Chapter O2.

It was her past. Just like that. Carmen is now living in the suburbs of Richmond, Virginia. With her Suga Daddy, Chris.

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“Ain`t shiit a nigga can do for me,” said Carmen once. “A biitch either for that matter.”

Carmen saw herself as alone in this world. Fck it! This was her world. Everybody is on a legal agreement. Carmen was too selfish to even realize when someone is doing something nice for her. She felt like muthafckers owed her; therefore she took everything for granted, including Chris. She loved Chris and was glad that he took her in and took care of her over the past few months, but she would say “Fck you” to him faster than the speed of life if it`s comes to that point.

Never met her father was probably a good reason why she snapped at men. Shiit, say women, too. Because you can say she never met her mother, too. Lacey couldn`t take the blow to her ego – her male friend choosing her daughter over her. Her husband, the father of Carmen`s older siblings, left her for another woman. Better yet, another girl. The girl was some teenage hoe who used to live next door to them. One day, right after Carmen was born, he left the family to go to NYC with his girl. Lena wasn`t born yet. Lena`s daddy was some white man that Lacey used to cleaned his office. Lacey thought that trapping a white man with a baby will get her to higher grounds. In Lacey`s fcked-up state of mind, Lacey thought that a white man can do better than a black man, getting better jobs without people looking at his skin because his country respected his skin more. What Lacey didn`t know that the man was married with kids and when Lacey came to him with that chocolate baby, the poor man committed suicide with a gunshot to the head. With her husband leaving her for a girl who didn`t even grow all the hairs on her pusssy yet and a man that rather be dead than to be with her – Chris` choosing Carmen over her destroyed Lacey`s already damaged ego. If she wasn`t a stone drunk and that is looking for Mr. Whoever Will Have Me, she was now. The only thing that Carmen`s experience did to her was to make her mean and uncaring. But, Chris is a partial exception. Deep down inside, Carmen had love for Chris; she truly did. But, she wouldn`t give him all her love. The way she see it, Chris was only human so he could turn her back on her. It took 18 years for her mother to turn on her, but in the end, that what she did. For all that Chris done – brought her the latest fashion in urban clothing, a nice two-story house in the suburbs, even a nice Rolex™ watch – she mentally and physically prepare herself for the day he could leave her, too. In Carmen`s mind, Chris was nothing but a Suga Daddy.

Carmen haven`t been with Chris a month good before going into her personal stash – money and drugs. Chris wouldn`t bring heat into the house, but kept a little coke for recreational uses here and there. Carmen smoked a little weed, but she wasn`t into the hard drugs like Chris. She had all sorts of ways to hustle. Whenever Chris is going out of town, she would ask him for some money to go shopping. Chris would give it to her, only to buy Chris something and put the rest in her pocket. Chris would never ask her what she brought because she would already distract him with the things she brought him. If shiit didn`t motivate her in life, money did. She knew that money makes the world go around and without it, you would get dizzy while watching it. If she found a quarter lying on the ground, she would pick it up and deposit to “The Day Will Come” account. It wasn`t family or fake ass friends that kept Carmen moving through life; it was money. The last thing she desired was any type of comfort, not even from a man. There was too much dirt in the world to get caught up in some ol` emotional bullshiit. Carmen brushed her emotions under the rug like broken grass and wanted to become better friends with the streets.

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Chapter O1. – Cont.

It was five months earlier and only four months after Carmen`s birthday. Carmen, her sister and the baby was fast asleep on a Monday night when her mother and her friends made a noisy entrance into the home. Before you know it, loud music came on and the baby started to cry again. “Damn,” Lena groaned. “I just got the baby to go to sleep. All he been doing was staying up with the colic.”

“Lena, go get the baby and let him lie on your chest and see if your heartbeat will calm him down. I`ma go see what the hell is going on,” said Carmen.

Lena went for the crib while Carmen put on a robe and headed for downstairs. The radio was playing one of them songs by Beyoncé and the two other girls. Carmen`s mother was dancing with a male friend of hers. Carmen saw him before. He would always park in the parking lot, blowing his horn for her mother. This was the first time he actually came into the house. He appeared to look young, younger than her mother to be exact. Look like he`s in his mid 2O`s. But, he had a nice fresh cut, sparkling teeth – yeah, he`s was attractive to her.

“Ma,” Carmen yelled repeatedly as her mother kept dancing with the young man. Carmen walked towards the radio and turned the volume down. “Aye!,” yelled Carmen`s mother. “Turn back up the music, Carmen. That was my song.” Carmen`s mother was just singing and dancing without the music. ‘Ma, it`s 2:OOam on a Monday night. You got work tomorrow, Lena got school and I got work and school. Me and Lena be tired after all that, but we still come home to clean up the house. With the music, you woke up Brandon and Lena was trying to get him to go to sleep all night. Can we all go to sleep? At least, you owe us that,” said Carmen. The silence in the room was so quiet; you could cut it with a knife. Carmen`s mother didn`t like the fact that Carmen was tryna downplay her in front of her company, especially Chris, her newest boo like she was the child. “I don`t owe you shiit, biitch!” yelled the now angry mother. Carmen was so shocked that her mother just cussed at her, calling her the b-word. Biitch. Carmen`s mother never cussed at Carmen; always cussed at her other kids. So it hurt Carmen when she said it. “Lacey, calm down.” Said Chris, knowing how Lacey is. “The girl is tired and we should respect that. I apologize for the disturbance, ma. Come on, y`all. Let`s move the party somewhere else.”

“No, y`all don`t have to go!” yelled Lacey. “Carmen can get the fck out!” Carmen`s heart dropped when the words left her mother`s lips. “But, why do I have to go?” asked Carmen. “`Cause you wanna downplay me in front of my company. You don`t pay the bills! This is my house. MY house! You wanna get all big and bad and shiit? So, you get the fck out with the damn clothes on your back.” By now, Lena came downstairs with the baby. “Yes, I do play the bills!, yelled Carmen. “I just paid the cable bill that was $330, ma! Three hundred and thirty dollars. How you gone say that? I work just like you.”

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Lacey just slapped Carmen, and Chris is trying to hold her back. Carmen just held her face. “Ma, I don`t have nowhere to go.”, she finally said. Carmen was tryna hold back the tears of hurt. “Well, you shoulda thought about that before you step up to me,” Lacey said, with a smirk on her face. Carmen just looks at Lena with the baby. She didn`t want to leave her and Brandon, but Carmen realized she couldn`t stay in that shiithole you call a house. So, Carmen left that night. With the clothes on her back…but, not alone. Chris took her in after that night. Carmen don`t have to worry about her mother anymore; she don`t even think twice about Lena and the baby anymore. It was her past. Just like that. Carmen is now living in the suburbs of Richmond, Virginia. With her Suga Daddy, Chris.

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Chapter O1.

There`s no loving Carmen Santos. When it comes to grimy, mean-mugging muthafckers, you either hate her or hate her more. She wasn`t the type of biitch to stab you in the back; she was the one that stabs you in the heart. But, Carmen wasn`t always like that. As a kid, she was the sweetest cookie in the jar. Out of four children, she was the most obedient. While known for her grey eyes, curly sandy hair with curves of Jennifer Lopez and having the average grades, her brothers and sisters was known by the school administrators. She was always the shy one, while her siblings were loud, obnoxious and always running in the streets of Richmond. Living in a zoo-like three-bedroom apartment was hard, too. Carmen would never get any attention from her mother. Only when her mom was off of work on Sundays, calling her to get her drinks, snacks or even to turn the TV up. A couple of days after her eighteenth birthday, Carmen were talking to a school counselor about life after graduation. The school never considers her of a college because they figure she was doomed by what her siblings went through. Her older sister moved out into the society, older brother in is jail, just like his father and her younger sister just given birth to a baby boy. Since Carmen just turn eighteen, Carmen`s mother was looking for signs to kick her out. It actually happens one night. . .

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