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Tough Reality

<em>I started this story, but never finished it, so I decided that i'd bring it back.</em>
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All my life I wondered, how many people can I actually call my friends? How many of these people could I actually trust? In reality i've never found the answer, that is until my life took a turn for the worse. The man that raised me and my two older brothers and sister was now six feet under and the woman that gave birth to me was a stranger in our own home, and just when I though things couldn't get any worse they did. I didn't understand why God chose me to give this life to, but no matter how hard it got I needed to stay strong. This is my story, the story of <a href="http://29.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lxevd7cg4F1qfgpdmo1_500.jpg">Nevaeh Cruz</a>

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WOOOOW !

Found this from Facebook..
this is pretty good..

RUN IT !!

Run it :] breezy style

omg they are sooo cute together..
Run it!

run it !

RUN IT:)))

this story is amazing! I love it

Dany!
I Love this story girl
xD

Aw that was cute!

Nevaeh

"Where do you see yourself in a few years?" I asked tracing Jaysen's tattoos. "How many years we talkin'?" He questioned playing in my hair. "Uh, four." He was quiet before speaking. "Working." "What about school?" He sighed, "with my grades, school isn't even in my future." "Jay, don't say that you're smart. You can get into a community college." "Babe, just be happy i'm graduating." "I guess." "Where do you see yourself?" He questioned, I was sort of dreading this answer. Just the other day I had recieved a letter from San Francisco State offering me and academic scholarship. I obviously wasn't going to say no, free money to a school was way better than paying out of pocket. "Well, I see myself with you" atleast I hoped. "Going to school, starting my career." I really wanted to tell him, but with all that he's going through, I can't. "What you thinking about?" He questioned, I looked up at him. "About how much I love you." I said kissing his lips. He smiled. "I love you too." "Now c'mon, let's go shower."

Nevaeh

"Where do you see yourself in a few years?" I asked tracing Jaysen's tattoos. "How many years we talkin'?" He questioned playing in my hair. "Uh, four." He was quiet before speaking. "Working." "What about school?" He sighed, "with my grades, school isn't even in my future." "Jay, don't say that you're smart. You can get into a community college." "Babe, just be happy i'm graduating." "I guess." "Where do you see yourself?" He questioned, I was sort of dreading this answer. Just the other day I had recieved a letter from San Francisco State offering me and academic scholarship. I obviously wasn't going to say no, free money to a school was way better than paying out of pocket. "Well, I see myself with you" atleast I hoped. "Going to school, starting my career." I really wanted to tell him, but with all that he's going through, I can't. "What you thinking about?" He questioned, I looked up at him. "About how much I love you." I said kissing his lips. He smiled. "I love you too." "Now c'mon, let's go shower."

still smh @ her moms

run it!

Nevaeh

"It's now complete." I said standing in the doorway of my apartment and admiring the room. I had painted the place and bought furniture. My brothers, Jasmine, and Jaysen had all help me set things up. Anthony walked over to me, "Alright baby sis, now that this is all set up we're leaving." I nodded and they each embraced me in a hug before walking out the door. I stared around the room once more before coming in eye contact with Jaysen who was leaning against the wall. He smiled and I walked over to him, "you like it?" I questioned. He nodded, "have you seen what the room looked like yet?" He shook his head. I grabbed his hand and lead him to the bedroom. "You like?" I asked biting my lip. He looked down at me smiling. "Love." He said leaning down and kissing my lips. He picked me up by my thighs and carried me to the bed gently laying me down. From thereyou know exactly what happened.

Sorry its so short......i need to go to a soccer tourney.
More later

Thanks new reader. I'm Danyell.

I'll have an add soon ladies

Aaahhhhh!!! I love this story! It's so intense... I want more :)

Jaysen can't move out!!! not now anyways. His siblings do need him. I think he should have a heart to heart with his dad. They need to really talk about this s***. I'm still mad at her mom, but hopefully she'll come around and undo her damage.

Im Still Upset Her Mother Put Her Out!!!
RUN IT:)

Jaysen is a great brother (:

Run it!!!

Nevaeh

I walked into the apartment that my siblings had just made a down payment on. It was a one bedroom place and I was thankful. I walked into what was suppost to be the master bedroom and walked over to the window. I knelt down on my knees and began to pray. “Daddy, thank you for everything. I don’t know how I got here but I did.” I sat there a while longer before getting up and leaving. I walked up the walkway and opened the door to Jay’s house. It was quiet and not a good quiet more of an awkward quiet. I shut the door and began my way upstairs. I opened Jaysen’s bedroom door to see <a href=”http://livelyindepthmusicentertainment.files.wordpress.com/2011/01/47347.jpg?w=604”>Jaysen</a> sprawled out across the bed. I tried to shut the door lightly but it was no use because he was already up. “Why you tryna be so quiet?” He asked now sitting up. I shrugged, “You were sleeping, didn’t want to wake you.” I said walking over and kissing his lips. “How’d the apartment thing go?” He asked flipping on the tv and wrapping an arm around my waist. “It was good, I found a place. Now all I have to do is get some stuff to make it feel like home.” “That’s what’s up, do you mind having a roomate?” I sat up and looked at him. “I thought we talked about this.” He sighed, “I know we did, but after today I don;t feel welcomed.” “What happened?” I asked now looking at him. He told me everything that had went down. I was shocked, I bent down and pecked him on the lips.

“You know you’ll always have a place in my home, but what about your siblings?” He looked at me. “You leaving, changes everything. I mean James needs you to be there and be supportive. Not only that but Deziraye depends on you. You’re her bestfriend.” I could see the wheels turning in his head. “You’re right, I guess I do have to stay here for them.”

Run it!!!

~Faith~
A knock on the door, I get up to see,
Though many fear it hear I stand facing it,
The face no ones ready to see, though I stair at it,
The thing no ones ready to let in,
Though I let it in and sit down,
The thing no one wants to hear,
Though here I am listening to it,
With no regret, no mistake or no fear,
But with pride and bravery, because it’s something we all have to hear. Yet with so much grace, in such a slow pace, I no longer fear,
I sit and listen to Faith…~
~By,
~A Cretive Dreamer~

Maybe Veah's mom and Jay's Dad should meet....they're both f***ing nuts!!!! and irresponsible ass parents!

that damn daddy is something else....f*** the bulls***

run it!

WTF...Hitting Him Won't Solve Anything!!!
RUN IT:)

Jaysen

Nevaeh had gone out to visit her brothers while I sat in the diningroom with <a href="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m6r8k2LUIW1qflmvio1_1280.jpg">James</a> and <a href="http://img002.lazygirls.info/people/tinashe_kachingwe/tinashe_kachingwe_pretty_8LmejAR.sized.jpg">Deziraye</a> waiting for my pops to show up from work. I kept looking over at James who was fidgeting with his fingers. We all heard the front door shut and my dad's voice sound throughout the house. "What was the emergency?" He said walking into the diningroom and staring at all of us. I stared at Dez and James and then back to my pops. "Uh, I think you should have a seat." He looked at me strangely while sitting down. "What is it Jaysen? You know I don't like surprises." I sighed and looked at James. "Tell him." James fidgeted with his fingers before glancing up at our dad. "What did you do boy? Did you get kicked out of school just like Jaysen?" He shook his head. "I got someone pregnant." He said lowly, my father quickly rose. "YOU WHAT?!" James looked up at him, "I said I got a girl pregnant." And there it was, my dad's hand flew across James' face. I felt like time stopped as I watched it go across, Deziraye jumped back in fear. "DEZ GO TO YOUR ROOM NOW!" My father yelled still staring at James who was now clenching his jaw with tears falling from his eyes. "So you want to get a girl pregnant like your grown, huh?" "I didn't mean to." My father chuckled sadistically. "You didn't mean to? You're fourteen James! Sticking your penis in a some little girl isn't something you should've been focusing on! School should've been your main focus!" James sat there as my dad scolded him. "So now you want to act like a child when i'm yelling at you! Well, now you're gunna get treated like a man. You're gunna find a job because i'm not providing for that child!" "It's not like you provide for me anyway." He said lowly, my father looked at him like he had four heads. "What was that boy?" He said lifting his hand once again, but before it could make any type of contact I grabbed his wrist. James looked at me with thankful eyes as my dad looked at me like I had lost my goddamn mind. “Hitting him won’t solve or change anything.” I said looking him in the eye. He clenched his jaw and released from my grip. “Go to your room, and I mean what I said.” My father said to James. He slowly stood up from the chair and walked down the hall.

There was and awkward silence between us. “You’re respomsible for him Jay. You’re his older brother, you’re the one that’s suppost to make a trail for him to follow.” He said still looking down at the floor, I clenched my jaw. Was this nigga pinning James’ situation on me? I thought back to what Vaeh said about me not being the parent. “Don’t put the blame on me! You’re our father! You’re the one who should be setting the example! I am not the adult around here!” He chuckled, “So now you wanna man up to me to?” I shook my head. “No, the question is are you tryna man up to me? Because last time I checked, I was the man of this house.” “Do you pay the bills up in this b****!? Huh Jaysen, do you?” I scoffed and shook my head. “Talking to you never works, because you never listen.” “You live in my house Jaysen, if you don’t like how I run s*** you can pack your s*** and go!” He said pointing towards the door. “Maybe, I will.” He shrugged. “Mom would be so disappointed in you.” I said walking away and up the stairs.

Damn Thats Messed Up!!!
RUN IT:)

That moment was soo touching!
I really hope that Jaysen's bro learned a valuable lesson today. He better start looking for a job...NOW!
Babies ain't cheap!
Thank goodness Naveah is there to help him through this..

run it :)

Jaysen

Did this little girl really say baby mama? I looked from her to James and back to her then her stomach. "Jay, this little girl is just tryna pin the baby on James and i'm not having it!" Dezi yelled tears now in her eyes. I was shocked right now, so I turned to Vaeh. "Babe, take her to her room so she can cool down." She nodded and grabbed Deziraye who went wilingly along with her. I sighed, "What's your name?" "Erika." She stated blatantly. "Okay Erika, can you please have a seat?" I said motioning towards the couch, she did as she was told. "James sit!" I said trying to keep my cool. "Nah, I ain't sitting Jay! There is nothing to talk about with her, that ain't my baby!" "JAMES, SIT THE HELL DOWN!" He rolled his eyes and sat down. I took a seat in the recliner running my hand over my face. "How far along are you?" I asked Erika, "3 months." Oh god! "Did you strap up?" I asked James. "I always stay strapped Jay!" "Not that one time." She said glaring at him. I looked at him. "Is it true?" He looked at me, "it was once okay! I didn't have a glove and I told her I would pull out before I came." I shook my head and threw my head back. "Jay man, don't even listen to her she a hoe!" James said glaring at her. "I WASN'T A HOE WHEN YOU WERE f***ING ME WAS I?" She yelled getting in his face. "AY! AY! CALM THAT s***! LOWER YOUR VOICE!" She sat back in her seat. "Look Erika, it's best if you go." She shrugged, "That's fine but my parents will be over here." She said walking out the door.

I shook my head and chuckled. "Really James? The pull out method? How much dumber can you be?" He shrugged, "I thought I pulled out quick enough." "Man, haven't you heard of no glove no love! The f*** is wrong with you James! You're fourteen you shouldn't even be having sex! Let alone going at it raw." "But you were thirteen!" He exclaimed, like that s*** made his reason to f*** without a condom any more valid. "So nigga! I always stay strapped. I did then and still do now, I never f*** without a condom!" We both sat there in silence. "Do you think that can be your child?" He shrugged. "Probably, I was her first and since then she's only been f***ing me." I ran my hand over my face and sighed. "Jay, i'm too young to be a dad." He said tears lining his eyes. I held back mine, I needed to be strong for him. "Don't worry about it, just go to your room." He nodded and stood up walking down the hallway. I sighed and stood up walking up to my room. I sat in my desk chair thinking about what had just happened. I was wrapped deeply into my thoughts that I didn't hear Nevaeh walk into the room. "Are you okay babe?" She asked rubbing my shoulders. "Where did I go wrong Vaeh? I provide James and Deziraye with so much!" I said as tears started to fall.

This was the first time I had cried infront of anyone and the first time I had cried since my mom past away. She turned me around so I could face her, I turned my head and she pulled it back. "Look at me! You didn't do anything wrong. You aren't the one who shouldn't have to take the blame for this, you aren't his father. Don't blame yourself over all this, okay?" I nodded and she wiped away my tears. "Everything's going to work itself out. Just have patience."

Dang really James? And the girl look young too :|

Her moms is fr fr gonna do her like that? Smh.

Run it!!!!

UUmmm what?!! I know his lil brother ain't out there like that!!! smh He better get it together!!! Her mom is f***ed up!!! But I know she'll be ok.