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"I Cry" (Please read to let me know if u like what i have so far)

I Cry to hide the pain that i feel. no one knows that i cry myself to sleep some nights. i wonder where my life is heading. i feel sometimes i should not be here and should be in another place. i feel like my life is not where it should be so I Cry. my life has been hard growing up. i have always been a big girl so I Cry. i try not to think about what people say about me but I Cry still cry becuz it hurts. people see me happy and always smiling not knowing i cry to hide the pain. I Cry wondering if i will ever find that special someone to luv me for me I Cry sometimes to relieve pressure off me. I Cry becuz i don't like to talk about it so i like to write instead. even though I Cry i still find a way to keep going each day. i know i have people who luv me and want to help but I Cry. maybe one day will have the strength to talk to someone and realize that i do belong here and i will find love. right now i sit here and still cry. may be i will find that special someone and my life will feel complete. i am going to keep my head up and continue to do what i have been doing with my life. one day i will feel lucky and everything will be fine so i won't have to cry anymore.

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TAMARAH LET HER GO AS CHRIS IS TRYING TO PULL ME OFF OF HER. I AM PULLING HER BY HER HAIR AND CHRIS IS TRYING HIS HARDEST TO GET ME OFF OF HER. I FINALLY LET HER HAIR GO AND CHRIS IS HOLDING ME BACK. I SEE USHER COME IN AND GRABS KIM TELLING HER TO CALM DOWN. USHER YA'LL BETTER LEAVE RIGHT NOW I TELL THEM. I SEE SHE TOLD U EVERYTHING USHER SAYS. I ALSO SEE U AND CHRIS R BACK TOGETHER AND THAT IS JUST NOT GONNA WORK FOR ME USHER SAYS. I SEE A AM GONNA HAVE TO PUT OUT THIS LITTLE TAPE THEN. U KNOW WHAT USHER GO RIGHT AHEAD AND PUT IT OUT BECAUSE RIGHT I DON'T CARE ANYMORE. U R NOT GONNA RUIN MY LIFE BECAUSE U COULD NOT HANDLE THE FACT I TOLD THE TRUTH ABOUT OUR RELATIONSHIP. IF U FEEL LIKE THAT WILL MAKE U HAPPY RUIN MY LIFE, THEN FINE GO RIGHT AHEAD. I AM GONNA CONTINUE LIVING MY LIFE AS I HAVE BEEN DOING AND THAT IS WITH CHRIS. IF PEOPLE START TO LOOK AT ME DIFFERENTLY AND TALK BAD ABOUT ME THEN FINE. I STILL KNOW I HAVE EVERYONE HERE THAT WILL BE HERE TO HELP ME AND SUPPORT ME. TAMARAH I... NO USHER I AM DONE WITH THIS WHOLE SITUATION. U FEEL LIKE U NEED TO HURT ME THEN GO RIGHT AHEAD AND I AM DONE TALKING AND U GUYS CAN LEAVE AS I WALK BACK TO MY OFFICE. COME ON USHER LET GO RIGHT NOW KIM SAYS. R U OK CHRIS ASKED ME. I AM FINE I JUST FEEL BETTER SAYING WHAT I NEEDED TO SAY TO HIM. U KNOW IF THAT GETS OUT U... CHRIS I KNOW AND IF IT DOES I WILL DEAL WITH IT. I AM TIRED OF LIVING MY LIFE BY THIS GAME HE IS PLAYING BECAUSE HE FEEL THE WAY HE DOES. U JUST CONTINUE TO AMAZE ME CHRIS SAYS AND THAT IS WHY I LOVE U AND THE FACT THAT U CAN HOLD YOUR OWN IN A FIGHT. U BEAT HER ASS AS WE BOTH STARTED LAUGHING. YEAH WELL THAT WHAT I DO I TELL HIM. CAN WE COME IN MIKA SAYS. COME ON IN GUYS. HOW R U DOING NICKI SAYS. I FEEL SO MUCH BETTER TO HAVE TOLD HIM THAT. LIKE I TOLD CHRIS, IF IT DOES GET OUT THEN I WILL DEAL WITH IT. RIGHT NOW THAT WHOLE THING IS DONE AND I AM READY TO MOVE FORWARD WITH MY LIFE. SO LET GO BECAUSE I HAVE A STORE TO FIX UP AND PREPARE TO OPEN IT UP.

TAMARAH LET HER GO AS CHRIS IS TRYING TO PULL ME OFF OF HER. I AM PULLING HER BY HER HAIR AND CHRIS IS TRYING HIS HARDEST TO GET ME OFF OF HER. I FINALLY LET HER HAIR GO AND CHRIS IS HOLDING ME BACK. I SEE USHER COME IN AND GRABS KIM TELLING HER TO CALM DOWN. USHER YA'LL BETTER LEAVE RIGHT NOW I TELL THEM. I SEE SHE TOLD U EVERYTHING USHER SAYS. I ALSO SEE U AND CHRIS R BACK TOGETHER AND THAT IS JUST NOT GONNA WORK FOR ME USHER SAYS. I SEE A AM GONNA HAVE TO PUT OUT THIS LITTLE TAPE THEN. U KNOW WHAT USHER GO RIGHT AHEAD AND PUT IT OUT BECAUSE RIGHT I DON'T CARE ANYMORE. U R NOT GONNA RUIN MY LIFE BECAUSE U COULD NOT HANDLE THE FACT I TOLD THE TRUTH ABOUT OUR RELATIONSHIP. IF U FEEL LIKE THAT WILL MAKE U HAPPY RUIN MY LIFE, THEN FINE GO RIGHT AHEAD. I AM GONNA CONTINUE LIVING MY LIFE AS I HAVE BEEN DOING AND THAT IS WITH CHRIS. IF PEOPLE START TO LOOK AT ME DIFFERENTLY AND TALK BAD ABOUT ME THEN FINE. I STILL KNOW I HAVE EVERYONE HERE THAT WILL BE HERE TO HELP ME AND SUPPORT ME. TAMARAH I... NO USHER I AM DONE WITH THIS WHOLE SITUATION. U FEEL LIKE U NEED TO HURT ME THEN GO RIGHT AHEAD AND I AM DONE TALKING AND U GUYS CAN LEAVE AS I WALK BACK TO MY OFFICE. COME ON USHER LET GO RIGHT NOW KIM SAYS. R U OK CHRIS ASKED ME. I AM FINE I JUST FEEL BETTER SAYING WHAT I NEEDED TO SAY TO HIM. U KNOW IF THAT GETS OUT U... CHRIS I KNOW AND IF IT DOES I WILL DEAL WITH IT. I AM TIRED OF LIVING MY LIFE BY THIS GAME HE IS PLAYING BECAUSE HE FEEL THE WAY HE DOES. U JUST CONTINUE TO AMAZE ME CHRIS SAYS AND THAT IS WHY I LOVE U AND THE FACT THAT U CAN HOLD YOUR OWN IN A FIGHT. U BEAT HER ASS AS WE BOTH STARTED LAUGHING. YEAH WELL THAT WHAT I DO I TELL HIM. CAN WE COME IN MIKA SAYS. COME ON IN GUYS. HOW R U DOING NICKI SAYS. I FEEL SO MUCH BETTER TO HAVE TOLD HIM THAT. LIKE I TOLD CHRIS, IF IT DOES GET OUT THEN I WILL DEAL WITH IT. RIGHT NOW THAT WHOLE THING IS DONE AND I AM READY TO MOVE FORWARD WITH MY LIFE. SO LET GO BECAUSE I HAVE A STORE TO FIX UP AND PREPARE TO OPEN IT UP.

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AS I WALKING OUT, I SEE FAMILY WITH ANGRY LOOKS ON THERE FACES STANDING TO THE SIDE OF ME. OH MY GOD WHAT R U DOING HERE. HELLO TO U TOO SHE SAYS TO ME. WHAT R U DOING HERE KIM I ASKED HER AGAIN GETTING VERY UPSET. I SEE U FINALLY OPENED UP YOUR LITTLE STORE. CHRIS GRABBED MY HAND TO HOLD FROM WALKING OVER TOWARD HER. I SEE THE WHOLE GANG IS HERE AS WELL. FEEL LIKE HIGH SCHOOL AGAIN DON'T IT TAMARAH SHE SAYS SMILING OVER AT CHRIS. R U GONNA INTRODUCE ME TO YOUR FRIEND. YEAH. CHRIS THIS IS THE HOE WHO USHER CHEATED ON ME WITH. I WOULD WATCH MY WORDS. OR WHAT KIM AS I GOT IN HER FACE AND CHRIS IS STILL HOLDING ME BACK. I SEE U FOUND YOURSELF A YOUNG ONE THIS TIME. U STILL HAVE NOT ANSWERED MY QUESTION KIM WHAT THE F**K R U DOING HERE. OH RIGHT I HAVE A MESSAGE FOR U FROM USHER SHE SAID. I KNEW HE HAD SOMEBODY WORKING WITH HIM. U REALLY DID NOT THINK HE WANTED U BACK REALLY KIM SAYS. HE TRYING TO HURT U LIKE U HURT HIM. BESIDES HE IS MY FIANCE NOW. U GUYS R SICK AND U GUYS DESERVES EACH OTHER. HE GONNA BE REAL HAPPY TO KNOW THAT U AND CHRIS R BACK TOGETHER. SO WAIT U WERE THE ONE WHO LEFT THAT TAPE IN MY HOUSE. YEAH IT WAS ME AND I HATE TO SEE THAT TAPE GET OUT. I WAS THERE THAT DAY U GUYS TOOK THAT TRIP AND HE TOLD ME TO SET UP THE CAMERA IN YOUR ROOM. I TRIED TO GO TOWARD HE BUT CHRIS HELD ON TO ME. I SAW NICKI TRY TO MOVE TOWARD HER TOO BUT DRAKE STOPPED HER. HE COULD NOT STAND THE FACT HE HAD EVEN SLEPT WITH U THAT NIGHT. YEAH HE CAME TO MY ROOM AFTER HE WAS WITH U AND WAS DISGUSTED BY WHAT HE DID. CHRIS LET ME GO RIGHT NOW I STARTED YELLING. LET ME GO RIGHT NOW. NO I WILL NOT. CHRIS LET HER GO SO SHE CAN BEAT THIS B***CH ASS NICKI SAYS. NO I AM NOT GONNA LET HER DO THIS. TAMARAH CALM DOWN CHRIS SAYS. CHRIS LET ME GO I AM COOL. R U SURE. YEAH. HE LET ME GO AND I RAN AND HIT HER IN HER FACE. OH S**T CHRIS SAYS. WE R ALL OVER THE FLOOR FIGHTING.

I JUST READ STRANGERS ISLAND AND I LOVE IT SO FAR. THANKS FOR TELLING ME ABOUT THIS STORY

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SO I GET UP AND GO TO THE BATHROOM DOOR WAY WITH MY TOWEL OFF. U DIDN'T THINK U WERE GONNA GIVE ME JUST A TASTE AND NOT FINISH DID U. I LOOKED AT HIM LICKING MY LIPS. LIKE U SAID U NEED TO GET READY AND I AM GONNA GO DOWNSTAIRS WAIT FOR. SO U CUTTING ME OFF RIGHT. YEAH HE SAYS LAUGHING AND SMILING AT ME. OK I WILL REMEMBER THIS CHRIS. OH DON'T BE MAD BE GLAD HE SAY CLOSING THE DOOR SMILING. I COULD NOT NOT DO NOTHING BUT LAUGH. THAT IS THE ONE THING I LIKE ABOUT HIM, HOW HE MAKES ME LAUGH. I HEAD OUT MY ROOM TO GO DOWNSTAIRS, I SEE EVERYONE WAITING. ITS ABOUT TIME YOUR ASS FINISH NICKI SAY. WHATEVER WE CAN GO NOW. WE DRAKE COMING UP THE STREET IN HIS CAR. SO EVERYBODY WENT AND GOT INTO THERE CARS. U CAN RIDE WITH ME NICKI DRAKE SAYS. OK AND SHE SMILE BACK AT ME. SO WHERE IS NICOLE I ASKED HIM. SHE STAYED AT HOME BECAUSE DJ WASN'T FEELING GOOD. OK I HOPE HE FEELS BETTER. YA'LL KNOW HOW TO GET THERE RIGHT. YEAH WE DO. DRAKE U CAN FOLLOW THEM THERE. U GUYS CAN GO ON AHEAD WE WILL BE RIGHT BEHIND U GUYS. WHERE R U GOING CHRIS ASKED. AROUND THE BACK TO MY GARAGE. U DRIVE HE ASKED ME. YEAH BUT AS OFTEN AS I USE TO THOUGH. I USUALLY JUST RIDE WITH ONE OF MY FAMILY MEMBERS SINCE WE USUALLY R GOING TO THE SAME PLACES MOST OF THE TIME. I OPENED UP MY GARAGE AND I SAW THE LOOK ON CHRIS FACE. THIS IS A PRICELESS MOMENT AND I TOOK HIS PICTURE. I HAD THREE DIFFERENT COLORED MERCEDED BENZ. I HAD ONE IN BLACK, RED, AND BLUE. U WANNA DRIVE I ASKED CHRIS AS I THREW HIM THE KEYS. HELL YEAH I WANNA DRIVE. GET IN THE CAR CHRIS. U R SUCH A BIG KID I STARTED LAUGHING. SO WE PULLED OFF HEADING TO MY STORE. I SEE U R HAVING FUN DRIVING. YEAH I AM.

I NEED TO BUY ME A NEW PHONE TODAY. U WANNA GO DO THAT BEFORE WE HEAD TO YOUR STORE. NO I WANNA GO SEE HOW MUCH WORK I HAVE TO DO FIRST THEN I LEAVE BACK OUT AND GO GET MY PHONE. SO WE GET TO MY STORE AND IT HAD MY NAME ON THE FRONT. THE NAME OF THE STORE IS CALLED LOVELY. I CHOSE THIS NAME BECAUSE I WANT PEOPLE TO BE ABLE TO COME TO ME NOT FEELING LIKE I ONLY SELL ONLY CLOTHES FOR SKINNY PEOPLE. I WANT PEOPLE TO BE ABLE TO LOVE THEMSELVES FOR WHO THEY R AND NOT THINK OF WHAT OTHER PEOPLE MIGHT SAY OR THINK OF THEM. DAMN EVERYONE SAYS. THIS STORE IS HUGE NICKI SAYS. I KNOW THAT IS WHY I CHOSE THIS PLACE. U HAVE AN UPSTAIRS TOO CHRIS SAYS. YEAH. I WANT TO USE THAT AREA FOR WHEN U CAME U CAN HAVE SOME PLACE TO RELAX WHILE U WAIT. IF I AM DOING A FITTING AND THE PERSON WANT TO WAIT WHILE I FINISH, THEN THEY CAN HEAD UPSTAIRS AND HAVE SOMETHING TO EAT AND DRINK WHILE THEY WAIT. U CAN TAKE YOUR BREAKS UP THERE IF U LIKE OR JUST SIT AND RELAX WHEN WE DON'T HAVE BUSY DAYS. YOU R GONNA HAVE SO MANY PEOPLE COMING HERE TREY SAY. I WILL GO TO THE BACK AND START BRINGING OUT THE CLOTHES SO WE CAN START SETTING UP. I WILL HELP U CHRIS SAYS. I AM SO PROUD U TAMARAH CHRIS SAYS. THANK U. U CAN START BY TAKING THESE BOXES OUT THERE TO THEM. OK. I GO BACK TO SEE WHERE MY OFFICE IS. I OPENED THE DOOR AND IT WAS ALREADY FIXED UP FOR ME. I WALK IN AND SEE A NOTE ON MY DESK. CONGRATULATION TAMARAH. U HAVE FINALLY DONE IT AND WE R SO PROUD OF U. U HAVE EARNED THIS OPPORTUNITY AND I HOPE U LIKE WHAT WE DID FOR U. WE R HAPPY THAT U HAVE FOUND SOMEONE THAT MAKES U HAPPY AND IS GOING TO BE WITH U EVERY STEP THROUGH THIS JOURNEY. WE LOVE U AND U WILL ALWAYS BE OUR BEST FRIEND. LOVE ALWAYS LISA AND TANYA.

I STARTED CRYING AND LOOKING AT ALL THE PICTURES THEY HAD AROUND MY OFFICE. I LOOKED ON MY DESK AND THERE WAS A PICTURE OF ME AND CHRIS FROM THE COOKOUT AT HIS HOUSE. I DID NOT KNOW THEY EVEN TOOK THE PICTURE OF US. TAMARAH... I AM IN HERE. WE R STARTING TO PUT THE THINGS UP BUT WE NEED YOUR HELP HOW U WANT EVERYTHING SET UP SHALAMEKE SAYS. WOW THIS OFFICE IS NICE AND ITS ALREADY SET UP FOR U SHE SAYS. I KNOW TANYA AND LISA DID THIS FOR ME. THEY OUT DID THEMSELVES SHE SAYS. YEAH I KNOW AND LOVE THE BOTH OF THEM. U KNOW WHEN CHRIS SEE THIS OFFICE HE GONNA WANT TO U AND HIM TO YOUR LUNCH BREAKS IN HERE SHE SAID SMILING. U R SO NASTY I WILL BE RIGHT OUT SAYING TO HER LAUGHING. SPEAKING OF CHRIS, I WILL GIVE U GUYS SOME PRIVACY SHE CLOSED THE DOOR SMILING. U DON'T HAVE TO CLOSE THE DOOR. WHAT WAS THAT ABOUT CHRIS SAYS. SHE JUST BEING NASTY. I LIKE THIS OFFICE. TANYA AND LISA SET IT UP FOR ME. I LOVE U SO MUCH TAMARAH. I LOVE U TOO. U KNOW I CAN COME BY NOW AND WE CAN YOUR BREAKS BACK HERE. U KNOW WHAT LETS GO NOW. WHAT DID I SAY HE SAID LAUGHING. WE NEED TO GO NOW U ALREADY GETTING IDEAS JUST LIKE SHALAMEKE SAID U WOULD. I OPENED THE DOOR AND TREY WAS STANDING THERE. U NEED TO COME OUT HER NOW. WHY WHATS WRONG. THERE SOMEONE OUT HERE WHO WANTS TO SEE U. WHO IS IT I ASKED HIM. HE JUST WALKED AHEAD OF ME AND I LOOKED OUT....

Lol Chris funny he wouldn't let her get dressed lol

I GO UPSTAIRS TO FIND ME SOMETHING TO WEAR FOR TODAY. I WANTED TO BE COMFORTABLE BECAUSE WE WERE GONNA BE WORKING MOST OF THE DAY. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO WEAR AND I WAS GETTING FRUSTRATED. SO I JUST PICK OUT MY BLUE SWEATSUIT WITH THE HOODIE JACKET AND MY BLUE ADIDAS TO GO WITH IT. I WASN'T TRYING TO LOOK ALL DOLLED UP. I HEARD THE DOOR BELL RING. I WILL GET JOYCE SAYS. THIS BOY BETTER HAVE HIS ASS WITH TREY OR I'M GONNA... SHE OPENED THE DOOR. BOY I THOUGHT I WAS GONNA HAVE TO DRAG YOUR BEHIND OVER HERE IF U DID NOT COME JOYCE SAYS. HI MOMMA CHRIS SAYS GIVING HER A HUG AND A KISS. WHERE IS TAMARAH CHRIS ASKED. SHE IS UPSTAIRS GETTING READY TO HEAD TO HER STORE HIS MOM SAYS. THAT RIGHT SHE HAS TO GO THERE TO SET UP EVERYTHING. DON'T BE UP THERE ALL DAY NOW HIS MOM SAYS SMILING BACK AT CHRIS. WE WON'T HE SAYS LAUGHING. THEY R GONNA BE UP THERE FOR A WHILE TREY SAYS. I KNOW JOYCE SAYS AS THEY BOTH LAUGHED AND WENT INTO THE KITCHEN. WHERE IS CHRIS TYGA ASKED. HE WENT UPSTAIRS TO SEE TAMARAH. THEY R GONNA BE UP THERE FOR A WHILE THEN SHAD SAYS. WE JUST SAID THE SAME THING AND THEY ALL STARTED LAUGHING. WE NEED TO START GETTING READY TO SO WE CAN GO HELP HER WITH THE STORE. YOU GUYS GO HEAD AND I AM GONNA HEAD OUT BECAUSE I HAVE SOMETHINGS I HAVE TO TODAY JOYCE SAYS. SO TELL CHRIS AND TAMARAH I WILL TALK THEM LATER. BYE. BYE JOYCE. LET GO GUYS SO WE HEAD OUT TAMEKAH SAY.

AS I AM COMING OUT THE SHOWER, I SEE CHRIS STANDING THERE. HI BEAUTIFUL HE SAYS. HI CHRIS. I SEE U CAME. YEAH I THINK WE SHOULD TALK ABOUT EVERYTHING THAT HAS HAPPEN. OK CAN U GIVE ME MY TOWEL PLEASE. HE JUST STARED AT MY WET BODY. CHRIS GIVE ME TOWEL. NO. COME ON NOW I AM STARTING TO GET COLD I SAY LAUGHING. YEAH I CAN SEE THAT BITING HIS LIP. COME OVER HERE HE SAYS. HE PUTS THE TOWEL AROUND AND HOLDS ME. U KNOW I LOVE U I JUST NEEDED TO CLEAR MY HEAD ABOUT WHAT HAPPENED. I REALLY KNEW U WOULDN'T PUT YOURSELF OUT THE LIKE THAT. I WAS ANGRY ABOUT IT. I AM SORRY ABOUT PUTTING YOU THROUGH THIS. I LOVE U TOO. HE LEANS DOWN AND GIVES ME A KISS. OK NOW I REALLY NEED TO GET READY CHRIS. NO THAT CAN WAIT AS HE CAME UP BEHIND ME. DADDY WANTS A TASTE AS HE BEGIN KISSING MY NECK AND HIS RUBBED HIS HAND UP MY THIGH. I COULD FEEL HIM GETTING HARD. I TURNED AROUND, CHRIS... HE STARTED KISSING ME AND ENTER TWO FINGERS INSIDE ME. HE PUTS ON ONE OF MY FAVORITE SONG BY HIM CALLED BACK OUT. TAKE THAT OFF AS HE UNDO MY TOWEL. I COULD NOT EVEN TALK AS HE DOWN BETWEEN ME. I JUST MOANED AND SCREAMED HIS NAME. WHEN HE MADE ME CUM, NOW U CAN GET READY HE SAYS TO ME AS HE GIVES ME A DEEP LONG KISS.

IT IS NOW MONDAY MORNING AND I STILL HAVE NOT HEARD FROM CHRIS. I AM SO AFRAID OF WHAT IS GONNA HAPPEN TO US. EVERYONE STAY AT MY HOUSE TO HELP ME FINISH CLEANING UP YESTERDAY. DRAKE,NICOLE AND TARA LEFT BECAUSE THEY HAD OTHER PLANS. MY HOUSE WAS LOOKING BETTER AND I WAS FELLING OK BUT STILL ANGRY ABOUT THE SITUATION. AS I WAS GOING DOWNSTAIRS, I HEARD THE DOOR BELL. IT WAS CHRIS'S MOM JOYCE AT THE DOOR. GOOD MORNING SWEETIE. GOOD MORNING JOYCE. HOW R U DOING? OK I GUESS. COME ON IN. I WAS JUST ABOUT TO FIX BREAKFAST. GOOD I WANNA HELP U AND WE NEED TO TALK JOYCE SAYS. CHRIS TOLD ME ABOUT WHAT HAPPEN AFTER THE COOKOUT. BUT THERE WAS ONE THING HE WOULD NOT TELL AND HE TOLD ME TO COME ASK U ABOUT IT. OK. I GOT A LETTER AND A TAPE THE NIGHT OF THE BREAK IN. IT SAID TO LEAVE CHRIS IF I DID NOT WANT THE TAPE TO GET OUT. SO I PLAYED THE TAPE AND IT WAS ME AND USHER... DON'T TELL THAT U AND HIM WERE... SHE PAUSED. YEAH IT WAS THE NIGHT I HAD SEX WITH HIM. I DID NOT KNOW HE WAS DOING THIS AND I THINK CHRIS DOESN'T BELIEVE ME. I WOULD NEVER PUT MYSELF OUT THERE LIKE THAT AND I WAS TRYING TO TELL HIM THAT BUT HE WAS TO UPSET AND JUST SAID HE NEEDED TO LEAVE. THIS WHOLE THING HAS GOTTEN OUT OF CONTROL I STARTED CRYING. IT IS GONNA BE OK SWEETIE I BELIEVE U WHEN U SAY U DIDN'T KNOW ABOUT IT. GOOD MORNING EVERYONE TREY SAYS. IS EVERYTHING OK HE SAYS. YEAH EVERYTHING IS FINE JOYCE SAYS. IS EVERYONE WOKE I ASKED HIM. YEAH. OK WE R GONNA START COOKING BREAKFAST BECAUSE I NEED TO GET AND EARLY START BECAUSE I HAVE TO GO TO MY STORE.

HOW IS CHRIS DOING ANYWAY? I ASKED HER. HE SAYS HE IS FINE JUST LIKE TOLD ME. BUT I KNOW HE IS NOT AND U R NOT EITHER. RIGHT NOW HE IS AT HOME ON HIS VIDEO GAME. SOUNDS LIKE THE SAME THING U DID TOO TAMARAH MY SISTER SAYS. U DO THAT TOO JOYCE SAYS. YEAH I DO. I ALSO DANCE, WORKOUT ON MY PUNCHING BAG OR JUST LISTEN TO MUSIC. WOW U TOO R SO MUCH A LIKE IN CERTAIN WAYS. CHRIS DOES THE SAME THING WHEN HE IS MAD. HE IS EITHER DANCING TO KEEP HIS MIND OFF THINGS OR HE IS IN HIS STUDIO WRITING AND LISTEN TO MUSIC. SOMETIMES HE EVEN PLAYS BASKETBALL TO TAKE HIS MIND OFF THINGS. U GUYS HAVE THE SAME CONCEPT OF DEALING WITH YA'LL ANGER WHICH IS CRAZY. U REALLY NEED TO TALK TO HIM. I HAVE TRIED AND I HAVE CALLED HIM BUT HE HASN'T RETURNED MY CALLS. I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT ELSE TO DO. SO WE ALL SIT DOWN TO EAT BREAKFAST. R U READY TO OPEN UP YOUR STORE MIKA ASKED. YEAH I AM EXCITED. U DON'T SOUND LIKE U R NICKI SAYS. I AM I SAY BACK. I AM GONNA GO GET DRESS AND HEAD OVER TO GO TALK TO CHRIS TREY SAYS. ALRIGHT THEN I TELL HIM.

TREY OVER AT CHRIS HOUSE...

WASSUP CHRIS. WASSUP TREY. WHAT R U DOING HERE CHRIS SAYS. I CAME OVER HERE TO TALK TO U ABOUT EVERYTHING THAT HAS HAPPEN BETWEEN U AND TAMARAH. DID SHE SEND U OVER HERE? NO SHE DID NOT I TOLD HER WAS COMING OVER HERE TO TALK TO U. TALK ABOUT WHAT HER LYING TO ME AGAIN. SHE DID NOT LIE TO U CHRIS. SHE REALLY DID NOT KNOW ABOUT BEING TAPE. I HAVE KNOWN HER TOO LONG TO KNOW THAT SHE WOULD NOT PUT HERSELF OUT THERE LIKE THAT. USHER IS TRYING TO RUIN HER BECAUSE HE CAN'T HAVE HER. U R PLAYING RIGHT INTO HIS HANDS. SHE REALLY MISSES U CHRIS. U GUYS KNOW U NEED EACH OTHER. I HAVE NOT SEEN HER THIS HAPPY IN A LONG TIME. U HAVE GIVEN HER BACK HER CONFIDENCE AND TRUE LOVE SHE HAS NEVER HAD. SO STOP ACTING LIKE YO ASS DON'T MISS HER. I DO MISS HER AND ALL OF THIS IS OUT OF CONTROL CHRIS SAYS. I KNOW BUT U GUYS NEED TO WORK THIS OUT AND STOP LETTING USHER GET TO U GUYS. HE IS BEING A REAL ASS RIGHT NOW AND IN THE END HE WILL BE THE ONE WHO IS SORRY. YOUR MOM WAS RIGHT ABOUT U TWO BEING ALIKE TREY SAY. WHAT SHE PLAYS HER VIDEO GAME WHEN SHE IS MAD CHRIS ASKED. YEAH SHE DOES BUT HER GAME OF CHOICE IS MORTAL COMBAT TREY SAYS. YOU MEAN THIS ONE CHRIS SAYS. TREY LOOKED AND STARTED LAUGHING. YEAH THAT IS THE ONE. ALRIGHT TREY I WILL GO SEE MY BABY AND TALK TO HER. BESIDE I KNOW SHE MISSES DADDY... AND TREY CUTS HIM OFF. OK MAN DAMN GONE AND GO GET DRESS HE SAID LAUGHING.

MEAN WHILE BACK AT MY HOUSE.....

SO THINK TREY WILL CONVINCE CHRIS TO COME OVER HERE AND TALK TO U SHALAMEKE SAYS. I THINK HE WILL BUT WE WILL HAVE TO SEE I TELL HER. I AM GONNA HEAD UPSTAIRS START GETTING READY. ALRIGHT WE WILL WAIT DOWN HERE UNTIL TREY COMES BACK. IF HE DOES NOT COME, I WILL GO AND DRAG HIS ASS OVER HERE MYSELF FOR YOU JOYCE SAYS. OK I SAY LAUGHING. I AM NOT KIDDING. WE ALL STARTED LAUGHING. WELL I WILL BE UPSTAIRS.

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SO WE GET TO MY HOUSE AND THE POLICE WAS THERE WAITING. R U THE OWNER OF THIS HOUSE THE OFFICERS ASKED. YES MY NAME IS TAMARAH. MY FRONT DOOR HAD B***CH SPRAYED ACROSS IT. WE GO IN THE INSIDE AND MY FURNITURE IS RIPPED AND SHREDDED UP. THERE WAS GLASS BROKEN EVERYWHERE. THE KITCHEN WAS A MESS. SO THE POLICE OFFICER AND I WENT UPSTAIRS AND ALL THE ROOM WERE A MESS EXCEPT MY BEDROOM. MY ROOM WAS AS I LEFT IT. I LOOKED IN MY CLOSET AND NOTHING WAS TOUCH. I WENT TO MY BED AND FOUND A NOTE AND A TAPE THAT SAID PLAY ME. THE NOTE SAID "U BETTER LEAVE CHRIS OR ELSE THIS TAPE WILL BE PUT OUT. I PUT THE TAPE IN AND IT WAS OF ME AND USHER THE NIGHT I SLEPT WITH HIM. OH MY GOD HE VIDEO TAPED US AND I DID NOT KNOW IT. IS THIS ANOTHER SECRET U WERE KEEPING FORM ME CHRIS SAYS. NO BECAUSE I DID NOT KNOW HE DONE THIS. U HAD KNOW CLUE U WERE BEING TAPED HE SAYS LOOKING PISSED OFF. NO I DIDN'T KNOW. U THINK I AM LYING ABOUT THIS CHRIS. HUH. HE DID NOT ANSWER. THE LAST THING I WANTED WAS TO DO SOMETHING LIKE THIS. I WOULD NEVER PUT MYSELF IN A SITUATION LIKE THIS. U KNOW WHAT I NEED TO LEAVE RIGHT NOW BECAUSE THIS... CHRIS WAIT DON'T LEAVE. I LOOKED DOWN STAIRS AND SAW TAMEKAH AND TREY COME IN THE DOOR. MY SISTER CAME UPSTAIRS WITH TREY TO SEE WHAT JUST HAPPEN. WHAT HAPPEN UP HERE TAMEKAH SAYS. I PUT THE TAPE ON. THAT IS WHAT HAPPENED UP HERE. USHER VIDEO TAPED YA'LL. YEAH HE DID AND I DID NOT KNOW HE DID.

CHRIS DID NOT BELIEVE U TREY SAID. NO AND HE IS REALLY PISSED ABOUT IT. I KNOW THIS IS HARD FOR U TAMARAH BUT I AM GONNA NEED THIS FOR EVIDENCE THE OFFICER SAYS. DO U REALLY HAVE TO TAKE... IT IS FINE TREY IT IS EVIDENCE SO HERE U GO OFFICER. SO THE GUY IN THE TAPE WITH U IS USHER THE OFFICER SAYS. YEAH. DO U THINK HE COULD HAVE DONE THIS TO U THE OFFICER SAYS. HE MAY HAVE OR I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO THINK ANYMORE. WE R GONNA QUESTION HIM ABOUT THIS AND KEEP U POSTED IF WE FIND ANYTHING. THANK U OFFICER. IF CAN THINK OF ANYTHING THAT MIGHT HELP HERE IS MY CARD. U ALL HAVE A SAFE NIGHT AND BE CAREFUL. HELLO I HERE MY COUSIN VOICE. I WILL GO DOWN STAIRS AND LET THEM KNOW WHAT HAPPENED. I BELIEVE U WHEN U SAYS U DID NOT KNOW ABOUT THE TAPE TREY SAYS. I HAVE KNOWN U TOO LONG AND HE REALLY SET U UP FOR THIS. I WILL TALK TO CHRIS FOR U. U DON'T HAVE TO DO THAT. BUT I WANT TO. I SEE HOW HAPPY HE MAKES AND HE NEED U AND U NEED HIM. THANK U TREY AS I TEAR ROLLED DOWN MY FACE. EVERYTHING WILL BE JUST FINE. I AM GONNA HEAD DOWN STAIRS AND START CLEANING UP THE MESS DOWNSTAIRS.

I CHANGED OUT OF MY CLOTHES AND WENT DOWNSTAIRS. U GUYS DON'T HAVE TO STAY AND HELP IF U DON'T WANT TO I TELL THEM. WE WANT TO STAY AND U NEED US RIGHT NOW MIKA SAYS. I DON'T WANT U GUYS TO FEEL LIKE U NEED TO BABYSIT ME BECAUSE OF WHAT JUST HAPPEN. WE DON'T FEEL LIKE THAT NICKI SAYS. I AM REALLY FINE ABOUT EVERYTHING U GUYS SO STOP LOOKING AT ME LIKE THAT. IF U R OK, THEN WHY DO U HAVE ON YOUR WORKOUT CLOTHES THEN NICKI. U ONLY WHERE THOSE WHEN U R NOT OK AND U NEED TO RELEASE YOUR ANGER. YEAH WELL RIGHT I DO BUT I AM REALLY FINE. U GO DO THAT AND WE STAY HERE AND CLEAN UP. WHERE IS SHE GOING TYGA ASKED. THE ONE PLACE THAT KEEPS HER CALM WHICH IS HER DANCE STUDIO MIKA SAYS. WHENEVER SHE GET LIKE THIS SHE LOVE TO DANCE HER WAY BACK TO WHERE SHE NEEDS TO BE. IF NOT THAT THEN SHE USUALLY PUNCHES ON HER BOXING BAG. IF SHE DOES THAT THEN SHE IS REALLY ANGRY AND SHE WANTS TO BE ALONE. OK GUYS WE HAVE MUCH WORK TO DO SO LETS GET STARTED. IT SOUND LIKE SHE IS PUNCHING ON THE BAG NICKI SAYS. R U GUYS SURE SHE IS OK NICOLE SAYS. SHE IS FINE AS LONG WE DON'T DISTURBED HER SHE WILL BE FINE DRAKE SAYS.

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SO EVERYTHING IS SET FOR THE PARTY ON FRIDAY. TANYA HAS FOUND A PLACE FOR ME AND WILL GO CHECK IT OUT PROBABLY ON TUESDAY. WHERE IS IT GONNA BE AT? NICKI ASKED. THAT NEW CLUB THAT JUST OPEN CALLED 69. SHE WOULD NOT TELL ME WHO OWNED IT OR WHO PAID FOR EVERYTHING. I AM SO EXCITED FOR U TAMARAH MIKA SAYS. SHALAMEKE I DON'T THINK U SHOULD DO THE FINALE DANCE WITH US. U KNOW THE RUN THE WORLD ROUTINE IS A LOT OF DANCING AND I DON'T WANT U TO HURT THE BABY. I KNOW I WAS GONNA SUGGEST THAT TO U SHE SAYS. WE R GONNA GET READY TO HEAD OUT LISA SAY. YEAH I KNOW I STILL WANT TO GO OVER EVERYTHING WITH U TOMORROW TANYA SAYS. OK I WILL SEE U GUYS AT MY STORE IN THE MORNING. OK BYE NICE TO MEET EVERYONE THEY BOTH SAY. I AM GONNA GO HELP JOYCE PUT THIS FOOD UP I TELL THEM. U GUYS CAN TAKE SOME OF THIS FOOD HOME WITH U JOYCE SAYS. SO EVERYONE STARTED FIXING PLATES TO TAKE HOME WITH THEM. WE R GONNA HEAD BACK HOME TO MY MOM SAYS. I LOVE U GUYS AND WE NEED TO DO THIS AGAIN REAL SOON SHE SAYS. YEAH WE R GONNA HEAD OUT TO BY BROTHER SAYS. U BETTER COME AND VISIT MORE I TELL HIM. WE WILL AND I LOVE U. WE GAVE EACH OTHER HUGS AND THEY LEFT. AS WE R ABOUT TO LEAVE MY SISTER GETS A PHONE CALL. I LOOKED OVER AT HER AND SHE LOOKED SCARED. WE HAVE TO GO NOW SHE SAY. WHY WHAT IS WRONG? I ASKED HER. THAT WAS TASHA. SHE SAID SOMEONE BROKE INTO YOUR HOUSE AND SHE TRIED CALLING U BUT U KNOW U BROKE YOUR PHONE. OH MY GOD I SAY. U GUYS GO AND WE WILL FINISH UP HERE AND MEET YA'LL THERE WHEN WE CAN. COME ON LET GO CHRIS SAYS.

I LOOKED AT MY PHONE AND IT IS USHER CALLING ME. I AM SO PISSED OFF RIGHT NOW BECAUSE THIS IS GOTTEN WAY OUT OF HAND. I DON'T KNOW EVEN KNOW HOW HE GOT MY CELL NUMBER. ONLY A FEW PEOPLE KNOW THIS NUMBER BECAUSE IT IS NEW. HELLO. HEY BABY ITS USHER. WHAT DO WANT USHER? I NEED TO SEE U. I GET UP FROM THE TABLE AND WALK TOWARD THE DOOR OF THE HOUSE. HOW DID U GET MY NUMBER AND I TOLD U DON'T CALL ME. THERE WAS SILENCE. USHER U STILL THERE. I AM HERE AND I REALLY NEED TO SEE U. NO I DON'T WANT TO TALK TO U OR SEE U. U REALLY DON'T GET IT DO USHER. WE R NOT GETTING BACK TOGETHER AND THAT U NEED TO LET GO BECAUSE U R BECOMING PATHETIC RIGHT NOW. I LOVE CHRIS NOW AND U JUST HAVE TO DEAL WITH IT. THAT LITTLE STUNT U PULLED THIS MORNING DID NOT WORK. SO I AM GONNA HAVE TO DO MORE DAMAGE HE SAYS. WHAT THE F**K U MEAN I SAY REAL LOUD TO HIM. U WILL SEE TAMARAH AND I WILL HAVE U AGAIN. NO U WON'T AND DON'T CALL ME AGAIN. TELL CHRIS HE BETTER WATCH HIS BACK AND YOURS. IS THAT A THREAT USHER. TAKE IT AS U WANT BUT U WILL BE MINE AGAIN. BYE BABY. I HANG UP THE SCARED AND SHAKING. I THROW MY PHONE ON THE GROUND REALLY HARD AND GO IN THE HOUSE. TAMARAH WHAT WRONG CHRIS ASKED. I COULD NOT SAY ANYTHING I WAS SHAKING SO BADLY AND SCARED. WHO WAS ON THE PHONE HE ASKED. I TURNED AND SAID IT WAS USHER. I DON'T KNOW HOW HE GOT MY NUMBER AND HE HAS COMPLETELY LOST HIS MIND. HE IS TRYING TO RUIN ME AND MY RELATIONSHIP WITH U. DID HE THREATEN U? CHRIS ASKED. YEAH HE ME AND U. HE SAID U BETTER WATCH YOUR BACK. CHRIS I AM REALLY SCARED NOW. I DON'T KNOW WHAT HAS GOTTEN INTO HIM ABOUT ME. HE HUGS ME. I AM NOT GONNA LET HIM HURT U OR ME.

IS EVERYTHING OK? JOYCE AND MY MOM COME IN THE HOUSE. NO IT NOT CHRIS SAYS. USHER JUST CALLED AND HE THREATEN ME AND HER. OH MY GOD JOYCE SAYS. HOW DID HE GET YOUR NUMBER ANYWAY MY MOM ASKED ME. I DON'T EVEN KNOW BECAUSE THAT WAS A NEW NUMBER AND PHONE. SO I ONLY GAVE IT OUT TO A FEW PEOPLE. SOMEONE IS GIVING HIM INFORMATION ABOUT ME AND I AM GOING TO FIND OUT WHO IT IS. I AM FINE NOW HE IS NOT GOING TO RUIN MY LIFE OR YOUR CHRIS. HERE YOUR PHONE BACK GIRL MIKA GAVE TO ME. OH MAN NOW I NEED A PHONE AGAIN. U DROPPED THAT HARD AS HEEL TREY SAY. YEAH WELL I JUST WANNA GET BACK TO THIS COOKING AND FINISH HAVING FUN. U KNOW I AM GONNA WIN THE BET RIGHT CHRIS SAYS. NO U NOT U JUST THINK U R. JUST REMEMBER WE HAVE TWO MORE PRACTICES GOT. U MAY HAVE CONTROLLED YOURSELF TODAY BUT LET SEE WHAT HAPPENS. BESIDES DO U REALLY THINK U CAN CONTROL YOURSELF FROM ALL OF THIS (PUTTING HIS HANDS AROUND ME AS I STARTED GRINDING ON HIM). YEAH I CAN. THE QUESTION IS CAN U HANDLE NOT HAVING ALL THIS( HE STARTS TO KISS MY NECK AND STARTS TO MOVE MY HIPS). I AIN'T GONNA LIE I WANTED TO JUST TAKE HIM UPSTAIRS AND DO IT RIGHT NOW. YEAH I CAN HANDLE THAT. OH MY GOD HIS TOUCH WAS MAKING ME MELT. HE LET ME GO AND SAID OK WE WILL SEE WHO WINS AS ME SMACKED ME ON MY ASS AND WENT OUT THE DOOR.

WHAT WAS THAT ALL ABOUT SHALMEKE ASKED. DID U GUYS JUST... NO WE DID NOT MIKA. HE THINKS HE GONNA WIN THIS BET FOR SURE NOW. I CAN KILL OMARION ASS FOR TELLING HIM ABOUT THAT ROOM I HAVE IN MY HOUSE. SO USHER CALLED U TAMEKAH SAID. YEAH. HE THREATEN ME AND CHRIS. OH MY GOD HE DID WHAT NICKI SAYS. I JUST REALLY THINK SOMEONE IS TELLING HIM THINGS ABOUT ME AND WHAT IS HAPPENING I MY LIFE RIGHT NOW. DO U THINK IT IS TARA AND NICOLE? MIKA ASKED. I DON'T KNOW BUT SOMEONE IS TRYING TO RUIN ME AND I AM GONNA FIND OUT WHO IT IS.

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SO AS WE R STANDING THERE HE GOES AND PUT ON TEACH ME HOW TO DOUGIE. HE STARTS SMILING AND BEGINS TO DANCE. I AM JUST LOOKING AT HIM DANCE IN FRONT OF ME. U THINK U R THE ONLY ONE WHO CAN DOUGIE CHRIS? I SAY TO HIM. U CAN'T DOUGIE TREY SAYS TO ME. SO I MOVE CHRIS OUT THE WAY AND I STARTED TO DANCE. HE LOOKED AT ME IN SURPRISE. GO TAMARAH, GO TAMARAH, EVERYONE STARTED SAYING. I DID NOT KNOW U COULD DOUGIE LIKE THAT CHRIS SAYS. I LEARNED FROM WATCHING U ALL THE TIME. OK SINCE WE OUT HERE DANCING I THINK THIS IS THE PERFECT TIME TO START OUR BET WE HAVE I SAY TO CHRIS. OK CHRIS SAYS. REMEMBER WHAT WE AGREED ON CHRIS. YEAH I REMEMBER HE SAYS. U KNOW CHRIS IF U WIN SHE HAS A SECRET STRIPPER ROOM IN HER HOUSE OMARION SAYS. OH REALLY CHRIS SAYS. OMARI I AM GONNA KILL U. U STILL HAVE THAT ROOM TREY SAYS. YEAH I DO. I THOUGHT ABOUT GETTING RID OF BUT I CHANGE MY MIND. I HAVE NOT USED IT FOR A WHILE NOW. I AM FINDING OUT MORE AND MORE ABOUT U CHRIS SAYS SMILING. OK CAN WE GET BACK TO DANCING I SAY TO EVERYONE. I NEED CHRIS,TREY,TYGA,AND SHAD TO SIT IN THESE CHAIRS. TARA AND NICOLE DID U GUYS WANT DANCE WITH US? I ASKED THEM. NO WE REALLY DON'T DANCE ANYMORE NICOLE SAYS. OK THEN I SAYS TO THEM. I TELL NICKI TO PUT ON MOTIVATION. SO YA'LL ALREADY HAVE THE ROUTINE FOR THIS SONG CHRIS ASKED ME. YEAH WE BEEN HAD A ROUTINE FOR THIS SONG. WE NEVER KNOW WHEN WE MIGHT BE ASKED TO PERFORM FOR SOMETHING I TELL HIM.

OH LOVER, DON'T U DARE SLOW DOWN
GO LONGER, U CAN LAST MORE ROUNDS
PUSH HARDER, YOU'RE ALMOST THERE NOW
SO GO LOVER, MAKE MAMA PROUD
WE R DANCING I SEE CHRIS BITING AND LICKING HIS LIPS. WE DANCING IN FRONT THEM AND LIL WAYNE PART COMES ON SO WE SIT DOWN ON THEM AND I START SINGING IN CHRIS EAR.
AND WHEN WE'ER DONE, I DON'T WANNA FEEL MY LEGS
AND WHEN WE'ER DONE, I JUST WANNA FEEL YOUR HANDS ALL OVER ME BABY
BUT YOU CAN'T STOP THERE, MUSIC STILL PLAYIN IN THE BACKGROUND
YOU'RE ALMOST THERE
YOU CAN DO IT, I BELIEVE IN YOU BABY
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BABY I'MA BE YOUR MOTIVATION

I FEEL HIS HAND ALL OVER MY BODY AND I GET UP TO END THE DANCE AND EVERYONE STARTED CLAPPING. WOW CHRIS SAYS TO US WHEN WE FINISH DANCING. THAT WAS GREAT I HEAR TANYA SAYS. HEY U GUYS MADE IT I SAY TO HER. IS THAT ONE OF THE ROUTINES FOR THE PARTY? LISA ASKED ME. YEAH IT IS. U GUYS R THE BEST TANYA SAYS. SO R U READY TO TALK SOME BUSINESS LISA ASKED ME. YEAH LET GO OVER HERE AND SIT DOWN. JOYCE I WILL BE RIGHT BACK SO I CAN FINISH HELPING U WITH EVERYTHING. TAKE YOUR TIME THERE IS NO RUSH SHE SAYS. U GUYS WERE AMAZING TANYA SAYS. THANKS I SO HAPPY U LIKED IT. SO THE PLACE I FOUND IS CALLED 69 TANYA SAYS. I HAVE HEARD OF THAT PLACE BUT I DON'T KNOW WHO OWNS IT THOUGH. WELL I MET WITH THE OWNER AND HE SAY HE WILL LET U USE ON FRIDAY. HE SAYS U CAN COME IN WHENEVER U CAN TO SEE THE PLACE. SO WHAT IS THE OWNERS NAME I ASKED THEM. HE TOLD US NOT TO TELL U AND THAT HE WANTED IT TO BE A SURPRISE. OK THEN I CAN'T WAIT TO MEET HIM. SO HOW MUCH DOES HE WANT TO USE THE CLUB THAT DAY? I ASKED. U DON'T HAVE TO PAY FOR ANYTHING TANYA SAYS. EVERYTHING IS TAKEN CARE OF SHE TELLS ME. OK BY WHO. THAT IS A SURPRISE AS WELL LISA SAYS. U GUYS R UP TO SOMETHING BUT I WILL LEAVE IR ALONE FOR NOW. CHRIS COMES OVER AND SITS NEXT TO ME AT THE TABLE.

SO U HAVE EVERYTHING IN ORDER FOR THE PARTY? CHRIS ASKED ME. YEAH IT SEEMS SOMEONE HAS TAKEN CARE OF EVERYTHING FOR ME. OK THEN CHRIS SAYS. CAN I TALK TO U FOR MINUTE? CHRIS ASKED ME. SURE. U GUYS FINISH ENJOYING THE REST OF THE COOKOUT. SO WE GO IN THE HOUSE TO THE LIVING ROOM AND HE TELLS ME TO SIT DOWN. HE JUST STARED AT ME SMILING. WHAT? I ASKED HIM. U R SO AMAZING CHRIS SAYS. THANK U. SO I TALKED TO MY MOM AND SHE TOLD ME WHAT U SAID. SHE DID. LIKE I SAID BEFORE I AM NOT GONNA RUSH U FOR AN ANSWER CHRIS SAYS. SHE TOLD ME U WERE FEELING SCARED AND NERVOUS. I AM BECAUSE I AM AFRAID OF GETTING HURT AGAIN AND WITH BOTH OF OUR CAREERS IN THE PUBLIC EYE, I AM AFRAID OF WHAT THE MEDIA MIGHT DO TO US. BUT YOUR MOM JUST TOLD ME TO FOLLOW MY HEART AND JUST EACH DAY ONE DAY AT A TIME. AS FOR THE PROPOSAL, I WILL GIVE U AND ANSWER ON FRIDAY. I DON'T KNOW WHEN ON FRIDAY. JUST KNOW THAT I WILL HAVE AND ANSWER FOR U ON FRIDAY. HE LOOK AT ME AND SMILED AND HE GAVE ME KISS. OK CAN YA'LL GET A ROOM I HEARD LYTRELL SAY WALKING PASSED US. WE GET UP FROM THE COUCH AND I HEAD BACK TO THE KITCHEN.

IS EVERYTHING ALRIGHT WITH U TWO? MY MOM ASKED ME. YEAH EVERYTHING IS PERFECT. DID U GIVE HIM YOUR ANSWER? JOYCE ASKED. NO I DID NOT BUT I WILL GIVE HIM ONE ON FRIDAY. ALRIGHT THEN,I WILL BE WAITING TO HEAR WHAT HAPPEN THAT DAY BOTH OF THEM AGREE ON TOGETHER. SO WE TOOK THE SIDE DISHES OUT TO SET UP THE TABLE SO WE COULD SIT DOWN AND EAT. OK EVERYONE IT IS TIME TO EAT JOYCE SAYS. I WOULD LIKE TO THANK EVERYONE FOR COMING OVER HERE TODAY JOYCE SAYS. I HOPE I WILL BE SEEING U GUYS MORE OFTEN NOW THAT WE ALL R A FAMILY NOW. I WOULD LIKE TO TELL EVERYONE THAT EVERYTHING IS SET FOR THE PARTY TO CELEBRATE THE OPENING OF MY STORE AND MY CLOTHING LINE I SAYS T EVERYONE. OH I SO HAPPY FOR U MY MOM SAYS. YEAH CONGRATS SIS MY BROTHER SAYS. U AND ALISA CAME COME TO IF LIKE? I TELL THEM. WE WOULD LIKE TOO BUT THE DOCTOR WANT HER TO TAKE IT EASY. OK THAT IS FINE AND I UNDERSTAND. THIS FOOD LOOKS GREAT DRAKE SAYS. LOOK AT DJ I SAY. HE CAN REALLY EAT TREY SAYS. WE ALL STARTED LAUGHING. AS WE R EATING I HEAR MY PHONE RING. I LOOK AT IT TO SEE WHO IT WAS AND....

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U DID NOT GIVE HIM AN ANSWER JOYCE SAYS. NO I DID NOT. HE JUST CAUGHT ME OFF GUARD WITH THIS. HE SAID HE WOULD GIVE ME TIME TO THINK ABOUT IT. R U SCARED MY MOM ASKED. I DON'T KNOW WHAT I AM FEELING RIGHT NOW. WITH EVERYTHING THAT HAS HAPPEN WITH ME, MY MIND IS SPINNING. WHAT DO U MEAN? JOYCE SAYS. HELLO IS ANYBODY HOME? YELLS CHRIS SISTER. WE R IN THE KITCHEN SWEETIE. HEY EVERYBODY SHE SAYS. WHAT R U GUYS TALKING ABOUT? LYTRELL ASKED. YOUR BROTHER ASKED TAMARAH TO MARRY HIM MY MOM SAYS. SHE HAS NOT GIVEN HIM AN ANSWER YET THOUGH JOYCE SAYS. U SAID YOUR MIND IS SPINNING AND... YEAH THIS WHOLE THING WITH USHER HAS GOTTEN WAY OUT OF HAND. WHEN HE CAME OVER THIS MORNING HE REVEALED SOMETHINGS THAT.. I PAUSED. MY MOM ALREADY KNEW WHAT I WAS TALKING ABOUT. THE LOOK ON HER FACE SAID IT ALL. WHAT HAPPEN LYTRELL SAID. I FELT MYSELF ABOUT TO CRY. HE ASKED ME TO MARRY HIM AND I WAS PREGNANT WITH HIS CHILD. I NEVER TOLD ANYONE BECAUSE I HAD A MISCARRIAGE. I TOLD MY MOM BUT I ASKED HER NOT TO TELL ANYONE. I AM SO SORRY SWEETIE JOYCE SAYS GIVING ME A HUG. I WAS LYING TO EVERYONE ABOUT HOW I NEVER SLEPT WITH AND THAT I WAS STILL A VIRGIN. I JUST FELT LIKE THAT WAS THE BEST THING TO DO FOR ME. U THOUGHT CHRIS WOULD BE MAD ABOUT EVERYTHING THAT WAS SAID JOYCE SAYS. YEAH I DID THINK HE WOULD BE. HE WASN'T MAD WAS HE MY MOM ASKED. NO HE WASN'T. HE UNDERSTOOD WHY I DID WHAT I DID. LET ME SHOW U SOMETHING JOYCE SAYS.

SHE SHOWS ME A PICTURE OF CHRIS AND ME WHEN WE FIRST MET AT THE PARTY I HAD. WHEN HE MET U THAT NIGHT, ALL HE EVER TALKED ABOUT WAS HOW BEAUTIFUL U R. HE KNEW ONE DAY THAT THE TWO OF U WOULD BE TOGETHER. U KNOW I HAVE THIS SAME PICTURE HANGING UP IN MY HOUSE. I DID NOT KNOW HE HAS FELT THIS WAY ABOUT ALL THAT TIME. I DON'T WANT TO GET CAUGHT UP IN THE MEDIA EYE AGAIN. WITH MY NEW JOB AND HIS CAREER I FEEL LIKE SOMETHING IS GONNA GO WRONG. U DON'T HAVE TO THINK ABOUT THAT NOW JOYCE SAYS. U NEED TO CONTINUE TAKING YOUR RELATIONSHIP ONE DAY AT A TIME. THERE R GONNA BE SOME BUMPS ALONG THE WAY BUT THAT COMES ALONG WITH EVERYTHING IN LIFE. I AM NOT GONNA TELL U WHAT TO DO JOYCE SAYS. U JUST NEED TO FOLLOW YOUR HEART SHE SAYS. I AGREE MY MOMS SAYS. NOW LET GO BACK IN THE KITCHEN SO WE CAN GET THIS FOOD COOKING SO WE CAN EAT. OH YOUR BROTHER AND HIS GIRLFRIEND CAME IN WITH ME LYTRELL SAYS. THEY R OUT BACK WITH EVERYONE. GOOD I WILL TAKE SOME OF THIS MEAT OUT SO WE CAN START COOKING IT. HEY JESSE AND ALISA. HOW IS THE BABY DOING? I ASKED ALISA. HE IS FINE AND I A FINE TOO. I SEE U AND CHRIS FINALLY HOOKED UP. DON'T TELL ME U KNEW ABOUT HIM LIKING ME. YEAH ME AND CHRIS HAVE BEEN HANGIN OUT FOR A WHILE NOW. I SEE TAMEKAH AND TREY FINALLY HOOKED UP TOO JESSE SAYS. I WAS GETTING TIRED OF HER TALKING ABOUT HIM.

WOULD U COOK THE MEAT ON GRILL JESSE? JOYCE ASKED HIM. YEAH I CAN DO THAT HE SAYS. I WALKED OVER TO WHERE MY SISTER AND EM WAS STANDING. SO WHAT WAS ALL THE YELLING ABOUT IN THE KITCHEN? MIKA ASKED. I PULLED THE BOX OUT AND SHOWED THEM THE RING. DAMN THEY ALL SAYS. HE ASKED U TO MARRY HIM SHALAMEKE ASKED ME. YEAH HE DID BUT I DID NOT GIVE HIM AN ANSWER YET. HE CAUGHT ME OFF GUARD WITH IT. I JUST HAVE SO MUCH TO THINK ABOUT AND I AM FEELING SCARED,NERVOUS, AND SO MANY OTHER THINGS. TAMEKAH TOLD US ABOUT WHAT HAPPEN THIS MORNING WITH USHER. I AM SO SORRY ABOUT YOUR BABY NICKI SAYS. I CAN'T BELIEVE HE DID THAT TO U AND HAS THE NERVE TO THINK U WOULD TAKE HIM BACK SHE SAYS. I AM JUST HAPPY THAT CHRIS UNDERSTOOD WHY I DID WHAT I DID. HE KNEW U WERE NOT A VIRGIN TARA ASKED. YEAH. HE REALLY DOES LOVE U SHE SAYS. SO WHEN WILL U GIVE HIM YOUR ANSWER? NICOLE ASKED ME. I DON'T KNOW YET. I WANT TO TALK TO HIM AGAIN ABOUT IT. TYGA ASKED ME TO MOVE IN WITH HIM MIKA SAYS. HE DID AND WHAT DID U SAY I ASKED HER. I TOLD HIM YES. ABOUT TIME U GUYS TOOK THIS STEP TAMEKAH SAYS. U R FINALLY GROWING UP AND I AM HAPPY FOR U I TELL HER. SO SHALMEKE WHATS UP WITH U AND SHAD. EVERYTHING IS GOOD AND I AM... SHE PAUSED. U R WHAT I ASKED HER. I AM PREGNANT SHE SAYS. WE ALL R SCREAMING AND YELLING AND CONGRATULATING HER. HOW FAR ALONG R U NICKI ASKED. I AM TWO MONTHS AND I WANTED IT TO BE A SURPRISE.

SO WHERE IS DJ I ASKED NICOLE. HE IS OVER THERE WITH HIS FATHER. I GONNA SAY HI TO HIM. I WALKED OVER TO DRAKE AND DJ. HEY U GUYS WHATS UP? HI MS. TAMARAH DJ SAYS. HI. U R SO POLITE DJ. R U HAVING FUN. YEAH I AM. DO U KNOW WHAT U WANT TO BE WHEN U GROW UP I ASKED HIM. YEAH I WANT TO BE JUST LIKE MY DAD. OH U WANT TO BE A RAPPER LIKE YOUR DAD OR DO U WANT TO BE AN ACTOR. I WANT TO DO BOTH. HOW DID U KNOW I WAS AND ACTOR? DRAKE ASKED ME. COME ON NOW I SAW U IN THE SHOW DEGRASSI. I LIKE WATCHING THAT SHOW. U BETTER WATCH HIM HE IS GONNA HAVE GIRLS ALL OVER HIM WHEN HE GETS OLDER I TELL DRAKE. WE BOTH STARTED LAUGHING. CAN I GET A PICTURE OF U GUYS TOGETHER? JOYCE ASKED. SO WE ALL GET UP TO POSE FOR THE PICTURE. SHE TAKES ONE WITH ALL OF US. THEN SHE TAKES ONE WITH JUST THE GIRLS AND THEN ONE WITH JUST THE GUYS. I HEAR TANYA AND LISA COME IN AND SAYS HI TO EVERYONE. CHRIS COMES AND PULLS ME TOWARD HIM AND AND ME TO DANCE WITH HIM. I WANNA SEE HOW U MOVE HE SAYS. I SMILE AT HIM. SO U WANT TO CHALLENGE ME TO A DANCE OFF. THAT RIGHT AND MY SISTER SAYS U CAN TAKE HIM. OK CHRIS I SAY TO HIM.

I hope she says yes

she beta say yes im happy chris aint made about all dat usher and nt being a virgin stuff

WILL U MARRY ME? HE SAID AGAIN. CHRIS THIS IS SO SUDDEN AND I... I COULD NOT SAY ANYTHING. U DON'T HAVE TO ANSWER RIGHT NOW BECAUSE I SEE U R SURPRISED BY IT. I WILL GIVE U SOMETIME TO THINK ABOUT IT. I KNOW WE JUST STARTED DATING BUT I ALREADY MADE UP MY MIND. WE DON'T HAVE TO GET MARRIED RIGHT AWAY. I JUST FELT LIKE I HAVE U AND I WANT TO BE WITH U FOREVER. SO U CAN HOLD ON TO THIS RING AND THINK ABOUT IT FOR ME. HE GOT UP AND GAVE A KISS AND WENT BACK DOWN STAIRS. R U COMING TAMARAH? CHRIS ASKED. I WILL DOWN IN A MINUTE. THIS RING WAS SO BEAUTIFUL AND I COULD NOT BELIEVE THIS WAS HAPPENING TO ME RIGHT NOW. I DIDN'T THINK HE WOULD BE READY SO SOON TO DO THIS. I WANT TO TALK TO MY FAMILY AND SEE WHAT THEY THINK ABOUT I SHOULD DO. I PUT THE RING IN MY POCKET AND WENT BACK DOWN STAIRS. IS EVERYTHING OK JOYCE ASKED ME. YEAH EVERYTHING IS FINE I SAY BACK. I AM READY TO START COOKING AND HAVE SOME FUN. SO R U GONNA TELL US WHAT HAPPEN UPSTAIRS? MY MOM ASKED. I WAS IN MY OWN LITTLE WORLD I DID NOT HERE HER. TAMARAH SHE CALLS TO ME. OH I AM SORRY I WAS JUST THINKING.. AND I PAUSED. WHAT HAPPEN UP THERE JOYCE ASKED. I TOOK THE RING OUT MY POCKET AND SHOWED THEM. THEY BOTH STARTED SCREAMING AND YELLING. CAN YA'LL STOP I DON'T WANT EVERYONE TO COME IN AND SEE WHAT U GUYS R YELLING ABOUT. I AM SO HAPPY FOR U MY MOM SAY. I DID NOT GIVE HIM AN ANSWER I TELL THEM.

THERE WAS A KNOCK AT MY BEDROOM DOOR. CAN WE COME IN MY SISTER ASKED. YEAH COME IN. R U ALRIGHT TREY ASKED ME. YEAH I AM FINE NOW. MY SISTER CAME OVER AND GAVE ME A HUG. I AM SO SORRY ABOUT WHAT HAPPEN TO U. I UNDERSTAND Y U DID NOT TELL ANYONE BUT MOM. DID SHE KNOW ABOUT THE MISCARRIAGE SHE ASKED ME. YES AND I TOLD HER NOT TO SAY ANYTHING BECUZ IT WAS HARD FOR ME. SHE UNDERSTOOD MY WISHES AND SHE NEVER TOLD ANYONE ABOUT IT. EVERYONE IS DOWN STAIRS WAITING AND THEY R GONNA WANT TO KNOW WHAT HAPPEN HERE MY SISTER SAYS. I KNOW I WILL TELL THEM WHEN I AM READY TO TELL THEM. FUNNY THING U WERE RIGHT ABOUT MIKA AND SHALAMEKE HAVING ON THE PANTS U MADE THEM TREY SAYS. WE ALL STARTED LAUGHING. WE WILL BE DOWN IN A MINUTE CHRIS TELLS THEM. ALRIGHT WE WILL BE WAITING MY SISTER SAYS. R U SURE U R OK CHRIS SAYS. YEAH I AM FINE NOW LET GO BECUZ I AM READY FOR THIS COOKOUT. ONE MORE THING I KNEW U WERE NOT A VIRGIN HE SAYS. WHY DIDN'T U SAY ANYTHING. I KNEW U HAD A REASON FOR SAYING THAT AND NOW I KNOW WHY. SO U KNOW WHAT A VIRGIN FEELS LIKE AND STARTED SMILING JUST TO MESS WITH HIM. WE REALLY NEED TO GET GOING HE SAYS. OK CHRIS WE CAN GO. I AM JUST MESSING WITH U CHRIS. IS EVERYTHING ALRIGHT SHALAMEKE ASKED ME. EVERYTHING IS FINE. WHAT HAPPEN OVER HERE MIKA ASKED. I WILL TELL U GUYS LATER. RIGHT NOW WE NEED TO GO BECUZ I CHRIS MOM IS WAITING ON US THERE.

AS WE R WALKING MY PHONE RINGS. HELLO. YEAH TAMARAH THIS IS TANYA. HEY WHATS UP. I AM CALLING U TO LET U KNOW I HAVE FOUND THE PERFECT PLACE FOR U TO HAVE YOUR PARTY THIS FRIDAY. IT IS THE RIGHT SIZE AND IT HAD A PERFORMING AREA AS U WANTED. I AM SO HAPPY U FOUND SOMETHING ON SHORT NOTICE FOR ME. I WANTED TO DISCUSS EVERYTHING WITH U TODAY IF U CAN. I AM GOING TO CHRIS HOUSE RIGHT NOW FOR A COOKOUT. OK I CAN COME THERE TO DISCUSS SOME OF THE DETAILS WITH SINCE U R BUSY WITH COOKOUT. OK THAT IS FINE TANYA. U KNOW WHERE HE LIVES RIGHT. YEAH I WILL CALL LISA AND WE BE THERE IN ABOUT AN HOUR. OK AND THANK U AGAIN TANYA. I REALLY OWE U BIG TIME. NO PROBLEM I WILL SEE U SOON. BYE. OK BYE TANYA. THAT WAS TANYA CHRIS ASKED ME. YEAH SHE FOUND A PLACE FOR ME TO HAVE THE PARTY ON FRIDAY. SHE WANTS TO DISCUSS SOME OF THE DETAILS WITH ME TODAY. SHE KNOW WE R HAVING THE COOKOUT TODAY, SHE JUST WANTS TO TALK A LITTLE BIT ABOUT THE PLACE. THAT IS GREAT HE SAYS. I KNOW U CAN'T WAIT FOR YOUR STORE TO OPEN. I HAVE SOMETHING I WANT TO SHOW U AND GIVE U WHEN WE GET TO MY HOUSE. OK U BET NOT BE THINKING WE GONNA... NO NOT THAT HE SAYS. BESIDES U R WEARING ME OUT. OH I AM WEARING U OUT CHRIS. OK THAT IS FINE. I AM JUST PLAYING TAMARAH HE SAYS LAUGHING.

WE WALKED UP TO THE DOOR AND HIS MOM WAS WAITING FOR US. FINALLY U GUYS R HERE SHE SAYS. CHRIS I NEED U TO GOT TO THE STORE AND PICK UP A FEW THINGS FOR ME. CHRIS GAVE HIS MOM A HUG AND SAID OK. SHE SQUEEZED A LITTLE TO HARD. WHAT WRONG WITH U SHE ASKED. HE GOT INTO A FIGHT WITH MY EX YESTERDAY AT THE COURT. MOM I AM FINE JUST SOAR STILL. EVERYONE COME IN AND HEAD OUT TO THE BACKYARD. TAMARAH U CAN FOLLOW ME TO THE KITCHEN SO WE CAN START PREPARING THE FOOD. TELL ME WHAT HAPPEN YESTERDAY AT THE COURT. HELLO I HERE MY MOMS VOICE. WE R IN THE KITCHEN JOSIE(THAT IS MY MOMS NAME). HEY JOYCE AND MY BABY TAMARAH. HI MOM. WHAT R U GUYS TALKING ABOUT SHE ASKED. CHRIS GOT INTO A FIGHT AT THE COURT YESTERDAY WITH HER EX. I WAS GOING FOR A LITTLE WALK TO CLEAR MY HEAD WHEN HE SPOTTED ME AT THE WATER FOUNTAIN. HE WANTED TO APOLOGIZE FOR EVERYTHING HE HAD DONE AND HE WANTED TO GET BACK WITH ME. LONG STORY SHORT HE GRABBED ME WHEN I TOLD HIM NO AND CHRIS AND THE OTHER GUYS CAME RUNNING OVER TO ME. THEY WENT BACK AND FORTH ARGUING UNTIL USHER CALLED ME A HOE AND THAT SET CHRIS OFF. WE R GLAD U GUYS R ALRIGHT THEY BOTH SAY TO ME. HAS HE CAME TO U HOUSE ANYMORE? MY MOM ASKED. YEAH HE HAS. HE CAME OVER THE SAME DAY TO APOLOGIZE AGAIN AND HE WAS THERE THIS MORNING. RIGHT NOW I REALLY DON'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT BUT I WILL TELL U GUYS WHAT HAPPEN JUST NOT NOW. I HOPE U GUYS UNDERSTAND. OK WE UNDERSTAND WE WILL WAIT FOR U TO TELL US.

OH YOUR BROTHER SAID HE WILL BE COMING OVER TO WITH HIS GIRLFRIEND LISA. I HAVE NOT SEEN THEM IN A LONG TIME. MY BROTHER NAME IS JESSE. DEE DEE SAID SHE WOULD NOT BE ABLE TO MAKE IT. OK I HAD TALKED TO HER A COUPLE OF DAYS AGO. SO U HAVE ANOTHER BROTHER AND A SISTER. YES BUT I ALSO HAVE ANOTHER BROTHER WHO IS IN JAIL RIGHT NOW. HIS NAME IS TYRONE. SO U HAVE FIVE KIDS JOSIE? JOYCE ASKED HER. YEAH BUT DEE DEE AND TYRONE R MY STEP KIDS. THEY R THE OLDEST OF THE FIVE. SO U HAVE ONLY THREE THEN. YES I DO. WHAT ABOUT YOUR DAD TAMARAH. HE SAID HE WASN'T COMING. I TOLD HIM ABOUT WHO U WERE DATING AND LETS JUST SAY HE IS NOT HAPPY. I ALREADY KNEW THAT. THAT IS WHY I DID NOT CALL HIM. I WANT TO TALK TO HIM BUT HE JUST DON'T KNOW HOW TO TALK TO SOMEONE WITHOUT YELLING. I AM FINE THAT HE DOES NOT WANT TO BE HERE. I AM NOT GONNA FORCE HIM TO BE APART OF THIS. HE IS STILL MAD ABOUT ME AND USHER NOT BEING TOGETHER ANYMORE. DOES HE KNOW WHAT HE HE DID TO U? JOYCE ASKED. YEAH HE DOES. HE THOUGHT MAYBE WE COULD HAVE WORKED IT OUT BUT I DID NOT WANT TO. I AM GLAD I DID WHAT I DID BECAUSE LOOK WHAT IS HAPPENING NOW WITH HIM.

I SEE YOUR SISTER IS HAPPY. YEAH, HER AND TREY FINALLY HOOKED UP WITH EACH OTHER. I AM SO GLAD BECAUSE THAT GIRL COULD NOT STOP TALKING ABOUT HIM MY MOM SAYS. SHE THINKS U DID NOT KNOW ABOUT HER FEELING FOR HIM. WELL I DID KNOW AND IT WAS OBVIOUS SHE LOVED HIM. CHRIS AND THE GUYS HAD COME BACK FROM THE STORE. TAMARAH CAN I SEE U FOR A MINUTE? HE ASKED. SURE U CAN. I WILL RIGHT BACK. DON'T WORRY I WILL BE HERE WAITING. OH AND DON'T BE UP THERE ALL DAY HIS MOM AND MY MOM SAY LAUGHING. WE WON'T I SAY BACK LAUGHING. HE TAKES ME UPSTAIRS AND TELL ME TO WAIT OUTSIDE HIS ROOM FOR A MINUTE. HE TELL ME TO COME IN AND SIT DOWN. U HAVE A NICE ROOM AND I LIKE THE PICTURES U HAVE DRAWN ON THEM. SO WHAT WERE DOING HIDING DIRTY MOVIES AND MAGAZINES? NO HE SAYS QUICKLY. I TURNED TO HIM LAUGHING AND HE DID NOT SAY ANYTHING. THAT IS FINE. I AM NOT MAD U HAVE THOSE THINGS. HAVE U EVER WATCH AND HE PAUSED. I HAVE SEEN A FEW AS I TURNED AROUND AND SMILE AT HIM. HE LOOKED KIND OF SHOCKED AND SURPRISED BY IT. HE WENT OVER TO HIS DRESSER AND PULLED OUT A LITTLE BLACK BOX. U KNOW I LOVE AND I WANT TO SPEND THE REST OF MY LIFE WITH U. CHRIS WHAT R U SAYING. HE GOT DOWN ON ONE KNEE, OPEN UP THE BOX AND SAID WILL U MARRY ME?

dam he made he loose her baby dam but im happy chris ant mad

dang he caused her to hav a misscarriage what a duche ugh run this

SO WE STILL TALKING IN THE KITCHEN WHEN CHRIS WENT TO ANSWER THE DOOR. THE PHONE RINGS AND ITS MY COUSIN MIKA. TAMARAH SHE SAYS. YEAH WHATS UP I ASKED HER. U NEED TO GET TO THE DOOR RIGHT NOW. WHY WAS WRONG. USHER IS AT THE DOOR AND HIM AND CHRIS R ARGUING. OH MY GOD. I HUNG THE PHONE UP AND WENT RUNNING TO THE DOOR. I GET TO THE DOOR AND THEY ARGUING BACK AND FORTH. I YELL FOR THEM TO STOP. USHER WHAT R U DOING HERE. DID U GET MY GIFTS I SENT U HE SAYS. YEAH AND HERE U CAN HAVE THEM BACK. IT'S LIKE THAT U DON'T WANT THIS. NO AND I TOLD U BEFORE WE R DONE. SO U WOULD RATHER BE WITH A WOMAN BEATER THEN WITH ME HE LOOKS AT CHRIS. I'LL SHOW U A BEATING CHRIS TRIES TO GET PASS ME. I STOPPED HIM FROM GETTING PASS ME. U GOT SOME NERVE COMING OVER HERE AGAIN AFTER WHAT I SAID TO U YESTERDAY. THIS WAS ANOTHER THING WRONG IN OUR RELATIONSHIP. U ALWAYS BOUGHT ME THING THINKING THAT WOULD KEEP ME HAPPY. I DID NOT WANT THOSE THINGS I WANTED U. THEY WERE NICE TO GET WHEN U GAVE THEM TO ME BUT U COULD NOT STOP. THAT IS WHY I WAS NOT HAPPY. U FELT LIKE U COULD GO CHEAT AND STAY OUT LATE AND WHEN WE ARGUED OVER U WOULD BUY SOMETHING THINKING THAT WAS MAKING EVERYTHING BETTER. U DID NOT COMPLAIN ABOUT WHEN I WAS GIVING U THESE THINGS. U R RIGHT BECAUSE I WAS TRYING TO STAY POSITIVE ABOUT EVERYTHING AND DID WANNA SEE THE WRONG U WERE CAUSING ME. DID U TELL HIM THAT I ASK U TO MARRY ME? HE SAYS. MY SISTER SAYS WHAT U DID NOT TELL US THAT. I DID NOT TELL ANYONE BECAUSE I TOLD HIM NO AND THAT I KNEW U WERE CHEATING ON ME. WE WERE GONNA BE ONE BIG HAPPY FAMILY USHER SAYS. U DID NOT TELL THEM U WERE PREGNANT WHEN I ASKED U TO MARRY ME. THERE WAS SILENCE FOR A MOMENT. U WERE PREGNANT MY SISTER ASKED ME. I FELT MYSELF JUST LEAVE MY BODY. I HAD NOT TOLD ANYONE ABOUT THIS. TAMARAH U WERE PREGNANT CHRIS ASKED. I LOOKED AT HIM AND STARTED CRYING AND RAN IN THE HOUSE. ONLY PERSON I HAD TOLD ABOUT IT WAS MY MOM. AT THE TIME I WAS HAPPY AND WANTED IT TO BE A SURPRISE. SO I TOLD HER NOT TO SAY ANY THING TO KNOW ONE. CHRIS STOPPED ME AND SAID WHAT HAPPENED. OK YEAH I WAS PREGNANT AND I WAS HAPPY UNTIL I LOST IT OK. U WERE THE REASON I LOST IT. PUTTING STRESS ON ME, ALL THE ARGUING AND CONSTANT CRYING OVER U I HAD A MISCARRIAGE.

CHRIS TOLD USHER U NEED TO LEAVE NOW. THAT IS FINE WITH ME I SEE MY WORK HERE IS DONE. I RAN UPSTAIRS TO MY ROOM AND CLOSED THE DOOR. TAMARAH WHERE R U I HERE CHRIS. I DID NOT SAY ANYTHING. I WAS SITTING ON THE BED WHEN HE CAME IN THE ROOM. R U OK. I'M FINE WHIPPING THE TEARS FROM MY FACE. I AM SO SORRY HE SAYS. WHY DIDN'T U TELL ME ABOUT THIS. BECAUSE I DON'T LIKE TO TALK ABOUT IT BUT I WAS GONNA TELL EVERYONE JUST NOT LIKE THIS. HE WAS ONLY MARRY ME BECAUSE OF THE BABY. I DON'T EVEN THINK HE WAS READY EITHER. I WAS GONNA HAVE MY FIRST CHILD WITH HIM. I THOUGHT EVERYTHING WAS GONNA BE BETTER. SO THE WHOLE THING ABOUT BEING VIRGIN WAS A LIE. I AM SORRY I DID THAT I JUST I DON'T KNOW WHY I EVEN STARTED TELLING EVERYONE THAT I WAS STILL A VIRGIN. I WALKED TOWARD THE WINDOW WHEN HE HE PUT HI ARMS AROUND ME. I STILL LOVE U NO MATTER WHAT HAS HAPPEN. I KNOW U WERE TRYING TO RID HIM FROM YOUR MIND. HE TURNED ME AROUND SAYING HE IS JUST JEALOUS OF WHAT WE HAVE. I STILL WANT TO BE WITH U AND MAYBE WE WILL HAVE KIDS ONE DAY. HE KISS ME AND GAVE ME A HUG. I AM SO HAPPY TO HAVE U HERE WITH ME.

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GOOD MORNING MRS. BROWN CHRIS SAYS TO ME. GOOD MORNING MR. BROWN I SAY BACK. HE MOVES THE PILLOW FROM BETWEEN US AND STARTS TO KISS ME. CHRIS COME ON NOW I NEED TO START GETTING READY FOR TODAY. I COULD BARELY TALK FROM HIM TOUCHING ME. LET DADDY HAVE A TASTE RIGHT NOW AS I TURN OVER FOR HIM. CHRIS I REALLY NEED TO GET UP TRYING TO CATCH MY BREATH. THE DOOR BELL RINGS. SAVE BY THE BELL I SAY LAUGHING. THAT IS COLD CHRIS SAYS LAUGHING. I GRABBED MY ROBE AND WENT TO GET TO GET THE DOOR. I HEARD CHRIS SAY DAMN AS I WAS LEAVING. I WENT TO GO OPEN THE DOOR AND THERE WAS A DELIVERY MAN STANDING AT THE DOOR. PACKAGE FOR A TAMARAH SHIVERS HE SAYS. I AM TAMARAH. SIGN HERE PLEASE. I SIGNED FOR THE PACKAGE AND I WENT INTO THE KITCHEN. THERE WAS A ADDRESS ON THE PACKAGE A DID NOT RECOGNIZE. I OPEN IT AND THERE WAS THIS A NOTE THAT SAYS I LOVE U. SO I OPEN THE IT UP AND THERE WAS THIS BEAUTIFUL DIAMOND NECKLACE AND A BRACELET TO MATCH. I WAS SMILING AND HAPPY. BUT I LOOKED AT THE BOTTOM OF THE PACKAGE AND FOUND ANOTHER NOT THAT SAYS THIS IS WHAT I CAN GIVE U ALL THE TIME. I WANT U BACK AND I KNOW HE CAN'T GIVE U THINGS LIKE THIS LIKE I CAN. LOVE ALWAYS USHER. I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS MUTHA F***ER SENT ME THIS AFTER ALL I SAID TO HIM. I AM SO MAD RIGHT NOW AND I KNOW CHRIS IS GONNA BE PISSED OFF WHEN HE SEE THIS. I KNEW HE WAS GONNA BE A PROBLEM STILL BUT I WAS TRYING TO BE POSITIVE ABOUT EVERYTHING AND LOOKS WHAT IS HAPPENING NOW.

WHO WAS AT THE DOOR CHRIS ASKED ME. IT WAS A PACKAGE FOR ME. HE CAME OVER AND LOOKED TO SEE WHAT IT I HAD GOTTEN. DAMN THAT IS NICE. WHO SENT IT TO U HE SAYS. I COULD NOT SAY ANYTHING. I TURNED AROUND AND HE LOOKED AT BOTH NOTES AND LOOKED AT ME WITH ANGER ALL OTHER HIM. USHER SENT THESE TO U HE SAYS. YEAH HE DID. HE WENT AND SAT DOWN ON THE STOOL. R U OK I ASKED HIM. YEAH I AM FINE BUT HE JUST DON'T GET IT DOES HE. I AM SORRY ABOUT THIS WHOLE THING U R INVOLVED IN WITH ME. U DON'T HAVE TO APOLOGIZE FOR WHAT HE DOING CHRIS SAYS. HE IS ACTING LIKE I DON'T EVEN EXIST. DO U WANT SOME BREAKFAST I ASKED HIM. YEAH BUT I DO AND HE STARTS SMILING. COME ON NOW CHRIS I SAY RUNNING ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THE COUNTER. WE BOTH R LAUGHING AND HE SAYS U ASKED ME IF I WANTED BREAKFAST. YEAH BUT I MEANT SOMETHING LIKE FOOD. HE FINALLY CATCHES ME. U KNOW I LOVE U AND I WILL NEVER LEAVE U. I KNOW U DO AND I LOVE U TOO. SO R WE GONNA DO ABOUT THIS SITUATION WITH USHER. I DON'T KNOW BUT I DO KNOW WHAT WE CAN DO RIGHT NOW. HE STARTED SMILING AND I GRABBED HIS HAND AND WE WENT UPSTAIRS. I TURNED ON THE SHOWER AND WE BOTH GOT IN. HE STARTS KISSING ME AND LIFTS ME UP AND ENTER INSIDE OF ME. HE PUSHING DEEPER AND DEEPER INSIDE OF ME. HE FELT ME ABOUT TO CUM WHEN HE PULLED OUT AND STARTED TO LICK MY LIPS. U R SO SWEET. I MOANED TELLING HIM DON'T STOP. HE COMES BACK UP AND ENTERS ME AGAIN. I FEEL HIM PUSHING HARDER AND HARDER UNTIL HE CAME RIGHT INSIDE OF ME.

WE BOTH GOT OUT OF THE SHOWER DRIPPING WET. I GRABBED MY TOWEL AND WRAPPED IT AROUND ME. HE CAME UP BEHIND HOLDING ME AROUND MY WAIST. I HAVE NEVER FELT THIS WAY ABOUT ANYONE BEFORE. NOT EVEN WHEN U WERE WITH RIHANNA I ASKED HIM. NO I DID BUT NOT LIKE THIS. I FEEL CALM AND SAFE WITH U. WHEN I AM WITH U I FEEL FREE AND I FEEL LIKE WHATEVER PEOPLE THINK ABOUT I KNOW I CAN COUNT ON U TO TELL ME THAT THEY R WRONG AND R JUST TRYING TO BREAK ME. I AM GLAD TO HERE THAT FROM U. I KNOW HOW THE MEDIA CAN GET TO U BUT U NEED TO JUST CALM ABOUT IT UNLESS OTHERWISE U REALLY NEED TO JUST GET ANGRY. I GO TO MY CLOSET TO SEE WHAT I WAS GONNA WEAR FOR THE COOKOUT TODAY. I FOUND MY FAVORITE JEANS I HAD MADE WITH CHRIS BROWN NAME ON THEM. I FOUND MY RED TANK TOP THAT WENT WITH THEM AND GOT MY HEEL BOOTS TO GO WITH IT. HE CAME IN AND SAID WOW U MADE THESE PANTS TOO. I TURNED AROUND AND HE SMACKED ME ON MY ASS. I LIKE THESE JEANS U MADE. U JUST LIKE THEM BECUZ THEY HAVE YOUR NAME ON THEM AND U WANNA LET EVERYBODY KNOW THAT I YOURS. YEAH U RIGHT. I PUSHED HIM AND TOLD HIM TO HURRY UP LAUGHING AS I WALKED PASSED HIM. I HEARD THE DOOR BELL RING AGAIN. I GOT IT I TOLD CHRIS. U CAN FINISH GETTING READY. I OPENED THE DOOR AND IT WAS MY SISTER TAMEKAH AND TREY. I LOOKED AT HER AND SHE HAD ON THE JEANS I MADE FOR HER WITH TREY NAME ON THEM. R U BOTH PSYCHIC OR SOMETHING TREY SAY. WE BOTH STARTED LAUGHING AND I HEARD CHRIS COME DOWN. WHAT'S UP YA'LL AND CHRIS LOOKED AT MY SISTER PANTS. U MADE A PAIR FOR HER TOO. YEAH I DID AND I WOULD NOT BE SURPRISE IF SHALAMEKE AND MIKA CAME HERE WITH THERE PANTS ON AS WELL.

WE ALL WENT INTO THE KITCHEN, WHEN MY SISTER SPOTTED THE NECKLACE AND BRACELET ON MY COUNTER. WHO'S IS THIS SHE SAID SMILING. IT WAS FOR ME I SAID TO HER. SHE LOOKED CONFUSED. WHAT DO U MEAN IT WAS FOR U? SHE SAYS. LOOK AT THE NOTES I TOLD HER. SHE WAS PISSED OFF. USHER SENT THIS TO U SHE SAID. YEAH HE DID AND I AM GONNA SEND IT RIGHT BACK TO HIM. HE NEED TO KNOW U GUYS R THROUGH TREY SAYS. I KNOW BUT I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. U SOUND LIKE U R GETTING FRUSTRATED AND R ABOUT TO LOSE IT AGAIN. U WOULD THINK THAT BUT I HAVE CHRIS AND USHER CAN KISS MY ASS FOR ALL I CARE. SO U GUYS WERE AT IT AGAIN THIS MORNING MY SISTER SAID SMILING. SO WHAT IF WE WERE U GUYS DID THE SAME THING I SAID BACK. WE ALL STARTED LAUGHING. I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE PARTY TREY SAYS. I CAN'T WAIT EITHER I AM SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW. THIS STORE IS SOMETHING I HAVE DREAMED ABOUT FOR A LONG TIME. I STILL CAN'T BELIEVE ITS FINALLY HERE I SAYS TO THEM. U DESERVES EVERYTHING U HAVE CHRIS SAYS. I HERE THE DOOR BELL AGAIN. I WILL GET IT CHRIS SAYS.

im jus tellin the truth