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I Cry to hide the pain that i feel. no one knows that i cry myself to sleep some nights. i wonder where my life is heading. i feel sometimes i should not be here and should be in another place. i feel like my life is not where it should be so I Cry. my life has been hard growing up. i have always been a big girl so I Cry. i try not to think about what people say about me but I Cry still cry becuz it hurts. people see me happy and always smiling not knowing i cry to hide the pain. I Cry wondering if i will ever find that special someone to luv me for me I Cry sometimes to relieve pressure off me. I Cry becuz i don't like to talk about it so i like to write instead. even though I Cry i still find a way to keep going each day. i know i have people who luv me and want to help but I Cry. maybe one day will have the strength to talk to someone and realize that i do belong here and i will find love. right now i sit here and still cry. may be i will find that special someone and my life will feel complete. i am going to keep my head up and continue to do what i have been doing with my life. one day i will feel lucky and everything will be fine so i won't have to cry anymore.

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Aww the familys are chilling and lol at the quickie comment. Chris ol freaky butt.

HI EVERYBODY MY SISTER SAYS. SO U R THE OTHER SISTER OF THESE TWO DRAKE SAYS. YES I AM. IT IS GOOD TO MEET ALL OF U SHE SAYS. WE HAVE BEEN WAITING ALONG TIME TO MEET U TYGA SAYS. I SEE MY KIDS R GNE ALREADY. IT IS FINE JOYCE SAYS. THEY PROBABALY WENT STRAIGHT TO FIND A GAME TO PLAY. KNOWING MY SON, HE PROBABLY PLAYING WITH HIS UNCLE RIGHT NOW. THEY R CHRIS SAYS. I HOPE THAT IS ALRIGHT HE SAYS. IT IS FINE. THEY DO THIS AT HOME TOO. I NEED SOMEONE TO START THE GRIL SO WE CAN GET THIS FOOD GOING. I WILL START IT FOR U MOMMA CHRIS SAYS. U GUYS CAN GO TO JOYCE SAYS TO THE GUYS. WE KNOW U. GUYS DON'T WANT TO BE HERE WITH ALL US GIRLS. WHAT IS CHRIS UP TOO? I ASKED THEM. Y DO U THINK HE IS UP TO SOMETHNG JOYCE SAYS. GETTING THE FAMILIES TOGETHER AND CHRIS HAS BEEN ACTING STRANGE SINCE THIS MORNING. LOOK, WE JUST THOUGHT IT WAS TIME FOR US TO GET TOGETHER AGAIN AND HAAVE SOME FUN MONIQUE SAYS. WITH EVERYTHING THAT HAS HAPPEN, WE NEED SOME LAUGHTER AND FUN BACK IN OUR LIVES MY MOM SAYS. I KNOW U GUYS R LYING RIGHT NOW. JUST ENJOY THIS DAY WITH FAMILY AND STOP THINKING SOMETHING IS GONNA HAPPEN SHALAMEKE SAYS. ALRIGHT THEN. I WILL DROP IT. SO R U AND CHRIS BACK TO YOU OLD WAYS? MY MOM ASKED ME. YEAH THEY R MY SISTER SAYS. JOYCE ALREADY TOLD ME ABOUT U TOO THE OTHER DAY. CAN WE NOT GET INTO THIS RIGHT NOW? I SAY TO THEM.THE WAY U GUYS R NOW, IT IS LIKE U GUYS NEVER WERE APART FROM EACH OTHER TASHA SAYS. BUT SERIIOULY, HOW R U DOING? I AM DOING FINE NOW. I KNOW THAT THINGS R GONNA TAKES SOME TIME WITH ME BUT I AM DOING MUCH BETTER NOW THAT ME AND CHRIS R BACK TOGETHER. MY LIFE HAS BEEN SO ROGH AND I WANT THINGS TO BE DIFFERENT NOW. HE ASKED ME TO MOVE BACK IN WITH HIM. THAT IS GREAT NEWS JOYCE SAYS. I HAVE NOT GAVE HIM AN ANSWER THOUGH. HE SAID HE WOULD GIVE ME TIME TO THINK ABOUT IT. BUT I THINK I WILL MOVE BACK IN WITH HIM. I MISS HIM AND BEING HERE WITH HIM NEXT TO ME. AAAAWWWWWW THEY ALL SAY. I THINK IT IS GREAT THAT U TOO R GETTING BACK TO THE WAY THINGS WERE MY SISTER DEE DEE SAYS. CHRIS HAS MADE U SO HAPPY AND WE ALL R JUST GLAD THAT U HAVE SOMEBODY LIKE HIM IN YOU LIFE. COME ON AND HELP ME TAKE SOME OF THIS FOOD OUTSIDE JOYCE SAYS. SO R U GONNA TELLS US ABOUT WHAT HAPPENED LAST NIGHT? MIKA SAYS.

NO I WILL NOT. USE YOUR IMAGINATION ABOUT WHAT HAPPEN LAST NIGHT. ALL I CAN SAYS IS THAT I HAVE NEVER FELT SO RELAXED AND SO GREAT RIGHTT NOW. AFTER ALL THIS TIME APART, U GUYS R STILL NASTY AND A BUNCH OF FREAKS ANGIES SAYS. SHUT UP. U KNOW IT IS THE TRUTH MIKA SAYS. U GUYS GOT STRAIGHT BACK INTO YOUR ROUTINE WIH HAVING ALL THIS SEX WITH EACH OTHER MY SISTER SAYS. U WOULD THINK AFTER ALL THAT TIME APART, U GUYS WOULD TAKE THINGS A LITTLE SLOWER MONIQUE SAYS. YEAH WELL THAT WAS NOT GONNA HAPPE. IT WAS JUST TO MUCH SEXUALTENSION BETWEEN US THAT DIDN'T GO AWAY. I AM GLAD IT DIDN'T. I BET U R MIKA SAYS AS WE STARTED LAUGHING. WOULD MY BABY LIKE SOMETHING TO DRINK? SURE CHRIS. JUST BRING ME SOME WATER PLEASE. WOULD U GUYS LIKE SOMETHING TO DRINK TOO? TREY ASKED. YES WE WOULD MY SISTER SAYS. HI TAMARAH. BYE BRIAN. U KNOW HE HAS BEEN HANGIN OUT WITH DAD WHILE U WERE AWAY MY SISTER TAMEKAH SAYS. R U SERIOUS? YES I AM. I AM NOT SURPRISE BY THAT ONE BIT. MY DAD WILL NEVER ACCEPT CHRIS AND THAT IS FINE WITH ME. I WAS NEVER FORCING HIM TO LIKE CHRIS. BUT JUST SIT DOWN AND GET TO KNOW WHO IS NOW AND NOT THAT OTHER PERSON. HE WOULD NOT DO THAT. I AM NOT TRYING TO GET MYSELF BACK INTO OLD HABIT WITH HIM. I AM TIRED OF ARGUING OVER THIS MATTER AND HE CAN STAY AWAY ALL HE WANTS TO. HERE IS YOUR WATER. THANK U CHRIS. CAN I BORROW U FO A MOMENT? CHRIS SAYS. U GUYS BETTER NOT LEAVES US DOWN HERE FOR A QUICKIE TASHA YELLS OUT. I AM NOT PROMISING ANYTHING CHRIS SAYS BACK TOWARD THEM.

Aww it's nice that there familys are there. And Chris wants her to move back in sweet. I hope they do get blessed with another baby and this one survives all the madness.

HEY EVERYBODY. HEY TAMARAH AS MS. JOYCE GIVE ME A HUG. I SEE MY SON IS IN HOT WATER WITH U SHE SAYS LAUGHING. HE IS NOT IN HOT WATER WITH ME. ESPECIALLY NOT RIGHT NOW I TELL HER. MAYBE NEXT TIME HE THINK ABOUT WHAT HE SAYS. SO DID U GUYS HAVE FUN LAST NIGHT? NICKI ASKED ME. DON'T EVEN ASK MY SISTER SAYS. SHE WOULD NOT EVEN TELL ME. TAMARAH. HEY U GUYS. HOW R MY TWO FAVORITE BOYS DOING? GOOD DJ SAYS. SHAD JR. IS STILL TRYING TO TALK. U KNOW I BROUGHT U GUYS SOMETHING BACK FROM MY TRIP IN HAWAII. WE KNOW AND MS. JOYCE GAVE IT TO US ALREADY. DID U LIKE THE THE HAWAIAN STICK? THEY HAVE NOT PUT THEM DOWN. DJ HAD BEEN TRYING TO DO LIKE THE MALE DANCER TO WITH THEM FROM HAWAII DRAKE SAYS. I AM GLAD U GUYS LIKE THEM. I LOVE THOSE TWO LITTLE BOYS. U R SPOILING THEM SHALAMEKE SAYS. WELCOME BACK CHRIS. BOW WOW SAYS. DID THAT COLD SHOWER DO U ANY GOOD? TYGA SAYS. VERY FUNNY. WHERE IS TAMARAH? OVER THERE PLAYING WITH THE BOYS. SHE REALLY LOVE HEM LIKE THEY WERE HER OWN CHRIS SAYS. I KNOW IT HAD BEEN ROUGH ON HER LOSING TWO OF HER OWN MY SISTER SAYS. SHE ALWAYS FIND A WAY TO BOUNCE BACK FROM EVREYTHING THAT HAPPENS TO HER CHRIS SAYS. IT MAKE ME WONDER WHAT OUR LIVES WOULD HAVE BEEN LIKE RIGHT NOW WITH OUR FIRST CHILD. IT CAN STILL HAPPEN CHRIS HIS MOM SAYS. I KNOW IT CAN BUT I DON'T KNOW IF A YEAR HAS BEEN ENOUGH TIME FOR HER JUST YET. U WON'T KNOW UNTIL U TALK TO HER MIKA SAYS. I KNOW IT IS HARD TO TALK ABOUT BUT U GUYS R GONNA HAVE TO TALK ABOUT THIS HIS MOM SAYS. I KNOW BUT I DON'T WANT TO RUSH HER TO A CHILD JUST YET HE SAYS. I DON'T WANT HER TO THINK I AM READY TO HAVE A CHILD RIGHT NOW. I JUST WANT THINGS TO PROGRESS AS THEY R. IF IT HAPPENS THAT WE DO DECIDE TO HAVE A CHILD THEN I AM HAPPY. BUT FOR RIGHT NOW, I LIKE AM HAPPY WITH WHERE WE R NOW CHRIS SAYS. DID U GUYS SEE US OVER THER? DJ SAYS. U GUYS R GETTING GOOD AT THAT SHALAMEKE SAYS. CAN U GIRLS HELP ME IN THE KITCHEN? SURE WE CAN MIKA SAYS. CAN U PLEASE FINISH PLAYING WITH US TAMARAH? U CAN STAY OUT HERE WITH THEM JOYCE SAYS. R U SURE U GUYS DON'T NEED MY HELP? WE CAN HANDLE THINGS IN THE KITCHEN. I KNOW U WANT TO SPEND SOMETIMES WITH THEM. BESIDE WE CAN PUT THE GUYS TO WORK TASHA SAYS.

U GUYS HAVE A LOT OF ENERGY TODAY. THEY R SO CUTE. I KNOW CHRIS SAYS. MAKE ME WONDER WHAT THINGS WOULD BE LIKE IF I HAD NOT LOST MY SECOND CHILD. I DID NOT WANT TO SAY ANYTHING CHRIS SAYS. IT IS FINE CHRIS. IT IS A HARD THING TO TALK ABOUT BUT I HAVE TO DEAL WITH IT. U DON'T HAVE TO BE AFRAID TO TALK TO ME ABOUT IT. I JUST DON'T WANT U TO FEEL LIKE I AM RUSHING U TO MAKE A DECISION LIKE THIS RIGHT NOW. I LIKE HOW THINGS R RIGHT NOW HE SAYS. WHEN THE TIME IS RIGHT IT WILL HAPPEN CHRIS SAYS TO ME. U KNOW U GUYS R SO NOSY I TELL THEM AS THEY R LOOKING IN THE DOOR WAY. WE WERE NOT BEING NOSY MONIQUE SAYS. THEN WHAT DO U CALL IT? CHRIS SAYS. EXACTLY CHRIS SAYS AS WE STARTED LAUGHING. IS IT ALRIGHT IF WE WATCH SOME TV? DJ SAYS. SURE U GUYS CAN CHRIS SAYS. THEY CAN GO RIGHT IN THE LIVING ROOM CHRIS TELLS NICKI. COME ON U TOO. YEAH THEY BOTH SAY. U GUYS JUST RELAX AND LET US TAKE CARE OF EVERYTHING. THANKS MOM CHRIS SAYS. COME ON AND COME SIT WITH ME. IT IS SO NICE TODAY AND I AM JUST SO RELAXED I SAY TO CHRIS. YEAH I CAN DO THAT TO U HE SAYS. SHUT UP. HOW WOULD U FEEL ABOUT MOVING BACK IN WITH ME? I WILL GIVE SOMETIME TO THINK ABOUT IT HE SAYS. I JUST WANT U BACK HERE WITH ME. I MISS WAKNG UP TO U NEXT TO ME. SEEING U SMILE AND JUST LOOKING AT U WHILE U SLEEP NEXT TO ME. HE LEANS IN AND KISSES ME. DON'T U GUYS EVER QUIT? I HEAR MY MOM SAY. HI MOMMA. WHERE IS EVERYBODY? THEY R IN THE KITCHEN CHRIS SAYS. SO THEY GAVE U TOO SOMETIME ALONE I SEE SHE SAYS. LET ME HELP U WITH THISE BAGS? I GOT THEM CHRIS AND I HAVE HELP FROM YOUR BROTHER AND YOUR SISTER. U MEAN DEE DEE CAME WITH U GUYS. YES AND SO R YOUR NIECES AND NEPEWS SHE SAYS. I HAVE NOT SEEN THEM IN ALONG TIME I TELL CHRIS. HEY LITTLE SISTER. HI DEE DEE. U R LOOKING GREAT SHE SAYS. THANK U. U R TOO. I WISH SHE SAYS. I CAN'T GET A HUG FROM MY FAMILY. ALL OF MY NIECES AND NEPHEWS GAVE ME A HUG. HI CHRIS THEY ALL SAY. I AM GONNA LET U TOO TALK CHRIS SAYS. ALRIGHT THEN AS HE GIVES ME A KISS. COME ON YA'LL INTO THE HOUSE CHRIS SAY. U GUYS CAN MEET EVERYONE ELSE CHRIS SAYS. I AM SO HAPPY U GUYS FINALLY CAME. YOUR MOM CALLED US AND SAID WE HAD TO COME. I AM SO SORRY ABOUT WHAT HAPPEN TO THE BABY. I KNOW IT HAS BEEN HARD FOR U SHE SAYS. IT HAS BUT I HAVE HAD TIME TO THINK ABOUT EVERYTHING. I AM ALSO SORRY ABOUT DAD TOO. I WISH THRE WAS SOMETHING I COULD DO. DON'T EVEN WORRY ABOUT IT. I HAVE TRIED WITH HIM AND I AM DONE WITH HIM. U GUYS CAN KEEP SEEING HIM BUT I WILL NOT. I LOVE HIM BUT I JUST CAN'T SEE HIM ANYMORE. I AM NOT GONNA FORCE U TO DO ANYTHING. YOUR MOM ALREDAY TOLD ME HOW SHE TRIED AND THINGS JUST WENT FROM BAD TO WORSE. I AM JUST HAPPY TO SEE U TWO HAVE ORK THINGS OUT AND THAT U R HAPPY AGAIN. I AM HAPPY. I AM EVEN MORE HAPPY THAT U GUYS R HERE. COME ON AND LET ME INTRODUCE U TO EVERYONE. I AM SO HAPPY U GUYS R HERE TODAY. ME TOO MY SISTER DEE DEE SAYS.

See even Ms. Joyce knows her son lol at errbody teasing Chris. Aww I knew he was planning something special at that bbq.

DID U TELL ANYONE ABOUT THIS COKOUT? ACTUALLY MY MOM DID HE SAYS TO ME. SHE AGREED WITH ME THAT IT WAS TIME TO GET TOGETHER AGAIN HE SAYS TO ME. CHRIS, U COOKED A LOT OF FOOD THIS MORNING. THAT IS Y AS THE DOORBELL RUNG. SOMETHING SMELLS GOOD IN HERE I HEAR MY SISTER TAMEKAH'S VOICE. U GUYS JUST COULD NOT RESIST COMING OVER HERE. U KNOW U LOVE US TREY SAYS. WE DECIDED TO COME EARLY BECAUSE WE WANTED TO HELP OUT WITH EVERYTHING MY SISTER SAYS. PLUS YOUR MOM CALLED US AND ASKED US TO BE HERE EARLY TO HELP OUT. EVERYONE ELSE WILL BE HER SOON TOO TREY SAYS. SO HOW WAS LAST NIGHT? MY SISTER ASKED. U JUST COULD NOT WAIT TO ASK ABOUT THAT I ASKED HER. U KNOW I HAD TOO SHE SAYS. WELL. WELL WHAT TAMEKAH. SO U R NOT GONNA TELL ME. U SHOULD ALREADY KNOW. I WANT DETAILS SHE SAYS TO ME. I AM GOING TO GO GET IN THE SHOWER. I AM DONE EATING. U HAD QUITE AN APPETITE TREY SAYS TO ME. WHATEVER I SAY TO HIM. WE WILL BE RIGHT BACK DOWN CHRIS SAYS. DON'T BE UP THERE ALL DAY TREY SAYS TO US. I AM NOT PROMISING ANYTHING CHRIS SAYS. WE WILL NOT BE LONG UP HERE I TELL HIM. SHE SAYS THAT NOW CHRIS SAYS. WHAT CHRIS SAYS LOOKING AT ME. U KNOW U BE THE MAIN ONE WANTING TO DO SOMETHING HE SAYS LAUGHING. ALRIGHT CHRIS I SAY GOING UP THE STAIRS. I AM JUST PLAYING HE SAY RUNNING AFTER ME. YA'LL R CRAZY MY SISTER SAYS. I AM JUST PLAYING HE SAYS. WELL U CAN TAKE YOUR SHOWER BY YOURSELF SINCE I AM THE ONE WHO WANTS TO DO IT ALL THE TIME. NOPE DON'T KISS ME CHRIS. U CAN WAIT OUT HERE TIL I AM DONE. I AM NOT PLAYING CHRIS. ALRIGHT HE SAYS. BESIDE U CAN GO HELP WITH WHAT NEED TO BE DONE DOWNSTAIRS. CHRIS. SEE YOUR MOM IS HERE I TELL HIM. U CAN GO HELP NOW WHILE I FINISH HERE. THAT IS MESSED UP HE SAYS TO ME. U WILL BE FINE BABY. NOW GO HELP YOUR MOMMA I TELL HIM. I TURN AROUND AND HE SMACK ME ON MY ASS. HE LOOKED AT ME AND SMILE AS HE WENT OUT THE DOOR. I HOPE I DID NOT INTERRUPT ANYTHING. U DIDN'T MOM. WHERE IS TAMARAH? SHE IS IN THE SHOWER. AND U R NOT UP THERE WITH HER? MOM. I AM JUST MESSING WITH U SWEETIE.

WHAT IS SO FUNNY? TREY ASKED. I WAS JUST MESSING WITH HIM ABOUT TAMARAH. WHERE IS SHE? NICKI ASKED. UPSTAIRS IN THE SHOWER. AND U R NOT U THERE WITH HERE DRAKE SAYS. YA'LL R REALLY FUNNY CHRIS SAYS. IT IS BECAUSE OF WHAT U SAID WHEN U GUYS WERE ON THE STAIRS MY SISTER SAYS. SO R U READY TO ASK HER? SHALAMEKE SAYS. CAN U GUYS KEEP IT QUIET CHRIS SAYS. SHE IS ALREADY SUSPUCIOUS ABUT SOMETHN GOING ON HE TELLS THEM. ALRIGHT WE WILL KEEP IT QUIET TYGA SAYS. I AM GONNA GO AND GET READY CHRIS SAYS. ALRIGHT SWEETIE. WE CAN FINISH EVERYTHING DOWN HERE HIS MOM SAYS. WE WILL BE DOWN IN A FEW HE SAYS. I SEE U R DONE HE SAYS TO ME. U CAN GO AND GET IN NOW. R U ALRIGHT CHRIS? I AM FINE. ALRIGHT. I AM GONNA GO DOWNSTAIRS AND SEE EVERYONE. SEE U DOWNSTAIRS CHRIS.

Theyre so cute, so glad there back together. now what does Chris have up his sleeve is the question.

CAN I ASK U A QUESTION CHRIS? WHAT IS IT. DID U SEE THAT PICTURE THAT I............. THAT U TOOK WITH USHER AND HIS MOM. YEAH. I KNOW THAT IT WAS ONLY A PICTURE HE SAYS TO ME. I JUST WANTED U TO KNOW THAT WE JUST TALKED AND THAT WAS ALL. I KNOW HE SAYS. BUT MY GIRLS THOUGHT OTHER WISE. THEY R STILL MAD ABOUT WHAT HE DID TO ME. I JUST CAN'T HOLD ON TO WHAT HE DID TO ME THOUGH. I HAVE FORGIVEN HIM FOR AND HE IS SORRY AND FOR ME THAT IS WHAT MATTERS. WELL I AM GLAD HAT U R DOING BETTER OVER IT. AND I AM THAT WE R WORKING ON THINGS AS WELL. I AM TOO CHRIS. NOW GO CHANGE HE SAYS TO ME. I WENT TO GO CHANGE AND WAS THINKING ABOUT HOW THIS YEAR HAS GIVEN ME TIME TO THINK ABOUT HOW MY LIFE HAS BEEN. I AM READY CHRIS. COME LAY DOWN FOR ME. THIS WAS SO RELAXING AND JUST WHAT I NEEDED. THIS WAS FEELING SO GOOD. HIS HANDS FELT SO GODD TOUCHING ME. THAT FEELS NICE CHRIS. IT BETTER HE SAYS. HIS HANDS WERE MASSAGING MY LEGS AND I FELT A LITTLE SHIVERING UP MY SPINE. SIT UP FOR ME HE SAYS. I SEE R RELAXED NOW HE SAYS SMILING AT ME. YES I AM CHRIS AND I NEEDED THIS. I KNOW U MIGHT NOT WANT TO TALK ABOUT THIS BUT HOW R THINGS WITH YOUR FATHER. I HAVE NOT SPOKEN TO HIM SINCE THE HOSPITAL. I AM TRYING TO GO DOWN THAT PATH WITH HIM AGAIN. HE PROBABLY WOULD FLIP OUT IF HE HEARD I AM BACK WITH U AGAIN. I KNOW U WANT THIS TO HAPPEN CHRIS, BUT HE IS NOT GONNA EXCEPT THIS. I HAVE MADE MY DECISION TO JUST LIVE MY LIFE THE WAY I WANT TO LIVE IT. IT HAS BEEN A YEAR AND HE STILL HAS NOT TRIED TO SEE HOW I AM DOING. LIKE I SAID BEFORE, I WASH MY HANDS OF HIM. IT HURTS THOUGH BECAUSE I WANT HIM IN MY LIFE BUT I KNOW IT IS NOT GONNA HAPPEN. I KNOW U WANT TO HELP, BUT I JUST DON'T WANT THAT STRESS AND PAIN AROUND US AGAIN. I CAN TELL U R STILL HURTING BY THIS CHRIS SAYS TO ME. I. JSUT WANT U TO BE HAPPY HE SAYS. RIGHT NOW I AM HAPPY. BEING HERE WITH U RIGHT NOW IS MAKING ME HAPPY RIGHT NOW I TELL HIM. I LOVE U U SO MUCH CHRIS AND THAT IS ALL THAT MATTERS TO ME RIGHT NOW. SO WHAT DO U WANT TO DO NOW? I ASKED HIM. HE JUST LOOKED AT ME AND SMILED. I THINK U SHOULD ALREADY KNOW THE ANSWER TO THAT HE SAYS. WELL I DON'T FEEL LIKE IT CHRIS. U MEAN ALL THIS IS GONNA GO TO WASTE CHRIS SAYS TO ME.

CHRIS I AM JUST PLAYING WITH U. THEN Y R WE STILL TALKING THEN? HE SAYS TO ME. HE LEAN IN AND WE STARTED KISSING. THIS NIGHT WAS SO PERFECT AND I WAS HAPY TO HAVE CHRIS BACK IN MY LIFE. I WOKE UP THE NEXT MORNING REFRESHED FROM LAST NIGHT. CHRIS WAS SLEEPING SO PEACEFUL AND I JSUT STARED AT HIM WHILE HE WAS SLEEPING. I DECIDED TO GO TO BRUSH MY TEETH AND THEN GO MAKE BREAKFAST. I LET CHRIS SLEEP IN WHILE I WENT DOWNSTAIRS. AS I WAS GOING DOWNSTAIRS, MY PHONE STARTED RINGING. HI MOM. DID I WAKE U SWEETIE? NO U DIDN'T. HOW R DOING? I AM GREAT MOM. U SOUND LIKE U R SHE SAYS. GOOD MORNING BEAUTIFUL. GODD MORNING CHRIS. I SEE Y U R FEELING GREAT THIS MORNING SHE SAYS. SO U TWO HAVE WORK THINGS OUT. YEAH WE HAVE. I AM GLAD SHE SAYS. I JUST WISH YOUR FATHER WOULD SEE HOW HAPPY HE MAKES U. I KNOW BUT LIKE I TOLD CHRIS, I AM NOT PUTTING MYSELF THROUGH ALL THAT STUFF AGAIN WITH HIM. I KNOW AND I WILL NOT FORCE U TOO SHE SAYS. U WANT ME TO FIX BREAKFAST? U CAN IF U WANT CHRIS. I AM GONNA LET U GO SO U AND CHRIS CAN ENJOY YOUR BREAKFAST AND I WILL TALK TO U LATER. BYE MOM. BYE SWEETIE. I SEE U R FEELING GOOD THIS MORNING CHRIS SAYS TO ME. LAST NIGHT WAS AMAZING AND I SHOULD BE FEELING GOOD RIGHT NOW. I THOUGHT THIS WAS NOT GONNA HAPPEN AGAIN FOR US. BUT NOW THAT IT HAS, I AM LOVING EVERY MINUTE OF IT. U WANT ME TO HELP U? NO. I WANT U TO JUST RELAX AND LET ME COOK THIS MORNING. ALRIGHT THEN CHRIS. SO WHAT DO U WANT TO DO TODAY? I ASKED CHRIS. I WAS THINKIG WE SHOULD HAVE EVERYONE COME OVER FOR A COOKOUT AGAIN. IT IS TIME FOR US TO GET BACK TO THE WAY THINGS WERE HE SAYS. ALL OF THE HURT AND PAIN WE HAVE HAD, I THINK WE NEED TO CELEBRATE THAT WE R BACK TOGETHER AND THAT WE R READY TO MOVE FORWARD WITH OUR LIVES HE SAYS. WELL I THINK THIS IS A GOOD IDEA. IS THIS ALL U WANT TO HAPPEN TODAY? I ASKED CHRIS. WHAT DO U MEAN? I AM GETTING A FEELING U R PLANNING THIS SO U CAN DO SOMETHING WHILE EVERYONE IS HERE. I AM NOT PLANNING ANYTHING ELSE TODAY BUT THIS COOKOUT. U KNOW I KNOW U R LYING CHRIS. R UP T SOMETHING. U CAN DENY IT BUT I KNOW U HAVE SOMETHING ELSE IN MIND. U CAN KEEP SAYING THINKING THAT BUT I AM NOT PLANNING ANYTHING.

I WILL GET THE DOOR HE SAYS RUNNING OUT THE KITCHEN. HE IS ACING STRANGE RIGHT NOW. I KNOW HE IS UP TO SOMETHING. WHO WAS AT THE DOOR? OH JUST A PACKAGE FOR ME. STOP LOOKING AT ME LIKE THAT CHRIS SAYS TO ME. IT WAS JUST A PACKAGE I HAD BEEN ON HE SAYS. ALRIGHT I AM NOT GONNA ASK WHAT IT WAS THEN. WHAT? HE SAYS. I KNOW U UP TO SOMETHING CHRIS. I AM NOT UP TO ANYTHING AS HE GIES ME A KISS. NOW LET ME FINISH THIS BREAKFAST FOR US.

Well Im glad things are cool with Tamarah and Usher it takes a real weoman to be the bigger person in a situation and move on. AWWWWWW Chris planned a romantic evening all ima say is get it T lol. Run It!!!

YOUR SON IS CRAZY MS. JOYCE. I KNOW SHE SAYS TO ME. I AM JUST HAPPY U GUYS WORKING ON THINGS. I AM HAPPY TOO. DID U TELL CHRIS U SAW USHER DOWN THERE? I DID NOT TELL HIM. DID HE SEE THE PICTURES? YEAH HE DID. HE DIDN'T SAYS ANYTHING TO U ABOUT THE PICTURE U TOOK WITH HIM. U KNOW HE DIDN'T SAY A WORD ABOUT THE PICYURE TO ME. I AM GONNA TALK TO HIM ABOUT IT THOUGH. I GUESS MAYBE HE KNEW THAT IT WAS ONLY A PICTURE AND NOTHING HAPPENED I TELL HER. MAYBE U R RIGHT MS. JOYCE SAYS. I AM NOT TRYING TO START THIS OFF BY LYING OR HIM THINKING THAT I WANT USHER BACK. THANK U FOR COOKING. I AM HAPPY U GUYS ENJOYED THE FOOD. U KNOW I LOVE YOUR COOKING. I THOUGHT U GUYS COULDUSE A HOT MEAL AND I WAS JUST IN A GOOD MOOD TO COOK TODAY. WELL I AM GLAD U DID COOK BECAUSE I REALLY DIDN'T FEEL LIKE IT TODAY. CAN U EXPLAIN THIS PICTURE? MY SISTER SAYS. IT IS JUST A PICTURE I TELL THEM. YEAH BUT U TOOK IT WITH HIM. I KNOW U GUYS R STIIL MAD ABOUT WHAT USHER DID. BUT I AM NOT. I HAVE GOTTEN PASSED IT AND SO HAS HE. HE HAS REALIZED WHAT HE DID TO ME WAS WRONG. I FORGAVE HIM AND THAT IS ALL THAT MATTERS TO ME. I SAW U AND HIS MOM TALKING MS. JOYCE SAYS TO ME. YEAH WE TALKED ALONG TIME TOO. SHE KEPT SAYING HOW SHE WAS SORRY FOR WHAT USHER HAD DONE TO ME. WE STARTED TALKING ABOUT THE TIMES WE SPENT TOGETHER WHEN USHER AN I WERE TOGETHER. U GUYS DID HAVE SOME FUN. TIMES TOGETHER MY SISTER SAYS. YEAH AND THAT JUST WHAT WE TALKED ABOUT. I HAD TO TELL HER I WAS FINE AND THAT I HAVE FORGIVEN USHER FOR WHAT HE HAD DONE. IT WAS ACTUALLY HIS MOM WHO WANTED THE PICTURE. I WAS GLAD TO TAKE THE PICTURE WITH THEM. DID U AD USHER TALK? NICKI ASKED ME. WE TALKED TO EACH OTHER FOR A WHILE. IT WAS NOTHING SPECIAL OR ANYTHING. IS HE STILL WITH U KNOW WHO? MIKA ASKED. ACTUALLY NO. HE DECIDED TO DUMP KIM AFTER HE HAD REALIZED WHAT HE HAD DONE. WELL GOOD FOR HIM ANGIE SAYS. I THINK HE IS IN A BETTER PLACE NOW. HE HAS DECIDED TO PUT HIS KIDS FIRST. WELL I HOPE HE KEEP HIMSELF IN THIS DIRECTION. I HOPE SO TOO I TELL THEM. SO WHAT R U AND CHRIS GONNA DO LATER? SHALAMEKE ASKED ME. I DON'T KNOW Y YA'LL R SMILING AT ME. HE DOES NOT KNOW HOW LONG HE WILL BE IN THE STUDIO.

WELL WE R NOT DOING ANYTHING TONIGHT EITHER MY SISTER SAYS. WE ALL DECIDED TO JUST HANG OUT AROUND HERE AND NOT GO OUT THIS WEEKEND. WHAT KNOW CLUBBIN FOR U GUYS. NO TAMARAH TASHA SAYS. WELL I AM GONNA GET OUT OF HERE AND HEAD BACK HOME MS. JOYCE SAYS. I WILL LEAVE THIS EXTRA FOOD HERE WITH U. SEE U GUYS LATER. BYE MS. JOYCE. SO U WANT US TO HANG AROUND HERE WITH UTIL CHRIS CALLS? MY SISTER ASKED ME. U GUYS DON'T HAVE TO DO THAT. I WILL BE FINE HERE. SPEAKING OF CHRIS AS I LOOK AT MY PHONE. HELLO. WHAT R U DOING? CHRIS ASKED ME. JUST SITTING HERE WITH MY GIRLS. U WANNA COME TO MY HOUSE FOR THE NIGHT? SURE CHRIS. I WILL BE THERE TO COME GET U HE SAYS. U DON'T HAVE TO GET ME. I WILL BE THERE IN A LITTLE BIT I TELL HIM. ALRIGHT. DON'T KEEP ME WAITING HE SAYS. I WON'T CHRIS. SO U R SPENDING THE NIGHT AT CHRIS HOUSE TONIGHT TREY SAYS. YES I AM AND U GUYS CAN GO IGHT AHEAD AND LEAVE. U KNOW HE IS GONNA HAVE SOMETHING PLANNED FOR U TYGA SAYS. IF U WANT, WE CAN DRIVE U TO HIS HOUSE TREY SAYS. LET ME GO GET MY THIGS AN I WILL BE RIGHT DOWN. U GUYS R STAYING IN TONIGHT? I ASKED ANGIE. YEAH WE R. KEVIN AND ACE HOOD R COMING OVER HERE TONIGHT BUN SAYS. ALRIGHT THEN I TELL THEM. WILL U PUT THAT FOOD UP FOR ME? I WILL DO THAT RIGHT NOW ANGIE SAYS. SEE U GUYS TOMORROW. I CALLED CHRIS TO LET HIM KNOW I WAS COMING. WE R HERE TREY SAYS TO ME. THANK U GUYS. CALL ME TOMORROW MY SISTER SAYS. I WILL I TELL HER. AS I WAS WALKING TO THE DOOR, I SAW CHRIS WAITING FOR ME AT THE DOOR WITH NO SHIRT ON. I SEE U R READY FOR READY FOR BED. ACTUALLY I HAVE SOMETHING ELSE IN MND FOR U TONIGHT. I COME IN AND SEE ROSE PETALS LEADING UP THE STAIRS TO HIS ROOM. TONIGHT IS ALL ABOUT U HE SAYS. SO COME UPSTAIRS WITH ME HE SAYS. LET ME TAKE THIS BAG FOR U. AS WE WERE WALKING UP THE STAIRS, I COULD SMELL THE SCENT OF VANILLA COMING FROM HIS ROOM. HE LET ME ENTER THE ROOM FIRST. WHAT HE HAD DONE WAS BEAUTIFUL. DO U LIKE IT? I LOVE IT CHRIS. U DID THIS ALL FOR ME. I FIGURE U COULD USE A NICE RELAXING NIGHT AFTER YOUR LONG TRIP BACK HERE. HE HAD CANDLES BURNING AND FLOWER PETALS AROUND THE ROOM. I CAN'T BELIEVE U DID THIS CHRIS. I WANT US TO START FRESH AS HE WRAPS HIS ARMS AROUND ME. CHRIS I LOVE U SO MUCH. I LOVE U TOO AS HE GIVES ME A KISS. NOW I WANT U TO CHANGE OUT THESE CLOTHES SO I CAN GIVE U A MASSAGE. ALRIGHT CHRIS. I WAS SO SURPRISED HE HAD DONE THIS FOR ME.

Awww. Even the parents got jokes lol @ Ms. Joyce. Wonder what'll happen when Chris is finished at the studio?????? RUN IT!!

GLAD TO SEE U GUYS DECIDED TO JOIN US MS JOYCE SAYS TO US. I KNOW U GUYS R HUNGRY AND I BROUGHT OVER SOME FOOD SO U WOULD NOT HAVE TO COOK ANYTHING TONIGHT. THANK U SO MUCH MS. JOYCE I TELL HER. I BROUGHT DOWN THE PICTURES FOR U GUYS TO LOOK AT I TELL THEM. SO U GUYS SHOULD HAVE WORKED UP QUITE AN APPETITE MIKA SAYS. SHUT UP MIKA I TELL HER. WE KNOW WHAT U GUYS WERE DOING UP THERE AND U GUYS CAN STOP PRETENDING LIKE NOTHING HAPPENED NICKI SAYS. ALRIGHT NOW LET'S LEAVE THEM ALONE MS. JOYCE SAYS. THANK U MOM CHRIS SAYS. SO DOES CHRIS STILL HAVE IT AFTER BEING APART FOR SO LONG? MS. JOYCE ASKED US. MOM CHRIS SAYS TO HER. I AM SORRY SHE SAYS LAUGHING. WE R JUST HAPPY U TWO R WORKING ON THINGS AND THAT U TWO GET BACK TOGETHER THAT IS ALL SHE SAYS. ALRIGHT THEN I TELL HER. AS WE R EATING, EVERYONE IS STARING AT ME AND CHRIS. WELL SHALAMEKE SAYS. WELL WHAT CHRIS SAYS TO HER. WILL U GUYS STOP PLAYING AROUND AND TELL US IF YA"LL R BACK TOGETHER TREY SAYS. HOW COME U GUYS ALWAYS HAVE TO KNOW WHAT WE R DOING I SAYS TO EVERYONE. BECAUSE WE WANT TO KNOW NAD WE KNOW U GUYS R GONNA TELL US ANYWAY MY SISTER SAYS. ALRIGHT FINE CHRIS SAYS TO THEM. WE HAVE DECIDED TO GET THINGS ANOTHER SHOT HE SAYS. WE DECIDED TO TAKE THINGS SLOWER THIS TIME HE SAYS TO THEM. THAT IS FINE MS. JOYCE SAYS. I AM JUST HAPPY U TWO R STARTING FRESH AND MAYBE THIS TIME THINGS WILL BE DIFFERENT. I HARDLY DOUBT THAT I SAY TO HER. I AM NOT TRYING TO NEGATIVE OR ANY THING BUT I JUST KNOW THAT WE R GONNA RUN INTO SOME KIND OF DRAMA I SAY TO EVERYONE. WHATEVER HAPPENS I KNOW WE WILL BE ALRIGHT CHRIS SAYS TO ME. AWWWWWWWW THEY ALL SAYS. I LOVE U TAMARAH. I LOVE U TOO CHRIS AS I GIVE HIM A KISS. LOOKS LIKE U GUYS HAD FUN ON THIS TRIP TYGA SAYS. YEAH WE DID I TELL THEM. THEY HAD MORE FUN THAN I DID I TELL THEM. I MEAN I HAD FUN BUT THEY WERE JUST EVERY WHERE WITH EVERYONE. I WANNA GO BACK MS. JOYCE SAYS. I AM SURE U DO I TELL HER. MY MOM PROBABLY WANTS TO GO BACK AS WELL. IT WAS A FUN TRiP AND I CAN'T WAIT TO GO BACK MS. JOYCE SAYS BACK TO US. I JUST WISH ALL OF U COULD HAVE GONE WITH US.

U GUYsS WOULD HAVE LOVED IT TOO. THE FOOD AND MUSIC WAS AMAZING. WE REALYY LIKE THE HUKLA DANCING THAT WE DID TOGETHER I TELL THEM. WE CAN SEE THAT FROM THE PICTURES ANGIE SAYS. YOUR MOM SAID SHE WOULD CALLU LATER MS. JOYCE SAYS TO ME. I TURN TO CHRIS WHEN HIS PHONE RUNG. I HAVE TO TAKE THIS HE SAYS TO ME. ALRIGHT I TELL HIM. I NEED TO GET TO THE STUDIO HE SAYS. I WILL WALK U OUT I TELL HIM. I WILL BE BACK HOPEFULLY HE SAYS. WE KNOW U HAVE WORK TO DO TREY SAYS. SORRY I HAVE TO LEAVE LIKE THS HE SAYS TO ME. IT IS FINE CHRIS. I WILL SEE U LATER I TELL HIM. EVEN IF IT IS LATE HE ASKED. YES CHRIS. I WILL CALL U WHEN I AM DONE HE SAYS. IF IT AIN'T TO LATE WE CAN FINISH WHAT WE STARTED EARLIER AS HE KISSES ME. YEAH WE CAN DO THAT I SAY TO HIM. HE STARTED LAUGHING. CHRIS WILL U JUST GO I TELL HIM. ALRIGHT I AM GOING HE SAYS. U BETTEr BE WOKE WHEN I CALL U. I WILL CHRIS. BYE AS HE KISSES ME AND GETS IN HIS CAR.

I see they still got it LOL. Chris and Tamarah goes hard in the bedroom LOL. They're friends and family are hilarious always joking on them and they sexcapades LOL. Run It!!

IT IS PRETTY QUIET UP THERE MY SISTER SAYS. I HOPE EVERYTHING IS ALRIGHT WITH THOSE TWO NICKI SAYS. YA'LL SHOULD ALREADY KNOW WHAT THEY R PROBABLY DOING RIGHT NOW TASHA SAYS. IT HAS BEEN A YEAR SINCE THEY HAVE BEEN TOGETHER. MONIQUE GET AWAY FROM THE DOOR MY SISTER SAYS. I THINK WE SHOULD LEAVE BECAUSE I AM NOT TRYING TO HEAR THEM AGAIN SHALAMEKE SAYS. YEAH WE BETTER GO THEY ALL AGREED. WE WERE STILL KISSING AND I WAS STARTING TO LET EVERYTHING THAT HAPPEN GO. CHRIS WAIT AS I GOT UP FROM THE BED. WHAT IS THE PROBLEM? I WAS TRYING TO CATCH MY BREATH. MY HEART WAS RACING AND I WAS BREATHING HEAVILY. DID I DO SOMETHING WRONG? NO CHRIS AS I TURNED TO FACE HIM. IF NOTHING IS WRONG, THEN U WON'T MIND ME DOING THIS TO U. HE PULLS ME TOWARD HIM AND STARTS KISSING MY STOMACH. HE STARTED KISSING WHERE MY TATTOO WAS AND THEN THE LOWER PART OF MY BACK WHEN I TURNED AROUND. I SAW HIS SHIRT AND PANTS ON THE FLOOR. I COULD NOT MOVE AS WE WERE STANDING THERE. I WANT TO MAKE LOVE TO U RIGHT HE SAYS TO ME. I TOOK MY CLOTHES OFF AND LAID DOWN ON THE BED. I LET ALL THE HURT AND PAIN GO AS HE BEGAN KISSING MY BODY. I LET ALL THE HURTFUL THINGS GO AND STARTED REMEMBERING ALL THE GOOD WE HAD TOGETHER. I HAD THE IMAGES OF THE DVD'S I HAD WATCH RUNNING THROUGH MY MIND. THE SONG ALL BACK WAS PLAYING AND I WAS SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW. MY BODY JUST MELTED WITH HIM AND I KNEW HE WAS HURTING AS WELL. IT FELT LIKE THE FIRST TIME ALL OVER AGAIN. HIS LIPS KISSING ME ALL OVER MY BODY AND HIS TOUCH JUST MADE ME QUIVER. HE WAS PUSHING DEEPER AND DEEPER INSIDE ME AND I COULD NOT HELP BUT LET OUT A SCREAM. WE TURNED OVER AND I WAS ON TOP. I WANTED HIM TO REMEMBER Y I WAS THE BEST.

I STARTED KISSING DOWN HIS CHEST, THEN TO HIS STOMACH UNTIL I REACH HIS D**K. I PUT IT IN MY MOUTH AND STARTED SUCKING AND STROKING HIM. I HEARD HIM LET OUT A MOAN FOR ME. STOP FOR A MINUTE HE ASKED ME. I ALREADY KNEW WHAT HE HAD WANTED. SO I CLIMB OVER HIS FACE SO HE COULD TASTE ME. I FELT MY BODY STARTING TO TREMBLE AT HIS TONGUE AND HIS LIPS TOUCHING MY P***Y. AS I MOANED LOUDER, HE LICKED AND KISS MY P***Y EVEN HARDER. HE THEN STOP AND ENTER INSIDE ME FROM THE BACK. OH S**T CHRIS. HE WAS FASTER AND FASTER TASKING LONG STROKES TEASING ME LIKE HE ALWAYS DOES. HE KNOWS I HATED WHEN HE DID THAT. I THEN TURNED BACK OVER ON MY BACK AND WENT BACK INSIDE ME. I COULD NOT HOLD IT IN ANY LONGER. HE LOCKED HIS HAND INTO MINE AND WE CAME AT THE SAME TIME. ALL THE PAIN AND STRESS WAS GONE. I JUST REMEMBERED ALL THE GOOD TIMES WE HAD TOGETHER. WE WERE AT FOR HOURS. OURS PHONES WERE RINGING NONE STOP. THAT WAS LIKE WOW CHRIS SAYS. I KNOW IT WAS I TELL HIM. SO HOW R U FEELING? HE ASKED ME. I JUST LOOKED AT HIM AND SMILED. WHERE R U GOING? HE ASKED ME AS I GET UP FROM THE BED. I AM ABOUT TO GO GET IN THE SHOWER. I LOOKED AT THE TIME ON THE CLOCK AND IT WAS ALMOST TIME FOR DINNER. CHRIS LOOKED AT ME AND THEN THE CLOCK. U WANNA GO ANOTHER ROUND? HE ASKED ME. I TOOK HIS HAND AND WE WENT TO THE SHOWER.

I CAN'T BELIEVE THEY R STILL AT IT MY SISTER SAYS. WHAT DID U GUYS EXPECT? NICKI SAYS. U KNOW HOW THEY AND THEY CAN GO FOR HOURS. I KNOW BUT..........AS MY SISTER PAUSED. LET JUST BE HAPPY THAT R WORKING THINGS OUT TREY SAYS. YEAH AND WORKING EACH OTHER OUT MIKA SAYS. THEY ALL STARTED LAUGHING. HEY U GUYS? HI MS. JOYCE MY SISTER SAYS. HAVE U GUYS SEEN CHRIS? I HAVE BEEN CALLING HIM AND HE IS NOT ANSWERING HIS PHONE. I CALLED TAMARAH TOO AND SHE IS NOT PICKING UP EITHER. I CAME TO MAKE SURE EVERYTHING IS ALRIGHT. EVERYTHING IS FINE MY SISTER TELLS HERE. WHERE IS HE? HE IS OCCUPIED RIGHT NOW NICKI SAYS. DOING WHAT? SHE ASKED. I THINK THE QUESTION IS DOING WHO? MONIQUE SAYS. IS HE IN THERE WITH TAMARAH? SHE ASKED THEM. UN HUH SHE SAYS. NOW I SEE Y THEY R NOT ANSWERING THERE PHONES. HOW LONG HAVE THEY BEEN IN THERE? HOURS MY SISTER SAYS. UN HUH SHE SAYS AGAIN. I JUST GOT THROUGH COOKING AND I WAS COMING BY TO SEE IF U GUYS WANTED TO COME OVER. YEAH THEY ALL SAY. HOW ABOUT U GUYS HELP ME BRING THE FOOD BACK HERE AND SURPRISED THEM WITH DINNER BEING MADE ALREADY. I KNOW THEY R GONNA HAVE A HUGE APPETITE AFTER THERE LITTLE WORKOUT SHE SAYS. I TAKE THAT BACK AND SAY THERE HUGE WORK OUT AS THEY STARTED LAUGHING. SO EVERYTHING IS WORKING OUT WITH THOSE TWO? I HOPE IT IS MY SISTER SAYS. WHAT DO U MEAN? THEY HAD A LITTLE SPAT WITH EACH OTHER EARLIER ABOUT CHRIS AND MONICA. I THOUGHT SHE WAS OUT OF HIS LIFE. SHE IS BUT SHE SHOWED UP TAMARAH'S HOUSE LAST NIGHT LOOKING FOR HIM. I TOLD CHRIS ABOUT THAT GIRL.

IT WASN'T NOTHING SERIOUS BUT I THINK THEY HAVE WORKED IT OUT. I THINK THAT THE LOSE OF THE BABY AND CHRIS WAS STILL HURTING HER AND SHE JUST TOOK IT OUT ON CHRIS WHEN CHRIS WAS JUST BEING HONEST TO HER ABOUT MONICA. ME AND YOUR MOM KNEW THIS TIME WAS GONNA HIT HER BAD. I JUST HOPE HER AND CHRIS CAN GET PASS EVERYTHING THAT HAS HAPPENED AND START FRESH SHE TELL MY SISTER. I HOPE SO TOO MS. JOYCE. AFTER OUR OTHER ROUND IN THE SHOWER WE STARTED TO PUT OUR CLOTHES ON TO HEAD DOWNSTAIRS. THAT WAS EVEN BETTER THAN BEFORE AS CHRIS GRABS ME FROM BEHIND. I KNOW I TELL HIM PUTTING MY SHIRT ON. U FEEL BETTER NOW? A LOT BETTER CHRIS I TELL HIM. UN HUH HE SAYS SMILING AT ME. I REALLY NEEDED THAT AS I TURNED TO FACE HIM. AFTER ALL THAT I AM REALLY HUNGRY RIGHT NOW. I KNOW SOMETHING THAT WILL SATISFY THAT HE SAYS TO ME. I AM NOT TALKING ABOUT THAT. U R SO NASTY. I KNOW HE SAYS AS HE GIVES ME A KISS. MY SISTER CAME BACK WITH THE FOOD. THEY R STILL UP THERE DERRICK SAYS. IF U GUYS R DONE UP THERE, YA'LL CAN COME DOWN AND EAT DINNER CHRIS MOMS YELLS UP TO US. LOOKS LIKE I DON'T HAVE TO MAKE DINNER I TELL HIM. COME ON CHRIS SO WE CAN GO DOWNSTAIRS. ALRIGHT HE SAYS. U SHOULD HAVE HAD ENOUGH I TELL HIM. WELL I HAVEN'T HE SAYS SMACKING MY ASS AND WALKING OUT THE ROOM. ALRIGHT NOW. THAT S**T HURTS CHRIS. U WANT TO KISS IT AND MAKE IT FEEL BETTER. GO DOWNSTAIRS CHRIS AS I STARTED LAUGHING.

Poor Tamarah I know she's hurting alot, it's hard losing your baby not once but twice then losing the love of your life. Glad Chris never left and aww snap is she gone give into Chris and let him help her relieve her stress and pain heyyy.

WE ALREADY KNOW U R MAD MY SISTER SAYS. U ONLY GO DOWNSTAIRS WHEN U NEED TO LET OFF SOME STEAM MIKA SAYS. I JUST KEPT WALKING AND WENT DOWNSTAIRS. OK MAYBE I WAS ROUGH ON CHRIS. I GUESS I WAS JEALOUS OF WHAT HAPPEN BETWEEN HIM AND THAT GIRL. BUT I KNEW THIS WOULD HAPPEN BUT YET I FELT LIKE HE SHOULD NOT HAVE BEEN WITH ANYBODY. I GUESS U CAN SAY I STILL LOVE HIM THAT MUCH AND I DO WANT HIM BACK. THIS YEAR HAS BEEN SO HARD FOR ME AND I KNOW IT HAS BEEN HARD ON HIM TOO. I JUST DON'T HOW THINGS WILL TURN OUT THIS TIME AROUND. I JUST STARTED HITTING THE PUNCHING BAG REALLY HARD AND I CAN TELL I WAS ANGRY. I WAS FRUSTRATED ABOUT EVERYTHING STILL. ALL THE PAIN I HAVE SUFFERED FROM IS STILL HERE AND I DON'T KNOW HOW TO HANDLE IT RIGHT NOW. I TOOK THE TRIP TO TRY AND RELIEVE SOME OF THAT PAIN BUT IT STILL HURTS. I FELT MYSELF EASING UP ON THE BAG AND I STARTED TO CRY. HITTING THAT BAG WAS NOT HELPING ME AT ALL LIKE IT WOULD HAVE DONE. I WENT INTO THE DANCE STUDIO AND JUST SAT ON THE FLOOR CRYING. PUNCHING THAT BAG, I STARTED TO HAVE FLASHBACK OF WHAT HAPPENED TO ME AND THE THOUGHT OF ME LOSING ANOTHER BABY JUST REALLY SENT ME OVER THE EDGE. I WENT TO HEAD BACK UP TO MY ROOM. TAMARAH R U ALRIGHT? MY SISTER ASKED ME. I DID NOT ANSWER HER. I JUST WENT BACK UPSTAIRS AND LAID DOWN ON MY BED CRYING. I THINK SHE JUST NEEDS SOME TIME ALONE RIGHT NOW. I KNEW SHE WAS STILL HURTING BUT NOT THIS BAD STILL MIKA SAYS. U GUYS KNOW SHE WILL PULL THOUGH THIS NICKI SAYS. I AM NOT SO SURE MY SISTER SAYS. I JUST HAVE THIS FEELING THAT SHE WILL NOT BE HERSELF LIKE SHE HAS BEEN BEFORE THIS HAPPENED TO HER.

I WILL GET THE DOOR TREY SAYS. SO U CAME BACK? HE SAYS TO CHRIS. I HAD TO BECAUSE I GOT THIS FEELING THAT WHAT HAPPENED TO HER IS STILL BOTHERING HER. I THINK U R RIGHT AND I THINK SHE KNEW U WERE RIGHT ABOUT HOW SHE WAS FEELING ABOUT HE INCIDENT YESTERDAY MY SISTER SAYS TO HIM. WHERE IS SHE NOW? CHRIS ASKED. UPSTAIRS CRYING MIKA SAYS TO HIM. I THINK U SHOULD GO CHECK ON HER NICKI SAYS. I DON'T THINK SHE WANTS TO SEE ME HE SAYS. CHRIS, JUST GO UP THERE AND TALK TO HER MY SISTER SAYS. MAKE HER LISTEN TO U SHE SAYS. I HEAR A KNOCK AT MY DOOR. GO AWAY I YELLED OUT. I CAN'T DO THAT CHRIS SAYS AS HE WALKS IN THE MY ROOM. I THINK IT IS ABOUT TIME U TALKED ABOUT WHAT HAS HAPPENED HE SAYS TO ME. I JUST CAN'T CHRIS. YES U CAN. I AM NOT GOING ANYWHERE AND U KNOW I AM HERE FOR U HE SAYS IT ME. IT IS SO HARD TO SAY WHAT HAPPEN OUT LOUD I TELL HIM. I JUST HOPED I WAS NOT GONNA GO THROUGH THIS AGAIN. THIS FEELING HAS JUST HURT ME TO THE CORE CHRIS. I AM SORRY ABOUT WHAT HAPPENED EARLIER. I GUESS I WAS MAD AND WAS TRYING TO JUST LET IT GO AND NOT HAVE TO DEAL WITH ANOTHER SITUATION LIKE THAT AGAIN. I KNOW AND I AM SORRY TOO HE SAYS. HE PUTS HIS ARM AROUND ME AND HOLDS ME CLOSE TO HIM. I AM GLAD U CAME BACK I TELL HIM. ACTUALLY I NEVER LEFT HE SAYS. I WAS STILL IN THE DRIVE WAY HE SAYS. I KNEW U NEEDED ME DO I JUST GAVE U A LITTLE TIME TO YOURSELF. I AM SORRY ABOUT GETTING MY SWEAT ALL OVER U AS I LOOKED AT HIM IN HIS FACE. IT IS FINE HE SAYS STARING IN MY EYES.

I NEED TO CHANGE OUT OF THESE SWEATY CLOTHES AS I GET UP FROM THE BED. I WENT TO GO LOCK MY DOOR SO KNOW ONE WOULD WALK IN. AS I WAS LOCKING THE DOOR, I FELT CHRIS BEHIND ME AND MOVE MY HAIR TO KISS MY NECK. I TURNED TO FACE HIM AND HE STARTED KISSING ME. LET ME HELP TAKE ALL THAT PAIN AWAY FROM U RIGHT NOW HE SAYS AS HE LIFTS ME UP AND WALKS ME TO THE BED WHILE KISSING ME.

Monica falll back boo boo. Tamarah will always be #1 in Chris's heart even when there apart. I wish T would've talked to Chris and quit being stubborn. I know there meant for each other. Ugh!!!

I THINK U BETTER ANSWER YOUR PHONE CHRIS. IT IS PROBABLY NOBODY AS HE IS STILL KISSING ME. I REALLY THINK U SHOULD OR THEY R GONNA KEEP CALLING U I TELL HIM. WHOEVER IT IS CAN WAIT HE SAYS OT ME. JUST THEN I HEAR THE DOORBELL RING. CHRIS I NEED TO GET THAT. NO U DON'T HE SAYS. IT MIGHT BE IMPORTANT CHRIS AS I FINALLY BROKE FROM HIM KISSING ME. I AM TELLING U TO DON'T ANSWER IT. AND IT COULD BE IMPORTANT TO CHRIS. AT THIS TIME OF NIGHT? YES. BESIDE, U TWO NEED TO CALM DOWN I TELL HIM SMILING. ALRIGHT I AM COMING AS THE PERSON JUST KEPT RINGING THE BELL. I OPENED THE DOOR AND THERE WAS A GIRL STANDING THERE. CAN I HELP U? I ASKED HER. YEAH U CAN SHE SAYS. I AM LOOKING FOR CHRIS SHE SAYS TO ME. I WAS TOLD HE WOULD BE HERE. MONICA I HEAR CHRIS SAYS COMING DOWN THE STAIRS. I HAVE BEEN CALLING U FOR THE PAST 30 MINUTES SHE SAYS TO HIM. I TOLD U TO STOP CALLING ME TOO HE SAYS TO HER. SO U HAVE BEEN CALLING HIS PHONE I ASKED HER. YES THAT WAS ME AND WHO R U? I AM TAMARAH. OH SO U R TAMARAH SHE SAYS TO ME. IT IS NOT WHAT U THINK CHRIS SAYS TO ME. SO THIS IS WHAT U WERE DOING? SHE ASKED CHRIS. U GUYS WANTS SOME PRIVACY? YES MONICA SAYS. NO WE DON'T BECAUSE SHE IS LEAVING CHRIS SAYS. OH SO NOW I AM NOBODY TO U SHE SAYS TO CHRIS. NO U R NOT HE SAYS TO HER. I THINK I AM GONNA GIVE U GUYS SOME PRIVACY. I THINK U SHOULD DO THAT SHE SAYS TO ME. NO I AM DONE TALKING TO U MONICA CHRIS SAYS TO HER. SO U RATHER BE WITH THIS B**CH INSTEAD OF ME. YEAH I AM TALKING TO U SHE SAYS TO ME. U KNOW WHAT LIL GIRL...........TAMARAH I WILL HANDLE THIS CHRIS SAYS. I AM FAR FROM BEING A LIL GIRL AND CHRIS KNOWS THAT SHE SAYS TO ME. CHRIS I THINK U SHOULD JUST GO AS I TURN TO HIM.

U HAVE SOME THINGS U NEED TO WORK OUT WITH HER I TELL HIM. THERE IS NOTHING TO WORK OUT HE SAYS TO ME. I THINK THERE IS AND I THINK IT IS BEST U LEFT. ALRIGHT HE SAYS. COME ON CHRIS SHE SAYS. OH AND STAY AWAY FROM MY MAN SHE SAYS TO ME AS I SLAM THE DOOR IN HER FACE. B**CH SHE SAYS YELLING AT THE DOOR. HOE I YELL BACK GOING UPSTAIRS TO MY ROOM TO GO BED. I CAN'T BELIEVE WHAT JUST HAPPENED RIGHT NOW. I AM NOT EVEN SURPRISED BY IT EITHER. BECAUSE LIKE I THOUGHT BEFORE AND THAT WAS I WAS NOT EXPECTING HIM NOT TO SEE ANYONE WHILE WE WERE APART FOR THIS PAST YEAR. I JUST GOT IN MY BED AND WENT TO SLEEP. I WOKE UP THE NEXT MORNING TO LOUD VOICES COMING FROM DOWNSTAIRS. I WAS EVEN HAPPIER IT WAS THE WEEKEND AND I DIDN'T HAVE TO GO INTO WORK. I BRUSHED MY TEETH AND HEADING DOWNSTAIRS TO SEE WHAT WAS GOING ON. YA'LL R UP EARLY THIS MORNING. HEY THEY ALL SAY. SO HOW WAS EVERYTHING LAST NIGHT? MIKA ASKED ME. IT WAS ALRIGHT. WHAT? JUST ALRIGHT TASHA SAYS. YEAH. WHAT WERE U GUYS EXPECTING ME TO SAY. COME ON NOW TAMARAH NICKI SAYS. U AND CHRIS DID NOT HAVE.................... NO WE DIDN'T AS I CUT HER OFF. HE LEFT LAST NIGHT BECAUSE I TOLD HIM TO. OK Y DID U DO THAT? MY SISTER ASKED ME. LET JUST SAY SOMEONE CAME HERE LAST NIGHT LOOKING FOR HIM AND SHE STARED TALKING STUFF TO ME. U MEAN ANOTHER CAME HERE LAST NIGHT LOOKING FOR HIM. YES. WHO WAS SHE? SHALAMEKE ASKED ME. SOME GIRL NAME MONICA I TELL THEM. MONICA THEY ALL SAY TO ME. YEAH AND WHAT IS WRONG? I ASKED THEM. I THOUGHT CHRIS WAS DONE WITH HER MONIQUE SAYS TO THE OTHER GIRLS. HE WAS DONE WITH HER MY SISTER SAYS.

OK WILL SOMEBODY PLEASE TELL ME WHAT IS GOING ON? I THINK U SHOULD LET CHRIS TELL U ABOUT HER MY SISTER SAYS. Y U GUYS CAN'T TELL ME? WE JUST THINK HE SHOULD DO NICKI SAYS AS THEY LEAVE THE KITCHEN. WAIT A MINUTE I TELL THEM. TAMARAH U SHOULD TALK TO CHRIS ABOUT THIS YOURSELF ANGIE SAYS. ALRIGHT FINE AS I GO BACK UP TO MY ROOM TO CHANGE MY CLOTHES.

MEANWHILE IN THE GAME ROOM UPSTAIRS.......................

SO HOW WAS LAST NIGHT WITH TAMARAH? TREY ASKED HIM. EVERYTHING WAS GONG FINE UNTIL MONICA BROUGHT HER ASS OTHER HERE LAST NIGHT CHRIS TELLS THEM. MONICA WAS HERE LAST NIGHT OMARION ASKED HIM. YEAH AND I WAS SO PISSED OFF SHE DID THAT. I TOLD HER TO STOP CALLING ME AND SHE STILL DOES. I THOUGHT EVERYTHING WAS OVER WITH U TOO DERRICK SAYS LAUGHING. IT IS AND U GUYS KNOW THAT. WE JUST MESSING WITH U NIGGA. I TOLD U NOT TO HOOK UP WITH HER TYGA SAYS TO HIM. U DIDN'T LISTEN TO ME AND NOW LOOK AT WHAT IS HAPPENING. DID U TELL TAMARAH WHO SHE WAS? DRAKE ASKED HIM. I WAS GONNA BUT SHE ASK ME TO LEAVE LAST NIGHT. I THINK SHE NEED TO TELL HER WHO THIS GIRL IS AND THAT IT IS OVER BETWEEN U TOO BOW WOW SAYS. I KNOW BUT I THINK SHE ALREADY KNOWS BUT AT THE SAME TIME I THINK SHE MIGHT NOT HAVE WANTED TO KNOW WHO SHE WAS TO ME HE SAYS TO THEM. I AM JUST GLAD NOTHING SERIOUS HAPPENED BETWEEN THEM LAST NIGHT CHRIS SAYS. THEY GOT INTO IT WITH EACH OTHER? TREY ASKED HIM. JUST SOME WORDS WAS SAID BUT TAMARAH WAS ABOUT TO DO SOMETHING THOUGHT IF I HAD NOT STOPPED HER CHRIS SAYS. I KNOW HOW TAMARAH GETS TREY SAYS. YEAH I KNOW CHRIS SAYS BACK TO HIM. I AM GONNA GO TALK TO TAMARAH CHRIS SAYS TO THEM. IIGHT NIGGA DRAKE SAYS TO HIM. WE WILL BE RIGHT HERE.

WHERE IS TAMARAH? SHE IS IN HER ROOM MIKA TELLS HIM. TAMARAH R U IN HERE? I DID NOT HEAR HIM COME IN BECAUSE I WAS IN THE SHOWER. I TURNED THE WATER OFF TO GRAB MY TOWEL, WHEN I SAW IT WAS GONE. I OPENED THE DOOR TO SEE CHRIS STANDING THERE HOLDING THE TOWEL. CAN I HAVE MY TOWEL PLEASE? SURE U CAN HAVE IT HE SAYS. I MEAN BRING IT TO ME RIGHT HERE CHRIS. Y CAN'T U JUST COME TO ME AND GET IT HE SAYS. U ACT LIKE I HAVE NEVER SEEN U NAKED BEFORE. YEAH AND U R JUST TRYING TO SEE ME NAKED TOO CHRIS. WILL U JUST COME TO ME? I OPENED THE DOOR AND STEP OUT TO WALK TOWARD HIM. AS I WAS WALKING, HE WAS MOVING AWAY FROM ME. CHRIS STOP PLAYING AROUND WITH ME. HE WAS JUST STARING AT MY WET BODY. IS THAT A NEW TATTOO? HE ASKED ME AS I GRABBED THE TOWEL FROM HIM. YEAH IT IS. CAN I SEE IT AGAIN? HE SAYS PULLING ON MY TOWEL. CHRIS STOP PLAYING. I AM COLD NOW. Y R U IN HERE ANYWAY? I CAME TO TALK TO U ABOUT LAST NIGHT. U KNOW WHAT CHRIS I REALLY DON'T WANT TO KNOW BECAUSE I THINK I ALREADY KNOW. SO U DON'T WANNA KNOW WHO THAT WAS YESTERDAY? AT FIRST I DID BUT NOW I DON'T WANNA KNOW. WELL I AM GONNA TELL U ANYWAY HE SAYS. WELL I AM NOT GONNA LISTEN TO U CHRIS. WHAT IS WRONG WITH U? NOTHING CHRIS I AM FINE. WELL U SEEM PISSED OFF ABOUT WHAT HAPPENED YESTERDAY. I AM FINE SO JUST DROP IT ALRIGHT. U R MAD ABOUT LAST NIGHT. NO I AM NOT CHRIS. YEAH U R. I SAID I AM NOT CHRIS AS I YELL AT HIM. I REALLY DON'T CARE ABOUT WHO SHE IS OR WAS TO U SO JUST DROP THIS WHOLE THING I TELL HIM. NO U R GONNA LISTEN TO ME RIGHT NOW HE SAYS AS HE PULLS ME DOWN TO THE BED. NOW OBVIOUSLY THIS IS BOTHERING U AND I AM GONNA TELL U WHO SHE WAS. ALRIGHT FINE CHRIS. TELL ME WHO SHE IS THEN.

I MET MONICA ABOUT 4 MONTHS AGO WHILE I WAS SHOOTING MY VIDEO FOR TURN UP THE MUSIC. WE WERE JUST HANGIN OUT WITH EACH OTHER AND THEN I SLEPT WITH HER ONE TIME HE SAYS. ONE TIME CHRIS. OK 7 TIMES HE SAYS. BUT I WAS STILL UPSET ABOUT WHAT HAD HAPPENED BETWEEN US AND I WAS JUST LONELY HE SAYS. I DIDN'T WANT TO BUT SHE WAS THERE AND IT HAPPENED. I KNOW U PROBABLY DID THE SAME THING TOO. ACTUALLY I DIDN'T CHRIS. I KNOW GUYS HAVE THERE NEEDS AND WOMEN DO TO BUT NOT ME I TELL HIM. HE JUST LOOKED AT ME. DID I SLEEP WITH ANYBODY THE WHOLE TIME WE WERE APART? I YELL TO THE DOOR BECAUSE I KNEW THEY WE LISTENING. NO SHE DIDN'T I HERE MY SISTER VOICE. THEY SHOULD KNOW BECAUSE I TELL THEM EVERYTHING AND THEY CAN TELL WHEN I HAVE SLEPT SOMEONE CHRIS. THIS IS Y I DIDN'T WANT TO HAVE THIS CONVERSATION WITH U CHRIS. I WAS NOT EXPECTING U TO WAIT FOR ME AND SEE IF WE WERE GONNA GET BACK TOGETHER. I TOLD U I DID NOT CARE WHO SHE WAS CHRIS. U HAD YOUR LIFE TO LIVE AND I HAD MINE. LIKE I SAID BEFORE, I AM NOT MAD. I DON'T HAVE A RIGHT TO BE MAD ABOUT THIS BECAUSE WE WERE NOT TOGETHER CHRIS. WERE U EXPECTING ME TO BE MAD OR EVEN JEALOUS OF HER? BECAUSE I KNOW GIRLS LIKE CHRIS. THEY FIND OUT ABOUT U WERE BACK ON THE MARKET AND TELL U ALL THE RIGHT THINGS U WANTED TO HEAR AND HOW THEY CAN DO THINGS TO U THAT I COULDN'T DO. I KNOW THOSE KINDS OF GIRLS CHRIS AND I AM NOT JEALOUS ONE BIT.

IF U R DONE TALKING ABOUT THIS, I NEED TO PUT MY CLOTHES ON NOW. WE R NOT DONE TALKING ABOUT THIS CHRIS SAYS. YEAH I THINK WE R CHRIS. U R JEALOUS HE SAYS TO ME. NO I AM NOT. CHRIS LET ME GO SO I CAN GET READY. I WAN TO KNOW WHAT U R FEELING RIGHT NOW HE SAYS TO ME. RIGHT NOW IF U DON'T LET ME GO, I WILL SHOW U HOW I AM FEELING RIGHT NOW. ALRIGHT FINE THEN I WILL LEAVE THEN. FINE CHRIS. HE OPENED THE DOOR AND LEFT OUT. I SEE EVERYONE STANDING THERE AS HE LEAVES. CHRIS WHERE R U GOING? I HEAR MIKA SAYS TO HIM. TAMARAH Y DID U DO THAT? MY SISTER ASKED ME. DO WHAT? HE WAS BEING HONEST WITH U AND U JUST.............. AS SHE PAUSED. LOOK I DON'T WANNA TALK ABOUT THIS RIGHT NOW. IF U GUYS DON'T MIND, I WILL DOWN STAIRS. I WILL APPRECIATE IT IF U GUYS LEAVE ME ALONE AND STOP BOTHERING ME ABOUT THIS WHOLE THING. I THINK CHRIS IS RIGHT ABOUT WHAT HE SAID MY SISTER SAYS TO EVERYONE. SHE IS MAD AND I CAN TELL SHE IS MY SISTER TAMEKAH SAYS. YEAH I KNOW TREY SAYS. I JUST HOPE THAT THEY WILL BE ABLE TO WORK THINGS OUT NICKI SAYS. I HOPE U R RIGHT DRAKE SAYS.

I WILL ADD TOMORROW

OMG so Chris is tryna get back with Tamarah hmmm, Are they bout to smash? lol

I GOT TO MY HOUSE AND WAS SURPRISE TO SEE IT IN ONE PIECE STILL I SEE THE HOUSE IS STILL IN ONE PIECE. THAT IS BECAUSE WE WERE GONE MOST OF THE TIME U WERE GONE ANGIE SAYS. I AM GONNA GO GO UPSTAIRS TO PUT THESE THINGS AWAY AND START GETTING READY. I GO INTO MY ROOM AND FALL RIGHT ON MY BED. I WAS SO HAPPY TO BE HOME BACK IN MY OWN BED. AS I WAS LAYING THERE, I STARTED THINKING ABOUT ALL THE TIMES ME AND CHRIS HAD IN HERE. I PUT IN ONE OF THE DVD'S HE HAD LEFT FOR ME TO WATCH. THE FIRST ONE HE WAS SHOWING ME ALL THE BACK STAGE STUFF HE WAS DOING AT HIS SHOWS AND THE SET OF HIS VIDEOS. I NEVER KNEW HOW MUCH I REALLY MISS HIM UNTIL WATCHING THIS. HE IS STILL GOOFY AS EVER. I JUST COULD NOT STOP LAUGHING AT HIM. I HOPE U ENJOYED THIS AS MUCH AS I AM TAMARAH. I JUST WANNA SAYS THAT I LOVE U AND I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE U AGAIN HE SAYS. EVERYBODY TELL TAMARAH BYE CHRIS SAYS. I SEE MY SISTER AND EM IN THE BACKGROUND AS WELL. I LOVE AND SEE U SOON. THEY R SO CRAZY. I PUT IN THE OTHER ONE AND IT STARTED WITH A PICTURE WE TOOK THE VERY FIRST TIME WE MET EACH OTHER. THIS WAS A SLIDE SHOW OF ALL THE PICTURES WE HAD TOGETHER WITH EACH OTHER AND WITH OUR FAMILY AND FRIENDS. HE HAD ONE OF MY FAVORITE SONG PLAYING IN THE BACKGROUND THAT MADE ME START TO TEAR UP. ALL BACK WAS PLAYING IN THE BACKGROUND. I WAS JUST SITTING THERE WATCHING EACH AND EVERY PICTURE GO BY ON THE TV. AFTER THE LAST PICTURE WENT PASS, IT READ I WANTED IT ALL BACK AND THERE WAS A RING UNDERNEATH IT.

I COULD NOT BELIEVE WHAT I HAD JUST SAW. SO R U GONNA SAYS YES? BUN SAYS. I DON'T KNOW. I REALLY DON'T KNOW. HE OBVIOUSLY WANTS U BACK AND I CAN TELL U WANT HIM BACK AS WELL. I KNOW THINGS HAVE BEEN REALLY TOUGH FOR U GUYS BUT DO U THINK MAYBE U COULD GIVE IT ANOTHER SHOT WITH HIM. U KNOW SHE HAS A POINT AS I HERE MY SISTER AND EM COME IN TO MY ROOM. HE HAS BEEN TRYING TO REACH OUT TO U AND I THINK IT IS TIME FOR U TO TALK TO HIM AND SEE WHERE U GUYS STAND MY SISTER SAYS TO ME. U KNOW HE IS GONNA WANNA KNOW WHERE U MIND IS WHEN HE SEES U. I JUST DON'T KNOW U GUYS. I ONLY TELL U TO FOLLOW YOUR HEART MY SISTER SAYS. DEEP DOWN WE KNOW U WANT TO BE BACK WITH HIM. U KNOW IT IS ALMOST TIME TO LEAVE SO U NEED TO GET DRESS MIKA SAYS. I WENT AND PUT THE DRESS AND SHOES ON THAT WAS SENT TO ME. I WAS SO SCARED RIGHT NOW AND I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT WAS GONNA HAPPENED THE MOMENT I SAW CHRIS AGAIN. R U READY UP THERE? I AM READY TO GO NOW. WOW. U LOOK SO BEAUTIFUL MY SISTER SAYS. R U ALRIGHT? TREY ASKED ME. I AM FINE AS I TOOK A DEEP BREATH. U R GONNA BE FINE SHALAMEKE SAYS. WAIT A MINUTE. WHAT IS WRONG? ANGIE SAYS. R U GUYS NOT TELLING ME SOMETHING? NO THEY ALL SAY AT THE SAME TIME AND THEN WALK AWAY. LOOK WE KNOW EVERYTHING U KNOW MIKA SAYS. UN HUH I SAYS TO ALL OF THEM. NOW CAN WE GO PLEASE? TYGA SAYS. COME ON LETS GO I SAY TO THEM. I HAVE A FEELING THEY R HOLDING SOMETHING BACK FROM ABOUT TONIGHT AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT IT IS.

OK U GUYS R ACTING REALLY STRANGE RIGHT NOW. NO WE R NOT SHAD SAYS. WE R JUST ADMIRING HOW BEAUTIFUL U R TONIGHT KEVIN SAYS TO ME. U KNOW U GUYS R FULL OF IT. I KNOW SOMETHING IS GONNA HAPPENED TONIGHT AN U GUYS WON'T TELL ME. NOTHING IS GONNA HAPPEN TONIGHT NICKI SAYS TO ME. ALRIGHT THEN I TELL THEM. THE CAR FINALLY STOPS AND THERE R SO MANY PEOPLE OUT HER TONIGHT. SO WE GET OUT THE CAR AND THERE R CAMERAS FLASHING EVERYWHERE IN FRONT OF US. I DON'T THINK I CAN DO THIS I TELL MY SISTER. U R GONNA BE FINE SHE SAYS. WHICH ONE OF U R........... TAMARAH THERE U R. CAN U COME WITH ME PLEASE? ONE OF THE CHRIS'S PEOPLE CAME OUT. SURE I TELL HIM. NOTHING IS GONNA HAPPEN RIGHT AS I LOOK AT EVERYONE. HAVE FUN TAMARAH I HEAR THEM SAY TO ME. WHERE R U TAKING ME? TO THE STAGE AREA THE MAN SAYS TO ME. I KNEW IT I SAY TO MYSELF. HAVE A SEAT RIGHT HERE? THE MAN SAYS. THE CONCERT WAS ABOUT TO START AND I WAS LOOKING FORWARD TO HIM PERFORM LIVE. THE LIGHT WENT DOWN AND THE CROWD WENT CRAZY. HE CAME OUT AND YEAH 3X CAME ON AND THE CROWD WENT CRAZY. I JUST LOVE WATCHING HIM PERFORM. HE IS AMAZING AT WHAT HE DOES AND I KNOW THAT Y HE HAS A GREAT FAN BASE LIKE HE DOES. HE HAD PERFORM SO MANY SONG INCLUDING HIS NEW SONG TURN UP THE MUSIC. I THINK THIS DANCE ROUTINE HE DOES FRO THIS SONG IS THE BEST TO ME. EVERY TIME HE PERFORMS, HE JUST MAKE ME SMILE. I SEE HIM STARTING TO WALK TOWARD ME. HE TAKES MY HANDS AND WALKS ME TO A CHAIR HE HAS ON STAGE.

I HEAR THE MUSIC THE MUSIC TO HIS SONG SEX BEGINS TO PLAY. HE LOOKED AT ME AND STARTED SMILING AT ME AS THE SONG BEGAN TO START. I GOT GOOSE BUMPS WHEN HE STARTED TO PERFORM. HE CAME AND SAT ON TOP OF SINGING TO ME. HE LEANED IN AND STARTED KISSING MY NECK AND I COULD NOT MOVE. I STILL MAKE U NERVOUS I SEE HE SAYS TO ME IN MY EAR. HE TAKES MY ARMS AND PUTS THEM AROUND HIS NECK AS HE PULLS ME FORWARD INTO HIM AS HE STARTS GRINDING ON ME STILL KISSING MY NECK. THE SONG WAS STILL PLAYING WHEN HE GOT UP AND I GOT UP TWO AND WE WERE STANDING FACE TO FACE. HE JUST LOOKED AT ME AND STARED FOR A FEW SECONDS. HE PUT THE MICROPHONE DOWN AND PULLED ME CLOSE TO HIM AND DIDN'T SAYS ANYTHING. THE CROWD WAS SCREAMING SO LOUDLY. HE LEND IN AND KISS ME SO SOFTLY. I BEGAN TO SEE THE LIGHT GO DOWN AS WE R STILL KISSING EACH OTHER. I FELT HIS HANDS TOUCHING MY BACK AS WE CONTINUED TO KISS EACH OTHER. HE STOP KISSING ME AND I COULD NOT SAY A WORD. HE JUST LOOKED AT ME AND SMILED. U LOOK SO BEAUTIFUL TONIGHT. THANK U CHRIS. DID U LIKE MY PERFORMANCE? YEAH I DID CHRIS. Y R SO NERVOUS RIGHT NOW? HE ASKED ME. U WOULD BE TOO IF U HAD MILLION OF PEOPLE WATCHING U AND............... AND ME DOING WHAT I DID TO U HE SAYS. WELL YEAH. NICE PERFORMANCE TONIGHT CHRIS MY SISTER SAYS.

THANKS U GUYS. I AM GLAD YA'LL ENJOYED IT. SO U GUYS WANNA GO CLUBBIN NOW? TASHA SAYS. U GUYS CAN GO I TELL THEM. I AM STILL A LITTLE TIRED FROM MY FLIGHT BACK HERE TODAY. DON'T WORRY. I WILL TAKE HER HOME CHRIS SAYS. ALRIGHT THEN MIKA SAYS SMILING AT ME. WE LEAVE U GUYS THEN TREY SAYS. CAN YA'LL JUST GO PLEASE. HAVE FUN U GUYS ANGIE SAYS TO US. BYE I TELL THEM. COME WITH ME SO I CAN GET MY THINGS AND I WILL TAKE U HOME. I HAD TOOK MY SHOES OFF BECAUSE THESE HEELS WERE KILLING MY FEET RIGHT NOW. I NEVER NOTICED HOW SHORT U R. SHUT UP CHRIS I SAY LAUGHING. SO HOW R U DOING? HE ASKED ME. I AM DOING FINE CHRIS. HOW YOUR TRIP TO HAWAII? IT WAS GREAT. I HAD A GOOD TIME THERE. IT WAS SO RELAXING AND I NEEDED IT TOO. DID U TAKE PICTURES? YEAH I DID BUT I HAVE NOT SHOWN THEM TO ANYONE YET. I AM DONE NOW AND WE CAN LEAVE. CHRIS U HAVE A FEW FANS OUT HERE WHO WANT A PICTURE WITH U. I WILL WAIT OUTSIDE FOR U. ALRIGHT I WILL BE RIGHT THERE HE SAYS. I KNEW HE WAS WATCHING ME AS I WALKED AWAY. HELLO. CHRIS. SORRY U GUYS HE SAYS. HURRY UP YA'LL. CHRIS HAS OTHER THINGS HE NEEDS TO DO ONE OF HIS FANS SAY TO HIM. I HOPE U GUYS GET BACK TOGETHER THE GIRLS SAYS TO HIM. I HOPE SO TO HE TELL HER BACK. U READY TO GO? YEAH I AM. SO HOW DOES IT FEEL TO BE ON TOP RIGHT NOW? I AM LOVING IT HR SAYS. I AM HAVING THE TIME OF MY LIFE RIGHT NOW. BUT THERE IS ONE THING THAT IS MISSING FROM ALL OF THIS. AND WHAT IS THAT I ASKED HIM AS WE GET IN THE CAR. U HE SAYS TO ME.

I COULD NOT STOP THINKING ABOUT U THIS WHOLE TIME HE SAYS. WE LET A WHOLE YEAR GO BY AND I JUST COULD NOT WASTE ANOTHER MINUTE. I WANT U BACK. I KNOW I SHOULD NOT HAVE LET U GO SO EASILY WHEN WE WENT THAT WHOLE THING WITH U LOSING THE BABY AND WHAT YOUR DAD WAS SAYING ABOUT US. THIS PAST YEAR GAVE ME A LOT TIME TO THINK ABOUT MYSELF AND ABOUT BEING WITH U. I WAS SCARED ABOUT WHAT HAD HAPPENED THAT I JUST NEEDED TO END THINGS BACK THEN. I KNOW AND I HAD A LOT OF TIME TO THINK TO CHRIS. I AM JUST HAVING MIXED FEELINGS ABOUT EVERYTHING STILL. I UNDERSTAND AND I KNOW THINGS R NOT GONNA BE LIKE THEY WERE BEFORE BUT I MISS U AND I STILL LOVE U. I LOVE U TOO CHRIS. LET ME DRIVE U HOME AND WE CAN FINISH TALKING THERE HE SAYS TO ME. I SEE U BOUGHT U ANOTHER CAR. ACTUALLY I HAD THIS ONE ALREADY. I JUST DIDN'T DRIVE IT TO MUCH HE SAYS. DID OUR MOMS HAVE FUN WITH U ON THE TRIP? OH MY GOD CHRIS, THEY WERE CRAZY IN HAWAII. I THINK THEY HAD MORE FUN THAN I DID. U NEED TO SEE THE PICTURES I TOOK OF THEM. JUST THINKING ABOUT IT NOW STILL MAKE ME LAUGH. I WAS GLAD THEY CAME TO KEEP ME COMPANY THOUGH. I JUST DIDN'T FEEL RIGHT BEING THERE BY MYSELF. U LOOK SO TIRED. I AM I TELL HIM. THE FLIGHT WAS LONG AND I MISS SLEEPING IN MY BED. U MISS SLEEPING NEXT TO U TOO HE SAYS SMILING AT ME. I DID NOT ANSWER HIM. I WILL TAKE THAT AS A YES HE SAYS. WE R HERE CHRIS SAYS TO ME. I GET OUT THE CAR AND FEET R HURTING LIKE CRAZY. R U ALRIGHT? I AM FINE CHRIS. U KNOW U HAVE A LOT OF MAIL HERE. I KNOW AND I WILL LOOK AT THAT STUFF TOMORROW.

I AM GONNA HEAD UPSTAIRS TO CHANGE OUT OF THESE CLOTHES. I WILL JUST WAIT DOWN HERE HE SAYS. U KNOW U CAN COME UP HERE CHRIS. IT IS OK. I DON'T MIND I TELL HIM. HERE R THE PICTURES I TOOK CHRIS. CAN U HELP ME WITH MY ZIPPER PLEASE? I CAN'T REACH IT. SURE HE SAYS. THANK U AS I TURNED AND LOOKED AT HIM. I AM GONNA GO CHANGE NOW. YEAH RIGHT HE SAYS. I HEAR HIM OUT THERE LAUGHING. OUR MOM R CRAZY HE SAYS AS I COME BACK OUT. WHAT CHRIS? NOTHING HE SAYS. SO WHO IS THIS? THAT IS JUST ONE OF THE PEOPLE WHO WORK THERE. STOP BEING JEALOUS CHRIS. I WAS TAKING PICTURES WITH EVERYBODY. I WANTED TO REMEMBER THIS TRIP. BUT I KNOW I WON'T BECAUSE THE WAY OUR MOMS ACTED, I JUST KNOW I HAVE A LOT OF MEMORIES. OH MY GOD, THEY TRIED THE HULA DANCE. OH YEAH AND THEY WERE GOOD AT IT TOO. I KNOW I HAD FUN AND I REALLY WANT TO GO BACK. DID U MEET ANYONE? AS HE GIVES ME BACK THE PICTURES. NO I DIDN'T CHRIS. MAN MY FEET R KILLING ME RIGHT. GIVE ME YOUR FOOT HE SAYS. HE STARTED TO MASSAGE MY FEET FOR ME. THAT FEELS SO GOOD CHRIS. U R SO BEAUTIFUL RIGHT NOW. I REALLY WANT TO KISS U AGAIN. HE MOVES IN CLOSER TO ME AND KISSES MY LIPS SO SOFTLY. CHRIS I CAN'T AS I GET UP FROM THE BED. I FELT HIM COME AND PUT HIS ARMS AROUND ME. I COULD NOT MOVE AS I FELT HIM KISS MY NECK. I JUST MELTED AT THE THOUGHT OF HIM TOUCHING ME LIKE THIS AGAIN. HE HELD ME TIGHTLY AGAINST HIM AND I DID NOT WANT HIM TO LET ME GO. U NEED TO JUST RELAX AND LET ME TAKE CARE OF U TONIGHT HE SAYS TO ME.

Awww she lost the baby thats so sad. damn Chris left her ughh, why didnt he fight for there love. He gave up too easy. Poor Tamarah. Wow so its been a year and Chris is tryna reach her sending flowers cards and ish hmmm, cant wait to read more. Run It!!!

CAN WE PLEASE EAT NOW CHRIS. YEAH WE CAN. I WILL START COOKING AND HERE IS YOUR WATER. BUT FIRST, I NEED TO CHANGE OUT OF THESE CLOTHES CHRIS SAYS. CHRIS U DON'T HAVE TO DO THAT I TELL HIM. U CAN KEEP YOUR CLOTHES ON I TELL HIM. I KNOW WHAT THE BET WAS BUT U DON'T HAVE TO DO THAT. BESIDE I DON'T WANT U TO BURN ANYTHING AS I LOOKED AT HIM. U HAVE A POINT AS HE STARTED LAUGHING. AS I WAS DRINKING THE WATER, I FELT A PAIN IN MY STOMACH. R U ALRIGHT? YEAH I AM FINE CHRIS. I STOOD UP AND THE PAIN GOT WORSE AND I FELL TO THE GROUND. TAMARAH CHRIS SAYS. HE PICKS HIS HAND UP AND HE HAS BLOOD ON IT. I HAD BLOOD RUNNING DOWN MY LEG. OH MY GOD CHRIS SAYS. WE HAVE TO GO TO THE DOCTOR NOW IS SAYS. HE CUTS THE FOOD OFF AND PICKS ME UP FROM HE FLOOR. CAN U WALK CHRIS SAYS? YEAH I CAN. SO WE HEAD TO THE CAR AND THE PAIN WAS BECOMING WORSE. CHRIS GOT IN THE CAR AND DROVE ME TO THE HOSPITAL. HE WAS SPEEDING SO FAST AND I WAS CRYING BECAUSE THE PAIN WAS THAT BAD. TAMARAH JUST HANG IN THERE. WE R ALMOST THERE. CHRIS I AM ABOUT TO PASS OUT I TELL HIM. TAMARAH STAY WITH ME I HEAR CHRIS SAY. BUT THE PAIN WAS SO BAD THAT I PASSED OUT. TAMARAH. CAN U HERE ME? I NEED SOME HELP PLEASE AS CHRIS CARRIES ME INTO THE HOSPITAL. WHAT HAPPEN? THE NURSE ASKED HIM. SHE STARTED HAVING PAINS IN HER STOMACH AND THEN SHE BEGAN BLEEDING. SHE SAID SHE WAS ABOUT TO PASS OUT BECAUSE THE PAIN WAS THAT BAD HE TELLS THE NURSE. LET US TAKE HER IN AND SEE WHAT IS WRONG THE NURSE SAYS TO HIM. MY DOCTOR COMES AND CHECKS MY VITALS. HER VITALS R OK. SHE DID JUST PASS OUT MY DOCTOR SAYS TO CHRIS. CHRIS LET US HELP HER OK. ALRIGHT HE SAYS AS THEY ROLL ME INTO THE ROOM. TAMARAH CAN U HERE ME? I STARTED TO HEAR A VOICE AS I OPENED MY EYES UP. WHAT HAPPENED?

U DON'T REMEMBER HE SAYS TO ME. I THINK I DO. WELL U PASSED OUT HE SAYS TO ME. WE NEED TO CHECK U OUT AND SEE Y R BLEEDING MY DOCTORS SAYS. ALRIGHT I TELL HIM. ALL I COULD THINK ABOUT WAS THE BABY. I JUST HAD THIS FEELING THAT I WAS NOT PREGNANT ANYMORE. CHRIS. I AM RIGHT HERE. OH MY GOD WHOSE BLOOD IS THIS? HIS MOM ASKED HIM. IT IS TAMARAH. WHAT HAPPENED? SHE STARTED HAVING SHARP PAINS IN HER STOMACH AND THEM SHE STARTED BLEEDING CHRIS TELL HER. WHAT DID THE DOCTOR SAY? NOTHING YET. THEY R RUNNING TESTS ON HER TO SEE WHAT IDS WRONG WITH HER. MOM I AM SO SCARED RIGHT NOW. CHRIS EVERYTHING IS GONNA BE FINE. U KNOW SHE IS A STRONG A GIRL AND SHE IS GONNA PULL THROUGH THIS. THERE THEY R AS MY MOM AND THE REST OF THEM COME INTO THE HOSPITAL. WHAT HAPPENED? MY MOM ASKED HIM. WAIT HER COMES THE DOCTOR MIKA SAYS. DOCTOR IS SHE OK. SHE IS GONNA BE FINE BUT............ BUT WHAT DOCTOR CHRIS SAYS. I AM SORRY BUT SHE LOST THE BABY. U MEAN SHE HAD ANOTHER MISCARRIAGE. YES AND THAT IS Y SHE WAS BLEEDING AND THE PAIN IN HER STOMACH. I AM SO SORRY CHRIS. NO HE SAYS AS HE STARTED CRYING. BABY I AM SO SORRY HIS MOM SAYS TO HIM. NOT THIS AGAIN MY MOM SAYS AS SHE WAS CRYING TOO. CAN I SEE HER? CHRIS ASKED THE DOCTOR. SURE U CAN. CHRIS WE WILL BE RIGHT HERE WAITING HIS MOM SAYS. I CAN'T BELIEVE SHE HAS TO GO THROUGH THIS ALL OVER AGAIN MY MOM SAYS. DOES SHE KNOW? I HAVE NOT TOLD HER YET THE DOCTOR SAYS. LET ME TELL HER PLEASE. ALRIGHT. U CAN TELL HER.

HI CHRIS. HI. HOW R U FEELING? MUCH BETTER. HAVE U BEEN CRYING? THE DOCTOR SAYS I AM GONNA BE FINE. I KNOW BUT............. BUT WHAT CHRIS. WHAT IS WRONG? CHRIS JUST TELL ME PLEASE. U LOST THE BABY. I AM SO SORRY. NO NO NO I YELL OUT TO HIM. TAMARAH I AM SO SORRY AS HE GRABS AND HUGS ME. I AM CRYING MY OUT RIGHT NOW. EVERYTHING IS GONNA BE FINE. I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS IS HAPPENING TO ME AGAIN. TAMARAH CALM DOWN CHRIS SAYS. I COULD NOT BREATHE AND CHRIS HAD TO CALL MY DOCTOR BACK IN. TAMARAH U NEED TO CALM DOWN. U R HAVING A PANIC ATTACK. SHE CAN'T HEAR ME THE DOCTOR SAYS. CHRIS CAN U LEAVE THE ROOM PLEASE. I WAS TRYING TO BREATHE BUT I COULD NOT. I WAS CRYING AND I JUST COULD NOT STOP. TAMARAH I NEED U TO LOOK AT ME. U NEED TO BREATHE. I STARTED TO CALM MY SELF AS THE DOCTOR WAS TALKING TO ME THROUGH THE BREATHING EXERCISE. GOOD. U R DOING GOOD HE SAYS.MY BREATHING WAS COMING BACK TO NORMAL. CHRIS WAS IS GOING ON? SHE WAS HAVING A PANIC ATTACK. IS SHE ALRIGHT? MY SISTER ASKED. SHE WILL BE FINE. CAN I GO BACK IN? SHE WANTED TO BE ALONE FOR A FEW MINUTES THE DOCTOR TELL THEM. I WANT HER TO STAY OVER NIGHT JUST TO KEEP AN EYE ON HER. ALRIGHT DOCTOR CHRIS SAYS. THE NURSE WILL LET U KNOW WHEN SHE IS READY TO SEE U. CHRIS COME SIT DOWN.

R U HUNGRY? TREY ASKED HIM. I CAN'T EAT RIGHT NOW HE SAYS. U HAVE TO EAT SOMETHING SWEETIE TO KEEP YOUR STRENGTH UP MY MOM SAYS. HOW IS SHE DOING? AS EVERYONE TURNED TO SEE MY DAD STANDING THERE. DAD I DON'T THINK U SHOULD BE HERE RIGHT NOW. U GOT SOME NERVE COMING HERE CHRIS SAYS TO MY FATHER. I HAVE A RIGHT TO BE HERE HE SAYS TO CHRIS. MAYBE SHE WILL SEE NOW THAT U TOO SHOULD NOT BE TOGETHER MY DAD SAYS. COME ON NOW DAD NOT NOW. YOUR DAUGHTER IS IN THERE CRYING HER EYES OUT BECAUSE SHE JUST LOST HER BABY AND THE ONLY THING U CARE ABOUT IS US NOT BEING TOGETHER. SHE LOST THE BABY. YEAH SHE DID CHRIS SAYS. I AM SORRY BUT NOW MAYBE SHE WILL SEE WHAT I WAS SAYING. I AM GONNA LEAVE BEFORE I HURT HIM CHRIS SAYS. DADDY U R WRONG FOR THAT? MY SISTER SAYS. I NEVER WANTED HER TO LOSE THE BABY HE SAYS. BUT NOW THAT BABY IS GONE U THINK THEY WILL BREAK UP BECAUSE OF ALL THIS THAT HAS BEEN GOING ON. YEAH HE SAYS. U R SO WRONG. TAMARAH IS ASKING FOR CHRIS. I WILL GET HIM TYGA SAYS. HE IS GONE TYGA SAYS. GONE JOYCE SAYS. WE WILL GO IN AND SEE HER BOTH OF OUR MOM SAY. HI BABY. HEY U GUYS. U FEELING BETTER? MY MOM ASKED ME. YEAH I AM. WE R SO SORRY ABOUT WHAT HAPPEN. OK WHAT IS WRONG? NOTHING JOYCE SAYS. WHERE IS CHRIS? HE LEFT DIDN'T HE. YEAH BUT HE JUST NEEDED TO CLEAR HIS BECAUSE YOUR FATHER CAME AND.............. WAIT DAD IS HERE? YEAH HE IS. I CAN'T BELIEVE HIM. HE SAID SOMETHING TO CHRIS. YEAH AND CHRIS JUST LEFT. WE THOUGHT IS WAS GOING TO GET SOME FRESH AIR. BUT THEN TYGA CAME BACK IN AND SAID HE WAS GONE MY MOM SAYS.

I GUESS NOW THAT THIS HAPPENED, HE THINK THAT ME AND CHRIS SHOULD NOT BE TOGETHER. THEY DID NOT SAYS ANYTHING AFTER I SAID THAT. NO HE DIDN'T SAY THAT I ASKED THEM. I CAN'T BELIEVE HIM. I AM IN THE HOSPITAL BLEEDING AND JUST LOST MY BABY AND HE SAYS THAT. LOOK JUST CALM DOWN AND RELAX TAMARAH MY MOM SAYS. HOW CAN I WHEN HE IS DOING THIS. CAN I TALK TO U? I HEAR CHRIS COME BACK IN. WE WILL GIVE U GUYS SOME PRIVACY. NO. U CAN STAY BECAUSE I WANT U GUYS TO HEAR THIS TOO. CHRIS WHAT IS WRONG? HIS MOM ASKED HIM. CHRIS............. JUST LET ME SAYS THIS. I LOVE U SO MUCH AND I JUST THINK THAT MAYBE WE SHOULD JUST CALL EVERYTHING OFF AND JUST GO OUR SEPARATE WAYS HE SAYS. CHRIS PLEASE DON'T DO THIS I TELL HIM. TAMARAH I KNOW THIS IS NOT WHAT U WANNA HEAR BUT I JUST THINK WE NEED TO LET EACH OTHER GO. U JUST LOST ANOTHER BABY AND ALL THIS DRAMA ABOUT US BEING TOGETHER HAS PUT ALL THIS STRESS ON U BECAUSE OF ME. CHRIS THIS IS NOT YOUR FAULT. YES IT IS. THE DAY WE GOT TOGETHER HAS JUST BEEN HELL FOR U AND ME. RIGHT NOW I NEED SOME TIME TO THINK ABOUT THIS. THIS IS REALLY HARD FOR ME AND I AM SORRY. I THINK THIS IS THE BEST THING. I LOOKED AT THE RING HE GAVE ME AND GAVE IT BACK TO HIM. I LOVE U BUT I THINK THIS IS THE BEST THING. I LOVE U T CHRIS. CHRIS WAIT A MINUTE HE HIS MOM SAYS. TAMARAH I AM SO SORRY MY MOM SAYS. I STARTED BACK CRYING AGAIN. I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS IS HAPPENING TO ME RIGHT NOW. MOM. YEAH. WHAT JUST HAPPENED IN HERE? CHRIS CALLED EVERYTHING OFF AND THEY BROKE UP.

LOOKS LIKE THIS IS FOR THE BEST I HEAR MY DAD SAY. U REALLY NEED TO LEAVE RIGHT NOW. I DON'T WANT U HERE. GET OUT I YELL OUT TO HIM. DADDY JUST GO MY SISTER TAMEKAH SAYS TO HIM. FINE I WILL GO HE SAYS. Y IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME RIGHT NOW? EVERYTHING IS NOT FINE. I JUST LOST EVERYTHING THAT I LOVE AND I DON'T IF I CAN TAKE THIS AGAIN. I AM SORRY BUT SHE REALLY NEEDS TO REST NOW THE NURSE SAYS. ALRIGHT WE R ALMOST DONE MY SISTER SAYS. IS IT OK IF I STAY WITH HER? MY MOM ASK THE NURSE. SURE THAT WILL BE FINE. I LOVE U AND WE WILL SEE U WHEN U GET HOME. I WILL CALL U GUYS IF ANYTHING HAPPEN MY MOM TELLS MY SISTER. I JUST HOPE SHE DOES NOT DO ANYTHING EXTREME MY SISTER SAYS. I DON'T THINK SHE WOULD GO THAT FAR MY MOM SAYS. I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS IS HAPPENING TO HER ALL OVER AGAIN NICKI SAYS. SHE WILL BE FINE U GUYS MIKA SAYS. U GUYS GO AND GET SOME REST. WE WILL SEE IF WE CAN FIND CHRIS AND TALK TO HIM TREY SAYS. ALRIGHT U GUYS MY MOM SAYS. DID U FIND CHRIS? TYGA ASKED HER. NO. HE WAS ALREADY GONE BY THE TIME I GOT OUT THE DOOR. EVERYTHING IS GONNA BE FINE JOSIE. JOYCE EVERYONE KEEPS SAYING AND IT IS NOT. MY LITTLE GIRL IN LAYING IN THERE HEART BROKEN. SHE JUST LOST ANOTHER CHILD AND ONLY PERSON WHO LOVED HER FOR HER AND SHE CONNECTED WITH SO EASILY. LIKE SHE SAID, EVERYTHING IS NOT GONNA BE FINE. I AM AFRAID SHE IS GONNA DO SOMETHINGS TO HERSELF TO MAKE ALL THE PAIN GO AWAY MY MOM TELL JOYCE AS THEY HUG EACH OTHER.

FAST FORWARD ONE YEAR LATER...........

WELL IT HAS BEEN OVER A YEAR SINCE ME AND CHRIS BROKE THINGS OFF. I WAS ANGRY AND MAD ABOUT WHAT HAS HAPPENED TO US. I DECIDED TO TAKE A 2 WEEK VACATION TO HAWAII BECAUSE I REALLY NEEDED TO CLEAR MY HEAD ABOUT THINGS. IT STILL HARD FOR ME NOT HAVING CHRIS AROUND ME. I MISS HIM SO MUCH AND IT STILL HURTING ME EVEN AFTER IT BEING ONE YEAR LATER. I KNEW I WOULD COME BACK AND U GUYS WOULD NOT BE WORKING. HEY AS EVERYONE RAN UP TO ME SCREAMING AND YELLING. WELCOME HOME MY SISTER SAYS. YEAH WE MISS U AROUND HERE TASHA SAYS. SO HOW WAS YOUR TRIP? SHALAMEKE ASKED ME. I HAD FUN AND I NEEDED THAT TRIP TO CLEAR MY HEAD. SHALAMEKE HOW IS THE MY FAVORITE LITTLE NEPHEW DOING? HE IS DOING FINE AND HE KEPT ASKING WHEN U WERE COMING HOME. I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE HIM. SO HOW IS EVERYTHING HERE? THE SAME MY SISTER SAYS. THE BUSINESS IS STILL GOING STRONG AND EVERYTHING WAS COOL NICKI SAYS. WE DID NOT HAVE ANY TROUBLE IF THAT IS WHAT U R ASKING TASHA SAYS. LOOK EVERYTHING WAS FINE AND THERE WAS NO TROUBLE. WHAT IS WITH ALL THESE FLOWERS? I ASKED THEM. THEY R FROM CHRIS ANGIE SAYS. HE HAS BEEN SENDING Y FLOWERS FOR THE PAST TWO WEEKS AND HERE ARE ALL THE CARDS HE LEFT U TOO ANGIE SAYS. OK WHAT DO THEY SAY? I ASKED JUST TO SEE IF ANY ONE WOULD RESPOND. WELL ONE SAID I LOVE AND............... UN HUH I LOOKED AT MIKA AND STARTED SMILING. IT IS GOOD TO BE BACK HOME I TELL THEM. HE ALSO STOPPED BY HERE THE OTHER DAY AND DROP OFF THIS LETTER.

DID HE SEND THESE TOO? YEAH HE DID TAMARAH. WE KEPT THESE IN THE OFFICE AND THE OTHER OUT THERE IN FRONT. I SEE THEY R NOT DEAD. THAT IS BECAUSE WE HAVE BEEN WATERING THEM FOR U UNTIL U CAME BACK. THANK U GUYS. SO IS ANYBODY GONNA TELL ME WHAT IS IN THIS LETTER? OOOOOHHHHH U KNOW WHAT WE HAVE CUSTOMERS NICKI SAYS. YEAH THANKS A LOT GUYS FOR GIVING ME MY PRIVACY WHILE I WAS GONE. ALRIGHT MY SISTER SAYS. THE VERSION IS THAT HE IS HAVING A CONCERT TONIGHT AND HE INVITED ALL OF US AND HE REALLY WANTS TO SEE U. I DON'T KNOW IF I WANT TO GO. HE SAID IF U DID'T THAT HE WOULD COME AND DRAG U THERE AND HE LEFT THESE GIFTS FOR U. A DRESS AND NEW SHOES. I KNOW HE DID NOT PICK THIS OUT FOR ME. NO. HIS MOM DID MY SISTER SAYS. U KNOW U REALLY WANT TO SEE HIM. COME ON TAMARAH TASHA SAYS. IT WILL BE FUN TO SEE HIM PERFORM TONIGHT. ALRIGHT U GUYS I WILL GO. YAY THEY ALL SAY. I AM JUST GLAD EVERYTHING HAS CALM DOWN SINCE I LEFT. WE KNOW NICKI SAYS. I WAS HOPING IT HAD NOT GOTTEN OUT INTO THE MEDIA. THAT IS Y I NEEDED TO LEAVE. ALL THE QUESTION AND PICTURES JUST WAS TOO MUCH FOR ME. U KNOW NOW THAT U R BACK, IT COULD BE THE SAME WAY ANGIE SAYS. I KNOW BUT I WILL DEAL WITH IT.

CHRIS HAS BEEN DOING GREAT I SEE. YEAH HE HAS MY SISTER SAYS. SO U STILL KEEPING AN EYE ON HIS CAREER? MIKA SAYS. YES I HAVE AND U GUYS KNOW I LOVE CHRIS AND I AM FAN TO MY HEART. SO U HAVE SEEN HIS VIDEOS FOR ANOTHER ROUND AND TURN UP THE MUSIC THEN? ANGIE SAYS. YEAH I HAVE AND THE DANCING IN THE TURN UP THE MUSIC VIDEO IS AMAZING I TELL THEM. HE IS JUST EVERYWHERE RIGHT NOW AND I AM HAPPY FOR HIM. HE MAY HAVE SEEM HAPPY BUT HE WASN'T. WHAT DO U MEAN? I ASKED MY SISTER. CHRIS HAS BEEN TALKING TO US AND HE JUST WISH U WERE THERE CELEBRATING WITH HIM ALL HIS SUCCESS HE IS HAVING. I SEE. I THINK THIS IS AN OPPORTUNITY FOR U GUYS TO TALK AND SEE IF U GUYS CAN START FRESH SHALAMEKE SAYS. LOOK IT IS CLOSING TIME AND WE NEED TO GET READY FOR TONIGHT BUN SAYS. SO WE R GONNA GO PUT THESE IN YOUR CAR AND FIX UP ANYTHING THAT NEED FIXING SO WE CAN GO SEE CHRIS TONIGHT. I REALLY DID WANT TO SEE CHRIS. IT HAS BEEN SO HARD FOR ME AFTER WHAT HAPPEN. I JUST DON'T WHAT HOW IT IS GONNA BE WHEN I SEE HIM AGAIN. U READY TO GO HOME? MY SISTER ASKED ME. YEAH I AM READY TO GO. OH HE ALSO LEFT THIS FOR U MY SISTER SAYS. WHAT IS IT? IT IS A DVD HE ASKED ME TO GIVE TO U. U GUYS ALREADY WATCH THIS DIN'T U? WE ALREADY KNOW WHAT HE DID TREY SAYS. YEAH AND MY GIRLS JUST HAD TO KNOW RIGHT. I AM SO LUCKY TO BE HOME WITH MY NOSY FAMILY. WE R SORRY BUT U KNOW US NICKI SAYS. YEAH I DO AS WE LEAVE THE STORE.

Her dad a d*** and WTF can Shawn do, not a damn thing!! Chris and Tamarah need to just focus on them like there doing f everybody else.

MY PHONE RINGS AND IT IS MY MOM. HI MOM. HI TAMARAH. HOW R U DOING? I AM DOING BETTER. AN U? I AM DOING FINE TOO SHE SAYS. JOYCE TOLD ME WHAT HAPPENED LAST NIGHT. I AM SO SORRY AND I WAS JUST TRYING TO HELP. I KNOW MOM AND U TRIED BUT IT JUST DIDN'T WORK. SO WHERE R U GUYS? CHRIS IS ABOUT TO TAKE ME SOMEWHERE AND HE WON'T TELL ME WHERE THOUGH. I HAD CALLED U BEFORE TO TELL U THAT YOUR DAD TOLD SHAWN. I KNOW. HE CAME TO CHRIS'S HOUSE AND THEY WERE ARGUING. I CAN'T BELIEVE HIM SHE SAYS. I CAN MOM. I DON'T KNOW WHAT ELSE TO DO SHE SAYS. MOM U HAVE DONE EVERYTHING AND I SO HAVE WE. IT IS UP TO HIM TO REALIZES THAT I AM NOT LEAVING CHRIS. MY PHONE IS GONNA BE TURNED OFF FOR AWHILE. I KNOW SHE SAYS. I KNOW CHRIS WANT U TOO TO TAKE IT EASY WITH NO INTERRUPTION FROM US. SO I WILL LET U GUYS GO AND I WILL TALK U GUYS LATER. ALRIGHT MOM. BYE. BYE SWEETIE. SHE SOUNDED SAD STILL ABOUT THIS WHOLE THING. IT IS NOT HER FAULT CHRIS SAYS. I KNOW IT IS NOT BUT I THINKS SHE DOES BELIEVE THAT. I JUST HOPES THAT SHE KNOWS THAT. I DON'T THINK I CAN TAKE MUCH MORE OF THIS CHRIS. I REALLY JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND MY DAD AND THIS WHOLE SITUATION RIGHT NOW. HE JUST SEEMS LIKE A TOTALLY DIFFERENT PERSON RIGHT NOW. HE NEVER DISAGREE WITH U WHEN U DATED USHER OR SHAWN? YEAH BUT THEN HE GOT TO KNOW THEM AND THEY LIKED HIM AND HE LIKED THEM BACK. BUT WHEN IT CAME TO ME, EVERYTHING JUST CHANGED. I AM STARTING TO THINK THAT THIS WHOLE THING WITH US SHOULD NOT BE HAPPENING RIGHT NOW.

CHRIS DON'T SAY THAT. I AM JUST SAYING HE SAYS. U KNOW IF WE HAD NOT HOOKED UP OUR LIVES WOULD WAY DIFFERENT RIGHT NOW. IT WOULD BE BUT I AM HAPPY WITH HOW THINGS R. I AM TOO BUT THIS IS NOTHING BUT STRESS ON U AND ME. WE R HERE HE SAYS TO ME. I GET OUT THE CAR AND I STARTED SMILING BECAUSE OF WHERE HE TOOK ME. IT WAS TO HIS OTHER HOUSE THAT WAS PRETTY MUCH IN THE MIDDLE OF NO WHERE. IT WAS QUIET AND HAD A LOT OF AREA WHERE U JUST COULD RELAX AND JUST WALK AROUND WITH NO INTERRUPTION OR PAPARAZZI TO FOLLOW U AND TAKE PICTURES. IT WILL BE JUST ME AND U AND A PEACEFUL NIGHT HE SAYS TO ME. THAT SOUNDS SO NICE RIGHT NOW CHRIS. I CAN'T WAIT I TELL HIM. COME ON AND LETS GO INSIDE AND PUT THESE THINGS AWAY. I WILL BE RIGHT IN CHRIS. I WAS ADMIRING THAT IT WAS SO QUIET AND PEACEFUL OUT HERE. JUST THE SOUNDS OF BIRDS AND THE WIND BLOWING. WHAT R U THINKING ABOUT? NOTHING. JUST THAT THIS IS WHAT I NEEDED AND I AM GLAD U BROUGHT ME OUT HERE. I LOVE IT OUT HERE TOO HE SAYS. I CAME OUT HERE A LOT WHEN I JUST WANTED SOME PRIVACY TO BE BY MYSELF OR SO ME AND FRIENDS COULD JUST HANG OUT WITH ANYBODY TAKING PHOTOS OF US ALL THE TIME.

R U HUNGRY? YEAH I AM CHRIS. WELL COME ON IN AND I CAN FIX U TWO OR THREE SOMETHING TO EAT AS HE RUBS MY STOMACH. WE R GONNA BE JUST FINE CHRIS SAYS TO ME. YES WE R CHRIS. EVERYTHING IS GONNA BE FINE. WOW U HAVE A LOT OF PICTURES IN HERE. I TOOK MY PHONE OUT AND TOOK A PICTURE OF HIM WHEN WAS A LITTLE BOY. AW CHRIS U R SO CUTE IN THIS PICTURE. WHAT R U DOING? I AM ABOUT TO TAKE A PICTURE OF THIS. MOVE CHRIS I WANT THIS PICTURE. I KNEW I SHOULD HAVE PUT THESE PICTURES AWAY. Y R ACTING ALL SHY ABOUT THIS? I AM NOT HE SAYS. U R STARTING TO BLUSH CHRIS. I JUST WANT ON PICTURE THAT IS ALL AND I WILL PUT MY PHONE AWAY. ALRIGHT I AM DONE CHRIS. LET ME SEE YOUR PHONE? Y CHRIS? AM I GONNA HAVE TO CHASE U? I THINK U R CHRIS. WE RAN AROUND THE COUCH A FEW TIMES. I AM NOT GONNA SHOW THESE TO ANYBODY I TELL HIM. I KNOW U R CHRIS SAYS TO ME. I KNOW PLENTY OF PEOPLE HAVE SEEN THESE ALREADY CHRIS. I KNOW AND I STILL GET PEOPLE TELLING HOW CUTE I WAS OR JUST..........CHRIS STOP ACTIN LIKE A BIG BABY AS HE GRAB ME AND WE FALL ON THE COUCH. GIVE ME THE PHONE AS HE IS TICKLING ME. CHRIS STOP PLAYING AROUND. I PUT THE PHONE IN MY SHIRT INSIDE MY BRA. U KNOW I CAN STILL GET IT HE SAYS.

YEAH I KNOW U CAN BUT U WON'T CHRIS AS WE SIT UP ON THE COUCH. I NEED TO BREATHE I TELL HIM. I TAKE THE PHONE OUT MY SHIRT AND TURN IT OFF. HOW LONG HAVE U HAD THESE FEELING ABOUT WHAT U SAID IN THE CAR? NOT LONG HE SAYS. I MEAN I REALLY DIDN'T START HAVING THEM UNTIL THE TIME I WENT TO SEE YOUR FATHER HE SAYS. Y DIDN'T U TELL ME. I DON'T KNOW HE SAYS. I JUST THOUGHT HE WAS GONNA CHANGE HIS MIND ABOUT ME AND I JUST THOUGHT NOT TO SAY ANYTHING BECAUSE I KNEW U HAD MADE THE RIGHT DECISION ABOUT BEING WITH ME AND I WANTED TO BE WITH U. I KNOW U HAVE THE SAME THOUGHTS OR HAVE EVEN THOUGHT ABOUT IT. U KNOW WHAT, I HAVE BUT I LET IT GO BECAUSE THAT WOULD HAVE BEEN MORE STRESS ON ME AND IT WAS ONLY A THOUGHT. I AM REALLY THIRSTY RIGHT NOW FROM U MAKING ME LAUGH CHRIS. COME ON AND LETS GO TO THE KITCHEN HE SAYS. U KNOW I AM GONNA GET YOUR PHONE HE SAYS. CAN I JUST GET SOME WATER PLEASE CHRIS? ALRIGHT SURE BUT I AM NOT PLAYING ABOUT THOSE PICTURES HE SAYS TO ME. WHAT R U GONNA FIX TO EAT CHRIS? DON'T CHANGE THE SUBJECT HE SAYS. U WANT MY PHONE U CAN HAVE IT CHRIS. HE HURRIED UP AND SNATCHED IT FROM ME. HAPPY NOW AS HE LOOKS AT ME. HERE AS HE GIVES IT BACK. U HAVE NOTHING SAY NOW CHRIS. NO I DON'T HE SAYS TO ME.

I WILL GET THE DOOR HE SAYS TO ME. I WAS FEELING SO MUCH BETTER NOW. LOOKING AT WHAT I HAD DONE TO THE KITCHEN, I GUESS I NEEDED TO DO THAT. I AM ALWAYS RELIEVING MY PAIN AND STRESS BY DANCING AND PUNCHING MY BAG AT MY HOUSE. THIS TIME MY DAD REALLY STRUCK A NERVE THAT CAUSE ME TO DO THIS. HI SWEETIE. HI MOM. WHERE IS SHE? SHE IS IN THE KITCHEN HE TELLS HIS MOM. WHAT HAPPENED IN HERE? THINGS GOT A LITTLE OUT OF CONTROL WITH ME LAST NIGHT I TELL HER. I CAN SEE SHE SAYS. I AM SO SORRY ABOUT WHAT HAPPENED LAST NIGHT WITH U AND YOUR FATHER. I KNOW U WERE HOPING HE WOULD COME AROUND. YOUR CALLED ME CRYING LAST NIGHT SHE TELLS ME. SHE WAS SO UPSET THAT SHE DECIDED TO STAY WITH ME LAST NIGHT. SHE GOT INTO IT WITH YOUR DAD AFTER U GUYS LEFT LAST NIGHT. SEE THIS IS Y I JUST WANTED TO LEAVE IT ALONE. I KNOW BUT SOMETIMES THESE THINGS HAPPEN. SHE WAS ONLY TRYING TO HELP MS. JOYCE SAYS TO ME. I KNOW BUT NOW SHE IS FEELING LIKE SHE DOES BECAUSE OF WHAT SHE WAS TRYING TO DO FOR ME. HOW IS SHE DOING NOW? A LITTLE BETTER SHE SAYS TO ME. I THINK SHE NEEDED TO CLEAR HER HEAD AND GIVE YOUR FATHER SOME TIME TO COOL OFF. SHE JUST THOUGHT THAT THIS WAS A GOOD IDEA AND DIDN'T MEAN FOR THINGS TO TURN OUT THIS WAY SHE SAYS TO US. I KNOW AND IT IS NOT HER FAULT. SHE WAS REALLY UPSET BY WHAT YOUR FATHER SAID TO U ABOUT YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH USHER AND SHAWN. HE REALLY BLAMED U FOR EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENED IN THOSE TWO RELATIONSHIP. YEAH HE DID AND THAT IS WHAT REALLY MAD ME ANGRY. IT MADE CHRIS ANGRY AS WELL. I HOPE U TOO DIDN'T FIGHT. NO MOM WE DID NOT FIGHT. I JUST HAD TO COME AND MAKE SURE U GUYS WERE ALRIGHT. I AM FEELING MUCH BETTER NOW MS. JOYCE. THAT IS GOOD AND U CAN CALL ME MOM SHE SAYS SMILING AT ME. ALRIGHT MOM I TELL HER.

R U GONNA GO TO WORK TODAY? NO SHE IS NOT GOING CHRIS SAYS REALLY FAST. I WAS ONLY ASKING CHRIS. MY SISTER AND EVERYONE R GONNA HOLD THINGS DOWN AT THE STORE FOR ME. WELL THAT IS GOOD AND U REALLY NEED TO TAKE IT EASY ANYWAY. I AM GONNA LEAVE BECAUSE ME AND YOUR MOM HAVE MUCH WORK TO DO TODAY. I WILL WALK U TO THE DOOR THEN. BYE CHRIS AND I LOVE U. BYE MOM. R U SURE U R ALRIGHT? YES I AM FINE. PLEASE TELL MY MOM I LOVE HER AND THAT EVERYTHING IS FINE WITH ME. I WILL. AND TELL HER I WILL CALL HER WHEN I GET A CHANCE IF SHE DOESN'T CALL ME FIRST. I WILL SWEETIE. TAKE IT EASY OK. I WILL MOM. I LOVE U. I LOVE TOO. COME ON IN HERE AND EAT WITH ME CHRIS SAYS TO ME. WOW THIS LOOKS GOOD CHRIS. THANK U. SO WHAT R WE DOING TODAY? U R JUST GONNA HAVE TO WAIT AND SEE HE SAYS TO ME. SO U R NOT GONNA GIVE ME ANY HINTS CHRIS. NO AND U CAN STOP ASKING ME BECAUSE I AM NOT SAYING A WORD. WELL I AM FULL RIGHT NOW AND I AM GONNA GO TAKE ME A SHOWER BECAUSE I REALLY NEED IT RIGHT NOW. I HERE MY PHONE AND IT WAS MY SISTER CALLING ME. HELLO. HOW R U FEELING? I AM DOING FINE TAMEKAH. HOW EVERYTHING THERE? EVERYTHING HERE IS GREAT AS USUAL. WE HAVE A LOT OF CUSTOMERS AGAIN SHE SAYS. THAT IS GREAT NEWS TAMEKAH. U SOUND LIKE EVERYTHING IS FINE SHE SAYS. I AM AND TELL EVERYONE I SAID THANK U FOR TODAY. I REALLY APPRECIATE IT. I WILL. U JUST TAKE IT EASY AND RELAX TODAY OK. ALRIGHT TAMEKAH I WILL. I WILL TALK TO U GUYS LATER AND CALL ME IF ANYTHING GOES WRONG OR U GUYS NEED ANYTHING. I WILL SHE SAYS.

U WON'T BE GETTING ANY PHONES CALLS AFTER THIS ON HE SAYS TO ME. TODAY I DON'T WANT ANY INTERRUPTION FOR US HE SAYS. IF ANYTHINGS HAPPENS AT THE STORE, THEY SHOULD BE ABLE HANDLE IT HE SAYS TO ME. YEAH BUT IF IT IS REALLY IMPORTANT CHRIS? I DON'T CARE HE SAYS TO ME. LIKE I SAID TAMARAH, WE CAN HANDLE THINGS HERE. IF IT SOMETHING IMPORTANT, WE CAN DISCUSS IT LATER. ALRIGHT THEN. BYE. BYE TAMEKAH. WE BOTH R CUTTING OFF OUR PHONES TODAY. I AM NOT DOING ANY WORK TODAY EITHER. IT IS JUST ME AN U AND NO INTERRUPTIONS. YES DADDY I TELL HIM. NOW COME ON AND LETS GO GET READY HE SAYS TO ME. SO WE JUST GONNA CUT OUR PHONES OFF CHRIS. YES CHRIS SAYS TO ME. WE WILL NOT BE BOTHERED BY ANYONE TODAY. I KNOW YOUR WORK WAS ALL U DID, BUT NOW U HAVE ME AND THIS BABY TO THINK ABOUT NOW AS WELL. I WANT THIS BABY TO BE HEALTHY AND I WANT U BE RELAX WITHOUT ANY STRESS. BESIDE WE COULD USE A BREAK FROM EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING THAT HAS HAPPENED TO US. I HAVE NOT HAD A BREAK SINCE I STARTED BACK WORKING HE SAYS. DO I NEED TO BRING ANYTHING? YES U DO HE SAYS. WHERE I AM TAKING U, WE WON'T BE COMING BACK UNTIL TOMORROW. ALRIGHT CHRIS I WILL PACK THEN. BUT FIRST, I AM GONNA GO GET INTO THE SHOWER AND PUT MY CLOTHES ON. OK HE SAYS. DON'T TAKE ALL DAY HE SAYS TO ME SMILING. I WON'T CHRIS.

CHRIS CAN U PLEASE ANSWER MY PHONE? CHRIS? I CAME OUT THE BATHROOM AND DID NOT SEE HIM THERE. ALL OF A SUDDEN I HEAR HIS VOICE AND HE YELLING LIKE HE IS ARGUING WITH SOMEONE. I HURRIED UP AND PUT MY CLOTHES ON TO SEE WHERE HE WAS. I LOOK DOWN THE STAIRS AND SEE THE FRONT DOOR AND CHRIS IS YELLING AT SOMEONE. I COULD NOT SEE WHO IT WAS SO I WENT DOWN TO MAKE SURE EVERYTHING WAS OK. CHRIS WHAT IS GOING ON? I HEAR U ALL THE WAY UPSTAIRS. EVERYTHING IS FINE. JUST GO BACK UPSTAIRS AND I CAN HANDLE THIS. HANDLE WHAT CHRIS? I LOOK OUT THE DOOR AND SEE MARCUS STANDING THERE. WHAT R U DOING HERE MARCUS? I CAME BY TO TALK TO U HE SAYS. U COULD NOT TALK TO YOUR GIRLFRIEND ABOUT THIS. YEAH BUT I NEEDED TO TALK TO U. MARCUS NOT TODAY. I AM ALREADY DEALING WITH OTHER THINGS IN MY LIFE AND I DON'T HAVE TIME FOR THIS RIGHT NOW. OH SO U R TALKING ABOUT THE ARGUMENT U HAD WITH YOUR DAD. HOW DID U KNOW ABOUT THAT? HE CALLED ME AND ASKED ME TO COME SEE U. Y DOESN'T THAT SURPRISE ME. THIS IS Y I WAS YELLING CHRIS SAYS. HE JUST WANTS WHAT'S BEST FOR U. I ALREADY HAVE WHAT IS BEST FOR ME MARCUS. YOUR DAD THINKS DIFFERENTLY HE SAYS TO ME. AND U AND HIM THINK U R WHAT'S BEST FOR ME I LOOKED AT MARCUS. I DO HE SAYS BACK TO ME. U KNOW WHAT MARCUS U CAN TELL ME DAD TO STAY OUT OF MY LIFE. U AND ME R DONE. U R NOT WHAT IS BEST FOR ME AS I GET IN HIS FACE. ALRIGHT TAMARAH COME ON NOW CHRIS SAYS. MARCUS I THINK U SHOULD LEAVE CHRIS SAYS TO HIM. I AM GOING AND U WILL TELL YOUR FATHER WHAT U SAID. WELL U JUST DO THAT THEN.

Y DID U COME DOWN HERE TAMARAH? I WAS LOOKING FOR AND I HEARD YELLING WITH SOMEONE SO I HAD SEE WHAT WAS GOING ON CHRIS. I THINK WE REALLY NEED TO LEAVE RIGHT NOW HE SAYS. I CAN'T BELIEVE YOUR DAD DID THAT. I CAN CHRIS. THAT IS HOW IS. YEAH BUT HE HAS GONE TO FAR THIS TIME. HE KNOWS U R PREGNANT AND HE STILL PUTTING ALL THIS STRESS ON U. CHRIS WAS BECOMING ANGRY AND FRUSTRATED ABOUT THIS WHOLE THING. CHRIS JUST CALM DOWN OK. I KNOW THIS HARD FOR AND ME BUT I LOVE U AND ONLY U. MY DAD CAN DO WHAT ALL HE WANTS. I AM NOT LEAVING U BECAUSE HE DOES NOT LIKE IT. I KNOW U WON'T HE SAYS. I JUST HAVE THIS FEELING THAT SOMETHING IS GONNA HAPPEN AND IT IS NOT GONNA BE GOOD FOR EITHER OF US HE SAYS. I WAS THINKING THE SAME THINGS WHEN HE SAID THAT. R U DONE PACKING SO WE CAN HIT THE ROAD? YEAH I AM CHRIS. WELL LETS GO THEN HE SAYS.

I can't believe her dad tried to blame her on her failed relationships, hd's a jerk. Aww I hope Chris can make her feel better. Run It!!!!

U KNOW U DID THIS SAME THING WHEN I DATED SHAWN AS WELL. U JUST TOOK HIS WORD OVER EVERYTHING THAT HAD HAPPENED BETWEEN US. I TRY AND I TRY WITH U BUT U JUST R NOT GETTING IT. ALRIGHT FINE TAMARAH HE SAYS TO ME. SINCE U R DONE , NOW I WILL SPEAK. I AM SORRY ABOUT WHAT I DID AND THAT THAT STUFF HAPPEN TO U. BUT I KNOW U WERE THE CAUSE OF THE PROBLEMS WITH USHER AND SHAWN HE SAYS TO ME. REALLY DAD. YES. I STILL DON'T GET IT HE SAYS TO ME. MR. SHIVERS I DON'T THINK THAT IS FAIR OF U TO SAY IT WAS ALL HER FAULT CHRIS WALKS BACK IN AND SAYS TO HIM. I WAS NOT TALKING TO U HE SAYS TO CHRIS. WELL I AM TALKING TO U HE SAYS BACK. ALRIGHT U GUYS U PROMISE TO COOL ABOUT THINGS MY MOM SAYS. NO MOM HE SAYS. WE CAME OVER HERE TO TRY AND WORK THINGS OUT WITH U BUT I GUESS TAMARAH WAS RIGHT ABOUT U NOT EVEN TRYING. SHE HAS ACCOMPLISHED SO MUCH AND IS DOING WELL FOR HERSELF AND U STILL WONT'T EVEN TELL HER U R PROUD OF HER. WELL U GUYS SHOULD NOT HAVE CAME THEN MY DAD SAYS. U KNOW WHAT DAD AS OF RIGHT NOW I AM DONE FOR GOOD THIS TIME. I DON'T CARE AND I AM NOT GONNA SUPPORT THIS RELATIONSHIP OR THIS MARRIAGE. SO I AM NOT GONNA WALK U DOWN THE AISLE AT YOUR WEDDING HE SAYS TO ME. U CAN LEAVE NOW HE SAYS TO THE BOTH OF US AS HE GOES BACK UPSTAIRS. LETS GO CHRIS I TELL HIM. SO THAT IS IT MY MOM SAYS TO MY DAD. I AM THROUGH WITH THEM HE SAYS. TAMARAH I AM SO SORRY ABOUT THIS. I THOUGHT HE WOULD HAVE AT LEAST TRIED. I KNOW MOM AND I DO THANK U BECAUSE I GOT TO TELL HIM THINGS HE NEEDED TO HEAR FROM ME. I WILL WALK U GUYS OUT SHE SAYS. I WAS REALLY HURTING RIGHT NOW. I KNEW THIS WAS GONNA TURN OUT THIS WAY. THIS IS Y DIDN'T WANT TO DO THIS. HE BLAMES ME FOR EVERYTHING. I MEAN I LOVE MY DAD WITH ALL MY HEART BUT THIS IS SO HURTFUL. I WILL SEE U GUYS LATER MY MOM SAYS. I LOVE U GUYS AND I HOPE U R ALRIGHT. I WILL BE FINE MOM. CHRIS TAKE CARE OF MY GIRL FOR ME. I WILL MOM HE SAYS TO HER.

SOON AS WE GOT IN THE CAR I STARTED TO CRY. I HELD BACK MY TEARS WHEN I WAS TALKING TO MY DAD. TAMARAH I AM SO SORRY ABOUT THIS. U DON'T HAVE TO APOLOGIZE CHRIS. I KNOW U WERE ONLY TRYING TO HELP. I JUST THOUGHT TOO LIKE YOUR MOM THAT HE WOULD HAVE A CHANGE OF HEART ABOUT EVERYTHING. I CAN'T BELIEVE HE BLAMES U FOR BOTH OF YOUR RELATIONSHIP GOING THE WAY IT DID CHRIS SAYS. I AM STILL IN SHOCK BY THIS CHRIS SAYS. I CAN TELL HE WAS ANGRY AND HOPING THAT THINGS WOULD BE RIGHT BETWEEN ME AND MY DAD. SO WE GET TO HIS HOUSE AND I JUST WANTED TO GO TO BED. I WAS TIRED AND STRESS OUT ABOUT WHAT JUST HAPPENED. MY THOUGHT WERE JUST EVERYWHERE IN MY MIND RIGHT NOW. I COULD NOT THINK STRAIGHT AND I JUST COULD NOT CONTROL MY SELF. R U COMING UPSTAIRS. I WILL BE UP IN MINUTE. I WENT INTO THE KITCHEN TO GET SOMETHING TO DRINK. AS I WAS DRINKING THE WATER, I JUST COMPLETELY BROKE DOWN CRYING. TAMARAH......TAMARAH..... I DIDN'T EVEN HIM CHRIS CALLING ME. I WAS THROWING THINGS, SCREAMING, YELLING AND JSUT MAD AS HELL. CALM DOWN TAMARAH AS I FEEL CHRIS GRAB ME. IT IS GONNA BE OK HE SAYS. HE HOLDS ME AS WE BOTH FALL TO THE GROUND AS I AM STILL CRYING. I AM RIGHT HERE I AM HIM TELL ME. COME ON AND GET UP. WE WALKED BACK TO THE LIVING ROOM AND SAT ON THE COUCH. HE JUST HELD ME AS I WAS STILL CRYING. WE NEVER WENT UPSTAIRS. WE FEEL ASLEEP ON THE COUCH.

THE DOOR BELL RINGS AND I FEEL CHRIS GET UP BUT I STAYED SLEEP. HEY CHRIS MY SISTER SAYS. CAN YA'LL KEEP IT QUIET? TAMARAH IS SLEEPING ON THE COUCH STILL. U LOOK A MESS SHE SAYS. COME ON INTO THE KITCHEN. WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED IN HERE? TREY ASKED HIM. TAMARAH DID THIS. WHY? BECAUSE WE WENT OVER TO SEE YOUR FATHER LAST NIGHT AND THINGS DID NOT GO SO WELL. I AM NOT SURPRISE MY SISTER SAYS. YOUR MOM THOUGHT IT WAS TIME AND THAT HE WOULD CHANGE HIS MIND ABOUT EVERYTHING. IT REALLY PISSES ME OFF ABOUT WHAT HE SAID LAST NIGHT TO HER AND THAT HE WASN'T EVEN GONNA TRY CHRIS TELL THEM. U KNOW HE BLAMES HER WHAT HAPPEN WITH USHER AND WITH SHAWN. I KNOW TAMEKAH SAYS TO HIM. I EVEN TRIED TO TELL HIM HE WAS WRONG AND HE DIDN'T WANT TO HEAR IT FROM ME EITHER. HAS SHE EVER GOT THIS MAD BEFORE? CHRIS ASKED THEM. NO AND I AM SURPRISED THAT SHE DID THIS. U HOW HOW SHE USUALLY DEALS WITH HER ANGER AND THIS IS DEFINITELY NOT ONE OF THEM. DO U NEED ANY HELP? MIKA ASKED HIM. NO WILL BE FINE AND CAN U GUYS HOLD DOWN THINGS TODAY FOR HER AT THE STORE. I REALLY WANT HER TO TAKE IT EASY TODAY. NO PROBLEM CHRIS WE CAN SO THAT FOR U. THANKS U GUYS. U NEED THE KEY TO THE STORE? HE ASKED HER. NO WE ALL HAVE ONE SHALAMEKE SAYS. WE WILL SEE U GUYS LATER TYGA SAYS.

I WILL CALL AND CHECK BACK WITH U TO SEE HOW SHE IS DOING. ALRIGHT TAMEKAH AND THANKS U GUYS. I WOKE UP AND HEARD THE FRONT DOOR CLOSE. I WENT INTO THE KITCHEN AND SAW CHRIS CLEANING UP WHAT I HAD DONE. GOOD MORNING. GOOD MORNING CHRIS. HOW R U FEELING? I AM DOING FINE. I AM SORRY ABOUT THIS MESS CHRIS. IT IS OK AND I KNOW HOW UPSET U WERE ABOUT THINGS YESTERDAY. I KNOW AND I WAS SHOCKED THAT I EVEN WENT THIS FAR. U NEED SOME HELP. NO U CAN JUST SIT AND RELAX AND I WILL FINISH CLEANING UP. DID I HEAR MY SISTER AND EM? YEAH THEY WERE HERE. I ASKED THEM IF THEY COULD HOLD THINGS DOWN AT THE STORE FOR U TODAY. I WANT U TO JUST TAKE IT EASY FOR TODAY HE SAYS TO ME. THANKS BECAUSE I DON'T THINK MY MIND WOULD HAVE BEEN ON WORK AT ALL TODAY. U SOMETHING TO EAT? I AM NOT REALLY THAT HUNGRY CHRIS. U KNOW U NEED TO EAT SOMETHING HE SAYS TO ME. I WILL FIX U SOME BREAKFAST AND THEN I SOMETHINGS PLAN FOR US TODAY HE SAYS TO ME.

Tell him Tamarah... Let him know whats up. No BS

COME ON IN U GUYS AND HAVE A SEAT MY MOM TELLS US. I AM SO GLAD U GUYS CAME. I KNOW IT WAS HARD FOR U TAMARAH. ALRIGHT WHO WANTS TO START MY MOM ASKED ME. U KNOW WHAT, I THINK U GUYS U JUST LEAVES US TO TALK ALONE I TELL MY MOM AND CHRIS. R U SURE? I AM SURE CHRIS. ALRIGHT THEN. COME ON CHRIS AND LETS GO INTO THE KITCHEN. SO HOW HAVE U BEEN DADDY? HE DID NOT ANSWER ME. U KNOW WHAT DAD I AM JUST GONNA TALK AND U CAN LISTEN. I AM SORRY U DON'T LIKE WHO I AM WITH NOW. I LOVE HIM AND HE IS NOT GOING ANYWHERE. I JUST DON'T GET IT ABOUT U NOT TALKING TO ME. I AM ABOUT TO HAVE A BABY WHICH IS YOUR GRANDCHILD. I REALLY WANT U TO BE THERE AND TO BE IN MY WEDDING TO GIVE ME AWAY. SO U R NOT GONNA SAYS ANYTHING TO ME. ALRIGHT FINE TAMARAH. HOW CAN U BE WITH SOMEONE LIKE HIM? HE BEAT HIS LAST GIRLFRIEND AND HOW DO U KNOW HE WON'T DO IT TO U. I JUST KNOW DADDY. U JUST KNOW HE SAYS. HOW COULD U LEAVE USHER AND GO WITH SOMEONE LIKE HIM? THERE IT IS RIGHT THERE. U DON'T GET IT DO U. USHER NEVER LOVED ME DADDY. HE MAY HAVE TOLD U THAT BUT HE REALLY DIDN'T. I WAS NEVER HAPPY WITH HIM AND HE WAS DAMN SHOW NOT HAPPY WITH ME. U KNOW HE CHEATED AND U STILL WAS TRYING TO FORCE US TOGETHER. U GUYS COULD HAVE WORKED THROUGH THAT. NO WE COULD NOT. I WAS NOT ABOUT TO LET HIM CHEAT ON ME. U THOUGHT I WAS JUST GONNA LET THAT GO AND HE COULD GO AND DO WHATEVER HE WANTED. HE TOLD ME U GUYS WERE HAPPY AND THAT EVERYTHING WAS FINE. YEAH HE TOLD U THAT. U DIDN'T EVEN ASK ME HOW I WAS FEELING ABOUT ANY OF THAT. U JUST TOOK HIS WORD AND THAT WAS THAT. U NEVER LIKED ANYTHING I HAVE DONE OR EVEN TOLD ME U WERE PROUD OF ME. I OPENED UP MY NEW STORE AND IT IS DOING VERY WELL. ALL U EVER DID WAS PUT ME DOWN AND ALWAYS SAID Y I COULD NOT BE LIKE MY SISTER TAMEKAH. TAMARAH I THINK U SHOULD CALM DOWN CHRIS SAYS. NO I AM NOT DONE. U GUYS WANTED US TO TALK SO LET ME TALK.

DID U KNOW I WAS PREGNANT WITH USHER BABY? YES I KNEW THAT AND USHER SAID U LOST IT. YEAH DID HE TELL U Y I LOST IT. I LOST IT STRESSING OVER HIM AND WONDER EVERY SINGLE NIGHT WHERE HIS ASS WAS WHEN HE SHOULD HAVE BEEN HOME WITH. HE IS THE REASON Y I LOST MY VERY FIRST CHILD. U EVEN CALL ME TO SEE HOW I WAS DOING OR ANYTHING. U JUST WENT WITH WHAT HE SAID AND THAT WAS THAT. I GUESS U KNOW ALL THE HELL HE HAS PUT ME THROUGH THESE PASS FEW WEEKS. HE HAS MADE MY LIFE HELL AND U DON'T EVEN CARE. HE RECORDED US HAVING SEX AND THEN HAD THE NERVE TO PUT IT OUT IN THE INTERNET WITHOUT ME KNOWING ABOUT IT. I KNOW MOM TOLD AND U DID NOT EVEN CALL TO SEE HOW I WAS DOING AGAIN.