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The One I Gave My Heart To

I laid face down ass up as he gripped my hips and pumped in and out of me. The alcohol was starting to wear off and suddenly I felt a mixture of emotional pain and heart break. A few tears escaped my honey brown eyes as he enjoyed what no longer his. Usually when we had sex I was the one on top, calling the shots but tonight I was too wrapped in my emotions. I felt him pull out and shoot his warm cum on my ass and he got up, mumbled something and walked to the kitchen. I got off the bed and walked into the bathroom and looked in the mirror at me… better yet at what I’ve become. I am 24 years old, beautiful black and Puerto Rican chick, I’m well off because of my father’s death, and I could have anything my heart desired, anyone I bated my long eye lashes at… except for him. He once was mine, I gave him my heart…hell he still had it. We were good together, inseparable, the “good thing” hun, I guess all good things come to an end because we did when he proposed to my sister… and she accepted it.


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"So how's the no sex thing working out for you love?" Brooklyn asked holding one year old Michael jr. "It's working thanks to my bag of tricks." I said as we both laughed. "Is Trey coming on to you?" She asked knowing Trey's flirtatious history. "You know he flirts all the damn time, but he doesn't mean any harm. Let me tell you, why did I run in to Chris at Chuck E Cheese yesterday?" I asked dramatically as if she knew the answer. Her mouth dropped. "Please don't tell me y'all got into it?" She asked and I shook my head no. "He was very nice. Surprisingly. He invited me to Christians party and told me to call him." I said blushing. "OH MY GODDDDD!" She screamed and then continued "how'd he look?" "Sexier than ever! But he was there with some pregnant chick and a little boy that looked like he was around Lon's age." "Maybe he moved on." She said as I shrugged my shoulders not wanting to even consider that an option. "Maybe he did." I said starring into space. "I have a new girl that I just hired that's here from North Carolina because her brother is stationed out here." She smiled. What the f*** does this have to do with me? "Anddd" I said simply now wanting to curse in front of Mikey even though I'm about 99.999% sure that Mike curses around him. "Anddd he's single, and your type." She said raising her eyebrows. "What's my type?" I asked doing the same motions with my eyebrows as she just did. "6 feet plus, nice build, tattoos, beautiful smile, great personality." "No Brooklyn!" I said remembering the jack ass she set me up on a blind date with last year. "Come on Paris I promise he's nothing like Vince!" "No Brooke I'm good. I got things under control so stop." "But I already to Monica you'd meet him." I shook my head no. "And plus you need some Paris." She exclaimed causing me to laugh. "Brooke bye." I said getting up. "So you're seriously about to leave?" She asked standing up. I nodded and kissed Mikey. "Tee Tee loves you." I said rubbing his curly hair as smiled. "What you doing tomorrow?" She asked as I started walking to the door. "Treys mothers cooking so London and Trey are going there and I have alone time with my bag of Tricks." I said smiling. "You should come to the spa with me." She smiled. "So you can set me up with that dude? I think not." "He has to work tomorrow I just wanted quality time with my bestie."she said making a puppy face. "Ugh! I swear if he "happens" to be there he'd getting shut down." I said walking away with her laughing.
The next day I woke up to my phone ringing. I answered with out looking. "Hel-lo" "Paris it's 10 o'clock get up." Brooklyn yelled into the phone. I yawned "I'm up, I'm up." I said swinging my feet over the bed. "You better be I'll be there in 30." She said hanging up. I quickly handled my hygiene and put on some black leggings with a hot pink hi low no sleeved shirt and some black, hot pink and white nikes. I put my hair in a curly high bun and put on some studs before I grabbed my jacket and my purse and walked out of my room. The smell of turkey bacon hit my nose and I followed the scent into the kitchen. "Good morning mommy." London said with her hello kitty apron on. She was stirring pancake batter but she had it on her face, in her hair, on the counter, basically everywhere except that bowl. I kissed her fore head. "Morning bae what you making." I asked. "Daddy teaching me how to make hello kitty pamkakes." I smiled and looked at Trey opening the hello kitty pancake maker. He was so good with her. "Good morning daddy." I said as he rushed over and flip the bacon. "Good morning mommy." He said as he looked at me and smiled. "No makeup?" He pointed out as I took the pancake maker out of the box for him. "How do you know these things?" I asked. "Because I always thought you were prettier with put it." He said starring at me. That was so sweet. "Aww" London cooed. "I think daddy likes you." She cheesed raising her little eyebrows up and down. She too smart she'd only be 4 in 4 months. The sound of popping bacon and Trey screaming caused me and London to laugh. "Mommy I can make a pamkake for you too." She said adding salt to her batter. I made a face "no let daddy eat mine, I going to to the spa with tee tee Brooke." "Kiyah too?" She asked remembering she went when Makiyah had her 6th birthday party there. "No babe Makiyah's not going." I said as I heard a horn blowing. "Gotta go. Be a good girl for daddy k." I said kissing her and she nodded. "What about me?" Trey asked. I squinted my eyes at him ad pecked his cheek as he blushed. "Ok be a good daddy for London." "I'll be good for you baby." He said licking his lips. I just shook my head and left.

Brooklyn and I enjoined a relaxing hour massage along with mani's and pedi's. I felt so refreshed. "Lets go get something to eat, on me." Brooklyn said. "Are you dying?" I asked looking at her and she laughed. "No, we just haven't chilled on years." She replied innocently. I made a face and locked arms with her. "Lets go."
She drove us to this new restaurant down town and we parked and went inside. The place was nice, and packed. I guess the church people beat us here. "Look there's my employee." She said looking behind me. I didn't bother to look. "Monica, Malcolm I'm so glad you guys made it." She smiled. "Mo I told you I didn't want to be set up." I heard the male voice say. "Well that makes two of us." I said turning around and facing this handsome guy. We locked eyes for a second before "I'm Malcolm" he said flashing his gorgeous smile and reaching out his hand. "I'm Paris." I said back shaking his hand a little longer than I intended to. "And I'm Monica." The female voice said breaking our moment. "Hi" I said smiling. "Your table is ready." The hostess said as she escorted us to our table. Brooklyn and Monica quickly took seats in front of each other so that Malcolm and I were seated in front of one another. "So why are you being forced on this lunch/blind date?" He asked and then continued "You like girls, your ex is murder, your baby daddy killed your last date?" He joke causing me to laugh. "None of the above. My best friend here thinks I need to date but I'm cool with the way I am. How about you? You're a down low brother, your baby mother cut your last date, or are you married?" I asked the same way he asked me. He chuckled "Nah, none of the above. My sister thinks I need to date because she's tired of moving when I move." He said. "What part of the military are you in?" I asked. "I'm a Marine." He said proudly. I was impressed. Maybe Brooklyn did know my type after all.
After we ate Malcolm and I exchanged numbers and Brooklyn took me home. When I got inside London and Trey were playing Tea Party in my living room. "Hi Love!" I said as London ran to me. "Mommy daddy is the king, I'm the princess and you're the Queen." She said frowning. "What's wrong?" I asked picking her up. "We need another princess for me to play with." She said. I know I give in to her a lot but this wasn't happening. "Come again?" I said to London. "I need a wittle sister, can I have one? Please, please, please??" She pouted. I looked at Trey and he shrugged his shoulders "I don't know where she gets it from." He replied taking off his tiara. "London baby where are you getting this from?" I asked as her eyes watered. "Everybody has a sister and not me! Can you go to the store and get me one?"she asked. I kissed her forehead. "What if we get a puppy?" Trey suggested. "Or a gold fish?" I added and she shook her head no. "I'll think about it." I said just to shut her up. She smiled and I put her down. "It's time for a nap and then you and daddy are going to grandmas for dinner." "Ok" she said walking up the stairs and to her room. "So you not coming?" Trey asked folding London's table. "I don't think so." "You never go and moms always asks about you." He said putting the rest of the toys in the toy box. "Well tell her I said hello." "No I want you there Paris." I looked at him like he lost his mind. "For London." He added and I sighed and walked upstairs to check on London. She was knocked out in her bed and it wasn't even 5 minutes yet. I pulled the cover over her and cracked her door as I walked to my room with Trey following. "So you gone come?" He asked hopeful. "Yeh damn it." I said taking off my shoes. I felt Trey hug me from behind and kiss my cheek. "Quit with the mushy s*** Trey." I said as he started rocking me. "Thank you." He cooed. "You're welcome, now get off of me." "I need to ask you a serious question." He said letting me go and holding my hands. "Don't propose to me because the answer will be no." I said shooting him down. "Nope I wanted to ask will you carry my baby?" He asked. One hello kitty pancake maker- $20. One trip to the spa-paid for by best friend. The look on my face when he asked me to carry his baby- priceless.

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finally caught up!!!! i think it was smart of her to just let them both go instead of tryna choose because she was failing miserably! it seems as tho if she was to choose it would be chris tho judging by the feeling she still gets when she seems him.. and who is the pregnant chick!!? i know that mustve been kinda hard to see.. RUN IT!

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Aww Trey's such a great daddy, and I'm glad he and Paris get along so good, Londy loves her daddy awww. And she's got him wrapped around her fingers it seems. Aight who's this lil pregnant b**** with Chris though? And who's that other lil boy? Glad they're still cordial. Aww Chris invited her to Christians party. Paris need to quit trippin' she know she'll always have a special place in his heart. RUN IT!!!!!

i hope i hope hope thats not his baby momma
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"I think it's best if I leave the both of you alone." I couldn't believe this was coming out of my mouth and by the look on Chris face he couldn't believe it either. I got up and walked to the front door but before I could twist the knob I felt him grab me. "I don't get to reply?" He asked. I shook my head no. " I think you're making the best decision for you. I still love you no matter what ok?" He said looking in to my eyes. I couldn't understand how could he still be so nice to me after I basically just called it quits. If the shoe was on the other foot I would've been raising all types of hell. He hugged me tight and kissed my forehead before I turned and left.

3 years later
"Mommy, daddy's here! Daddy's here!" <a href="">London</a> yelled looking out of the window. I smiled at her, she was always excited to see Trey. I walked over to the door and opened it. "Hey mommy." Trey smiled hugging me. "Hi daddy." I said hugging him back. London ran and hugged Trey's leg. He let me go and picked her up "Hi princess, have you been a good girl for mommy?" She nodded "mommy took me shopping too." She cheesed. "She did? Well I guess we can go do your next best thing." Trey said with his suspenseful voice. "What's that?" She asked confused. "Chuck E Cheese!!" She squealed so loud I thought my windows were going to break. "Mommy can come too?" She asked looking at him. "Only if she wants too." Trey replied looking at me. I really didn't want to go. When Trey's in town, which is every weekend, I liked for them to have their time together. He moved 2 hours away because of his job. He got promoted and they moved him to a location that made it hard for him to comuite. "Please mommy! We never have mommy, Londie, daddy time." She pouted. I hated when she did that. She's my only baby. How could I say no? "Yeh, I'll go." I said and she cheered. "Yay, yay, yay! We're going to have tons of fun. Now I gotta poop" she said as Trey put her down and she ran into the bathroom holding her behind causing us to laugh. "She's a trip." Trey said starching his head. "Yeh I know. How was work?" I asked picking up London's toys. "Work was work, how's everything with you?" He asked as he helped me clean up. "Everything is the same way it was last week." I laughed. He picked up London's hello kitty and threw it at me. "Trey don't start no s***." I warned as he threw another random teddy bear at me. "Tremaine Aldon Neverson." I said "Paris don't call my name like that." "The f*** you gone do?" I challenged. "Call it again and I'll show you." He said raising his eyebrows. "Tremaine Aldon Neverson." I said testing him. He picked me up, threw me on the couch and threw stuffed animals all over me. "You're going to clean this up!" I yelled. He laughed and sat on my thighs. "Ouch Trey! Get off of me." I said trying to push him off. He got up and helped me up "Don't ever test my gangsta again." I looked at him with a straight face and walked off . "Londie you ok in there?" I asked through the door. "Yes mommy I'm almost done." She yelled and I said ok before I went to my room. Trey followed me and laid on my bed. "You letting me sleep in here tonight?" He asked making his self comfortable. I looked at him like he was stupid. "Why you gotta ask me this every weekend?" "Because you might change your mind." He said looking at me. I grabbed my bag and put on my shoes. "Lets go." I said leaving the room. After London finished we all got in Treys car and headed to Chuck E Cheese. When we got there we got stamped, ordered our pizza and got our tokens before I found a place to sit. "Daddy come put me on the horsey!!" London squealed pulling Treys leg. "Do we even get to sit down first?" Trey asked. She shook her head no and he sighed. "I want to play every thing!!!" She said jumping up and down. I sat down and waved as they made their way to the games.
2 hours and 100 pictures later.
"Mommy I'm tired." London said reaching for me to pick her up. I picked her up and she laid her head on my shoulder. "Ok. Lets go home." I said kissing her forehead. "You want me to bring the car around?" Trey asked wiping London's face. "Yeh that'll be good." He exited Chuck E Cheese and walked to the left. I turned my back looking that their pamphlet on birthday parties when I felt London lift her head. "Look ma it's Christian!!" She yelled pointing behind me. I turned around and saw Christian, Chris, a little boy and a pregnant lady. "Look daddy it's London and Tee Tee Paris." He said pointing in our direction. Christian and London both goes to Ms. Joyce's house after school, but I rarely ever see Chris. Chris locked eyes with me and smiled. Christian ran over and hugged me. "London, are you staying?" Christian asked. She shook her head no. "London's tired, we've been here a really long time." I said as Chris walked over. Oh my god the butterflies I had right now were horrible. He looked soo good. "Hey" he said breaking my sinful thoughts. "Hey" I said back as he kissed London's forehead. "Mommy can I get down to show Christian what I got?" She asked. I nodded and put her down as she opened her hello kitty purse and showed Christian what she got with her tickets. "You look good, how've you been?" He asked. "Pretty good. You? You're gaining weight." I said poking his arm. He laughed "I'm good. I'm eating good." I flashed a friendly smile. "Did moms tell you about Christians party next weekend?" He asked. "She did mention it but I didn't think you'd want me there." I said looking down. "Why wouldn't I? You and London are family." I chuckled. "Yeh. We'll come." I said now looking at him. "You still got my number?" He asked. And I nodded which caused him to smile. "Don't be afraid to use it." I nodded as the pregnant lady walked over. "There you are. I thought I lost you." She smiled. I saw Treys car pull up. "Well that's my ride." I said turning my attention to London "come on we have to go." "Ok mommy, bye Christian and uncle Chris she said hugging them both."bye" they both said to her. I kissed Christians cheek and waved at Chris before London and I exited Chuck E Cheese.

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Ok so I decided to keep this going a little longer :D I don't want to end on a sour note or with millions of unanswered questions because I am NOT doing a part two. I don't where this is going right now but hopefully I'll get back on track.



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Oh you did not just stop there.... Really and truthfully I love both guys they both have such good traits and characteristics that makes them special. I'd hate to be Paris. Both are good guys to choose from, I mean yeah they may have f***ed up a couple time but they more then attempted to make up for those mistakes. Me personally I'm semi team Chris right now because of that whole first love history type thing. But then theres Trey they grew up together and were best friends. That's the best love to have is a bestfriend love. They know you better then you know yourself. s*** maybe Paris should just focus on raising and caring for London, and let a relationship find her. RUN IT!!!

crazy cliff hanger, i was not expecting it to end so soon. Please post soon

O naw need to stop plyn wit us and giv us more i wad jus gtn nto the story it was bout to gt good and every thing lol run it

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" Ugh I hated this feeling I have. It's like I love both Chris and Trey but since Trey got shot I just feel like I want to be with him like all the time. I'm not talking about wanting to marry him but I'm afraid to loose him."

I looked at him and shrugged "I don't even know, it's like when he got shot something clicked. I don't want to loose him, he's London's father and I can't do this with out him.

"I can't admit it because I honestly don't know. Like I can see Trey and I being friends. We share a child so who knows what in the cards for us in the future." I replied. "So is this seriously it for us?" He asked. I kept quite as tears streamed down my face. I didn't want to "end" what Chris and I had but its not right for me to string him along. "It's your choice. Whatever you decide I'll respect you decision." I still couldn't talk. It's like who do I choose? Do I go with my first love, the guy who's always been 100 with me, guy that I gave my heart to? Or the do I choose the father of my child, the one who I've been on a roller coaster ride with, the one who's my childhood best friend?"

I think this best sums up who she really wanna be with

She knows she can be just friends with trey and she loves him for the best friend he is and for having that role as a father/dad for london
as far as that goes her heart really belongs to chris
besides i still all for her following her heart and also her dad rick dreams "Ill be happy to walk you down the aisle to Chris arms" or something like that
and idk I just feel more of a chemistry with chris

but if she needs more time to think she should stay at her place and just go down the lane
i think that be a really good add
of all the good and bad between the two
or maybe that can happen when she finally gets married idk

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The next day I woke up to London crying. I wiped my eyes and got off the mattress and picked her up. "Hi London Love, you wakes up?" I cooed as she held on to my shirt. "Let go change your diaper and get mommy's teeth brushed and check on daddy." I said giving her her pacifier. I went to the changing table, changed her and into the bathroom to brush my teeth while London grabbed at my toothbrush. After I finished I went in to Trey's room. "Good morning ladies" Trey greeted. "Good morning" I said opening up his curtains. "I don't know why u act like I can't walk." He said getting out of the bed. "Because your doctor said for you to lay your tall behind down." I said poking his good arm. He laughed and sat back down. "You hungry?" I asked taking his cup. "A little bit, you know I don't do breakfast like that." He replied. I nodded "ok. Oh and I have some where to be in 2 hours." "Ok, you leaving my baby right?" "Heck no, you're not equipped to handle her alone." I argued. " My mother is on her way, I texted you earlier." "You know I hate putting her off on people." "My mama ain't people, she's her grandmother so cut that out. She wanted to come see her today anyway." I nodded "ok" I simply replied before I took London downstairs to feed her.
1 hour 45 minutes later
I was just leaving Treys house. Ms. April was already there so London stayed. I got in my car and made my way to Chris house. When I got there I sighed and got out of the car. I walked slowly to the door and knocked on it. I wanted to turn and leave but he opened the door. I smiled and looked down avoiding eye contact with him. "You can't show me no love?" He asked. I nodded and hugged him quickly before I went into the house. "What's going on?" He asked following me. "Nothing really just took some off time to help Trey." I said sitting on the couch. He sat on the couch adjacent from me and looked at me. Those damn eyes. I felt like he was starring in to my soul. "So you've been with Trey." I nodded. "But what's going on though. You know you don't leave me hanging." "I know Chris it's just that I'm in this f***ed up place." I said looking down. "Oh yeh? You wanna let me know where you coming from?" I sighed "I really don't want to." I mumbled. "What?" He asked. I inhaled loudly "Its like you and Trey and both pulling at my heart." I blabbed. He looked at me wanting more so I closed my eyes. "I love you both, you were my first and only love for a long time and Trey is London's dad, hell I was engaged to him. It's like every time I feel like one person has won the other person picks up the rope and starts to pull again." I confessed. "So you're telling me you're falling or Trey again?" He asked his disappointment written all over his voice. I looked at him and shrugged "I don't even know, it's like when he got shot something clicked. I don't want to loose him, he's London's father and I can't do this with out him." I said searching his face. He let out a little laugh. "Stop blaming it on him being London's father and admit that you're still in love with him." He said calmer than I expected. I honestly didn't know how to respond to that, so I didn't. "Admit it." He spoke a little louder causing me to look at him weird. "I can't admit it because I honestly don't know. Like I can see Trey and I being friends. We share a child so who knows what in the cards for us in the future." I replied. "So is this seriously it for us?" He asked. I kept quite as tears streamed down my face. I didn't want to "end" what Chris and I had but its not right for me to string him along. "It's your choice. Whatever you decide I'll respect you decision." I still couldn't talk. It's like who do I choose? Do I go with my first love, the guy who's always been 100 with me, guy that I gave my heart to? Or the do I choose the father of my child, the one who I've been on a roller coaster ride with, the one who's my childhood best friend? Ugh! This was really hard. I didn't want to be the one holding neither one of them back. They both are good looking guys with lots of things going for themselves, great fathers and all, some woman would be go nuts to have them. My brain, heart and mouth were in different chapters. My mouth opened before I could fully think about my answer "I think it'll be best if I....To Be Continued

Sorry it's short and a cliff hanger. I don't even know what she's going to say and I'm inside of her head lol. Please Comment and Run I should have part two up in a day or two :)

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