Renee just doesn't understand the pressure im under.! i love her but she just can't trust me like she use to and its all my fault. she has to realize though that im a MAN and shyt like this happens because we got fuxking haters who can't except that she's my world now. UGH.!!! what am i gonna do with her.?
Terrence is constantly down playing my feelings. he fails to grasp the fact that i am getting sick of these bytches always in our business everytime i turn around.! i love him with all my heart and soul but at the same time i want things would change. and to top it all off im nine weeks pregnant and i still haven't told him yet because of all the drama we have in our lives. i really dont want to continue on like this but if things don't change me and my baby will be out the door.
"TERRENCE ALDON NELSON CAN YOU PLEASE TELL YO LITTLE CHICKENHEADS TO STOP PLAYING ON MY PHONE.! its five in the morning for goodness sake.!" Renee yelled throwing a pillow at me causing me to wake up.
"baby nobody says chickenhead anymore," i said sitting up, "they say duck-off or mistress. come on now boo." i said chuckling and climbing back in bed.
"quit playing with me terrence im so serious.! let me catch you with one of these hoes and imma put yo d*** through yo back and make you swallow it and shyt out yo balls," she said walking to the bathrooms to get ready for work.
"baby can you come here for a minute." i yelled to her.
"what." she said walking out brushing her teeth.
"i'll wait til you get done."
"iight." ten minutes later she came out and plopped on the bed.
"baby i just want you to know i love you. these other hoez out here ain't even on yo level in my life. i flirt from time to time, i don't know why i just do. but i swear to you baby im not cheating on you."
"yea ok baby i hear you," she said and started to get up.
"baby i promise." i said pulling her back down.
"ummm hmm love you too." she said kissing my forehead.
"love you too." with that she went back in the bathroom and cut on the shower. for a second i coulda sworn i heard her coughing but it mighta been in my head so i laid back down and went to sleep.
Omg i hope he didn't hear that. i rinsed my mouth out and looked at my self in the mirror wondering why i was so scared to tell him about our baby. its not like he'll be a bad dad because i truly believe terrence would be a great father i just dont know if now is the right time for it to be happening.
after my shower i walked back to the room and sat at the edge of the bed and applied my Dark Kiss bath&body works lotion and threw on my black leggings, pink hoodie, and black and pink uggs. i looked back and saw how peaceful terrence looked sleeping and kissed him and headed out to my mom's house.
it amazes me everyday that im 17 making $20 an hour ten hours a day and six days a week. i mean all im doing is answering the phone and scheduling appointments, its a piece of cake.!
this is anotherbold story im bring back.! all the original characters are gonna still be in it.!