Same here.Chris won 5 awards at the Teen Choice Awards and usually I would have searched the channels to find the show and keep my eye on everything that was going on so I wouldn't miss him,but I have gone from checking for him to totally ignoring every program he is on.Like I don't even care anymore.I am still a fan and still love his music and him as an artist but for some reason I cannot feel the same way or that "fresh excitement" I used to feel for him years ago.I don't know what it could be.Perhaps,I am just getting older and getting to know more of who he is really has made me adjust to him...in other words I can't make a big deal out of the dude.He would have to do something out of the ordinary to really catch my attention now!

Jazzy girl don't feel bad. I feel the same way. ever since I saw the picture of them kissing at kfc, That's how I felt til this very day. I still love him, but everyday I care for him less and start taking posters of him off my wall. And like anytime I saw him on t.v. or heard him on the radio I would just scream and get excited and just kill if anybody was to turn the channel!.But now when I see him it's like "Okay? What else is on t.v.?''Lol.I know I never even met him but this is how I fell.

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No there aint nothing wrong with you at all for feeling that way.That happens to all his fans.It is a good thing that you are not too attached to him anymore cuz you don't need to be.This was just a blessing in disguise and made you realize that he isn't everything and you shouldn't stress yourself out about him because one day something like this will happen to decrease your interest in him or any guy for that matter[it is something that is suppose to happen].Obviously he is still apart of your life,I suggest you try to be happy for him no matter what instead of showing pure bitterness[it will make you feel worse not better].It wont help at all.But at least you were honest and that is good!!!Good luck to ya!

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1st Lady
Not Obama's wifey!????

I did'nt know you went threw all that. Dam.

You sound just like me.

I would listen 2 songs 2 relate 2 as well.

THANK GOD 4 ALICIA KEYS!{cuz, she helped me threw ALOT}

Esp. with her songs "super women" and "go ahead"

And above all "lesson learned".

^{that song is sooo deep and I can relate 2 it so much}

Have you listened 2 it?

If not you should............but, anyways......

Yeah, I've been going threw alot these past few weeks/months.

Even tho, I'm not a fan and are no longer in love with him.

Some things he does,still upset me.

Actually 2 tell you the truth, that today show apperence made me cry.

NO lie, it did.

Yeah, yeah, yeah, I know.....

You are probably like:

"NO, NO, NO, NOT jazzy, she could give a f%ck. How could she cry over that? She practictly hates chris, why would she cry over him?"

LMAO!

Well...2 tell you the truth, in my eyes I saw a deff. chris, not just an older chris but somone I could'nt even relate 2 anymore.

And his personality was what made me fall in love with him. PERIOD!

Over all the music and talent , his personality was the thing that really caught my eye.

So when I saw that he could of possibly never be that way again I broke down.

I did.

But usually when I'm upset, I try sooooo hard not 2 cry,

cuz, when I start crying I NEVER stop.

So usually{as you've seen b4}

I cuss him out and my sorrow turns into anger.

That's how I handle my emotions. I rather be pissed, then 2 be said.

I don't know why.

That's just how I am.

And being that he now{atleast in my and others around here eye's}

He is soooo minpulative and knows how 2 get his fans back on his side.

Just by being sweet and humble and saying

"I love my fans"

That's all he gotta do really and he will be back on top.

And that sh*t makes me sick cuz, its like, I used 2 belive he was sooo genuine~{spelling} with his fans but now I see the real deal.

And it hurts.

You, I can tell will always love him.

No matter what.

And that's all good.

But a girl like me{who has been hurt sooo many times b4, by peeps that she though cared about her}

Can't do that.

I used 2, when I was younger but now I don't take BS from NO BODY!

Let alone chris.

So me personaly I had 2 let him go.

But anyways thanks.

O and the novel was fine.lol

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I am, who I am, you can take it or you can leave it."

no you aren't wrong for feeling that way. for me...when he started dating her...wow...it was *sighs*rough for me. i was even more depressed than i was before...and it was a whole mess! But as time went by...and the word was out that they were officially dating(hence the kiss...which almost made me start to cry in science class....lol) i found me thinking to myself...i'm drifting..and the more i thought the more my heart kept yearning for him,(Just like his song, ''Heart Ain't a Brain''. )It's been A LONG ROAD...when it comes to me and him. And i don't even know him. I've gone through my friends calling me crazy, nights of no sleep just listening to music that related to how i felt, having tons of bad days...by grades dropping from A's to B's in a week(good thing that i only lasted for a week...lol)....it was and still is crazy. After 4 years and 5 going on 6 months me and ''him'' have been through a lot. and part of the reason why i was mostly depressed is because the thing that hurt me the most....and still does...is that he has no idea how much i love him. like literally he's my first love and there's always going to be a place in my heart for him. it doesn't matter to me if i don't know him physically, i feel like i do from watching all the interviews i can find...reading what he's interested in..his favorite this and that.(despite all of that i still wanna meet him..and get to know him more) it's a rough road...and i've been where you were at...there's been nights that i haven't slept, during spring break, just crying and crying and crying...non stop....just crying...because it was and still is so rough. yeah i know this all may sound crazy...but it's true. and yeah it's a days work to dodge all the comments like: get off his d***, you defended him like he's a saint, etc...do i think he's a saint? hell no...but since my love is so strong for him...it's hard not to defend..and just because everyone else calls me crazy and makes all those comments it's not going to stop me. this whole journey has allowed me to grow stronger...and i'm thankful for the journey. right now i find that we as in fans are in war with rihanna ..it's hard. because we don't get as much love from chris as we used to. and i understand why that is that's his girl....but still it's nice to get it...u know...and i for one definitely miss that. but if he's happy..honestly then all i can do is be happy for him. there's nothing more i can't do. i'm not going to go on her website and speak crap about her....or say that i'm happy for their relationshiip...when i'm not...i just can say i'm happy that he's happy...whether that includes her or not..he's happy...so i am. and on the lying thing..that didn't effect me that much...because i know why he did it...he tried to keep it under wraps...but the pap was in his ass. and i mean yeah for some it hurts to seem them together...but just because the pap. is out doesn't mean they have to stop living their life. and i don't think he's turning c**ky..or anything...i just think that he's maturing and trying to find himself. he was 16 then now he's 18...he's maturing...and with maturity comes new situations..obstacles..and new people.

i hope this was understanding...and hopefully made you understand some of the feelings that you were or possibly are feeling. i've been there. and i can guaranteed to you that no other fan has done the things that i've done....guaranteed!!!....but if you need to talk i'll try to help you the best that i can!

sorry for the novel...lol

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I LUV CHRIS BROWN FOREVER!!!!!!!!FLAWS AND ALL!!! AS YOU(CHRIS BROWN) ARE WITH ME, I AM WITH YOU!!!!