What is the point of loyalty if your only loyalty is to your self? Is it wrong to want more, to feel the need for more? Have you ever sat and thought to your self what is the point of living if it only brings you disappointment and pain? Well I have, I sit and think to myself about this every day! I have a lot of time by myself, see my brother is my legal guardian and he never lets me go no where. I’m 17 years old and the only time I leave my stoop is when I go to school. Friends I have none basically none of them can stand my ass, cause either my brother or one of his friends have done them wrong. My best friend Shamilya moved to Harlem last summer and other than the ever now and again phone calls and letters I don’t see her.
It feels like I’m in a small prison ever since she left, she lives damn near 15 minutes away and I haven’t seen her in a year. Maybe it’s me maybe I’m just bugging cause its another late night and my brother isn’t home yet, and once again he hasn’t called to let me know he’s even alive. Maybe I should just say my prayers go to bed and hope with all the faith I have inside me that he’s in his room when I wake up tomorrow morning.