Truest fans remain confident that God will give Chris an apifamy...about the whole Grammy thing and the entire situation, characters, stories, weird and bizarre places to be photographed at kind of l,ike they love the chase of the pappa's. The mystery the bad couple thing. I get it bikers couple of the year rocking each others world, both highly successful, with sense of fashion that for the most part compliment one another. They are both beautiful yay they could make perfect exotic eyed freckled beauties...we get the picture so what you love each other what's the big deal? Hello its like people do it, relatable people look up to , the fairytale lifestyle, HELLO, is anyonw home up there. I wonder what really is going on in that fishy story but who misses the FRICKING Grammy's, that for young persons espically being black such a bad look not even enough dignity left to face the public. Its like this is what you signed up for. But you never know what happened yet still that's why you have cell phones and publicist. I just can't imagine what my be going through minds. None of my buisness just kind of like OMG...
Not a very good time to find out that my Grandma is going in to get checked for cancer so I have a mission of prayers and thankfulness to be thinking about. That's the cruch of this molded family which I think despite many family flaws we are considered apart of the lucky ones, morally speaking. The woman who work raised and supported six girls(my mom thee oldest) with one General of the family, ironically his birth name is General Duke, so I am apart of the Duke. Which by the way is a very lovely name yet as an infant it mustve been weird calling 3 month old General ...lol...goes into the forces BAM means Juanita Parker and it was a wrap the rest like a movie. My grandmother reminds me of the woman I watch in the 50's films and such . I've seen pictures of my age group pictures of her. Even to this day, the soul provider literally, soul food, loving advice, country ascent. Food making its way to the tummy delicious brings love to the taste buds. Thinking about her is making me want to, hug her...my love.
Sweet Potatoe Pie...which by the way my favorite & what I called my little guy I really like for now. I forgot to tell him about my grandmother but oh well he's so preoccupied with other things. When I was around he'd do what he had to do and be with me for the rest of his free time. Work, Child, Friends, Me, Sleep repeat. Now that I am away, the time I feel was spent together should be spent on the phone. Somehow I feel the hurting begining because I catch feelings hard and I've been falling lately. Not sure he knows or cares enough to want to take it to the next level. I want to. Although it seems lately that no one these days is considering love&marriage just the fun you have and the sex. I am ready for marriage YES at 19 years old well not now, yet if I am a successful super model at 19 I would be married by 21. If I know we're in love whats the point of waiting lets wait to have kids not wait to be wed. Duh silly lets enjoy married life without kids first. I don't have time to play games with emotions. I am too fragile to hurt someone. I am honest about my intensions and at 19 I believe certain things should continue to be memories and I move on into a mature state of being. Where I am able to conquer and destoy all competition not in a mean way but kill them with kindness. Looks come a dime a dozen people are just starting to understand its about something else. Guys don't even know how to approach you any more. When I think it may be too late in the first place that pairing. Prime example the devils work I believe. Just so good to be true, perfect right. Look again.
In the end its all a war to see who has the most souls. Lets see who shall win...hmm
Well I will be praying for my Grandmommy tonight and if I am famous at this moment I know my fans would be all praying for me and my family. God be with us.

P.S. The burning ( G.W.Bush ) Buildings
9-11(which JUST SO HAPPEN to be emergency lol) but it was his task, to test your minds and you failed, america basically failed majority, yes majority we made that clear. The reason why Fall Out Boy pushed back the album ...smh...the feeble minded blackies&shockingly whities,,,, hey I'm not rasict I'm black but hey its all about personal decision, by now we know its all about first impression appearance and drive. Not all white people are racist I've had plenty of jobs because I know how to carry myself, time and place the whole nine so "its the white man" is a lazy excuse to say I want to lay in the house all day f*** b****es with no pride, beyonce said it best "but your just a boy, you don't understand" comprehending the truth would be so far fetched I don't think they really want to know. Wouldn't know how to handle it. But yeah as I was saying every president has a task, make a plan do it, some people have ill intent, yet I souly believe that was suppose to be a wake up call. G.W.B He is a funny guy, a whole bunch of aliens visited his house in Texas one night during his presidency, he must be super cool. He was spoiled kind of like a machine in college I guess, well now we know Bush wasn't the REAL BAD guy b.c it would've been over...remember the burning bush and moses and let my people go parting the sea...hmm yeah so decoy that delivered the sign, now we shall wait and see how the events cosign with one another like how Shia LeBouf said with the "in" & "en" at the end...votes were cast. How many people still believe in the REAL miracle? B.c ballets tell me something that is scary to me. I'm 19, I know I'm not crazy all these people don't see. They don't read, OMG its been sealed times 7. Which means it was forbidden who was the prick who opened it?
We must change build personal relationships and pray every singel day for everyone we love b .c someone always has an alterior motive. We must be weary of other peoples emotions all at once. So the moral of the story is....
Everything happens for a reason...gosh I need a t.v show....lol(who knows maybe)...very long p.s. Lol but

Ciao bella