"push me harder chris "i screammed only a couple feet off the ground"i would if you wasnt so fat"he said back pushing the swing more."im not fat you ass"i said pouting."ok your not fat....your just Phat"he said laughing.I stopped the swing with my feet and marched off."hey where you going"he asked still snickering."home"i yelled not even looking back. He ran after me and grabed me around the waist."why you such a big baby i was just playing"he said as he gave m kiss on my neck. I pushed him off and turned around to face him "im not a big baby...i just dont like being called fat"i said with the screw face. he just looked at me not responded which got me madder."f*** you" i said as i flipped him off. He laughed a little and pulled me closer to him"you know when you get mad you look real sexy" he said."whateva christopher"i said tryin to avoid his gaze."im foreal boo..yeo look at me"he said turnin my head towards him."what" i asked now looking into his brown eyes."gimme kiss..im sorry" he said inching closer.I leaned in like i was about to plant one on him and then said"eeeeerrrrkkkkksssss"as i put my hand in his face like jamie foxx would do to braxton.He got mad which only made me fall over with laughter."oh you think that s*** funny"he said."ummm....yeah"i said between laughs.He tackled me onto the grass and began to wrestle me.He pinned me down and began to tickle me"say sorry"he said."never"i screammed still laughing."oh really"he said as he started tickling me harder."okay okay"i said.He stopped and looked into my eyes."im sorry babe" i said."good now gimme sugar"he said as he puckered his lips.I leaned in this time and gave him a passionate kiss that lasted until the park sprinklers went off. We got up laughing running off home holding hand.
"come back here b****" He screammed after me. I ran for dear life holding onto the small package i had just stolen from him and his crew. They chased me a good 3 blocks before i dipped off down an alley and hid behind some crates.They ran past me not spotting me.I sighed as a sign of relief and unwrapped the package. I grinned down at 20 oz of cocaine that would hold me for the rest of the month. After hiding out for 20 minutes I jogged down the block towards my friend Jordan house. I looked back for a second still jogging and end up getting closed lined."you f***ed up big time b****"the guy said as he punched me in the face.The rest of his crew than jumped in delievering blows to my face,head and body.I curled up and tried to protect my face as i drifted off to another place.
FlashBack: Someone started pounding on my door.I was in the middle of my nap so i swung the door open with much attuide "what" i said annoyed. Chris and My Friend Miguel was on the other side covered in blood. I looked at him horrified "Miguel what happened" i asked.He broke down and started crying"his dead....his dead". I started Panicing "whose dead" i asked.he looked at me with sorrow in his eyes and imediately broke down knowing who he was talking about."nooooo" i cried out as i fell to the ground. Miguel wrapped his arms around me and rocked me back and forth.I couldnt believe the love of my life Chris was now dead.
Present: "enough"some man said.The guys stopped and backed up so i figured this mustve been there boss.He did a double look at me as if he thought he knew...well maybe he did cause he than said"put her in the car".His men looked around dumbfounded.The guy who had punched me first stepped up and said "did i ask do what i f***ing told you to do"he yelled at him.With that the guy picked me up and threw me in the backseat."be easy shawty"the boss man as he slammed the door closed and jogged over to the driver seat got in and sped off. I laid in the back in pain and agony fading in and out.At a red light he looked back at me into my eyes and then i knew i knew him" Chris i mummbled as i than passed out.
Flashback: I walked into miguel's house alarmed being his door was wide open."miguel"i called out. I walked through the house carefully. walked up the stepds to find him inside his room withdrawing a needle from his arm."what the hell" i yelled at him.he ust looked me with glassy eyes and cracked smile"heyyy Gazelle."dont f***ing hey me what are you doing"i said with my hand on my hip."mourning"he said as he than proceeded to cry.I dropped my bag and hugged him rubbing his head."its okay"i said with tears in my eyes."he was my best friend..my f***ing best friend"he said."i know"i said.he looked up at me and said"i know what im doing is wrong but it makes me feel soooo much better....try it it'll make the pain go away". I was taken back by his approach but said"no"."dont you want it to stop...i promise it'll take it all away you feel soo much better pleae just once just once"he said.I started to weigh the pros and cons and decided to try it once.He got up and got a clean needle."just relax"he said as he then tied my arm with a rubber hose and stick in the needle in. Bout 20 minutes later i was floating high laying back on miguel's bed.I dont know what happened but before i knew it he was kissing all over my body."stop"i mummbled trying to push him away."sssshhh relax imma help make you feel better"he said as he continued to do what he was doing.That night i didnt just try coke for the first time but i also gave my self to someone else.