That fateful night keeps playing in Serenity’s mind. It was the night her whole life changed for the complete worse. She never thought anything like this could ever happen to her. From the outside looking in, Serenity had the perfect life. Perfect job, perfect house, and perfect man; perfect everything. But on that cool fall night two months ago, everything became the exact opposite of perfect. Serenity looks at the empty spot next to her on the bed. She slowly turns over on her left side and gently rubs his side of the bed. Tears instantly fill her eyes when she thinks about him and she closes her eyes shut and wraps her arms around herself as she starts crying hard.
“Darius….how could you leave me like this? You promised me you would never leave me. You said we would be together forever…..and now you’re gone. You’re gone. I can’t live without you. I love you so much and I need you. Especially now….I wish you were here. I wish you would come back to me….I just….I never wanted to imagine my life without you….but….the truth is….you’re gone. And….I just can’t accept it yet,” Serenity said as tears continuously streamed down her cheeks. Serenity suddenly feels this warm presence take over her and she can’t help but smile. Whenever Serenity gets this feeling, she is almost certain that it’s Darius’ spirit. She wishes she could see him one last time, hug him, kiss him, and make love to him just once more. Serenity suddenly feels a distinct kick against the right side of stomach. She looks down at her protruding stomach and smiles. She places both of her hands on her stomach and rubs it gently.
“Do you feel daddy’s presence too DJ?,” Serenity said softly to her stomach. Serenity is seven months pregnant and her son, Darius Junior, DJ for short, is the only reason she feels she can even keep living at this point. Her son will forever be a reminder of her husband Darius, and she is so thankful that a part of Darius will live. Serenity rubs her stomach for a few minutes and then she turns her head to look at the dresser. She notices a picture of her and Darius and she just sighs and looks at the ceiling and thinks. At age 25, Serenity never thought she would be at this point in her life. She’s hurt, angry, sad and confused all at the same time. Darius was truly her only family and now that he is gone, it feels like her heart has been ripped out of her chest and she feels completely alone. How can Serenity keep everything together, when she only wants to fall apart?