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<a href=>Jay</a> walked outside and blew warmth into his palms as the chilly evening air whipped across his face. He dug his hands in his pockets and walked down the empty block. He got to his post and stood there, looking in both directions. It had been a year. He was well on his way to a promotion, so he didn't sweat the lonely nights. He pulled out his iPhone and went through his contacts. He stopped on Monique's name, just as a young guy approached. He looked to be about 15. Jay looked him in the face and nodded.

"Mookie sent me." The guy said.

Jay dug in his pocket and handed him a dime bag. The dude handed him a crumpled twenty and walked off down the street. Jay pressed Monique's name and put the phone to his ear. Her voice broke the silence surrounding him and he looked down the street, as he leaned up against the building he shared this corner with.

"What you doin tonight?" He asked, his tone of voice implying that he wanted to see her.

"Mm, nothing if you tryna come through." She said.

"Be up when I call." He said, hanging up the phone and putting it back in his pocket.

He sighed and looked up at the sky and marveled at the number of stars he could count tonight. He wondered what was up there. He wondered who was sharing this view with him this evening.


3 miles to the north, <a href=>Selena</a> looked up at the stars and wished that she was there. She looked back at the crowd of kids surrounding the swimming pool, celebrating graduation. She spotted <a href=>Narvin</a> and his eyes were glued to her. She turned away and sighed. She heard his footsteps behind her on the concrete. He put his hand on her lower back and she stepped away.

"Are you crazy? What are you doing?" She asked, looking at him.

"I haven't heard from you." He said.

"I didn't know this was something I'd committed to." She said, frowning at him.

"So what? What happened doesn't mean anything to you?" He asked.

"No. She's my best friend, Narvin." Selena snapped.

"Can I have everyone's attention!"

Selena heard her best friend <a href=>Chelsea's</a> voice and she shivered.

"I wanna thank everyone for coming! Thanks to everyone who has ever been there for me. We're graduating you guys! This is huge. I've had so many good times with everyone out here. I'm gonna miss everyone. I really wanna thank my best friend Selena and my boyfriend Narvin for being there when I needed them. I love the both of you. I don't know who I'd be without you guys." She said.

Narvin smiled and Selena's face swelled with tears. She stared blankly back at her best friend and then at the sky. She didn't want to be here anymore.


good night! enjoy!

"You gotta stop that." Charity said, looking over at Selena, who was eating her waffles.

"I know. I just...think so much during the week, so that when he finally comes, all of my thoughts come out in a jumbled mess and I sound like a hormonal, idiot." Selena said, sighing. "I don't wanna run him off."

"Then just stop talking. You're running ME off." Charity said, shaking her head.

"How are things with Shane?" Selena asked, looking over at her.

"Okay. We're kind of at a standstill. Like, where do we go next? How did you and James do it?" Charity asked.

"I'm the wrong person to ask. I turned to Phillip." Selena said, shaking her head. "You and Shane just have to decide what you want from each other."

"I love him...I do...I'm just afraid that during a time when I could be growing as an individual, I'm so worried about growing with him." Charity said.

"Then this is another conversation." Selena said, looking her in the eye.

Charity nodded, "Not to mention...I think he's uninterested now." She said.

"Shane doesn't know what he wants, and he won't appreciate what he has until he thinks that he's lost it. Make him miss you. Ease up." Selena said.

"I don't wanna make him do anything. I just want him to realize it on his own." Charity said.

"He won't. So feed it to him." Selena said, taking a sip of her orange juice and holding her stomach. "I can barely fit my pants anymore!"

"Baby bearin' hips!" Charity said, winking.

"Girl my butt is gonna be huge!" Selena said.

"Too far." Charity responded, "You'll be a little thicker in the hips and up top, but that ass isn't going to magically appear."

Selena nodded, "Oh well. Pipe dream."

"How did you get pregnant?...I never asked." Charity asked softly.

Selena looked over at her and bit her lip, "Um...I was off the pill for a little bit. James and I would, go without sometimes and this time, I just so happened to be off of the pill. I hadn't told him. It wasn't intentional by any means. I was just careless."

"Do you regret getting pregnant?" Charity asked.

Selena shoved her first answer to the back of her mind, "No." She responded.

Charity read her face, "Why'd you lie?" She asked.

Selena sighed and put down her fork, "Of course I want a kid with James, right? But...why now? You know? I mean she's here and I love her already I just..." She said, looking down at her stomach. "I didn't wanna be that girl. The one who crossed the stage with a baby in the audience. I wanted to have it together."

"You will have it together. With a baby." Charity said.

Selena nodded and rubbed her stomach, "I don't have a choice."

I Just Think Its The Hormones && I Could Picture The Book Throwing As Well:) I Have Faith That They Will Make It Through!!! RUN IT:)

Lol I love it it reminds me so much of myself when I was pregnant lol overthinking EVERYTHING super f***ing hormonal. It was rediculous lol but James just has to take his time with her its not her fault she's sensitive
My bf was over annoyed with my sinsitivity so I know how she feels lol I know they can get through it. I hope they don't break up. BUT it would make it more interesting. Lol run it

Selena wanted ice. She was very specific about the type of ice. It had to be the right shape, and it couldn't be too hard. James was in McDonald's at 3 in the morning. All he needed was ice. The girl at the cash register smiled and handed it to him.

"Just ice?" She asked.

"My girl is pregnant." James said, yawning and grabbing the cup. "She has weird cravings."

He turned and walked out of the McDondald's, to find <a href=>Selena</a>, in the passenger seat, listening to the cars drive by. He got in and handed the cup to her. She smiled a little and looked over at him, as she took the cup.

"Sorry for waking you up." She said.

He nodded and lied his seat back, looking over at her. "You gotta stop b****in though. You make it so hard to wanna come around these days."

She chewed on her ice and nodded, "I know. Sorry." She said.

He rubbed her back and smiled. "Do you think it's a boy or a girl?"

She shrugged and looked down, "It's a girl."

"How are you so sure?" He asked.

"Well," Selena said, swiveling in her seat and smiling. "I don't know really. I just think it is. The way that our bodies are converging. She's growing with delicacy." Selena said, looking down at her stomach.

James listened in admiration. In the beginning, he'd fallen in love with her mind, and the way that she could start a conversation with something that made no sense, and end it with something beautiful. Moments like these reminded him of those days, and reinforced why he still loved her.

"I just think that in order for our souls to really...produce something magical, they'd have to reside in a woman." Selena said, smiling.

"I have no idea what that means but...I like it." He said, smiling.

She leaned in and pecked his lips, "I love you James. The same way that I did 4 months ago." She said softly.

He looked her in the eye, "And I love you so much more than I did 3 years ago." He said.

She smiled a little and continued to eat her ice. He sat up and started the car, before he drove off and headed back to her apartment. He slept for a few more hours, before he had to leave and go back home. Selena stood at the door, as he put on his shoes, looking at her.

"Skype me tonight. We'll do your measurements." He said.

She nodded and smiled, "Week 17." She said.

"Happy week 17." He said, kissing her cheek, forehead, nose and lips. "I'll call you when I get home."

"Love you." She said.

"I love you too." He responded, shutting the door.

lol that was kinda funny and cute
how he threw the book outside
the room and slammed it back lol
i pictured everything
but selena is definitely overthinking
its cool for her to take all the time
she wants when everything is on james
but now the tables turned she dont know what to do

run it

I really hope they can work this out.

But I seriously think she's being childish and over reacting.

I am seriously still laughing when he threw the book out of the room.

I can clearly see it.

Run it

James rolled over the next morning to feel the empty bed. He sat up and wiped his eyes, looking around the room. He stood up and walked sleepily to the bathroom, then out into the living room, where Selena was on the couch, reading. She didn't look up from her book.

"What you on this morning?" He asked.

She looked at him finally, "Huh?"

"You usually read in bed." He said, sitting down on the couch next to her.

"It wasn't comfortable." She said, sitting up and looking over at him.

He sat back on the couch and ran his finger up and down her leg, "I don't want you to be sad anymore. Stop worrying about us. We're gonna be straight."

"You keep saying that, James, but whenever I think there's progress, you say that there isn't." Selena said.

"Every day is progression, Selena. But I can't just propose to you again." He said.

"Why not?" Selena asked, frowning. "Just love me the way you did when you proposed and ask me again."

He sighed, "It's not that simple."

"Then you don't love me that way anymore." She said, picking up her book and shoving it in her face.

"Stop being childish." He responded, taking the book, "And stop f***ing pouting. You seriously make the ugliest faces when you're upset."

"Funny. I'm only upset when you're here." She spat.

"Don't play the blame-game Selena, 'cause I'll hurt your feelings." He responded, warning her with his eyes.

"Maybe you should just love me and our baby from a distance, James. It seems to me like when you come down here, you have no desire to even fix things, or work on our relationship. You come down, take me to my appointments, and watch ESPN." She said. "If you don't want a relationship, then just be here for the baby James...don't drag me through all of this."

"There you go overthinking. I knew yo ass was out here plottin when I woke up. You think about stupid s***. I watch ESPN while you're sleep, which is almost 60% of the time now. Selena...I come down on weekends when you don't have appointments. I soothe you when you wake up in the middle of the night and I buy you whatever you wanna eat! Of course I want a relationship. I just don't want marriage today! Got damn! You annoying as f***." He said, standing up and leaving.

"I'm pregnant and hormonal, you a**hole!" She yelled.

"NO YOU'RE SELENA!" He yelled back, slamming the bedroom door.

Selena sighed and bursted into tears for no reason.

"He took my damn book." She said, pouting and curling up on the couch.

James opened the door and threw the book in the living room, before he slammed the door once more.

"Thanks a**hole!" She yelled.

Selena rolled over onto her side and placed her hand on his chest. He looked her in the eye.

"Are we close to being back to normal, yet?" She asked, searching his face for any ounce of hope.

"I don't know." He said, sighing. "I'll tell you when I do."

She sighed a little and lied on his chest, "...August is 2 months away." She said softly.

He nodded, "I know..." He said. "Think about it everyday."

Selena sat up and looked him in the eye, "...We could wait until after the baby's born, and maybe do something after I graduate. It doesn't have to be big-"

"Let's not talk about marriage, Selena." He said, looking at her painfully.

She shut her lip tight and nodded, obeying his wishes. She slid over to the other side of the bed. The elephant in the room had reared it's head again, and the two of them felt like there was an ocean between them as they lied there. James thought quietly, while Selena stared blankly at the wall in front of her. James looked over at the back of her head.

"I was thinking we could move after you graduate." He started.

Selena listened quietly.

"Maybe somewhere like...Chicago, or Miami. Maybe Savannah." He said. "Get us a nice place somewhere. Somewhere new. We can start over." He said.

"What for?" Selena whispered.

"What for?" He asked, sliding towards her. "What do you mean?"

"Why are we starting over? I thought we'd fixed things." She said.

"Selena there's a crack in the foundation. You don't continue to build." He responded.

She shut her eyes, before she shrugged finally, defeated.

"I don't wanna talk about it anymore. Whatever you want James. We can start over." She said.

James left work, went home and submitted his paper, before he packed a weekend bag, hopped in the car and headed down to see Selena. This was routine now, and Selena was nearing the end of her third year in college. She was going on 4 months. When James got to Selena's, he pulled out the key that he'd gotten made and opened the door, dropping his bag at the door.

"Baby!" He called out.

"Hey James." Charity said, walking past and eating cereal.

'What's up. Where Lena?" He asked, looking over at her.

"In the kitchen." Charity responded.

Selena came out of the kitchen and smiled a little, "Hi." She said, walking towards him.

James' eyes dropped to her stomach. He put his hands there and pecked her lips.

"You cookin?" <a href=>He</a> asked, looking her in the eye.

"Yeah. I was craving alfredo and I know that you'd be hungry when you got here." She said softly, turning to go to the kitchen.

He followed behind her and stood behind the threshold, watching her at the stove.

"You know how that cheese f***s with your stomach though. You think this is a good idea?" He asked.

Selena smiled and took a spoonful, handing it to him. He tasted it and smiled.

"That didn't answer my question." He said.

"But it did though." She responded, putting noodles on a plate.

An hour later, she was on the floor of the bathroom, sighing and looking up at James miserably.

"Was it worth it?" He asked, wetting a towel with cold water and handing it to her.

He sat down on the toilet and looked down at her as she put the cold towel over her forehead. She smirked.

"Yeah it was. I can still taste it." She said.

"You so f***in fat." He responded.

"Shut I?" She asked, looking over at him.

"Your face is a little chubby." He responded, smiling.

"What if I don't lose the weight after the baby and I have a bunch of stretch marks and stuff...will you still wanna have sex with me?" She asked.

"Nonsense, Selena. Your vagina will look and feel the same." He said, leaning over and helping her stand up.

She walked down the hall to her room and got in the bed, with James following. He took off his shirt and stepped out of his shoes before he got in the bed with her. He went under the covers and she felt his lips on her stomach. He peaked his head out and looked up at her.

"I love your baby bump." He said, kissing it once more and looking up at her.

She smiled and rubbed his head, "Can we talk?" She asked.

He sighed and pulled the cover over his head, "No, Selena." He mumbled.

"Please." She responded.

He rolled over and looked up at the ceiling. "About what?"

For someone reason, that link didn't work for me. does this one?

<a href=>Do Better Blues.</a>

@DontSleepOn_Tee, google works wonders, btw but a i found it

<a herf="">Do Better Blues by express</a>

Thanks! I've got a little homework, but I should be adding before midnight.

@DontSleepOn_Tee Hi! (: I do have a finished story. It's called Do Better Blues. I'll try to find the link for you!

Jay and Selena are my ulimate awesome favorite couple! I just will always love them together! They have that love that you only find in fairy tales, they are meant for each other and perfect, and yet their love isn't perfect, they fight like it's no tomorrow. Which i think makes them so sweet! Out of all the male charaters in all your stories, I really love Jay the most, he has done the most damgae, as a man and, yet has been the least to play with her heart. He may be mean at times, and shut her out, but he has been 100 with her, he's real, and he fights for his love, he is the only one who has worked hard to get her back, who has really laid down the line and fought for her! Ryan, Chase, or Will had ever worked to get her back, so he desevers a round of applouse!

Now, Jay come on let's be real, let's be clear, have done your share of damage and hurt, to her. You have had your share of moments of selfishness sir, so don't even! I mean I am pro chose! She is grown woman who was scared and totally understand that! Although I am so happy she kept the baby!

This was the first story I started reading by you! I LOOOVE it too!

I'm so happy that Selena decided to keep the baby. I can't figure out James, but I like the fact that there is always something mysterious about him. I love that he and Selena really love each other. I just hate that little things makes them blow up at each other. Like the abortion for example...James didn't have to get THAT mad. But at the same was extremely immature of Selena not to tell him. I'm really excited to see where their relationship will go now that she's carrying his child with their engagement being off. RUN IT!!!

okay I'll probably get fired because instead of working I've been reading this story! lol Lord you amazing I can't say that enough. Do you have any completed stories that I can read? should publish this story && touch lives! Selena reminds me so much of myself, misunderstood, different from the rest, caring, etc. Everything. James reminds me of the guy I recently fell for..except he's still an a**hole lmao. Story kinda gives me hope:) BUT...let me comment on the story.

Their gonna make it, a baby will only bring them closer. Motherhood is a beautiful thing especially between two people that love each other..the baby was conceived by love.
Shane needs to take a look at his life and see if he really wants to quit the childish games && settle down. He dont wanna pass up a chance to have a loving girl in his life over mistakes that couldve been avoided.
I wonder who Narvin will end up with..Hes a sweet guy just living the single life. Cant blame him, he just havent found that one girl that he can actually call HIS.
Chelsea...I wanna slap her ass. Sex doesnt keep a man, passing up a guy like Levi only shows that she isnt ready for nothing serious. She is the cause of her own pain.

Omg speechless I'm I am glad she didn't get rid of their baby they love is so strong I love it Runn it

Awwww how cute, Run it!!!!!

Selena lucky she kept that baby cause I was 2seconds off her ass lol

I really love them together they kinda remind me of my relationship with my bf In a lot of ways

And James has come so far from"b****ES CALL ME JAY"lol

I'm so proud of them lol


omg can't believe this, this story has gotten sooo good!!! you are awesome!! i wanna see where they go from here. run it!!

woooooow... finally caught up!!!!

can't wait to see them as a family & I hope they can grow again "/

run it run it girlie!!

Mann I Still Don't Understand Why He Called The Engagement Off.,They Both Love Eachother && Have Both Made Mistakes In Their Relationship Cause Nobody's Perfect!!! I Happy That She Is Pregnant Though:) RUN IT

a lot has happened
well im glad that she didn't give the baby
away i really dont agree with abortions

if she didn't want the baby she should of
talked to james about it and then maybe they
could of talked about adopting or something
but anyway like i said im glad that she didn't give
the baby away

and wow them 2 really know how to go with out each other
for a long time. if I was in love i would of been going nuts
for them 2 months without my man but
sht they manage to do it as much as they broke up

they need to work that out because all that
breaking up getting back together
working things out on their own when they should do that
sht together! and stop running away from each other
ugh! im glad they know themselves that they not
ready for marriage because there not!
atleast their smart enough to realize that

butt... im hoping that they can STAY together this time
and work on a healthy relationship
and i know that no relationship is perfect but
all that splitting and sht everytime something hits the fan
aint cutting it
its BEEN TIME for them to grow the fck up!
and since the baby coming they better learn quick!

run it!

Lawdy ! I am happy she is with child. That is a true blessing.
I think they are building a great foundation for their family and learning from the mistakes as they go.


Awwwww, they gonna be a lovely little family.
Despite how early & unplanned it was in their relationship,
they deserve to experience life, along with a great bundle of joy.
I hope it's a girl, NO! Maybe a boy, James is gonna spoil it.
Im so happy for them; there is a lot of hope for them, both should
have total faith, they gonna be happy. I know they are (;

In my opinion and how I read it, James had every right to get mad at her. When two people are in a relationship, it's important to tell your significant other about these things. After all, she didn't make the baby on her own. James has to have a say in this, it's his child as well. Selena was thinking selfishly, and she knew the risks when they had unprotected sex. They aren't children, they know the consequences, therefore she should've handled it like an adult and communicate with her fiancé (that's the level their relationship was in). She isn't ready for marriage if she can't discuss important matters with her soon to be husband.

Of course, this is how I feel. Everyone is entitled to their own views. These are mine.


WOW at first I was so mad a selena when she said she was getting an abortion, but I'm glad that she's keeping it.
Run it

Run it

OMG Carms, that add had me over here teary eyed. Im such a sap when it comes to love. Selena's preggo totally was not expecting that at all. I was so pissed when Selena said she was gonna get an abortion. I got mad at James tho, he didn't have to react the way he did when Selena told him she was gonna get an abortion, she was scared and wasn't thinking logically. He's an ass for calling off the engagement even after Selena said she's keep the baby, all the Bulls*** he's put her through as far as trust and what not goes,Trust issues my ass. Selena hasn't done nearly as much as he did within there relationship. I know he was upset but he was very petty. But I knew even if James wasn't upset about an abortion Selena would have never gone through with it anyway, thats just not how she is. The fact that he didn't visit or call her for 2 months was mean to. Im sooooo glad Selena decided to keep the baby, s*** I was shocked that her mom even told her to KEEP the baby, wasnt expecting that outta her, at all. I loved the look on James face when he came to visit Selena and saw she was still pregnant, priceless. Im glad they made up tho and he's gonna be there throughout the pregnancy. We back cool again lol. Charity's an awesome best friend gotta love her she's ride or die for Selena. OMG were having a baby. James needs to gone head and wife her so they can have theyre real family. Oh Carmen I really loved this add, it changed the game deep. Now I can't wait to read more. RUN IT RUN IT RUN IT!!!!

Man I'm happy she's keeping the baby