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<a href="http://www.hollywoodreporter.com/sites/default/files/2011/03/chris-brown-buzz-2011-a-p.jpg">Tristan</a> is sitting at the bar like he does every Friday night. He doesn’t even know why he bothers anymore, the bar scene seems to get more boring every week. He looks around as he takes a sip of his Hennessey on the rocks; he swears he sees the same people every week; desperate men looking for woman and desperate woman looking for men. Tristan is not a desperate man and he is not looking for a woman. His motto is “never trust a b***h.” He has been this way for years and he does not think it will change anytime soon. All women are evil to Tristan and he doesn’t want anything to do with them. He continues looking around and notices <a href="http://dangerouslee.files.wordpress.com/2012/10/natural-hair-products-for-black-women.jpg?w=300&h=300">a woman</a> he has never seen before. He knows all the regulars and she is definitely not one of them. She is standing awkwardly against the wall with a drink that appears to be cranberry juice in her hand. Tristan looks her up and down and does his normal routine of rating her appearance. Her large, natural hair definitely catches his attention, pretty face, petite little shape squeezed into a fitted dress, and toned legs defined by 4 maybe 5 inch stilettos. Tristan thinks she is the perfect 10 looks wise. The woman catches Tristan staring at her and she looks away awkwardly. Tristan takes this to mean that is shy as well. She is looking around and Tristan just watches her. Tristan snaps out of his daze and looks away; he doesn’t even know why he was staring. Yes she is beautiful, but pretty faces are always deceiving. Tristan finishes his drink and asks the bartender for another one. Tristan only has two drinks for the night and he decides at 1 am, it’s time to head home. He pays and tips the bartender and then gets up from the stool and walks outside. As soon as he walks outside, he sees the woman arguing with this man. Tristan just shakes his head: wonder what the b***h did, is all Tristan is thinking. Tristan walks forward, but stops in his tracks when he hears what sounds like a slap and hears a woman’s gasp of pain. Tristan turns around and sees the woman holding her cheek and the man with his hand up. Now Tristan may hate woman, but he just doesn’t like when men ever put their hands on a woman. Tristan quickly walks over to the man and grabs his arm and spins him around and the man looks at him like he is crazy.

“Weren’t you ever taught never put your hands on a woman?,” Tristan said.

“N***a get off me. This is none of your business,” the man said while jerking Tristan’s hand off of his arm.

“When you hit a woman in the street it becomes anyone who is watching business,” Tristan said boldly.

“Man whatever. This is MY woman, you mind your own,” the man said.

“I’m not your woman,” the woman said softly.

“B***h what you say?,” the man said.

“I am not your woman Michael! You need to accept that!,” the woman yelled. Michael looks like he is about to hit the woman again, but Tristan gets in front of her and lifts up his shirt and Michael sees a 9 mm handgun. He just glares at Tristan and then looks at the woman.

“This isn’t over Malila. We have a lot to talk about,” Michael said. Michael just turns around and walks away and disappears around the corner. Tristan pulls his shirt down and then starts to walk away.

“Wait!,” Malila yelled. Tristan just shakes his head and Tristan hears Malila’s heels clicking as she tries to walk towards him. He hears her picking up speed and she gently touches his arm and then stands in front of him and Tristan just stares at her. He notices her left cheek is slightly red from the slap and her eyes are glassy from tears.

“I….I just want to say thanks for what you did. I really appreciate it,” Malila said shyly. Tristan just nods his head and walks past her.

“Wait…..what’s your name?,” Malila called out. Tristan just ignores her and keeps walking and Malila watched him disappear into the dark. She wanted to thank him personally, but guess she won’t get the chance. Tristan gets to his car and takes the keys from his pocket and unlocks the car doors and gets in the car and just sighs heavily. What he just did was so stupid. He doesn’t know this n***a Michael or what he is into to, Michael could come at Tristan for retaliation. And he did this stupid s**t over a woman?! Yes she got slapped by a man, but hell Tristan doesn’t know her. Why would he stand up for a woman, when he swears he hates every last one of them? Tristan just shakes his head and Malila pops into his mind. She has to be one of the most beautiful women Tristan has ever seen and her sweet smelling perfume is still lingering in his nostrils. Tristan just puts Malila into the back of his head and speeds off home; what is happening to him?

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Tristan wakes up the next morning, Sunday, to the sun beating on his face. He scrunches up his face in displeasure and turns over on his stomach and puts a pillow over his face and groans. He looks on the dresser and grabs his phone and sees it 12:11 pm. He isn’t sure what happened last night, he just knows he went to the bar and now he is waking up in his bed. He yawns and slowly gets out of the bed and sees the trash can full of vomit. He is sure now that he was very drunk last night. He just hopes he didn’t do anything stupid. He is hoping that some female from the bar didn’t bring him home and he did something stupid to jeopardize his relationship with Malila. He sighs heavily and slowly walks to the bathroom; his head is killing him. He closes the door and turns on the light and uses the bathroom and brushes his teeth. He then leaves the bathroom and leaves the bedroom and sees Malila cooking something over the stove in just his white tee. She has her hair in a high bun and Tristan just thinks she looks so good right now. He smiles a bit at the thought of Malila coming to his rescue last night. When Malila sees Tristan open the door, she looks up at him and narrows her eyes at him and then looks back down at the food she is making.

“How are you feeling?,” Malila asked.

“I feel ok…..just an awful headache…..what happened last night?,” Tristan asked.

“Well I came from a night out with my friends and as I was leaving to go to my car, I bumped into you when you were coming out of the bar….and you were wasted. You were going to drive home but I would not let you do something so stupid….so I took you here and stayed the night with you.”

“Oh…..thanks Malila. You really looked out for me and I appreciate that. For you to even take care of me after what I did last night and the night before, means a lot to me…..you really care about me huh?”

“Tristan I just don’t care about you, I love you…..I told you last night while you were sleeping that I could tell you I love you a million times, and it wouldn’t mean anything to you,” Malila said while looking up at Tristan.

“Malila it does mean something to me….to hear you say you love me means everything to me,” Tristan said.

“But not enough for you to say anything back though right? You know….I don’t want to talk about this right now….it makes me too upset Tristan…..but I am glad you are ok…..I wouldn’t know what to do if something happened to you…..are you hungry?”

“Yeah I could eat.”

“Ok well sit down and I will fix you a plate ok?” Tristan just nods his head and sits down at the table and watches Malila cook. He really does love her, but right now, he just doesn’t have the guts to tell her. He sighs heavily and shakes his head.

“…Did you have fun with your friends last night?,” Tristan asked.

“Yes I did Tristan it was a lot of fun…..it would have been better if you were there, since it was a couples night out and I was alone.”

“…I’m sorry Malila.”

“You know you have been saying that a lot lately Tristan….and it doesn’t mean anything to me. Show me you’re sorry don’t just say it.”

“I don’t know what you want from me Malila…..I just can’t….do what you want me to do.”

“The only thing I want you to do is talk to me and express your feelings, that’s it….I am not trying to force anything out of you and I d**n sure don’t want you to say something you don’t mean.”

“Alright Malila. I don’t want to talk about this either.”

“Why am I hitting a nerve?”

“No…..just don’t see the point.”

“Oh, so my feelings mean nothing to you? Is that what that means?,” Malila said while raising an eyebrow.

“No Malila that is not what I meant, please don’t start.”

“So what did you mean? Huh?,” Malila said while becoming aggravated.

“D**n Malila come on, stop. You are taking this way out of proportion.” Malila just stares at him and Tristan sees her lip tremble as tears form in her eyes. Malila throws down the utensils in her hands and starts to walk out of the kitchen, but Tristan gets up and stops her and just wraps her arms around her and holds her tight.

“Let go of me,” Malila said through tears.

“No baby…..just calm down ok?,” Tristan said.

“Why don’t you love me Tristan? What could I have done differently? If you aren’t happy with me, please just tell me…..so we can both move on,” Malila said while crying hard.

“Malila that’s not it.”

“You keep saying that but you aren’t telling me anything different….so what should I believe?”

“Malila….I just need time….to sort out my feelings ok?”

“Fine……you do what you want.” Malila pulls out of the embrace and Tristan tries to wipe her tears, but Malila backs away and wipes her tears herself.

“I’ll finish up your lunch, clean up then I will be out of your way,” Malila said.

“You don’t want to stay with me?,” Tristan asked.

“No I don’t…..it’s too painful…you won’t even talk to me and that hurts….like why did you get drunk last night? Huh? How could you be so stupid?”

“Because you were hurting and that hurt me….I just wanted to forget about all of that pain.”

“Don’t you think that if you got drunk and you would have driven and hurt yourself or someone else, that would have hurt me more?”

“….I wasn’t thinking last night Malila. I know what I did was stupid.”

“Yes it was….if you would have gotten in your car and drove, I would never ever forgive you….you know my brother was killed by a drunk driver and you know how I feel about people that drive while intoxicated!,” Malila yelled in frustration.

“Malila I know I f**ked up, I really know that. What I did was not right and I honestly know that ok?”

“Whatever.” Malila goes back to the kitchen and Tristan just watches her finish up his lunch. Once it is ready, Malila sets a plate in front of Tristan and pours him a glass of water. He sees barbecued chicken, rice and greens.

“Thank you for this Malila,” Tristan said. Malila just nods her head as she starts to clean up the kitchen.

“Baby are you going to eat with me?,” Tristan asked.

“I already ate a little earlier,” Malila said. Tristan just nods his head and says his blessing and then starts eating while Malila cleans up the kitchen and goes into his bedroom and puts on some clothes and gathers her things. Once Tristan is done eating, he puts the dishes in his dishwasher and he sits on the couch and turns on the tv. 15 minutes later, Malila comes out of his bedroom with her purse, a shirt and trash bag in her hands and she is wearing Tristan’s white tee, the pair of skinny jeans she had on last night and the flats she wore last night.

“I changed the linen on your bed and put a new trash bag in your trash can……there is still aspirin on your nightstand if you need it,” Malila said.

“Malila thank you for everything you did last night and this morning…..you took real good care of me and I didn’t even deserve it, but I am thankful. I mean that,” Tristan said.

“…..I just couldn’t watch you hurt yourself or someone else, so it’s no problem….we have to go get your car.”

“Oh ok….let me put on some shorts.” Malila nods her head and Tristan goes into his bedroom and puts on a pair of basketball shorts and a pair of Jordans and then comes out of the bedroom and he and Malila leave to go downtown to get Tristan’s car. The car ride is silent and neither Tristan nor Malila like it, but neither want to initiate a conversation either. Once Malila gets to Tristan’s car in the parking garage downtown, they both get out of the car and look at each other.

“I have to get home to Kevin…..but if you need anything, don’t be afraid to call me ok?,” Malila said.

“Ok thank you again for everything…..I’m so glad I ran into you when I left the bar, because if I hadn’t….I am not sure where I would be right now….so I thank you.”

“It’s no problem.” Malila turns back to her car, but Tristan grabs her arm gently to stop her and she looks at him.

“….Can I at least get a hug?,” Tristan asked. Malila just stares at him and she slowly opens her arms and wraps her arms around Tristan and Tristan wraps his arms around her and holds her tight. He kisses her forehead multiple times and then pulls out of the embrace. He gives Malila a little smile and Malila does the same and then gets in her car and Tristan watches her start it up and drive off. Tristan takes a deep breath and just thinks. He knows exactly what he has to do to make things right between him and Malila, the question is when will he be ready to do so?

this is good girl
malila and tristan are too cute together..when hes not being a jerk hopefully he'll pull it together soon

run it

Thanks you soooo much for reposting the whole story Nicole. Ive been on vacay this last week so I missed a couple adds and Im glad I got to read them. But what happend why'd you have to repost???? Im lost

Anywho I cant belive Tristan got drunk and was gonna drive, Im glad Malila was there to stop him, that was the God/Fates working right there. It sucks Malila's so hurt by him and it'll be nice when he finally can tell her he loves her back because he know he does. I like the girls dudes they seem aight and if Tristan and Malila do get back togehther theyll make a goof couple. RUN IT!!!!

awwwwwwwwwwwwww

Tristan plzzzzz tell her how u feel.... she is hurting and he would be if she up and met somebody else.... then what????

run it!

She really loves him, anyone can see that.
Any one who is there for you, after they hurt you; they are a true keeper!
Better keep that girl around Tristian, or else!

Malila wakes up the next morning, Saturday, at around 9 am. She barely slept last night because she couldn’t stop crying after what happened with Tristan. She is just so hurt. For Tristan to just completely ignore her feelings is a low blow. Malila does not want to see him or talk to him for a few days. She is so angry and hurt both at once and she needs time to think. Malila knows in her heart that she loves Tristan and she can’t see herself breaking up with him, not even if he hurt her. Malila understands that Tristan is scared, but so is she. It’s not easy expressing the feelings you have for someone, especially when you have lost someone you have loved before, but Malila wants and needs love and she knows Tristan wants the same. Malila’s heart is more than ready, but Tristan’s heart is just not ready for Malila and maybe that is something that Malila will just have to accept. She sighs heavily and gets out of bed and goes into the bathroom closing the door behind her. She looks in the mirror and notices her red, puffy eyes. She just looks awful. She just shakes her head and uses the toilet, washes her hands then brushes her teeth and washes her face. She then leaves the bathroom and goes out of the bedroom and sees Kevin in the kitchen.

“Morning baby. You hungry?,” Malila said. Malila fixes Kevin his food and watches him eat. Malila then takes Kevin for a quick walk around the block and then gets ready for her aerobics class. She is so tired, and doesn’t want to teach this class, but she chooses to anyway. She is just hoping that she doesn’t see Tristan at the gym because she can’t face him. She is too embarrassed and if she were to see him, she would probably just burst into tears again and she doesn’t want to do that. Malila gets to the gym at around 11 am and she goes into her classroom and is shocked to see Tristan there, waiting for her. He is sitting on the floor with his back against the wall on his phone. When he sees Malila, he instantly puts his phone away and stands up quickly and stares at her and Malila just looks away.

“Baby….I’m sorry,” Tristan said quickly. Malila just looks down and purses her lips closed and Tristan walks closer to Malila and tries to grab her hand, but Malila backs away and looks up at him and Tristan can just see the hurt in her eyes and that kills him.

“Tristan….I don’t think you have a clue how bad you hurt me last night….it is the worst feeling in the world to love someone and not have those feelings returned….we have spent so much time together and I love you but you don’t love me…..it makes me question a lot of things…..like did I do something wrong? Is something wrong with me Tristan? Is it….is it because we don’t have sex? Huh? Is that why you don’t love me?,” Malila asked as tears rolled down her cheeks.

“Malila that’s not it and you know it,” Tristan said.

“I don’t know anything because you don’t tell me anything Tristan! It’s a battle to get you to express your feelings to me and I hate that….I just know that I love you Tristan. I love you so much…..you have become my life and for you to say that I am not the same to you…..hurts me so bad.”

“Malila I know I hurt you, but I never meant to. I mean that. I’m sorry.”

“Why are you saying sorry like that will actually fix anything? You know what you have to do to fix it Tristan….but you won’t….why did you even come here? Huh? I told you not to talk to me until you knew what you wanted.”

“Malila…I just hate how things are between us right now.”

“Well it’s your fault Tristan!,” Malila yelled.

“F**k this then Malila. If you are going to be stubborn about it, then we don’t have s**t to say to each other then,” Tristan spat. Malila just stares at him in shock as he walks out of the classroom slamming the door behind him. Malila can’t believe Tristan. Sometimes he puts up the cold front he had when Malila first met him and Malila hates it when that happens. He is impossible to get through to when he does that. Malila just sighs heavily and starts stretching for her class. Once class started, Malila felt a little bit better since the class helps take her mind off of her situation with Tristan. Malila is also glad that Shanelle did not come to class today. She hasn’t bothered Malila since their altercation and Malila is thankful for that and hasn’t seen her since. Anyway after class, Malila saw Tristan walking ahead of her to his car and she wanted to talk to him, but she refuses. He has to be the man and talk to her when he is ready. She just watches him because she missed him last night. She was so excited for them to be intimate, but Tristan ruined their whole evening. She just sighs heavily and walks to her car and gets in and drives to her apartment. She takes a shower, fixes some lunch, and then feeds Kevin and takes him for a walk. She then just relaxes around her apartment, but she is bored. She is usually out somewhere with Tristan, but not today. She honestly just wants to call Tristan and apologize but she remembers that she isn’t the one that did anything wrong. Tristan is the one who did wrong and he has to learn that and he has to be the one that makes it right, not Malila. She just sighs and ends up taking a nap and relaxing in her apartment. At around 7 pm though, she gets a text from Erica, reminding Malila that the girls and their men were supposed to go out tonight. Malila completely forgot and she just sighs. She wants to go out, but not with two other couples. That will just make her depressed. She tells Erica that her and Tristan got into an argument and aren’t talking and asks if they can go out another night. Erica tells her that going out could be just what Malila needs. Erica said that she and Austin are already out and Nia and Trent are out as well but they are meeting up at this restaurant downtown. Malila tells them she will meet them there at 8:30 pm. She takes Kevin for his last walk of the day and then she gets dressed, does her hair and makeup and leaves and drives downtown. Once she gets to the restaurant, she gets out of her car and walks in and hears the live music while looking around for her friends. She finally sees a table with Nia and Erica along with <a href="http://cdn.rap-up.com/blog/wp-content/uploads/2011/09/trey-songz-bbma.jpg">Trent</a> and <a href="http://unbiasedwriter.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/08/j-cole-2011.jpg">Austin</a>. She smiles a bit and waves and walks over to them and greets them all with a hug and a kiss on the cheek. The couples sit next to each other and Malila sits across from them.

“Girl are you alright? Tell us what happened,” Nia said.

“Well….I told ya’ll that I had a special evening planned for Tristan…..and he could sense I was up to something so he wanted an explanation….so I spilled my feelings for him. I told him I loved him…..and…..he just left. He just left without explaining or saying anything…..how could he do that? How could I just spill my heart to him and he just ignores that? I’m just……so embarrassed but more hurt…..he broke my heart last night,” Malila said on the verge of tears.

“Oh boo I am so sorry,” Erica said.

“I can’t believe he did that,” Nia said.

“Me neither….but I don’t want to talk about Tristan tonight…..I just want to put what happened in the back of my mind for now,” Malila said.

“Ok well sorry it happened Malila….we can see you’re hurt,” Trent said.

“Yeah you don’t deserve that,” Austin said.

“Thanks ya’ll but I will be alright, don’t worry about me…I am hoping he will come to his senses soon,” Malila said.

“I am sure he will Malila…..he must be scared, that’s the only explanation,” Nia said.

“Yes that is true, but he will realize how good you are to him and what he has in you and I am sure he will tell you those three special words right back to you,” Erica said.

“You two are right….thanks for inviting me out tonight I really need it,” Malila said. They all smile and nod their head at her and they all order their drinks and dinner and Malila has so much fun with her friends. She loves spending time with them and it really helped keep her mind off of Tristan for a few hours. After dinner and dessert with her friends, Nia and Erica decided to stay with Trent and Austin, they are going to a bar, but Malila decides it’s time to go home at around 11 pm. She gives all of her friends goodbye hugs and then leaves the restaurant and walks down the street. As she is walking, she walks past the bar where she met Tristan in and as she is walking, a man stumbles out of the bar and bumps right into Malila. Malila looks at the man and sees it’s Tristan. He just looks at her and Malila stares at him; she can tell he is completely wasted right now.

“Tristan….what is going on?,” Malila asked.

“Nothing,” Tristan slurred his words. He bumps past her and Malila just watches him as he heads toward his car. She runs after him and puts her hand on his shoulder and turns him around and he grabs his stomach and leans over and throws up away from both of them. Malila just gasped in shock and looks at him.

“Tristan…I am driving you home,” Malila said.

“No…..I’m fine,” Tristan said while coughing.

“I am not letting you home drive drunk. You could hurt yourself or someone else.”

“….I don’t need your help.”

“I don’t care….I lost my brother to someone that drove drunk. I am not going to lose you or have another family lose someone because you were stupid tonight and got drunk,” Malila said rudely. Tristan just shakes his head and Malila grabs his hand and puts his arm around her shoulder and slowly walks Tristan to her car since he can barely stand up straight. She unlocks her car doors and then places Tristan inside and he reclines back and closes his eyes. Malila sighs heavily and then gets in the car and drives to Tristan’s condo. Once Malila gets there, she gets out and then gets Tristan out and he threw up again before she walked him up to his condo. She feels around in his pockets for his keys and she takes them out and unlocks his door and walks Tristan in. She closes and locks the door behind her and takes Tristan to his bedroom and she lays him on the bed and he just closes his eyes. Malila just shakes her head as tears fill her eyes; how could Tristan be so stupid? It just doesn’t make any sense to Malila. She takes off his shoes and socks. She then takes off his pants and shirt so he just has on boxers and a beater. Tristan then quickly gets out of the bed and stumbles to the bathroom and Malila hears him throw up. She just sighs and waits for him. Tristan stumbles back into the bedroom and falls on the bed and looks at Malila.

“Lay with me,” Tristan slurred.

“No Tristan…..look I won’t leave you alone here tonight. I will sleep on the couch,” Malila said.

“Baby please,” Tristan begged.

“No….I am pissed at you! Why did you get drunk tonight? Huh? Don’t say it’s because of me because I’m the one who got their feelings hurt not you!,” Malila yelled.

“Malila don’t yell….f**k my head hurts,” Tristan said.

“Oh your head hurts? Let me really make your head hurt,” Malila said rudely. Malila turns on every light in the room and Tristan groaned out in displeasure and covers his face with his hands.

“F**k Malila!,” Tristan yelled.

“Yeah I bet you have a real migraine now…if you want the lights off, you can turn them off your d**n self…..you are so lucky that I caught you leaving the bar or else you would have done something very stupid that I would never forgive you for…..the only reason I am here right now is because I love you Tristan….I told you that last night….you mean the world to me and I could not watch you hurt yourself no matter how mad I am at you….so I will be sleeping on the couch if you need me….I will get you some aspirin and water and a trash can though first,” Malila said. Tristan just watches her wipe her tears and leave the room. A few minutes later, she comes back with a glass of water, a bottle of aspirin and a small trash can. She places the small trash can next to the bed and sits next to Tristan and sits him up. She takes out two aspirin and puts them in his mouth and feeds him enough water for him to swallow them. Tristan lies back down and just stares at Malila.

“Malila….I’m sorry,” Tristan said.

“You are sorry Tristan. You really are sorry…..I don’t know who this Tristan is that has shown up between today and yesterday, but I don’t like him one bit….this is not the Tristan I fell in love with……I just want us back to where we were…..we were doing so good Tristan and maybe it’s my fault because I told you I loved you and you weren’t ready to hear it…..but it’s what I felt in my heart and we are always honest and never have secrets….so I thought….well….I don’t know what I thought….I thought you were happy with me, but if I cause you to get drunk, then maybe you aren’t…..look I’m going to bed,” Malila said as tears poured out of her eyes.

“Just lay with me. Please,” Tristan said with begging eyes.

“No Tristan.” Malila gets up from the bed and Tristan grabs her hand but Malila jerks her hand away and goes into Tristan’s drawer and takes out a white tee and then leaves his bedroom closing the door behind her. Tristan just sighs and squints his eyes. The lights are way too bright for him and he needs to turn them off. Tristan slowly gets out of the bed and he stumbles into his dresser and knocks over his lamp which caused it to turn off. He then slowly walks over to the light switch and turns off the light, but hits his foot on the bedpost and cursed loudly as he fell to the floor. Malila comes into the bedroom with just Tristan’s white tee on and sees Tristan lying on the floor holding his foot in pain.

“Tristan what happened?,” Malila asked while kneeling next to Tristan.

“I fell….I’m fine,” Tristan said. Malila sighs and tries to help him up, but Tristan pushes her away and Malila just looks at him hurt.

“Just leave me alone ok?,” Tristan said.

“Just let me help you up,” Malila said. She grabs his arm and helps him stand up and he sighs and lies down in the bed on his stomach and closes his eyes. Malila pulls the covers over him and watches him. She wishes she knew what was going on his head, but he won’t talk to her. She just wants him to be able to communicate better but she can’t force him; he has to do it on his own. Once she hears Tristan snoring softly she leans down and kisses his cheek and forehead.

“Tristan baby I love you….I love you so much. I can tell you that a million times, but I don’t feel like you know and that hurts me….I just want you to be able to talk to me…..I really love what we have and I don’t want to lose it and I don’t want to lose you…..you need to learn to talk to me….I want us to work this out and I hope you do too,” Malila said as numerous tears built up in her eyes. She quickly wipes her tears and leaves Tristan’s bedroom closing the door behind her. She gets a blanket from the closet and then lies across the couch and cries herself to sleep for the second night in a row.

awwww thank for even reposting hun

i love this story!

run it!

Yayyy I love this story glad u repost it

Tristan better get all of his s*** together!!! I swear!!

Thanks for reposting !!

Runnnnn It !!

*Sighs*

I hope Tristan can get his sh*t together, I already have Jack (From *Her Room*) on my hit list as well as a few other characters..I don't wanna have to add Tristan's name to it as well lol

Run iT! <3

WHEW!! Ok so I just added all of the adds up until now and there will be a new one tonight for you ladies!! :D

So a little past two months pass and Malila and Tristan are very happy together and doing well. Their relationship is progressing nicely ad they couldn’t be happier together. Tristan treats Malila like a queen and Malila treats Tristan like a king. They both like the pace of the relationship, but Malila has something that has been on her mind for a few weeks now. She is ready to take their relationship to the next level, the physical level, but before they do that she has to tell him how she truly feels about him. She honestly loves Tristan and she really needs to tell him tonight. It’s Friday night and Tristan is coming over to Malila’s for a special evening. Tristan had a dinner for work, but he is coming to Malila’s after that. The time now is 9 pm and Malila is looking at herself in the mirror since she is wearing <a href="http://www.wikinoticia.com/images/www.femenino.info.feed/www.femenino.info.wp-content.uploads.V313482.jpg">this</a>. She makes sure it looks perfect and it does. She puts on her black stilettos to match and then puts on her long silk, black robe. She then fluffs her hair out a bit since she is wearing it out. She puts on a touch of makeup and perfume and takes a deep breath. She goes out to the living room and waits for Tristan. At 9:30 pm, she hears a knock on her door. She smiles to herself and gets up from the couch and she opens the door and smiles at Tristan.

“Hey handsome,” Malila said.

“Hey beautiful,” Tristan said while looking her up and down.

“Come in baby.” Tristan nods his head and walks in and Malila closes and locks the door behind him. Tristan sets his overnight bag down and then raises his eyebrows at Malila as he sees candles light all over Malila’s apartment including her bedroom. Tristan also hears slow jams playing in the background.

“Baby what are you up to?,” Tristan asked.

“I just want to have a special night with my man. Sit down on the couch,” Malila said. Tristan smiles and nods his head and sits on the couch while Malila goes into the fridge. She comes back to the living with a bowl and sits next to Tristan and he sees a bowl of chocolate covered strawberries. He looks at Malila and she is smiling and he shakes his head at her.

“Malila seriously what is all of this? What are you up to? Just talk to me,” Tristan said.

“Babe take a bite of the strawberry,” Malila said while holding a strawberry to Tristan’s lips.

“Malila tell me what is going on first,” Tristan said while looking her in her eyes.

“Ok…well…..there is something I need to tell you Tristan…..these past three months or so as your girlfriend have been amazing. You are such a wonderful man and you treat me like a queen Tristan….I know I am special to you because you tell me and show me every chance you get….and I appreciate that….I never really thought I would find someone after Kevin but baby you are a great man….I just know that I am very happy with you and whenever I am with you no matter what, you always know how to make me feel special….so….I guess what I am trying to say is that….I have fallen for you Tristan and I have fallen hard….and…..I love you Tristan. I love everything about you Tristan. I love listening to you talk. I love lying with you at night and just talking with you for hours. I just love spending time with you and I love the way you make me feel….I have gotten to know you and I love you Tristan. I truly love you,” Malila said while looking Tristan dead in his eyes. Tristan’s heart stopped when he heard Malila say those three powerful words. His mouth opens in shock and he just stares at her. Tristan’s silence does not make Malila feel very comfortable about what she just said to him and Malila is searching his face for some sort of response. She sets down the bowl of strawberries and then looks at Tristan. She tries to grab his hands, but Tristan backs away and puts his hands up and Malila just looks at him confused. He stands up and rubs the top of his head.

“Tristan…please say something. You are scaring me,” Malila said. Tristan just looks at her and opens his mouth to talk, but nothing comes out.

“Tristan baby say something…..please,” Malila begged.

“Malila…..I have to go,” Tristan finally spoke.

“What? Why do you have to go?”

“….I can’t handle this right now.”

“What’s this? What can’t you handle?,” Malila said while standing up.

“You telling me how you feel….I’m not ready for this s**t,” Tristan said.

“….What do you mean? Do you not feel the same way about me?,” Malila said while standing in front of Tristan. Tristan can’t even look Malila in her eyes and that broke Malila’s heart into a million pieces. She gasps in shock and puts her hand over her mouth as tears fill her eyes.

“Oh my gosh…..you don’t love me do you?,” Malila said.

“….It’s not that Malila,” Tristan said.

“Then if you do, say you do. If you don’t then say you don’t. Just say something.” Tristan just looks at Malila and Malila stares at him and Tristan just closes his eyes and looks down.

“…Wow….I….I don’t know what to say Tristan…..I thought you were happy with me,” Malila said as tears fell down her cheeks.

“Malila I am and you know that….how can you love me anyway? We haven’t even been together that long,” Tristan said rudely. Malila just looks at Tristan in shock and Tristan knows he shouldn’t have said that.

“Tristan we spend almost every night together….how could I not fall for you? How could I not fall in love with you? I don’t care if we have only been together for three months, I know what I feel and it’s not like or strong like, it’s love. I have been in love before and I know what it feels like and that is what I feel when I am with you….and for you to even question something like this…..really hurts me Tristan,” Malila said while balling at this point. Tristan just looks at her and shakes his head.

“…..I’m sorry,” Tristan said softly.

“That’s all you have to say? Sorry? After everything I just said to you and that is all you have to say to me?,” Malila yelled.

“….I don’t know what else to say to you.”

“How about how you feel about me? If you even have any feelings about me…..so what is our relationship to you? Huh? Nothing? Just something to do? Do you even care about me Tristan?”

“You know d**n well our relationship means something to me Malila…..and of course I care about you Malila how can you even ask me that?”

“Because you aren’t showing me anything Tristan and you d**n sure aren’t telling me anything…..I didn’t think it was too early to tell you how I felt but I guess I was wrong.”

“Malila….I….I just don’t know what to say.” Malila just nods her head as numerous tears flow down her cheeks.

“…..I was ready for us to make love tonight Tristan. I really wanted to share that intimacy with you…..but I guess we can’t do that if no love exists between us huh?,” Malila said while looking at Tristan.

“Malila…..that’s really not the issue,” Tristan said.

“Oh I know what the issue is Tristan. Trust me I do……you’re still using all the s**t that Alicia did to you as an excuse to not let anyone get close to you….the fact that you can’t even say whether you love me or not proves that….you still have it in your mind that I will hurt you somehow when I have done nothing but prove you wrong about that….I have done everything right. I have treated you like the king you are to me and I haven’t done anything to make you question me or not trust me….but you’re still stuck Tristan and you are shutting me out. You can’t accept the fact that a good woman can actually love you without doing something to hurt you and I can’t do anything to change that…..only you can. You are the only one who can open up your heart and accept me and the love I have for you….I have never hurt you Tristan….but you hurt me every time you push me away or hold back your feelings from me…..and tonight, probably hurts me the most. I spill all of my feelings for you and you don’t say anything. You just broke my heart tonight Tristan and I feel like a d**n fool and I want you to know that…..I want you to leave. And don’t you dare come back until you can be a man and tell me just how you feel about me. Don’t call or text me either until you know what you want,” Malila said angrily as more tears swelled up in her eyes.

“Malila….I...I’m sor-,” Tristan is cut off by Malila.

“Sorry is not enough so stop saying it. Just leave. Now,” Malila demanded. Tristan just looks at her and tries to wipe her tears but Malila slaps his hand away. She picks up his overnight bag and hands it to him Tristan sighs and opens the door and leaves and Malila slams and locks the door behind him. She then slides her back against the door and falls to the floor, pulls her knees to her chest and starts crying her eyes out. She feels so hurt. It’s the worst feeling in the world to love someone and not have those feelings returned. She feels like such a fool. Tristan is standing outside of Malila’s door and he can hear her crying hard and he just closes his eyes. It kills him to know he is the cause of Malila’s pain. He just leaves Malila’s apartment in a hurry and gets in his car and throws his bag in the passenger seat and hits the steering wheel and dashing board in anger. “F**k!! F**k Tristan! You f**ked up! Why the f**k couldn’t just tell Malila how you really felt? You know d**n well that you love her too and you have loved her for a while. Why couldn’t you just tell her? Ugh so stupid! How are you going to fix this?! She will never forgive you for this,” Tristan thought to himself. Tristan starts up his car and speeds off home and thinks. Malila was right about everything she said to him. His feelings for Malila terrify him because he has never fallen in love so fast. His past love Alicia was not kind to him at all and Tristan knows he uses that as an excuse to no let Malila get close to him. He knows he needs to stop being a coward and just open up his heart to Malila, but that is honestly easier said than done. As soon as he gets home, he quickly gets out of his car with his bag and goes into his condo slamming his door behind him. He throws his bag on the couch and goes to his mini bar and pours a large glass of Hennessey. He kicks off his shoes and plops down on the couch and sighs heavily. Tristan knows he f**ked up badly and he isn’t sure what he can do to fix this. He looks at the table in front of him and notices a picture of him and Malila that he recently got framed. Malila is sitting in his lap and he has his arms wrapped around her waist and they are both smiling big. He picks it up and stares at it and then shakes his head and takes a large sip of his Hennessey. The way Tristan reacted tonight to Malila’s special night was very stupid. He should be very thankful that Malila took the time to plan a special evening for the two of them and Tristan gets more upset at himself when he thinks about what he and Malila could be doing right now; making sweet love until the sun comes up. He rests his head on the top of the couch pillows and looks at the ceiling. He doesn’t even know where to begin to apologize or make up for what he just did to Malila, but he is hoping that he didn’t just lose Malila forever. Meanwhile with Malila, after about 15 minutes of crying, Malila finally pulled herself together. She wipes her face of her burning tears and stands up from the floor and kicks off her stilettos. She gets the bowl of strawberries from the table and puts them in the refrigerator. She turns on all the lights and blows out all the candles in the living room and kitchen area. She goes into her bedroom and sees the candles, along with rose petals on the bed. She sees the condoms on the dresser and two glasses of champagne. Malila usually doesn’t drink, but it’s only one glass and she wanted to loosen up. She sighs and turns on the light. She blows out all of the candles and then puts the condoms in the dresser. She takes the glasses of champagne and pours them down the kitchen sink drain and then puts the glasses in the dishwasher. She goes back to her bedroom and takes the rose petals off of the bed and throws them away and she then turns off the stereo playing the music. She then goes into the bathroom and looks in the mirror and sees the mascara running down her cheeks. She washes her face completely of her makeup and then puts her hair up in a bun. She goes back to her bedroom and takes off her robe and lingerie piece and hangs them up. She puts on a bra, pair of panties, t-shirt and a pair of booty shorts. She put Kevin in her guest bedroom just so he wouldn’t disturb her and Tristan but since Tristan is gone, she goes into her guest bedroom and sees Kevin sleeping in his dog bed on the floor. She smiles a bit and goes over to him and pets him gently and he slowly opens his eyes and yawns.

“Hey baby…..how about you sleep with mommy tonight? I could really use the company. Come on,” Malila said softly. Kevin barks and stands up and follows Malila to her bedroom and Malila lies down under the covers and Kevin climbs in the bed and lies down next to Malila and licks her face.

“At least you love me Kevin,” Malila said as tears filled her eyes. She gently pets Kevin and he falls back asleep and Malila just sighs as tears continue to pour out of her eyes. She is just so hurt and she didn’t think Tristan could hurt her as bad as he did tonight, even though it was unintentional. How could he just ignore her feelings and not even express his to her? She loves Tristan so much and she wants them to get past this, but right now, she just isn’t sure that they will and Malila cries to herself to sleep with this thought on her mind.

So five days pass and today is Thursday and Tristan is coming back home to Richmond today! He is so excited to see Malila and Malila is beyond excited to see him. They have both missed each other beyond measure and these two weeks felt so much longer, but they are both so glad that the two weeks is over. Malila just cannot wait to see Tristan and Tristan cannot wait to see Malila. Well the time now is a little past 7 pm and Tristan is speeding his way home to Malila. He told her he would be home by 7 since he left at 5 but there was traffic in D.C so he is running a little late. He is about 20 minutes away. He sends Malila a quick text to tell him how far he is and she says that is fine and that she can’t wait to see him. At close to 7:30 pm, Tristan finally pulls up to Malila’s apartment. He quickly gets his suitcase out of his trunk and then runs up the stairs to Malila’s apartment. He quickly knocks on the door and sets down his suitcase and within seconds Malila swings open the door and smiles so big when she sees him and Tristan smiles big as well.

“Baby!,” Malila exclaimed. She jumps into his arms and Tristan holds her tight as she wraps her legs around his waist.

“Gosh it feels so good to hold you baby,” Tristan said while rubbing Malila’s back.

“Tristan baby I missed you so much. Kiss me,” Malila said. Tristan pulls out of the hug and leans in and pecks Malila’s lips multiple times and then looks at her.

“I want my tongue please,” Malila said while smirking.

“Your tongue?!,” Tristan exclaimed.

“Yes MY tongue,” Malila said. Tristan just laughs and leans back in and presses his lips against Malila’s hard and then licks her bottom lip and Malila opens her mouth and Tristan quickly slides his tongue inside of Malila’s mouth and Malila moaned out in pleasure as he did this. Tristan finds Malila’s tongue and attacks it with his and plays with it. Malila moves her hands from around his neck to the back of his head and she caresses it softly. Tristan kisses down Malila’s chin and Malila tilts her head upwards as Tristan licks and suck on her neck.

“D**n I missed you,” Tristan said through kisses.

“I missed you too baby,” Malila said through moans. Tristan sets Malila down and grabs her face and gives her a passionate kiss and then kisses her all over her face and Malila just laughs at this. He looks at her and just hugs her tight and Malila smiles and hugs him back.

“Baby I am so happy you are here. I missed you more than you will ever know,” Malila said softly.

“Malila I am so happy to be back home with you. I missed you like crazy,” Tristan said. Malila pulls out of the embrace and kisses Tristan’s lips multiple times.

“Baby bring your bag in and get comfortable. I made dinner for you,” Malila said.

“Ok,” Tristan said. He kisses Malila’s lips and gets his suitcase and walks completely into Malila’s apartment and closes and locks the door behind him. He takes his suitcase into Malila’s bedroom and sees Kevin resting in his bed in Malila’s room. Kevin quickly stands up and barks loudly and jumps on Tristan and licks his face and Tristan just laughs and rubs Kevin’s ears.

“Aww Kevin did you miss me? I missed you. I hope you kept mommy company while I was gone,” Tristan said. Kevin barks and Tristan smiles and pets Kevin and Kevin gets down and follows Tristan out to the kitchen and Tristan just looks at Malila and smiles big when he sees the sight. He sees two plates of fried catfish, macaroni and cheese, collard greens, and cornbread. He sees two glasses of water, but also a Hennessey on the rocks for him.

“Baby is this all for me?,” Tristan asked.

“Yes baby it is…..I know how stressful your trip was and I just wanted to do something nice for you so you can relax….now come sit down. I know you are hungry,” Malila said.

“…….You’re amazing Malila and I mean that,” Tristan said while looking Malila in her eyes. Malila just smiles and she goes over to him and they share a nice kiss. Malila takes his hand and leads him to the table and he sits down and as Malila turns away to walk to her chair, Tristan grabs her hand to stop her.

“What is it babe?,” Malila said while looking at Tristan.

“I want you to sit in my lap while we eat…..maybe I can eat you instead of this food?,” Tristan said while raising his eyebrow at Malila. Malila just narrows her eyes at him and Tristan winks and Malila laughs.

“Ok Tristan I will sit in your lap. But no funny business!,” Malila said.

“I am not making any promises,” Tristan said. Malila smiles and nods her head and she moves her plate and glass of water close to Tristan’s plate and then she sits in his lap and Tristan wraps his left arm around Malila’s waist and kisses her neck a few times.

“Thank you for this Malila….I really appreciate it,” Tristan said.

“No problem I know what my baby likes,” Malila said.

“You sure do.” Tristan kisses Malila’s lips and then they both say their blessings and start eating. Tristan really did try to just eat, but he kissed Malila’s lips or neck every chance he got and they fed each other and just enjoyed their dinner. They both missed just intimate moments like this while Tristan was away on business and Tristan can’t even explain how happy he is to be back in Malila’s presence. This woman is so amazing to Tristan and he really cares about her and the more he cares about her, the more terrified he becomes. He can’t even compare Malila to Alicia but not even Alicia made Tristan feel the way Malila does. He honestly sees building his life and future with Malila by his side, but he can’t tell her this just yet. He is too scared and that is why he has no problem taking their relationship slow. Tristan just looks at Malila while they eat and just looking at her gets him so hard. Tristan is suffering from blue balls at this point and it’s no joke! It’s actually getting painful for Tristan in all honesty, he needs to bust a nut or two before he goes insane. The last time was with Angela before he and Malila even got together and that was months ago. He is thinking Malila sitting in his lap is not the best idea right now. He has never been so sexually frustrated in his life and this is becoming more and more difficult for him. It doesn’t help that Malila is so sexy to Tristan and does things that turn him in without even knowing she does them. Like the way she bends over to pick up something in the fridge is enough to turn Tristan on. At the same time though, Tristan knows that Malila wouldn’t be keeping her prize away from him if it wasn’t worth the wait. Tristan knows it must be beyond good and he smiles at this thought. Tristan just convinces himself to stay patient. Once Malila and Tristan are done eating, they clean up their dishes and then they both go into Malila’s bedroom. Tristan takes off his shirt and pants so he just has on his boxers and a white beater and Malila just looks at him and Tristan notices.

“What is it?,” Tristan asked.

“Uh…it’s nothing,” Malila said. Malila smiles a bit and goes into the bathroom closing the door behind her. She brushes her teeth and washes her face and then comes out in a beater and a pair of booty shorts. She doesn’t see Tristan in the bedroom so she walks out of it and sees him in the kitchen pouring a second glass of Hennessy. She sees him take a sip and close his eyes as he swallows. He takes a deep breath and opens his eyes and sees Malila looking at him and he smiles at her.

“Just have to calm myself down Malila,” Tristan said.

“What’s the matter?,” Malila said.

“I’m horny as f**k…..it didn’t help that you sat in my lap even though I asked you to,” Tristan said while laughing a little bit. Malila smiles and nods her head.

“When you are done come to the bedroom I will give you a massage to help you relax,” Malila offered.

“I would love that Malila thank you,” Tristan said.

“No problem baby.” Malila walks over to Tristan and leans in and kisses Tristan’s cheek and then goes to the bedroom. Tristan finishes his glass of Hennessy and then puts his glass in the dishwasher and goes into the bedroom and sees Malila sitting on the bed with a small bottle of oil in her hands.

“Take off your shirt and lie down on your stomach babe,” Malila said. Tristan licks his lips and smiles and then takes off his beater and lies down on his stomach just like Malila asked. He rests his hands under his head and turns his head to the left side and closes his eyes. He feels Malila sit on top of him around his lower back area and she starts to slowly massage his shoulders.

“D**n that feels good,” Tristan groaned. Malila just smiles to herself and continues to gently massage Tristan’s shoulders. She takes a small amount of oil and rubs it into his back while massaging it. She massages every inch of Tristan’s back and she knows that Tristan is really enjoying it. After about a 15 minute massage, Tristan turns around underneath Malila so he is lying on his back and he grips her waist and looks at her.

“That s**t felt so good Malila. I needed that,” Tristan said.

“Well I didn’t mind at all,” Malila said. Tristan smiles and grabs her left hand and puts it to his lips and kisses it a few times and then he locks both of his hands with hers. Malila is sitting right in Tristan’s manhood and she can feel how hard he is and feeling him against her womanhood is turning her on so much! Tristan is just looking at Malila and he notices the somewhat noticeable scratch marks on Malila’s cheek and lip from her fight with Shanelle. He sighs and gently rubs her left cheek.

“I’m ok Tristan. The cuts are healing just fine,” Malila said.

“You shouldn’t have even gotten them in the first place Malila, that’s the problem,” Tristan said.

“Well I’m fine baby don’t worry about me ok?”

“S**t it’s not right though Malila you shouldn’t have to pay for my mistakes….Shanelle was just some p***y to me and that’s it, too bad she can’t get that through her big head though….but she is stubborn. When she thinks something is hers, she does whatever she can to keep it….don’t know why I even f**ked with her, I knew she was trouble.”

“Well Tristan that’s your past. You don’t have to worry about that anymore just worry about the present and the future.”

“You’re right….I just want to focus on you and our relationship….what we have really means a lot to me Malila.”

“It means a lot to me too baby…..uh….where do you see us going?”

“…..Let’s just take things one day at a time ok?” Malila just looks at him and nods her head and looks down. Malila feels like she has more feelings for Tristan than he has for her and she does not like the way they feels at all. Malila knows she is falling and falling hard for Tristan but she doesn’t think Tristan is experiencing the same thing. Malila just knows that she is with someone; she goes all out for them. She will do anything for Tristan because she cares about him that much. Malila loves very hard and she knows when she does fall completely in love with Tristan, she will treat him like the king that he is to her. Tristan just looks at Malila and he can tell something is on her mind.

“Babe what’s wrong? Talk to me,” Tristan said.

“….Why do you always avoid questions about the future?,” Malila asked.

“…..I can’t live like that Malila. I can’t say I want to be married in a year or have kids in the next two. I try not to plan things just so they don’t get ruined.”

“Why do you think your plans will get ruined?”

“….You know why Malila.”

“But I’m not her Tristan.”

“Malila you think I don’t know that? I definitely know that ok? I don’t want to argue tonight….I just came back from a two week trip and I don’t want anything to ruin our time together alright babe?”

“You’re right….I don’t want to argue either…..I missed you too much for that.”

“Oh yeah? Show me how much you missed me.” Malila bites her lip and smiles and she leans down and kisses Tristan passionately. Tristan unlocks his hands with hers and grabs Malila’s face and slides his tongue inside of her mouth and Malila moaned out as Tristan did that. Tristan is so d**n hard right now! Malila runs her hands down Tristan’s arms as they kiss and then slides them down his chest and Tristan kind of flinched when he felt her right hand feeling on his manhood through his boxers. He is shocked but he won’t dare complain! It feels too good to him since he hasn’t been touched like this in months. He feels Malila slowly slide his hand inside of his boxers and the minute Tristan felt Malila’s soft hand on his manhood he let out a low grunt of pleasure. He is usually not expressive at all when women touch him or when he has sex, but with Malila everything is completely different. Her touch is so different than other woman he has let touch him so he figures when they have sex he will be yelling like a female! Ha! Tristan isn’t really sure what Malila is about to do, but he knows he wants to find out. He doesn’t even care if Malila only jacks him off; he just wants to bust a nut! Malila takes Tristan into her hand and runs it up and down his shaft. Malila notices that Tristan has a very thick and long manhood and she moans when she feels his size. She takes him out of his boxers and pulls his boxers down a bit and her eyes get a little big in shock when she sees what her man is packing! She is shocked but she is sure she will grow to love it! She takes both of her hands and begins to slowly stroke him while still kissing him. Tristan moaned out loud and closes his eyes. Malila kisses to Tristan’s cheek and to his ear and slowly outlines his ear with her tongue and then bites it gently.

“S**t Malila,” Tristan groaned.

“You like that baby? Huh?,” Malila whispered in Tristan’s ear.

“F**k yes.”

“Mmm baby….you’re so hard….are you going to cum for me? Huh?,” Malila said while kissing Tristan’s ear.

“Hell yeah.” Malila just smiles at him and she goes back to tongue kissing him as she picks up her speed as she strokes him. Malila is trying to figure out what Tristan likes and she can tell that he really likes this. She knows he wants more, but he is just fine with this. She can tell she likes it when she strokes him faster versus slow. Malila continues like this for 15 minutes. She strokes him fast, and whispers sexual statements in his ear as well. Malila can feel Tristan tense up and she thinks he may be ready to cum.

“Awww s**t,” Tristan said lowly. Malila keeps stroking him and he sits up and Malila watches him as he throws his head back and closes his eyes. Within seconds, Malila feels Tristan’s cum shoot into her hands and her shirt. Malila looks down and watches as more cum shoots out of Tristan’s manhood. She can tell he was really backed up because there was a lot of cum! Malila slows down her hand movements and Tristan lies back down in the bed and he takes a few deep breaths before opening his eyes and looks at Malila smiling at him. He sees her hands are filled with his cum and he can see the wet spots on her beater from his cum as well.

“D**n that’s a lot of cum,” Tristan said.

“Yes it is baby….you were really backed up huh?,” Malila asked.

“You have no idea Malila…..s**t.” Malila smiles a bit and she takes a few tissues from her nightstand and wipes her hands and Tristan’s manhood. They both get out of the bed and go to the bathroom and clean themselves up and Tristan puts on a clean pair of boxers and Malila puts on a clean beater. After that, they go back into the bedroom and lie down in the bed. Tristan lies on his back and Malila lies next to him and Tristan grabs her waist and pulls her closer to him and she rests her head on his chest and looks at him.

“….What made you do that Malila? You could tell I had blue balls huh?,” Tristan joked.

“I could tell yes….but I don’t think it’s bad if we explore each other’s bodies even if we only just touch. What do you think?,” Malila said.

“S**t it’s fine with me….when do I get to explore your body? I have a few places I would love to explore…..starting with these full c-cups,” Tristan said while eying Malila’s breasts.

“Freak,” Malila said while laughing.

“Oh I know babe….and so are you…..can I at least see them? Maybe….even suck on them. Would love to leave you a hickey on each one.” Malila just looks at him and speaks no words but her body language tells Tristan everything he needs to know. He licks his lips and rolls on top of Malila and then sits up and pulls her up with him. He pecks her lips and then runs his hands down her sides and lifts up her shirt to her stomach. Malila just looks at him and he gives her a look that says she will be ok and Malila lifts up her arms and Tristan takes off her beater and throws it to the side. Tristan looks at Malila’s full breasts peeking out of her bra and he got hard again, but he doesn’t even care. He rubs her sides and kisses her neck and then looks at her as he unsnaps her bra. Once it is unsnapped, Tristan sees the straps of the bra fall down Malila’s shoulder, but Malila puts her arms over her chest to stop it from falling.

“Let me see them gorgeous,” Tristan whispered. Malila just stares at him and she takes a deep breath and moves her arms and her bra falls down and Tristan removes it completely and sets it to the side. He pushes Malila to lie down just admires her c-cup breasts and chocolate nipples. He smirks and leans down and attacks Malila’s right breast with his tongue and lips. He lets his tongue explore every inch, paying special attention to the nipples. He sucks on them and listens and Malila moaned out in pleasure.

“Mmm Tristan,” Malila moaned. Tristan smiles to himself and moves to the right one and kisses it as well as takes his hands and feels all over them. He kisses down her stomach and kisses to her bellybutton and licked it and Malila giggled because it tickled! He smiles at her and kisses back up and alternates kissing each of her breath. He then proceeds to leave a large love mark on the top part of each of Malila’s breast. Malila was moaning and squirming in pleasure and Tristan had no problem keeping her still. Her moans though are enough to make him climax all over again. Once Tristan is done, he kisses her lips and then smiles at her and Malila smiles back. They both know that sex is an important part of a healthy relationship, and they do not want to rush that. On the other hand, neither of them has a problem exploring the other’s bodies and will gladly do it whenever. Tristan sits up and pulls Malila up with him and grabs her face and kisses her forehead, cheek and lips. He puts her bra back on and then her beater and then he kisses her again and pulls her into a tight embrace. He missed Malila so much while he was on his business trip and he is so happy to be home with his woman.

So a week and two days pass and Malila misses Tristan so much; she can’t even describe it in words. It’s only been a little over a week but it feels like it’s been a year to Malila. In a way, Malila feels clingy since she misses him so much. She has become so close to him and for them to have known each other for just a short period of time that surprises her. She is starting to realize that she is falling for Tristan and she hasn’t experienced feelings like this since her relationship with Kevin. Malila really loves how she feels when she is around Tristan and she can imagine them being very happy together for years to come. She just wonders if Tristan feels the same way. She knows that Tristan is happy with her, but he avoids questions about the future. She knows Tristan is very scared to get hurt again, so she avoids talking to Tristan about too far in the future such as marriage or even kids. Well anyway, it’s Saturday morning and Malila is at the gym getting ready to teach her aerobics class. It’s 11:35 pm and Malila is warming up the class. Just then Shanelle comes into the room along with a friend and Malila notices that Shanelle is wearing a sports bra that shows off her boobs and tight shorts and her friend is wearing a similar outfit. Malila looks at them through the mirrors that cover the front of the classroom and she sees Shanelle point at Malila to her friend and Malila is sure that Shanelle is talking s**t. She just takes a deep breath and continues to teach her class. After her hour class, Malila dismisses the class and starts to clean up. As she is doing so, Shanelle comes up behind her and grabs her shoulder, which causes Malila to spin around and face her.

“Don’t touch me Shanelle. What is your problem?,” Malila said while removing Shanelle’s hand from her shoulder.

“Malila you took something from me and I want it back,” Shanelle said rudely.

“Shanelle I did not steal anything from you.”

“No you did….you stole some very good d**k from me and I don’t appreciate that.”

“Shanelle get over it. Tristan is MY MAN now and he doesn’t want anything to do with a ho like you.”

“Oh you want to get bold huh? B***h you don’t know anything about me or what me and Tristan had.”

“What you did Shanelle. Tristan said he never had any feelings for you and all you two did was f**k.”

“That’s what he said huh? Do you really believe that me and Tristan could f**k as many times as we did and there not be any feelings involved?”

“Yes I do…..look I don’t have time for your bulls**t Shanelle. You’re just jealous that Tristan actually claims me but wouldn’t claim you because you are nothing but a ho. Why would he want to date a ho?” Shanelle just gets mad and punches Malila dead in her eye and Malila stumbled back a bit and holds her eye and looks at Shanelle in shock.

“Shanelle you are not even worth my energy. I am not going to fight you over something that is already mine and that’s Tristan,” Malila said. Malila turns around and continues packing her bag, until she feels Shanelle grab a large portion of her hair. Malila grabs Shanelle’s hands to try and get them out of her hair, but Shanelle is gripping and pulling Malila’s hair so hard. She elbows Shanelle in her stomach forcefully and Shanelle instantly lets go of Malila’s hair and squats over holding her stomach in pain.

“B***h my hair is real unlike yours. I would probably have no problem pulling out one of your many tracks, but I don’t have a reason to fight you. Just give it up Shanelle, Tristan is with me and that is where he is going to stay,” Malila said in Shanelle’s face. Shanelle just pounces on Malila causing Malila to fall hard on the floor on her back and Shanelle scratches the s**t out of Malila’s left cheek and Malila scratches Shanelle’s left cheek which caused Shanelle to punch Malila hard in her mouth. Something took over Malila and she rolled on top of Shanelle and slapped her hard across her cheek and then before Malila can do anything else, Shanelle’s friend came up and pushes Malila off of Shanelle and Malila falls on her back. Shanelle tried to charge at Malila again, but Shanelle’s friend held her around her waist to stop her.

“B***h don’t ever let me catch you in the street! I will f**k you up Malila! That’s a f**kin’ promise b***h!,” Shanelle yelled. Shanelle’s friend just leads her out of her classroom and Malila just sighs. She can’t believe she just got into a fight with Shanelle. Malila is not a fighter, she is too nice for all of that, but Shanelle pushed her buttons and she is trying to ruin her relationship and Malila is not going to just sit back and let that happen. She knows she has to stand up for herself and fight, and she knows Tristan is worth fighting for. She cares about Tristan way too much to just let a ho like Shanelle ruin what they have. Malila looks in the mirror and sees the scratches on her left cheek and her lip is bleeding and she is sure she is going to get a black eye eventually as well. She wipes her lip and grabs her gym bag and goes to the bathroom and wipes the blood from her face and then she goes home. When she gets home, she takes Kevin for his walk and then when she gets back to her apartment, she eats lunch and then takes a shower. At around 2:30 pm, she sees her phone light up as she receives a text message from Tristan. She smiles because she hasn’t talked to him since Thursday since he had meetings literally all day yesterday from 9 am to 9 pm and then he just passed out after that. She picks up her phone and reads the following message: “Hey gorgeous I am just now waking up and I was thinking about you. I want to see your face so do you think we could Skype for a bit? I miss you.” Malila just smiles and she sends Tristan the following message: “Baby I miss you more. I would love to Skype you. I will sign on now.” She sets her phone down and gets out her laptop and turns it on and signs in to Skype immediately. She will not even hide the marks from her altercation with Shanelle since she doesn’t hide anything from Tristan. 15 minutes later she sees Tristan sign into Skype and she video calls him immediately. She patiently waits and within a minute she sees Tristan face pop up onto her screen and she smiles big and waves. Tristan smiles back, but his smile instantly turns into a frown when he sees Malila’s black eye, scratched up left cheek, and a small cut on her bottom lip, the lip Tristan loves to suck on every chance he gets.

“Malila….what the f**k? What happened to you?,” Tristan said.

“….After my aerobics class today me and Shanelle got into an altercation,” Malila said while sighing.

“What? Malila you’ve got to be kidding me. What did she say to you?”

“She said I stole something from her and she was referring to your….to your d**k and she said she wanted it back….I told her off and said that you were with me and you didn’t want anything to do with her since she was a ho and then she punched me in my eye. Then I told her she wasn’t worth the fight and I turned away from her and then she grabbed me by my hair and she was pulling it and I elbowed her in the stomach. I told her that my hair was real unlike hers and then she pounced on me and she scratched my cheek and punched me in my mouth and I scratched her cheek and then I flipped on her and slapped her across the face and then her friend that she came to my class with pushed me off her and held her back while she said she was going to f**k me up if she saw me in the street….I can’t believe it even happened Tristan…..I’m not a fighter I am too nice for all of that, but she really pushed my buttons today. She is trying to ruin our relationship and I won’t let her,” Malila said.

“D**n Malila….I’m sorry about this…..I should have known that treating women like s**t and using them for sex would be back to bite me in the a** one day…..it’s karma, but I am sorry you have to pay for what I did, that isn’t right.”

“It’s not your fault Tristan I don’t blame you……it’s not like every woman you have slept with is harassing me.”

“No but what Shanelle is doing is enough for all of them. I’m so sorry babe are you alright?”

“I’m ok Tristan don’t worry.”

“I feel awful…..but best believe that if I see Shanelle I will f**k her up now that’s a promise.”

“Tristan I don’t want you doing anything stupid…..but on another note I miss you baby.”

“Malila I miss you too. So much…..never really missed anyone the way I miss you right now.”

“Aww Tristan you are so sweet. I can’t wait until you come home. When you do come back to Richmond, just come straight to my place. I will have a special evening for you ok?”

“Mmm really? Well does that special evening include you opening up the door butt naked with some stilettos on, taking me by the hand and into the bedroom? And then you give me a little dance and then you lie me down on the bed and strip me naked and then you give me a nice massage, but only about 5 minutes into it, I can’t take it anymore and I just flip on top of you and f**k you until the sun comes up?,” Tristan said while grinning hard.

“Baby how did you know that is what I was going to do? You’re a mind reader now?,” Malila said sarcastically.

“Oh haha you got jokes…..I can dream can’t I?”

“Of course you can, but I will have something nice for you to welcome you back home.

“You’re so sweet. Thank you baby and I can’t wait. These five days just need to hurry up.”

“Yes baby I agree….how are your meetings going?”

“Baby they are good but so long. I am exhausted that is why I slept in so late today. Every day my meetings last at least twelve hours. It’s pretty tiring.”

“Aww my poor boo.”

“I wish you were here with me. At least when I came back to my hotel at night, I would have something very nice to come back to.”

“Oh Tristan you’re a sweetheart.”

“So are you Malila…..well it’s Saturday night do you have any plans? Besides having wet dreams about me when you sleep?”

“Oh haha whatever….actually me and a two of my girlfriends are just going to go out to dinner you know have some girl talk.”

“That sounds really nice Malila. I would like to meet your friends you know.”

“Thank you….they both want to meet you so bad since they say you are all that I talk about…..and they both have boyfriends as well….do you think we could all go out sometime? You know I think it would be good for you to have some male friends you can talk to. I think that will be good for you Tristan.”

“…..You’re right Malila. It would be good for me. I can’t even lie sometimes I do wish I had friends to talk to….you know about male stuff…..I mean you know I can talk to you about anything, but you know what I mean.”

“Yes baby I know what you mean….you can talk to your boys about what I do that bothers you just how us women talk about what our men do that bothers us,” Malila said while smirking.

“Oh so you be s**t talking about me to your friends huh? Ok I see how it is Malila,” Tristan teased.

“I’m only joking…..mostly Nia and Erica talk about their sex lives…..they both f**k like rabbits it’s disgusting.”

“Mmm soon enough you will be telling them how we f**k like rabbits too.”

“All these jokes today huh Tristan?”

“S**t you know I’m right. Maybe when I come back from this trip, I will just get you so sexually excited that you will just want to put it on me.”

“You’re not cute Tristan. Not at all.” Tristan just laughs and Malila pokes out her tongue at him.

“Wish I was there to suck on that tongue,” Tristan said while narrowing his eyes at Malila.

“You’re so nasty just a straight up freak,” Malila said.

“F**k I know that Malila and I will be happy to show you. Just let me know when.” Malila just laughs at him. She loves how they can have all these sexual talks without each other getting aggravated. They can joke around about it and that makes it easier for Malila and Tristan to respect the fact that they don’t want to or need to rush sex. Tristan and Malila talk for another hour before hanging up their video call. Malila is so happy that she got to see Tristan’s face since she really misses him. She knows the last five days will fly by. Malila takes a quick nap and then she feeds Kevin and takes him for a walk and then comes back to her apartment and gets ready for her dinner with her girls. They are going to this bar and grill downtown that has the best wings and they are just going to have a good time. Malila gets to the bar and grill downtown at 7:30 and she sees <a href="http://brownsugarbeauti.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/03/yaya-hair.jpg">Nia</a> along with <a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-NwWjcBU4aog/ThsU-vcOl5I/AAAAAAAAAX8/JF9Lj2nASxc/s1600/solangeknowles.jpg">Erica</a> sitting at a booth talking. Nia sees Malila and smiles and waves big and Erica waves at her as well. Malila smiles and waves at the both of them and they stand up as Malila walks over to the booth and hugs them both and kisses their cheeks.

“Hey Malila you look nice,” Nia said.

“Yes you do and I am borrowing those stilettos,” Erica said while eying Malila’s red bottoms stilettos.

“Thanks ya’ll,” Malila said. Malila, and Erica sit next to each other and Nia sits across from them. Malila takes off her jacket and sets down her purse and starts to look through the menu.

“Girl are you holding up without Tristan? You aren’t depressed are you…..uh wait a minute. Why do you have a black eye, and scratches on your cheek?!,” Nia exclaimed. Erica grabs Malila’s face and looks at it and notices the cut on her bottom lip as well. Malila tried her best to cover the marks with makeup, but she obviously did not succeed.

“And this cut on your bottom lip! Did you get into a fight?,” Erica said while letting go of Malila’s face.

“You two aren’t going to believe this but I got into a fight with Shanelle,” Malila said.

“What?!,” Nia and Erica exclaimed in unison.

“Oh h**l no that b***h,” Erica said.

“What happened?,” Nia said.

“Well she is in my aerobics class and after class this morning she was talking all this s**t to me saying I stole something that was hers and she wanted it back…..she was talking about my man’s…you know….manhood and I told her that my man didn’t want anything to do with a ho like her and this b***h punched me in the eye. I was trying to be the bigger person so I told her that she wasn’t even worth fighting and I turned away from her and she grabbed my hair and started pulling on it hard. She thought she was going to get some tracks but my hair is real unlike hers so she didn’t get anything. I elbowed her in the stomach and she let go of my hair and I just told her again I’m not going to fight you, then she just pounced on me and I fell on my back with her on top of me and she scratched my face, then I scratched her cheek then she punched me in the mouth and I flipped on top of her and slapped her across the face and then her friend pushes me off of her and she leaves saying she is going to f**k me up if she sees me in the street,” Malila said.

“Not if I f**k her up first…..she has some nerve. Tristan does not want her she needs to get that through her head…..I swear to you I hate that b***h. She tried to tell me that she seduced Trent when he went out with his boys to the bar and f**ked him, but I know better and so does he. Trent would never cheat on me I know that for a fact,” Nia said.

“S**t she said the same thing to me about Austin. She is just the city ho and she will do whatever she can to break up happy relationship since she will never have one. No man dates and definitely will not wife a ho like her,” Erica said.

“Ya’ll are right….you two know I am not a fighter, but she just really pushed my buttons today….she is trying to break me and Tristan up, but I can’t have that,” Malila said.

“Yes Malila you are usually the sweetheart of the group…..but even the sweetheart has to beat a ho’s a** at least once, especially if she is messing with your man,” Nia said.

“Exactly…..so Tristan is worth fighting for huh?,” Erica asked. Malila just looks down and she smiles to herself and she blushes a bit.

“Awww Malila!,” Erica and Nia shrieked in unison.

“Ya’ll stop…..you two know how much I care about Tristan. These nine days without him have been hard and I wasn’t expecting that since we haven’t even known each other too long nor been together that long…..but he makes me really happy and…he is worth fighting for…..when I think about the future I see him and us together in all honesty,” Malila said.

“Well that’s great Malila….you deserve to be happy with Tristan. Me and Nia both know how happy he makes you. You talk about him all the time and whenever you do talk about him, you always smile and your face lights up,” Erica said.

“Yes Malila….and we would love to meet him one day too just to make sure he isn’t imaginary,” Nia joked.

“Oh haha….I want him to meet you two and he wants to meet you both….I told him that you both have boyfriends and we could all go out together….Tristan doesn’t have anybody but me….but I want him to make some male friends at least. I think that will be good for him,” Malila said.

“Sure I am sure Trent wouldn’t mind,” Nia said.

“And neither would Austin. We would all love it,” Austin said.

“Good….so I take it you and your men are still doing good?,” Malila asked.

“Girl yes me and me and Trent are great…..we had a little argument this morning, but he came to the back during my lunch break and well….you know….we made up on my desk,” Nia said while laughing.

“Our boss is going to catch you one of these days…..with your nasty a**,” Malila said.

“Seriously……but Austin came through during lunch too and well the boss caught us and gave me a warning,” Erica said while laughing.

“Are you serious?!,” Malila said.

“Girl yes…..Austin’ horny a** just knocked everything off of my desk and didn’t even close the door all the way and when our boss came in, my skirt and panties were up around my waist and Austin had me in doggy style position…..I wasn’t really embarrassed but more mad because me and Austin were about to nut!,” Erica exclaimed. All three woman just bust out laughing!

“See you’re the nasty one! At least I close and lock my door when me and Trent do it,” Nia said.

“Oh whatever,” Erica said.

“Malila when are you and Tristan going to f**k already?,” Nia asked bluntly.

“Nia! Why are you so explicit all the time?!,” Malila questioned.

“Well I was wondering the same thing…..those wet dreams you have about him are no joke,” Erica said.

“I know they are pretty ridiculous and feel so real….but I don’t want to rush it with Tristan, but I can tell it’s hard for him…..he was use to calling up some girl and getting sex whenever and wherever he wanted it and now…..he gets nothing. When he is sexually excited he just stays that way….it’s not that I don’t want to, I just think it’s too early in the relationship,” Malila said.

“You’re right Malila and you shouldn’t rush it…..shoot I forgot that I waited 3 months into the relationship before I gave it to Trent,” Nia said.

“Yes and I waited 2 months,” Erica said.

“But I just know that me and Trent did it that first time, I wished I would have done it sooner! I was keeping some good d**k from my own d**n self!,” Nia exclaimed.

“I know that’s right I felt the same way about Austin!,” Erica said. Nia and Erica high five and Malila just laughs at them.

“Ya’ll are crazy,” Malila said.

“Just wait until you’re ready. If you even have to question if the time and place is right, then don’t do it,” Nia said.

“Nia’s right…..but Malila it has been so long for you. Three years? Girl I don’t know how you do it, but I sure do respect it,” Erica said while laughing.

“Thanks….it gets hard because when Tristan just looks at me sometimes I swear my panties get soaked and when he touches me…..gosh I swear I could just let him lie me down and do whatever he wants to me,” Malila said.

“You know you two could fool around. Just to make you two more comfortable with each other’s bodies so when you do finally do it, you two won’t feel like two virgins all over again and so you won’t be completely embarrassed when you both see each other naked for the first time,” Nia suggested.

“Yeah like ask him what he likes or how he likes to be touched and he can do the same for you….you can do this with or without clothes, but sometimes it’s hard to just fool around without clothes on….but don’t be afraid to touch him. If you two are sitting on the couch or lying down in bed, just put your hand in his pants and play with him I am sure he won’t mind,” Erica said.

“Exactly just start with the little things and then go all the way, but do it at your own pace,” Nia said.

“Right. Then in no time that freak that we know lives inside of you will be ready to come out and play,” Erica said.

“Mmm you two are right. I will give your suggestions a try,” Malila said. Erica and Nia smile and nod their heads and a waiter comes a few minutes later and takes their drink and food orders. Malila just enjoys a nice evening with her friends; she really needed this. Joking and laughing around with her friends really helps Malila take her mind off of Tristan and how much she misses him. Just five more days, and Malila and Tristan will be reunited and neither of they both can’t wait.

Malila wakes up the next morning at 6:30 am. She sits up in the bed and looks next to her and doesn’t see Tristan. She sits up in the bed and sees Tristan sitting at his desk all dressed, working on his laptop. She smiles and gets out of the bed and walks up behind him and wraps her arms around his neck.

“Morning baby,” Malila said.

“Morning gorgeous,” Tristan said. Malila kisses Tristan’s cheek and Tristan grabs her arm and pulls her so she is sitting in his lap and he gives her a nice kiss.

“Baby when are you leaving me?,” Malila asked while frowning a bit.

“Whenever you leave babe. I want us to leave out together,” Tristan said.

“Oh ok well is there a certain time you have to be in D.C?”

“Well my first meeting of the day is at 10 so I want to be in D.C by at least 10 so if you could be ready by 8?”

“Of course baby I will be ready. You all ready for your trip?”

“Yes I am all packed and everything….don’t really want to say goodbye to you though.”

“I know baby I don’t want to say goodbye to you either Tristan. I am going to miss you so much.”

“I bet I’ll miss you more.”

“Mmm I doubt it.” Malila leans in and pecks Tristan’s lips and then gets out of his lap and goes into the bathroom and picks up her toothbrush, puts a dab of toothpaste on it and then starts brushing her teeth. Tristan just watches her and smiles to himself. Tristan loves how comfortable Malila is in his house and he honestly wouldn’t mind waking up to her every morning and going to sleep with her every night. They hardly spend their nights alone these days and Tristan loves that. He loves cuddling with Malila and just talking to her about anything and even two weeks without that will seem like forever. Malila can feel Tristan looking at her and she looks at him and makes a funny face at him with a mouth full of toothpaste. Tristan just laughs and so does Malila and she looks back in the mirror and continues brushing her teeth. Tristan shuts down his laptop and then puts it in his laptop travel case. He goes into the kitchen and fixes Kevin a bowl of food along with water and then goes into the bedroom and sees he is still sleeping. He smiles a bit and leans down and pets him gently. He goes back out to the kitchen and fixes Malila a tomato, broccoli and cheese omelet and strawberries. He sets her plate on the table and then fixes her a glass of orange juice as well. As soon as breakfast was ready, Malila came out of Tristan’s bedroom with Kevin behind her.

“Tristan you made me breakfast?,” Malila asked.

“I sure did. Come sit down,” Tristan said.

“Aww thank you baby. I should have made you breakfast since you are the one leaving.”

“Don’t worry baby I just wanted to do something nice for you. Sit down and eat.” Malila smiles and nods her head and she sits down and Kevin goes over to his food and starts to eat. Malila says her blessing and then takes a bite of her omelet and then looks at Tristan.

“Is it ok?,” Tristan asked.

“It’s delicious Tristan thank you so much,” Malila said.

“It’s no problem at all…..Malila I am really going to miss you….usually when I go on business trips I don’t worry about anyone but myself and it’s not like I am leaving anyone behind….but now I am leaving you behind and I won’t like it one bit…..you’ve become a very special person in my life Malila I hope you know that.”

“I know that Tristan…..you’re special to me too….you really mean a lot to me.”

“It means a lot to hear you say that…..I am going to call you every chance I get and web chat as well….maybe you can give me a little private show or something,” Tristan teased.

“Boy please,” Malila said while laughing.

“Boy? Malila I am not a boy I am a grown a** man…..would you like for me to show you how grown I really am?,” Tristan said while looking towards his manhood.

“Tristan please I am trying to eat.”

“Oh you got jokes huh?” Malila just looks at him and winks and Tristan shakes his head while laughing. Tristan sits next to Malila and kisses her cheek multiple times and then moves her hair to the side and kisses down the back of her neck and starts sucking on it hard.

“Babe what are you doing?,” Malila asked.

“Marking my d**n territory,” Tristan said through kisses, licks and sucks.

“No not another one,” Malila whined.

“Oh yes another one…..I wish I could leave it somewhere else though,” Tristan said softly.

“Mmm….where baby?”

“Where the sun don’t shine baby.” Malila just bites her lip and moans.

“Baby…I don’t want to go to work horny,” Malila said.

“Too late for that.” Malila just laughs and once Tristan is done giving her a huge hickey on the back of her neck he looks at her and smiles and kisses her lips.

“That wasn’t right and you know it,” Malila said while eating.

“But it was fun,” Tristan said while smirking. Malila just narrows her eyes at him and Tristan kisses her nose. Malila and Tristan talk while Malila finishes up their breakfast and then they both get their things and head out to their cars. Malila puts her overnight bag and Kevin in the car and waits as Tristan puts his suitcase and laptop case in the trunk. Once he closes it he looks at Malila and walks over to her and wraps her arms around her waist and Malila wraps her arms around his neck.

“I know I keep saying this, but baby I am going to miss you,” Tristan said.

“Tristan I am going to miss you too…..I just keep telling myself that it’s only 2 weeks,” Malila said.

“You’re right the time should fly by….but I feel like it will seem like forever….I am going to miss waking up to this pretty face,” Tristan said while rubbing Malila’s cheek.

“I am going to miss waking up to your sexy a** too,” Malila said while smirking.

“You’re crazy,” Tristan said while laughing.

“Whatever you like it.”

“You d**n right I do.” Malila and Tristan share a laugh and then Tristan pulls Malila close and hugs her so tight while rubbing her back gently.

“You have a safe trip baby and you call me as soon as you get into D.C ok?,” Malila said in Tristan’s ear.

“I will baby I promise,” Tristan said. Tristan and Malila hug for a few minutes and then Tristan pulls out of the embrace and takes Malila’s face into his hands and leans down and pecks her lips a few times and then gives her a long passionate kiss. After that he pulls her into another embrace and holds her tight; he doesn’t want to leave her. Tristan reminds himself though that it’s only two weeks and he will see Malila again in no time. He pulls out of the second embrace and kisses her lips again and then Malila kisses Tristan all over his face and Tristan just laughs at this.

“Ok baby I will let you get going. Be safe,” Malila said.

“Ok I will. I will call you as soon as I get to D.C. babe,” Tristan said.

“Ok.” Malila pecks Tristan’s lips and then he gets in his car and starts it up and looks at Malila and smiles big and waves and Malila smiles back and blows him multiple kisses. Tristan gives Malila a funny kissing face and Malila laughs and Tristan waves and then drives off and Malila just watches him leave. She is going to miss him so much, but she knows Tristan will be back in no time.

Tristan wakes up the next morning, Wednesday at around 6 am. He sits up in the bed and yawns and stretches. He looks next to him and sees Malila sleeping peacefully. She doesn’t get up until 6:30 and he doesn’t want to wake her. Tristan smiles at the sight of her and he brushes a bit of her hair out of her face and leans down and kisses her cheek and forehead. He slowly gets out of bed not wanting to wake Malila up and he uses the bathroom real quick. He then brushes his teeth and washes his face and leaves his bedroom and sees Kevin is awake. Kevin walks over to him and Tristan pets him.

“Morning Kevin. Let’s take you on your walk before mommy gets up,” Tristan said. Tristan gets Kevin’s leash and then hooks it to Kevin’s collar and gets his keys and leaves with Kevin locking the door behind him. He walks outside with Kevin and walks around the block, while letting Kevin do his business in the process. After a 20 minute walk, Tristan takes Kevin back into the condo. He lets Kevin off of the leash and closes and locks his door behind them. Tristan goes into the cupboard and fixes Kevin a bowl of water and then goes into the bedroom and sees Malila sitting up in the bed yawning.

“Hey beautiful,” Tristan said.

“Good morning handsome,” Malila said. Tristan smiles and walks over to the bed and sits next to Malila and holds her waist and gives her a peck on the lips. Tristan pecks Malila’s lips a few times until he notices his phone vibrating. He looks at it then looks at Malila.

“Who could this be?,” Tristan asked. Malila picks up his phone and hands it to him and Tristan sees a new picture message from an unknown number, since he deleted all of his contacts but Malila from his phone. He has a feeling this is Shanelle trying to be slick and then a text message comes in and Tristan opens it and it reads: I know you miss this p***y daddy. Come get a taste tonight ;). Tristan just shakes his head and deletes the text message and the picture message without even looking at it. He knows both are from Shanelle and he does not even want to deal with her.

“Anything important?,” Malila asked.

“No just Shanelle trying to be sneaky….I have to be honest babe. Ever since we made our relationship official, I deleted everyone’s contact in my phone except yours. You know I don’t have any family or friends, so you are the only contact I have left,” Tristan said.

“Tristan really?,” Malila asked.

“Yes baby really…..I don’t need any of these females that I use to f**k with numbers anymore now that I have you.”

“Oh baby that’s really sweet…..but don’t you have any male friends that you like to chill with? You know I would not mind you having any friends, male or female.”

“No I don’t Malila…you know I am a loner….you’re pretty much all I have.” Malila just smiles at him and kisses his cheek and then pulls him into an embrace. It’s kind of sad to Malila that Tristan doesn’t really have any friends, or anyone he can just talk to when he needs to, other than her. She doesn’t mind at all being all that Tristan has though, but at the same time she wants him to branch out and meet new people. Malila gently rubs the back of his head and then kisses his left cheek a few times. She kisses his forehead and then pulls out of the embrace. Tristan checks his email on his phone while Malila stretches.

“Aww s**t,” Tristan said.

“What is it?,” Malila asked.

“Babe I totally forgot I have to go on a business trip tomorrow to Washington D.C.,” Tristan said.

“Really? For how long?”

“Two weeks.”

“My baby is going to be gone for two weeks?,” Malila said while frowning.

“Yes I am….d**n I meant to tell you sooner but it slipped my mind.”

“It’s ok Tristan….I am really going to miss you though.”

“Malila I am going to miss you too…..a lot.”

“Well are you going to drive to D.C.?”

“Yes I am it’s only about a two hour drive….I wish you could come with me Malila.”

“I wish I could too Tristan….I already know I won’t like being away from you…we usually see each other almost every day then I won’t see you for two weeks.”

“I feel the same way…but I will call you every day and we can web chat if you want to….I don’t want to go two weeks without seeing this pretty face,” Tristan said while rubbing Malila’s left cheek. Malila just smiles and rests her hand on top of Tristan’s hand that is on her face.

“Alright, go take your fine a** and get ready for work,” Tristan said. Malila just giggles and Tristan just glares at her and Malila winks at him and bites her lip.

“One of these days Malila….I am going to teach you a lesson for doing that s**t to me,” Tristan said.

“Mmm no you won’t,” Malila said while getting out of the bed. She laughs a bit and checks on Kevin before coming back to the bedroom and she doesn’t see Tristan. She gets her overnight bag and goes into the bathroom and closes the door and sets down her bag and Malila is grabbed from behind and she gasped in shock and is pulled so her back is against the door and is face to face with Tristan with pure lust in his eyes.

“Who said I won’t teach you a lesson huh?,” Tristan said sexily. Malila just stares at him because he just turned her on so much! Tristan grips Malila’s waist tight and leans in and starts sucking on Malila’s neck. Malila got weak in the knees and almost fell to the floor but Tristan held her up.

“Mmm baby,” Malila moaned. Tristan licks and sucks for a few minutes and then pulls away and just looks at Malila with her eyes closed and biting her bottom lip. Malila opens her eyes and just stares at Tristan and he smiles and licks his lips.

“I hope you learned your lesson now….if not….I will keep teaching you,” Tristan said. Tristan kisses Malila’s lips and Malila grabs his face and kisses him passionately. Tristan runs his hands up and down her stomach and then grips her waist and lifts her up and Malila wraps her legs around Tristan’s waist and rests her hands on Tristan’s shoulders as she slides her tongue inside of Tristan’s mouth. Tristan gladly accepted and uses his tongue to play with Malila’s tongue. Hearing Malila moan as they kiss turns Tristan on so much and he can feel his manhood growing and Malila can feel him growing against her as well. She can feel he is not small at all and she just moans at this thought. Tristan licks his way from Malila’s mouth to her ear and he gently bites it and kisses it. Tristan stops what he is doing and looks at Malila as she is panting hard. He sets her down and then Malila just stares at him.

“Malila….you need to get ready for work,” Tristan said while looking away.

“Uh….yes…I do,” Malila said. Tristan kisses Malila’s cheek and then opens the door and leaves closing it behind him. Malila smiles to herself and looks in the mirror and sees a huge hickey on the side of her neck. She laughs to herself because the outfit she brought to wear today does not cover her neck so it will just have to be exposed today at work. She knows a few of her female co-workers are going to definitely say something about it as well. Malila takes a deep breath because what just happened between her and Tristan just really turned her on. Anytime Tristan even touches Malila, she gets so sexually excited and she wishes they could do more, but she doesn’t want to rush sex. She wants them to be intimate but they haven’t been together long enough, at least for Malila. She just hopes that Tristan can be patient with her. With Shanelle in the picture, she is just hoping Tristan can resist temptation. Malila thinks that Shanelle is attractive and has a lot more body than her, so she knows that Tristan could be tempted. But at the same time, she knows that Tristan will not hurt her intentionally. Malila takes out her toothbrush and toothpaste and starts to brush her teeth. She then washes her face and takes a quick shower. She then dries off, lotions up and gets dressed. She does her hair and makeup and then comes out of the bathroom with her bag and sees Tristan sitting on the bed writing in a notepad. Tristan looks at Malila and smiles a bit and Malila smiles back.

“Tristan I’m sorry,” Malila blurted out.

“Malila sorry for what?,” Tristan asked,

“For what happened in the bathroom.”

“Malila why are you apologizing for that?”

“I just….feel bad I guess….I can’t really give you want you want Tristan.”

“Malila how can you say that? I don’t want you to do anything that you do not feel ready to do and I know that includes sex right now…..s**t it’s hard for me sometimes, but since we are in a relationship, I rather wait for you, than do it with someone that doesn’t mean anything to me. Do you hear me?”

“Yes Tristan I do. Thank you.”

“Come here gorgeous.” Malila walks over to the bed and sits next to Tristan and Tristan kisses her cheek and then hugs her tight.

“Malila you do not have to feel bad at all for waiting for us to have sex….I will wait for you and I mean that,” Tristan said.

“I know Tristan. I know,” Malila said.

“Alright babe you have to get to work.” Malila nods her head and pulls out of the embrace.

“Are you going to work babe?,” Malila asked.

“No I am going to take the day off so I can get ready for my trip tomorrow. But just let me know when you are on your way here. And bring clothes for tomorrow; I want you to stay with me again tonight before I leave tomorrow ok?”

“Ok baby,” Malila said while smiling big.

“Did you bring food for Kevin? He can stay with me today.”

“Oh yes I did bring him food.” Malila goes into her overnight bag and pulls out a small bag of dog food and hands it to Tristan.

“Thank you,” Tristan said.

“You’re welcome and thank you for keeping Kevin for me,” Malila said.

“No problem baby.”

“Ok I am going to head out for work. I will see you tonight baby.”

“Ok gorgeous.” Tristan kisses Malila and then she gets her purse and leaves closing the door behind her. Tristan gets Kevin’s food and fixes him a bowl and sets it in front of him and Kevin starts eating. Tristan pets him and then he takes a quick shower and puts on a beater and a pair of basketball shorts. He eats a quick breakfast and then starts to pack for his two week trip. At around 12 pm, Tristan hears a knock on his door. He wasn’t expecting any company, but he goes to the door and opens it and sees Shanelle. He just frowns and Shanelle smiles at him.

“Daddy why are you ignoring me?,” Shanelle asked.

“Shanelle get out of here….how did you even know I would be here? ,” Tristan spat.

“Baby why can’t you just give me some of this good d**k? Huh? I can see you have morning wood anyway….and Tristan you know you use to call me sometimes during lunch to come f**k. You usually come home for lunch remember?,” Shanelle said while eying Tristan’s d**k.

“Shanelle why don’t you understand that I don’t need or want s**t from you?”

“So you’re just going to forget about all the times we f**ked Tristan? Does Malila know that we use to f**k all the time? Huh?”

“Yes she knows but that’s the d**n past Shanelle…..and that’s not me anymore. Please just get out.”

“Tristan…..are you really going to resist me? Huh? Did you forget how wet and tight my p***y is?”

“Shanelle stop. I am not f**kin’ with you.” Shanelle just smiles and she takes off the long coat she has on and Tristan is exposed to Shanelle’s naked body.

“You change your mind yet? Huh?,” Shanelle asked. Tristan is just looking away, but he just got rock hard!

“Tristan….you know I am way thicker than Malila….look at me. I have full D-cup breasts….a toned stomach….and thick thighs Tristan….and a round firm a** that you love to slap.” Shanelle moves closer to Tristan and Tristan puts his hands up and backs away.

“Shanelle don’t do this. Please just leave. I am begging you,” Tristan said firmly.

“You know you never have to beg me Tristan,” Shanelle said. Shanelle squats down in front of Tristan and opens her mouth wide.

“Come on baby. Put that d**k in my mouth. Please I want to taste you so bad….and I want to cum in my mouth,” Shanelle said.

“Shanelle no! I will not do this with you! Please get out! Just leave!,” Tristan yelled in frustration. Shanelle just glares at him and she stands up and wraps a leg around his waist and feels on his d**k through his shorts. She takes it out of his boxers and shorts quickly and looks at Tristan and he has his eyes closed and his jaw his clenched.

“Baby my p***y is so wet for you….you want to feel how wet huh?,” Shanelle said. She guides Tristan’s d**k towards her womanhood and Tristan grips her leg off of him and pushes her away and Shanelle falls to the floor before she could even slide Tristan inside of her.

“Shanelle you need to get the f**k out of here. Just stay away from me. I have Malila now and I care about her too much to hurt her!”

“Fine Tristan….I just hope you know what you are missing,” Shanelle said rudely. Shanelle gets up from the floor and she puts on her coat and ties it up and leaves Tristan’s condo slamming the door behind her and Tristan quickly and locks it. He yells out in frustration and hits the wall. Kevin comes walking out of his bedroom and looks up at him and barks. Tristan smiles a bit and leans down and pets him gently.

“Sorry Kevin I hope I didn’t scare you. A very evil woman was here but she is gone now,” Tristan said. Kevin licks Tristan’s face and Tristan rubs his ears and then takes Kevin for a walk. After that, Tristan fixes lunch and continues packing. He takes a nap and gets up at around 3 pm. He packs his last minute things and then just waits for Malila to come over. He is beyond horny right now and he is still hard! First by Malila and then by Shanelle! Tristan HATES this!! He really needs to be pleasured in some way before he loses his mind. But he can’t really do anything, so Tristan is just going to have to deal with this. He takes a deep breath and then goes into his fridge and fixes a small glass of Hennessy just to calm his nerves. At 5 pm, Malila texts Tristan to say that she is on her way to his condo now. Tristan just smiles and texts her saying that he can’t wait to see her. Tristan fixes Kevin another bowl of food and he eats it and then Tristan sits on the couch and writes in his notebook and Kevin sits on the floor in front of him. At a little past 5:30 pm Tristan hears a knock on his door. He quickly gets up from the couch and sees Malila.

“Hey baby,” Malila said.

“Hey Malila. Come in,” Tristan said. Malila walks in and sets down her bag and Tristan closes and locks the door behind her. Malila takes off her shoes and goes over to Kevin and pets him as he licks her face.

“I missed my baby,” Malila said cutely. Malila then looks at Tristan and pecks his lips.

“Malila I need to tell you something,” Tristan said. Malila just looks at him and then sits on the couch and takes off her blazer and Tristan sits next to her.

“Malila….Shanelle came here earlier today at around 12….she tried to get me to f**k her but I refused. I promise you I did…..she came here in a trench coat and she opened it and she was completely naked underneath and she tried so hard to get me to f**k her, but I just couldn’t.”

“….Did you want to Tristan?,” Malila asked.

“What kind of question is that Malila?”

“One that I want you to answer Tristan.”

“Malila….the only person I want to f**k is you and I don’t even want us to do that….I think our first time will be making love not f**kin’ anyway.”

“Ok Tristan.”

“That’s all you have to say? What is really bothering you?”

“Tristan how do you think it makes me feel to know that a very attractive woman can give you what you want and I can’t and I am your girlfriend? Huh?”

“Malila stop. This is bulls**t you make it seem like all I want from you is sex which is not true and you know it. We are in a relationship. You and Shanelle aren’t even on the same level. You actually mean something to me when Shanelle doesn’t mean a d**n thing to me. I chose to be with you for a real reason, not just sex. I chose to be with you because I like the way you make me feel Malila and you bring out the best in me.”

“…You’re so right Tristan….I just need to forget about Shanelle and be confident in myself and us….I understand that now,” Malila said while sighing.

“I don’t care about Shanelle and I never have…but I do care about you Malila I mean that with my heart….listen I am horny as f**k Malila and I have been for months now. And I am still hard from this morning with you and when Shanelle came over here, but Malila I will not cheat on you and I will not pressure you into sex until you are ready. I will just have to deal with not getting sex for now and it may be hard, but I know I can do it. I know right from wrong and I know better than to hurt you……trust me Malila.”

“I know Tristan I know. I really do trust you. I really do.”

“I know you don’t trust Shanelle and I don’t either. But the way she sounded after I told her off, I think she finally gets the message.” Malila just smiles and nods her head and hugs Tristan tight and Tristan hugs her back. After a short embrace, Malila pulls out of the embrace and kisses Tristan’s lips a few times. She then looks at the table and notices Tristan’s notebook open.

“Baby if you don’t mind me asking, what are you writing? Is that your diary?,” Malila asked.

“I don’t mind at all….it’s kind of like a diary, but they are more like ideas for songs I guess,” Tristan said.

“Baby you write songs?”

“Yes I do.”

“You are so talented Tristan that’s amazing…..can I read one?”

“…Sure. A recent one is called “4 Years Old.” Tristan picks up his notebook and turns to a specific page and then hands it to Malila and she starts to read it and Tristan just watches her. Tristan sees a few tears run down Malila’s cheeks as she is reading and he wipes them away. Once Malila is done reading, she just looks at him frowning and he looks at her.

“Malila it’s not meant to be sad, it’s just meant to be honest,” Tristan said while laughing a bit.

“Baby, do you really feel alone in this world? Do you really feel like you have everything you want, except love?,” Malila asked.

“I felt that way for a very long time Malila….I make six figures at my job, I have a nice car, this condo, but….I had no one to share it with….until I met you…..I know that I use to be alone, but I know that I’m not anymore. I never feel alone when you are with me Malila. I mean that.”

“Oh Tristan….that is so sad that you felt alone, but I am right here and I am not going anywhere.”

“I know baby.” Malila smiles and kisses Tristan’s cheek and forehead.

“Tristan it’s amazing how talented you are. You are so gifted.”

“Well aren’t you sweet? Can I sing this for you?”

“Tristan you can sing? Are you serious?”

“I do a little something,” Tristan said while laughing a bit.

“I would love to hear you sing Tristan.” Tristan nods his head and he puts his arm around Malila’s shoulders and takes the notebook and starts to sing “4 Years Old.” The minute the first note left Tristan’s lips, Malila gasped in shock and just stared at him. They stared in each other’s eyes the entire time Tristan sang and Malila is just in a state of shock. She is just wondering if there is anything Tristan can’t do artistically. Once Tristan is done singing, Malila is just at a loss for words.

“Babe? You alright?,” Tristan asked.

“Tristan…I am speechless….your voice is beautiful….I could listen to you sing all day…you have all these hidden talents and it just amazes me. Wow,” Malila said.

“Thank you Malila….when I write songs I hear the melodies when I write them.”

“I have no words….can you dance too?”

“I use to dance when I was younger,” Tristan said while laughing.

“Oh wow….you could have been a singer and famous if you wanted to you know.”

“You’re so sweet….but I’m not one for the spotlight….I can’t stand people in my business and I don’t understand how celebrities do it.”

“….You’re pretty amazing Tristan.”

“Oh stop Malila.”

“You are Tristan and I mean that….you’re the perfect package in my eyes.”

“Oh here we go you’re getting all mushy on me.”

“Oh please you love it and you know it.”

“Mmm maybe you’re right.”

“So what do you want to do tonight?”

“I want us to order some food and then I just want to cuddle with my woman, since I won’t be able to for two whole weeks.”

“Oh baby that sounds so nice….let me change first.”

“Well since I am chilling in my underwear sort of, how about you just chill in yours?,” Tristan said while smirking.

“You wish,” Malila said.

“You d**n right I do wish!” Malila just laughs and she gets up from the couch and takes her bag into the bedroom and changes into booty shorts and a tight white beater. She then comes out to the living room and she and Tristan go into the kitchen and they order Chinese food and then they take Kevin for his last walk of the day and then go into the bedroom and sit in the bed and cuddle close. 15 minutes later, there is a knock on the door and Tristan gets out of the bed and opens the door and takes the food, pays and tips the delivery man and then closes and locks the door behind him. He takes the food to his bedroom and gets in the bed and opens it and hands Malila’s food to her and then he takes his food out and they both start to eat and talk as well. Tristan really enjoys being with Malila and he loves that he can act goofy around her as well. He just feels completely himself when he is with Malila and he needs that and he is happy that he has that. He feeds Malila some of his food every so often and Malila just laughs at how silly Tristan can be but she likes that about him. Tristan is perfect to Malila and that even includes his flaws. She can really see the two of them building a life and a future together, but she won’t rush anything. She wants to take things slow, but she feels like she really just wants to be with Tristan and she can’t see herself dating anyone else. After Malila and Tristan eat dinner, they put the leftovers in the fridge and then they go back into the bedroom. Malila checks on Kevin and he is lying down in his bed and he is just fine. She kisses the top of his head and then her and Tristan go into the bathroom and brush their teeth and Malila washes her face and puts her hair up. Malila and Tristan then go back into the bedroom and lie down in the bed. Tristan lies down on his back and pulls Malila close to him and she rests her head on his chest. Tristan looks at the hickey on her neck and he smiles to himself.

“Baby, that hickey looks so good on you,” Tristan joked.

“You’re not funny…..my friends at work were giving me h**l for this large hickey you left on me,” Malila said.

“Well I will gladly leave you some more….and not just your neck either.”

“I bet you would love that.” Tristan and Malila laugh and Malila gently rubs Tristan’s left arm and admires his tattoos.

“Your tattoos are so sexy,” Malila said.

“Alright now you better stop….I never asked do you have any tattoos? I never noticed any on your arms or legs or anything.”

“….Yes I have two tattoos Tristan.”

“Really? Where?”

“Mmm….somewhere I can’t show you just yet,” Malila said while looking up at him.

“Oh really? Tell me where.”

“….My butt,” Malila said while laughing.

“You have your a** tatted?!…..s**t let me see!,” Tristan exclaimed. Malila just busts out laughing and shakes her head at him.

“Tristan I am not letting you see! You will eventually though,” Malila said.

“D**n I am excited now! I can’t even get a peek?,” Tristan said.

“No not a peek….and you better not try to sneak a peek either!”

“Alright babe, alright. I hear you. But I can’t wait to see those tattoos……you must be a freak huh? You got your a** tatted so you must be a freak.”

“Shut up!,” Malila said while hitting Tristan’s chest playfully.

“I’m just messing with my beautiful woman,” Tristan said while laughing. Malila just smiles at him and leans in and kisses him.

“….I love the way you kiss me,” Tristan said softly.

“I love kissing you Tristan,” Malila said softly. Tristan closes his eyes and leans over and gives Malila a gentle, but passionate kiss. After the kiss, he opens his eyes and just looks her in her eyes and she just smiles at him. Tristan just stares at her and he realizes something; he is falling for Malila and that terrifies him. They have not been together for even a week yet, and Tristan is already falling for Malila? Tristan tries to convince himself that this can’t be right at all. His mind tells him that it isn’t true and that he isn’t falling for Malila, but his heart is saying the exact opposite. He doesn’t know how to feel about this, but he refuses to let Malila slip away from him. Malila is perfect in Tristan’s eyes and he cares about her so much. Tristan realizes that he has to man up, and just let his heart, not his mind, take he and Malila’s relationship where it is meant to go.

So three days pass and Tristan and Malila are doing just fine or this is how Tristan feels at least. There is something that is really bothering Malila and she hasn’t told Tristan about it and she isn’t sure how to either. Anyway, right now Malila and Tristan are at the gym. Tristan is in the weight room and Malila is working in a classroom on a new routine for her aerobics class. As she is choreographing her routine, she hears the door to the classroom open and close. She looks and sees Shanelle and Shanelle smiles and waves at her.

“Hey Shanelle,” Malila said.

“Hey Malila,” Shanelle said nicely.

“Can I help you with something?”

“Mmm…..so you’re really Tristan’s girlfriend?”

“Yes I am…why do you ask?”

“I have to be honest Malila….Saturday after class Tristan drove me home and well…..it wasn’t just a drive home.”

“Look Shanelle please don’t lie on Tristan because he told me the truth….he said you tried to do something but he refused and I believe him.”

“Oh you do…..I sucked your man’s d**k in his car like I used to…..we use to do it all the time in the car…he almost crashed the car the head was so good Malila……has he ever done that with you? Oh wait…..you two don’t f**k do you?,” Shanelle said rudely.

“That’s none of your business,” Malila spat back.

“You know Tristan said the same thing, so I am sure you two don’t…..your man likes to f**k Malila. How long do you think he will stay with you before he needs some p***y Malila? Huh?”

“Shanelle what goes on between me and Tristan has nothing to do with you. Ok?”

“Alright…..but here’s some tips. Tristan loves head and he likes for you to stroke him while you suck on him…..and when you suck on his balls that just sends him over the top…..and his favorite position is doggy style. He loves it from the back and when he is ready to cum, he slaps your a** so you better turn around and get on your knees and open your mouth wide because he likes for you to swallow,” Shanelle said evilly.

“Shanelle he might like that stuff from you, but I am different. You were just one of his hoes and I am so much more than that.”

“Please Malila don’t flatter yourself. I don’t know what Tristan told you but he doesn’t do relationships. Not now or ever, just remember that…..oh yeah if you are going to buy condoms, Tristan has a really long and thick d**k so make sure you get the Magnums.” Shanelle just laughs evilly and then turns around and leaves the classroom and Malila is just so angry right now. She just sighs heavily and takes a deep breath. She goes back to her routine and tries to focus on that. About an hour later, Tristan comes into the classroom.

“Hey gorgeous,” Tristan said. Malila turns to look at him and he is smiling big and Malila smiles a bit at him then looks away. Tristan can just sense that something is wrong with Malila and he has noticed it the past three days as well.

“Malila what’s wrong?,” Tristan asked.

“Nothing,” Malila said while packing up her bag.

“Nothing always means something Malila. Just tell me.” Malila is just quiet and Tristan walks over to her and stops her from packing her bag and she just looks at him and he looks back at her.

“Babe what is it? Tell me,” Tristan asked.

“…I don’t like hearing about your sex life from other woman Tristan,” Malila said.

“What? What are you talking about?”

“Are all the woman that you f**ked going to tell me all about it? Because I don’t want to know about that. When we go out and a woman that you f**ked sees us together, she is going to know intimate details about you that I don’t even know and I will look like a fool Tristan.”

“Malila where is all of this coming from?”

“Shanelle was in here saying how she gave you head when you drove her home on Saturday and saying how good her head is that you almost crashed when you two use to f**k around…..she said you like to have it stroked while you have it sucked and you like to have your balls sucked too. She suggested that if I but condoms then I should buy Magnums and she described your…manhood….and she said your favorite position is doggy style and when you are about to cum you slapped her a** and she got on her knees and she said I better do the same because you like it when your women swallow,” Malila said as tears filled her eyes.

“Malila why are you even listening to her anyway huh? I told you that she did not give me head when I drove her home so now you don’t believe me? Huh?,” Tristan said.

“That’s not what I said Tristan.”

“Who gives a f**k what she says? You know I f**ked her I told you that. We didn’t just f**k once either Malila, we f**ked a lot ok? But that’s the past not the present and it has nothing to do with our relationship.”

“Well how often am I going to have to hear this from Shanelle or any other woman you have been with?”

“I don’t know Malila but it shouldn’t even bother you…..you knew the deal before we got together. I told you I had women that I have f**ked before and it’s not just one and I told you that….so you just have to be confident and secure enough to know that my past is the past and that’s where it will stay,” Tristan said boldly. Malila just looks at him and wipes the tears that fell down her cheeks and then looks down.

“….I’m sorry Tristan,” Malila said softly.

“I’m sorry too babe,” Tristan said while lifting up Malila’s head to look at him.

“I do believe you Tristan and if you said nothing happened between you and Shanelle than I believe you. I really do….I just….it’s just hard for me I guess.”

“It’s ok Malila….listen if I heard about you with other man it would mess with my head too, but I know that now you are with me and you are with me for a reason. And I am with you for a reason too Malila, I really care about you.”

“I know….I care about you too Tristan.”

“I’m sorry about everything that Shanelle said….I may have liked those sexual things with her, but you are different than her Malila….way different. And when it comes to our first time, we won’t do anything unless you want to do it you hear me?”

“Yes Tristan I hear you, thanks.”

“No problem gorgeous….now we just had about a two minute conversation, so you owe me a five minute kiss since you didn’t kiss me as soon as you saw me,” Tristan joked. Malila just laughs and she walks over to him and wraps her arms around his neck and Tristan drapes his arms around Malila’s waist and leans down and kisses Malila and they do kiss for five minutes just like Tristan asked. After the kiss, Malila gets her bag and Tristan takes her hand and they leave the gym together. As they are walking to their cars, they see Shanelle talking to another woman.

“Baby get in your car ok and wait for me? I am going to talk to Shanelle really quick alright?,” Tristan said.

“Ok,” Malila said. She pecks his lips and then gets in her car and Tristan walks to Shanelle and the woman Shanelle was talking to walks away. Tristan just looks at Shanelle evilly and Shanelle just smiles at him.

“I am only going to tell you this one time Shanelle. Don’t you ever talk to Malila about anything we have done together. Yes we have f**ked and we all know that, but that’s the past. And just because I like something sexually from you, does not mean I will like the same from Malila. Malila is my woman and I care about her and we aren’t just going to f**k. That’s what I and you did. What I and Malila have is something worth so much more than what me and you had, h**l did because we didn’t really have any feelings for each other…..I won’t be calling you or any other female for anything because I have Malila now. She is the only contact I have in my phone since I deleted everyone else’s number and she is the only contact I need. So just move on Shanelle because I don’t need s**t from you,” Tristan said while pointing in Shanelle’s face. Shanelle just raises an eyebrow at him and then licks the finger that was in her face and Tristan quickly pulls his hand away and glares at her.

“Tristan you are so sexy when you are mad…..I am so wet for you right now,” Shanelle said softly. Tristan just rolls his eyes and Shanelle laughs a bit.

“We aren’t going to have this conversation again Shanelle. I mean it. I better not hear about you running your mouth to Malila again,” Tristan said.

“What are you going to do if I do, daddy?,” Shanelle said sexily. Tristan just turns to walk away and Shanelle laughs.

“If you ever need some p***y daddy, you know I got you,” Shanelle yelled from afar. Tristan just shakes his head and walks to Malila’s car and opens the door and looks at her.

“Hopefully she won’t bother you anymore, but she is so sneaky Malila,” Tristan said.

“Oh I know…but thanks for standing up for me baby,” Malila said.

“No problem gorgeous…..you want to spend the night with me tonight? I know it’s a weekday, but I just want to lay with you tonight.”

“I would love to Tristan. I will go home to shower and then I will be over.”

“Ok….bring Kevin too. No reason to leave him alone.”

“Ok I will. I will see you in a bit.”

“Ok.” Tristan kisses Malila and then closes her door and she drives off. Tristan gets in his car and he drives to a frozen yogurt shop and gets frozen yogurt with fruit toppings for him and Malila to go and then he leaves and heads home. Once he gets home, he puts the frozen yogurt in the freezer and then he takes a shower and puts on his pajamas. He cleans up his condo a bit and then waits for Malila. About an hour later, Tristan hears a knock on his door. He goes to his door and opens it and sees Malila with a small bag, Kevin’s dog bed and Kevin on his leash. Kevin barks and Tristan smiles and leans down and pets him gently.

“Come in baby,” Tristan said.

“Thanks,” Malila said. Malila walks in with Kevin and Tristan closes the door behind them. Malila takes Kevin off of his leash and he walks around a bit just looking around.

“He already ate and took his walk so he should be good until the morning,” Malila said.

“Ok no problem….we can put his bed in my room,” Tristan suggested. Malila smiles and nods her head takes off her shoes and jacket. She takes her bag and Kevin’s bed into Tristan’s room and sets them both down. She then goes to get Kevin and leads him to the bedroom and he looks up at her. Kevin is such a good dog and he doesn’t do anything unless he is told to do so and since this is not his home, he isn’t sure if he should lie down in his bed.

“Kevin it’s ok. Go ahead and lay down,” Malila said. She kneels next to him and pats his bed and Kevin lies down and Malila smiles and gently pets him and he licks her face. Malila just laughs and pets him until he calms down a bit and closes his eyes. She smiles and leans down and kisses the top of his head and then goes into the bathroom and washes her hands. Once she comes back to the bedroom, she sees Tristan sitting on the bed with two containers in his hand. She smiles and sits next to him on the bed.

“You got something for me?,” Malila asked.

“I sure do….frozen yogurt topped with strawberries, kiwi, mango and peaches,” Tristan said.

“Oh my favorite! Thank you baby.”

“You’re welcome.” Tristan hands Malila her container and she kisses his cheek and then opens it and starts eating and Tristan opens his and starts eating as well. Tristan sits so his back is against the backboard and he grabs Malila’s waist and pulls her closer to him and he turns on the tv and turns to one of the HBO stations and sees 21Jump Street is just starting and he and Malila enjoy the comedy and their dessert together. After the movie is over, Tristan takes the empty frozen yogurt containers and puts them in the trash and then comes back to the bedroom and looks at Malila lying down in the bed yawning.

“Baby you tired?,” Tristan asked.

“A little bit,” Malila said.

“….Can I show you something?”

“Yeah baby.” Tristan smiles and nods his head and he goes into his desk and pulls out his sketchbook. Malila turns on her side and sits up and puts her elbow in the bed and rests her chin in her hand. Tristan turns to a specific page and then sits next to Malila on the bed and hands her the sketchbook and when Malila sees what is drawn, she gasps in shock and sits up in the bed and looks at Tristan.

“Tristan….oh my goodness….this is amazing,” Malila said amazed.

“…I hope this doesn’t sound creepy, but when you are sleeping, you just look so peaceful and beautiful….so I took a picture, and then I drew it….I hope you like it….I would love to draw many more pictures of you if you let me,” Tristan said.

“Tristan this drawing looks just like me….baby you are so talented and I love this. I mean that….and of course you can draw more pictures of me.”

“I am glad you love it Malila…..mmm…..we can get real freaky with these drawings if you want to….like you could just let me draw you naked,” Tristan said while smiling big. Malila just hits Tristan’s chest and Tristan laughs and kisses Malila’s lips and just stares her in her eyes and Malila stares back. Tristan has not felt the way about any woman the way he feels about Malila and that scares him to death. Tristan smiles a bit though because he knows Malila is not like any other woman he has ever met before and Tristan is truly starting to accept that.

Tristan wakes up the next morning, Saturday, at around 10 am. He looks next to her and she doesn’t see Malila next to him. He sits up in the bed and yawns. He looks in the spot next to him and sees a note. He picks it up and it reads: Hey baby, sorry to leave without saying bye. You looked so peaceful sleeping and I didn’t want to wake you up handsome ;) I have to teach my class at 11:30, but I had to go home to make sure Kevin is alright and take him for a walk. Maybe I will see you at the gym but if not, I will call you once my class is over.” Tristan just smiles at her signature with a heart next to it and sets the note on his dresser. He then gets an idea; he will surprise Malila at her aerobics class. Tristan has never done aerobics, but he thinks it will be fun since Malila is the instructor. He smiles at the thought and looks at the clock and sees he has time to make it to her class. He gets out of the bed and goes into the bathroom and takes care of his business and then takes a quick shower and gets out and dries off. Tristan lotions up and then puts on a pair of basketball shorts, a beater and comfortable shoes. He walks into the kitchen and eats a bowl of cereal and an apple. He cleans up and then gets a bottle of water and then leaves his condo, locking it behind him. He gets into his car and drives to the gym and gets there at about 11:25. He swipes his card to get into the gym and walks to Malila’s classroom and sees her talking to a few of the women in her class. He smiles and walks into the class and everyone turns to look at him; he is the only man in this class! He just looks at Malila and smiles and waves and Malila smiles big and waves back. She excuses herself from the women she was talking to and walks over to Tristan.

“Hey gorgeous,” Tristan said while smiling big.

“Hey baby….what are you doing here?,” Malila asked.

“I came to check out your class today. I hope it won’t make you feel awkward or anything.”

“No I would not mind at all….it’s sweet….you know you are the only man here though right?”

“Yes I have noticed, but it’s cool….I came for you.”

“You’re so sweet baby.” Malila pecks Tristan’s lips and then hugs him.

“Baby I will be in the back so I won’t distract you. Seeing me in the front working out might turn you on, and you ain’t ready for that babe,” Tristan joked.

“Oh haha you’re not funny….you are the one that will be turned on. Me stretching alone will probably get you excited,” Malila teased.

“Oh alright we will see. You get your fine a** up front and get this class started.”

“Ok baby.” Malila kisses Tristan again and then walks to the front and Tristan sees the women in the class give Malila a look that says “Is that your man?” and looks like “He is fine!” Malila explains to them that Tristan is her man and Tristan sees them all clapping and scream in excitement for her. Tristan just laughs at this and finds a spot in the back and sets his bottle of water down. Malila tells her class to stand in rows and she turns on some music and starts a warm up/stretching routine and Tristan follows her and watches her. He can tell Malila really likes instructing this class. A few minutes into the warm up, <a href="http://cdn03.cdn.crunktastical.net/wp-content/uploads/2012/06/139945220-basketball-wives-cast-member-draya-michele-wireimage.jpg">this woman</a> walks into the room and finds a spot next to Tristan. Tristan looks at her and his eyes get big in shock and the woman looks at Tristan and smiles and bites her lip.

“Tristan? Boo how have you been? You haven’t called me in a while,” the woman whispered.

“Uh…hey Shanelle,” Tristan whispered back awkwardly.

“We should catch up,” Shanelle said. Tristan just looks away and focuses on Malila and she doesn’t look like she saw the interaction between him and Shanelle. He sighs in relief and just thinks. Shanelle was one of Tristan’s females he would call when he wanted sex. Shanelle was just a straight up ho too. Tristan heard about her with too many n***as to count, but he can’t really say anything since he used to be one of them. She was not only a ho, but a straight up freak too. He remembers f**king her in his car, her car, the back of the mall, just all over the place! Whenever and wherever Shanelle wanted it that is where she got it. He looks at her again and notices how fit she still is. Shanelle is a lot thicker than Malila and Tristan finds himself eyeing her legs and her very full breasts. He reminds himself that he is with Malila now and he looks away and takes a deep breath and focuses on Malila. After the warm up, Malila starts the aerobics routine and Tristan just follows it perfectly. He is having fun and so is Malila. When Malila would look at him through the mirrors in front of her, Tristan would make a funny face at her or do a dance move not in the routine to make Malila laugh. He just tries to focus on her, and not worry about Shanelle. Shanelle has always been sneaky to Tristan and he just hopes she won’t try anything. After an hour of aerobics, Malila cools the class down and then claps when she is done and everyone else claps as well. Malila smiles at Tristan through the window and then turns around and waves at him and Malila waves back. A few of the women in Malila’s class leave and a few talk with Malila.

“Tristan, why haven’t I heard from you? Found someone to replace me?,” Shanelle said while rubbing Tristan’s chest.

“Shanelle stop,” Tristan said while moving Shanelle’s hands from his chest.

“What’s the matter? You use to love it when I did that….and other things,” Shanelle said seductively.

“Shanelle……I’m taken now. The instructor of this class, Malila is my girlfriend,” Tristan said.

“What? You? You’re in a relationship? I don’t believe that,” Shanelle said while laughing.

“Well it’s true Shanelle….and I don’t want to do anything to hurt her,” Tristan said.

“Do you two f**k?,” Shanelle asked bluntly.

“That’s none of your d**n business,” Tristan said rudely.

“She looks innocent to me so you two probably don’t….how long as it been for you huh? You know I know how to take care of you. I know everything that you like…..you like it from the back and you love head,” Shanelle said while resting her hand on Tristan’s waist.

“Shanelle that’s enough,” Tristan said while snatching her Shanelle’s hand from his waist. Shanelle just laughs and shakes her head at him.

“Alright Tristan….you have my number and you call me…..before you get blue balls. I can take care of you and you know that….we can do it in your car like we use to…..it’s still tight for you babe,” Shanelle said. She quickly licks Tristan’s ear and then leaves the classroom. “Aww s**t!!! F**k! Why did Shanelle have to be here and why the f**k did she lick my ear?!? Now I am hard as a rock! I need some p***y ASAP! Ughhh!! Shanelle’s p***y is tight as s**t though….ugh Tristan stop! I have Malila now, and I really care about her and I can’t mess this up. She’s so good and right for me. Get it together!,” Tristan thought to himself. Tristan looks at Malila and she is still talking to some women. After a few minutes, the classroom clears out and it’s just Tristan and Malila left. Malila walks over to him and pecks his lips.

“Malila baby I had fun today. I might come every Saturday now,” Tristan said.

“I am glad to hear that baby. I wouldn’t mind if you came at all…..can I ask you something though?,” Malila said.

“Uh..sure,” Tristan said nervously.

“How do you know Shanelle?,” Malila asked.

“Well….s**t I will be honest. She is a female I use to call to….have sex.”

“….Is that why she licked your ear?”

“D**n you saw? I’m sorry babe…I tried to avoid her, but she wouldn’t quit.” Malila just looks down and nods her head.

“You want to get some lunch? We can change and shower and then meet somewhere?,” Tristan asked.

“I would but I can’t. I actually have to meet a client for work today. I know it’s Saturday, but it’s the only day he could meet me,” Malila said while looking up at Tristan.

“Ok baby that’s fine….call me later?”

“I will Tristan.” Malila hugs Tristan and then kisses his cheek. She gets her bag and bottle of water and leaves the gym. Tristan just sighs because he can tell that Malila is hurt. She kisses his lips every chance she gets, but just now she only kissed his cheek. Tristan gets his bottle of water and takes a few sips and then leaves the gym as well. Tristan walks towards his car and stops in his tracks when he sees Shanelle resting against his car. He just rolls his eyes and takes a deep breath. He just has this feeling that she is up to no good. He walks towards his car and just looks at her.

“Tristan, my car won’t start. Do you think you could drive me home?,” Shanelle asked.

“No Shanelle I can’t,” Tristan said.

“Please Tristan. I live very close to you and it’s not out of your way. Please. I won’t try anything I promise.”

“Fine. But if you try something, I swear you will be walking home.”

“Ok Tristan.” Tristan unlocks the door and he and Shanelle get in the car and he drives off towards her apartment complex. He can feel her looking at him and he looks over at her and she smiles at him.

“So Malila is really your girlfriend? I can’t believe someone actually has you tied down,” Shanelle said.

“Well believe it….I really care about her too. She is very good for me,” Tristan said.

“She’s good for you, but you two don’t f**k? Tristan I know how much you need your p***y, how are you going without it?” Shanelle takes her left hand and rubs Tristan’s right thigh and then moves it towards his manhood and smiles when she feels he is hard.

“Shanelle stop,” Tristan said while slapping her hand away.

“Oh Tristan come on…you know you like this. Don’t you remember the time I gave you head so good, you almost crashed this car?,” Shanelle asked while laughing.

“Shanelle please don’t start this.”

“Babe, just let me get some of that good d**k….daddy,” Shanelle whispered in his ear. Shanelle scoots closer to Tristan and slides her hand down into Tristan’s shorts and finds the hole in his boxers and pulls out his manhood and slowly strokes it.

“Doesn’t that feel good Tristan? Huh?,” Shanelle said.

“Shanelle…uhh…..please just stop. I can’t and won’t do this with you,” Tristan said. Shanelle just smirks and she pulls Tristan’s manhood out of his shorts and leans down and Tristan can feel her warm breath on his manhood and he wants this to happen, but he refuses to let it happen with Shanelle! Tristan slams on the brakes in the middle of the road and snatches Shanelle’s hands away from his manhood and glares at her.

“Get the f**k out of my car Shanelle. Now,” Tristan demanded.

“Tristan I’m sorry….please just take me home we aren’t that far,” Shanelle pleaded.

“Exactly so you can walk. Get out of my car before I force you out. Do it now.” Shanelle just sucks her teeth and then quickly gets out of Tristan’s car and slams the door and Tristan speeds off. He puts his business back into his pants and just sighs heavily. Tristan is angry right now he feels like he needs to smoke. He just shakes his head because he hasn’t smoked for a while, maybe a month. Malila has really helped him quit and he doesn’t want to start again. Once he gets home, he goes into his condo and slams and locks the door behind him. He is just very frustrated right now; sexually and emotionally. Shanelle has Tristan f**ked up. He sits on his bed and takes a deep breath. He needs to relieve his stress somehow. He takes out his sketchbook and quickly draws a few sketches and he feels a little bit better. He really wants to see Malila though. He tries calling her, but she doesn’t answer. He leaves a message asking her to call him back as soon as possible. He sets his phone down on the dresser and he goes into the bathroom and he takes his second shower of the day and he then puts on a tank top and a pair of khaki shorts. He goes to his phone and doesn’t see any missed calls and he just sighs. He fixes some lunch and eats and then he lies down in his bed and turns on the tv and just waits for Malila to call him. At close to 4:30 pm, Tristan hears his phone ring. He quickly takes it from the dresser and looks and sees Malila’s face on the screen. He smiles and quickly accepts the call and puts his phone to his ear.

“Hey Malila,” Tristan said.

“Hey babe,” Malila said.

“Malila I really need to see you. Can I come over?”

“Yes Tristan is everything ok?”

“Yes, but I need to tell you something ok?”

“Ok Tristan. I am at my apartment so come over.”

“Ok baby I am on my way right now.”

“Ok. Bye.”

“Bye.” Tristan and Malila hang up and Tristan gets his wallet, keys, and phone and leaves his condo and heads to Malila’s apartment. Once he is parked, he turns off his car and takes a deep breath. He gets out of his car, and locks the doors and goes up the stairs to Malila’s apartment and knocks on her door. Malila answers and Tristan just grabs her waist and lifts her off the ground and holds her so tight. Malila just smiles and wraps her arms around his neck and holds him tight.

“Baby is everything ok?,” Malila asked.

“I’m just happy to see you….we really need to talk about something,” Tristan said.

“I hope it’s not bad.”

“I hope you won’t be mad at me after we talk honestly.” Malila pulls out of the embrace and looks at him and Tristan pecks Malila’s lips three times and then sets her down. Malila takes his hand and closes and locks her door and then she and Tristan walks over to the couch and sit down. Kevin comes up to Tristan and stands on his hind legs and licks Tristan’s face and Tristan just laughs and rubs Kevin’s head. Kevin gets down and Malila pets him and then Kevin lies down in front of Tristan and Malila’s feet.

“What do we have to talk about baby?,” Malila asked.

“I just want to be honest with you Malila. Whether it is good or bad ok?,” Tristan said while locking Malila’s hands with his.

“Of course….talk to me.”

“Well…..when I left the gym today, Shanelle was waiting against my car….she said that her car broke down and she needed a ride home….I didn’t want to but she convinced me and she lives close to my condo…..so I told her it was ok. As we were driving though….she felt on my leg and her hand made her way to…to my d**k and I slapped her hand away and told her to stop. She kept telling me how we could have sex in my car since that is where we use to do it, but I kept telling her no. But she kept trying me, and she put her hand in my boxers and she started stroking my d**k….and she asked me if it felt good…..and I can’t lie…it did feel good Malila only because I haven’t been touched like that in a minute….but then she took my d**k out and she leaned down and when I felt her warm breath against it….I slammed on the breaks, snatched her hands off of my d**k and told her to get out of the car. She got out and I left her on the street and sped home….I know I could have f**ked Shanelle since she was offering, but I just couldn’t. I may be sexually frustrated, but I promise you Malila I will not cheat on you….I just want you to know the truth because Shanelle is sneaky and she could try to twist the truth around and come at you with lies and I can’t have that,” Tristan said while looking in Malila’s eyes.

“So nothing happened between you and her in your car Tristan?”

“What I told you is all that happened. I promise you Malila.” Malila looks down and then looks at Tristan and smiles big. She jumps into his lap and kisses him all over his face and Tristan just laughs.

“Baby I am so proud of you!,” Malila exclaimed.

“Why?,” Tristan asked.

“Because…..I know how you are used to getting sex when you need it and with me….you have to be more patient. And I am just proud that you can resist the temptation baby.”

“Thanks Malila….I am proud of myself too….but baby….I know you will be worth the wait and no matter how frustrated I may become, I will NOT cheat on you. I will not hurt you like that….and I like what we have together Malila….you are really good for me and I know that.”

“Aww thank you Tristan. Trust me, I will be worth the wait, don’t even worry about that…..but I am going to keep my eye on Shanelle. She seems sneaky.”

“Oh she is baby, she really is.”

“I thought so…..thank you for telling me what happened though Tristan. You could have just not told me, but I am so glad you did….I am glad we can be honest with each other.”

“I couldn’t keep that from you…I felt guilty, even though me and Shanelle didn’t do anything, but she did touch my…you know.”

“I know but it’s ok…..just don’t let it happen again though ok?”

“Trust me it will not happen again baby…..I really care about you, do you know that Malila?”

“Yes Tristan I know and guess what? I care about you just as much.”

About another month passes and Tristan and Malila’s relationship is thriving nicely. They spend all of their free time together now, and on the weekends, one usually stays the night with the other. They are still just “friends” but Tristan honestly wants to change all of that. He is still scared, but it’s better to have loved that not to love at all right? He can’t imagine Malila hurting him the way Alicia did, and she is genuinely a good person and she deserves a chance. Well it’s Friday night, and Tristan has invited Malila over to his condo for dinner. Malila and Tristan have eaten and cleaned the dishes together, and they are now relaxing on the couch. They are sitting next to each other, and Malila has her legs across Tristan’s lap and she has her head resting against his shoulder. Tristan just admires her and watches her giggle every so often while watching a sitcom on the tv. He smiles to himself and he grabs her left hand and leans down and kisses her cheek a few times. Malila turns her head to look at him and she smiles and pecks his lips and then just stares at him.

“Are you ok Tristan?,” Malila asked.

“Yes, why?,” Tristan asked.

“It just looks like something is on your mind, that’s all.”

“Well….now that you mentioned it, there is.”

“What is it? You know you can talk to me.”

“It’s you.”

“What about me?,” Malila said while lifting her head off of his shoulder.

“Well it’s not just you….it’s us,” Tristan said.

“….What are you saying Tristan? Do you want there to be an us?”

“S**t I don’t know,” Tristan said while sighing.

“No you do know Tristan. Talk to me.” Tristan just looks away and Malila grabs his face to turn him to look at her and they just stare in each other’s eyes.

“Just talk to me,” Malila said softly.

“Yes Malila….I want there to be an us….I just want to be with you. Ever since I have met you, I have changed for the better….and you make me so happy. I was convinced all women were the same and were just evil, but you aren’t. You have the biggest heart I have ever come across and you just amaze me Malila. You are so sweet and I just love being around you….I like the way you make me feel….so….can we try this? Can we try giving “us” a chance?,” Tristan said cautiously. Malila just smiles so big and jumps in his lap and hugs him tight. Tristan just smiles to himself and hugs Malila back just as tight.

“Of course we can try Tristan…I have been waiting for you to ask me, but I didn’t want to rush you….I am always so happy when I am with you Tristan. I know you are probably scared because of what Alicia did to you, but you know I am nothing like her…..you can trust me Tristan. You can give me your heart and know that I won’t break it,” Malila said in Tristan’s ear. Tristan can’t help but smile hard and he closes his eyes and rests his head against Malila’s shoulder and enjoys the embrace.

“So you’re my man now huh?,” Malila said while laughing a bit.

“Yes I am….and you are my woman,” Tristan said. Malila just pulls out of the embrace and she grabs Tristan’s face and leans in and gives him an overly passionate kiss. She instantly slides her tongue into his mouth and Tristan moaned while she did this. Malila has never heard Tristan make any sounds of pleasure and she pulls out of the kiss and just stares at him.

“What is it?,” Tristan asked.

“It’s just I have never heard you moan before…..it was pretty sexy too,” Malila said while smiling. Tristan just rolls his eyes and grabs Malila’s face and starts the kiss again. Malila laughs through the kiss and she wraps her arms around Tristan’s neck and Tristan runs his hands down to Malila’s waist and actually rests his hands on Malila’s a**. Tristan touching Malila just turns her on so much and she is moaning softly as they kiss and moaned when she felt his hands on her a**. Tristan’s tongue plays with Malila’s tongue in her mouth and Tristan just loves every second of this kiss. He knows he should stop because he is growing horny by the second, but he doesn’t want to. He gently squeezes Malila’s a** and he can tell that she liked it. Tristan runs his hands up Malila’s back slowly, and then starts to run them through Malila’s hair as they kiss. Malila is just letting her hands roam all over Tristan’s arms and chest as they kiss. Tristan gently grips a portion of Malila’s hair and tilts her head back and Malila gasped in shock, but bit her lip as she felt Tristan’s lips all over her neck. Tristan runs his tongue up and down her neck, while kissing it and sucking on it every so often. Tristan is getting Malila so wet right now and she knows they should stop, but she doesn’t want to either! Tristan leaves Malila a large love mark on the left side of her neck and then licks down her neck. Malila has on a blouse and Tristan unbuttons the first two buttons and kisses her chest. He unbuttons one more button, so part of Malila’s breasts from her bra is exposed. He leans in and gently kisses the top part of each one and Malila loves this!

“Mmm baby,” Malila moaned. Malila’s moans just turn on Tristan that much more and he unbuttons her blouse completely and Malila quickly takes it off and throws it to the floor. Tristan continues kissing on the top of Malila’s breast as his hands roam all over her back and stomach. Tristan rests his arm against Malila’s back to support her and he leans her backwards and then kisses and licks all over her very toned stomach. He swirls his tongue in her bellybutton and Malila giggles as Tristan does this. Tristan just wants Malila right now! He wants to feel her body on his but he realizes that he has to stop right now. He stops kissing Malila’s stomach and pushes her forward and just looks at her. He can tell that she is sexually excited and so is he!

“D**n,” Malila said.

“D**n is right….s**t I’m sorry Malila,” Tristan said.

“Why are you apologizing? It’s not like I told you to stop. I really liked it.”

“But we shouldn’t rush.”

“You’re right about that. I don’t want to rush either….but Tristan, you’re so sexy and you really turn me on.”

“S**t Malila you turn me on! I’m hard as a rock right now!,” Tristan exclaimed. Malila just laughs and Tristan’s eyes roam down Malila’s neck to her breasts. They look very full to Tristan and he thinks she is at least a c-cup.

“You’re at least a c-cup huh babe?,” Tristan teased. Malila just narrows her eyes at him and covers her chest with her arms.

“Oh no, ain’t no hiding now,” Tristan said while moving Malila’s arms.

“You haven’t even seen them completely, anyway,” Malila said.

“D**n I know.”

“….You want a peek?,” Malila teased.

“H**l no,” Tristan said bluntly.

“Really?,” Malila said slightly hurt.

“Yes really…because if your bra comes off, so will your pants and panties and you won’t be putting anything back on for at least a good 24 hours or so,” Tristan said as a grin spread across his face. Malila just bites her lips as she smiles. Tristan grabs Malila’s waist and just hugs her close. He gently rubs Malila’s back and her skin is so soft and cannot wait until he can feel their skin against each other’s.

“Your skin is so soft Malila…it feels so good,” Tristan whispered in Malila’s ear.

“Thank you baby….I like calling you baby,” Malila said while giggling.

“I bet you do,” Tristan said while laughing. Malila pulls out of the hug and kisses Tristan’s forehead and then looks at him.

“Tristan….I am really happy and I mean that…I love spending time with you and getting to know you…I really can’t wait to see where this relationship goes…..I am very excited,” Malila said while smiling big.

“You’re just too d**n sweet Malila….but I feel the same way….I just hope I’m not an awful boyfriend. It’s been a while so just bear with me ok?,” Tristan said while laughing.

“Baby you are going to be the perfect boyfriend, don’t even worry about that. I know you well enough now and I know the real you instead of the cold Tristan I first met….I still remember the first night I saw you at the bar.”

“Oh yeah?,” Tristan said while raising an eyebrow.

“Yes I do….when I saw you sitting at the bar and I caught you staring at me, I was just very flattered. Because you’re so handsome and you were looking at me, so I was feeling a little confident. I was nervous because I just went to the bar by myself, so I didn’t know what to expect. But when I saw you I was instantly attracted to you. I noticed your toned arms, and your tattoos. You have very unique tattoos Tristan and they stood out,” Malila said while eyeing his tatted up arms.

“You’re sweet….I actually majority of my tattoos. I really love to draw in my spare time,” Tristan said.

“Really? Wow you are very creative. Do you have any drawings that I can see?,” Malila asked.

“You really want to?”

“Yes of course I do.” Tristan just smiles because he likes the fact that Malila is taking an interest in things that are important to him.

“Alright, well put on your shirt, and I will show them to you,” Tristan said. Malila smiles and she kisses Tristan’s lips and then stands up from his lap and picks up her shirt and puts it on. Tristan gets up from the couch and he goes into his bedroom and then comes back out a few minutes later with a sketchbook in his hand. He sits next to Malila on the couch and she scoots close to him and he wraps an arm around her waist and opens his sketchbook with the other and Malila just admires his drawing of cartoons.

“Wow Tristan….these are amazing. You have real talent baby,” Malila said in awe.

“Thanks Malila,” Tristan said. Malila slowly flips through Tristan’s sketchbook and she is just amazed by Tristan’s talent.

“Tristan these are so unique. Do you just see these in your head and you draw them?,” Malila asked.

“Yeah that’s pretty much how it happens. If I see it in my head, then I just take out the sketchbook and draw what I see,” Tristan said.

“Wow that’s amazing….have you ever drawn them on a larger canvas like in color?”

“Actually yes I have. I have numerous canvases in storage in the garage.”

“Can you take me to see them?”

“Now?”

“Yes please.”

“Ok Malila,” Tristan said while smiling big. Malila smiles back and Tristan sets down his sketchbook and then takes Malila’s hand and they stand up from the couch and put on their shoes and Tristan takes Malila to his personal garage. He opens it and him and Malila walk in and Malila gasped in shock. She sees numerous canvases with Tristan’s drawings on them. She sees spray paint bottles on the ground as well. She lets go of Tristan’s hand and walks around and admires each of Tristan’s drawings. Seeing Malila take such an interest in his drawings really means a lot to Tristan. He smiles a bit as he watches her.

“Tristan these are just amazing…..can I ask you something?,” Malila said.

“Of course,” Tristan said while moving closer to Malila.

“…..Can we do one of these together? It would be fun. I mean I can’t draw, but you could outline the drawing and I could paint in something. What do you think? Is that a bad idea?” Tristan can’t help but smile at Malila’s request; Malila is just a sweetheart.

“Malila…..that sounds like a great idea and I would love to do that with you.” Malila just smiles and wraps her arms around Malila and Tristan wraps his arms around her neck and holds her tight. Tristan just can’t stop smiling. He never thought he would meet someone like Malila, but he is really glad he did. Tristan is so happy at this point, and today is only the beginning.

Malila wakes up the next morning at around 9 am. She looks next to her and sees Tristan sleeping peacefully on his stomach. She smiles to herself; he looks co cute when he is sleeping. Malila leans in and gently kisses Tristan’s cheek a few times and then gently rubs his head as she admires him. She notices the numerous freckles on his face and she just thinks they are so cute. She admires his nice eyelashes and those pink lips she loves.

“Stop staring,” Tristan said while opening one eye at Malila. Malila gasped because Tristan surprised her and Tristan laughs a bit and Malila hits his arm playfully.

“That’s not funny Tristan,” Malila said while pouting.

“Oh stop you’re pouting. And why were you staring at me?,” Tristan said while yawning.

“You’re so cute when you sleep….and I just realized how much I love your freckles,” Malila said while smiling big.

“You’re so corny.”

“Whatever.” Malila moves closer to Tristan and puckers her lips and Tristan turns away and Malila just gives him a weird look.

“What I don’t get a morning kiss?,” Malila asked.

“Nope….not until you brush your teeth,” Tristan said.

“Ugh fine,” Malila said. Malila starts to get out of the bed but Tristan grabs her arm to stop her and Malila turns to look at him.

“I’m only joking…..I want your lips,” Tristan said. Malila bites her bottom lip and Tristan glares at her and then quickly flips on top of her and bites Malila’s bottom lip and pulls it out, while Malila laughs and squirms under him. Malila lightly hits his chest and Tristan lets go of her lip.

“Tristan! You are going to bite my lip off!,” Malila exclaimed.

“Well I might as well help you do it, since you do it enough by yourself!,” Tristan exclaimed back. Malila just giggles and Tristan shakes her head at her and Malila just stares at him.

“I’m sorry Tristan….I am going to try real hard not to bite my lip or giggle,” Malila said.

“Yeah you better…and just because you did both within a matter of seconds, you ain’t gettin’ no real kiss now,” Tristan said.

“What about a peck?,” Malila said.

“Ok fine. One peck.” Malila smiles and puckers her lips and Tristan leans down and pecks Malila’s lips, but before he can pull away, Malila grabs his face and gives him a very passionate kiss, tongue and all! Once she is done, she bites Tristan’s bottom lip as she pulls out of the kiss. Tristan just stares at her and Malila just smiles.

“Oh so you want to be sneaky huh?,” Tristan said.

“No….I just really like kissing you Tristan. Your lips are so soft,” Malila said while staring at and gently rubbing Tristan’s bottom lip with her thumb. Tristan bites Malila’s thumb gently and then gets off of Malila and walks to the bathroom and closes the door behind him. Malila just laughs and she gets out of the bed and goes out of her bedroom and Kevin instantly runs up to her and jumps on her.

“Good morning Kevin. How are you baby huh?,” Malila said cutely. Kevin barks and Malila rubs his ears.

“Let’s get you some food,” Malila said. Kevin gets down and follows Malila to the kitchen. Malila fixes him a bowl of food and a bowl of water and Kevin starts eating. Malila pets him and then calls in sick to work. Tristan then comes out of the bedroom and goes into the kitchen and pets Kevin while he eats. He then looks at Malila and smiles and Malila smiles back. Malila hands him the phone and Tristan calls in sick to work as well. Once he is done, Malila goes over to him and wraps her arms around his neck and Tristan smiles and rests his hands on her waist.

“So what do you want to do today? I will let you decide,” Malila said.

“Mmm…I kind of just want to stay in with you,” Tristan said.

“Awww Tristan! You’re so sweet!,” Malila shrieked.

“Stop all that noise,” Tristan said while laughing a bit.

“Tristan I like this side of you….you are so sweet, and you didn’t always act that way towards me and you know that.”

“Yeah you’re right….I was a real a**hole to you for no reason….but I’m trying real hard not to be like that anymore.”

“And you’re doing a great job so far.” Tristan just smiles and leans down and pecks Malila’s lips and then looks at her.

“D**n Malila, you got me feeling like we’re a couple,” Tristan said while chuckling.

“I feel the same way…..I mean we do almost everything a couple does, we just aren’t official,” Malila said.

“You’re right…..it’s been a minute since I have been in a relationship and I miss how it feels sometimes….but….I just want to make sure that what we have….will last you know?”

“I understand completely Tristan.” Malila kisses his cheek and then she and Tristan cook breakfast together and then eat. After that, Tristan cleans the dishes while Malila takes a shower. When Tristan goes back into the bedroom, Malila is coming out of the bathroom in just a towel. Tristan stops in his tracks when he sees water dripping down Malila’s shoulders and neck, and her hair is wet as well and resting against her left shoulder. Tristan feels his manhood growing very quickly and Malila notices him in the room watching her.

“I…I’m sorry Malila, I’ll leave while you get dressed,” Tristan said.

“Thanks Tristan,” Malila said while smiling a bit. Tristan quickly leaves the room and closes the door behind him. He takes a deep breath and sits down on the couch. Tristan is not use to this at all; not getting sex when he wants it. Right now, he really wants it! But Tristan is realizing that he only wants it with Malila. If he were to get it from anyone else, he just wouldn’t feel satisfied. He truly just wants Malila in that way now and that scares him! But at the same time, it makes him happy and Tristan feels a small smile form across his face. He reaches for the remote and turns on the tv and Kevin goes to the couch and climbs on top of Tristan and rests his head in Tristan’s lap. Tristan smiles to himself and gently pets Kevin. About 35 minutes later, Malila comes out of the bedroom dressed in a tank top, yoga capris and her hair is out with a side part. Malila smiles when she sees Kevin resting on Tristan.

“Awww ya’ll are cute,” Malila said while smiling big. Tristan just laughs and shakes his head at Malila.

“I’m going to take Kevin for his walk. Do you want me to wait for you to get ready, or do you want to just chill?,” Malila asked.

“No I will go with you, just let me put on some pants at least,” Tristan said.

“Ok…Kevin are you ready for your walk?,” Malila asked. Kevin hops off of Tristan and jumps on Malila and Malila laughs and gets his leash and puts it on his collar. Tristan goes into Malila’s bedroom and puts on the pair of sweatpants over he brought over his boxers, and then slips on his shoes. He goes out to Malila and they all leave her apartment and Malila locks the door behind them. Malila and Tristan start to walk and it’s a very nice day outside.

“Uh….I’m sorry about earlier Malila….when you came out the shower,” Tristan said.

“It’s ok Tristan, it’s not like you saw anything….but you were staring,” Malila said.

“D**n I know and I apologize for that….and you got me really horny, I could have just ripped that towel off of you…and well you know,” Tristan said while laughing a bit.

“Aww I didn’t mean to do that.”

“I know….anyway….usually when I am horny, I can call someone to help me with that, and even as bad as I want to sometimes….I am realizing….that I only want you in that way, as crazy as it sounds. If I were to do it with just another woman, I just wouldn’t be…as satisfied as if I were to do it with you.” Malila just smiles and looks away and blushes a bit. Tristan just laughs and lifts Malila’s head up to look at him.

“Don’t be embarrassed,” Tristan said.

“You’re a sweetheart, that’s all,” Malila said softly. Tristan just smiles and puts his arm around Malila’s shoulder as they walk and Malila looks up at him and smiles big. Tristan leans down and pecks Malila’s lips and they continue walking Kevin. Tristan can say he has not been genuinely happy in a long time, but he knows that Malila is changing that and he finds himself very happy with her. When the time is right, Tristan is willing to be truly happy with Malila and give her his heart.

So a few days pass and Tristan has tried calling and texting Malila ever since his birthday, even though she said not to. Tristan just feels so bad and he wants to talk to her to straighten things out, but Malila will not return any of his texts or calls. Tristan knows he was wrong and he just wants to make sure Malila knows that. Well it’s Thursday evening at around 8 pm and Tristan is sitting in his apartment smoking a cigarette out the window. His smoking has picked up these last few days, because Malila hasn’t been around to tell him otherwise. He tried calling Malila at around 7:30, but she did not answer. Tristan didn’t even feel like going to the gym today, he just wants to talk to Malila. A few minutes later though, Tristan hears a soft knock on his door. He puts out his cigarette in the ashtray and then gets up and looks through the peephole and sees Malila. He just gets so happy and he can’t help but smile and he opens the door and Malila looks at him and smiles a bit.

“Hey Malila,” Tristan said.

“Hey Tristan….can we talk please?,” Malila said.

“Of course. Come in.” Malila walks in and Tristan closes the door behind her. Malila sits on the couch and Tristan sits next to her.

“I am glad you came over Malila…I am so sorry about what happened on my birthday, I was wrong and I know that. I overreacted and I am sorry,” Tristan said.

“…You shouldn’t be the one saying sorry Tristan,” Malila said softly. Tristan just stares at her and Malila looks him in his eyes and then grabs the both of his hands and holds them tight.

“….What do you mean?,” Tristan asked.

“Tristan….I should have been more understanding from your point of view….you did see me kiss another man and I know that must have brought up some suspicion…I know we aren’t together, but if I would have seen you kiss another woman, then I would have been hurt and upset like you were. So I’m sorry for not really understanding how it was for you….because I know with Alicia, you were lied to and cheated on and when you saw me peck Alex’s lips, I am sure you thought I was doing the same thing Alicia was….so I hope you can forgive me…..I have really missed you,” Malila said sweetly. Tristan just stares at Malila in complete shock. She has to be one of the sweetest people Tristan has ever met.

“Malila….I don’t even know what to say…..you have such a big heart….for you to even apologize to me after what I said to you….it amazes me. It’s amazing how sweet you are,” Tristan said.

“Thanks Tristan,” Malila said while smiling big.

“I know you are absolutely nothing like Alicia and I felt so bad for saying that you were.”

“But I understand why you said what you did…..but Tristan listen to me, if you give me your heart, I will not break it….you can trust me,” Malila said while looking Tristan in his eyes.

“…I really want to Malila,” Tristan said while sighing.

“Well we don’t have to rush….you know…it’s ok if you aren’t ready for us to be together. You don’t quite trust me yet Tristan, but that’s ok because I know what you went through with Alicia and I know you want to make sure I am nothing like her….I know I’m not, but if I have to prove that to you for a little bit longer, than I can.”

“I know….I have to be honest….I thought I was ready for us to be together, but….maybe I’m not….I accused you of something that wasn’t even there and that proves I don’t trust you yet….I hope that doesn’t hurt your feelings.”

“Not at all Tristan, it’s fine….I will wait as long as you need me to….I know that I want to be with you and only you. You won’t have to worry about me talking to any other men because….I just want you.”

“And I want you too Malila.”

“….I really want to kiss you Tristan, but I can tell you have been smoking and you know how I feel about that,” Malila said while narrowing her eyes at Tristan.

“S**t you’re right….ever since my birthday my habit has picked up…I have been kind of stressed out not being able to talk to you….I’m going to brush my teeth, then I want my kiss. I have missed these lips,” Tristan said while staring at Malila’s lips.

“Mmm we will see how I feel about kissing you after you brush your teeth,” Malila said while biting her lip.

“I swear to you I am going to bite that bottom lip off myself, if you keep doing that s**t,” Tristan said while standing up. Malila just giggles and Tristan cuts his eyes at her and Malila purses her lips closed in a hurry. Tristan smirks at her and walks to the bathroom and brushes his teeth really good and uses mouthwash as well to get rid of any trace smoke in his breath. Tristan then goes into the living room and Malila unknowingly bites her lip and Tristan glares at her as he sits down next to her on the couch. He gently holds her hips and licks his lips and leans in and bites Malila’s bottom lip a few times.

“Owwww,” Malila whined while hitting Tristan’s chest playfully.

“That’s what you get. I ain’t gon tell you again, you better stop biting your lip when you’re around me,” Tristan said.

“I thought you liked it though,” Malila said while rubbing his right arm.

“Well I do, but I hate it at the same time….you look sexy as f**k when you do it, but you get me horny and I can’t do s**t about it with you yet, so therefore you shouldn’t do it.”

“…Ok Tristan, I will try my best to stop.” Malila leans in and gives Tristan a very passionate kiss and then they look at each other smiling.

“You want to spend the night with me Tristan?,” Malila asked nicely.

“We both have to work tomorrow,” Tristan said.

“We can call in sick and just spend tomorrow together….what do you say? I cooked last night and I have plenty left over if you’re hungry. We can just chill,” Malila said while rubbing the back of his neck. Tristan just smiles and nods his head and Malila smiles and leans in and pecks Tristan’s lips.

“I’ll wait right here while you get ready,” Malila said. Tristan just pecks Malila’s lips a few times and then gets up from the couch and goes into his bedroom and he packs an overnight bag and then he comes out to the living room. He puts on his shoes and then Malila stands up from the couch and they leave his condo. Tristan makes sure it is locked and then they get in their separate cars and drive to Malila’s apartment. Once they get there, they both park and get out of their cars and Malila goes to her apartment and Tristan follows right behind her. Malila unlocks and opens her door and turns on the light and walks in and Tristan walks in and closes and locks the door behind her. Kevin comes running up to Malila and Tristan and barks loudly and Tristan squats down and rubs his ears and leans down and kisses the top of his head. Malila just smiles and pets Kevin and then Tristan stands up and Tristan sets his bag in Malila’s bedroom and then walks back out to the living room area and Kevin is right behind him. Tristan looks and sees Malila in the kitchen bent over in the fridge. He just admires her perfectly shaped behind and he can’t help but get sexual thoughts about Malila.

“Tristan would you like a plate? I can heat you up something,” Malila said while still looking through the fridge. Tristan is just in a daze right now and didn’t really hear what Malila said.

“Tristan…..stop staring at my a**,” Malila said while standing up and turning to look at him.

“Huh?,” Tristan said while snapping out of his daze.

“I said stop staring at my a** and are you hungry? I can fix you a plate,” Malila said while laughing a bit.

“Oh…uh…yea I would like something to eat. Thanks…..and yeah you caught me staring, my bad,” Tristan said. Malila just smiles at him and she is so close to biting her lip, and Tristan watches her so closely, and Malila catches herself before she does it. She fixes Tristan a plate, of baked chicken, green beans, macaroni and cheese and cornbread. She heats it up and then fixes Tristan a glass of water. Once Tristan’s plate is ready, she hands it to him along with his glass of water.

“Thank you so much Malila, this looks great,” Tristan said.

“Thanks,” Malila said. Tristan sits down at the kitchen table and Malila gets him silverware and then sits next to Tristan and they talk as he eats. Once Tristan is done eating, Tristan puts his dishes in the dishwasher and then he and Malila sit on the couch. Kevin climbs onto both Tristan and Malila and rests against them so his head is in Tristan’s lap and body is across Malila’s. Tristan and Malila just laugh and they both gently pet him as Malila turns on the tv and turns to a movie. Once Kevin gets tired, he goes to his bed in the corner of the room and lies down and closes his eyes. Tristan and Malila talk for a while, just about everything. At around 1 am, they go into Malila’s bedroom and Tristan takes off his clothes so he just has on a beater and boxers and he lies down in Malila’s bed. Malila goes into the bathroom and brushes her teeth and washes her face and Tristan can see her from the bed and he just admires her. He watches Malila put her hair up in a high bun and then she comes out and lies down next to Tristan and Tristan just stares at her.

“What is it?,” Malila asked.

“….You’re just so beautiful Malila…even without makeup, you look so beautiful, that’s all,” Tristan said while rubbing Malila’s cheek.

“You’re so sweet,” Malila said softly. Malila kisses Tristan’s cheek and then just stares at him.

“Now you’re staring,” Tristan said while laughing a bit.

“It’s just….you’ve been hurt so bad Tristan, it’s sad….because you are a really good person and the fact that Alicia hurt you so bad, to where she completely changed you, it’s just so sad to me….I just will never understand how she disappeared and kills the child you two were expecting together, but then gets married and has a child….that’s just disgusting to me,” Malila said.

“S**t I know….it still hurts….because I know I would have been a d**n good father, but she took that away from me. She didn’t even give me a chance I think that’s what hurts the most.”

“It’s ok Tristan,” Malila whispered in Tristan’s ear. She gently caresses his head and kisses his cheek a few times. Tristan just smiles to himself and looks at Malila.

“You know Malila….you are real special to me. I want you to know that,” Tristan said softly.

“Aww thanks Tristan….and you’re real special to me too…I can’t wait to see where our relationship takes us….and I don’t want you to be scared, because I refuse to hurt you the way Alicia did,” Malila said. Tristan just smiles and leans in and pecks Malila’s lips. He pulls her close to him and Malila rests her head on his chest and Tristan wraps his arms around her tight. Tristan may not be ready for a relationship yet, but he knows that is exactly what he wants with Malila when the time is right.

So a couple of months and a few pass and today is Tristan’s 26th birthday! He usually doesn’t do too much to celebrate his birthday, but Malila says she has a surprise for him. Malila and Tristan have become extremely close and spend all of their free time together, yet they are still just friends, but Tristan is hoping to change that today. The time now is about 1 pm Monday morning and Tristan is taking his lunch break. He usually eats with Malila, but she said she had a meeting, so she wasn’t available. As Tristan is eating is lunch outside, he sees Malila though. He sees her walk to a restaurant across the street from where he is eating and <a href="http://images.tvrage.com/people/21/62046.jpg">this man</a> stands up when Malila gets to his table. They hug each other tight and Malila kisses his cheek multiple times and then pecks his lips. Tristan’s heart just literally stopped in his chest; he can’t believe what he is seeing right now. Tristan is just beyond hurt right now and he can feel his blood boiling. Malila and the man sit down and talk and Tristan just turns away. He really thought Malila was different but this just proves to Tristan that woman aren’t s**t. He quickly finishes his food and then pays and goes to his car. He does not even want to confront Malila right now, he is way too upset. Tristan gets in his car and lights up a cigarette and he feels like crying right now. He has been thinking about asking Malila for a while to be his woman, and he really wanted to ask her today; that is the only birthday present he wanted today. Malila talked all this s**t about how she was different and better than Alicia, but Tristan believes that she is just like Alicia. Tristan quickly smokes two cigarettes and then speeds off back to work. He could not get what he saw out of his head though and thought about it all day. He was just so glad that his work day was over, but he is just hurt. For Malila to do something like this makes no sense to Tristan, and on his birthday of all days. Once he gets home, he just kicks off his shoes and plops on the couch and thinks. He thinks about all the good times that he and Malila had and how sincere she seemed, but Tristan sees now that was all a lie. Tristan just sighs heavily because he really thought Malila could be the one for him, but after what he saw today, he never wants to see her again. Tristan just relaxes or tries to, until he hears a knock on his door. He looks at the clock and sees it is 6 pm and he forgot that he invited Malila over. He does not want to see her, but at the same time he wants to confront her. He gets up from the couch and he walks to the door and sees Malila, and also the man he saw her with at lunch, holding a small box in his hand. Malila is also holding a few gift bags in her hand. Malila smiles big and Tristan just glares at her.

“Happy birthday Tristan!,” Malila said. Malila tries to walk in, but Tristan puts his arm up to stop her. Malila just gives him a funny look.

“Tristan….what’s wrong? I’m not invited in?,” Malila asked.

“….How dare you Malila….how dare you get my hopes up thinking you were a good woman when you are just like her,” Tristan said rudely.

“What?,” Malila asked confused.

“You are just like that b***h Alicia! You are just like her! I invited you to lunch and you said you had a meeting and I saw you with this n***a! That was your meeting huh? I saw you kiss him Malila! You know…..I don’t even know why I’m trippin, you’re not even my woman….but I was going to ask you today……the only thing I wanted for my birthday was you Malila. I just wanted to officially be with you….but I changed my mind real quick…..if you didn’t want us to be more than friends, you never should have lead me on….you can be with this n***a though, because I am done with you Malila. I am done. You don’t care about me at all Malila. You said you were nothing like her, but you are exactly like that b***h,” Tristan said while getting in Malila’s face and yelling. Malila just stares at him as her lip trembles and tears fill her eyes.

“Tristan, you have it all wrong,” the man said.

“Ain’t nobody ask you anything n***a,” Tristan said.

“Tristan…..you do have it all wrong….this is my friend Alex. He….he baked the cake for you,” Malila said. Alex opens the box in his hands and Tristan looks and sees his favorite German chocolate cake with “Happy 26th Birthday Tristan” on it. He just looks at Malila and he feels bad for a second, but then gets angry again.

“This doesn’t prove s**t Malila…I saw you kiss him!,” Tristan yelled.

“That is just how I greet her. Malila is a great friend…..and she is beautiful and all, but she isn’t really my type. I’m gay and I have been married to my partner for a year now,” Alex said while holding up his left hand so Tristan can see his wedding band. Tristan’s heart just sinks to the bottom of his stomach; he feels absolutely terrible right now for everything he said to Malila. He looks at Malila and she just stares at him frowning with tears streaming down her face.

“….How dare you Tristan! How dare you compare even for a second to Alicia! I am nothing like her! I would never hurt the way she did or at all! You said I don’t care about you? How can you say that? If I don’t care about you then why would I go out of my way to find someone to bake you your favorite cake and get you a present I know you will love?,” Malila screamed. She sets down the gift bags and opens one and hands a gift to Tristan.

“Open it!,” Malila demanded. Tristan just sighs heavily and then opens it and his heart stopped in his chest when he saw it. It’s one of the few pictures he has left with his mom, but it is digitally enhanced in a very nice frame.

“I know how much you love your mom Tristan….and I know I took this picture, but it was so I could have it enhanced for you since it was so blurry. And I framed it for you too. I wanted you to always be able to just look at this picture and remember her since you were so young when she died…..and I got you a polo t-shirt since I noticed you wear them so much and I also got you a pair of Jordans that you were eyeing for a while…..I got you all these nice gifts, but I don’t care about you huh? I hope you have a nice f**kin’ birthday Tristan,” Malila spat. She throws the gift bags at him and then runs away. Tristan just feels like s**t right now.

“Look man I’m sorry…..she wanted everything to be a surprise for you….she really cares about you. You are all she talks about. Here’s your cake, I hope you like it,” Alex said while handing the cake out to him.

“…Thanks….I’m sorry. I just…..I overreacted to something that didn’t even exist….s**t I f**ked up,” Tristan said.

“Just apologize…..Malila has such a big heart and she will forgive you if you apologize,” Alex said. Tristan just nods his head and takes the cake and Alex leaves. Tristan sets the cake and presents in the kitchen and then leaves his condo to look for Malila. He goes downstairs and outside and finds her on a nearby bench crying her eyes out. He hates to see Malila in pain, and knowing he is the cause of this pain makes it even worse. He goes over to the bench and sits next to her and Malila felt someone sit next to her and she looks at him and rolls her eyes and looks away.

“Malila….I don’t even know what to say….I’m so sorry. I never should have acted the way I did. I loved the cake and every single present you bought for me,” Tristan said.

“I don’t want to talk to you Tristan. Leave me alone,” Malila said rudely.

“I’m sorry Malila. I really am….I never should have jumped to conclusions like that.”

“….How could you even for a second say I am like Alicia? I am NOTHING like that ho, backstabbing b***h and for you to say that I am…..that hurts Tristan. That hurts me so bad……you don’t trust me and that hurts even more because I have never done you wrong. I have always been honest….so I told you I had a meeting, and I’m sorry I lied, but I wanted to surprise you. I wanted to do something so special for you so you would know that I genuinely cared about you,” Malila said while coughing on tears.

“Malila I know….you are nothing like Alicia, but when I saw you with him, I just assumed you wanted him and not me….d**n I’m sorry Malila.”

“Whatever Tristan…I just hope you enjoy your birthday.” Malila stands up and Tristan grabs her hand, but Malila jerks it away.

“Don’t touch me Tristan…..I honestly cannot believe what you said to me….it hurt me so deep and I don’t want anything to do with you for a while Tristan. So please don’t call me or text me….I am not even sure if I ever want to hear from you again Tristan,” Malila said. Malila turns around and quickly walks away and Tristan can hear her crying as she walks. “S**t Tristan! You just lost one of the best women you will ever meet in your life! You f**ked up! She doesn’t even want to talk to you….d**n this hurts,” Tristan thought to himself. He just sighs heavily and goes back to his condo. He eats a piece of cake and it was amazing. He sees the <a href="http://tsgroupuae.com/en/wp-content/uploads/2011/12/polo-02.jpg"> polo t-shirt</a> Malila bought him and the <a href="http://www.sneakerfiles.com/wp-content/uploads/2009/06/air-jordan-6-vi-retro-black-varsity-red-1.jpg">Jordans</a> as well. The Jordans match the t-shirt and Tristan knows Malila must have gone through some trouble to match the two. He feels like such an a**hole. He and Malila were doing so good, and he really wanted to ask her to be with him officially today and he knows he blew it. He just hopes that opportunity isn’t completely gone, because he isn’t sure what he will do without Malila in his life.

So a few days pass and today is Friday and today would be Tristan’s mom’s 45 birthday. Tristan has been going through so many emotions today and it has been hard for him to focus at work. Tristan is going to his mother’s grave after work and Malila offered to go with him. Tristan is so thankful that Malila will go with him, because it’s pretty difficult to mourn alone. Well Tristan’s day goes by and he was just happy for his day to be over. Tristan leaves his job at around 6 pm and he drives to Malila’s workplace to pick her up. Once he pulls up to the bank, he sees her sitting on a bench. When Malila sees him, she smiles and stands up and Tristan sees she is dressed in a pencil black shirt, a white blouse, and low black pumps. Her hair is out and Tristan just smiles a bit when he sees her; “She is so beautiful,” Tristan thinks to himself. Malila walks to the passenger door and opens it and gets in and closes the door behind her. She looks at Tristan and smiles.

“Hi Tristan….how are you doing today?,” Malila asked.

“I’m ok Malila….it’s been kind of hard today and going to her grave won’t be much better….I just have to stop by the florist and get the flowers ok?,” Tristan asked.

“Of course Tristan.” Malila smiles and hugs Tristan and then kisses his cheek. Tristan drives off and he stops at a small florist a few blocks away and goes in, while Malila stays in the car. While Malila is in the car, she sees a toddler girl walking around alone and she seems to be crying. She looks closely at the girl and it looks like Alicia’s daughter. Malila quickly gets out of the car and goes to the little girl and kneels in front of her.

“Hey are you lost?,” Malila asked.

“I…I can’t find my mommy,” the little girl said while crying.

“Oh sweetheart it’s ok. What’s her name?”

“Alicia,” the little girl said while rubbing her eye.

“Ok….well let’s see if we can find her….what is your name?”

“My…my name is Shanti.”

“Ok Shanti let’s go find your mommy…..take my hand….I won’t hurt you,” Malila said. Shanti looks at Malila and then takes her hand. Malila smiles and they walk around and call for Alicia and after a few minutes they see Alicia coming out of a store looking around frantically.

“Mommy!,” Shanti said. Shanti runs to Alicia and Alicia squats down and hugs her so tight and kisses her cheek. Malila smiles a bit and she turns to walk away.

“Wait!,” Alicia called out. Malila stops and turns around and Alicia stands up with Shanti in her arms and moves closer to Malila.

“Thank you so much. I was so worried about Shanti….what’s your name?,” Alicia asked.

“Malila. And it’s no problem….she looked so scared so I had to help her,” Malila said.

“Well thank you again…..you know…..Tristan….he is a great man….I remember you with him at the festival.”

“Oh…well you are right. He is a great man…..look I have to go.”

“Ok. Thank you again Malila….Shanti can you say thank you too?”

“Thank you for helping me find my mommy,” Shanti said.

“It’s no problem sweetheart….bye.” Shanti waves and Malila smiles and turns around and walks back to Tristan’s car. She gets in and a few minutes later, Tristan comes back out to the car and he gets in and Malila sees a beautiful dozen of roses. Tristan puts the roses in the back seat and then looks at Malila and narrows his eyes at her and Malila looks back at him.

“What?,” Malila questioned.

“….I saw what you did…with the little girl….I know whose daughter that was too,” Tristan said.

“Oh…well I hope you aren’t mad at me. I only talked to Alicia for a second once I found her.”

“Why would I be mad? You’re such a good person Malila….it amazes me.” Malila smiles a bit and Tristan starts up the car and starts driving.

“….You seem to be good with kids,” Tristan said.

“Oh yes I love children. I have so many younger cousins that I love to death….and I have always wanted kids too,” Malila said. Tristan smiles a bit and nods his head and he drives to the cemetery. Once he parks, he turns off the car and looks at Malila.

“It’s ok Tristan…I will be right by your side,” Malila said. Tristan nods his head and takes a deep breath and he and Malila get out of the car. Tristan gets the roses and then he leads Malila to his mother’s grave. Tristan stops in front of a grave with the name Joyce Williams. He squats down and kisses his hand and then puts it against the grave and then sets down the flowers.

“Hey mom…it’s me. Happy birthday. You would be 45 today. If you were here, you would be saying how old you think you are, but I would just convince you that you are nowhere near old…..and still beautiful. Mom….I miss you so much. I have needed you so much since you have been gone, but I know you are in a better place and not hurting anymore, and I can accept that….and I just want to make sure that when you are looking down on me….you are proud. I just want to make you proud….I am your legacy mom and I will never forget that…..I love you so much mom….I am doing a lot better than I was the last time I was here…..I am happy mom. I just feel so happy now and….I know that’s because of this woman right here,” Tristan said. Tristan turns to look at Malila and Malila smiles and moves closer to Tristan and rests her hand on his shoulder.

“Mom….this is Malila….she is a great friend to me….she is really changing me mom…after everything that I went through with Alicia….I was so cold and didn’t want anything to do with anyone, especially women, but she is changing my mind about all of that….she has been so good to me, and I know that you would want someone like her for me….I have really needed someone to talk to, and she has been that and so much more….I know if you met her, you would like her as much as I do,” Tristan said. He looks up at Malila and smiles and Tristan smiles back.

“Mom I love you so much and this week has been really hard for me. I usually shut down completely when I think about you and how I lost you, but….l’m trying really hard to be strong because I know that is what you would you want. You wouldn’t want me crying over you and I know that. You would want me to live my life to the fullest and that is what I want to do. I want to do that for you mom. I love you mom. I love you so much,” Tristan said as a few tears ran down his cheeks. Tristan leans in and kisses the top of his mother’s grave and then stands up and looks at Malila. Malila looks at him and wipes his tears away.

“You alright?,” Malila asked.

“…Yeah Malila I am fine….thank you so much for coming with me,” Tristan asked.

“It’s no problem at all….I would have stayed as long as you wanted to….let’s get something to eat.” Tristan smiles and nods his head and they start walking back towards the car. As they are walking, Malila runs her hand down his arm and then locks her right hand with Tristan’s left hand. Tristan turns his head and stares at her and Malila smiles at him. Tristan smiles back and softly caresses Malila’s hand as they walk. They get to the car and get in and they get dinner at Chipotle. After dinner, Tristan drives Malila back to the bank so she can get her car. Malila and Tristan get out of the car and Tristan walks Malila to her car.

“Malila….I can’t thank you enough for coming with me to my mother’s grave today,” Tristan said.

“Well you are welcome Tristan and I didn’t mind at all…I just hope you’re ok,” Malila said.

“I am.” Malila moves closer to Tristan and hugs him tight and Tristan smiles to himself and hugs Malila back. After the embrace, Malila gently kisses Tristan’s lips.

“You have a good night, if you need anything, just call me ok?,” Malila said.

“Thanks Malila.” Malila unlocks her car door and she starts to open it, but Tristan gently grabs her arm to stop her.

“Malila….I hope I am not crossing any lines here….but I really don’t want to be alone tonight….so…..can you come home with me? I mean you can go home and get clothes and everything and then meet me at my place? We can just chill, no funny business,” Tristan asked nervously. Malila bites her lip and Tristan just laughs a bit.

“I would love to Tristan. Give me about an hour or so and I will be at your place ok?,” Malila said.

“Ok Malila….thank you so much,” Tristan said. Malila grabs Tristan’s face and gives him a passionate kiss and then gets in her car and drives off. Tristan can’t help but smile and he gets in his car and drives to his condo. He takes a quick shower and then cleans up a bit. He puts clean sheets on his bed and then turns on the tv in <a href="http://www.blogcdn.com/www.luxist.com/media/2008/02/olive83.jpg">his bedroom</a> and lies across the bed. The time now is a littler after 8 pm and he patiently waits for Malila. Malila took a quick shower as well and put on a t-shirt and yoga capris. She puts her hair in a high bun and then packed herself a little overnight bag. She then takes Kevin for his nightly walk and then she fixes him enough food and water to last for the night. Kevin is able to stay at home by himself and Malila has done it a few times before. She makes sure his bed is ready for him and she also puts newspapers down in case he has to use the bathroom while she is gone. Kevin is very well trained and he should be just fine until Malila comes back in the morning. She gives Kevin a kiss and then leaves her apartment with her bag locking the door behind her. She stops by Dairy Queen to get dessert for her and Tristan and then she drives to Tristan’s condo. She gets there at about 8:45 pm and she goes up to his condo and knocks on the door. Within seconds, Tristan answers the door and Malila smiles and Tristan smiles back.

“Hey Malila,” Tristan said.

“Hey Tristan….I’m sorry I’m a little late, but I got you a chocolate milkshake from Dairy Queen for dessert….I know how much you love them and I know today is hard for you, so I thought it could make you feel better.” Malila hands him the milkshake and Tristan just smiles and takes it form her.

“You and your sweet a**…..come in,” Tristan said. Malila laughs and walks in and Tristan closes the door behind her and Malila takes off her shoes.

“Thank you for this Malila,” Tristan said.

“You’re welcome,” Malila said.

“Is your dog going to be ok on his own tonight?”

“Yes he will be fine. He is very well trained and I have left him alone a few times and he hasn’t wrecked my place.”

“Ok well that’s good….thank you for coming.”

“Thank you for inviting me.” Tristan smiles and grabs her hand and walks her to the bedroom. Malila looks around and admires his bedroom; this is her first time seeing it. She sets down her bag and puts the straw in her strawberry milkshake and takes a sip and sits on Tristan’s bed Indian style. Tristan laughs a bit and sits down next to her.

“What’s so funny?,” Malila asked.

“You’re just making yourself all comfortable in my bed,” Tristan said.

“It’s pretty comfortable. And big,” Malila said while bouncing up and down a bit.

“It’s a king size bed,” Tristan said while laughing.

“….Are you sure you’re ok with this Tristan?”

“Ok with what? You staying the night?”

“Yeah.”

“Why wouldn’t I be? I invited you.”

“I know…..but you aren’t going to make me sleep on the couch are you?”

“No Malila….you can sleep with me.” Malila smiles and takes a sip of her milkshake and then looks at Tristan.

“Well….how would you feel about me sleeping next to you Tristan? If I like….held you, would you push me away?,” Malila asked.

“No….because I want to be the one that holds you.” Malila just looks at Tristan in shock and Tristan sighs and then smiles.

“….You mean it?,” Malila asked.

“Yes….I hope that would be ok with you,” Tristan said.

“Of course….I would love it Tristan.” Tristan just looks Malila up and down and Malila notices and takes a sip of her drink and then narrows her eyes at Tristan.

“…Why do you look at me like that?,” Malila asked softly.

“Because….you’re just so beautiful. And your body…let’s just say it’s obvious you work out,” Tristan said.

“You’re so sweet….I can tell you work out too. I could tell the first day I saw you at the bar,” Malila said while running her eyes up and down his toned arms.

“Alright now, finish your milkshake,” Tristan said while laughing. Malila giggles and Tristan just stares at her and Malila looks at him like she did something wrong.

“What is it?,” Malila asked.

“Your giggle….is so sexy…..s**t everything you do is sexy to me Malila….your giggle, your smile and you know when you bite you lip….it all turns me on….I’m sorry. It’s been a minute since I have…you know,” Tristan said.

“…When was the last time?”

“Uh….the day I saw you at the gym and you invited me to lunch for the first time…that morning was the last time….and I have wanted to plenty of times….but I can’t do that to you Malila…..you’ve been too good to me for me to hurt you like that.”

“Thanks Tristan that means a lot….I know I’m not your girlfriend, so if you wanted to have sex with another woman, I really have no right to be mad or be hurt.”

“But I just couldn’t….no matter how horny I was some nights and morning…..I just don’t want to hurt you Malila….I use to think women were just good for p***y but I know that’s not true Malila….you especially are not just good for that….you’re worth is so much more.”

“Aww you’re sweet Tristan.”

“….What about you? How long has it been for you? I mean you’re not a virgin are you?”

“No I’m not a virgin….my last time was with Kevin….the day before he died…so about three years I guess….d**n that’s so long huh? I met someone after Kevin and we were in a relationship, but we never got to that point….he said I waited too long so he cheated on me so I ended the relationship.” “D**n three years?! That is so long! S**t Malila is probably tight as f**k then…,” Tristan thought to himself.

“Wow d**n three years is a long time Malila….was Kevin the only man you have had sex with?,” Tristan said.

“Yes he was,” Malila said.

“Wow….I respect that Malila. I really do.”

“Thanks Tristan.” Malila and Tristan talk to each other as they finish up their milkshakes. They watch tv for a bit and at around 12:30 am, Malila gets tired and yawns loudly. Tristan smiles a bit and he pulls back the covers for Malila.

“Lie down Malila,” Tristan said softly. Malila nods her head and she lies down and Tristan pulls the covers over her.

“I usually smoke before I go to sleep…would you mind if I smoked?,” Tristan said.

“Yes I do mind…I don’t like you smoking and I don’t want you to come to bed smelling like smoke,” Malila said.

“D**n ok….just because I like you so much, I won’t smoke.” Malila just smiles and Tristan smiles back. He lies down on his back and Malila moves closer to him and rests her head on his chest. Tristan smiles to himself and wraps his arms around her. It has been so long since Tristan has held a woman like this, and he has missed it. He has missed this type of intimacy with someone he cares about.

“I like this,” Malila whispered.

“Me too Malila,” Tristan whispered back. Malila tilts her head upwards and puckers her lips and closes her eyes. Tristan smiles and he leans down and pecks Malila’s lips a few times. Tristan gets a little into it though and he makes the pecks longer and deeper. He runs his hand up and down her arm as he slides his tongue inside of Malila’s mouth. Malila moaned a bit and turned her body so she could kiss Tristan deeper. Tristan grabbed Malila’s waist and pulled her on top of him and Malila puts her legs on either side of him and rests her chest on top of his. Tristan grabs Malila’s face and kisses down her chin and to her neck and gently sucks on it. Malila gently moans in Tristan’s ear as he sucks, licks, and kisses on a spot he likes on her neck. Hearing Malila moan in his ear just instantly got Tristan hard and he realizes what he is doing and he stops kissing Malila’s neck and looks at her while holding her face in his hands.

“I’m sorry Malila. I got carried away….I don’t want to rush anything, especially this,” Tristan said.

“Uh…it’s ok Tristan….I like the way you kiss my neck,” Malila said while biting her lip. Tristan just glares at her and then bites Malila’s bottom lip and then Malila laughs.

“Oww that hurt,” Malila said.

“Then stop biting your lip and I won’t have to do that,” Tristan teased. Malila pouts a bit, but then pecks Tristan’s cheek. She gets off of him and lies down next to him and rests her head on his chest. Tristan wraps his arms around her again and they talk for a bit until Tristan notices Malila is getting tired. He tells her to close her eyes and she does so and Tristan watches her fall asleep. Tristan thinks she even looks beautiful while she’s sleeping. He just admires her face and watches her sleep on his chest. Tristan could definitely get use to this.

So a few weeks pass and a couple of days pass and Malila and Tristan’s relationship is doing ok. Malila has noticed that Tristan has been distancing himself from her and she isn’t sure why. He usually goes out of his way to see her, but Tristan is no longer doing that. Malila isn’t sure what’s going on with him and she really wants to talk to him about it. Malila is working out at the gym tonight, Tuesday, and she knows Tristan will work out tonight as well, so she really wants to talk to him. She is using the equipment in the weight room and she notices Tristan walk into the weight room at around 7:30 pm. When she sees him, she smiles and waves and Tristan gives a faint smile and quickly looks away. Malila watches him stretch for a few minutes and then she walks over to him.

“Hey Tristan,” Malila said.

“Hey Malila,” Tristan said. Malila leans up to pecks his lips, but Tristan turns his head and Malila ends up kissing his cheek instead.

“Tristan…what’s wrong?,” Malila asked.

“Nothing,” Tristan said.

“Well….I was just wondering if you wanted to come over again this weekend. I can cook for us and we can just chill like we normally do. What do you say?”

“…Uh…I don’t think so Malila, but thanks.”

“Tristan….what is going on with you? You have been really distant these past few weeks. At one point we saw each other almost every day and called each other every night…..we have shared numerous passionate kisses and now you are treating me like a stranger….why is that? You know you can talk to me.”

“I just need my space ok? That’s it d**n can I just get that much?,” Tristan said rudely. Malila just looks at him and looks down and nods her head.

“Ok Tristan….I care about you and I will give you what you need and if you want your space then I will give that to you….enjoy your workout, Malila said. Tristan just watches Malila walks away and he sighs heavily. He didn’t have to be so rude and he knows that but at this time every year, Tristan just shuts down. His mother’s birthday is approaching and when it does, Tristan always alienates himself from everyone. He just never wants to be around anyone because he literally spends days mourning. He hasn’t told Malila anything about his mother’s death because it is so hard for him. He knows he needs to stop taking his issues out on Malila because she is way too good for that. Maybe Tristan needs to talk to Malila about this though. It wouldn’t be so bad for Tristan to go through this hard time with someone and Malila is special to Tristan, so maybe he just needs to cut the bulls**t and tell Malila so she can be there for him like Tristan knows she wants to be. Tristan looks around and sees Malila on one of the machines that work out your legs. He takes a deep breath and walks over to her and Malila just looks at him. Tristan grabs her hand and Malila stands up and Tristan leans down and gently pecks Malila’s lips. He doesn’t even care that people in the gym saw them kiss.

“Listen, I’m sorry Malila….I was rude to you for no reason and I have no right at all to act that way towards you…you are really sweet and you don’t deserve that….and I know I have been distancing myself from you and I’m sorry for that, but you don’t know why and that’s my fault I know….there is something I need to and want to tell you about….it’s about my mother and it’s very hard but….ever since she died, I have mourned for her for days even weeks when her birthday comes around and I always do it alone….but I….I want to open up so maybe you can comfort me or something, s**t I don’t know. I just need someone to talk to about this since the day she dies is coming up and I want to talk to you Malila….can you come to my place after we work out? You can go home and shower real quick then come? Hopefully it won’t be too late for you,” Tristan said.

“…Ok Tristan I can do that for you….thank you for being honest with me….we are friends Tristan and I just want to be there for you whenever you need me,” Malila said.

“…..You’re real special to me Malila.” Malila just smiles and hugs Tristan and Tristan hugs her back. Malila then kisses Tristan’s cheek and looks at him.

“Let’s finish our workout alright? We’ll meet up when we are both done,” Tristan suggested. Malila smiles and nods her head and Tristan and Malila both go back to their work outs. Once they are both done, around 8:30 pm, Tristan walks Malila to her car and Malila tells Tristan she will try to be at his place at around 10 pm. Malila leaves and Tristan gets in his car and leaves as well. Once Tristan gets home, he showers and puts on a beater and pair of boxers. He goes into the living room and sits on his bed and turns on the tv and just waits for Malila. He really wants to smoke, but he has actually been trying really hard to cut down. He knows Malila hates it and he is willing to stop trying for her. He just tries to relax and at a little before 10, Tristan hears a knock on his door. He gets up from the bed and goes to the door and answers it and sees Malila standing at the door in yoga pants, a t-shirt and her hair is in a loose bun at the top of her head. Tristan just looks her up and down because no matter what she wears, she just looks so beautiful.

“Hey,” Malila said.

“Hey Malila….come in,” Tristan said. Malila walks in and goes to the living room and sits on the couch. Malila has been to Tristan’s condo before and she makes herself comfortable on the couch.

“I’ll be right back….do you want anything? Anything to drink?,” Tristan offered.

“No Tristan I’m ok,” Malila said. Tristan nods his head and he goes into his bedroom and Malila hears him scuffling around and a few minutes later, Tristan comes back out to the living room and sits next to Malila on the couch. He looks at her and hands her a few pictures and Malila looks through them and sees Tristan along with a woman, maybe in her late twenties or early thirties. Malila looks through all of the pictures and Tristan and the woman are smiling in every single one of them.

“….Is this your mom?,” Malila asked.

“Yeah…it is,” Tristan said.

“She was beautiful Tristan….you look a lot like her.”

“She was beautiful Malila….everything about that woman was beautiful….she did absolutely anything for me….it was just me and her for a while and she struggled working two jobs, but I was never hungry or without clothes and we always had a roof over our head….sometimes she wouldn’t even eat because she always wanted to make sure that I had enough…she had such a big heart and everyone that met her loved her instantly….her smile alone could make you fall in love. It literally lit up a room,” Tristan said while looking down.

“….Tell me what happened to her Chris,” Malila said. Tristan looks up at Malila and she smiles a bit and gently rubs his cheek and then takes his left hand in her right hand and rubs it gently.

“…When I was around 7, she started dating this n***a named Andrew….I hated him from the beginning. He never liked me and would do all he could to make sure I was out of the house so he could spend all his time with my mom….he was just a no good bastard…he worked in construction, but it wasn’t permanent so he would work for a few months then he would be out of work for a few months and when he did he would always just stay with me and my mom in our house. All he would do is watch tv and drink, he was just a drunk and nothing else. Anyway….about a year or so later, when I was …..I woke up to their arguing. Andrew and my mom had started arguing a lot because he was stealing money from her and my mom confronted him about it….it was like 2:30 in the morning and I go to my mom’s bedroom and I knock on the door and ask her through the door if she’s ok….Andrew opens the door and I just stare at him like I am ready to fight….I ask him to see my mom and he grabs me by my arm and he walks me in and I see her sitting on the floor holding her eye. She looks at me and I notice her black eye and I try to walk over to her, but Andrew stops me. I am trying so hard to get out of his grip, but I can’t and he pushes me into the closet and locks it before I can even fight back. He also put a door or something under the doorknob because every time I tried to open it, it wouldn’t move. I am just trying to bust the door down but I am only 8 so I wasn’t that strong…..as I….as I am trying to open the door, I just head my mom screaming and….I eventually hear Andrew moaning while my mother is screaming. I just kept yelling to her that I love her and she kept telling me that she was sorry and that she loved me. She told me to stay strong…..after Andrew raped my mom….he….he started choking her. I could hear my mother gasping and I heard things fall like she was kicking; she was kicking for her life. I just kept screaming no and I kept telling her I loved her as tears just kept streaming down my face….then….it gets silent…it just got so quiet and I just screamed at the top of my lunge because I knew…..I knew that she was dead. I hear scrambling in the room and then the closet door and it opens and Andrew is standing there sweating and out of breath. If I could have killed him I would have, but he held a gun to me as he quickly left the room and the house….I go to the side of the bed where my mom is and I see her lying on her back and her eyes…..her eyes were rolled to the back of her head. I just grabbed the phone and called 911 and as I was talking to the dispatcher, I just held my mom….I just held her and told her I was sorry I didn’t protect her…..we always promised to protect each other, but that night…I failed….I just rocked her and cried until the ambulance came. I knew she was dead, but….I just had to be near her. I kept telling her that I loved her and I didn’t want to let her go….I would have held her forever if the cops would have let me….that night was the worst night of my life and I will never forget it…..I was….I….I did testify against Andrew and he was proven guilty, but only for second degree murder because the only evidence was my testimony, which apparently wasn’t enough because he only got thirty years in prison…..but…..a few years ago, he was let out for some reason I will never understand….and he lives here. He lives here in Richmond….I have never seen him, but that is why I carry my gun around….because when I do see him, I will shoot him down and not feel sorry about it at all….because he took the one thing that I had and truly loved in this world. He took my mother. That woman…..she gave me life and for him to take hers like it meant nothing…,” Tristan stops talking as numerous tears pour down his face. He just looks down and puts his head in his hands and cries so hard. Malila has never seen Tristan show this much emotion, let alone cry and she cries too. Tristan heard his mom dying and Malila could never imagine going through something like that. Malila just lifts up his head and wraps her arms around him and embraces him tightly. Tristan wraps his arms around Malila and cries on her shoulder. Malila rubs his back to try to calm him down, but Malila can feel how hurt Tristan is right now.

“Tristan I am so sorry. I am so sorry that your mother was taken from you like that. I could never imagine hearing my mother suffer the way you did and to hear her die like that….I’m just so sorry Tristan. It’s really not fair at all that Andrew is out of prison like he did nothing wrong. He should be in there until the day he dies…..you have been hurt so bad Tristan and you didn’t deserve any of it,” Malila said softly in Tristan’s ear. Tristan just slowly nods his head and Malila just continues to rub his back. After a very long embrace, Tristan pulls out of the embrace and Malila looks at him and wipes his face of his tears.

“….I understand completely why it is so hard for you to talk about your mom….that had to be very painful to relive that moment,” Malila said.

“….It really was…you and Alicia are the only two people I have ever told that story to since I testified…..but….thank you for listening,” Tristan said.

“It’s no problem Tristan. You can talk to me about anything.”

“….We both have been hurt Malila….and….I think that’s why it is so easy for me to talk to you….we have both lost people we have loved in hurtful ways.”

“You’re right Tristan….that is why I can talk to you so easily because we can relate….how old would your mom be this year?”

“She would be 45 this year…..every year….on her birthday and the day she died, I go to her grave….her birthday is at the end of this week…..will you go with me Malila?,” Tristan asked.

“Of course I will go with you Tristan,” Malila said while grabbing Tristan’s left hand and holding it tight.

“….You’re just so sweet Malila. You have such a huge heart,” Tristan said. Malila smiles a bit and she takes Tristan’s hand to her lips and kisses it softly.

“I care about you Tristan and whenever you need me, I will be there for you,” Malila said.

“Thank you Malila that means a lot to me,” Tristan said.

“….Are you ok?”

“Yeah I am fine…..I learned that my mother is in a better place and she isn’t in pain anymore and that thought helps me through the pain a lot….it kind of feels good to talk about it….now I don’t have all this pain harbored in anymore.”

“I am really glad to hear that Tristan….anytime you need to talk, you just call me and I will listen. Ok?” Tristan smiles a bit and nods his head. Tristan wipes Malila’s tears and Malila gently rubs Tristan’s arm. Tristan gently caresses Malila’s cheek and gently grabs her face and leans in and gently kisses her. Malila rests her hand on Tristan’s hand on and rests the other one around his waist. After a gentle, but passionate kiss, Tristan rests his forehead against Malila’s and they just stare at each other.

“I really like kissing you Malila…..I can honestly say that I can’t wait to see where we can go….I like you Malila….and….I could see being so much more than your friend,” Tristan said. Malila smiles big and bites her lip and Tristan leans in and sucks her bottom lip and then looks at Malila and smirks and Malila giggles.

“I can’t wait to see where we go too Tristan…..I love spending time with you and getting to know you….you really are sweet and I want to be more than your friend too…..just remember we don’t have to rush,” Malila said.

“Thanks Malila, that means a lot to me.” Malila pecks Tristan’s lips and they just smile at each other. Tristan just admires Malila’s beauty and realizes that her beauty is not just physical; it’s so much more than that. Malila is genuinely a good person and Tristan is really starting to realize that and believe that as well. Malila is exactly what Tristan needs and has been looking for and now that she is here, he has to put his past behind him and try his best to keep her.

So it’s the next day, Sunday and Tristan thought Malila and her lips all night last night. He called her as soon as he woke up and she invited him over to her place again just to chill. Tristan gladly accepted and he got to Malila’s place at around 1 pm. He knocks on the door and Malila quickly answers. Kevin comes up behind Malila and he barks and then stands on his hind legs and leans against Tristan and Tristan just laughs. He rubs Kevin’s ears and Malila smiles at this.

“Hey Tristan,” Malila said.

“Hey Malila,” Tristan said.

“I was just about to take Kevin for his walk, is that ok with you?”

“Of course let’s go.” Malila smiles and she gets Kevin’s leash and puts it on him and her and Tristan leave and start their walk around the area.

“I bet when people see you with this dog, they won’t even think about stepping to you huh?,” Tristan said.

“I think you are right. He scares most people away and that is fine with me….he is very protective though. That is why when he first saw you I was surprised because he usually barks like crazy and jumps on strangers…..but it was something about you that he liked I guess….because he usually doesn’t like when people get close to his mommy,” Malila said.

“Well that’s good though Malila…..a beautiful woman like you could use the protection.”

“Awww Tristan you are so sweet.” Tristan just looks at Malila and smiles and Malila smiles back.

“Tristan?,” Malila said softly.

“Yeah?,” Tristan said.

“….I want to kiss you…..I thought about your lips all night Tristan.” Tristan just looks at her and they both stop in their tracks and he doesn’t know what possessed him to do this, but he gently grabbed Malila’s face and presses his lips against hers and gave her a very passionate kiss. After the kiss, Malila and Tristan just stared at each other. Tristan quickly lets go of her face and backs away from Malila and puts his hands up.

“Malila….I am so sorry…I really don’t know what came over me,” Tristan said sympathetically.

“I am not sure why you’re apologizing Tristan……I like it when we kiss,” Malila said.

“I like it too….a lot.” Malila just bites her lip and smiles and Tristan just laughs a bit and they continue walking.

“Malila….can I tell you something?,” Tristan asked.

“Of course Tristan….you can always tell me anything,” Malila said.

“Last night….after we kissed….I was so sexually frustrated….like I just really wanted some p***y….and I was so close to calling Angela, this woman that I just call when I want to f**k…but….then I thought about you…..and I know we aren’t together, but I felt like if I would have f**ked Angela, that just wouldn’t be fair to you…..I don’t know why I felt that way, but I did….so I scrolled past her name and texted you.” The biggest smile just forms across Malila’s face and Tristan just laughs and shakes his head.

“Tristan you’re so sweet!,” Malila shrieked.

“I told you I use to be a sweet guy, I became cold but…..I think you are changing me though…..and I really need it….I don’t want to walk around like I’m mad at the world and everyone in it…..that’s not how my mom raised me at all.”

“Well I am glad I am changing you…..why don’t you talk about your mom?”

“S**t is hard Malila…..she died when I was only 8 and she was all I had. She was my everything….when she was killed…..I swear I just wanted to die with her.”

“….She was killed? You never mentioned that before.”

“I know….but I don’t want to talk about. Not yet ok?”

“Ok Tristan that’s fine…..when you’re ready you let me know.” Malila leans in and kisses Tristan’s cheek and they enjoy their walk. As they are walking though, they see Michael. When Michael sees Tristan and Malila together, he glares at Malila and walks towards her, but Kevin starts barking really loud and tries to attack Michael. It is getting hard for Malila to control him, so Tristan takes him and Tristan pets him to calm him down and Kevin calms down, but growls at Michael as he moves closer to Malila.

“Malila why haven’t you answered any of my texts or calls?,” Michael said.

“Michael I told you that I didn’t want to see you anymore. I don’t know why you don’t understand that….you only wanted me for sex and I am not looking for a relationship like that,” Malila said.

“So you get with this n***a? You know how many b***hes I seen him leave the bar with?,” Michael said while pointing to Tristan.

“Hey n***a, you don’t know s**t about me,” Tristan said.

“Whatever n***a, I don’t think anything between me and Malila is your business,” Michael said while moving closer to Tristan. Kevin barks and Tristan lifts up his shirt to expose his 9 mm handgun.

“I would back the f**k up if you know what’s good for you,” Tristan said. Michael sucks his teeth and then backs up and looks at Malila.

“Fine Malila….you want this n***a that’s fine….just don’t come crying to me when he f**ks you then leaves….I don’t even know why I’m trippin’ over you anyway…..you ain’t even that fine,” Michael said. He brushes past Malila and walks away. Malila sighs and puts her head down and Tristan puts down his shirt and looks at Malila. Tristan places two hands under Malila’s chin and lifts up her head and stares her in her eyes and Malila stares back.

“Malila….don’t you listen to that n***a alright? I ain’t gon f**k you then leave, I can tell you that right now…..and you are beautiful Malila. You are naturally beautiful and don’t you ever forget that….I’ll remind you every day if I have to,” Tristan said sternly. Malila can’t help but smile and Tristan leans down and gentle pecks Malila’s lips. Malila just smiles at him afterwards.

“D**n Malila…..I ain’t use to this…..you got me caught up,” Tristan said while laughing.

“It’s ok Tristan…..we don’t have to rush anything ok?,” Malila said while grabbing his left hand and holding it loosely.

“Ok Malila,” Tristan said. Malila runs her hand from Tristan’s hand to his arm and they continue walking, with Malila’s arm inside of Tristan’s. Malila and Tristan walk to a local park and Tristan lets Kevin’s leash loose and he runs around a bit, and Tristan plays catch with Kevin for a bit and Malila just sits on the bench and watches in admiration. She really likes how comfortable Tristan feels around her and Kevin. Malila can tell that Tristan is genuinely a good person and she thinks about how much he has been hurt. His mother was killed and all the pain Alicia caused him and Malila can’t believe Tristan went through all of that. Malila has been hurt a lot too and she and Tristan can relate on that. If they were to ever get together, then Malila feels that they would be good together. Malila’s thoughts about a possible relationship are interrupted by how in shape Tristan is as he runs around with Kevin. She looks at his toned arms that can be seen through his tank top and his skinny, but toned legs. Tristan’s tattoos are so sexy to Malila and she can’t help but smile while staring at him. “The man is fine,” Malila thinks to herself. Malila would be lying if she said she hasn’t had sexual thoughts about Tristan, because she definitely has. She has had a few wet dreams about him and woken up so sexually frustrated, she didn’t even know what to do. She just wanted to call him and tell him to f**k her brains out, but she knew she couldn’t do that. She didn’t want Tristan to think that she was a ho, but Tristan really brings out something sexually in Malila that she has never experienced with anyone else, other than Kevin. When she kissed him and sucked on his bottom lip, and bit his bottom lip, she was shocked she even did that. Tristan just turns on Malila so much and she has never wanted a man so bad, but she knows they have to take things slow. Kevin runs over to Malila and Tristan follows behind him. Kevin climbs on Malila and licks her face and Malila just laughs and rubs his ears and kisses his face.

“Hey Kevin…did you have fun with Tristan?,” Malila asked. Kevin barks and Tristan sits on the bench next to Malila and Kevin lies down in front of Malila and Tristan’s feet. Malila goes into her purse and takes out a few dog treats for Kevin and feeds them to him. She then looks at Tristan and he is sweating a bit and he just looks d**n good right now!! Malila bites her lip and smiles and Tristan narrows his eyes at Malila while smiling a bit.

“You stay biting you lip,” Tristan said.

“You’re just so handsome…..and very sexy,” Malila said. Tristan raises his eyebrow at her and Malila looks away embarrassed.

“Hey don’t do that….don’t be embarrassed…..s**t you’re sexy too Malila….you’re sexy as f**k,” Tristan said.

“…..Really Tristan?,” Malila said while looking at him.

“Yes…look you are beautiful Malila….but you’re also sexy because you don’t have to try….it just comes naturally. You don’t have to put on layers of makeup, or dress to show off cleavage or anything like that….I honestly think if I saw you in just like sweatshirt, sweatpants, no makeup and hair tied back, you would still just look so sexy to me.”

“….You say the sweetest things Tristan.”

“I only speak the truth Malila.” Malila just smiles and gently caresses Tristan’s arm and Tristan just looks at Malila and smiles a bit. He has to admit that he is falling for Malila and falling hard. Not in love, but very strong like. But it’s too soon for Tristan to feel like this right? He is honestly scared. He fell for Alicia hard and fast too and we all know how that ended. Tristan heavily sighs and Malila noticed this.

“Tristan what’s wrong?,” Malila said.

“S**t I don’t know Malila…..you know, I may come off all tough and s**t, but when it comes to this….feelings and all that, I’m scared…..crazy huh?,” Tristan said.

“Tristan I understand….but you have to know that I am not going to hurt you….if you give me a chance, you won’t regret it.”

“…..And I want to believe that Malila, I really do.”

“Well if you don’t believe my words, you can believe my actions ok? We don’t have to rush Tristan I promise you that.”

“I know you’re right…..I think I just need to stop thinking so much about it and just let it happen you know?”

“I agree Tristan.” Tristan just looks at Malila and smiles. Tristan may be scared but he is starting to think that Malila just may be worth the risk.

So about a month passes and Tristan and Malila have a nice friendship growing. They see each other three to five times a week and they really enjoy each other’s company. Tristan has really opened up to Malila and Malila has done the same with Tristan. They both really like how things are between them right now and don’t want to rush anything. Well, it’s Saturday evening and Malila invited Tristan over to her apartment for dinner so she can cook for him. Tristan is very excited, but also nervous. This will be the first time they will be completely one on one. The time now is 6:30 pm and Tristan is pulling up to Malila’s apartment. He takes a deep breath and goes up Malila’s apartment and knocks on the door. Malila opens the door and smiles big when he sees Tristan.

“Hey Tristan,” Malila said.

“Hey Malila,” Tristan said. Just then,<a href="http://dogbreedworld.net/wp-content/uploads/2012/01/Doberman-Pinscher-4.jpg">this dog</a> , comes up beside Malila and Tristan just looks and smiles; he LOVES dogs. The dog barks at Tristan and Tristan kneels down and puts his hand out and the dog sniffs it and then licks it. Tristan just laughs and so does Malila.

“Wow….I have never seen him be so friendly before,” Malila said.

“What’s his name?,” Tristan said while gently petting the dog.

“….Kevin…..weird name for a dog, I know…..he is actually one of the puppies of Kevin’s dog that he grew up with….his parents thought that it would help me deal with his death. It’s like a part of him is still here in a way.”

“That’s real nice Malila. He’s beautiful and I love dogs…..I never thought that you would want a dog like this though. You seem like the Chihuahua type or something,” Tristan said while laughing.

“Well he is very protective, so it’s good to have him. He won’t let anyone hurt his mommy,” Malila said. She leans down and kisses Kevin’s head and Tristan stands up and walks into <a href="http://www.westernalgarve.eu/images/apartment-inside.jpg">Malila's apartment</a> and closes the door behind him.

“I cooked chicken alfredo and breadsticks….I know you like shrimp alfredo, but I’m allergic to seafood,” Malila said.

“That’s no problem at all Malila….it smells great in here,” Tristan said.

“Thanks.” Malila leads Tristan to the dining area and Tristan looks and sees the table with a nice cloth over it, candles and the silverware is laid out nicely. He sees two glasses of water as well.

“Wow….this is nice Malila,” Tristan said.

“Thanks Tristan….I wanted it to be special I guess…..I would have wine or champagne, but you know I don’t drink alcohol,” Malila said.

“Right……you never said why though…..is it because of your brother’s death?”

“Yes it is…..I know that if I drink on occasion it wouldn’t be bad, but I would feel disrespectful to him in a sense…..and I don’t really like the taste of alcohol at all….I mean if you want any alcohol, I could buy some for you real quick.”

“No Malila it’s fine….I respect your decision….I’m trying to lower my alcohol intake anyway.” Malila smiles and she walks to him and hugs him tightly and Tristan hugs her back.

“I’m so glad you came,” Malila said softly.

“I’m glad you invited me,” Tristan said. Malila kisses Tristan’s left cheek and then pulls out of the embrace. Tristan sits down and Malila fixes two plates for them. She sets the plates down and then fixes Kevin his bowl of dog food and water and he starts eating. Malila sits down and her and Tristan say their blessings and start eating. Tristan takes the first bite and is amazed at how good the food is; he could get use to this.

“Mmm Malila this is really good,” Tristan said.

“Thank you Tristan. I am glad you like it,” Malila said while smiling big. Tristan and Malila talk over dinner for about an hour, and then Malila cleans up the kitchen a bit. Tristan offered to help, but Malila told him it was fine and told him to sit in the living room. Kevin followed Tristan into the living room and Tristan sits on the couch and Kevin lies down on his dog pillow in the corner of the living room and closes his eyes. Tristan looks around and sees numerous pictures. He sees picture of Malila when she was younger, with her parents and her brother. He also sees a picture with <a href="http://www.mostbeautifulman.com/actors/LanceGross/images/pic02.jpg">this man</a>. The man is holding Malila’s waist from behind and they are both smiling big. He is thinking this must be Kevin. Malila and Kevin both look very happy in the picture. Tristan smiles a bit and he waits patiently for Malila.

“You can turn on the tv if you want,” Malila said from the kitchen.

“Ok,” Tristan said. He takes the remote from the table and turns on the tv. He flicks through the channels and stops when he comes across a basketball game. He sets the remote back on the table and about 15 minutes later, Malila comes out to the living room with two bowls in her hand. She sits next to Tristan and hands him a bowl and he looks and sees a small brownie along with vanilla ice cream. He remembers telling Malila that this is one of his favorite desserts.

“Wow Malila….thank you….you remember when I told you I liked this?,” Tristan said.

“Of course Tristan…..I remember everything about you,” Malila said.

“Really?”

“Yes I do.” Tristan smiles at her and starts to eat his dessert and it is good as well. Malila is so sweet. She remembers the little things and Tristan really likes that. Malila and Tristan enjoy their dessert together and then Malila takes the dishes and puts them in the dishwasher. She sits very close to Tristan on the couch and Tristan just looks at her.

“What? I’m too close…I’m sorry,” Malila said. Malila starts to scoot away from Tristan, but Tristan grabs her hand to stop her.

“You’re fine…I don’t want you to move,” Tristan said. Malila gently bites her lip and smiles and Malila has no idea how much it turns Tristan on when she does that! He could just seriously give it to her on this couch right now, that’s how much she turns him on. Malila faces the tv and Tristan does the same and they try to focus on the game.

“Oh wow did you see that pass? He must have been throwing it to an imaginary person huh?,” Malila said while laughing a bit.

“You’re always talking s**t,” Tristan said while laughing.

“Whatever, you know I’m right.”

“Yea alright.” Malila looks at him and she leans her body into his and she rests her head on his shoulder. Tristan got chills and feeling her soft hair against his chin and neck even turns him on!

“D**n,” Tristan said under his breath.

“What’s wrong? Is my hair in the way?,” Malila asked.

“No Malila….I love your hair honestly. It’s so big, but it’s so soft….it’s just beautiful on you.”

“Aww thank you Torin. You’re so sweet when you want to be.”

“Oh you got jokes huh?” Malila just giggles and that turns Tristan on as well. “Aww d**n! Why does everything Malila do turn me on and why does everything about her turn me on?! Ugh!,” Tristan thought to himself.

“You know I’m just messing with you right?,” Malila asked.

“Yes I know and you better be just joking,” Tristan said. Malila turns her head to look at him and she smiles and Tristan smiles back. Malila lifts up her head a little bit and Tristan just stares at her.

“….Can I be honest?,” Malila said softly.

“Of course,” Tristan said.

“…..I like you Tristan….I just really like spending time with you and getting to know you….I know we are just friends, and I am absolutely fine with that….I just want you to know how I really feel.” Tristan just stares at Malila in shock; he isn’t really sure what to say. He has really liked getting to know Malila and he likes her too, but expressing his feelings is really hard. He can’t just leave Malila hanging though.

“Uh….I like you too Malila…I really do and that scares me to death,” Tristan said truthfully.

“Oh Tristan….I know it’s going to be hard for you to express your feelings, but you do not have to be scared ok?,” Malila said. Tristan just smiles a bit and nods his head. Malila smiles back and she takes her left hand and gently rubs Tristan’s right cheek. Tristan just stares at her and his eyes travel to her lips as she bites the bottom one gently. Malila leans forward and Tristan just stays where he is and admires Malila’s full lips. They are perfectly shaped to Tristan. Malila looks Tristan in his eyes and Tristan looks in hers. Malila runs her hand from Tristan’s cheek to his shoulder and Tristan slips his left arm around Malila’s waist. Tristan leans forward and slowly licks his lips and Malila watches as he does this. She loves how pink and luscious Tristan’s lips look. Malila and Tristan inch closer to each other and close their eyes, and they eventually feel their lips press against each other’s. Tristan’s heart fluttered the minute their lips meet and Malila got chills sent through her entire body and she doesn’t know why, but a soft moan escaped her lips as well. Malila and Tristan both think the other has really soft lips and they just love the feeling. Malila moves her hand from his shoulder up his neck and to the top of his head and she gently rubs it as and Tristan wraps his other arm around Malila’s lips as they kiss each other slowly. Tristan lightly grazes his tongue against Malila’s bottom lip and Malila opens her mouth and Tristan slides his tongue in and explores Malila’s mouth. Malila slides her tongue into Tristan’s mouth and their tongues find each other and play. Tristan just gently caresses Malila’s waist, even though he wants to rip of her shirt and bottoms and really get down to business, but he knows he has to control himself. Tristan finds this harder and harder though as his manhood is growing by the second. Malila’s lips are so soft and she sure does know how to work her tongue, is all Tristan is thinking. Tristan wants to feel her tongue and lips on every inch of his body. Malila and Tristan kiss for about a minute, before Malila sucks on Tristan’s bottom lip and pulls out of the kiss. They just stare at each other’s lips that are wet from the other’s saliva and they are both breathing pretty hard as well.

“D**n Malila,” Tristan said softly.

“What is it? I’m an awful kisser huh? It’s been a while for me,” Malila said while laughing a bit.

“No Malila, not at all. You are a great kisser…..you just turned me on so much,” Tristan said. Malila smiles a bit and Tristan shakes his head and sighs and stands up and walks towards the patio. Malila gets up from the couch as well and goes over to him.

“Tristan what’s wrong? You know you can talk to me?,” Malila asked. Tristan takes a deep breath and he turns around and looks at her.

“I’ve never been kissed like that Malila…..h**l I haven’t kissed a women in years because I usually don’t like that foreplay s**t, I just usually get straight to f**kin’….anyway….I guess I’m not really good at this showing emotion thing,” Tristan said.

“Just try and say what you feel,” Malila said while gently rubbing his left forearm.

“I just….you….you scare me Malila…..the feeling I get when I’m around you scares the s**t out of me because I’m not use to feeling that way around any female……you know, I’m over Alicia, and I have been for a while…..but it’s just hard for me to really open up because I feel like the minute I do….I’m just going to get hurt again.”

“I can understand that Tristan and we do not have to rush anything….if you want us to remain friends forever, then I would be fine with that….but seeing as we just shared a pretty passionate kiss, that will be hard….for me at least.”

“It will be hard for me too Malila….d**n what are you doing to me?,” Tristan said while laughing a bit.

“It’s ok Tristan…..I hope I didn’t initiate the kiss too soon. I really don’t want to push you away,” Malila said.

“No you didn’t…..I have been thinking about kissing you for a while now….ever since you kissed my cheek at the festival, I just wanted to know how your lips felt against mine.” Malila just looks at him and bites her lip while smiling.

“You need to stop biting that bottom lip,” Tristan said while laughing and backing away from Malila.

“Why is that?,” Malila asked innocently.

“You know why….s**t is sexy as f**k,” Tristan said. Malila looks down and blushes a little bit and Tristan looks away awkwardly.

“I hope I didn’t offend you,” Tristan said.

“Not at all Tristan,” Malila said while looking up at Tristan.

“…..I really like whatever it is we have Malila….and….if it grows into something more, I just need you to be patient with me….because I may push you away…..but I think you’re good for me….you are changing me slowly but surely….and I need that and I like it.” Malila just smiles big and moves closer to Tristan and stands on her toes and wraps her arms around his neck and hugs him tight. Tristan smiles and hugs her back. Malila and Tristan then sit on the couch and enjoy each other’s company for a while. At around 11 pm, Tristan decides it’s time for him to get home. Malila walks Tristan to the door and they face each other and smile.

“Malila, thank you so much for tonight. I really appreciate the dinner, the dessert, and just your company,” Tristan said.

“Tristan you’re welcome. I really enjoyed your company and talking to you too….I hope we can do this again,” Malila said.

“I would love that Malila.”

“Ok good…..text me when you get home, to let me know you got there safely.”

“Ok I will…..can I kiss you again?,” Tristan said softly. “D**n Tristan! Did you really just ask that? Are you that desperate for a kiss? S**t Malila’s lips are so soft though and that juicy a** tongue….ugh! Stop Tristan!,” Tristan thought to himself. A huge grin just forms across Malila’s face and she leans in and gives Tristan a gentle kiss, but at the end, she gently bites Tristan’s bottom lip as she pulled away. Tristan just stared at her because he is hard as a rock right now!

“You have a good night Tristan,” Malila said while smiling.

“You too Malila,” Tristan said. Malila and Tristan share a quick embrace and then Tristan turns to leave and Tristan hears Malila close and lock the door behind him. “S**t I’m horny as f**k right now! Malila’s lips are so d**n soft and that tongue….she knows how to work it….and she bit on my bottom lip as she pulled out of the kiss….that s**t was so sexy. Ugh I want some head or p***y so bad right now, but that wouldn’t be fair to Malila right?,” Tristan thinks to himself. He just gets in his car and he lights up a cigarette; he really needs it right now. He drives home and he can’t get Malila out of his mind. Once he gets home, he kicks off his shoes and lies down on his bed. He pulls out of his phone, and he scrolls to Angela’s name. He really just wants some d**n sex. He is so close to calling her, but Malila pops into his mind. He just thinks about their night tonight and it was honestly one of the best nights he has had with a woman in a very long time. He knows that he and Malila are not in a relationship, but he feels if he f**ks other women, it just wouldn’t be fair to Malila. The fact that Tristan is even thinking like this scares him, but a smile forms across his face anyway. He scrolls down past Angela’s name to Malila’s and sends her the following text: “Hey beautiful, I made it home. Thanks again for tonight. Can’t wait to do it again ;).” Tristan sets his phone aside and then takes a deep breath. Malila is really changing Tristan and Tristan is beginning to realize that he does not mind at all.

So 4 days pass and today is Saturday. Tristan and Malila have talked every night since Wednesday night. Tristan really enjoys talking to Malila and they can talk about anything. One night they even talked about basketball. Tristan is a huge basketball fan and he found out that Malila is as well. They talked for hours about the many headlines of the sport and Tristan found this really unique. He has never met a woman interested in sports, h**l he has never met a woman like Malila before. He doesn’t want to rush anything though; he wants her to dictate their growing friendship. Right now, he just sees Malila as a friend and he wants to keep it that way for a bit. He is not ready for a relationship like boyfriend, girlfriend type deal. He has a few issues he needs to work out within himself before he can commit to anyone. Tristan’s relationship with Alicia is something he is not over and it’s been about 4 years since their relationship ended. He has yet to tell about Malila about the relationship with Alicia, and he knows she is growing interested in knowing. Well it’s about 2 pm Saturday afternoon and Malila had her aerobics class today and Tristan worked out at the gym this morning. Tristan asked Malila to go the local festival with him to get some good food, and just see the sights. Malila gladly accepted and Tristan asked her to meet him at the festival downtown at 2:30 pm. Tristan and Malila meet up at the parking garage and then walk towards the festival. It’s very warm today, so Malila is wearing a white, fitter beater, and denim shorts and sandals. Tristan has on a tank top, and shorts and Jordans to match. When Malila first saw Tristan, she kind of stopped in her tracks because Tristan looks d**n fine right now. She can see his toned muscles and numerous tattoos. She bit her lip to herself and admired his sexiness. S**t when Tristan saw Malila, he looked her up and down a few times. She is so fit and just so beautiful to Tristan. Malila also has her hair out and Tristan just loves it when she wears her hair like this. Her hair is so big, but it looks so good on Malila, Tristan thinks. Malila and Tristan walk around the festival and there is plenty of food and vendors and also a lot of people. Tristan and Malila are ordering barbecue at one of the food vendors and Tristan feels a tap on his shoulder. He turns around and sees Alicia, holding a toddle girl on her hip. Tristan has no idea why Alicia even wants to talk to him because he for d**n sure does not want to talk to her.

“Tristan can we talk?,” Alicia said.

“I don’t think we have anything to talk about,” Tristan said rudely.

“I think we do….and it has been bothering me for years now…..can we talk in private?”

“No Alicia.” Malila looks at Tristan and gently rubs his arm and Tristan looks at Malila.

“Tristan….talk to her. You need to. You need to move on from this,” Malila said softly. Tristan just stares at her and sighs heavily. He doesn’t want to talk to Alicia, but maybe he should.

“Fine Alicia. I’ll give you five minutes,” Tristan said quickly. Tristan and Alicia walk away and go to an area away from people. The baby in Alicia’s arms is talking to Alicia and Alicia politely tells her to be quiet and Tristan just looks at the baby girl; she looks a lot like Alicia and Tristan can feel his blood boiling since he is so mad.

“So….you have a new girlfriend Tristan? That woman you are with is very beautiful,” Alicia said.

“She’s not my girlfriend….I haven’t been able to date anyone since you. No matter how bad you hurt me, I’m not over you dumb a**,” Tristan spat.

“And I am sorry for that. Tristan I know I hurt you but I never meant to…I just need you to know that. I need you to forgive me. If not, you won’t be able to move on.”

“Oh yeah move on like you have huh? Alicia…..I don’t think you understand the damage you have done to me….I treat women like useless pieces of s**t because of you. I f**k them and have no feelings whatsoever because of you. You made me believe that all women are no good. You did that….when you left me…..you broke my heart Alicia. You did some very hurtful things to me…..and I hate what you have turned me into…..so you say you’re sorry? That’s fine. You just live your life and worry about your husband and daughter. You don’t need to feel sorry for me or anything alright?”

“Ok Tristan….when I left I felt awful and tried calling you so many times to apologize, but you never answered…..so when I moved back to Richmond, I knew I had to find you and just tell you in person that I was sorry….it may have taken years but I did that, so there’s nothing left to say…..I always loved you Tristan and I always will. You were my first everything and I was your first everything…..I have to go,” Alicia said. Alicia leans in to try and kiss Tristan’s cheek, but Tristan backs away and just turns around and starts walking back towards the festival. He just sighs heavily. He does not know how to feel right now. Alicia said she was sorry, but that’s even enough considering all she did to him. But that’s all Alicia can do, so Tristan just has to accept it. He looks around for Malila and sees her sitting at a secluded table eating her food. She looks up and smiles and waves when she sees him. He smiles a bit and walks over to her and sits down across from her.

“I got your food and water to drink,” Malila said. She pushes his Styrofoam box towards him and hands him a fork and napkins.

“Thanks Malila,” Tristan said while taking the fork and napkins. Tristan says his blessing and then opens the box and starts eating. Malila continues eating and she wants to know what happened between Tristan and Alicia, but she knows if he wants to talk about it, then he will.

“…..I need to talk about it,” Tristan said bluntly. Malila just looks at him and he sighs heavily and sets down his fork and rubs the top of his head.

“Ok Tristan, I’m listening,” Malila said. Tristan looks down and shakes his head. He takes a deep breath and then looks at Malila. He needs a cigarette right now.

“You mind if I smoke?,” Tristan asked.

“Yes I do mind Tristan….that’s such a terrible habit,” Malila said.

“S**t you’re right, but I’m stressed. I smoke when I am stressed or nervous.”

“I don’t want you to smoke around me…..just calm down and talk to me.” Tristan nods his head and Malila moves her chair, so she is sitting next to him, instead of across from him. Malila gently rubs Tristan’s back and Tristan just looks at her.

“Tristan you don’t have to tell me if you don’t want to….I don’t want to pressure you,” Malila said.

“I need to tell someone before it drives me insane…..me and Alicia dated in high school. We got together when we were sophomores so we were 15 at the time….we were young and we both thought it would just be one of those high school relationships that wouldn’t last….but we did last. We fell so hard for each other….she was my first kiss, my first girlfriend, she took my virginity and I took hers when we were 17. We went to college together at VCU and everything was perfect. I am telling you we had the relationship people dream about having……when we were 20…..we found out that Alicia was pregnant. After I had proposed, we decided that it would be ok to have sex without condoms….we always wanted children…..she wanted a boy, but I always wanted a little girl to spoil to death….anyway….I was very excited for Alicia to have our baby…..I knew we were young and we weren’t finished with college yet, but her mom offered to take care of the baby until we both got our degrees. The plan seemed so perfect……but on our five year anniversary of being together….I just wanted to take her out you know? Do something nice for her. So I invited her to dinner…..but she never showed up. She literally disappeared off the face of the earth……I was worried to death and tried calling her, talked to all her friends, even her parents, but no one knew where she was. I just….I thought something happened to her. I thought someone kidnapped her and killed her and our baby….she was only about 8 weeks pregnant when I asked her to this dinner…..so I went about a year and a half without knowing what happened to my fiancée or my baby. I filed a missing person report and all that s**t, but nothing ever came from that. They investigated, and when they searched her apartment since we didn’t live together, just visited each other a lot, on campus, they found all of her personal belonging were missing, so they figured she ran away and I could not understand why…but then…..I saw her…..I saw her and my heart literally stopped in my chest…..I went to hug her, but she stopped me. Then the n***a we saw at the soul food restaurant came up behind her and wrapped his arms around her and that is when that I noticed that she was pregnant…..I just looked at her and I was so hurt…..I wanted to know what happened to our child and why was she with this other man…..I looked at her finger and saw a different ring other than the engagement ring I bought for her and a wedding band and I felt myself growing so angry….I was so hurt and confused and mad all at the same time….I just asked for the truth…..and she told me right there on the spot…..she told me that her and this man were married and had been for six months…..turns out that she was cheating on me with him for about the last month of our relationship…..I was so f**kin’ dumb and I didn’t even see that s**t……and……she aborted the baby we were expecting….claiming she wasn’t ready to have a child….she knew the n***a for a month and decided he was the one and I wasn’t….that same day I saw her and she explained everything….she gave me back my engagement ring and said she ran away because she didn’t want to hurt me, but she knew she wasn’t ready to be a mother or a wife….kind of ironic huh? She left me because she wasn’t ready, but a short time later she ended up being a mother and a wife…..just bad timing on my part I guess,” Tristan said. Malila just looks at Tristan and he looks at her. Malila has tears in her eyes because that story just hurt her. To know Alicia hurt Tristan so bad, just hurts Malila so much. Tristan just has a look of hurt across his face, but he refuses to let the tears fall for Alicia. He spent countless days crying over her, and he is all cried out when it comes to her.

“Tristan….I…I don’t even know what to say….except I’m sorry. I am so sorry that Alicia hurt you like that. What she did is just awful….and you didn’t deserve that. You didn’t deserve that at all. It’s disgusting how she could just kill your baby without even telling you and then just appearing with a husband and a child…..that must have broken your heart,” Malila said compassionately.

“…You’re right. It broke my heart and my spirit….I was a wreck after it happened….and that’s when I decided that I really didn’t want anything to do with women anymore….Alicia f**ked up my whole view on life and women and I know she’s only one woman…..but what she did was enough to ruin if for anyone else…..to just leave me like I meant nothing to her after all we had been through….and to kill the child we were expecting…..that just cut me so deep.” Malila just nods her head and she moves closer to him and she just wraps her arms around him and hugs him so tight. Tristan sighs and he hugs her back so tight. Tristan needs someone like Malila to talk to and to comfort him and hugging her feels so good. Malila gently rubs Tristan’s back and Tristan is getting chills sent through his entire body.

“You are a good person Tristan and you deserve better than Alicia. She did not deserve you,” Malila whispered in Tristan’s ear. Tristan just smiles to himself and he pulls out of the embrace and sees tears running down Malila’s cheek.

“Hey don’t cry over me Malila,” Tristan said.

“I’m sorry….it’s just really sad what she did to you….I just can’t believe anyone could do that…..you are so cold because she was so cold to you…..she really changed you huh?,” Malila said.

“Yes she did…..I use to be a real sweet guy believe it or not….when it came to her…I would do anything for her. I would always take her out just so she knew that I loved her, I would buy her nice gifts. I was a great listener and we would talk for hours about anything. I spent all of my free time with her. She was my absolute everything…..and she turned me into a very cold, hateful person….and I hate it. I hate what she turned me into.”

“….I understand,” Malila said while looking down as more tears fell.

“Malila don’t cry,” Tristan said while laughing a bit. Tristan takes his left hand and gently wipes Malila’s cheeks of her tears. Malila just stared at him and Tristan stared back. Tristan quickly pulls his hand away and Malila smiles a bit at him.

“It’s ok Tristan…..you don’t have to embarrassed about showing emotion….I like it,” Malila said.

“I can tell….you seem like a very emotional being,” Tristan said while laughing a bit.

“Ok I can admit it, I am a very emotional female,” Malila said while laughing a bit. Tristan nods his head and Malila wipes her face and takes a deep breath and then looks at Tristan.

“I’m really glad you told me about Alicia…..I am glad you feel like you can talk to me,” Malila said.

“…..I surprised myself telling you all of this to be honest….I don’t get close to people very easily, if at all, but Malila…..you….you’re just different…..you make me feel comfortable….and…I never thought I would feel so comfortable around a woman again….now you’re the one’s that changing me” Tristan said.

“What do you mean?”

“….You’re making it seem like all women….aren’t bad….I just happened to be involved with a no good one….I really want us to get to know each other Malila……can we do that?”

“I would love that Tristan.” Malila leans in and gently kisses Tristan’s cheek and feeling Malila’s soft lips against his cheek, just turned Tristan on so much. He thinks about Malila’s lips on other parts of his body; his lips, his chest, his abs, his di-, Tristan snaps out of his daze by the sound of Malila moving her chair to the other side of the table. He just stares at her as she starts eating and admires her beauty.

“Tristan you’re staring at me again,” Malila said.

“Your lips…..they are so soft…..Malila….you are just very beautiful….you have this natural beauty that I have never really seen before….but I like it. A lot,” Tristan said.

“Aww Tristan, you’re sweet….thank you for the compliment….it really means a lot to me...for you to express your feelings means a lot….and I’m surprised to be honest.”

“You aren’t the only one who’s surprised…..I can’t describe the feeling I get when I’m around you….and as much as I try to deny this, I like it. I really like it Malila…..it gets really hard walking around like you have no heart whatsoever, when you really just want to talk to someone.”

“Well now you have someone to talk to Tristan…..you have me.”

So a few weeks pass and Malila and Tristan have not spoken ever since the night they went out. Tristan realized that how he treated Malila was not right at all. If Malila knew the story about Tristan and Alicia, she might understand why he acted the way he did. Still, Tristan should not have taken his anger out on Malila. He really wants to apologize, but he isn’t sure Malila will even accept it at this point. These past few weeks, Tristan has seen Malila at the gym and if they cross paths, she just looks away and acts like she doesn’t even know Tristan. Tristan can understand this and Malila has every right to do so. But Tristan has not been able to stop thinking about Malila and that bothers Tristan. He feels like he should make things right, but that does that mean he’s feeling Malila? Tristan convinces himself that he can’t be into Malila, but Tristan has to remember that he is human and he does have a heart, and it isn’t wrong to be interested in Malila, right? Tristan just wonders if Malila will even want to talk to him anymore. Well it’s Wednesday evening and Tristan decides to go to the gym tonight, since he didn’t make it yesterday. Once he is in the gym and walking towards the weight room, he sees Malila dancing in one of the private rooms. He just watches the way she moves her body and her movement looks so effortless. She must be creating a routine for her aerobics class on Saturday. He wants to talk to her, but he decides against it for now. He goes to the weight room and does an hour gym routine today. Once Tristan is done, he sees the time is around 9 pm and he wonders if Malila is still at the gym. He takes a few sips of water as he walks towards the door. He looks in the private room where he saw Malila, and he sees her sitting on the floor stretching. “She must be cooling down. I should talk to her now,” Tristan thought to himself. He takes a deep breath and then walks in and closes the door behind him. Malila heard the door open and she looks and then she sees Tristan, she just rolls her eyes and looks away.

“Malila can we talk?,” Tristan asked.

“I don’t think we have anything to talk about,” Malila said bluntly.

“Listen I am sorry for how I acted towards you that night….but you don’t know the history me and Alicia have and seeing her…..it just brought back a whole lot of s**t that I try to suppress.”

“You’re right I don’t know anything about you and Alicia, but it’s not like you are going to tell me about it anyway….anything else you want to say?,” Malila said while standing up.

“Now look who’s cold,” Tristan said under his breath.

“And whose fault is that? Huh?,” Malila said while moving closer to Tristan. Tristan just stares at her because he didn’t think she heard him. He just looks at her scowling him and he laughs a bit; it’s just not in Malila’s nature to be mean and Tristan knows that.

“What’s so funny?,” Malila said aggravated.

“You…..it’s not in your nature to be mean Malila. So stop scowling at me,” Tristan said. Malila just rolls her eyes and starts to turn away, but Tristan gently grabs her hand to stop her. Malila just stares Tristan in his eyes and Tristan quickly lets go of Malila’s hand and looks back at her.

“I know…I know I can be a real a**hole at times….and for me to be like that to you, isn’t right….because you have been nothing but nice to me…..I’m sorry for how I acted,” Tristan said.

“Ok Tristan that’s fine….anything else?,” Malila said.

“….That’s all you have to say?”

“Yes it is…..what do I look like wasting my time with someone who doesn’t even want to open up to me?”

“Well…..what if….what if I try to do that?” Malila raises her eyebrows at him and Tristan just hides his smile while looking away. Malila puts her hand on Tristan’s right cheek and turns his head to look at her. Malila’s touch is just indescribable to Tristan. It was so gentle and it gave Tristan chills.

“Do you mean it Tristan? Because I don’t know if I can take you blowing up on me every time I try to get personal with you,” Malila said.

“…..It’s going to be hard and I can’t promise that I won’t blow up on you….but I want to try,” Tristan said.

“Why? What makes me so different than the other women you have come across? Huh? I thought all women were evil.”

“Everything.”

“Huh?”

“Everything about you is different Malila.”

“Like what? Tell me. You need to be able to express your feelings to me Tristan.” Tristan takes a deep breath so he can collect himself. He is so nervous because he hates putting his feelings out there, but he just has to be bold.

“Malila….you have a very kind heart….no matter how I acted towards you, you were always nice…..and you are very persistent…..at first I thought you were kind of crazy and I’m hoping I’m wrong,” Tristan joked. Malila smiles a bit and gently hits Tristan’s arm sarcastically.

“I’m not crazy….I hope you don’t think I’m a creep, but there was just something about you, that strongly attracted me to you…..it still attracts me to you,” Malila said. Tristan and Malila just smile at each other and look away awkwardly.

“Malila…..can we just start over? Just forget everything negative that happened between us? What do you think?,” Tristan asked shyly.

“….I would like that Tristan….but you have to mean it…you have to really let me get to know you,” Malila said.

“Ok Malila. I am really going to try this…..can I call you tonight?”

“Yes Tristan,” Malila said while smiling big at Tristan. “D**n! This woman’s smile just lights up a room! Ugh why does she have me feeling like this?,” Tristan thought to himself. Malila moves closer to Tristan and wraps her arms around him and hugs him. Tristan takes a deep breath and he actually wraps his arms around Malila’s shoulders and hugs her back. Malila couldn’t help but smile to herself; Tristan isn’t so bad after all. Malila pulls away and just smiles at him and Tristan tries to hide his smile from Malila. He doesn’t want her to see that he enjoyed that hug.

“I’m surprised you actually hugged me back,” Malila said while biting her lip.

“You need to stop all that smiling,” Tristan said while backing away.

“And you need to smile more Tristan.” Tristan just sighs and Malila gets her gym bag and then looks at Tristan.

“Let me walk you to your car,” Tristan offered.

“Thanks Tristan I would like that,” Malila said. Tristan head towards the door and Tristan opens the door for Malila and walks out behind her. He can’t help but let his eyes wonder down Malila’s backside; she has such a nice shape to Tristan. He can’t help but have sexual thoughts about Malila, but he tries to suppress them because he already knows that he can’t just hit it and quit it with Malila; she is worth more than that. For Tristan to even think that though, honestly scares him and makes him feel so vulnerable. He honestly has always wanted that one special woman in his life, but after his relationship with Alicia, it just ruined all faith that there was a good woman out there for him. Tristan is no way saying that Malila is that woman, but he is thinking that he should at least give her a chance if nothing else. Tristan walks Malila to her car, and once they get there, they turn to face each other.

“Thanks for walking me to my car Tristan,” Malila said.

“No problem…..I’ll call you in about an hour does that work?,” Tristan said.

“It’s perfect Tristan.” Malila hugs Tristan quickly and then gets in her car and drives off. Tristan can’t help but smile right now. He knows he just needs to stop fronting and give Malila a chance. A chance isn’t so bad right? Tristan walks to his car and he just feels different. He would usually need a cigarette right now, but he feels calm. He feels good that he apologized to Malila. He gets in his car and drives home. Soon as he gets home, he takes a shower and then lotions up and then puts on a beater and boxers. He is getting ready to call Malila in a bit, but he doesn’t know what to talk about! He tries to think of ideas, and he knows she may want to know more about his personal life, especially his relationship with Alicia, but he isn’t ready to talk about that yet. What he went through with Alicia, was probably one of the most hurt and pain he has ever experienced in his life, only second to his mother’s death. Tristan turns on the tv and waits nervously. He doesn’t even know why he is so nervous! At a little past 9, he dials Malila’s number and puts the phone to his ear while taking a deep breath. After the first three rings, Malila answers.

“Hello?,” Malila said sweetly.

“Hey Malila…it’s Tristan,” Tristan said nervously.

“Hey Tristan…..you don’t have to be nervous,” Malila said while laughing a bit.

“D**n you noticed huh?”

“Yes I can hear it in your voice….I’m surprised your nervous anyway. I mean I am just a woman right, no one special?”

“There’s just….something about you though Malila. I wish I knew what it was, but I don’t.”

“How does that make you feel Tristan? That you don’t know?”

“It scares the h**l out of me….I just….I’m not use to women getting close to me. You are the first one that I saw and haven’t f**ked the same night we met…..d**n I probably shouldn’t have said that.”

“No Tristan it’s ok. I want you to be honest….so how many women are we talking here?”

“S**t I don’t know…..most were one night stands. No feelings involved on either sides at all….I hope that doesn’t turn you off. I know women don’t want to be with someone that’s been with a lot of people…..d**n me and my big mouth.”

“Tristan stop, it’s ok….I can’t judge you for what you have done in your past….as long as you protected yourself and the women.”

“Oh of course, I always use condoms.”

“Well that’s good.”

“F**k Malila, I really don’t want you to think of me differently. I know you don’t have the best impression of me already.”

“Well I can’t say that I like the fact you slept with multiple women, but I just can’t judge you because I don’t know enough about you…..maybe it was your way of dealing with what Alicia did to you, even though using women is wrong….maybe you were trying to fill a void or something…..do you want to talk about Alicia?”

“No….well I do…..s**t I hate just hearing her name.”

“….How did you feel when you saw her at the restaurant that night?”

“I can’t even describe it….there were so many emotions….angry, sad, even happy for a real quick second, but that went away so fast…..can I tell you something Malila?”

“You can tell me anything Tristan.”

“You….remind me so much of Alicia, and I hate that….and I don’t mean that in a negative way at all though. When me and Alicia first got together, she was a lot like you. You know she was very kind, persistent like you, but I liked all of that. I liked feeling like someone wanted to get to know me first, you know? D**n Malila,” Tristan said while sighing deeply.

“What is it Tristan?,” Malila asked.

“I’m spilling all of my feelings…..I’m not use to this s**t and I don’t do it ever.”

“Well I don’t mind at all Tristan…..I could listen to you talk all day….I really like the way you talk,” Malila said while laughing a bit. Tristan can’t help but smile to himself; Malila is just so sweet.

“Thanks….but I don’t want to talk your ear off. I want you to talk too,” Tristan said.

“Well thanks….but I want you to be able to say anything you want to say to me….I don’t want you to be scared to talk to me…..seeing as you don’t usually open up to women, I know there must be a lot on your mind.” “D**n this woman is so sweet! And she can read me so well. S**t I want to see where we can go. Wait “we”? What is she doing to me?,” Tristan thought to himself.

“….I appreciate that Malila….but I want to know something,” Tristan said.

“Sure Tristan, you can ask me anything,” Malila said.

“…..Why have you been single for so long? Two years is a long time for….someone like you.”

“What do you mean someone like me?”

“…..You’re beautiful Malila. And so nice.”

“Aww that’s so sweet Tristan……but…..I haven’t talked about this in a while…..but after my fiancé died, I just never met anyone after him.”

“You were engaged Malila?”

“Yes…..me and Kevin…we were together since our junior year of high school….we went to the same college and he proposed to me when we were 21. That man was my everything. I knew I wanted to marry him and have kids with him and live a life with him…..but our junior year of college….we went to this party in downtown Philadelphia at this club on a Friday night….we were leaving the club it was almost three in the morning….and me and Kevin are holding hands and something got his attention and he turned away from me and the next thing I hear is “pow, pow” and I feel Kevin’s hand jerk backwards in mine. I turn and see him falling to the ground and I fall with him. I cradle him in my arms, and see that he is shot twice in the chest. His blood is all over me, and I just screamed for help….turns out it was just a random drive-by by one of the local gangs….I just….I just remember staring him in his eyes telling him he has to make it, that I need him and love him. He is looking at me and he coughs up blood but he manages to whisper “I love you.” He died in my arms shortly after that,” Malila said in tears by now. Tristan is at a loss for words right now; to know that Malila went through that, just really brings out some emotion in him.

“D**n Malila, I’m sorry. That is an awful way to lose someone you love…..you’ve lost two people you really love huh?,” Tristan asked softly.

“Yes….my brother and my fiancé,” Malila said while sniffling a bit.

“I’m so sorry for that Malila….did they catch who did either of the crimes?”

“Yes the man that shot Kevin is serving a life sentence without parole and the man that killed my brother Sean is in prison on an eight term sentence.”

“Only 8 years? That’s not long enough.”

“I agree completely.”

“…..Are you ok Malila?”

“Yes Tristan I am fine….it’s just hard to talk about.”

“I can understand completely….you know…. I was engaged too Malila.”

“To Alicia?”

“It’s that obvious huh?”

“I can just tell.”

“Yes…..I was engaged to Alicia. We dated all through high school and even our first few years of college….I proposed to her when we were only 20 years old and she gladly accepted…..we were both really happy, but that quickly went down the drain…..I wish it was easier to talk about.”

“It’s ok Tristan, I don’t want to force anything out of you. You tell me when you’re ready ok?”

“Thanks Malila…..that means a lot…..seeing as you just shared personal details about your life with me, I want to be able to do the same with you.”

“You’re sweet Tristan.”

“Wow never heard that before,” Tristan said while laughing a bit.

“You just haven’t been talking to the right women Tristan, that’s why.”

“…You’re right Malila.” Tristan and Malila ended up talking on the phone for a good two hours. Once they hung up, Tristan could not stop smiling. He just thinks about Malila’s cute voice, her laugh and just reminisces on everything they talked about. Malila is very easy to talk to and non-judgmental and Tristan really likes this. He needs someone like her to talk to and he can’t wait to talk to her again. He really wants to take her out again, and this time there will be no blow-ups on his part. Malila is so intriguing to Tristan and he really wants to get to know her and he wants her to get to know him. Is Tristan finally ready to let go of his cold ways?

It’s 6:30 pm Thursday evening and Tristan is getting ready for dinner with Malila. He has been trying to decide on an outfit for thirty minutes. He wants to look nice for Malila and he isn’t even sure why. She’s just a woman, no one special, right? He just sighs and decides on a nice button down, black pants to match, and a nice pair of dress up shoes. He looks at himself in the mirror and brushes his hair and then puts on a pair of diamond stud earrings. He puts on some cologne and his watch and sees the time now is about 7 pm. He told Malila to meet him at this soul food restaurant downtown at 7:30. He brushes his teeth real quick and then gets his keys and wallet and leaves the house and heads towards the restaurant. He is so nervous and wanted to smoke a cigarette the whole way to the restaurant, but he refuses to smell like smoke on the first date. “It’s not a date,” Tristan reminds himself. He thinks about Malila the whole way there and he already knows she will look beautiful. “So now she’s beautiful? Ugh keep it together,” Tristan thought to himself. “F**k it, Malila is beautiful and I will tell her that tonight. She complimented me, so I can complement her right? Is beautiful too much? Should I just say she looks nice?,” Tristan think. Tristan just takes a deep breath and calms down and reminds himself that he should just say what he feels. Tristan is VERY bad at expressing his feelings though, but he would like to change that. Once he gets to the restaurant, he says a deep breath and then gets out of the car. He looks at his watch and sees he is a bit early; it’s 7:23 pm. He goes into the restaurant and waits in the waiting area for Malila. He taps his foot because he is so nervous; he really needs to calm down. At Exactly 7:30, Tristan sees Malila walk into the restaurant, and Tristan’s heart literally stopped; she looks absolutely breathtaking. She is wearing her hair out, she has on this beautiful red dress, and she is wearing black stilettos and jewelry to match her outfit. Her natural looking makeup is flawless. Tristan stands up and Malila looks around and when she sees Tristan she smiles big. Malila waves and walks over to Tristan.

“Hey Tristan….you look very handsome tonight,” Malila said.

“Thanks Malila…you….look nice,” Tristan said nervously.

“Thank you.” Malila moves closer to Tristan and hugs him and Tristan swears every time Malila hugs him, he gets chills sent throughout his whole body. And she smells so good!! And her hair is so soft against his cheek and neck!! But Tristan does not hug her back, and Malila pulls away after a short embrace.

“Let’s get a table,” Malila suggested.

“Ok,” Tristan said. They both go to the hostess and ask for a table for two and they are seated immediately. They sit across from each other and start to look through the menu. Tristan can’t help but stare at Malila because she is just so beautiful. Now usually Tristan does not see women as beautiful, they are sexy or fine, but Malila is the definition of beautiful in Tristan’s mind. Malila notices Tristan’s stares and smiles a bit.

“What is it Tristan?,” Malila asked.

“Huh?,” Tristan said confused.

“You’re staring at me.”

“Oh….um….you’re…..just so…”

“So what Tristan? You can tell me,” Malila said while laughing a bit.

“….It’s not important,” Tristan said while looking through his menu. Malila sighs and looks through her menu as well.

“…..You’re beautiful….d**n I finally said it,” Tristan said while sighing deeply. Malila just smiles so big at Tristan and Tristan just shakes his head and looks away.

“You think I’m beautiful? Mr. I hate all women, thinks me, who is a women, is beautiful?,” Malila joked. Tristan just laughs a bit and when Malila saw his smile, she literally melted; his smile is so sexy to her! She is literally just staring at him and Tristan notices and quickly purses his lips closed. He can’t even remember the last time a woman made him laugh, let alone smile.

“Tristan….you have a beautiful smile….you should smile more often,” Malila said.

“….Nothing to smile about I guess,” Tristan said.

“….I can change that.”

“You sure are confident and this is just the first dat-,” Tristan stops himself for saying the complete word “date.”

“Date? I thought this was just two people getting to know each other because dates were for couples and we aren’t a couple….right?” Tristan just stares at Malila because she is right; does he want this to be a date? Tristan just narrows his eyes at Malila and Malila just looks back at him and she can tell that his defensive wall is coming back up and she doesn’t want that.

“So now you’re getting smart huh?,” Tristan said.

“No I’m just stating facts,” Malila said. Tristan just looks Malila in her eyes and they just look so sincere. He notices her long and thick eyelashes and perfectly shaped eyebrows. Malila just has a natural beauty that Tristan has never really seen before, and he can admit he likes it.

“….Ok….look I’m sorry….I know I come off as slightly mean,” Tristan said.

“Slightly mean? Tristan…..you’re just cold. But…..you can change.”

“Oh yeah? How?”

“With me.”

“With you? Yeah right.”

“I just know that if you give me a chance and open up to me…..I can make you forget about every single woman that did you wrong in the past.” Tristan just raises both of his eyebrows at Malila and then laughs out loud.

“Wow that’s very bold….but you don’t know me Malila….you don’t know anything about me….my motto for the last few years has been “don’t trust a b***h,” Tristan said.

“Well I’m not a b***h, so you can trust me,” Malila said while grinning hard. Tristan just looks away and taps his foot; he is just so uncomfortable right now. A waiter comes to take their drink orders and Malila orders sweetened iced tea, and Tristan orders water. The waiter leaves and Tristan and Malila look through the menu and decide on what they want to eat. Once the waiter brings their drinks, they order their food and then the waiter takes their menus and then leaves. Malila and Tristan look at each other awkwardly.

“So….tell me something about yourself?,” Malila asked.

“What do you want to know?,” Tristan asked.

“Tell me anything….like where are you from?”

“I was born in Atlanta, but my mom moved here to Richmond when I was two.”

“So does your mom still live here?”

“No.”

“She moved?”

“No…..she was killed when I was eight.”

“Oh Tristan that’s awful I am so sorry to hear that….were you two close?”

“Very….she was all I had.” Malila just studies Tristan’s face and she can tell he doesn’t want to go into too much detail.

“Well….what about your dad?,” Malila said.

“Never met the n***a.”

“Oh….so who did you live with after your mom died?”

“You ask a lot of questions.”

“If you want me to stop then I will….but then this will be a very boring dinner.”

“….Well….I was thrown between foster homes from when I was 8 until 17 and then I just moved in with one of my friends….I was able to get an academic scholarship to go to VCU so once I graduated high school, I got my degree in macroeconomics.”

“Wow economics huh? That is very interesting. Where do you work with a degree like that?”

“I basically work for the government.”

“Wow….that’s impressive Tristan.”

“Thanks…..what do you do?”

“I’m a cost accountant….I work at the bank right down the street….on Evans Street.”

“Yeah I know which bank you are talking about……now tell me about your background.”

“Ok…I was born in Pittsburgh and I lived there until I went to college in Philadelphia…mmm I did grow up with both of my parents….and my younger brother….but my brother was killed by a drunk driver when I was a sophomore in college. He was only 17.”

“D**n that’s rough Malila….I’m sorry.” Malila just smiles a bit and nods her head and looks down. Tristan can see tears forming in her eyes and he doesn’t know what to do! Malila just puts her head up and tries to hold back her tears, but one fell and she quickly wiped it away.

“I’m sorry,” Malila said.

“Don’t be….I know what it’s like to lose someone you love….it hurts like h**l…but you just have to know they are in a better place,” Tristan said. Malila just smiles at him and bites her lip and Tristan sits back in his chair and glares at her a bit.

“Why you smiling like that?,” Tristan asked.

“Because you actually have a heart,” Malila said while laughing a bit. Tristan just shakes his head, but he can’t help but smile a bit. Malila just admires him smiling; she wants to make him smile more often.

“Of course I have a heart….wouldn’t be living if I didn’t,” Tristan said while looking to Malila.

“You’re right…..but sometimes you act like you don’t have one…..why is that?,” Malila asked.

“Alright Malila, we were doing good, let’s not ruin it ok? You’ve learned enough about me for now ok?” Malila sighs, but nods her head at him.

“Well….is there anything you want to know about me?,” Malila asked. Tristan looks at her for a minute and then a question pops into his head.

“Well…..who was that n***a at the bar that night? Is that your man?,” Tristan asked.

“No definitely not….I met Michael as soon as I moved here. We went out a few times, but I wasn’t really that interested….he honestly just wanted me for sex and I can see right through that….I haven’t had a man in about two years now,” Malila said. Tristan just looks at Malila in shock and thinks to himself: “D**n two years! That’s so long as beautiful as she is. And I knew she wasn’t the easy type. But what if she’s crazy or something like that? Is that why she is single? Mmm.” Tristan takes a sip of his drink as he nods his head.

“How old are you anyway?,” Tristan asked.

“Twenty four, what about you?,” Malila said.

“Twenty five…..wait….so you were never with Michael, then why were you two arguing?”

“Well….he wanted us to continue our relationship, but I just kept telling him that I was not interested. I didn’t even want to be his friend. I just wanted to cut all ties, but he doesn’t get it…he thinks I want him, but I don’t….he’s not really my type.” Tristan would really like to know what Malila’s type is, but he doesn’t want to go there. Malila and Tristan talk for a while, until their food arrives. They both say their blessing, not even knowing the other did so and then they start to eat. Tristan decided to have dinner here, and Malila has never been here before, but she likes it so far; the food is very good!

“Mmm Tristan, this is really good….thanks for inviting me here,” Malila said.

“It’s fine….I owe you an apology for what I said to you….it was out of line,” Tristan said.

“Well I really appreciate this Tristan, it’s really nice of you.” Tristan smiles a bit and nods his head. Tristan and Malila enjoy a little bit of small talk and once they are done eating, Malila notices that Tristan’s attention is elsewhere. Something or someone really has his attention.

“Tristan, are you ok?,” Malila asked. Just then, <a href="http://www.allure.com/beauty-trends/blogs/daily-beauty-reporter/2012/02/21/rihanna-blonde.jpeg">this woman</a> comes up to Tristan.

“Tristan....it’s so good to see you,” the woman said. Malila notices the woman’s island accent and just looks at Tristan. Tristan is just at a loss for words right now.

“…..Tristan, you can’t say hi?,” the woman said. Tristan just looks at the woman and Malila sees a very hateful look form across his face. “Who is this woman?,” Malila thinks to herself.

“…..You have some nerve even looking in my direction, let alone talking to me Alicia,” Tristan spat.

“Tristan…..don’t be like that….you know I never meant to hurt you,” Alicia said.

“What? B***h it was your plan to hurt me!,” Tristan said while raising his voice slightly.

“Tristan…calm down,” Malila said softly. Tristan just looks at her and shakes his head.

“….You don’t know anything about this Malila, so just stay out of it,” Tristan said rudely.

“…Are you ever going to forgive me?,” Alicia said. Before Tristan can say anything, <a href="http://cbs997now.files.wordpress.com/2011/07/114824928.jpg?w=329">this man</a> comes up behind Alicia and wraps his arms around her waist.

“Baby we have to get home. We told the babysitter that we would be home by now,” the man said. Alicia nods her head and kisses the man’s cheek and then looks at Tristan.

“It was really nice seeing you Tristan,” Alicia said. She takes the man’s hand and then they leave and Tristan just balls up his fist in anger. Malila just looks at him and he quickly looks at her and then looks away. Tristan gets the waiter’s attention and asks for the check.

“Do you want to tal-?,” Malila is cut off.

“No,” Tristan said bluntly. Malila nods her head and they wait in silence for the check. Once the waiter brought the check, Tristan pulls out his card and then the waiter takes it. Once the waiter comes back with Tristan’s card and receipt, he quickly stands up from the table and leaves the restaurant. Malila gathered her things quickly and leaves the restaurant as well. She looks around and finds Tristan walking away while smoking a cigarette.

“Tristan wait!,” Malila called out. Tristan just keeps walking and Malila runs to catch up with him. She gently grabs his arm, and Tristan jerks her hand away and turns around and glares at her.

“Don’t f***kin’ touch me!,” Tristan yelled.

“Tristan….I just want to make sure you’re ok,” Malila said.

“You don’t have to worry about me alright? Just forget about me and forget this night even happened. It sure as h**l won’t happen again.”

“….You don’t want us to see each other anymore?,” Malila asked slightly hurt.

“That is exactly what I am saying.”

“I didn’t even do anything wrong to you though Tristan.”

“Are you slow? Huh?” Malila just looks at him and starts shaking her head.

“Fine….I can take a hint Tristan…..I don’t know who that woman was to you….but I’m sorry for whatever she did to you.”

“Why you talkin’ like you know s**t huh? You don’t know anything!”

“Then tell me something!”

“I ain’t tellin’ you s**t Malila.”

“Fine Tristan….I don’t know what I was thinking trying to get know someone as cold and hateful as you…thanks for dinner,” Malila said rudely. Malila brushes past him and quickly disappears into the dark. Tristan does not even care that he just hurt Malila, because seeing Alicia hurt Tristan so deeply. He lets out a yell of frustration and quickly gets to his car and speeds home. Tristan is beyond pissed right now and once he gets home, he pours himself a glass of Hennessey and sits on his bed. He takes a few large sips and just thinks about tonight. Why did he have to see Alicia tonight of all nights? He was making some progress with Malila, but now all they just went down the drain. “S**t I don’t need Malila or any other female for that matter. They ain’t s**t,” Tristan thinks to himself. Tristan’s whole mood is f**ked up now. Tristan just sighs and kicks off his shoes and reclines in the bed and turns on the tv. The more Tristan thinks, the more he actually starts to feel bad for how he treated Malila. He knows he shouldn’t have taken out his anger and hurt on Malila. Tristan knows he f**ked up, and he knows Malila really won’t want to have anything to do with him. Assuming this is true, why does this not sit right with Tristan?