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I Cry to hide the pain that i feel. no one knows that i cry myself to sleep some nights. i wonder where my life is heading. i feel sometimes i should not be here and should be in another place. i feel like my life is not where it should be so I Cry. my life has been hard growing up. i have always been a big girl so I Cry. i try not to think about what people say about me but I Cry still cry becuz it hurts. people see me happy and always smiling not knowing i cry to hide the pain. I Cry wondering if i will ever find that special someone to luv me for me I Cry sometimes to relieve pressure off me. I Cry becuz i don't like to talk about it so i like to write instead. even though I Cry i still find a way to keep going each day. i know i have people who luv me and want to help but I Cry. maybe one day will have the strength to talk to someone and realize that i do belong here and i will find love. right now i sit here and still cry. may be i will find that special someone and my life will feel complete. i am going to keep my head up and continue to do what i have been doing with my life. one day i will feel lucky and everything will be fine so i won't have to cry anymore.

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lol at the last part my bad lol i wuda went fo round 2

AS I AM SITTING HERE, I FEEL LIKE ONE OF HIS FANS HE PULLS ON STAGE AND SINGING FOR. I FELT KIND OF NERVOUS AND I DON'T KNOW WHY. I HAVE SEEN HIM DO THIS PERFORMANCE A WHOLE BUNCH OF TIMES ON THE INTERNET BUT I FELT NERVOUS WHEN HE DID IT FOR ME. HE CLIMBS ON TOP OF ME AND STARTS GRINDING ON ME AND KISSING ME. WHEN THE SONG GOES OFF, I STARTED CLAPPING FOR HIM. HE LOOKED AT ME SMILING. I DID THIS FOR U SINCE WE DID NOT GET A CHANCE TO GO ON OUR DATE TODAY. YEAH I KNOW WITH EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENED TODAY WE CAN ALWAYS TRY TO GO OUT ANOTHER TIME. R U NERVOUS CHRIS ASKED ME. A LITTLE AND I DON'T KNOW WHY I AM. I GUESS I AM STILL GETTING USE TO ALL OF THIS HAPPENING TO ME I TELL HIM. I GUESS I AM GONNA HAVE TO CALM U DOWN HE SAYS. I STARTED SMILING WHEN HE ASK ME TO COME WITH HIM TO THE BED. I SEE A TRAY WITH STRAWBERRIES AND WHIPPED CREAM AND TABLE NEXT TO MY BED. HE START TO TAKE MY DRESS OFF WHILE KISSING MY BACK. I SEE U R STARING TO CALM UR SELF DOWN. I FELT MY BODY STARTING TO TREMBLE. HE COMES BACK UP AND COVERS MY EYES UP. WHAT R U DOING I ASKED CHRIS. I WANT U TO LAY DOWN AND JUST RELAX WHILE I TAKE CARE OF U. HE STARTS RUBBING MY BODY WITH OIL. HIS TOUCH FELT SO GOOD TO ME. I FELT A STRAWBERRY ON MY LIPS. OPEN UR MOUTH FOR ME HE SAY AS I BIT DOWN ON THE STRAWBERRY. HE STARTS KISSING ME AND HE STARTS GO DOWN TO MY BREASTS, THEN TO MY STOMACH AND MY NAVAL. I STARTED MOANING AND CALLING HIS NAME AND TELLING HIM DON'T STOP. I FELT HIS TONGUE ENTER INSIDE ME. I COULD HOLD IT IN ANY LONGER. I CAME RIGHT THERE WHEN HE SAID I WANT U TO CUM AGAIN. SO HE ENTER TWO FINGERS INSIDE ME. I FELT HIM PUTTING WHIPPED CREAM ON MY THIGHS AND HE STARTS LICKING IT OFF. THAT FEEL SO GOOD I TELL HIM. HE COME BACK UP AND STARTS KISSING ME ON THE LIPS. HE TAKE OFF MY BLIND FOLD TO SEE MY FACE. I WANT TO LOOK INTO UR EYES NOW AND SEE THE DIFFERENT FACE U R ABOUT TO MAKE.

HE SLOWLY ENTERS INSIDE OF ME. I MOANED A LITTLE AS HE WENT IN DEEPER AND DEEPER. HE STARTED TO GO FASTER AND FASTER. I TOLD HIM TO STOP AND LAY DOWN ON THE BED FOR ME. HE LOOKED CONFUSED AND STARTED KISSING HIS CHEST AND WENT DOWN TO HIS STOMACH. HE TELLS ME TO STOP AND SAY U DON'T HAVE TO DO ME IF U DON'T WANT TO. I KNOW BUT I WANT TO I SAY BACK. I KNOW THIS IS UR FIRST TIME DOING THIS AND I DON'T WANT U TO THINK BECAUSE I DID U U HAVE TO DO ME. AS HE IS SAYING THIS, I SLOWLY GRABBED HIS D**K AND PUT IN MY MOUTH. I SAW HIS EYES ROLL I THE BACK OF HIS HEAD. OH S**T HIS SAY TO ME. U WANT MAMMA TO KEEP GOING I ASKED HIM. HE DID NOT SAY ANYTHING SO I STARTED GOING FASTER AND FASTER UNTIL HE TOLD ME TO STOP. I LOOKED UP AT HIM AND HE STARTED SMILING AND TOLD ME TO HE WANTED TO FROM THE BACK. SO HE WENT FAST AND DEEP. I AM SCREAMING AND MOANING AS HE GRABS MY HAIR. WHO'S P***Y IS THIS HE ASKED ME. IT'S YOURS DADDY I SAY. HE STARTS GOING SLOWLY AND PUSHING DEEPER UNTIL BOTH OF US CAME AT THE SAME TIME. HE PULLS OUT OF ME AND STARTS LICKING MY CLIT AGAIN. CHRIS DON'T STOP. HE STARTS SUCKING AND RUBBING HIS FINGERS ALL OVER. HE TELLS ME TO TURN BACK OVER AGAIN. PUT YOUR D**K BACK IN ME DADDY? I SAY. HE STARTED AND SMILING. U WANT DADDY D**K. YES I DO AND I WANT IT RIGHT NOW. HE SLOWLY ENTER INSIDE ME AGAIN. THIS TIME HE TOOK HIS TIME. I DON'T WHY I JUST HAD SO MUCH ENERGY AND HE MADE ME FEEL SO GOOD I WANTED US TO GO ON ALL NIGHT. HE GOT THE WHIPPED AND PUT IN MY BREAST AND SLOWLY LICKED IT OFF. I MOANED AND SCREAMED FOR HIM TO KEEP GOING. I AM ABOUT TO CUM AGAIN CHRIS I SAY. HE STARTS TO GO FASTER AND HE PUTS HIS HAND IN MINE AND HE CAME RIGHT INSIDE OF ME. WE R BOTH OUT OF BREATH AND SWEATING. HE REALLY GAVE ME A WORK OUT. I REACHED OVER AND GRABBED A STRAWBERRY FROM THE TRAY. WE NEED TO DO THAT MORE OFTEN HE SAYS TO ME. I LOOKED OVER AND SMILE TO HIM. U WILL BE GETTING THAT MORE OFTEN I SAY TO HIM. HE STARTS TO SMILE. LET GO AGAIN HE SAYS. NO U KNOW WE NEED TO GET UP EARLY SO WE CAN HEAD OVER TO YOUR HOUSE TOMORROW. BESIDE IT IS ALMOST 12:00 IN THE MORNING. WE WERE DOING THAT LONG HE SAID. I LOOKED AT HIM AND LAUGHED. YES WE WERE DOING IT THAT LONG. I WENT TO GO PUT ON A SHIRT AND SOME SHORTS SO I COULD GO TO SLEEP. I COME BACK OUT HE SEE HIS FACE ON MY SHIRT. U PUT THAT ON FOR ME HE ASKED. NO I ALWAYS SLEEP IN THIS SHIRT AND SHORTS. IT HAD HIS INITIALS ON THE SHIRT WITH HIS FACE AND THE SHORTS HAD CMB ON THE BUTT PART. U MADE THIS FOR U HE ASKED. YEAH THIS IS THE FIRST THING I EVER MADE FOR ME TO WEAR. HE TOLD ME TO TURN AROUND SO HE COULD SEE THE BACK. U REALLY DID LIKE ME DIDN'T U. I DID BUT THE WAY U JUST SAID IT MADE IT SOUND WEIRD. I WAS A REALLY BIG FAN OF YOURS AND I THOUGHT I WOULD MAKE ME SOMETHING TO HAVE U CLOSE TO ME AS BEING A FAN OF YOURS. HAVE U MADE OTHERS LIKE THESE HE ASKED ME. YES I HAVE. I HAVE MADE A TREY SONGZ ONE, TYGA, BOW WOW, OMARION, AND I EVEN MADE A USHER PAIR. BUT I RIPPED THOSE UP AND THREW THEM AWAY. THOSE I MADE FOR MY FAMILY SO U DON'T HAVE TO WORRY THEM BEING ON ME. HE STARTED LAUGHING AND SAID WE NEED TO GET TO BED BECAUSE WE HAVE MUSH TO DO IN THE MORNING. GOOD NIGHT I LOVE U CHRIS. I LOVE U TO TAMARAH. HE SNUGGLED UP WITH ME. I FELT HIM AGAINST MY BUTT. MY BAD AND PUT A PILLOW BETWEEN US. WE STARTED LAUGHING AND FELL ASLEEP.

lol im jus sayin

u r crazy

yay now run this lol

THANK U. I DID NOT MIND THE COMMENT THAT WAS MADE. I JUST CAME UP WITH THIS STORY AND WHO EVER WANTS TO READ CAN IF U DON'T THAT IS FINE. I JUST FELT LIKE I WANTED TO SEE HOW THIS STORY WOULD GO BECAUSE I LIKE WRITING AND COMING UP WITH STORIES. I AM NOT GONNA GET MAD ABOUT. I WILL KEEP THE STORY GOING UNTIL I AM READY TO END IT.

@sherbet dnt listen to thatdeal she jus a hatin a** btch keep doin what u been doin its good to me. run it

THERE WERE CANDLES EVERYWHERE. ROSE PETALS ON THE BED,AROUND THE BED, AND AT THE DOORWAY. I HAD A BIG SMILE ON MY FACE. HE HAD DID THIS FOR ME AND I WAS SURPRISED BY WHAT HE HAD DONE. I WALKED IN AND I HEARD THE DOOR CLOSE BEHIND ME. HELLO MRS. BROWN HE CHRIS SAYS TO ME. I TURNED AROUND TO LOOK AT HIM. THAT HAS A NICE SOUND TO IT I TELL HIM. U DID ALL OF THIS FOR ME I ASKED. YES I DID AND U DESERVE IT HE SAYS. I TURNED BACK AROUND TO LOOK AT THE ROOM. I FELT A TEAR RUN DOWN MY FACE BECAUSE I NEVER HAD ANYONE DO SOMETHING LIKE THIS FOR ME EVEN WHEN I WAS WITH USHER. HE DID ROMANTIC THINGS FOR ME BUT NOT LIKE THIS. WHY R U ABOUT TO CRY HE ASKED. I CAN'T BELIEVE U DID THIS FOR ME AND I AM JUST HAPPY AND SURPRISED BY ALL OF THIS. THIS IS MY WAY OF SHOWING U THAT I LOVE U AND WILL ALWAYS LOVE U NO MATTER WHAT. I WANT TO SHOW U HOW U MAKE ME FEEL AND THAT I WILL NOT DO U WRONG LIKE U NO WHO DID. HE WALKED ME OVER TO A CHAIR AND HAD ME TO SIT DOWN. I HAVE A SURPRISE FOR U AND HE GAVE ME A KISS. I SAT AND WAITED TO SEE WHAT HE WAS GOING TO DO. I HEAR HIM PUT ON ONE OF MY FAVORITE SONGS OFF HIS F.A.M.E ALBUM. HEAR SOUNDS OF YOUR BODY DRIP,DRIP, DRIP, AS I KISS BOTH SET LIPS, LIPS, LIPS,. THEN I SEE HIM COME BACK TO GIVE ME MY OWN PRIVATE CONCERT AND DANCE. I STARTED SMILING AND SAT BACK AND ENJOY THE SHOW.

thanks i will keep that in mind. lol

People just might run yo storie more if u would break yo paragraphs up into smaller sections. lol

I WENT INTO THE KITCHEN TO START PUTTING THE LEFTOVER FOOD UP. NICKI CAME IN AND ASKED WHAT HAPPENED TO CHRIS FACE?. HE GOT INTO A FIGHT A THE COURT TODAY WITH USHER. SO THAT'S WHAT HE WAS APOLOGIZING FOR WHEN HE CAME OVER TODAY. YEAH HE HAD GRABBED ME AND EVERYONE CAME RUNNING OVER WHEN I SCREAMED. THAT MOTHER F***ER PUT HIS HANDS ON U NICKI SAID. YEAH AND IT REALLY SCARED ME THAT HE DID THAT TO ME. WHEN WE WERE TOGETHER HE NEVER EVEN TRIED ANYTHING LIKE THAT BEFORE. I DON'T KNOW WHAT HAS GOTTEN INTO HIM. HE REALLY WANTS ME BACK AND I DON'T WANT THAT FOR MYSELF ANY MORE. WHEN I WAS WITH USHER I STARTED FEEL LIKE I WAS JUST HIS EYE CANDY. HE TOOK ME TO ALL THE PARTIES JUST TO BE BY HIS SIDE FOR THE PUBLIC EYE. I DID NOT SEE IT AT FIRST AND I GUESS I DID NOT WANT TO BELIEVE HE WAS JUST USING ME. I HAVE THIS GREAT GUY IN MY LIFE NOW AND I AM SO HAPPY THEN I EVER BEEN. NICKI SAYS BUT-. I JUST THINK USHER ISN'T GOING TO STOP AND SOMETHING BAD WILL HAPPEN. U AND CHRIS WILL BE JUST FINE SHE SAY TO ME. IF USHER DOESN'T GET THE FACT U DON'T LOVE HIM ANYMORE THEN HE NEED TO GET HELP WITH WHAT HE IS DEALING WITH. YEAH U R RIGHT NICKI. I MISS TALKING TO U LIKE THIS. I AM GONNA GO IN THE LIVING ROOM SEE WHAT IS UP WITH TREY AND YOUR SISTER NICKI SAYS. OK I AM GONNA FINISH UP IN HERE WITH THESE DISHES AND THE FOOD. I WILL BE THE WHEN I AM DONE. DO U NEED SOME HELP DRAKE SAYS TO ME. SURE I CAN USE SOME HELP IF U DON'T MIND HELPING. IT IS SO GOOD SEEING U HAPPY AND FEELING GOOD ABOUT YOURSELF. THANKS DRAKE I AM REALLY HAPPY. CHRIS IS A NICE GUY AND HE BETTER NOT BREAK YOUR HEART OR HE WILL HAVE TO DEAL WITH ME. I LAUGHED AND TOLD HIM HE WON'T. HOW IS DJ DOING? (DJ IS HIS SON) I ASKED HIM. HE IS DOING FINE AND HE WANTED TO COME BUT I TOLD HIM THIS WAS FOR ADULTS ONLY. WHY DON'T U BRING HIM WITH U TOMORROW TO THE COOKOUT? I SAY TO HIM. I WILL AND HE HAS BEEN ASKING TO SEE U AGAIN. HE IS SO CUTE AND I CAN'T WAIT OT SE HIM AGAIN. I HEARD WHAT HAPPENED BETWEEN U AND NICKI. HE LOOKED AT ME AND HIS EYES GOT BIG. I AM NOT GONNA SAY ANYTHING TO NO ONE. DO U LIKE HER? I ASKED HIM. U CAN TELL ME I WON'T SAY ANYTHING TO HER OR TO ANY ONE HERE. YEAH I DO LIKE HER BUT THINGS R COMPLICATED HE TELL ME. I CAN'T SEEM TO TELL NICOLE THAT I DON'T LOVE HER OR WANT TO BE WITH HE ANYMORE. I DON'T SEE WHY U JUST TELL HER HOW U FEEL AND BE DONE WITH HER I TELL HIM. HAVE U EVEN TRIED TO TELL NICOLE HOW U FEEL?. I HAVE TRIED BUT I AM AFRAID WHAT SHE MIGHT DO. WHAT DO U MEAN? I ASKED. I AM AFRAID SHE MIGHT TAKE MY SON AND WON'T LET ME SEE HIM OR GO CRAZY AND DESTROY MY THINGS AND MY IMAGE. IF U FEEL SO STRONGLY ABOUT THIS U CAN ALWAYS GO TO COURT AND LET IT GO FORM THERE. I KNOW U STILL DON'T TRUST HER HE SAYS. I REALLY DON'T BUT I WAS WILLING TO SEE WHAT WE COULD DO AND I WANTED MY FRIEND BACK IN MY LIFE AGAIN. WHEN SHE DECIDED SHE WANTED US TO STOP THE FIGHTING AND ARGUING, I GOT A WEIRD FEELING SHE IS UP TO SOMETHING. I DON'T KNOW WHAT IT IS BUT I KNOW SHE IS PLANNING TO DO SOMETHING.

OK DRAKE I CAN FINISH UP HERE. U CAN GO AND HANG OUT IN THE LIVING ROOM WITH EVERYBODY. HE LEAVES AND I SEE CHRIS COMING INTO THE KITCHEN. WHERE DID U GO OFF TO? I ASKED HIM. I WAS UPSTAIRS HE SAYS. DOING WHAT I ASKED HIM. NOTHING I NEEDED TO GET SOMETHING FROM THE ROOM. WHAT R U PLANNING THAT UPSTAIRS THAT U DON'T WANT ME TO KNOW ABOUT. U WILL HAVE TO WAIT UNTIL EVERYONE LEAVES TO SEE WHAT I DID. I PUT THE LAST DISH IN THE DISHWASHER AND WE WENT INTO THE LIVING ROOM. SO WHAT SONGS DID U WANT DANCE TO FOR THE PARTY? SHALAMEKE ASKED. I HAVE NOT DECIDED YET BUT I HAVE A COUPLE IN MIND THAT I AM THINKING ABOUT. IS ONE OF THE SONGS U R THINKING ABOUT IS BY ME? CHRIS SAYS. ACTUALLY NO I SAID WITH MY FACE TURNED AWAY LAUGHING. THAT COLD HE SAYS AND EVERYONE STARTED LAUGHING. U HAVE SO MANY SONG I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHICH ONE TO PICK I SAID TO EVERYONE. I ALREADY HAVE AN IDEA THAT INVOLVES USING THE GUYS. I WANT TO START THE FIRST PERFORMANCE OUT WITH MOTIVATION BY KELLY ROWLAND. AND I WANT TO END THE NIGHT WITH BEYONCE SONG RUN THE WORLD. I ALREADY HAVE THE OUTFITS AND HOW THE PERFORMANCE IS GOING TO BE. THAT NOT RIGHT USING US WHEN U KNOW ABOUT THE BET WE HAVE CHRIS SAYS. U DON'T THINK U CAN CONTROL YOURSELF? I ASKED HIM. I CAN CAN CONTROL MYSELF HE SAYS. WELL IT SHOULD NOT BE A PROBLEM THEN CHRIS. HE LOOKED LIKE HE WAS SCARED BUT RELAXED ABOUT THE WHOLE THING. I DON'T WANT IT TO BE TO LONG BUT JUST ENOUGH TIME SO PEOPLE CAN SEE MY DESIGNS AND STILL HAVE TIME TO MINGLE WITH EACH OTHER.

I HEARD THE PHONE RING AGAIN. I GOT UP AND IT WAS FRIEND AND BUSINESS PARTNER LISA. I JUST THINKING ABOUT U I SAID TO HER. DO U WANT TO TALK ABOUT WHAT WE R GONNA DO FOR THE STORE? LISA ASKED ME. YEAH I DO AND I WANTED TO LET U KNOW I WANTED TO HAVE A PARTY TO CELEBRATE THE OPENING OF THE STORE I SAID. THAT IS A GREAT IDEA TAMARAH. I JUST DON'T KNOW WHERE I WANT TO HAVE THE PARTY AT THOUGH. I WILL CALL TANYA TO SEE IF SHE HELP US OUT AGAIN. TANYA IS ONE OF TREY'S PEOPLE WHO HELP ME GET MY CLOTHING LINE AND STORE STARTED. OK CALL HER FOR ME AND LET ME KNOW WHAT SHE SAYS. I WANT TO TRY TO HAVE THE PARTY NEXT FRIDAY. I KNOW THIS IS SUDDEN BUT LET HER KNOW I REALLY WOULD APPRECIATE IF SHE WORK HER MAGIC ON THIS FOR ME. OK LISA SAY. U CAN GET BACK WITH ME TOMORROW. I WILL BE AT CHRIS HOUSE TOMORROW FOR A COOKOUT. THAT SOUNDS LIKE FUN SHE SAYS. U CAN COME OVER THERE AND FILL ME IN AND HANG OUT WITH US. OK I WILL CALL U BACK TOMORROW AND SEE U LATER. BYE LISA. WHO WAS ON THE PHONE? MIKA ASKED. THAT WAS LISA AND I WAS TELLING HER ABOUT WHAT I WANTED TO DO FOR THE PARTY. I TOLD HER TO CALL TANYA AND GET BACK WITH ME TOMORROW. MY PHONE RUNG AGAIN AND I WENT TO ANSWER IT. HELLO. TAMARAH ITS ME LISA. R U GONNA BE PERFORMING AGAIN. YEAH I AM. I FORGOT TO TELL THAT. THANKS FOR CALLING BACK AND REMINDING ME. OK SEE U TOMORROW. BYE LISA. THAT WAS LISA AGAIN CALLING BACK TO SEE IF I WAS PERFORMING. IT WAS ABOUT 9:00 AND EVERYONE WAS READY TO HEAD HOME. U GUYS R READY TO LEAVE U CAN GO IF U LIKE I SAY. IT IS GETTING LATE AND I KNOW U GUY WANNA BE READY TO GO THE COOKOUT TOMORROW. I NEED TO BE UP EARLY SO I CAN HELP CHRIS MOM COOK AND PREPARE THE FOOD. I WILL SEE U GUYS TOMORROW THEN I SAY. AS I WAS SAYING BYE TO EVERYONE I REALIZED CHRIS HAD LEFT AGAIN. TREY WAS THE LAST PERSON OUT THE WHEN HE SAID CHRIS SAID TO MEET HIM UPSTAIRS. HE HAD A SMILE AN HIS FACE AND I HIT HIM AND SAID BYE. I LOCKED THE UP AND TURNED OFF THE LIGHTS DOWNSTAIRS. AS I WAS MAKING MY WAY TO THE STAIRS, I HEAR MUSIC PLAYING AND THERE WERE RED,WHITE, AND PINK ROSE PETALS ON THE STAIRS. I GOT TO THE TOP AND HEADED TO TH ROOM. I COULD SMELL STRAWBERRIES AND VANILLA COMING DOWN THE HALL. I OPENED UP THE DOOR AND........

TO BE CONTINUED

usher needs to leav them alone run it

i really like this story alot keep going

THE DINNER IS GOING GOOD SO FAR. NO ONE IS ARGUING OR ANY FIGHTING HAS STARTED. R U GONNA PERFORM FOR THE PARTY FOR YOUR GRAND OPENING OF YOUR STORE? TREY ASKED ME. I DON'T KNOW I HAVE BEEN THINKING ABOUT THAT SINCE I GOT THE CALL ABOUT THE STORE BEING TO BE OPEN I SAID BACK TO HIM. I THINK U SHOULD DO IT BECUZ IT BEEN A WHILE SINCE U PERFORM MIKA SAYS. THAT RIGHT I HERE MY BABY CAN SING AND DANCE CHRIS SAYS. IF I DECIDE TO PERFORM I A GONNA NEED YA'LL TO HELP ME WITH THE ROUTINES. OH SO YA'LL DON'T NEED HELP FROM ME THEN? THAT'S COOL CHRIS SAYS LOOKING AT ME. I WANT EVERYTHING TO BE A SURPRISE TO EVERYONE INCLUDING U. SO I CAN'T EVEN GIVE INPUT ON WHAT U GUYS CAN DO? CHRIS ASKED. I LOOKED AT HIM AND SMILED AND SAID NO WE CAN MANAGE. BESIDE I DON'T NEED U THERE DISTRACTING ME. WHEN THEY DANCE THEY R REAL SEXY AND IT MAKE U WANNA GO DO SOME THING TREY SAYS. DAMN YA'LL DANCE LIKE THAT CHRIS SAID. YEAH WE DO AND I KNOW HOW U GET. U GONNA WANT TO STOP ME SO WE COULD GO AND DO SOMETHING. WE ALL STARTED LAUGHING. MAN SHUT UP I WOULD NOT DO THAT CHRIS SAYS. OK CHRIS U ALL OF U CAN COME SIT IN ON ONE OF OUR REHEARSAL AND I AM GONNA SEE IF U CAN CONTROL YOURSELF. IF U DON'T THEN NO SEX FOR U FOR 2 DAYS. NO SEX FOR TWO DAYS IS SAID COUGHING. YEAH NO SEX FOR 2 DAYS. U THINK U CAN HANDLE THAT I ASKED CHRIS. YEAH I CAN HANDLE THAT HE SAYS SWALLOWING REALLY HARD. CAN U HANDLE NOT GETTING WHAT I GAVE U EARLY TODAY BEFORE EVERYONE GOT HERE CHRIS SAYS TO ME. I AM GONNA BE COOL FOR 2 DAYS. IF I WIN U HAVE TO DO A PRIVATE DANCE FOR ME AND U HAVE TO STRIP FOR ME HE SAYS. I FINE WITH THAT I SAY. SHALL WE SHAKE ON IT I SAY. SO WE SHOOK ON IT AND FINISH EATING.

THIS IS GONNA BE GOOD TARA SAY AT THE TABLE. I HEARD THE DOOR BELL RING AGAIN. I'LL GET IT I SAID. CHRIS GOT UP AND CAME WITH ME TO THE DOOR. I THINK HE WANTED TO MAKE SURE IT WAS NOT USHER COMING BACK. I OPENED UP THE AND IT WAS OMARION (BUT I CALL HIM OMARI). IS TARA HERE HE ASKED ME. YEAH SHE IS IN DINING ROOM EATING. COME IN AND COME ON. R U GUYS DATING EACH OTHER I ASKED HIM. HE SAY YEAH TO ME. WHY DIDN'T U TELL ME U GUYS WERE DATING I ASKED. BECAUSE I KNOW U GUYS DID NOT GET ALONG WITH EACH OTHER. I WAS SURPRISE TO FIND OUT SHE WAS HERE GIVING U GUYS HISTORY HE SAYS. I KNOW WE DECIDED SHOW TO STOP THE FIGHTING AND TRY TO BE FRIENDS. I SO GLAD BECAUSE I MISS HANGIN OUT HERE WITH U GUYS. TARA THERE IS SOMEONE HERE TO SEE U I SAID. SHE LOOKED OVER WITH A BIG SMILE ON HER FACE. HEY BABY SHE SAYS TO OMARI. MY FAMILY LOOKED AT ME LIKE WHEN DID THIS HAPPEN. I TELL U GUYS LATER I SAID TO THEM. OMARI WOULD U LIKE TO STAY? I ASKED HIM. YEAH I WOULD LOVE TOO PLUS I HAVE NOT ATE YET HE SAYS. I HEARD THE PHONE RING AND ASK CHRIS IF HE COULD GET THAT FOR ME. WHO ON THE PHONE I YELL TO HIM. IT IS YOUR MOM HE SAYS. HI MOM HOW R U DOING? I AM DOING FINE AND WHO WAS THAT THAT ANSWERED THE PHONE?. HIS VOICE SOUNDS FAMILIAR SHE SAYS TO. AW THAT IS WAS CHRIS I SAY. CHRIS BROWN THE SINGER SHE SAID EXCITED. I SAID YES THAT WAS HIM. HE FINALLY GOT THE NERVE TO TALK TO U FINALLY I SEE. OK U KNEW ABOUT HIM LIKING ME. YES ME AND HIS MOM R CLOSE FRIENDS. WHY DIDN'T U TELL ME ABOUT THAT? I ASKED HER. HIS MOM TOLD ME NOT TO BECAUSE CHRIS WAS TRYING TO FIGURE OUT HOW TO ASK U OUT. I HIT CHRIS IN THE BACK LAUGHING ON THE PHONE. I WAS GONNA COME BY TO SEE U GUYS TOMORROW? SHE SAYS. THAT GOOD BECAUSE I WAS GONNA CALL U TO ASK IF U WANTED TO COME TO A COOK OUT AT CHRIS HOUSE TOMORROW? I SAID. THAT SOUNDS LIKE A GOOD IDEA I WILL THERE TOMORROW. OK LOVE U. I LOVE U TOO BYE MY MOM SAYS. I HUNG UP THE PHONE AND CHRIS SAYS THAT WAS YOUR MOM ON THE PHONE. YEAH AND I HEAR U ALREADY HAVE MET BEFORE? I SAY TO HIM. HE SMILED AT ME AND SAYS YES SHE HAS BEEN FRIENDS WITH MY MOM FOR A FEW MONTHS NOW. SHE IS COMING TO THE COOKOUT TOMORROW? HE ASKED. YEAH SHE SAID SHE WOULD BE THERE. MOM IS COMING TOMORROW MY SISTER ASKED ME. YEAH SHE IS COMING. I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE HER TAMEKAH SAYS. I GET TO LET HER MEET TREY. WE ALL SAT BACK DOWN TO FINISH EATING.

HOW LONG HAVE U GUYS BEEN DATING NICKI ASKED OMARI. WE HAVE BEEN DATING FOR ABOUT 1 YEAR SO FAR HE SAYS. I LOOKED AT MIKA AND SHE HAD A WEIRD LOOK ON HER FACE LIKE WHY IS HE WITH HER. OK IS EVERYONE DONE EATING I ASKED. OMARI U CAN GET SOME ON PUT IT ON YOUR PLATE BEFORE I TAKE IT INTO THE KITCHEN. LET ME FIX IT FOR U TARA SAYS TO HIM. CAN U GUYS HELP ME TO START CLEARING THE TABLE I SAY.

SHALAMEKE WENT TO OPEN THE DOOR FOR ME. I HEARD HER SAY WHAT THE F*** U DOING HERE?. I WENT AND WALKED TO THE DOOR AND LOOK TO SEE USHER STANDING AT MY DOOR. WHAT R U DOING HER USHER I ASKED HIM. I NEED TO TALK TO U FOR A MINUTE. I HEARD MIKA SAY NO U NEED TO TAKE YOUR ASS BACK HOME AND LEAVE HER ALONE. THAT SH** U PULLED AT THE COURT TODAY WAS DEAD WRONG. I SAID TO MIKA ITS OK I CAN HANDLE THIS. SURE WE CAN TALK FOR A MINUTE. I HEARD MY SISTER SAY U DON'T HAVE TO TALK TO HIM. I KNOW BUT I WANT TO HEAR WHAT HE HAS TO SAY. HE TRIED TO COME IN MY HOUSE BUT I SAID NO WE CAN TALK RIGHT OUTSIDE. FINE USHER SAYS. AS I CLOSED THE DOOR SHALAMEKE SAYS WE WILL BE RIGHT HERE. I KNOW YA'LL GONNA BE HERE LOOKING RIGHT OUT THE WINDOW TO SEE EVERYTHING. WE ALL STARTED LAUGHING AND I CLOSED THE DOOR. SO WHAT DO U HAVE TO SAY TO ME? I ASKED HIM. I WANTED TO APOLOGIZE FOR WHAT HAPPENED EARLIER TO DAY. I SHOULD NOT HAVE DONE WHAT I DID AND I AM SORRY. I ACCEPT YOUR APOLOGY AND FAR AS I AM CONCERN IT DONE AND OVER WITH. THERE WAS SOME SILENCE FOR A MOMENT. IS THAT ALL U CAME TO SAY TO ME? I ASKED. NO HE ANSWERED. I REALLY WANT US TO GET BACK TOGETHER HE SAYS TO ME. I ALREADY TOLD U ITS OVER BETWEEN US. U R THE ONE WHO WANTED TO GO AND SLEEP WITH OTHER GIRLS INSTEAD OF ME. I KNOW THAT WAS WRONG AND I REALIZED THAT NOW. I DON'T GET WHY GUYS SEEM TO REALIZE THEY HAD SOMETHING GOOD UNTIL IT GONE. USHER DID NOT RESPOND AT FIRST. U R GLOWING HE SAYS. YEAH SO WHAT IF I AM WHAT IT S TO U. HE STARTS TO PACE BACK AND FORTH. U SLEPT WITH THAT NIGGA? HE SAYS IN AN UPSET VOICE. THAT IS KNOWN OF YOUR DAMN BUSINESS IF I SEX WITH. U GAVE IT UP TO HIM BUT NOT ME HE SAY. IF MY MEMORY IS CORRECT U CHOSE NOT TO SLEEP WITH ME I SAY BACK TO HIM. U WERE THE ONE WHO DECIDED THAT MY WEIGHT WAS THE PROBLEM AND U FELT LIKE U DID NOT NOT WANT TO SLEEP WITH ME. THAT IS NOT TRUE AND U KNOW IT HE SAYS BACK TO ME. I STARTED TO GET MAD AND SAID THIS CONVERSATION IS OVER. U NEED TO GOT BACK HOME TO YOUR BEAUTIFUL SONS AND FOCUS ON THEM AND YOUR CAREER AND MAYBE FIND SOMEBODY ELSE THAT NOT ME. HE LOOKED AT ME AND SAYS HOW DID U KNOW?. I STILL KEPT UP WITH WHAT U WERE DOING TO SEE WHAT U WERE DOING. APPARENTLY U HAD FORGOTTEN ABOUT ME HAVE HAD 2 KIDS AND GOT MARRIED AND NOW U ARE DIVORCED. IT TIME FOR U TO LEAVE NOW AND DON'T EVER COME TO MY HOUSE AGAIN AND DON'T TRY TO CALL ME EITHER. AS HE WAS WALKING AWAY I SAW CHRIS AND EM PULL UP IN FRONT. I SAW CHRIS HURRY OUT THE CAR AND SAID WHAT THE F*** R U DOING HERE. USHER SAID NONE OF OR BUSINESS. IT IS MY BUSINESS WHEN THIS IS MY GIRLS NOW CHRIS RESPONDS BACK. I YELLED TO CHRIS JUST LEAVE IT ALONE AND GET IN THE HOUSE. THEY STARTED TO WALK TOWARD THE DOOR WHEN HE ASKED WHAT WAS HE DOING HERE?. JUST COME INSIDE AND I WILL TELL OK I SAID TO HIM. I WENT INTO THE KITCHEN MAD AS HELL BECAUSE OF THIS SITUATION. CHRIS AND TREY BROUGHT EVERYTHING INTO THE KITCHEN. I ASKED EVERYONE IF THEY COULD GO INTO THE DINING ROOM AND I WILL BRING EVERYTHING IN A MINUTES. I WANTED TO PUT THE FOOD IN OTHER DISHES I HAD. SHALAMEKE WOULD U ALL SET THE TABLE FOR ME PLEASE I ASKED. CHRIS WAS LOOKING AT ME VERY UPSET. HE WAITED TIL EVERYONE LEFT TO ASK ME ABOUT USHER BEING HERE. WHAT THE F*** WAS HE DOING HERE HE ASKED ME. HE CAME OVER TO APOLOGIZE FOR WHAT HAPPENED EARLIER AT THE COURT AND THAT HE WANTED ME BACK. HE JUST DOESN'T GET THAT U R WITH ME NOW AND HE NEED TO STAY THE F*** AWAY FROM U. HE WILL NOT BE A PROBLEM ANYMORE I PROMISE. I WALKED OVER TO HIM AND TOLD HIM I LOVE U AND HE WILL NOT BE A FACTOR IN OUR RELATIONSHIP. WHY WAS HE SO UPSET WHEN HE LEFT CHRIS SAYS. HE FOUND OUT I HAD SEX WITH U AND NOT HIM. U TOLD HIM WE HAD SEX? HE WHISPERS IN MY EAR. I SAID NO AND ITS NOT THAT HARD TO TELL WE HAD SEX WITH EACH OTHER. ALL THEM KNOW OUT THERE ALREADY SO STOP ACTING LIKE U DID NOT TELL THE GUYS. HE STARTED LAUGHING AND SAID YEAH THEY ALREADY KNEW TOO. HE STARTED KISSING ON MY NECK AND SAID LET GO UPSTAIRS RIGHT QUICK. NO WE NOT AND U NEED TO HELP ME WITH THIS FOOD BEFORE IT GETS COLD. OK BUT I HAVE SOMETHING PLAN SPECIAL FOR U WHEN EVERYONE LEAVES CHRIS SAYS. U R NOT GONNA LET ME KNOW WHAT U HAVE PLAN FOR ME? I SAYS TO HIM. U R GONNA HAVE TO WAIT TO SEE. I HEARD TO DOOR BELL RING AGAIN. I WAS WALKING TO GET IT WHEN MIKA SAID SHE WOULD GET IT FOR ME. TAMARAH I HEARD A FAMILIAR VOICE CALLED TO ME. I LOOKED UP AND IT WAS MY FRIEND NICKI( U ALL KNOW HER AS MINAJ FROM YOUNG MONEY. SHE CAME IN AND GAVE ME HUG AND SAID THAT I LOOKED GREAT. WE HAD NOT SEEN EACH OTHER FOR ABOUT 6 MONTHS. SHE ASKED HOW WAS EVERYTHING?. I TOLD HER EVERYTHING IS MUCH BETTER NOW. SO U R OVER THAT BASTER THAT BROKE YOUR HEART?. I SAID YEAH AND I NEVER FELT BETTER. YOU R GLOWING AND I HAVE NEVER SEEN U THIS HAPPY FOR A LONG TIME. SO DO I GET TO MEET THE PERSON WHO IS MAKING MY GIRL HAPPY. WHY DON'T U TURN AROUND AND SEE FOR YOUR SELF? CHRIS SAYS. NICKI TURNS AROUND AND SAID HEY CHRIS AND LOOKED BACKED AT ME SMILING. SO HE FINALLY CAME TOO HIS SENSES AND ASKED U OUT. YOU KNEW ABOUT HE HAD FEELINGS FOR ME TOO I ASKED HER. YEAH I DID BECAUSE OF YOUR COUSIN AND EM KEPT ME POSTED ABOUT EVERYTHING. I ALSO TALKED TO CHRIS BEFORE AS WELL. THIS IS CRAZY HOW EVERYBODY KNEW DID NOT SAY A WORD TO ME AT ALL. SO WOULD U LIKE TO STAY FOR DINNER? I ASKED HER. U KNOW I WANT TO STAY AND CATCH UP WITH U. I HEARD DRAKE WAS HERE WITH HIS BABY MOMMA? SHE ASK ME. YEAH THEY ARE HERE RIGHT IN THE DINING ROOM. U GUYS R FRIENDS NOW SHE ASKED? I WOULD NOT SAY THAT BETWEEN NICOLE AND TARA. SHE WANTED TO STOP ALL THE STUFF THAT WAS BETWEEN US I TOLD HER. CAN U TRUST THEM SHE ASKED ME. RIGHT NOW NO BUT I AM WILLING TO SEE WHAT HAPPENS BUT LIKE I TOLD MY COUSIN I WILL BE KEEPING A CLOSE EYE ON THEM. I STILL DON'T THINK DRAKE LOVE HER LIKE HE SAY HE DOES I TOLD NICKI. SHE SAID I KNOW WE HAD BEEN TALKING ABOUT HIS SITUATION FOR A WHILE NOW. I HEARD DRAKE CALL FOR ME AS HE CAME IN THE KITCHEN. NICKI TURNED AROUND AND SAID WASSUP DRAKE. HE GAVE HER HUG AND ASKED WHAT SHE WAS DOING HERE. I CAME TO SEE MY FRIEND AND TO SEE HOW SHE IS DOING. R U STAYING FOR DINNER HE ASKED NICKI. YES I AM STAYING. CAN U TAKE THIS IN TO EVERYONE SO WE CAN START EATING. WHAT? NICKI SAYS. I DID NOT SAY ANYTHING BUT SMILED AT HER. U LIKE HIM DON'T U NICKI I WHISPERED TO HER. SHE DID NOT SAY ANYTHING AT FIRST. U DON'T HAVE TO TELL ME ANYTHING IF U DON'T WANT TO. IF I TELL U SOMETHING U PROMISE NOT TO TELL ANY ONE. YEAH I PROMISE I WON'T TELL. I HAD SEX WITH DRAKE. I LOOKED UP AND SPIT MY WATER OUT. WHEN DID THIS HAPPENED? I ASKED HER. IT HAPPENED TWO DAYS AGO WHEN WE WERE TALKING ABOUT HIS BABY MOMMA. HE LEND OVER TOWARD ME AND IT STARTED WITH KISSING FIRST. I HAD WANTED TO STOP BUT I REALLY WANTED HIM SO BAD. DO U THINK NICOLE KNOWS ABOUT WHAT HAPPEN? I ASKED HER. YEAH SHE DOES KNOW AND THAT IS WHY WE NOT SEEN EACH OTHER UNTIL NOW. WE SEE EACH OTHER WHEN WE WORK BUT WE TRY TO STAY AWAY. NICOLE CAME IN THE KITCHEN AND THERE WAS SILENCE. WE ALL R READY TO EAT. OK WE WILL BE RIGHT THERE AND I DON'T WANT NO DRAMA FROM EITHER OF U. I AM COOL THEY BOTH SAY TO ME. SO WE ALL R SITTING DOWN GETTING READY TO EAT.

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AS EVERYONE CAME IN THE DOOR, AND SAID HI TO EACH OTHER, I ASKED CHRIS TO COME WITH ME TO THE KITCHEN. AS WE WALKED IN THE KITCHEN, HE ASKED ME HOW MY LEGS WERE. THEY WERE FINE I SAID WITH A SMILE ON MY FACE. THEY ARE SOAR STILL CHRIS SAID. NO THEY ARE NOT I SAID BACK TO HIM. HE CAME UP TO ME AND STARTED TO RUN HIS HAND UP MY THIGH. HE STARTED TO MASSAGE THEM AND I TOLD HIM TO STOP BUT I REALLY DIDN'T WANT HIM TO. HE STOP AND I WENT TO GIVE HIM THE MONEY FOR THE FOOD. WHAT IS THIS FOR HE ASKED. THIS IS FOR THE FOOD I SAID AND HE GAVE IT BACK AND SAID I WILL PAY FOR EVERYTHING. ARE U SURE I SAID. HE SAID YEAH DON'T WORRY ABOUT IT. I TOLD HIM OK. WE WALKED BACK INTO THE LIVING ROOM AND I ASKED EVERYONE DID THEY WANT ANYTHING TO DRINK BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE ANY ALCOHOL EXCEPT WINE. TARA SAYS U DON'T DRINK BUT U HAVE WINE. YES I DO BECAUSE IF I HAVE COMPANY OVER THEY MIGHT WANT SOMETHING TO DRINK. SO TREY SAID THEY WOULD GET THE DRINKS FOR EVERYONE. SO ALL THE GUYS LEFT TO GO TO EVERYTHING.

I HAD EVERYONE COME INTO MY DEN UNTIL THEY CAME BACK WITH THE FOOD AND THE DRINK. WE WERE SITTING DOWN WHEN I LOOKED UP AND EVERYONE WAS LOOKING AT ME WITH SMILES ON THERE FACES. WHAT ARE YA'LL SMILING AT? I ASKED THEM. SO ARE U GOING TO TELL US WHAT HAPPEN BEFORE WE GOT HERE? MIKA SAYS TO ME. I SAID WHAT DO U MEANING? LAUGHING AND RUBBING MY THIGH. NICOLE SAYS U KNOW WHAT WE MEAN AND STOP FRONTIN LIKE U DON'T WANT TO TELL US. IF U GUYS KNOW WHAT HAPPEN WHY DO I HAVE TO TELL U GUYS? I SAID. SHALMEKE SAYS WE WANT TO KNOW DETAILS. I DON'T HAVE NOTHING TO SAY TO LEAVE ME ALONE. MY SISTER SAYS SO U GUY DID NOT HAVE SEX BEFORE WE GOT HERE. I DID NOT SAY ANY THING AND STARTED SMILING. OK WE HAD SEX BEFORE YA'LL GOT HERE I SAID. I DON'T KNOW WHY I JUST FELT LIKE IT WAS TIME FOR ME TO DO IT. HE WAS GENTLE AND TOOK HIS TIME WITH ME. THEY ALL SAID AW IN UNISON. SHUT UP I SAID TO ALL OF THEM. IS THAT WHY U ARE RUBBING YOUR THIGHS? NICOLE SAYS. YEAH THEY ARE SOAR I SAID. MIKA SAYS DAMN HE PUT IT DOWN LIKE THAT. YEAH HE DID AND WE WERE IN THE SHOWER I HAD TO SIT DOWN BECAUSE I COULD NOT EVEN STAND. ALL OF THEM SAID DAMN. HE REALLY WANTED U TO KNOW THAT NO ONE CAME DO U LIKE HE CAN TAMEKAH SAYS. I LOST MY BREATH AT SOME POINT. I WAS BREATHING SO HEAVILY. HE TOOK MY BREATH AWAY. I AM GLAD I WAITED AND IT WAS WITH HIM AND NOT THAT BASTARD USHER. I CAN'T BELIEVE WHAT HE DID TO U TODAY MIKA SAYS. I CAN'T BELIEVE HE DID THAT EITHER I SAID TO THEM. HAS HE EVER DID THAT TO U BEFORE WHEN U GUYS WERE TOGETHER? TARA ASKED ME. NO HE NEVER DID ANY THING LIKE THAT BEFORE TO ME I SAID. I WAS SO SHOCKED BY HIS BEHAVIOR TODAY I DID KNOW WHAT TO THINK OF HIM I TOLD THEM. I AM JUST GLAD CHRIS WAS THERE AND THE FIGHT DID NOT GET TO PHYSICAL BETWEEN THE BOTH OF THEM. I HEARD THE DOOR BELL RING AND WE ALL GOT UP TO GO SEE IF THE GUYS WERE BACK.

i stood up from the floor of the shower to go under the running water. as i got up i could barely walk. i could not feel my legs. l walked slowly toward the water when i heard chris ask me if i needed any help. i said yes and he help me toward the water. he asked was i alright and i said yeah i am fine. in my mind though i am thinking he just f**k the s**t out of me. i turned around and he said u want to go again?. i pushed him away and said no i need to get for our company that is coming over soon. he said u love what i did to u?. i looked at him and smiled and he said i know u did. i had to show u how i feel about and to let u know u r mine and nobody can do u like i do u. he grabbed me a towel so i could dry off to get ready. i sat on the bed thinking about what happened at the court earlier. i don't know what was going on with usher. he had never acted that way before ever. i was remembering the good times we at one point. we would take trips to anywhere just to be together. at one point he even asked me to marry him. i told him no at the time because i don't think i was ready for that and i had my suspension about him cheating on me. chris came in and i did not hear him call me. he snapped his fingers pulling me out my daze. he said what were thinking about just now?. i was thinking about the incident at the court today. u should just let that go and don't think about that b**ch chris said. u r right but i got this weird feeling that he going to try something again and i am scared what might happened if u two come face to face again. calm down he says putting his arms around me. i was shaking a little and he said nothing bad is going to happen to u or me. i put my clothes on and headed downstairs so i could put the order in for the food.

as i headed down the stairs, the doorbell rang. i got it, chris says. it was my sister and trey at the door. i was on the phone with the restaurant ordering to food. as i got off the phone, i walked in to the door and chris if him and trey could go pick the food up for me in about an hour. trey said yeah we can use my car. chris said cool and we went and sat in the living room. trey asked chris how he was. chris said a little soar but i will be fine. trey asked me was i ready to open up my store?. yeah i am i said. i have been waiting months for this day to come. i wanted to throw a party to celebrate my grand opening. trey said he could find a place to have it and chris said he could help too. chris asked how many stores u want to open?. i want many stores but i am focusing on this one and i found another spot to open up another store that would be for my younger people to shop at. i design clothes for teens and for adults. the store i am opening now will be for the adults. the spot i found for the other store will be for teens to go to. the stores won't be far apart from each other so i can go and check up on them when i need to. this is so good for u right now chris says. i said thanks i really need this to help keep me focus and to keep mind off so much drama in my life still. u really think nicole was serious about becoming friends and stopping all the fighting that has been going on between u to, my sister says. i don't know she seem serious but i will keep an eye on her still because she tends to have her moments and turn on u in a heartbeat. trey and my sister kept looking at us funny. i asked them do u guys have something on minds? no they both said at the same time. u guys look like u wanna ask something or have something to say to us i said to them. no no my sister says back to me. the door bell rang and everyone came in and sat down in the living room. chris and trey said they were going to go get the food because it had been an hour.

sorry i cut it short but i am going to bed

as we were leaving the house, i saw my fam heading toward me and chris. my phone rang and it was my friend and business partner lisa. she called to let me know that my store would be ready to open on tuesday. i told her that is great. she also said that my inventory would be there on monday. i told her i would see her on monday so we could set up everything. she said see u monday with excitement in her voice. i told her bye and hung the phone up. chris asked who that was and i told him my friend lisa. she called to tell me that my store would be ready on tuesday but we have to go in on monday to set up everything. he looked at me with a smile on his face and told me congrats. my sister asked what happened and i told her my store will be ready on tuesday. she was and everybody was so happy. i told them i have to go in monday to set up everything. trey said i am so proud of u. i said thank u and i am glad u were here to help me get this started. so we get to the court and we see drake and his baby momma sitting down. chris looked at me and asked me said i hope ya'll don't start anything. i said i'm cool as long as she stays over there. we walked over to them and spoke. they guys walked off to go play ball. so we went to sit down on the far side of the benches way from the drama. i saw her staring me and giving me all kinds of looks. i looked at over and said to myself she bet not nothing with me today. my sister started talking about her and trey went back to her house and had sex. i did say anything but i heard our cousin mika ask for details. shalameke tapped my shoulder and ask me did u hear what she said. i said yes and that i already knew that what ya'll did. my sister said how u know what happened?. i said all that sexual tension between the both of u i am not surprise. besides u could not wait til he came back so u could put it on him. she said yeah u right and we all started laughing. i looked over again and that b**ch was staring again and mumbling stuff to her friends. i said if she looks over here one more time i give her something to look at. mika told me calm down and u told chris u were cool. i know but she gets on my f***king nerves. i got up and all them said where are u going?. i said i am going for a walk around the park. i needed to go before i went and did something to her. as i started walking, i saw chris running toward me. he ask was everything alright. i said yeah and that i needed to go for a walk. he looked over at nicole and her friends and said ok. he ask if i wanted him to come with me. i said no u can finish playing ball with guys. he pull me in closer to him and said r u sure. i said i will be fine and u better go because they r yelling over at u. he said they can wait and he lend down and gave me a kiss. i hear tyga and shad yelling for him come on. i said u better go finish your game. as i turned around to walk off, he hit me on my ass and bit his bottom lip and ran back to the game. i look over at my friends and they are smiling at me. as i was walking, i was just thinking about how everything has been so perfect so far. my business is about to start and i have chris in my life. what could possibly go wrong. i go toward the fountain to get a drink of water, when i hear this familiar voice say damn as i am bent over drinking water. i look up and it is the one person i did not want to see ever again. i looked up and usher was standing there staring at me. i looked up and he says long time no see. how have u been? he asked me. i said i am doing great and u. he said he is doing fine. he was just staring at me when i ask him was there something u wanted. he say u look good i said thanks and begin to walk off. i started to get my confidence back that i has lost about 50 pounds so i was happy. he yells to me where r u going?. i said for a walk and he asked if he could join me. I said no and he said he need to ask me something. i stopped and turned around and said u can ask me right here and u got 5 minutes. he said ok and then preceded to say that he wanted me back. i looked at him and laughed a little and said r u kidding me. he said i am not and that he was sorry for what he did and that he has changed. i said really and u expect me to believe what u say. he said yes and that he regrets ever leaving. i told him u hurt me so bad that i cut everyone off from me for months. i could not eat or sleep because of what u did. u seriously think that i would get back with u because of what u say now i don't think so. i said beside i have someone in my life now who make me very happy and who loves me for me. he asked me u have a boyfriend and who was he. i said u don't need to know and that your 5 minutes is up. i turned to walk of when he grabbed my arm and i really want u back. i said no and ask him to let my arm go. he slowly cam up toward me and pulled me toward him saying to me u know u can't resist me. i told him to let me go. he put his arm around me tighter i am trying to fight him off and i started yelling to let me go. i hear chris yelling my name and running toward us. he pulled usher off me and him was there a problem. usher said no and chris ask me was i alright. i said yes i am fine. usher said yeah she is fine and ask me who this was. he said i am chris her boyfriend. he looked at me and said this is your boyfriend. i said yeah and he started pacing back and forth saying dating him over me. i looked at him and said yes i am and that i am glad we r not together because u just showed your true colors to me. u have not change one bit and u will never ever have me again. i told chris to lets go and chris turns around and tells usher if he ever comes near me again he would kill him. usher got in his face and said u ain't gon do s**t. chris says back try me and see what happens. walk over toward chris and ok let go and everything is ok. as we started to walk off usher yells out i don't need your fat ass anyway. i told chris just keep walking and usher turns to his friends and thats why she a hoe any way. chris let me go and ran toward him and punched him dead in the jaw. we all run back toward them. trey and drake are trying to break them up. i yelling for chris to stop. they just kept on fighting. trey and drake finally pulled them apart and walk in front chris telling him to calm down. i am telling him to look at me and calm down. i said he is not worth it. chris was like he went to far. i said i know and they are just words and i don't care what he says about me anymore. u make me happy and that is what matters. chris looks at me and says when he said that about the person i love i just lost it. i look at him and said u love me. he says yes and that i don't want anything to happen to u. i was surprise that he said that and i said i love u too. he hugged me and gave me a kiss. it hurted him a little bit. i said let go home. drake let usher go and we started walking back toward the bench so we could sit down. my fam asked was everything ok i said yes everything is fine. mika asked was that usher over and i said yeah that was him. she said i can't believe he did that to u. i said it is over with and i want to go home. i told them chris's mom has invited us over for a barbecue at his house tomorrow. i saw nicole and her friends walk over toward us. i said look i don't want any more drama. nicole came up to me and ask was i ok i said yes i am fine and thanks for asking. she look at me and said she was tired of us fighting all the time and wanted to know if we could try and be friends. i looked at and said r u for real or is this a joke. she said no i am serious after what just happened and i see how drake misses u as a friend. i just want everything to be drama free. i said ok we can try to do that. i said in fact why don't ya'll come to the barbecue too. i said chris is that ok with u. he said that fine if u want them to come. it was almost 1:00 in the afternoon and we all decided to to head back to our homes. i told everyone to meet me at my place at about 3:00. i am going to order some chinese food. everyone said ok. so we got back to my house and yelled to everyone 3:00 and i told drake and em ya'll come over to. chris and i got back to my house and i told him to go upstairs and i would bring up some ice packs for him. i got up to my room and gave him one for him one to put on his lip. i told him to take hi shirt of because he gotte blood all on it. he was holding his ribs and i went to put the ice pack on it and he move. i told him to let me feel where it was hurting. i said it doesn't feel like they are broken. i put the ice pack on and told him i am so sorry u had to that. this is last thing i want to happened if u guy ever met. he said it ok and he is glad that i am alright. he asked me has he ever acted like that before?. i said no and that was a surprise to me. i looked at his hand and it was bruised and i got up from the bed when he asked what was wrong. i said since he is back i know he is not going to stop and i scared for u and me. chris said everything is going to be fine. i am not going to let anything happened to u. i turned around toward him and we begin kissing. i said don't your lip hurt. he said yeah but not now and we headed toward the bed. he laid me down and said u don't have to do this if u don't want to. i told him i want to and i started to undo his pants. i took my shirt and bra off. he pulls my shorts and underwear off and tells me to laid down. he pulls off his boxer briefs and be gin to put on a condom. i sat up and to him no that i wanted to feel him inside me. he asked me are u sure. i said yes i am sure. he slowly started to enter inside me. i felt my back back arch and he asked was i ok. i said yes and he started penetrating slowly in me. i was moaning and biting my lip. it felt so good and i felt so free from all the drama in my life. he lend down and started kissing me very deeply. he started to speed up when i told him to slow back down. he rolled over i started riding him like i had done this a million times. he started moaning and cursing and telling me go a little faster. he grabbed my hip and started to guide me back and forth. i started to go faster and and he started to call my name. i told him to say my name again and cursed and he said it. he turned me back over and continues go harder and faster. he pulled out and went down and he enter two fingers inside me. i yelled out his name telling him don't stop. then i felt tongue against clique and i could fell myself getting wetter and wetter. my back begin the arch and leg were about to give out. he kept on licking until i had an orgasm. he put his d**k back inside me and started to go faster. i was screaming and yelling out his name. he pulled my hip closer so he could penetrate deeper in me. he went faster and faster until we came and he laid down on me and we started kissing again. i felt so safe with him and for this to be my first time i am glad i waited and it was with him. he climb off me and said for u to be a virgin u knew what u were doing. i looked at him and smile. i asked him to go get a towel so i could wipe off. my body was still feeling the affect. he came back and asked was i alright. i said yeah i am fine. i said it felt weird but i am glad i waited and lost it to u. he started to rubbed his hands over my stomach and then up to my chest. i felt my body trimble and he started to kiss my around my naval the up to my breast. i got up and walk toward the shower. i turned the shower on and water begin hitting my body. i felt him come up from behind and started kissing my neck. i was facing the wall when he slowly enter inside me again. we started to have sex again in the shower. i did not want him to stop and he turned around and went back in as he lifted me up toward the wall. we both came a little quicker this time but the tension between us made want to keep going. when we were done i had seen what time it was. he started go down on me and started licking my my lips. i could barely breathe telling him we needed to stop because we needed to get ready. he did not stop and i did not want him to when i felt his fingers inside me again. all i could do is moan and call his name. he was looking me in my eyes while he fingering me asking me did i want him to stop. he kept going and going. i could not say any thing. i was trying to catch my breathe and when i did not respond he smiled and went back down with his tongue. just when i was about to say something i let out a big scream calling his name over and over again. he came back up and said he was not done yet and i still could tell him to stop i wanted him to keep going. so he said i want to remember that u r mine and i am your and no one can come between us. the way he was putting it down i couldn't do nothing but just nod my head. he put his d**k back into me one more time. chris don't stop, i love, i love daddy's d**k. he push harder and faster util we came so strong together that i could not feel my legs. he put me down and i had to sit down on the shower floor for a minute.

to be continued

i was still on the couch when i saw him sitting there looking at me. i asked him what time it was. he said it was 8:00. i asked him how long have u been sitting there? he said about 20 minutes. i smiled and he said u are so beautiful. he tried to kiss me and move away saying i need to brush my teeth first and u do too. i told him i had extra toothbrushes upstairs. he said so u keep extras huh. i laugh becuz the way he said. i said i do have family that comes over so if they forget anything i have it here already. as we entered my room i showed him where the they were and he looked at me strange. he said do u really need a shower that big. i said i do because i like to have a lot of space to move. i was brushing my teeth and he came up behind me and or u have so can and he paused. i turn around and looked at and said u could use it for that and i smiled. he tried to kiss me again and i move and brush now. i ask him was he hungry becuz i was going to fix breakfast. he said yeah and he would be down when he was done. i started cooking and he came down saying something smelled good. i said thank u. he came up behind me and started kissing me on my neck and i turn around to give him a kiss. i kiss him on the cheek and turn back around to finish chopping. he said that it i said yeah and to walk away,when he pulled me back and we had a long deep kiss. i had to say ok i am trying to cook. he let me go and went on the other side of the counter to sit. chris asked me when did i like him. i looked at him and said i have always like since the day we talk about at the party i had 2 years ago. he said i remembered that party. i said u remembered that and he said how could he forget. i made u smiled that night because u smiling for the people but when i saw u u just look sad. i said i was sad because of what was going on my relationship with usher i just felt i was not there. he said u like me that long and u did not say anything. i said how could i u were in a relationship and so was i. i am not the kind of person to break up people and cause drama. he said he had heard about what happened between me usher. i said yeah he really hurt me to the point where i had cut everybody off. i wold not talk to anyone. people would come over to see me but i felt like i removed myself from my body. i really went over when i found out he cheated on me. when he came to my house to pick me so we could go out, i had his things at the door waiting on him. he couldn't say anything but sorry and that he did not mean too. i already knew why he did it. he tried to say it wasn't because of my weight but i knew it was. i stood there crying and he gave me hug and kiss goodbye and said he love. i said whatever and told him to leave. i should have seen the sign back then because when i wanted to have sex with him he did want to. he kept saying he wanting to make sure i was ready. chris looked at me and said so u never had sex with him. i said no and i wanted to because he would have been my first. he looked at me and said so u are still a virgin and i said yes i am. he got up and came behind me and said so i am going to be your first. i smiled and said maybe. he grabbed my hips and started grinding on me. i said chris don't start that. i could feel him getting hard and he started to kiss my neck and pull me tighter into him. i did not want him to stop but the door bell rung. he let go and said he could not wait so he could show me what he could do and he hit smacked my butt and went to the door. i heard a voice that i had not heard from in months. chris came in the kitchen and trey and was standing behind. i went over and gave him a hug. i had not seen him for a while. he ask me how i was doing. i said fine and he said he was doing fine too. he said to chris i see u finally got her. i looked at him and said huh. chris looked at me and said trey was the one who told me about u. i said u did huh and said don't be mad. i was trying to get u back out there and chris said he had been wanting to talk to u since the party. i said wow and smiled. i said u seem to show up when i start to cook. i asked him did he want some breakfast and he u know i want some of your cooking. he asked how everyone was doing and he asked about my sister tamekah. i said she is doing fine. he has been trying to get with her since we all started hangin out. she was sad when u left. she did not admit it but i know she was and she like u too. i just think she could do the long distance thing. the door rung again and it was my sister. chris had let her in and she walked in the kitchen to see me when she dropped her purse and saw trey. she asked when he got back. he got up and said this morning and they hugged each other. he turned her around and said she was looking good. he leaned in and gave her a deep kiss that left her speechless. she had came by to see how i was doing and since she saw chris there she knew i was fine. she asked trey to walk out and she said she would see us later. chris turned around and said u know they are are going back to her house. i said i know and we both started smiling. i gave him his plate and i sat next to him and we started eating. he asked me so u like me still even after the whole rihanna incident. i was surprised by it because i knew that was not the person i saw at the party that night. at first i was mad because in my mind how could u have done this. then as the months went on and u were turning your life back around i started to support u. my family and friend did not like it one bit. they figure i should hate u forever. i just could not do that because i knew u knew what u did was wrong and that made me drawn to u. i my mind i forgave u and so did many other people. but i was really angry about what u did at GMA. my sister came over and told me what had happened and i was upset. but i could understand that the interview should have been about u and your album and not about the incident between u and rihanna. u should have handle it in different way but i understood u. i know they think people want to know about what u are feeling but u felt like i on here to promote my album and thats that. i still love and will always love. he looked at me and smiled. then i said when the naked pictures came out i was mad about that. not that i wanted to see u naked but the fact everyone in hollywood seems to have something like this happen i was not really shocked. chris said so u wentand saw the picture? i said yes and he asked did u like what u saw?. i turned away from him and said i was not impressed by what i saw. he did not know i was joking. i turned around and he i said i am just kidding and started to give him a hug. he pushed me away and said it like that. he started back eating and look and said then u know what to expect then. i said i know what u got. he smiled and said he needed me to go to his house so he could get his clothes for tonight. i said ok let go. as we left, i did not know he had a house that was like 2 blocks away from me. i said u have been here all this time. he said yes i watched u all the time. i looked at him he said not in a stalker way but to see u everyday before i had the nerve to ask u out. we got to his house and i saw his mom joyce coming down the stairs. she gave him a hug and she saw me and gave me a hug too. she said she felt like she knew me already. she said she knew about me and what happened. she asked me how i was doing?. i told her i am doing much better now. she looked at the both of us and said i can see that. chris went upstairs to his room to get his clothes while we went in the kitchen. she said i am so glad to finally meet u. she told me that he ever talked about was me. i said really and smiled. she said she also said she asked him is this what he wanted because i am a few years older than him. i said i understand and u just want whats best for him giving everything he has been through. she said she does and she thinks that i am the best thing for him right now. i heard his sister lytrell calling for there mom. she came in the kitchen before i could turn she called my name. i turned around and gave her a hug and said i did not know she was chris sister. she said its about time because all he ever talked about was u. i started smiling and her mom asked how we knew each other. i told her we met at the store while i was shopping for shoes. she had turn to me to ask who they were for and i said for me. she asked me did i have a lot of shoes?. i said yes i did and she told me that her brother has a lot of shoes too. she never told me who her brother was though and i can see why she didn't. chris came down with his things and was i ready to go i told him yes i was. she turn to us and if we were hungry, we both said no we had already eaten. she said i hope it was not take out. chris came by me and said no that i had cook us breakfast. she smiled at me and said u can cook i nodded.she said ok i am going to let u guys go then. his kiss his mom and she gave me a hug and told me if i needed anything i could come to her. i told her thank u and i will. i turned back around and asked her how about we have a barbecue tomorrow and i can invite my family so we can all meet each other. she said that would be good but i would help her cook. i said i would and chris said that is a great idea. she gave me another hug and to me to take care of and watch over him. i said i will. we started walking back to my house when he my mom really likes u. i said i like your mom and your sister too. chris asked me what did his mom say to me as we were leaving.i told him she said to watch over u and to take care of u. as we are approaching my house, these two girls i went to school with started to come toward us. i turn to chris and here comes trouble. he said u know them. i said yeah we went to high school together and we hate each other. they wanted everything i had and ruined most of my years in school. we stopped and one of them spoke and ask me how i was doing. i said fine thank u. she said are u going to introduce us. i was so mad i said chris this is tara and nicole. they were all happy to meet him that when i got real angry because tara got all in his face asking why are u with her?. i move in front of chris and told her to back off. she said ooh what u going to do?. i said don't push me because i will break your nose like i did nicole. we got the arguing and calling each other b***ches and hoes and chris trying to hold me back. then my sister and them came out to help and i see this dude get out the car and starts running toward us. my cousin mika taps me and ask me was that drake. i told her yes that was him. she said damn he look good. he came pulling both the girls back and telling them to go get in the car now. chris moved from in front of me and drake said he was sorry for all this. i asked him u still with her and he did not say anything at first. he ended up asking how i was doing. i said fine and he said spoke to every one else too. chris ask the same thing i did to him. i ask chris u know about them too. he said yeah that they were good and he had talk to him about her. trey said he told him about her too. i saw a little boy walk toward us and he daddy mom said to come on. he told him ok and i asked him this is your son. he said yes it is. i was happy and mad because now he has this beautiful son and he has to deal with that b**ch. he asked me are u tamarah i looked at him and yes. he told him to go back in the car i am coming. i was about to ask him when he said i told him about how we were best friends because he found and old picture of us when u were in school. nicole comes yelling out lets go drake now. i could not say anything. he asked chris and trey did they want to meet up at the court at about 1:00 today. they said yeah. he turned around and said bye. i headed toward my house and chris came running. i heard chris tell them to see them in a little bit. i went in and went straight to the kitchen and said i need a drink. i thought about and wait i don't drink and chris close the door and came in and said what really happen to u guys. i told him my cousin introduce us to him and we all hung out together. we spent most of the time together though. i consider him like my brother as i do trey. they both have always had my back when i needed it. one day we were talking outside my house when the two of them walked past. nicole spoke to drake and she rolled her eyes at me. he asked who that was i said nicole and that u should stay away from her. she just causes a lot of drama and she want everything i have. i said to she sleep with anybody who just for there money. so i went to go see him at his house to see if he wanted to hang out and when i got there, trey came up to me and said u might want to wait here. i said why and i saw him with her. i was so mad but i kept my cool and knew that he could make he own choices. drake saw me standing there with trey and he came over and gave me hug. i said i was coming over to see if u wanted to hang out but i see u are busy. then she came walking over asking what was i doing there?. i said i came to see my friend. drake said look don't start nothing. i said i am cool. but in my mind i wanted to beat her ass. he said u are welcome to stay. nicole says no she is not. i said he ask me not u and this is his house. she got in my face and said u just mad because he is with me and not u. i told her to back up out my face. then chris said she slapped u. i said yeah and i said how did u know that. he said i was at his house that day. he said i did not know it was u because i could not see that much. trey came by me and i looked up and punched her right in the nose. we were pulling each other hair, rolling on the ground, i kicked her i the stomach when trey came over and pulled me off of her. she touch her face and u broke my nose. i said u lucky i did not break you f**king neck. she tried to run up on me again but drake told her to go in the house. she told drake either its me or her. i told drake u don't have to decide because i am leaving and we can't be friends anymore. i started walking down the street crying because he was best friend. he started calling and running after me. i heard yelling come back her to drake. drake yelling to me to slow down. he finally caught me and said that its. you are going to end our friendship just like that. i said yes crying my eyes out. as long as u are with her i can't be your friend. standing there talking to him made me realize that he had meant more to me than i thought. we hung out so much i guess my feelings for him changed. he grabbed my hand and looked at it. it was hurting pretty bad. he asked me u can really throw a punch and we both started laughing. he said i guess this is it. he pulled me close to him and gave me a hug. as he was about to let me go he we looked at each other and leaned i to kiss me. i wanted to stop him but i didn't. we ended up kissing and for once i thought i found somebody again but it was taken away from me. he let me go and saw trey coming and he said he would walk me home. he said damn you kick her ass. i looked at him we both started laughing and he walked me home. chris said wow i know not to get on your bad side. i said yeah whatever. i need to go take a shower and calm my self down. he said ok and sat on the couch. i said u don't want to join me. he no i went over to him and ask him why not. he did not say any thing. as i walked away i heard him say damn like he wanted to but he didn't. i went upstairs and i put on my favorite song up to u off his F.A.M.E. album. as i was end the shower i heard him come in and turn my radio down and he started singing the song himself. he was watching me and when i went to the door to get out he gave me my towel and he kept on singing to me. when the song went off he said my music really does calm u down. i said yes it does. i asked him what kind of jersey was he going to wear. he showed me this lakers jersey. he asked me why and i forgot to show him my jersey collection i had. he came in my closet and said i love u so much. i said u love me or u love these jerseys. he both and asked me when did i start collecting. i said when i started collecting everything hear. i found my outfit i was wearing and we headed over to the court to meet everybody.

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it has been a few days i have not cried. iam starting ot feel better about my life. i am geeting to go for a walk with my sister, cousin, nad a friend we grew up with. as i am walking out the door i hear my phone ring. it is my cousin Mika. she wanted to know was i up. i told her yes i heading out the door now. she said her my isiter Tamekah and our friend Shalameke were waiting outside for me. i walked out an they asked me was i doing ok. i said yes but they don't know what really been going on in my life. i just left it at that. Shalameke asked me where i was going. i told her i was going for a walk and probably to the store to pick up a few things. they said they would walk with me. as we were walking in to best buyi was watching where i was going and i bumped right this guy that was standing in front of me. he turned around and i drop my phone and purse and i was sorry. as i went to pick up my things i look and realize that the person i had bumped was the person i listened to every night to help me feel calm. it was chris and i was shocked it was him. i told him i was sorry and that i did not see him standing there. he did not say anything at first. he just stared and saide thats ok. he gave me my things back and we walk in the store together. my sister and them pass us and they spoke to chris. i asked them ya'll know each other already. they said yes and said they had been hangin out for a while now. i did not know becuz i had been dealing with my things and had not talk to anyone for a few days. he look at me and said that u must be Tamarah. i told him yes and how did u know that. my loud mouth cousin had told him about me. i was kind of shy at first but when we got the talking as we walk around the store i felt mor comfortable. as i went to the cd section of the store, he asked me what cds was i going to buy. i said i did not know as i was looking. we were standing in the isle where his cd was. he came up behind me and said how about this cd(it was his F.A.M.E cd). i looked at laughing in my mind and said no i don't want that cd and turned around to his the reaction on his face. his reaction was kind of like no she didn't. i started to laugh he looked at me like whats so funny. i said u are so cute with that look on your face. i don't want that cd becuz i have it already along with your other three albums. we both started to laugh and we kept on looking. he ask me if i had a boyfriend i said no. i said i am not so lucky in that area. he ask me why and i said becuz most who see only see one thing and that is my weight. he looked at me and said i think that u are beautiful and i like girls your size and he came up behind me. i turned around and smiled at him and thank u. he then said no wone has ever told u that before. in my mind someone has told me that but we ended up breaking up becuz of my weight. this is another story i will get to later. he had asked us what we were doing after this and i told him i some more shopping to do but after that we are't doing anything. he said he would like to finish shopping with me. i told him ok and i went to get my fam and he called for his friends to come on too. so we left the store and went to the other stores i need to go to. after we were done we walked back to my house so we could dropped off my things. chris helped me with my bags as his friends and my fam waited outside. he came in and said nice house nad i said thank u. he look around and was amazed by it. he asked me how did i get this house. he said not to be rude or to offend u. i said none taken and i won a sweepstakes and i used the money to help me start my own clothing company. he asked for big girls i said yes but i make clothes for all sizes. i did not just want to do a big girls line but for everyone. i told him to follow me and take the bags up to my room. he stop at the door and i said put the bags right dow next to my bed. i went into my closet and he followed me in and he could not believe all the shoes i had. i had a lot of gym shoes. i turned and looked at his face. i smiled adn said u look like u just walk into a candy store. he was amazed and said i thought i had i alot of shoes. he asked me then that u don't like wearing heel. i said not really but i opened up this other door to show him my heel collection. i have them so when i need a pair for something special i know i have them. as we were leaving he asked me about the shoes. i told him i like to be comfortable when i go out. if i need to get sexy and dress up for parties them i will. other than i will wear my gym shoes when i go out. i don't like getting prettied up all the time if i am not really going any where special but i do like to look my best even if it is in some gym shoes, jeans and a shirt. he asked if i wanted to come watch them play ball at the court. i said yes i would. i went into another closet where i keep my hat collection. i said u might want to come in here and see this. he walked in and his mouth dropped and his eyes got big. he said dang u really know how to me a good time. he asked me when did i start and i about a few years ago. i love different basketball hats from the differnt teams baseball hat to. i am a huge basketball fan not so much baseball but i do luv the hats that the companies make. i picked up a chicago bulls hat that was my favorite. he looked around and seen a hat that he said he had been looking for for a while. he tried it on and i said would u like to have it. it was a lakers hat and said he could not take it. i said i have two more just like. i said it is a friendly gift from me to u. he put it on and i said it look good on u. he gave me hug and we look at each other for a second. i let go and said we probably should get going. i know they probably are wondering why we are taking so long. as we walked out the door a heard Shlameke say took ya'll long enough. i said whatever and said i was showing him my collection i have. i heard one of his friends say yeah whatever and started laughing. i said they wanna go over to basketball court and watch them play some ball. they said they wanted to go. so we headed over to the court. as we were walking Mika came up and asked me so what up with u and chris. i said nothing we just talking and geeting to know each other thats all. she said yeah and i liked him alot. i like him but we are just friends and that all. she said for now and started laughing. my sister came up to me and said u let him have that hat. i said yes why? she says u do like him. i did not say anything as we went to sit down. they kept on hounding me me until i said i do like him but i don't know if he likes me back in the same way. they started to play when chris took his shrirt off and turned his hat to the back and he walked over and asked me to hold his shirt. at first i just stared and my cousin nugged me and i said sure as he walked off smiling. thay played for about 2 hours and we all sat around talking more to get to know each other better. it was almost 4:00 and i was getting hungry. i asked everyone would they like to ome back to my house and eat. i said we could order out or i could fix up somthing to eat. chris looked and me and said u can cook. i said yes and my fam said she came really cook. chris and his friends said they wanted me to fix something. i said ok. and we headed back to my house. when we got there my sister said lets go to the game room and play while she cooks. i said u guys never help but that ok. chris looked at me and said u have a game room in here too. i said yes u can look at if u like. they headed up stairs to room while i went to the kitchen. i heard chris call me and i said i am in here in the kitchen. he came in and said u are too much. i love playing video games and when i have guy friends come over i know that is what keeps them entertained. he looked at me to see waht i was going to cook. i has some chicken, macaroni and cheese, sweet potatoes, coleslaw, and a salad and the side. he look and asked if he could help. i said u don't have to help and u could go play the game upstairs. he came around behind me and said he wanted to help me. he said besides i could learn how cook from u. i said sure i would lofe to teach u. he said how about we start know. he grab my hands nad help me cut cut the tomatoes for the salad. he aske me is this how u do. i said yes and he put his arms around my waist as i was cutting. he started kissing me on my neck an di had to stop cutting becuz it felt so good and i did not want ot cut myself. he asked how does that feel? i said it feel nice. he kept on kissing me and i said u have to stop so i can finish cooking. he said he would stop for now. he just held me as i finish cutting. i heard Shalameke calling me and she came in the kitchen to say chris your friens tyga is calling u to come play him on the X box 360. i told him he could go and play. he smacked on my butt and he would be back to finish what he started. Shalameke looked at and said i told u he like u. i said maybe he does. she said it feels good to have some one love u again. i said it does. my sister and cousin came in and asked waht had happened. Shalameke said me and chris was in here getting freaky while i was cooking. i said no we were not and they all started singing his song too freaky. i told them to shut up and we started laughing. they all said they were happy to see me happy again. i said ok enough talking i need ya'll to help me finish cooking. i need someone to fo set the table for me. Mika went to set the table while we stayed to finish cooking the food to get it ready. i told Shalameke to go get the guys and tell them to come down to eat. they came down and went to sit at the table. chris came in the kicthen to see if i need any help i told hime no. my sister came in and took the last of the food out to the table. when she left chris said could he ask me somthing. i said yes and he asked me if we could go out on a date tommorrow. i said sure we could and he came in front me and put his arms around me and said maybe when we are done we could come back here for some dessert. i smiled and said we would have to see. he lend down to kiss me. he made me feel so good. i did not want him to stop and his tongue enter my mouth. the kiss got deeper and deeper. i heard Mika come in the kitchen and say u guy come on. we then stop and i heard say i will leave u guys alone. i told her we would there in a minute. she turned around ad just nasty. we started laughing and went to the table and started eating. i had my fam help me clear the table so i could bring out the dessert. i asked chris to help me in the kitchen. then in unison my fam said don't take all day in there . we looked and started laughing an di said shut up. i asked him to get the apple pie and bring it to me. i asked him to get the ice cream and the whipped cream for me too. i started to cut te pie and put it on the plstes when i heard the spray of whipped cream on my neck. he started to lick it off my neck and started kissing me again. i said u better stop ia am trying to get this done. he said i am trying to starts something right now. i know an now is not the time. i did not want him to stop though but he did. he started to take the plates in to everyone. we sat down and started talking again. some one asked what ya'll wanted to do tommorrow. chris said he was taking me out on date tommorrow. his friend tyga asked my fam since they doin that how about we do somthing together and them be alone with a grin on his face. as everyone was getting ready to leave, chris stayed behind to help me clean up. we went into the kitchen and he asked me did i have i good time tonight. i said yes this is what i really needed becuz i have been going through so much these past couple of days. he said he knew becuz my sister had told him. he said don't be mad at her i wanted to know becuz i wanted to get to know. i had a weird look on my face and said that it wasn't a coincedent that we bumped into each other at the store today was it. he looked and said no i started smiling and said i am going to kill them. he don't do that i have been watching u for a while now. i said not stalking u but i did not no how to approach u. i really (looking surprise). he said u are so beautiful to me. we went into the living room to watch some tv. he sat down on the couch and held me. he asked me if it would be alright if he stayed here with me tonight. i hesitated and he said i just want to hold u right in my arms. i said ok and he now that i have u i don't want ever let u go i promise. i was so happy he was here with that night. we fell asleep right on the couch.

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I Cried again last night. i had so many thoughts running through my head the tears just started flowing. I just want my life to be well. the one thing that keeps me going is listening to music. I luv listen to Chris Brown. It voice takes some of the stress off me when I feel like I want to cry. I listen to him every night just to feel free and relax from the thoughts i have been having. I luv watching him perform. Hearing his voice and watching him be goofy just makes my day. That why I am so glad he back doing waht he loves to do. Listening to him makes me not Cry. I feel better after listening to him that I just have a clear mind about everthing nad that helps me get through my day.

I can relate to your story,my grandmother used 2 take care of this lady named mrs. gilbert ,and she died yesterday! she was 98 years old! i cried myself to sleep because that lady was so sweet!but i already kno that there's no reason 2 cry because i alredy kno she's in heaven

I can relate on some cryIng

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