<a href="http://northdallasgazette.com/wordpress/wp-content/uploads/2013/02/meagan-good-4.jpg">momma</a> was just a girl when she had me. 17 to be exact. she thought <a href="http://americanfiyah.files.wordpress.com/2012/03/columbus-short.jpg?w=549">my daddy</a> and her would be together forever but sadly when I was six he was killed in a crash by a drunk driver. we were all alone and she was so heartbroken and later we moved to Columbus, ohio for a fresh start. we didn't know anyone there and that's how she wanted it to be. me on the other hand I wanted to stay in Tappahannock because the only friend I had was this boy named chris and he was my best friend. he was like the brother I never had but momma promised the move would be great for us.
momma got two jobs to keep up with supporting us. while I was in school she worked as a home health aid with this nice old lady named <a href="http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/thumb/1/19/BettyWhiteJune09.jpg/200px-BettyWhiteJune09.jpg">sue</a> who was very kind to her. she even paid momma extra doing the day to run any errands she needed her to. at night momma would then take me to her bartending job at skullys and I would have to sit with her boss while she would. I kinda liked it there because he always had snacks and stuff for me and he liked to help me with my homework at times.
after about three years I could tell momma was really liking this city and I was too. and then she met <a href="http://iones2s.files.wordpress.com/2012/09/terrence-howard-law-and-order.jpg?w=460&h=290">him</a> and he changed our lives forever.
I began to notice him and how he always came in skullys just to see momma and never buy a drink. after a while he began to come to our house and no sooner than I began going to southmoor middle school he and momma were a couple and actually talking about marriage.
"hey <a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-sfmJxZ_XxT4/Tw_UoaljYxI/AAAAAAAAB6w/YOO_W5pux6U/s1600/image.jpg">ladybug</a> come over here for a minute." my momma said to me as I walked in from school.
"yes momma." I said sitting down and noticing derrick was here as well.
"look I know this all came a little fast and all but derrick and I really wanna know how you feel about us getting married."
"I mean if your happy momma then im happy. derrick seems like a really nice guy and if he makes you happy then that's good in my book."
"your sweet kid." derrick said tapping my shoulder and coming to sit next to momma.
"thanks but please don't call me kid. I have a name ya know."
"aw snap lil miss feisty. im sorry lauren. I promise I wont do it again."
"thanks but um if you guys don't mind I have a super huge book report I must start."
"oh yes go ahead ladybug." I kissed momma on the chick and headed up to my room.
"wait lauren there's one more thing your momma forgot to tell you." derrick called out to me as I was about to head up the steps.
"oo yeah I cant believe it slipped my mind." momma said hopping up and grabbing something out her purse.
"your gonna be a big sister." she said showing me the ultrasound pictures.
"yaaayyy.!!!" I yelled then ran over and hugged her.
the months went by and finally we welcomed to the world lyric nic'le smith. she was so beautiful and I could tell momma and derrick were so happy.
*three years later*
"damn it lauren get down her now.!" derrick called out to me.
"what I do.?" I asked once I got to the bottom of the steps.
"how many times do I have to tell you not to leave these shoes in the middle of the floor.?"
"those are momma's shoes not mine."
"don't back talk me girl."
"im not im just telling you there not my shoes which means I didn't leave them there so this conversation is pointless." I said about to head back up to the room with lyric.
"what did you just say to me.?" he asked walked towards me with his hand to his ear like he couldn't hear what I said.
"I said this is pointless since it wasn't me who left them there." <strong>SMACK</strong>
"don't you dare back talk me again damnit.!" he said through clenched teeth. I looked up at him kind of surprised he did it.
"you said you wouldn't hit me." I said with tears coming to my eyes and ran up to my room. after twenty minutes there was a knock and in walked derrick.
"ladybug im sorry. please don't be mad at me." he said walking over and sitting next to me.
"whatever." was I said still not looking his direction.
"aw don't be mad please." he started to say then began rubbing my hair. "its just that I had a long day at the shop and as soon as I walked in the house I fell over the shoes. I know it wasn't your fault and im truly sorry." he kept going but his hand began to move lower and lower and soon it was rest on my butt.
"you know I love you ladybug. I would never hurt you but sometimes I get so frustrated." he began moving my short and pushing his fingers inside me.
"Nooo stop derrick." I said trying to move his hand.
"shhh its ok." he flipped me over and got on top of me and took my shorts completely off and slowly he pressed his dicc inside of me. I tried to scream but he covered my mouth. he did this a lot when momma was away and sometimes she's here but too tired and asleep to hear anything. after five minutes he came and fell out on top of me. I didn't really cry much anymore, yea it hurts but who can I tell that will really believe me. derrick is a great actor and it would be his word against mine.
he finally got up and left out the room and I went straight to the shower, got dressed and took lyric for a walked in the park. this couldn't continue anymore I know I have to tell momma but I need to figure out how.
just then I got a text from an unknown number
<em>aye stranger longtime no hear from. I know you aint forgot about me. lol anyways im in town and I just ran into your mom so where you at so I can see you</em>
I quickly texted back and asked who it was and just as fast he wrote back <em>Chris</em>
I was so overjoyed I was gonna tell him to meet me at the park but then I realized I had a red mark from derrick and quickly went to the store and brought make up to cover it then I texted chris back and told him where he could find me. i have my friend back and he doesn't go anywhere.
what yall think.?
run it or dump it.???