends whispering about how sexy I looked. He snapped himself out of the lil trance he was in and hit them.

"Well damn girl just make us look like some Goodwill swap meat rejects!"

Sasha yelled out and we all laughed. I hugged my mom and step dad then my step brother and we left.

{ CONCERT }
The girls and I sat front row as Chris Brown performed 'Dont Judge Me', 'Countdown', 'Biggest Fan', and a throwback 'Invented Head'. In between songs he would clown, dance, and bring on other artists. The show was coming to an end in about 15 minutes. I swear those 2 hours went by as I glanced at the time on my iPhone 5.

"Now for this last song I'm gunna need a special lady up here. Where's my special lady at?? Let me hear ya!"

The girls began screaming at the TOP of their lungs. Chris looked around the audience then his eyes landed 1 place I thought they never would. On me.

"Shawty right there. I wan you."

My girls screamed as he pointed at me. The security guards came and escorted me to the top of the stairs then Chris gently took my hand in his and brought me to a chair.

"What's ya name gorges??"
"Kiara."
"Well Ms. Kiara I hope you don't mind this."

He said as he pulled my body close to his and wrapped his arms around me from behind.

"Can I hold you like this??"

I nodded my head and bit my lip.

"What about if I do this??"

He began kissing on my neck and lightly sucking on it. I moaned a little and he smirked.

"Do you mind that??"

I shook my head no unable to speak fearing that another moan would escape. The beat to '2012' dropped and the crowd went wild. He sat me in the chair and gave me a sexy ass lapdance sneaking kisses in and sucking on my neck. After that song came on they came and took the chair then the 'Sweet Love' beat dropped and the crowd really went wild. He serenaded me as we grinded and he was shocked that I could keep up and move like this. After a lil while he laid me on the stage floor and humped me. I bit my lip and flopped him over so I was humping me. I rubbed my hand on his abs and I could feel him hardening. We stood up and he kissed me as the song ended and we disappeared under the stage.

"Damn. How old are you??"

He asked examining my body closely and biting his lip. Damn that man does things to me!

"As of today 18."

He nodded his head.

"You here alone??"
"I came with my girls."
"Well do me a favor. Let them know you're not leaving with them tonight."

I smirked and did just as he said then found him again and we left to his hotel room after he took pics with fans and signed autographs. From the time we hit the limo to the bedroom neither of us could take it anymore. Let's just said we definitely did it like it was the end of the world. ;-}

As much as I look back on that night and think about it I was not expecting the events that were to come ..

Kommentare

d***head.... excuse my language... that's what the f... hell she get.

RUN IT

Smh her selfishness is demolishing her potential happiness and the fact that
He is still choosing to care for a child that isn't his is amazing

She's gonna feel stupid when the next women takes her spot

{ CHAPTER 42 }
I called all his friends, but nobody knew where he was. Tootie came over to cuss me out then comfort me. Around 5 p.m. Chris walked in the door with Tania and Diamond.

"HI MOMMY!!"

Diamond ran over hugging me then Tootie.

"Daddy can I get my toys??"
"Yeah. Just let me put your sister down."
"Ok."

He walked upstairs with a sleeping Tania then came back down 10 minutes later. He went out to the car and came back in with bags on top of bags. There were shoes, clothes, and toys for both girls. Chris brought the toy bags to the play room then the girls clothes to their rooms. Diamond went to her playroom dragging me along with her to show me all her things.

"I ordered some pizza. It should be here soon."

Chris said coming in the room.

"YAY PIZZA!!"

He smiled at her then walked out. I played with her until the food got there then we all ate after Chris went and got Tania. After our argument I figured he would treat her differently, but he's not. Around the girls he's all smiles, loving, and fun. If I didn't know him I would've thought his life was perfect. I would catch him staring at Tania then his eyes would get sad again. I had cut him deep.

"Ok babygirl time for bed."

I said as 7:30 hit. I took Tania and bathed her while Chris took care of Diamond. We both put them to bed by 8. He went and cleaned the kitchen then the playroom while I straightened up the little messes in their rooms. After that I showered and put on a nightgown then went down to Chris' room. He was laying in the dark with sad music playing quietly in the background.

"I can't force you to want the same things I want. So I'm not going to. You want to live the single life so feel free to do so. I'm not going back to my old ways simply because I worked too hard to change them. Tania isn't my daughter, but I'm more of a father and a man than Trey will ever be. Because she's Diamond's sister and your daughter I see her as my own. Blood couldn't make us any closer."
"Chris-"
"I want a real relationship. You want to be single. The way I act and feel towards the girls won't change. I'm just not doing that lovey dovey bulls*** with you."
"What do you mean??"
"Kissing, sex, cuddling, long talks. Stuff like that. We're not a couple and we probably won't ever be. I'm not going to tie you down. I'm just going to go my way and do me as you go your way and do you. Goodnight Kiara."

I just stood there for a while. He said everything so calm that it hurt me. I had lost Chris again.

seriously kiara??!! why would u even say all of that to him..she was cutting deep! should have let chris know that she was thankful that he saved her from her previous situation but that she doesnt want to move too quickly into a new relationship..all that otha mess she could have kept to herself..they both let feelings get involved..especially since they dun had all that sex lol smh hopefully she can get back on his good side..i really hope chris dont go back to his old self :(..just TRAGIC
RUUUN IT

RUNN IT!

Damn she did not have to go in like that. God damn... that was some foul stuff that came out her mouth. Wonder what's gonna happen...

Run It

Really Kiara really I can understand the wanting to be single
But you should've made that clear to him

And that was a low ass blow she took with the daughters comment he knows that ain't
His child but he's being a man and doing what her cant

Run this ish!!!

Why the hell would she say all that mess to him. I know he hurt her but she threw nothing but low blows. Smh. She need to get it together!!!
RUN IT!!!!

{ CHAPTER 41 }
Tootie and I talked about everything that's been going on. It was now 7:02 and Mama called to say she's keeping the girls tonight.

"So are ya together??"
"Nope."

Her jaw dropped.

"Why not??"
"I just don't want a relationship right now."
"Does he know that??"
"No actually I didn't know that."

Chris said coming into the room all sweaty looking sexy. Tootie looked back and forth between us taking that as her que to go.

"I'll call you tomorrow girl."
"Ok."

She gave me a hug then kissed Chris' cheek and left. Soon after I heard the front door then her car.

"So you wanna tell me what's going on??"

I sighed turning the tv up. I didn't want to have this conversation.

"Yo I know you hear me talking to you."

I rolled my eyes. He snatched the remote out my hand and turned the tv off.

"Chris I don't wanna have this conversation."
"What the f*** you mean you don't wanna have this conversation!? You've been dragging me along these last 6 f***ing months!!"
"No I haven't!!"
"Yes the f*** you have!! Kiara I f***ing CHANGED for YOU!! I could still be the same player f***ing b****es and staying out all hours of the night. I come home EVERY f***ING NIGHT to have dinner with my family and put my DAUGHTERS to sleep. Then after that I cuddle with someone who I THOUGHT wanted the same thing as me."
"No f***ing body asked you to change Chris!!"
"What!? YOU DID!!"
"No Chris I had BEEN asked you to change and you DIDN'T! YOU LEFT DIAMOND AND I TO GET OUR ASSES BEAT!!"
"DON'T YOU DARE TRY TO BLAME WHAT HAPPENED TO YA ON ME!! YOU GOT WITH TREY AND YOU MARRIED TREY. I DIDN'T FORCE YOU TO!!!"
"BUT YOU LEFT US!! I NEEDED SOME MALE ATTENTION AND PROTECTION!!"
"THEN YOU SHOULD'VE BOUGHT A MALE DOG!! YOU STAYED AND ALLOWED MY DAUGHTER TO GET HURT!!"
"I DIDN'T ALLOW ANYTHING!!"
"YOU COULD'VE f***ING LEFT!! YOU COULD'VE f***ING REPORTED IT!! YOU COULD'VE f***ING BOUGHT A f***ING GUN AND KILLED HIM!! YOU COULD'VE DONE SOMETHING!!!!!!!"
"HOW IS MY SITUATION DIFFERENT FROM YOURS!? YOU BEAT RIHANNA'S ASS CHRIS!!!!!!!"

He got silent.

"I was 19. I was still a kid myself. That's not an excuse. Our situations were different and you know it. I didn't constantly beat her ass or rape her. Trey did that to you."

He walked out my room and downstairs. I sat on my bed and heard his shower. I decided to take a bath alone. After that I put on boxers and a sports bra walking down to his room. He was walking out the shower with a towel on.

"Chris I'm sorry."

He didn't say anything. He put his boxers on and sat on his bed messing with his phone. I leaned against his dresser.

"Please talk to me."
"Nothing for us to talk about."
"Chris .. I'm finally free. I wanna go out and live the single life without worrying about having a boyfriend or-"
"I don't even care anymore. You've just been f***ing with my emotions."
"YOU DID THE SAME THING TO ME!!"
"I didn't make you fall for me knowing I wasn't going to catch you. Just like you loved me I loved you."
"YOU SLEPT WITH OTHER GIRLS THEN PLAYED HOUSE WITH ME!!"
"I told you what the deal was upfront. YOU'VE BEEN LYING TO ME THIS WHOLE TIME!! GOT ME COMING HOME THINKING I HAVE A FAMILY!! I THOUGHT I HAD A FUTURE WIFE AND 2 DAUGHTERS WHO LOVE ME!! MAYBE I WAS ONLY RIGHT ABOUT THE DAUGHTERS PART!!"
"NO YOU WERE WRONG ABOUT THAT TOO BECAUSE TANIA ISN'T YOURS!! SHE'S TREY'S DAUGHTER!! NO MATTER HOW BAD YOU TRY TO CHANGE IT SHE'LL ALWAYS BE HIS DAUGHTER!! YOU'RE NOT HER FATHER CHRIS AND NEVER WILL BE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

Pain and hurt was easily displayed across his face. I knew I had hurt him for the 3rd time that night. He didn't say anything. He just stood up throwing on some sweatpants and a champion then slipped into his Jordans. He got his keys and wallet then left. I laid in his bed for hours crying and praying. He didn't come home that night.

Run it!!!

Keep the runs coming as I write more =]

Yes sir. Chris knocked the dust off that pussy lol. Dam three days tho. Straight freaks lol. I loved the way he's stepped up as a dad and a boyfriend. He's really showing his good side. Loved the add. Run It.

Run it!

lol, well glad she got what she wanted!

{ CHAPTER 40 }
( MONTHS LATER ]

The girls and I have been living with Chris for the last 6 months. My divorce was final 5 months ago and Trey is in jail. The media had a field day about him and he lost more than 75% of his fan base. Chris has brought Tania, Diamond, and I out in public in front of the cameras. We've even been on talk shows with him. Tania is now 6 months and adores Chris. Diamond has her jealous moments, but Chris always shows her she's not being replaced. We're not together yet we're still taking things slow. I just have a problem. I haven't had any good sex or head in a longggggggg time.

"The girls are sleeping."

Chris said coming into my room.

"Ok. Wanna join me in the bath??"
"Yeah."

He walked in my room and locked the door then turned on the baby monitor and took my hand leading me into the bathroom. We stripped as the water began getting hot.

"Damn."

He said as he bit his lip looking me up and down. He hasn't seen me naked since the last time we got intimate 3 years ago.

"Turn around."

I slowly turned around for him and smiled.

"Damn."

I said as he slipped out of his boxers. He smirked then sat in the big ass tub and helped me get in. I was sitting across from him under the vanilla scented bubbles.

"How was work??"

I asked him laying my head back.

"Good. I was in the studio with a few artists doing some colabs and some solo tracks."
"How much longer until your album drops??"
"2-3 months."
"That's soon."
"Yeah we've been working on it for a while. I'm gunna promote it around the world then drop it."
"I better be the 1st to have it."
"No doubt. How was the girls??"
"Good. They just missed their daddy."
"Looks like somebody else missed their daddy too."

He said in a seductive tone. I brought my head back up and bit my lip.

"Maybe."
"Come here sexy."

I got on my knees and crawled over to him. He licked his lips and turned me around sitting me on his manhood. He laid back causing me to lay back on his chest.

"Open up."

I slowly parted my legs. He rested his hands on the inside of my thighs and massaged them. I tilted my head to the right moaning a bit as he planted kisses along the back of my neck then my collarbone.

"It's been a while. Sorry if I'm a little rusty."

I let out another moan as his right hand massaged my lips.

"( moan ) It feels so good."

His left hand came up massaging my right breast. His right hand middle finger entered my tight walls.

"( moan ) Ahhh Chris. ( moan )"
"We never did do it right. Tonight is all about you."

( 2 DAYS LATER ]

I woke up around 11:15 two days later. We didn't stop until the sun came up yesterday. My Oh My!!! We were everywhere doing every position you could think of and more we made up on the spot. He took my body past space. The passion, love, care, & lust I felt was too much for me. I came so many times I was in literally in tears because it felt so f***ing good. Even when I was having sex with Trey willingly he did it for HIM. Chris did it for ME. I can't describe to you the way that man made me feel.

"Hey baby."

He said walking in with a tray of food.

"Hey boo. Damn I'm still sore."
"Want a massage?? The girls are with mama until 6."
"Yeah after I brush my teeth, shower, and eat."
"Ok."

I pecked his lips then slowly stood up. I was too sore to even limp.

"I got you baby."

He swooped me up and brought me to the bathroom. I brushed my teeth then he helped me in the shower. He wrapped me in a towel then brought me back to the room and sat me down so I could eat. The doorbell rang so he went to answer. A minute later he returned with his older sister Tootie.

"Hey girl."
"Hey."

She gave me a hug.

"I called you yesterday. Banana said you were sleeping. I called today banana said you were sleeping."
"What!?"

Chris said referring to her calling him a banana. Tootie and I laughed.

"Yeah I've been out cold for the last 2 days."
"I see why."

She said looking at the very noticeable love / sex bruises. I blushed and Chris smirked.

"I'm gunna ball with the guys for a while. I'll be back later baby. If you can get out the bed come see me."
"Ok. Don't do nothing stupid Chris."
"I got you baby I don't need any hoes."

He gave me a passionate kiss that would've knocked me off my feet if I was standing.

"Better. I love you bae."
"I love you more."

He walked out pushing Tootie making me laugh. She turned to me with a smirk. I covered my face. I knew where my day was heading. She sat down beside me.

"Talk."

Glad they had her checked out. Sucks she's worse, but they keep it monitered and she'll be okay. Chris is so good with the kids. Even Tania who's not biologically his. And it was to cute when he offered to pick the girls clothes out. LMAO lil Diamond wasnt having that lol. RUN IT!!!! It's good to see them happy and getting along.

Lol...RUN IT

Chris is so silly lmao run it

lmao, RUN IT!

{ CHAPTER 39 }
As promised we took her to a specialist. They said she was in fact getting worse so they put her on stronger medicine and now we have to keep an even closer eye on her. Chris took us shopping since it was well needed.

"Baby I'm going to go look at some heels."

I said pushing Tania in her stroller.

"I'll take Tania and Diamond."
"I'm fine-"
"Baby. I said I'll take them."
"But daddy you don't know anything about girl's clothes."

Diamond said with her hand on her hip. Chris did the same making me laugh.

"How do you know??"
"You're a guy duh."

He rolled his eyes and flipped his imaginary hair. I felt like I was going to pee on myself from laughing so hard.

"Well fine whatever. I don't need you anyway!"

He snapped his fingers in a Z formation then walked off switching. I was doubled over crying by now. After I regained myself I took Diamond's hand and we began walking to the Steve Madden store.

**A little something to hold you over as I write more**

School in the morning so I'll write tonight & post tomorrow before I go to school

run it!!

Run itttt!!!!!

RUN IT!

Awww see dats wats I'm talking bout Chris run it

Update in a lil

*worse

yesss they getting the ball rolling with this divorce..im so glad chris and kiara are happy together..he really had matured! He's such a family man now lol..i really hope diamond health isnt getting wore :(

Aww snap they got Mark Geragos(sp)on the case, he's damned good. Trey its a wrap buddy. You bout to be broke and in jail for the s*** you did to your wife. and Mark calling her soon to be Mrs. Brown hmm. And aww chris and Diamond are so sweet together, it was cute whrn they were playing the game and wrestling, then when her breathing started acting up and he rushed to get her meds. So sweet. And the love he shows to Tania who's not even his child is so sweet. These two deserve one another. Im so glad he's matured and changed, I hope he stays that way and they get there happy family. RUN IT!!!

I'm happy that the divorce is final. I hope she takes up Chris' offer.She needs it. Diamond is too funny. I am glad Chris is acting mature now.
Run it