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I got somethin' to tell you
But don't know how I'ma say it
I guess that I can only say one thing:
Girl, I been bad again
Girl, I been bad again

Cause with this money comes problems
And with these problems come solutions
And I use 'em but I'm fading
I forget
I forget what you mean to me
Hope you know what you mean to me

<a href="">Chris'</a> pov
"Popped a molly I'm sweating" I screamed. I went out to the hotel's balcony to get some fresh air. I needed some time to think about my decisions from last night. I enjoyed them as I turned around to see two bad b****es in my bedroom. I laughed to myself because I have no memories on what happen last night. I decided to get dressed and leave these two to have their fun. I hurried out of the hotel room and caught a taxi. As I stepped out of the car; I see <a href="">them</a> standing outside.
"You lost your keys?" I asked.
"Nah we left them inside" Trey said.
"Oh" I said while opening the door. "How was you guys' night?" I asked. They looked at each other and started laughing. "Man we just found some girls and did whatever came to mind" Drake said. I laughed because they wasn't on my level of "fun".
"But you'll never believe who we bumped into" Trey said.
"Who?" I sat down while raising my eyebrow.
"Leslie" they said.
"So?" I replied "What does that mean?" I asked.
"It means her and Kayla are moving here also" Drake said.
"The f*** you mean?" I asked.
"Leslie was at the club and she said here and Kayla are expanding their business so they decided to move to New York" Trey said.
"Should've stayed her ass back in Miami" I replied. I couldn't take it nomore I had to get up and rolled up my blunt. I grabbed a lighter and started puffing. "f*** her; she should've kept it" I said to myself. My anger was building up as the thought of her being in the same town made my blood boil.
"Look, You need to calm the f*** down and quit breaking s*** before I'm charge you extra for putting a whole in the wall" Trey said. I was grateful for my boys letting me move in after I lost everything.

Chris' Pov
Here I am staring at my brother's headstone. I couldn't believe that he was gone, I felt responsible for everything. I was influcing him on becoming popular but he became caught up with the wrong people. Here my brother laid under the ground killed for a pair of shoes. I wiped my tears away and finished my blunt I had laced. I had no one to turned to; our mother left us with a note and $3000 dollars. I walked away and knocked on <a href="">his</a> door.
"Yo?" Amir said.
"You got it?" I asked.
"Man, I don't sale anymore. I got out of the game" he continued. "You need to get your life together Chris" Amir said.
"Shut the f*** up Amir, What kind of drug deal tells his client to sober up?" I asked.
"The one who has a kid on the way" he continued

Chris' Pov contd.
I couldn't believe she had the audacity to get an abortion without my consideration. I swear if I saw this b**** I would choke the s*** out of her. Ugh I decided to take a nap because I needed something to take my mind off of her.

Drake's Pov
We decided to invite Kayla and Leslie over. We haven't see these girls since high school; now they're running one of the most up-and-coming boutiques. They came in looking fly as usual but we didn't want to keep the noise up because Chris was sleep. We also decided not to tell Kayla about Chris living here because it was too much for her to handle.

Drake's Pov
I heard someone banging on my door as Sami left my house. I hopped out of the shower with a towel wrapped around my waist to see Kayla covered in liquor. It look like she had been running also as she ran into my arms. "He tried to kill me" she said. I was confused because I had no idea who she was talking about. "Who?" I asked. She looked up at me and said "Chris". I was shocked I didn't know what to believe. "Was he high" I asked. She shook her head; I couldn't believe Chris had the right putting his hands on her. "I told him i was pregnant but he was high and he attacked me" she continued crying.

Trey's Pov
I heard Chris waking up and I knew it was time for them to go. I tried letting Leslie know that Chris was up but she wasn't paying any attention. "WHY THE f*** IS SHE HERE!" I heard. Chris came out of nowhere talking about Kayla. She was extremely scared she tried getting up quick but Chris pushed her back into her seat. "GET AWAY FROM ME" she yelled. I tried getting Chris but he continued charging until Drake came in the middle. "f*** YOU CHRIS!" she said. Chris started laughing and kicked the chair over "f*** YOU TOO WHORE! WHAT HAPPEN YOU DIDN'T KNOW WHO THE FATHER WAS?!!? WHAT AMIR KEPT FORCING YOU TO SUCK HIS d***!" he yelled. Kayla's face went blank before turning into rage. She dropped her bag and tired jumping at Chris before Leslie tried holding her back. "NO f*** YOU CHRIS!" she said. Kayla tried pushing Leslie off of her so I decided to get Kayla. She continued screaming things at Chris before she somehow pushed me off of her; I was shocked because she was short and somehow manage to pushed me. She jumped up and started attacking Chris and Drake at the same time. I finally got her before she took off her shoe and tried attacking him with the heel. "WHAT ARE YOU STILL SNORTING COKE OR HAVE YOU STARTED SMOKING CRACK!" she yelled. "NO I WILL NEVER BE LIKE YOUR MOTHER YOU STUPID b****!" he yelled. Kayla's face became sadden after those words, she calmed down and started getting her things; "I'm out" she said.


I'm soo confused
I like it though!
Chris crazy ass definitely needs some rehab
I don't even know bout Amir soo
Run It!!

Suddenly I felt warm coffee being thrown into my face. With all the sugar she added my face became sticky. I had enough of her bulls*** and grabbed her by the wrists. "Get off of me" she said. I wasn't having it anymore; I grabbed her laptop and things and dragged her all the way to my place. The whole time she kept pushing me off but more she moved the tighter my grip became. Finally we reached my house and I pushed her inside. No one was in the room so Trey and Drake couldn't stop my anger. "Get the f*** away from me?!" she yelled. Kayla started pushing me away but that only enticed me some more. I was becoming turned on by her anger that I had to have her. I didn't know if it was more or the drugs but I was becoming aroused. I decided to push her against the counter and I got in front of her. I removed her sweater as I started kissing on her neck before she said the wrong thing.."Am..." she said. I got off of her and gave her the shirt back. I slammed her into the refrigerator as I couldn't hold my emotions in. "You stupid b****" I said. I smacked her and grabbed my vial of coke as I sniffed some more into my nostrils. She ran in Drake's room where he was sleep.

Drake's Pov
I wake up to see Kayla hiding under my bed. Her eyes were covered with tears and for a moment I thought I was dreaming. "OPEN THE f***ING DOOR" I heard Chris yelled. I didn't open the door and asked Kayla what's wrong. She told me everything so I told her to get in the closet. I opened the door to see Chris high as hell. Whenever he was high he became a monster every way possible; including strength. He pushed me out of the way and dragged Kayla out of the closet by her hair. By the grace of god Trey and <a href="">Rose</a> came in. Chris grabbed Kayla by the arm and pushed her to his room before they knew something was up. A lot of people don't know that Rose and Kayla were engaged at one point. Hell they almost got married before he got cold feet. It the reason why Kayla away to live with Leslie. I couldn't understand why they didn't think nothing they were doing anything wrong. "WHY ARE YOU GUYS SITTING HE IS HIGH!" I yelled. Trey became confused because he didn't understand what was going on. Rose jumped up and kicked the door open; He saw Kayla passed out on the bed as Chris started to take her clothes off and that's when he lost it. All I heard was cracking as Rose decided to put his hands on Chris but Chris was fighting back so it became a big ass brawl but finally they ran out of breath. Chris was becoming red as he was sweating from the drugs and he passed out. Rose and I decided to take Kayla to the hospital while Trey watched over Chris.

I wake up to be in a hospital and I couldn't remember a thing. All I remember was screaming and blood on my body. I look around to see Trey and Drake staring at me pissed. "You need rehab" Trey said. I couldn't remember anything about that day but what happen afterwards was memorable.
"WHERE THE f*** IS SHE?" he yelled.
"Please calm down before you cause a scene sir" the nurse said.
"I DON'T GIVE A f***! WHERE THE f*** IS SHE!" he continued.
"Sir she doesn't want any company" the nurse continued.
"f*** YOU! SHE NEEDS ME" Amir said.
"AMIR! AMIR" Kayla yelled.
**Kayla's Pov**
I called Amir over because I knew the nurse would call the police. I can't believe I would see him again. I sighed as he came over with a bouquet of roses. "How are you feeling?" he asked. I didn't know what to say because I couldn't understand what he was about to do. He gave me some heating pads; "Here you needs because you're probably a little sore" he said. I rolled my eyes "I wouldn't need them if it wasn't for your crazy ass" I mumbled, I guess Amir heard me as he gripped my bruised high again.

Chris' Pov
"You're lying" I said. Drake took a sip from his beer; He started laughing as I became pissed. I jumped up and tried attacking him. However Trey got right between us. "How are you going to take her side?" I asked. Drake threw his hands up and went to his bedroom; "f*** this" he said. Trey hit me in my chest "The f*** is wrong with you?" he asked. I couldn't look at him, I felt betrayed as they continued taking her side. "She killed my unborn child" I said. "SHUT THE f*** UP" Trey yelled; I was confused as he continued yelling at me. "You have no idea what happen that night" he said. I was confused because I had no idea what he was talking about; "Prom?" Trey said. "No she was with Amir" I continued. "She wasn't with him. She was with you but you never claimed her" he said.

It was prom night me and my date were just getting out of the limo. I tried scoping the area to see Kayla. I thought she was with Leslie, Trey and Drake but she wasn't. "Where's Kayla" I asked. Drake shrugged his shoulder "I thought she was coming with us but I think Amir already made reservations for prom so she just decided to go with him" he said. My fist became tight as I felt envious over that, "Chris why are you mad? You have a date" Leslie said. I didn't want to look at her anymore so I decided to continue my night with my date. Suddenly I felt her dumped into my arms "Can we talk?" I asked. I agreed so I decided to go somewhere quiet with her; "Chris I'm pregnant" she said. I was shocked I couldn't believe it; apart of me was pissed and apart of me was happy. However I became highly upset because I knew she was still with Amir; "Is it mines?" I asked. She became shock and started crying; "You were the only guy" she said. I couldn't believe her, I just brushed past her and kept walking.

I still didn't believe them. I will always think it was her fault; I will always believe that it's her fault. She did it herself; it was her decision to do something like that. I decided to take a walk outside because I needed sometime off. I decided to take some pills and I escape to another world. I went to my supplier and received some oxycotin and lean; I was walking down the street drinking my "dirty" sprite before going into an alley and passing out.

I wake up to feel the rain pouring on my face. I decided I should pay Kayla a visit; I called Leslie to ask her address to apologize for my actions but she refused to text back. I sighed as I kept walking down the street back home. I didn't know what to do next whether I should apologize or not. I decided to go get some coffee from Starbucks and just think about my actions. However but by the grace of god I see Kayla sitting down drinking her coffee and on the computer; I quietly pull up in front of her. She looked up at me and kept typing. "Yes Chris?" she asked. She crossed her shoulders as she wore leggings and a oversized cardigan with a messy bun. "I wanted to apologize" I said. I tried holding her hand but she pulled back; "Okay" she said. I was confused because I thought she would come running back to me. "Do you love me?" I asked.

Kayla's Pov
I wanted to kill Chris when he brought up Amir. I hated when other people knew about his "problem" I decided to go home instead of drinking. I see Amir sitting on the couch smoking a blunt. I went straight to the bedroom and cried my eyes out. I hated Chris for bringing up the pass; It was his fault all together. He was never there for me; I put four years of patience and love hoping he would claim me. I met Chris my freshman year of high school and the years became a roller coaster. He was my first everything; I was in love with him but I hated the things he did. Chris was a player and I knew that. He said he loved me but he would always claim every and any other girl as his. I didn't know what to say; he cheated on me numerous time and caught a few std's. Thank god none of them transferred to me and they were treatable but I hated him. Chris started having family issues and relationship issues his drug usage became outrageous. Whenever he was high he would take all of his anger out on me. I guess that's why I ran towards Amir. I thought Amir was everything opposite of Chris but he was worse. See Amir has anger management issues but I started to think he was bipolar or something; Amir would questioned my every movement and he was emotional and physically abusive but I love him. I remember when Amir started receiving therapy and he changed completely but I'm still scared about seeing him angry.
"What's wrong?" he asked.
"Nothing" I said.
"Why are you crying?" he asked.
"No reason" I responded. Amir knew something was up so he decided to hold me while I cried in his arms.
"I hate him" I said.
"Who?" he asked.
"Chris. He tried to put his hands on me" I cried. Amir gripped became tighter as I held onto him. He kissed my cheek while consoling me before I started drifting off to sleep. I felt Amir laying next to me but something was off with him.
"What's wrong?" I said.
"I didn't meant to hurt you" he said.
"What are you talking about?" I asked. He pointed to the burn he gave me on my shoulder, I started shaking because I didn't want to be reminded of that.

<i> I remember coming to Amir's house right after school. His mother was always away on trips for business. Amir wasn't in school today so I decided to bring his homework to him. He gave me a key for whenever I wanted to cuddle or spend time with him but I saw a female preparing to leave as she wiped her mouth. She thought I was his sister or something so she told him to call her. She rushed right past me and I couldn't believe it. I dropped his things and tried rushing out before Amir grabbed my arm. "Look I didn't mean" he tried saying. I cut him off because I was trying to bring his homework. "I brought your English work" I said while wiping a few tears. I pushed Amir away before going up the stairs. "WHERE ARE YOU GOING!" he yelled. I turned around as the tears were rolling down my face "I'M GETTING MY THINGS" I yelled. I turned around to continue walking to his room before I heard him rush up the stairs. I started running because I knew what would happen next. I quickly slammed the door in his face and tried grabbing my items. Suddenly I heard a low crash and felt pain coming from my scalp. Amir grabbed my ponytail as he dragged me to his bed. Amir continued kissing me and I tried pushing him off of me. He grabbed his blunt and pushed it into my right shoulder. I screamed in agony as it was painful; "AMIR STOP YOU'RE HURTING ME!" I yelled. Amir didn't care his anger was starting get the best of him; "SO YOU CHEATED ON ME WITH CHRIS!" he yelled. Amir got up and started throwing random things at me I covered my face as he was aiming for my face. "LEAVE ME ALONE" I screamed. Amir snatched me up and pushed me against he window. I grabbed onto him because I thought I was going to fall. "You're scaring me" I said. Amir suddenly changed; he grabbed me and hugged me. "I'll promise I'll never hurt you" he said. </i>

"Please don't remind me of that" I asked. Amir look confused as I decided to changed into his shirt. "I'm tired of being hurt and I hate being constantly reminded of that Amir" I said. Amir gave me a hug and kissed before going back into the living room.

Chris' Pov
I went back to my room and thought about her. I hated hearing her name so I always referred her to as "her" or "she". Kayla doesn't know how the abortion struck me because I wanted something apart of myself. I really did love her but she always came at the wrong times. Yes I did catch an std but I cured it. Kayla's attitude is what made me leave multiple times but something about her always made me come back.
"THE f*** WAS THAT FOR" Drake yelled.
"She killed my child" I replied.
"That's it I had enough" Trey said.
"What she did!" I said.
"Shut the f*** up. You wanna know why?" Trey asked.
"I could care less" I said.
"She did it because you threaten her with a gun...a**hole! YOU f***ING GOT HIGH AS f*** AND STATED THAT YOU WILL NEVER BE IN IT'S LIFE && IF SHE HAD YOU WOULD KILL HER!" Trey yelled.
"NO I DIDN'T" I yelled.
"Yes you did; she ran to me crying and shaking because you were threatening her life" Drake said. "You need help; you killed your child and lost a great girl and friend".


damn chris, witcho mean ass. I can tell he hit a very soft spot. low blow nigga! i wonder if he's going to apologize ? cant wait to see ! RUN IT !

ps- check out my story OPEN! MY HEART CONTROLS MY MIND.