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Dang, y'all...I was real excited about the new board and everything, but now I'm too sure if I'm still as excited. LoL. Anywho, y'all know I wasn't goin' to leave y'all hangin' like that, right!? Instead, I'm just goin' to repost everything from the beginnin'...and then add on from where I left off. For my old readers, I'll apologize now for all the long post you're goin' to have to go through in order to get to the new post! : ( Love y'all dearly....


This story aint been ran since like July but I don't care RUN IT lol

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wOw ma i memba dis from da old board i luved it i aint start readin da nu but hey what i memba is day was @ her bday
~~~**the one, the only**~~~
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Where are you Whit!?
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I can't believe i'm just now findin this repost, I honestly thought that since we got the new board that you would stop writin but i'm glad you didn't cuz I had very few favorite stories and yours was and still is one of them. Well I hope you add soon Whitney!

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woahhhhhh keep it goin... she has to talk to dereck again!! i know its gonna be hard.. but at heart he was a good person!! and he may not be the best boyfriend but she has to addmitt that he was the best friend she ever had and he is a better friend then boyfriend!!




I hope y'all likey. I'm ghost...

` Wh!T `

` Always Love Yourself...`

"Babygirl, what I did in the past was childish and stupid. I was a complete dumb ass to f*** up what we had, but now that I'm older I've put away childish things. I'm slowly maturing into a man and I want to give you all the love in the world, plus more, baby. I promise that if we get together again...I'll make you happier than Derek ever did."

Before answering, I closed my eyes and said a quick prayer. I asked God to give me a sign and let me know that this time I wouldn't be making a terrible mistake. I know 'accidents' happen for a reason, but this time I wanted the real deal. I wanted and needed a man who was going to love me unconditionally until the day I die. Soon, I opened my eyes and saw Zay staring at me lovingly. He touched my chin and I felt my heart flutter.

I took matters into my own hands and I made the first move. I gently placed my lips on his and then let him take control. He had me floating and I couldn't come down. His kiss seemed to erase all the pain I was enduring and that's when I knew that this time things were going to be good between us. Zay pulled me on top of him and I allowed my hands to roam all over his chest. Just as I was lifting up his shirt, I saw that he had a new tattoo on the right side of his chest, which read, 'Zay' in cursive letters and he grabbed my hands.

"Naw, let's wait, baby. I don't want to rush into things with you. Let's take it slow right now and then we'll see where we go from there, aight?" He retorted and gave me another quick peck.

"Aw, come on, Zay! I haven't gotten any in 4 months, man!" I whined playfully and fell on his chest.

"You'll be all right, ma." Zay laughed and smacked my butt.

"I love you."

"I love you, more." My new boyfriend told me and I grinned.

Is this really happening? Zay and I are together again and I just told him that I love him, which I truly do, but I never thought I'd see the day when we'd patch things up between us. For the remainder of the night, the two of us talked and reminisced on our old high school memories. Zay kept showering me with kisses that went all the way from my lips to my toes. I giggled loudly as he sucked on my big toe.

"Stop, you're so weird!"

"I get it from you, ma." He smirked and laid back down next to me.

"I never saw this coming."


"Us getting together again, Zay."

"I prayed that this day would come and God came through again."

` Always Love Yourself...`

Chapter One Hundred And Twenty Three: Maturing

` Jayla `

"Thanks for a great evening, Zay!" I smiled as he walked me to my front door.

"Thanks for allowing me to take you out, La. You know it's been a minute since we've chilled like this."

"I know. It's been like what...a year now?"

"Yeah, ma. Way too long."

"You know, how about we go hang out in my treehouse just for old times?" I asked him.

"I'm down for that."

I grabbed his hand and led him to my treehouse. Gosh, I can't even remember the last time I was up here. However, I do remember the last person who to ever chill with me up here; it was Derek. I sighed unknowingly and Zay stared at me. He put his arm around me and I gave him a small smile.

"I've missed you, LaLa."

"I've missed you, too, Zay. It's crazy that we ran into each other today, ya know? Especially, after all this time."

"It was fate, babygirl. I haven't stopped loving you, La." He confessed and I gazed into his eyes.

"Zay, please don't..."

"Well, what do you want me to do, La? Sit here and act like I don't still think about you night and day because that would be a lie. Even after all this time apart...I still dream about us getting back together. Without you in my life, I'm nothing. I'm nothing, La." Zay said and I looked down.

"It's been 2 years, Zay. Why can't you just move on like I did?"

"Because you mean the world to me. I can't just 'move on', Jayla! Dammit, I'm in love with you, girl. How can you not see that?" He raised his voice and I could tell I was really hurting his feelings by not returning the affection.

"Look, I think you are a wonderful guy. But I just got out of a relationship a few months ago and I'm still hurting. The one person who I truly loved cheated on me and that tore me up inside. It made me feel like I was useless and that I never meant anything to him in the first place. I feel like s***, Zay!" I cried and Zay craddled me in his arms.

"Let it out, babygirl. I'm here for you..."

I cried in his arms a little longer until I couldn't produce anymore tears. Zay never left my side and I admired him for that. Any other guy would've just left and told me I was 'too emotional', but not Zay. For once, I could honestly see that he indeed did love me. And it feel good to be loved again and I sat up and stared into his eyes once more.

"You know, when Derek and I were together...I did think about you. I thought about what would've happened between us if we hadn't ended things like we did, Zay. At the time, I didn't love you yet, but I knew my feelings would've gotten there eventually. Now look at us...we're in college and still sitting in this treehouse together." I laughed slightly.

"Some things never change, La." He said and kissed my forehead.

"I really want to kiss you right now." I blurted out.

"What's stopping you?"

"I don't want to end up making another mistake. Zay, I don't want to get hurt again; I really don't think my heart can take anymore pain."

Wow, I can't believe this. When I first came to this board everything was messed up. I mean, you couldn't read replies and truthfully I just got fed up with it that I left the board for about a month. And I had no intentions of coming back ever, but something told me to check the board out again and now I see that things have changed for the better. I can finally read the freakin' replies now! LoLz. Honestly, I wasn't going to finish this story, but I feel like I'd be letting y'all down. Some of y'all have been reading this story ever since day one and I think I owe it to y'all that I at least finish this novel. There is one person (besides myself) who already knows how this story is gonna end and if she's still reading this...please don't spoil it for the others. LoLz. Before I go to bed, I'm going to give y'all a short/brief chapter. Thanks so much for the love. ; )

` Wh!T `

` Always Love Yourself...`

OMG i was readin this on tha old board im so glad you decided to finish it,

it's been soooo long but how did kandi die again?

RUN IT RUN IT RUN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




yoo mah cousin got me readin this story and all i have to say iss WOW!! this is sooo goood!! like i be tryna reaad story but i cant... this is really goodd!! and i hope Jayla give Zay another chance cause its been like 2 years and he still tryin!! But i think if she give Zay another chance she has to do the same thing for derreck but naaaaaaaa!!!!! and Kandi i cant belive that till this day!! im upset she died!! haha and she's made up!! but keep it goin...this story is AMAZINGGGGG. lol

<3 Brittany Lynne =D

how are u able to read the stories up here *o yea im a new reader and i love ya stories on the old board but i cant fgure out how to work this

thanx gurl
i waz just lookin for da story but how do u read replies??

lol its coo with me - im jus glad ur gonna continue it! :)
~*Courtney B*~

Hope y'all like that chapter! I'm outties for tonight...peace! : )

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` Always Love Yourself...`

All four of us stood up and jumped up and down. I was so excited for Jade and LaLa couldn't stop smiling. That's when I looked down at Jade's left hand and noticed that enormous rock that Juelz had purchased for her. I can't believe I didn't see that earlier, but I guess I wasn't paying that much attention to it. We finally calmed down and finished our 'girl talk'.

"Jay, have y'all decided on a date yet?" Lei asked.

"Um, we're thinkin' about a summer weddin' in mid June of 2009."

"Oooh, that's goin' to be so nice. Did you tell mommy and daddy yet?" La quizzed.

"I'm goin' to tell them later tonight."

Jade stared down at her rock and sighed happily. Man, I never thought I'd see the day that Jade got married. I mean, I knew it was bound to happen, but it just seems like yesterday when we were all playing in her make-up and Jade would kick us out of her room. Now she's a grown woman who's about to get married next year.

"How did he propose?" Leilani wondered.

"Actually, it was an accident. He told me he was waitin' on a more appropriate occasion, but he slipped up and said it while we were ridin' back to his place once the tour ended. I couldn't believe my ears, but my heart was tellin' me to say yes. I've never loved someone as much as I love LaRon. He's my heart..."

For the remainder of the night, we all stayed up and talked about Jade' s upcoming wedding planned for next year. Eventually, we all fell asleep around 4 o'clock in the morning. Jade and Jayla ended up sleeping together in Jayla's bed. Leilani and I, got some covers and arranged them on the floor like a bed and we fell asleep down there. It was so good to catch up with my girls, but I'm really missing my baby, Brendan. I told myself I was going to call him before I went to sleep, but I got so caught up that I forgot. I made a mental note to call him as soon as I wake up in the morning.

~ Zay ~

"Come on, ma...I'm so tired!" I whined as my mother threw the covers off of me.

"Zay, I really need you to go pick up some cough medicine for your baby cousin, Adam. He's been coughin' all night..." My mother informed me as I held the pillow over my head.

"Alright, fine."

"Thank you, honey."

She kissed my cheek and left me some cash to purchase some cough medicine for baby Adam. Slowly, I dragged myself out of bed and washed up. Since I was still half asleep, I quickly put on some sweats and laced up my black and red Jordans. I yawned and stretched and then grabbed my keys. As I hopped in my car, a loud burp escaped my mouth and I rubbed my stomach. Man, I ate so much food yesterday since it was Thanksgiving. I started the engine and carefully backed out of our driveway. In order to wake myself up, I turned on Hurrican Chris' "A Bay Bay" and started rapping along to the song. Twenty minutes later, I arrived at the drugstore and searched for the cough medicine.

"Damn, it's too early to be in here searchin' for some cough medicine." I said to myself and walked toward aisle 9.

After a few minutes of diligently looking for the right cough medicine for my cousin, I saw this cute girl on the other side of the aisle. Her hair was tied in a nice bun with a few loose strands hanging past her shoulders. I could smell her perfume and it instantly made my nostrils cheer. She reminded me of someone so I lightly tapped her on the shoulder.

"Oh, my gosh. Hey, are you doin'?"

"I'm fine, Jayla. How are you?" I asked her and felt really bummy compared to La because she was dressed in a nice Apple Bottoms velour suit and her make-up was done just right.

"Uh, I'm makin' it. Things haven't really been goin' my way, but I'm takin' it day by day."

"Man, I'm sorry to hear that, La. Well, I've been doin' pretty good for the most part. Hey, how long are you in town?"

"I'm leavin' in two days."

"Me, too. Do you want to hang out later? I mean, if you and Derek don't have anything planned."

"There is no more me and Derek. We broke up a while ago.." She mentioned and I saw her eyes look toward the ground.

Great! I just brought back bad memories...I feel terrible now.

"Oh, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to..."

"No, it's okay. You didn't know, Zay. But, I'll take you up on your offer. Is 7 o'clock okay with you?"

"Yeah, I'll come pick you up at 7 then."

"Okay. See you later." She smiled and sweetly kissed my cheek before walking away.

I grabbed the cough medicine and hurried to the counter. Fortunately, I was able to see Jayla pay for what she needed, then she thanked the cashier, and exited the store. I then handed my purchase to the cashier and looked outside the window and watched her get inside of her car. She checked her mirrors and cautiously backed out of the parking space and headed back home.

"Something caught you eye?" The cashier quizzed as he rang up the cough medicine.

"Actually, yes." I admitted and reached into my wallet and pulled out some money to pay for what I needed.

"May I ask what...or who?"

"My ex-girlfriend from high school. I'm still in love with her."

"I see. Does she know that?"

"Yeah, she knows..."

I grabbed the bag and walked back outside to my car. Before starting the car, I rubbed my hands across my face and exhaled. It's been a year and Jayla has a nigga sweating her like crazy! Tonight, I've got to win her over...for good

` Always Love Yourself...`

At that moment, the rest of us saw how this situation was still tearing Jayla up on the inside. I've known Jayla for a while and I know she's a fighter, but I think her relationship with Derek has beat her toughness. It's made her so weak and she still feels trapped with all the emotions she's battling. La does her best to let things go, but this is different. This is something that's going to take time for her to heal completely and I'm doing my best to be a good friend and encourage her to move on. All three of us hugged Jayla tightly and let her sob for a few minutes. Jade was so hurt seeing her baby sister this way that eventually she began to shed tears, as well. Soon, La was able to pull herself together and she finished what she was saying from earlier.

"Sorry, y'all. I didn't mean to get so emotional. Uh, I really don't have anything great to tell you guys. School is goin' okay, I guess. I'm still livin' the single life and it sucks! But I'd rather be single than be with someone and risk gettin' hurt again." She sniffed.

"La, you've got to let Derek go. I know he hurt you so bad, but you've got to realize that there's someone even better out there waitin' for you. And when you find him, he's goin' to idolize and worship the ground you walk on. Trust me, sweetie." I reassured my best friend.

"I hope so."

"He's out there. I promise."

She nodded and wiped her nose with the tissue that Leilani gave her earlier. We made sure Jayla was okay and then we all focused our attention on Jade. She was the last to speak and I was anxious to hear about her and Juelz's relationship.

"Let me say that travelin' on the road sucks ass!" Jade laughed and we joined her.

"Oh, come on. It couldn't have been that bad, Jay." Leilani responded.

"Girl, please! It was absolutely terrible! Livin' out of a suitcase for about a month and a half was the most dreadful thing I've ever experienced. We were on this tight schedule every night and dealin' with all of LaRon's damn groupies annoyed me so much! Ugh, it was rough, but I made it."

"That's good. Man, I wish I could've come with you, sis."

"Naw, after the first show, you'd get tired of it, La." Jade told her younger sibling.

"I doubt it." La said.

"Anyway, things got a little rocky while on tour. LaRon loves to smoke and I couldn't stand seein' him light a blunt after every show. It just irritated me, but I never told him to stop. However, one night we had this huge fight and the next day I finally told him what was on my mind. Now everything's all good and we're gettin' married!"

"You're gettin' married!?" Jayla, Leilani, and I shouted in unison.

"Yup!" Jade smiled and nodded proudly.


` Always Love Yourself...`

Chapter One Hundred And Twenty Two: 'Girl Talk'

~ Joi ~

The cool November breeze sent chills up my spine. I stood on Jayla' s front porch and rang the doorbell impatiently waiting on her to open up the door for me. We were all home from college and celebrating Thanksgiving with our families. It was La's idea to invite the girls over to her house for a sleepover to catch up on things and spend time with one another. I was so anxious because I had so many things to tell my best friend face to face. The wind began to pick up even more and I pulled tighter on my tan peacoat. Finally, my best friend unlocked her front door and allowed me to enter her toasty home.

"It's about time, trick! I was freezin' my butt off on your front porch." I spat at my friend and she helped me take off my jacket.

"Oh, my bad, Joi."

"Mmm hmm." I rolled my eyes at her and she dragged me upstairs to her room.

When I entered her room, I saw her older sister, Jade, and Q's current girlfriend, Leilani. The two of them were sitting on La's light pink rug Indian-style and were munching on some Skittles. Jade saw me walk into the room and she jumped up to hug me tight.

"Dang, I've missed you girl. Wow, look at look great!" Jade complimented me.

"Thanks, girl. You look amazin' too...but you always do." I said back to her and was genuwine in what I told her.

Ever since I could remember, Jade always looked like a model 24/7. Even when she was sick at home, she'd always be decked out in some nice designer jeans with an even more expensive top on and her hair would still be flawless. I used to think that LaLa envied her at times because of her beauty, but in my eyes, Jayla is just as beautiful as her older sister. No wonder they have guys all over them all the time. I smiled as I sat down on the rug next to Jayla. Leilani said spoke to me and we all decided to let her talk first and fill us in on how she and Quinten were doing.

"I really think he's the one, you guys." Leilani grinned.

"Aw, that's so cute. I'm really happy for y'all." La stated and gave Lei and side hug.

"I mean, things couldn't get any better. He's absolutely perfect! We hardly ever fight and he's always doin' something special to show he cares. Everytime I see him, I can't keep my heart from racin'. I love him so much." She continued to spill her feelings.

"That's so beautiful. Honestly, I was really concerned about Quinten once Kandi died last year, but now that you've come into his life, you've done nothin' but bring him happiness, Leilani. I thank God for you and I know Q is grateful to have you in his life, too. Y'all are so damn cute together!" Jade replied and we all shared a quick, 'Awww' moment.

"Oh, yeah, I forgot to add...the sex is great, too!" Leilani giggled.

"Gross! I did not just hear you say that, girl!" I scrunched up my face and covered my ears.

"I don't want to know about Q puttin' it on you, girl. Keep that mess to yourself." My best friend agreed with me.

Next, it was my turn to fill everyone in on my life. I crossed my hands in my lap and stared at everyone.

"Well, you guys already know about me meetin' this guy named Brendan. Um, he's so sweet and our relationship is really gettin' serious right now. Unlike Q & Lei, we haven't gone all the way yet, but I can tell our time is comin' up real soon." I cheesed and LaLa nudged me.

"You lil' nasty!" She teased me and I continued.

"Every chance I get, I spend all my time with him. He actually listens to me and loves when I call him any time during the night just to talk about nothing. With him, I just feel such a strong connection and he makes me feel like I'm his one and only priority in life. I love it! Gosh, he spoils me so much, too. Y'all, I think I'm fallin' in love with him and we've only be together for like 2 months now."

"If you ask me, it already sounds like you've fallen hard for ol' boy, Joi. I know it's only been 2 months, but your heart never lies. He's obviously makin' you feels things that Nick never made you feel and this time it's real and has the potential to last forever, girl. Don't let this one get away." Jade told me and popped another Skittle in her mouth.

"I'm so happy you found love again, Joi. After you and Nick broke up, you seemed so down and in the dumps. It was truly scarin' me, but I see you're all good now! Mr. Brendan's got you hooked!" La grinned and pinched my cheeks.

"Yeah, yeah." I stuck out my tongue at everyone.

"Okay,'s your turn." Q's girlfriend said.

"Alright. Um, you guys already know about me and Derek breakin' up..."

"I still can't believe that. Y'all were the perfect couple! He's such an a**hole for what he did to you." I answered and shook my head furiously at Derek's stupid actions and decisions.

"It's been 4 months since we called it quits, too. Y'all, I'm really tryin' to be strong,'s hard. I mean, when you've given someone so much of you and they just throw everything away, it's so hard to just bounce back and act like everything's okay, you know? I still find myself thinkin' about him a lot lately and I can't help, but cry..."

` Always Love Yourself...

Ive never posted anything about ya story but i was reading it from the beginning and i missed so much. IM glad ur reposting it lol.

Live your life with no REGRETS because at one point everything you did was E X A C T L Y what you wanted.

What's up girlies!? Well, I know the board is actin' hella retarded right now and we can't see each other's replies, but when we FINALLY do get the board to act right, then y'all will be able to read this post. LmaO. Anywho...I'm gonna get started on a fresh & new chapter for y'all. :)

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` Always Love Yourself...`

RUN IT, I was reading your story on the old board, I love it

RUN IT, I was reading your story on the old board, I love it

"Jade, will you please sit by me?"

"No." She gave me so much attitude and folded her arms across her chest.

"Baby, please. You're killin' me right now."

"Well, get over it, Juelz Santana!"

"Come on, quit callin' me by my stage name. You know me better than anyone know I'm 'LaRon James' and not 'Juelz Santana' when it's just me and you."

She just stared at me and focused her attention on the loud and busy New York traffic. I sighed once more, but decided to go sit by her if she wasn't going to go sit beside me. As I got closer to her, she tried to scoot away, but I grabbed her waist. I scooped her up in my arms and kissed her lips. I was so happy that she actually kissed me back and I knew that I had won.

"No fair!" She pouted and wiped her lips.

"I knew that would work. You can't resist these sexy lips, ma." I laughed and kissed her again.

"I'm still not talkin' to you, though."

"Jade, I said I was sorry. I don't know what else to do. If I could take it all back, I would do it without a doubt, babe!"

Jade looked into my eyes and I knew she could see how badly this whole argument was tearing me up inside. She unfolded her arms and lightly touched the side of my face. I kissed her hand softly and she sat up and faced my while still sitting on my lap.

"Baby, I'm goin' to be honest with you right now. I really hate it when you smoke. It's like you become a totally different're not the same guy I fell in love with several months ago. In fact, I don't know who you are when you smoke; you're a stranger to me. And last night just proves how crazy and oblivious you can get when you're under the influence. The way your temper exploded really scared me and I was so hurt that you called me out of my name." She told me for the first time.

"Damn, why didn't you tell me this from the start, Jay?"

"I didn't want to seem like this controllin' female, you know?"

"I understand, but at the same time I don't want to do anything that's goin' to make you uncomfortable, babygirl." I spoke and cupped her face with my hands.

She nodded and I softly kissed her forehead.

"From now on, I'm goin' to stop smokin'. I see how much it hurts you and it really doesn't do anything to benefit me, so I'm quittin' as of today." I admitted.

"Really? I mean, you'd do that for me?"

"Of course, Jade. I love you, girl. I want you to be my wife." I slipped up and said aloud.

"What?" She asked shocked and amazed and her eyes got big.


Man, I've been caught. These past several months have been the best moments of my life. I never thought I'd find a girl who loves me as much as Jade, but somehow I got lucky. Now that I have her, I never want to lose her. I want Jade to spend the rest of her life with me...

` Always Love Yourself...`