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<a href="">Zaira</a> had everything going for her. She was excelling in her junior year at college at age 21, was involved in multiple extracurricular activities, and was madly in love with her boyfriend, <a href="">Travis</a>. Everything seemed to be perfect, that is, until she met <a href="">him</a> and he turned her world upside down.


YEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSSS! FINAL-f***ING-LY!!!! I finally get why Julian is trying to keep his distance. He's a good dude for trying to keep Zaira protected, I respect that. But I'm also glad how all that s*** went right out the window for a small moment in time. Great add! RUN IT!

Ugh Travis is a crazy ass jerk-off, and what gets me the most is that hes messing with that Lisa chick but still tryna get back with Zaira. Like WTF yo. I cant believe this fools done put his hands on her like damn near three times. Thank God for Cameron and Julian. But the fact that this fool, came and tried to rape her, then got abusive with her aint cool. He's seriously pyscho. Glad Julian saw what was happening and put an end to it tho.
Speaking of Julian I knew he was a drug dealer I knew it. But damn his storys so messed up he got involved thru his bro, his bro was set up and killed and then he was made to pay back the debt that his brother wasnt even responsible for technically. He cant get out the game like he wants, his lifes been threatned and now hes finding himself falling for Zaira. That so craxy, poor Julian. I know its destiny he and Zaira keep running into one another and they were able to talk and Zaira shares her story with him. It's sweet he cares. And man that kiss, finally they kissed yeah, Im so happy for it. I like where this is going. Please let these two be the rock and support each other needs to get through the tragedies of there lives. RUN IT!!!

Oh kay, i've finally caught up. Added too much for me to keep up but i'm here to comment.

I love Julian and his nieces relationship it is so darn cute. I'm glad hes looking after her especially after his brother past. He really does need to listen to his mom though about what he's doing. It would kill her to see him end up like his brother. i would hate to see little Alexis' face in tears just because her uncle wasnt thinking. Aw, and his mom knows about Zaira now. Haha, what a coincidence that she would be an employee at Barnes and Nobles. Its fate im tell you. Travis is a damn jerk face. Was he really trying to rape Zaira. Especially after knowing exactly what she had went through. You are one foul ass dude. I'm glad Cameron came in when he did, if not who knows what would have happened. Oh, so now Julian wanted to be nice and talk to Zaira. I'm glad tho, it sucks that he put his wall back up so quickly tho. Travis really never learns huh? Like do you not understand that Zaira doesnt want you anymore. Get a damn clue! He makes me want to beat his ass. So basically Julian deals drugs to pay off a debt his brother owns that he didnt even do. It sucks that his brothers life was take over someone elses selfishness. Thats so sad. I hope Julian can pay it off safely. I'm glad he scared Travis away. OH MY GOSH! YES! they finally kissed. That was getting hot quick.

Run it


It’s been about four days since I have spoken to Zaira. On Monday when we went to lunch, I just left abruptly. As much as I wanted to stay there and talk with her for hours, I just couldn’t. I really cannot get involved with her, even though a part of me wants to. I would love to have a friend to talk to when I am stressed out or need some consoling. I just don’t want to get close to someone and then have them leave. From my experience, most people male or female do not want to stick around once they find out what I consider my “job.” They judge me for that and I hate that, but I can’t really blame them. Zaira has no idea what I do and I am sure if she found out, she would want nothing to do with me. She says she wants to get to know me, but she is saying that now because she doesn’t know anything about me. I just try to put her out of my head and I put on my black jacket. It’s Friday night around 10 pm and it’s time for me to go to “work.” I put my gun on my waist, get the product that I’m selling, stuff it in my shoes, then I slip them on. I grab my keys and then I leave my apartment. I look around and I get in my car. I drive about twenty five minutes away and start my shift. I I pull up to a corner and roll down my window slowly. I look around and then I nod my head. A young man maybe about 17 years old comes up to me and sticks his hand out. I see the money and I shake his hand, exchanging his money with my small bag of product. He runs off and I shove the money in my pocket. That’s right I’m a drug dealer. I sell everything from weed, cocaine, to even prescription pills. I’m not proud of this at all. As a matter of fact I hate it. I hate being on call pretty much every night just to sell drugs. But it’s all I know. I’ve never even had a real job. This is how I make money. I don’t know any other way. I got into this business through my brother actually. He started when he was 17 and he got me started when I was 17. He was five years older than me. He was killed over this s**t and I know I should have quit the day he died, but I just couldn’t. And I can’t now. The problem is I owe my supplier close to $8,000. It’s a long story. I actually don’t owe him a dime, but my brother was set up so I owe him that money. One night, this other n***a named Mario, who use to sell with me and my brother, stole $2,000 worth of drugs from our supplier, Antonio. This n***a Antonio does not play with his s**t. Anyway, Mario stole the drugs and hid them. A few days pass, and those drugs show up in my brother’s apartment. Turns out Mario went to visit my brother Justin and stashed them while my brother wasn’t looking. Then Antonio gets word that my brother Justin had the drugs and they tore his apartment apart until they found the drugs. Antonio and his helpers took Justin to his warehouse where they beat him mercilessly and then shot him dead. Thank God Alexis was staying with my mom that night. Soon as I heard about Mario setting my brother up, I went to the warehouse as soon as I could...but I was too late. I saw my brother, my blood, lying lifelessly across the floor. I rush over to him and hold him as I cry. I couldn’t stop crying. No one else was around and I just screamed and cried. The next thing I know I feel a gun being pressed against the back of my head. I turn and see Antonio and he says he should kill me too. I told him my brother would never steal from him. I pleaded for my life, which worked since Antonio wanted his money back more than anything. I offered to work for the money because I wanted to live. That punk a** n***a Mario disappeared right after my brother was killed. I know the truth though and one day, Antonio will too. Even though Mario only stole $2,000 worth, of course Antonio insisted on adding interest, leading to a grand total of $8,000 that I have to pay back. It’s only been about eight months since my brother died, and I have given Antonio $4,000. I only have to repay $4,000 dollars, but it’s tough. It’s at least going to take me another eight months to do so. Before anything I put my family. I always make sure my family is good first, and then I give the rest of my earnings to Antonio. I have lots of money saved up, but Antonio doesn’t want that money, he only wants money that I make directly from drugs at this point in time, not past money. He literally gives me a stash, makes me sell all of it, and then I pay him. He won’t have it any other way. He wants this done the hard and long way. He said it would be too easy if I just gave him all my savings, he’s just that type of n***a. I wish I could just get a loan or ask someone for the money, but I can’t because then I would have to explain why I need the money, which I can’t do. I don’t want to get caught for this s**t. I just want to pay Antonio, so then I can quit for good. I’m sick of this life. It doesn’t help that Antonio sends a few of his helpers every now and then to scare me. I get my life threatened on a regular basis. The situation I’m in is f**ked up and I just want out. I try to make all the money I can, but some nights are slow and sometimes business just doesn’t boom like I want it to. I can’t do anything about that though, I just try and be patient. I just know that I will be the happiest person walking this earth the day I don’t owe any more money. I can’t wait to finally start living my life the way I want to live it. I pull off and look at my phone as it rings. I pick it up and head to my next stop. I drive around the city for hours. At around 2:30 am, is usually when the calls stop coming. Good because I’m exhausted. It’s so hard going to school full time and doing this s**t. It’s a miracle that I haven’t flunked out. On the contrary, I am somehow maintaining a B average, which I am incredibly thankful for. Once I am done with my last stop, I start to make the drive home. As I am driving on campus, I see numerous people walking around, either looking for parties, or leaving them. As I am driving I see this huge house party. I slowly drive past the house and as I am driving I see a male and female arguing. The male is standing against a car and the female is facing him. I see the female pointing in his face. It’s dark, but the female looks very familiar to me. The next thing I see makes my blood boil. I see the male slap the female hard across her left cheek. I pull over to the curb and get out and move closer to the couple and I stop in my tracks when I see who it is. It’s Zaira. I knew it. I knew it was her. I quickly walk over to her and the male looks at me like I’m crazy.

“Yo man you got a problem? This ain’t none of your business,” the male said evilly.

“You want me to make it my business? Huh n***a?,” I said while lifting my shirt up to reveal my 9 mm gun. He puts his hands up and looks at me scared.

“ I don’t want any trouble,” the man said terrified.

“If you don’t want any trouble with me, you better stay away from Zaira. You got that?,” I said forcefully. He just nods his head quickly and runs off. I look at Zaira and she just looks at me with tears in her eyes while holding her left cheek.

“....You need a ride home?,” I asked. She just swallows and nods her head. I’ve had it now. I have run into this girl too many times and we have helped each other too many times for us not to have crossed each other’s paths for no reason. There has to be a purpose for this. I may not know what it is, and I may be terrified to find out, but I guess I should give this a chance, whatever it is. I nod my head and take her hand and lead her to my car. I open the passenger door for her and she gets in and then I get in and drive off. She is just looking out the window crying and I glance over at her a few times.

“....You alright?,” I asked.

“....I’m ok,” she said through tears.

“That was your ex-boyfriend right?”

“Yeah that’s Travis......why are you helping me?”

“......Honestly....I don’t know....I was hoping you could tell me.” She just looks over at me and studies my face and I look at her. She takes out her phone and starts texting. I focus back on the road and when I pull up to her apartment complex, I park and she looks at me and I look at her.

“Thank you Julian....for everything. I really appreciate it,” she said softly.

“...No problem....uh...let me help you in and make sure you get settled,” I offered. Wow. I can’t believe I just said that. I guess Zaira can’t believe it either because she is staring at me in shock. A small smile forms across her face and she nods her head. We both get out of the car and I follow her up the stairs to her apartment. My eyes roam all over her backside. Damn she is so thick in all of the right places. I can’t help but notice how her four inch heels compliment her toned legs and the skin tight blue dress she is wearing compliments her curves. And her a**! Damn! It’s so perfectly round and... s**t I need to stop! This, this woman has me thinking all crazy types of thoughts. She opens her apartment door and we both walk in and I close and lock the door behind us. She takes off her heels and walks into the kitchen and I just look around. She comes back a minute later with an icepack pressed against her cheek. She sits on the couch and heavily sighs and I sit next to her.

“So.....what’s the deal with your ex? He seems to still really be into you,” I asked.

“He claims he loves me and wants me back.....but he cheated on me while we were together...he cheated on me because I wouldn’t give him any broke my heart because I loved him but....I know he didn’t love me. You don’t hurt someone that you love and you don’t say the things he has said to me......he always made me feel bad because we weren’t having sex,” she responded while looking at me.

“Oh...well...I’m sure you had good reason to not give him sex.” Damn is she a virgin or something? She is too damn fine to be a virgin. Not saying you can’t be a fine virgin, I’m just saying I’m surprised.

“Very good reason.....this may be very personal but for some reason....I feel comfortable talking to you Julian,” she said while moving closer to me.

“ can tell me about it if you want,” I said nervously.

“Well.....when I was 19 during freshman year.....I was raped at an off campus house’s not like I was a virgin before that night.... but it still was very painful for me, physically and emotionally....and I’m not quite over it yet....I told Travis that from the beginning and he said he accepted it....but over time....he just started to pressure me and make me feel bad. He told me that I dressed too sexily and he would just put me down. He was saying if you’re a 21 year old woman, why don’t you act like that....he knew just what to say to make me insecure about it all.....after we broke up he just didn’t understand why I didn’t want him back.....I don’t want to be with someone that cheats on me....but then he told me I was damaged goods and everyone knew it....he told me that no one would want someone that was raped.....tonight he just begged me to take him back...when I refused for the hundredth time he just went on this rant saying how Lisa, which is who he cheated on me with, was so good in bed. He told me how she would do anything to please him and I just tell him good that’s fine because I don’t care. I told him I was over him and I was ready to move on.....I guess that made him mad because that is when he slapped me,” Zaira said while crying at this point. Damn. I never would have guessed all of this happening to Zaira. It’s f**ked up that some b***h a** n***a raped her. That’s the foulest s**t you can do to a woman. I feel bad. She is way too beautiful to have gone through all of that s**t. And her ex Travis is b***h made for real. I should knock his a** out good one time. Ugh I hate how she has me all in my feelings right now. For some reason, I don’t care though. I look at her crying and for some reason....seeing her like that hurts me. I have no idea what kind of hold this woman has on me and I don’t care right now. I move closer to her and I just wrap my arms around her. I heard her in gasp in shock and trust me; I am in shock just as much as she is. I haven’t shown any type of affection to any other person besides my family in years. And to be honest, this feels good. It feels right in a sense. I have my arms wrapped around her slim waist and she moves her arms so they are wrapped around my neck.

“....I’m sorry you were raped Zaira. That’s awful. That’s the worst thing you could ever do to a woman ever deserves that,” I said softly.

“.....That’s so sweet. Thank you,” Zaira responded softly.

“I’m sorry about Travis too.....but it’s obvious he didn’t deserve you at all.” I feel Zaira nod her head and after a minute embrace, she pulls out of it and just stares at me. Gosh she is so stunning. I stare back at her and admire every inch of her face. Her eyes especially always catch my attention. I notice her eyes travel to my lips and my heart begins to race. I look down at her lips and admire them. They look so soft, and luscious. They look perfect. I wonder how they feel? Our faces are kind of far apart, but we both inch our faces closer. I look Zaira into her eyes and she looks into mine. She sensually bites her bottom lip and I just watch her. She is making me want to bite on her bottom lip. She unlocks her hands from around my neck and gently runs her hands down my neck and rests them on the top part of my arms. I gently run my hands up and down her waist and I notice her eyes slowly close as she turns her head to the right side. Is this really about to happen? I close my eyes too, tilt my head to the left side and pucker my lips as we move our faces closer. The next thing I know my lips are pressed gently against hers. I almost pulled away because of the electricity that shot through my body the minute our lips touched. Her lips are so damn soft and her lip gloss tastes like strawberries. I grip her waist tight and I start off with a few gentle, closed mouth kisses. Zaira moves her hands to the back of my head and caresses it gently. I move my hands from her waist to her face and I hold it with both hands gently. I slowly open my mouth and I feel her do the same. I gently graze my tongue against her bottom lip and I hear her quietly moan. I take that as an invitation. I first use the tip of my tongue to play with her tongue tip. She moans and I slide my tongue further into her mouth, exploring every crevice I can find. Zaira uses her tongue to do the same to me. Damn she can work her tongue!! The quiet, shy ones are the freakiest huh ;) We alternate between sucking on each other’s lips, to exploring each other’s mouth with our tongues to just playing with each other’s tongues. I pull her closer to me so her chest is pressed against mine. Damn I have never been turned on so fast in my life. My d**k is rock hard right now. After about a two minute full blown make out session, I suck on her bottom lip gently as I pull out of the kiss. We both open our eyes and stare at each other while we try to get our ragged breathing back to normal. I’ve never experienced any kiss like this before. I take my hands from her face and rest them on my thighs. She takes her hands from my arms and rests them on her thighs. She seems to be in a daze. Damn I hope I’m not an awful kisser, it’s been a while since I have shared a real kiss with anyone.

“ know what? It’s late....I should head home,” I said while quickly standing up.

“ Yeah....thanks for giving me a ride home and thanks for uh....making sure I was ok,” Zaira said while standing up as well.

“No problem....I’ll see you around?” Zaira smiles and nods her head and I give faint smile and I quickly leave her apartment closing the door behind me. I quickly walk to my car, and get in and rest my hands on the steering wheel. What the f**k just happened?

Travis needs a swift kicking in the d*** and Julian keeps getting my hopes up only to go right back in his shell. I got lots of love for Cameron, I'm glad he was watching Zaira's back. RUN IT!

I wish it was Julian who saw Travis at the party
Homie would have died
and then him and Zaira would have got closer...

Either way, Julian baby,
u need to drop your guard for Zaira,
you both have a past
just accept that she might be the woman for you dammit

Alexis is my baby
She is awwwwww
Too adorable
Kids just speak their mind

Julian is such a sweetheart on the inside I can't believe Travis did that to zaira he deserves a ass whooping forreal ugh I wanna shoot his face off and Julian finally started being nice but then started to be mean again it's horrible like come in stop trying to fight destiny they keep seeing each other for a reason maybe it is so that she can help him get out whatever he's in he has to e willing to take a chance ugh this is so irritating

Ha ha you read my mind!!! Lol But Just when they were gettin somewhere Julian runs scared again. I hope he takes his guard down again. I think he needs someone to be there for him, no matter how hard he tries to fight it. They were having a good convo too. smh I know Zaira will get through to him.

Travis can die for all I care!!! Ughh I can't believe he would do that bulls***. smh I'm glad Cameron was there for her. I hope she gets to talk to Julian again.


It’s been two days since the party and today is Monday. Travis has been blowing up my phone with apologies and I have just been ignoring him. Anyway, it’s around 11:30 am and I am walking out of my first class of the day. As I am walking, I see Travis with Lisa on his arm. He looks at me and I look at him. I see him say something to Lisa and she looks at me while sucking her teeth. She looks me up and down and then walks away and then Travis comes towards me. I continue walking in an effort to avoid Travis, but Travis walks right in front of me. I sigh heavily and look up at him.

“Travis, get out of my way,” I said.

“No...not until I apologize for what I did Saturday night....I was kind of drunk and I didn’t really know what I was doing....I’m sorry,” Travis said sympathetically.

“Ok.....are you done?”

“That’s all you have to say?”

“What else do you want me to say?”

“...I don’t know....Zaira I miss so much...I think about you all the time.”

“Travis stop. Please just stop. We both need to move on ok?”

“What if I don’t want to move on?”

“You don’t have a choice.” I try to walk past him, but he grabs my arm forcefully to stop me.

“Travis stop! You are hurting me!,” I said angrily. I try to get out of his grip and he looks down at me with anger in his eyes.

“I don’t know why you are acting like make it seem like you are fine without think anyone else would want your a** huh? Everyone on this campus knows you are damaged goods Zaira. Who would want a b***h that was raped huh?,” Travis said evilly. I just look at him as tears fill my eyes; that was a low blow. I can’t believe he said that to me. He glares at me before he lets go of my arm and pushes me away, causing me to fall to the ground, along with my books. He quickly walks away and I just look down. Tears roll down my cheeks as I heavily sigh. I start to pick up my books, until I notice someone kneel in front of me. I look up and see Julian. He just stares at me and then he looks down and picks up my books. He tucks them under his arm and then holds out his hand. I just look at him and then grab his hand and the minute our hands touched we both just stared at each other. It’s like electricity shot through my entire body and I am guessing something similar happened to him. He stands up while helping me stand up. We face each other and just stare at each other. He takes my books from under his arm and then he holds them out to me. I take them from him and just look at him.

“.....Thank you,” I said softly.

“You’re welcome,” Julian responded softly. I look down and wipe my tears and I can feel Julian’s eyes on me. I look up at him and I see him studying my face.

“ you alright?,” Julian asked hesitantly.

“Yeah....I’m ok,” I said.

“Ok.....well...I’ll see you around,” Julian said awkwardly. He turns to walk away, but for some reason I don’t understand I called out to him. He turns around and looks at me and I look down before moving closer to him and looking up at him.

“I was just about to go get something to eat.....would you like to come with me?,” I asked nervously.

“Uh.....I shouldn’t,” Julian responded.

“Are you sure? I we keep running into each other for no reason?” He just looks me in my eyes and I look him in his. I love the way he looks at me. I’m tripping I know and I don’t know why.

“.....I don’t know....I have been wondering the same thing,” Julian confessed. I just smile at him and he looks down and blushes a little bit. Oh my goodness he is adorable!

“What do you say? I don’t bite I promise,” I said kindly. He looks up at me and after a few seconds he slowly nods his head. I smile big at him and we start walking towards the student center.

“....Your niece Alexis is absolutely gorgeous and old is she?,” I asked trying to start a conversation.

“She’s six,” Julian responded while smiling a bit.

“You two seem very close.”

“Yeah we are.....since her dad died, we have only become closer.”

“Oh I’m sorry to hear that......was her dad related to you?”

“.....He was my brother.”

“Oh Julian....I’m really sorry to hear that.”

“Thanks.” I look up at him and I can tell I hit a nerve. I don’t want him to talk about anything he doesn’t want to talk about and this seems like a very sensitive topic. Once we get to the student center, we go into the dining area and we each get our food, pay separately and then sit down across from each other.

“So what’s your major?,” I asked after I took a bite into my sandwich.

“Computer engineering,” Julian responded.

“Wow that’s impressive...I’m a biology major.” He looks at me and smiles a bit and nods his head.

“ wasn’t sure if you wanted the clothes I borrowed back...I know you said they were for your ex, but maybe you two got back together, I wasn’t sure,” Julian said.

“No it’s fine you can keep them,” I said.

“....Was that who you were arguing with?”

“ saw the argument?”

“Yeah.....I was walking in your direction...then I saw him push you and I saw your tears....then I came to help you.”

“Oh....well he...he said some very hurtful things to me....he is an expert at making me feel guilty or bad about myself....what he said today though.....was a really low blow.”

“ you want to talk about it?” I just look up at Julian and he looks down quickly.

“I’m’s none of my business,” Julian said.

“It’s not’s told me to stay away remember?,” I said.

“S**t you’re right I did.”

“....And I told you I didn’t want to stay away.” He looks up at me and I smile at him.

“I know.....I can’t....I don’t.....I don’t know what it is about you.....but you’re.....interesting I guess,” Julian said shakily.

“I feel the same way about you too Julian.....I mean we can be friends if nothing else...right?”

“....I don’t know. I don’t have many friends.”

“.....Would you like one?” Julian just shrugs his shoulders and I sigh. He looks up at me and he starts to gathers his things.

“Wait....where are you going? You don’t have to leave,” I said.

“I have to....this was a mistake....I never should have accepted your offer to go to lunch....I....I can’t get involved with anyone right now,” Julian said.

“Not even as just a friend?”

“No. I can’t.....listen. Just forget about me. Pretend you don’t even know me if you see me,” Julian said while standing up.

“No Julian....I can’t. And I won’t,” I said boldly.

“It’s for the best Zaira. Trust me. I told you once, you don’t want to get involved with someone like me.”

“What do you mean by that?”

“I have to go.” Julian quickly walks away and I just watch him leave. I thought I was really starting to get through to him. We were having a good conversation, but he put his guard back up as quickly as he put it down. I just sigh and continue my food. He says I should forget about him, but that’s just something I can’t and won’t do.

Travis is a butthole is all imma say for I start cussing lmao I'm so mad that he would do that to her


I noticed Julian from a distance while I was eating in the food court. I couldn’t help but steal a few peaks at him. He is so handsome. I noticed him even smile while talking to his niece Alexis. His smile is breathtaking. It’s so beautiful. I would love to make him smile all the time if he let me. His niece Alexis is absolutely gorgeous and very sweet. I wonder if Julian has either a brother or sister? Either way, Julian seems to care very much for Alexis. I really like that. I like men that are good with children. I would like to have a family one day myself so I would like to have a man that I know is good with children. I don’t know why I am even thinking about Julian. He made it very clear that he wants me to stay away. I wonder what he means though? Is he into some shady things? He might be. I noticed he carries a very large amount of cash on him. It’s really none of my business though. Too bad I want it to be my business. Once I’m done eating, I go back to Barnes and Noble. I only work here two days a week. I don’t make much, but it’s enough just to give myself a little spending money. I work until closing and then I head back to my apartment near campus. I get home at around 11 pm. Angela wants me to go out tonight to a party with her and her boyfriend Cameron. Cameron is funny as hell and as southern as they come. He’s from Houston and he makes sure everyone knows that. He is real cool though and he and Angela are hilarious together. I love them both. They know I don’t usually like to go to parties, but I haven’t had fun in a while so I am going to treat myself tonight. Angela and Cameron are coming at 12 am, so I quickly shower, lotion up and get dressed in <a href="">this</a>. I do my hair and a bit of makeup and I hear a knock on my door right at twelve. I go to the door and look through the peephole and I see <a href="">Cameron</a> and Angela all over each other. I open the door and cross my arms.

“Ya’ll want to go to this party or would you rather get a room?,” I joked. Cameron and Angela laugh and then they look at me and when they see me, they gasp in shock.

“Damn!! Look at you Zaira!,” Cameron exclaimed. Cameron walks in a circle around me and looks me up and down and I just laugh and so does Angela.

“Girl you fill out that dress very nicely,” Angela admired.

“Are you sure it’s not too much?,” I asked nervously.

“Not at all you look good,” Cameron said. He stands in front of me and then hugs me and kisses my cheek. Angela then does the same.

“I just want to know who you are looking this good for.....are you hoping Julian will be there?,” Angela teased.

“No,” I said while looking down and blushing.

“You got a crush Zaira?,” Cameron asked.

“No....let’s go,” I said. Cameron and Angela hold hands and we all leave. I close and lock the door and we all get in Cameron’s car and drive to the house party about 10 minutes away. As soon as we pull up we can tell the party is already packed. We can also hear the music outside. Cameron parks and then we all get out and we all walk in. We say hi to a few people that we know and we go into the kitchen. We all get a cup of the spiked punch. I only fill my cup about 1/3 of the way full. I really do not like drinking alcohol especially after I was raped. I need to be aware of my surroundings at all times. We go out to the living room as “Birthday Song” is playing. We find a spot in the living room and start to dance. Of course Angela and Cameron are dancing, basically like they are having sex on the dance floor. I’m just dancing by myself while looking around. I guess a part of me wants to know if Julian is here. I would like to see him, maybe even dance with him. But I doubt he would want to dance with me. I need to get him out of my mind. He made it clear he really doesn’t want anything to do with me. I wish he did though. I dance with Angela and Cameron for most of the night. Some guys did ask me to dance, but I turned them down. At around 1 am, I excuse myself from Angela and Cameron to use the bathroom. I walk upstairs to the bathroom and once I get to the top of the stairs, I see Travis. When he sees me, his eyes bulge at my outfit I’m guessing and he looks me up and down.

“Damn Zaira. Baby you look amazing,” Travis said sensually.

“Travis leave me alone....I need to use the bathroom,” I said.

“Can we talk?”

“No Travis.” I try to walk towards the bathroom, but Travis grabs my arm and pushes me up against the wall. I just look at him like he is crazy.

“Travis! What are you doing? Are you crazy?,” I asked frantically. He just sighs and wraps his arms around my waist as he moves closer to me.

“Zaira....I am going crazy without you. Please give me another chance. I miss you so much,” Travis said.

“Travis...I don’t want anything to do with you. Now let go of me,” I said boldly.

“No....and you know why? You owe me something,” Travis said evilly.

“What? I don’t owe you anything.”

“I think you do.” He leans in and starts sucking on my neck and I try my best to push him away but Travis is so much stronger than me.

“Travis! Stop! Get off of me!,” I yelled. His hands roam up and down my stomach and then up and down my a**.

“Travis don’t! Stop!!,” I yelled at the top of my lungs. I keep trying to push him away, but then suddenly Cameron comes running up the stairs and pulls Travis off of me. Cameron punches Travis dead in his jaw and Travis falls to the floor and holds in jaw in pain. Cameron comes up to me and rests his hands on my shoulders.

“Are you ok Zaira? Did he hurt you at all?,” Cameron said while inspecting me.

“No....I’m ok...he just tried to....he tried to...,” I just look down before I finish my sentence.

“That son of a b***h....did he touch you at all?”

“He was feeling on he wanted know.”

“Well you’re safe now....did you get to use the bathroom?”


“Ok go ahead I’ll watch the door.” I nod my head and go into the bathroom and look in the mirror. I wipe my eyes before any tears fall and then use the bathroom. I wash my hands then open the door and see Cameron standing by the door and Travis sitting up on the floor still holding his jaw in pain. Cameron grabs my hand then looks at Travis.

“Man stay away from Zaira. If I ever catch you near her again, I’ll break your damn jaw,” Cameron said forcefully. He pulls me in front of him and we walk downstairs. We find Angela and when she sees me, she can tell something is wrong.

“Girl what happened?,” Angela asked.

“It was Travis....he....he was saying he missed me but I told him to leave me alone....I tried to walk away but he pushed me against the wall and he just started to feel on me and kiss my neck....I tried to stop him but I couldn’t....then Cameron came and saved me...Cameron thank you so much,” I said.

“It’s no problem Zaira. I couldn’t let that n***a hurt you,” Cameron said. He kisses my cheek and Angela hugs me tight.

“That son of a b***h. Where is he? I want to knock him out myself,” Angela said angrily.

“I already did babe.....knocked him one good time in his jaw....he shouldn’t be bothering Zaira anymore,” Cameron said.

“That’s my baby,” Angela said. Angela pecks Cameron’s lips a few times and then looks at me.

“Boo do you want to go home?,” Angela asked me.

“No I don’t want to ruin you and Cameron’s night,” I said.

“Zaira don’t worry about and Angela can have plenty more fun at my place anyway,” Cameron said. He winks at Angela and Angela smiles and bites her lip then sticks out her tongue. Cameron smirks and moves closer to Angela and sticks out his tongue and he uses his tongue to play with Angela’s. I just shake my head at them. They are the freakiest couple I have ever seen.

“Ok ya’ll that’s enough. Can you take me home so you two can do what you both really want to do?,” I said. They stop what they are doing and nod their head while smiling. We say bye to a few people and then get in Cameron’s car and he heads towards my apartment.

“Zaira do you want us to stay with you for a while?,” Angela offered.

“No thanks I’ll be ok....I’m sorry if I ruined your evening,” I said apologetically.

“You didn’t ruin anything Zaira. If anything, Travis ruined your night. I don’t know why he just doesn’t get the fact that you are over him,” Angela said.

“.....But I’m not over him Angela....I miss him many nights I just wish he was with me to cuddle with like he used to,” I said truthfully.

“Zaira, that n***a doesn’t deserve you,” Cameron said.

“....I know,” I said softly.

“I didn’t know you felt like that boo,” Angela said.

“I feel so stupid for missing a man like Travis...I know he didn’t appreciate me....but I loved him. I loved him so much....what he did tonight really hurt me,” I said.

“I know,” I said. Once Cameron pulls up to my place, him and Angela get out of the car and hug me tightly then kiss my cheek.

“If you need anything, call us,” Angela said.

“Thanks....and I did have fun tonight for the most part. I hope you both did too,” I said.

“I did,” Angela and Cameron said in unison. I smile and say bye to them and go into my apartment, making sure to close and lock the door securely behind me. I sigh heavily as I take off my stilettos and walk into my bedroom. I quickly undress and put on a t-shirt and a pair of sweatpants. I wash off my makeup, brush my teeth and then put my hair in a bun. I lie down in my bed and get under the covers and turn on the television. I still can’t believe what Travis did tonight. He has some nerve to say the least. He thinks I owe him something? I don’t owe him a damn thing. I know exactly what he was referring to. He thinks I owe him sex, which I don’t. Maybe if he was patient and didn’t cheat on me, we could have gotten to that point in our relationship. But Travis wasn’t patient and he cheated, so therefore I don’t owe him anything. I can’t believe he had the audacity to put his hands on me the way he did. Thank God for Cameron because if he wouldn’t have come....I don’t even know what would have happened. I just sigh heavily and look towards the ceiling. For some reason my mind travels to Julian and a smile forms across his face. I think about his beautiful smile and I can’t help but smile myself. For once he actually seemed like a person with actual feelings. I want to see more of that from him. I wish he would talk to me or let me get to know him because I can never get him out of my mind. I think about him all the time. It doesn’t help that I seem to run into him wherever I go. I just shake my head and remind myself that Julian does not want to get to know me though. I wish he did, but I can’t change his mind, no matter how bad I want to.

Oh my God Julian is so damn stubborn! Great add though. Run It!

Ok So I've missed alot. But now we meet Julian's family. I hope he gets out of his illegal dealings before he gets seriously hurt. His little niece Alexis is soo adorable. I can tell he really loves and cares for her. He should talk to Zaira. Its obvious that he likes her. Fate is bringing them together.


Once Alexis and I finished eating, I put our plates in the dishwasher and then cleaned up the kitchen for my mom. I try to help her around the house whenever I can. I try to see her and Alexis at least once a week if not more. They’re all I have. After I am done with the kitchen, I take Alexis outside. I sit on the patio while I watch Alexis play on her swing set. I can’t help but smile whenever I see this little girl; along with my mom, she’s my heart. I am starting to give my mom’s words some thought. I know how heartbroken they would be if something happened to me. I want to be around for them. I have actually been thinking for a while now to legally become the guardian for Alexis. My mom is great to her, but she is getting older and I don’t think she wants to raise another child and put them through college all over again at her age. I have talked to my mom about this, but she says she would never let Alexis live with me until I stop all the illegal s**t I am doing and have stopped for a good amount of time. She has to be sure Alexis would be safe with me and I understand that completely. I would never want to put Alexis’ life in danger I love her way too much for that. I love this little girl with all of my soul. I continue to watch her play on the swing set and admire her. She is growing up so fast. I remember the night she was born. I’ll never forget it. It was an amazing experience to witness. Alexis’ mom has never been around unfortunately. My family and I have raised Alexis from the beginning. I remember staying up late to make bottles, feed her, change her diaper, and lay with her until she fell asleep. Justin was very involved in Alexis’ life and so was I. We always made sure she had everything she could ever want and need. When my brother died, I made a promise to keep providing for Alexis. I need her to know that I will always care about her, no matter what. Even though I’m away at school, I will always do my best to care for her.

“Uncle Julian! Come push me on the swing please!,” Alexis called out. I smile and stand up from my chair and walk over to her and pick her up and kiss her cheek and she kisses mine. I set her on the swing and get behind her and I start to push her while she giggles. She is so beautiful to me. D**n I love her so much. I push her for about fifteen minutes and then I sit on the swing next to her. We talk for a bit as she holds my hand as we swing back and forth. At around 2 pm, I notice she gets tired. I pick her up from the swing and hold her in my arms as I walk into the house. I take her upstairs to her bedroom and lie her down in her bed. I lie next to her and gently rub her cheek as she quickly drifts off to sleep. I lean in and kiss her forehead a few times and watch her sleep for a few minutes. I then go downstairs to the living room and I get a bit of school work done. At around 3:30 pm, Alexis comes downstairs gently rubbing her eyes. When she sees me she smiles and I smile back. She walks over to me and climbs into my lap and I kiss her cheek.

“How was your nap gorgeous?,” I asked.

“It was good,” Alexis responded while yawning a bit.

“You want to go to the mall with me baby girl? I think I owe you a few new outfits and some books. We can get something to eat there too.”

“Really Uncle Julian?!”

“Of course....go get ready. I will go ask grandma if it’s ok.” Alexis smiles big and nods her head and gets down from my lap and runs upstairs. I walk upstairs to my mom’s room and I knock on the door. She says “come in” and I walk in and see her lying across her bed, watching tv.

“Hey baby,” she said.

“Hey ma....I’m going to take Alexis to the mall to go shopping and to get something to eat. You want to come?,” I said.

“No baby you and Alexis go she will like that. I just want to rest for a bit.”

“Ok. Want me to pick you up any food while I’m out?”

“No thanks baby I have leftovers.”

“Ok we’ll be back soon.”

“Ok have fun.....and be careful.”

“I will ma. I love you.”

“I love you too Julian.” I walk over to my mom and kiss her cheek and then I leave her room and walk downstairs. I put on my shoes and jacket and get my wallet and then a few minutes later, Alexis comes down the stairs all dressed and ready to go.

“You all ready to go?,” I asked.

“Yes all ready!,” Alexis responded happily. She holds out her hand while smiling at me and I smile and grab her hand and we leave and head to the mall. It’s pretty crowded so I make sure to keep Alexis close to me at all times. We go to Justice, Children’s Place and Kohl’s and I let Alexis pick out anything she wants. I like to spoil her every now and then. Once we are done clothes shopping, I take her to Barnes and Noble so she can pick out a few books. She loves to read and whenever I visit, we always read a book or two before bedtime. We go straight to the children’s section and she looks around. She picks up a few books and reads the back for the description or the first few pages to see if she is interested in them. After about 20 minutes, she picks out the three books she wants to buy. We go to the checkout area, but no one is there. I ring the bell for service and patiently wait for an employee. I look around and my heart stops in my chest when I see who is walking quickly towards the cash register. It’s Zaira. What? Why do I see her everywhere I go now? Why does she work so far from school? Ugh! Why do I even care? When she sees me, she stops in her tracks and stares at me. A smile forms across her face as she walks to the cash register in front of me. I set the books down on the counter and she starts to ring me out.

“....Hi Julian,” she said shyly.

“Hey,” I said quickly. She gives me a faint smile, but her smile grows larger when she looks down at Alexis.

“Who is this beautiful little girl?,” she asked sweetly.

“...My niece Alexis....Alexis this is Zaira. Say hi,” I said.

“Hi Zaira,” Alexis said while smiling and waving.

“Hi sweetheart,” Zaira said while smiling warmly and waving back. Man this girl smile gives me chills and I don’t know why.

“Uncle Julian, is this who you were talking about with grandma?,” Alexis said while looking up at me. I just look at Zaira completely embarrassed and she smiles at me.

“All good things I hope,” Zaira said.

“....How much for the books?,” I asked changing the subject.

“Your total is $23.87,” Zaira responded. I go in to my pocket and pull out my stack of money. I notice Zaira’s eyes get big at the amount of money I carry around daily. I give her $25 and then shove the rest of my stack back in my pocket. She gives me the change, and the bag with the receipt inside.

“Have a nice day was nice seeing you again....and it was nice meeting you Alexis,” Zaira said kindly while smiling.

“Thanks,” I said quickly.

“Bye Zaira,” Alexis said while smiling. Zaira waves and I take Alexis’ hand and we start to leave. I overhear Zaira’s boss telling her to take her thirty minute break. Should I talk to her? Naw I can’t. I can’t get involved with her. Alexis and I leave the store and we walk to the food court. I get Alexis a slice of cheese pizza and a small drink while I get a meal from Arby’s. We find a table in the crowded food court and sit down and start to eat.

“Uncle Julian, Zaira is very nice and very pretty. Do you like her?,” Alexis asked bluntly.

“....I don’t know her Alexis,” I responded.

“Well you can get to know something wrong with her?”

“It’s not’s complicated.”

“Don’t you want a girlfriend? Aren’t you lonely?” I would be lying to myself and Alexis if I answered no to both questions. I would love to have a girlfriend and of course I am lonely. It would be so nice to have someone care about me and I would love to care about someone. I can’t remember the last time I had a serious relationship I think it was before college; maybe I was 17 or 18 years old. Ever since I have been into my illegal dealings, I haven’t allowed myself to get close to anyone, especially a female. Do I miss that? Do I miss being able to just genuinely care about someone and have someone care about me? Of course, but I chose the life I live and I just couldn’t bring another person into my life at this point.

“’s complicated ok? It really is,” I said softly.

“Don’t you want to be happy Uncle Julian?,” Alexis responded. I just look at her and ponder her question. She sure is smart for a six year old.

“...Finish your pizza before it gets too cold,” I said. She sighs a bit and nods her head and continues eating her pizza. I continue eating and I look around the food court and I see her. I see Zaira sitting at a table eating alone while reading what appears to be a school book. I don’t know what it is about her, but I just can never stop staring at her. S**t maybe it’s because the girl is absolutely beautiful. I hate that she makes me feel the way I do. I try so hard to not catch feelings for anyone, but here she comes into my life for some reason. Why? I just want to know why all of a sudden I have been seeing her around and why she is everywhere that I am. Is this a sign or something? Should I talk to her and get to know her and let her get to know me? No. I can’t do that. I quickly look away from Zaira and focus on my food. I need to get all these feelings and thoughts of Zaira out of me. I can’t let them stay because if they do....I know they will only get stronger. That is not an option.

Great add. Run it.

I'm growing to like Julian now
he just another dude with problems
But slowly opening up
he finally allowed Zaira to help him!
run it

I'm loving this so far! Julian can't be a thug he's too warm and fuzzy for that and Travis can kick the curb with that. I hope you update Catch Me as well!

Run iT! <3

The story is intense! Run It!

I knew it, Julians a "thug". Dammit why why why. He's too smart for that if he's smart enough to be in school hes smart enough to leave that thug life alone.
It's hurting his mom and niece. She lost one child already and that little girl lost her dad, and they'd be distrought if they lost him too. So Julians ass better shape up and leave them streets alone. Aww his mom asked him about a girl and he thought of Zaira ohhhh, she's on his mind. Yeah. I want them together and I want him on the right path. Dont wanna see him end up like Justin. Ugh. RUN IT!!!

Omg run it Alexis is such a sweetheart and Julian is breaking his mom heart he needs to get out of whatever he is in pay the debts and move on forreal it's not worth his life and that's sad his brother died and his mom is being so honest wih him I can tell they have a good relationship and yea I hope Julian settles down with zaira


Soon as I leave Zaira’s, I head back to my apartment. I quickly get dressed and gather a bag to last me a few days, just in case. I think I need to stay low for a little while. I gather my laptop, school books, and gun and then I leave my apartment with all of my bags and get in my car. I look at the clock and sees it’s now 10:18 am. I pull out my phone and quickly dial a number and I hear her voice answer on the second ring.

“Hey baby,” she said warmly.

“Hey ma,” I said while smiling a bit.

“How are you doing? Are you still coming over today? Alexis has been asking about you all morning.”

“Yes I am on my way now.....tell my baby girl I will be there in forty five minutes. Give her a kiss for me.”

“I will baby. I’ll see you soon.”

“Ok ma. Love you.”

“Love you too Julian.” I end the call and then start up my car and drive the familiar forty five minutes to my mom’s house. As soon as I pull up to <a href="">the house</a> I park the car, turn it off and get out closing and locking the door behind me. I then get out my bags and walk up to the door. I take out my key, unlock the door and walk in. I close and lock the door behind me and set down my bags, then take off my shoes and jacket.

“Ma! Alexis!,” I called out.

“Uncle Julian’s here!,” Alexis called out. I smile as I see <a href="">her</a> run towards me, with <a href="">my mom</a> following close behind her. I kneel down and Alexis runs into my arms and I hug her tight and she hugs me back tight. I stand up with her in my arms and kiss her cheek multiple times.

“Hi pretty girl, how are you doing?,” I asked my six year old niece.

“I’m good! I miss you,” she said. She kisses my left cheek multiple times and then looks at me and smiles. She gently moves her arms up and down on the top of my arms and I guess she felt the bandage on my right arm because she gave me a strange look.

“Uncle Julian? What’s on your right arm?,” she asked. I just look at her and then I look at my mom and she narrows her eyes at me.

“Alexis, baby go finish your lunch. Me and Julian will be there in a minute,” my mom said. Alexis nods her head obediently and then looks at me and kisses my cheek. I set her down and she runs into the kitchen. My mom moves closer to me and she lifts up my sleeve over my right arm and sees the bandage. I sigh as she looks at me with worried eyes.

“Ma don’t worry about it I’m fine,” I said.

“Julian....I am sick of this. I have been telling you for years to stop this foolishness. When are you going to grow up and do what’s right huh?,” she said.

“’s not that easy.”

“Listen to me.....I have already had to bury one of my sons.....I refuse to do the same with you....I would die of a broken heart if I had to bury you too and that beautiful little girl in there would be left with no that what you want? Huh?” I just stare at my mom; that really hit me hard.

“No ma that’s not what I want. I don’t want that at all.....I am going to quit I promise.....but right now is not the time.”

“When will be the time? When you get killed like your brother Justin? Huh?,” she said angrily.

“....I don’t know when the time will be, but I do want to quit I really do....I don’t want you upset over this though.” My mom just looks down and I notice tears in her eyes. I try to move closer to her to wipe her tears but she puts her hands up to stop me.

“....Go fix yourself some lunch baby,” she said softly. I sigh heavily and nod my head. I walk into the kitchen and fix a plate. I sit next to Alexis and she instantly slides her plate closer to mine and she climbs into my lap. I smile and kiss her cheek and we start eating. My mom walks into the kitchen and sits down across from us.

“How is school going Julian?,” my mom asked.

“It’s going great mom. My grades should be really good this semester,” I answered.

“That’s great baby I am so happy to hear that.....made any new friends?”

“Naw not really.”

“Met any girls?”


“You hesitated.....what’s her name?” My mom knows me very well. She always has a way of knowing when things are going on with me.

“....She’s nobody...she just helped me out last night and....I’ve seen her around campus a few times,” I said nonchalantly.

“What’s her name?,” my mom asked again.


“That’s a beautiful name...I bet she is did she help you out last night?”

“Well....I was walking with my cut arm....and she saw me in her car.....she took me to her apartment and cleaned me up, even fed me. I slept in her apartment last night since I couldn’t stay at mine.....she took the couch while I slept in her bed.”

“Oh wow she sounds like a sweetheart. She must have a very good heart.”

“I guess....she has helped me a few times. I dropped my id card and she returned it, and when I spilled my drink in the dining hall, she helped me clean it up.....but I have been a complete jerk to her. Nothing but rude.”

“And why is that? I know I didn’t raise you that way.”

“Ma I don’t have time.....for feelings....I can’t get close to anyone.”

“You can’t get close to anyone because of all the illegal things you are don’t even know if you will live to see the next day.”

“.....You’re right,” I said shamefully.

“Now Julian I love you, you know I do. Anything I say is for your own need to quit. You need to get out of this life....I don’t want this for you and I am sure you don’t want it for yourself....I want you to settle down one day and have your own family....I want you to live longer than your brother did.”

“Ma I know ok? I get’s just....hard to get out.”

“Well you find a way out. Do you hear me? And soon. I’m sick of going to sleep every night worried about your safety. I’m sick of flinching every time I hear the phone ring because I am scared I am going to get the call saying you are dead.....I’m scared every day.”

“....I’m sorry ma.” She just looks down trying to hold back tears and I can’t help but feel bad. I hate seeing her like this. I know she worries me about every day and I don’t want that for her. But I chose the life I am living, and I have to deal with the consequences. I can’t stop. At least not yet. Not until I clear my name and my debts.

“....I’m real tired I’m going to take a nap....will you be ok watching Alexis for a little bit?,” my mom asked wearily.

“Of course ma.....I’m going to spend the day with you both,” I said. She smiles a bit and stands up from her chair and kisses my cheek, then Alexis’, then heads upstairs. I sigh and continue to eat my food and I can feel Alexis’ eyes on me. I look down at my niece and she is just staring at me, like she is studying me.

“Little girl why are you staring at me?,” I said in a jokingly tone.

“....You look just like daddy,” Alexis said softly. I know Alexis misses her daddy, my brother Justin, very much. I do too. We were real close growing up. I could always count on him. But now he’s gone.

“....You miss him huh?,” I asked softly.

“All the time....I think about him a lot.....I wish he was still here,” Alexis said as tears flowed down her cheeks.

“Oh Alexis don’t cry.” I wipe her tears and she rests her head against my chest and wraps her little arms around me. I wrap my arms around her and hold her tight.

“What do me and grandma always tell you? Daddy may not be here physically, but he will always and I mean always be in your heart. No one can ever take him from your heart,” I whispered in my niece’s ear.

“I know....I just....I wish I could see him or hug him,” Alexis responded softly.

“I know you do.”

“Uncle Julian?”

“Yes Alexis?”

“Are you going to leave me? Are you going to leave me like daddy did?”

“What? No Alexis. I am not going to leave you. I will never leave you.” Alexis pulls out of the embrace and looks up at me with her little brown eyes. I can’t help but to look her back in her eyes.

“Promise Julian?”

“I promise.” She smiles a bit and rests her head against my chest and I wrap my arms around her tightly. My family truly means everything to me. Everything I do is for them. But what’s the point if what I’m doing could end up taking my life? I truly have a lot to think about.

absolutely love this story all ready!!!!! :) RUN IT


Travis is an idiot, how he gone be all up on that Lida chick on campus and stuff and then still tryna get back with Zaira, that fools outta his mind, he needs not to text call or bother Zaira anymore, she cant fullfill waht he wants so why is he tryna be with her. Boy move on.
Zaira's too damn nice, she aint gave up on Julian yet, no matter how rude and mean he is to her. I bet that boy's involved in alot of crimes related activitys and that why he's in the situation he's in. But still Zaira helped him at school and when he was injured no matter how jerky he was, I would've told him to kiss my ass and pushed his semi crippled ass down.... But no Zaira she still was nice. Letting him stay at her place, feeding him. Looking after him. She's sweet.
Now I see he's slowly noticing Zaira, dont try to fight it Julian you want her, and I think she can change his life for the good. RUN IT!!!

I'm loving this story Nicole. Run it.


I woke up to the sunlight beating on my face. I scrunch up my face as I turn on my side. I look at the clock on the nightstand and it reads 9:27 am. I look around the room and it looks very unfamiliar at first, but then I remember that girl helped me. Zaira I think her name is? Yeah that’s it. I sit up in the bed and yawn as I stretch. I go into the bathroom that is connected to the bedroom and use it and then wash my hands. I notice there is actually a new toothbrush set out for me. I quickly brush my teeth and then rinse out my mouth. I check on the cut on my arm and it doesn’t look too bad. I’ve had a lot worse. I rewrap my cut and then I leave the bathroom. I walk out of the bedroom and look around. I walk towards the living room and I see Zaira sleeping peacefully on her back. Wow. She has the most beautiful face. And her body? Don’t even get me started on that. Every time I see her, I always look her up and down. Her shape is out of this world. She has a body most girls would kill for, but she doesn’t flaunt it. I like that. Whoa what? I like that? I need to chill. She is way too nice for me. I am not the n***a for her. I have been a complete a**hole to her anyway, so what would she want with me? But then again, no matter how mean I am to her, she is still always so nice to me. I wonder why? Should I give her a chance to get to know me? Naw, I don’t think so. She seems so....pure. I would ruin her if she would start f**kin’ with me. But she’s so fine though. Stop it Julian! You can’t let her get to you! She isn’t your type anyway.....way too good for you. I wouldn’t deserve her. Besides, if she finds out about half the s**t I’m into, that alone would push her away from me. It doesn’t help that right now I have n***as after me, trying to f**k my money up. I really should get out of here before I put her in danger too. I can’t have that. I really hope no one saw me with Zaira. Whoever is after me will try and hurt anyone they think I am close to. I go back into the bedroom and gather all of my things and walk back out to the living room and I see Zaira sitting up on the couch wiping her eyes. When she sees me she smiles at me. D**n her smile is beautiful. S**t I’m trippin’!!

“Hey.....are you leaving?,” Zaira said softly.

“Um....yeah,” I said.

“Do you need a ride? I can be ready in twenty minutes.”

“No I’m just going to walk.”

“Are you hungry? I can make us breakfast before you go.”

“I should go....but thanks....for everything.” I walk towards the door and put on my shoes. Zaira stands up from the couch and walks over to me.

“.....Can I see you again?,” Zaira asked. I turn to look at her and she looks up at me with those big, beautiful, brown eyes of hers. D**n I am really tripping over her. I don’t even know her and she....she makes me feel things I don’t like to feel when it comes to females.

“Uh....I don’t think that’s a good’s best if you just stay away from me,” I said honestly. She just looks at me slightly hurt. I have to be honest with her, even if it hurts.

“....I don’t want to stay away from you though,” Zaira said softly. I just stare at her and she stares back.

“It’s for your own don’t want to get involved with a n***a like me,” I said harshly. She studies my face for a minute and then looks down and nods her head.

“.....Ok.....are you sure you don’t need a ride or anything?,” she said.

“I’m sure....I have to go.” She looks up at me and smiles a bit and I turn to the door and open it quickly and leave. I hear her close and lock the door behind me as I walk down the steps. Why do I feel so bad leaving her?

That girl fool as hell because I wouldn't let nobody who's being chased stay in my crib lol
Run it!!!

Hes all paranoid pulling out a gun on her
Finally hes not being so mean

OMG I love this run it please maybe tonight if Ivan I can't believe Travis cheating ass the he got the nerve to walk around with Lisa hoe ass ugh I can't stand people that break up relationships they both need a beat down forreal and hmmm Julian is so mean sometimes for no reason like dang he could be nice sometimes but he never was but Zaira is so sweet I'm glad she is willing to help Julian that us so nice and wow I wonder who cut Julian and why the hell he pulled out a gun?? I woulda got gangsta with his ass and what does he mean no one wants him to be around dont he have friends or something dang I'm glad he stayed the night I can't wait to see what happens next