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Forever and Always ♥

"Mommy I'm cold," my heart Levi whined to me. It had been below 40 degrees, while we waited on the bus stop for his 'father', Jinsu. I layed his head against my chest. "I know baby, I know." Pulling out my iPhone, I called him again for the fifth time but was sent to voicemail like all the others. "Where the f*** can he be?" I mumbled holding my son closer.

Not to long after a while he decided to pull up, with the nerve to have music blasting and smoking. I opened the door with much attitude and put Levi in his car seat. "Jah, I told you about smoking that stuff around my son!" He continued to smoke his blunt as he bobbed his head to the music. Getting in the passanger side I slammed the door hard, hoping his windows broke.

"Yo, kay what the f*** is wrong with your dumb ass?! Dont be slamming my goddamn doors!" He said while pulling off. I made a face in disgust at him. "First of all, I told you to come get us at 5:03, it is now 5:34!" I yelled over the music. "I came and got you didn't I? So f*** on with all that disrespectfulness!"

"What? You left me and our SON outside in the cold! I cant even... you know what, just f*** it! f*** you! Ugh, I swear Im getting ready to leave your sorry ass.. I should've just listened to Bree." His foot stomped the brake and his hands found their way around my neck. "You threatening me now? Huh? You wanna f***ing leave? Huh? Is that what you want? then f***ing leave! Get the f*** outta my car!"

"Mommy!" I heard Levi scream and started crying. Tears fell from my eyes as horns blared from behind us. "Thats what the f*** I thought!" He said putting the car back in drive. I reached my arm in the backseat and wiped Levi's tears soothing him. "It's okay Levi, mommys fine. Im okay."

"Daddy hurt you." I cringed when he called him 'daddy'. I knew Levi wasn't his, and had been Drakes. He himself knew, but going back and fourth to both of them only caused him to be confused. I was so selfish that I hadn't even thought about his feelings. Thats my son, Im supposed to tell him the truth.

"Baby, we were just playing. See look! Mommys okay, there's no bruises." I showed him my neck, in hopes I could convence him to make ammends with him. He wiped away some of his tears as we pulled into the drive way.

As soon as we got inside, I put Levi in his pajama's and sat him in front of his TV with some juice and crackers. "Kae, stay in here and dont move unless mommy says so okay?" He nodded and looked up at the TV.
Getting up and walking to my room, I grabbed some Pajama's for myself and headed to the bathroom. "Kay let me talk to you for minute." Jinsu said following me.

I blew air from my lungs and started to strip. "I have NOTHING to say to you right now." He rolled his eyes and leaned on the sink. "Look, I didn't come in here to get the third degree. I wanted to say Im sorry for doing you like that. Especially infront of our baby boy. I just be wilding out you know? Like Im possessed by the devil or some.. Can you forgive me? Im sorry babe."

I nodded my head and proceeded to the walk in shower. Jinsu softly gripped my wrist pulling me into a bear hug. "Jah, why do you hurt me.. I didn't mean to pop off at the mouth. I should be the sorry one. But Im not perfect."
He kissed my forehead, "Me either beautiful."

He released me. "I'll be in with you in a few minutes, just let me go check the mail." I nodded without even second thinking. The warm water felt good against my bare body. A few minutes later I felt a hand yank my hair and pull me out the shower. "What the f*** is this Kay?" Jinsu shoved a paper in my face.

"Jah, what are you talking about? I don't understa—" I slipped and fell hitting my face first into the toilet and then the floor. "Jah!" I whined crawling over to the door holding my jaw.

"No! your going to explain to me why these papers say Jah-Youth 0% and Aubrey 99.99% the father of Levi!!" He yelled grabbing ahold of my hair making me look at him. "Somebody help me!" I screamed. Sending him into a rage, he started reaptedly punching me.

"You tried to play me eh? You thought I was stupid huh?" His punches become harder. "Jah, Im sorry. Please!" I yelped when he hit me in my jaw with a left sending blood flying on the floor. "Daddy no, please stop hurting mommy!" I heard Levi's voice. "Levi go to your room," I cried out. Jinsu pinned my arms to the floor. "You gonna tell on me now? You gonna go run to Bree and Dany's b**** ass? I'll tell you what go get that pussy Drake so I can beat his ass!" He said slapping me again. "DADDY STOP!" Levi ran over grabbing Jinsu only to be threw across the room.

"My baby!" I screamed crawling over to him and holding him in my arms. "You know what? f*** you! f*** all of you!!" He said leaving out the bathroom. The door slammed seconds later leaving me and Levi alone in our 2 bedroom apartment. "Mommy it hurts," he said holding his ribs.

With all the strength I had left I lifted us up and went to the bedroom. After packing us a few clothes and getting us dressed, we made our way out the apartment.

Taking two buses I finally arrived at Drake's studio. Walking down the hallway I can hear him singing. I opened the door. "Drake!" His eyes rose from his blunt he was making to me. "Kay? What happened to your face?" I shook my head. "I'll answer questions later; we have to get Levi to the hospital now!"

Drake grabbed his coat and we left to the hospital..