Chapter Three:

Don't Judge Me 

In the morning, I woke up to someone banging loudly onto my door. I got up pissed off because they should know better than to f*cking wake me up unless there was an emergency. Well, if it was Michael I didn't mind, but anybody else will catch cuss words. I laid in the bed groggily. After a few more seconds of lying in the bed, I finally built enough energy to get up. I slowly walked to the door to see her standing at my door. I rolled my eyes. It was my sister Kim. She walked inside and plopped onto the couch. I looked at her crazily, "B*tch, what the f*ck you doing here unannounced?" She paid me no attention as she turned on the television and then looked at me. I stared at her awaiting her answer. She finally responded, "To see what the f*ck is your problem. That's why. Who the f*ck is this Michael nigga anyway?" I spat at her, "I told you who the f*ck he was! And why the f*ck you tell mama I was pregnant by him?" She rolled her eyes and propped her feet up, "Because you over here looking like a damn fool that's why. Rocky, I swear you have got to be the stupidest b*tch out here if you think that he loves you. I'm just saying."

I had enough of her already. I didn't need her, Drea, or mama's judgment. They didn't understand Mike like I did. They didn't meet the man I fell so hard for. He was always so special to me. That one summer I saw him changed everything. He made me feel so beautiful. He didn't judge me. He saw me for me. I didn't give a f*ck about anyone else opinions or critiques. I looked at her, wanting to smack the sh*t out of her. "Mind your damn business before you get put on a stretcher around this b*tch. You don't even know him and I like it that way. You may scare him off. Sh*t, where yo man at? I'll wait.... Oh, that's right! You don't have one! So stay the f*ck out of me and mine's!" I roared, giving her a look that could kill. She giggled and got up. She slowly walked into my face, staring into my eyes, "Andrea, I am your sister. I am only looking out for you. That is all. You wanna be a dumb b*tch. That's your business. You sit up here lying around--"

"First of all, back the f*ck up out my face Kimberly. Sister or not, I don't need you to judge me. Be a sister and console me. Tell me that you're gonna be here for your niece or nephew. Don't try to preach to me like your mother did yesterday! I could do without that." She got closer, "I ain't getting out of sh*t. You heard me didn't you? Yes, I'mma gonna be there for my nephew or niece. Of course. That's a damn given, but what the f*ck are you gonna do in the meantime? You are not even working anymore! So, get that together. I don't mind giving you a few dollars here and there for the baby because that's what family is for, but WHEN this nigga hurt you and he WILL, don't come crying to me. Okay? Because I will scream, 'I TOLD YOU SO B*TCH!' Mmkay? You got that. And b*tch, I don't need a man if he gon' play me like he playing your ignorant ass! Rocky, I don't know what the hell got into you."

"LOVE got into me. And it feels good Kim! It feels wonderful. Be happy for me. Damn! You don't know what the f*ck my future holds! So, don't even speak on s*** you know nothing about. At least I have someone. I've been hurt and taken advantage all of my entire life! No one ever treated me like Mike. HE IS NOT PERFECT! But he is perfect for me. And it is what it is," I exclaimed, looking into her eyes. She shook her head and then backed up, holding her hands up. "Wow, if you think that's special, I'd hate to see what you think being in love is. 'Cuz if a nigga telling you how he got another b*tch, but he lovesyou, then you need some special treatment. I just can't get over the fact that you think this is love. Good luck. You will need it," She retorted in disbelief. "No, good luck with your life. I got mine."

She walked out of my apartment without saying anything. It didn't really bother me as I decided to go shower. After showering, I got dressed, and then brushed my teeth. I then, walked out of the apartment. I was going to go fill out job applications. I couldn't be jobless like Kim stated. That was one thing that she was telling the truth about. What did bother me is how Noel didn't text back last night. I don't know. Maybe he still was mad at me. I didn't know what to say honestly. Maybe he shouldn't have even tried to get to know me on a different level. A blind person could see that Noel was feeling me, but honestly I had eyes for someone else and it definitely wasn't him. I kinda did feel bad, but then I didn't. I got into my car and drove off hoping to find things. I was tired of living off other people's income. I had enough money in the bank to feed me and other personal necessities, but that was about it.

I have been unemployed for about two months. It wasn't that I didn't want to work. It's just that I couldn't deal with the people at my job. Those muthaf*ckas made you lose your religion. I didn't like the environment either. So, needless to say, I got my ass up out of there. I drove around, looking for jobs like being a cashier or something. God knows, I can't work at no damn restaurant. I would if it was my last resort, but not by choice. I started filling out as many applications as I could. Hopefully, they will contact me soon. After job hunting, I decided to go to Target and look at their different baby clothes. I smiled. I was hoping me and Mike had a boy. I mean, a girl is cool and all, but it takes entirely too much to raise a girl. I got excited looking at the newborn outfits. I started to place a few into my basket. I continued looking. I decided to text Noel. Because I had to make sure that we were still cool. I felt some type of way about him ignoring me as well.

I shot him a text: Idk if you got my text or what, but I apologize again if u didn't. I didn't mean to be a b*tch. I have a few things on my mind. I then looked around. I sent a picture to Mike of the baby things. He responded a few minutes later: That's what's up. I hope its a boy. I smiled widely and replied: Me too ;D babe. I don't know how he got this type of effect over me, but he did. Even when I was angry, I could never be angry at him. He just soothed me and calmed me down. He replied: i gotta go. talk 2 u later i guess. I responded: [b] Ok :( hope u cme over soon[/b] He didn't text back after that which made me feel like I was being clingy or something. I had to remind myself to chill out with that. I guess I was doing too much. Noel still didn't text back. I decided to say f*ck it. If he was going to be that damn petty, I didn't even give a s*** anymore. Honestly. I don't have time to beg or force a muthaf*cka to forgive me. It's not that serious. Can't be mad that I want someone else.

Okay, I'm tripping. Why am I even entertaining this bullsh*t? I shook my head, now moving onto different baby's clothing. Everything was so cute and precious. I didn't know where to start. There were so many cute outfits. "You expecting?" I looked up to see some pregnant woman standing beside me looking at outfits. I retorted, "Yes." "How far along are you?" She questioned, picking up a few sets. "I'm one month," I stated, steadily browsing. "Well, I am eight months and ready for this damn baby to be up out of me. I swear I am. I'm tired of the swollen feet, uncomfortable ass sleep positions, the gas, the heartburn, the backaches, my annoying ass baby daddy, and the random b*tches that come up to me rubbing my stomach like they know me. I swear I shoot off on this whack b*tches. So get prepared 'cuz a few months the mood swings and everything else is coming to you. Is your baby father supporting you with anything?" She inquired, staring at me.

I looked at her kind of crazy because she didn't even know me for her to be asking me all this damn questions. It kinda took me back a little. So, I stared at her, "Um, I don't mean no harm, but I don't even know you for to ask me all these personal questions." She laughed like I didn't faze her. "Honey, no need to snap. I am nosy. I get it, but I'm Jessica by the way. I am just trying to see if I can find a person who could relate," She replied, looking through clothes. I sighed, "I'm Rocky and to answer your question, yes he is." "Cool, so how old are you if you don't mind me asking?" "21," I replied, still browsing through the clothes. "Wow, you're young. I'm 25. How old is your baby's daddy?" "He's 23. Anymore questions? Look, I'm not looking for a damn interview," I snapped. She giggled loudly, "Those mood swings might be coming in a little early I see." I rolled my eyes and ignored her nosy ass. Where the hell do they make these type of people?

"It was nice meeting you Rocky. You're young and I bet you don't even have a ring on your finger. Don't be dumb and think that just because you are carrying his child, that he'll be around you forever. That's where women make mistakes. I was one of those women. I was 21 and dumb as hell. I allowed a nigga to make me get an abortion. I still haven't fully forgiven myself, but just be smart. You may be a lot smarter than I was. Hell, I don't even know you so I'm not judging you. I'm just letting you know that niggas change like seasons. You remember that," She remarked, now walking off. I shook my head at this woman. She lucky she walked off just in time 'cuz I was surely going to cuss her the f*ck out for even trying to say I was like her dumb ass. Can't nobody make me kill my child. That was just stupid and ain't got sh*t to do with age. She was just a dumb b*tch.

I continued shaking my head at this random woman. I started to laugh now because this whore came out of nowhere. "Where the f*ck they do that at?" I laughed to myself. People are insane nowadays. I left out of the baby section and decided to head around the electronics. I was looking for a few movies so that Mike and I could watch in case he comes over tonight. Hopefully, he could get away from Kamole so we could spend time together. I really missed us kissing and being together. He wasn't just mine and I had to deal with it. One way or another.  I still am waiting for the day when I can have him all to myself, but who knows when that they day comes. I was hoping it was soon.

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I was now getting out the shower. I dried my body off and got dressed. After that, I brushed my teeth. I looked into the mirror for a few minutes and then walked into my bedroom to see Nikki still asleep. I wasn't a mean guy, but it was time to wake her ass up. But before that, let me check my phone. I looked around the room, looking for it but I couldn't find it. I knew I brought it into the room because I didn't go anywhere else in the apartment. I then looked under the covers to see it in Nikki's hand. I shook my head and snatched it out of her hand. I instantly checked my phone to see I had a new message from Rocky. I read it. She must've sent me a message last night, while Nikki and I were f*cking. Knowing Nikki sneaky ass, she deleted it. I shook my head and replied: It's okay love. I didn't get ur txt last nite im sorry. I hope u not mad at me I then shook Nikki, "Wake yo ass up!" She woke up pouting and looking at me crazy, "Nigga, have you lost your f*cking mind? The f*ck you shake me for?!" 

"Why the f*ck you hide my damn phone and delete my text messages?!" I shouted in the same tone she was giving me. She spoke calmly like I didn't faze her one bit, "Because who is this Rocky b*tch that you texting?" "None of yo f*cking business. That's who! What we did last night did not change the way I feel about you! I still do not want yo annoying ass! Get the f*ck over it! Find another nigga! They say it's plenty of fish in the sea! I'm sure yo ass can find somebody, but it ain't me. You just turning me off. Get yo s*** and get the f*ck out!" I roared, my anger above level. She laughed and blew her breath, "Nigga, please. You better calm yo lil' red ass down before you bust a vessel. Go cook you some breakfast and then come back before it's get ugly in this b*tch."

"Trick, the only thing that's ugly in this b*tch is your personality! You not even that cute to be that damn ugly inside! Looking like a f*cking elf. Get yo ass off my property. Don't ever come by again. Or you gon' see another side of me that you don't wanna see. I don't hit females, but I choke b*tches. Get yo ass up now," I spat, pulling the cover off of her. She hopped up and placed her finger in my face, "NIGGA YOU AIN'T STUPID! YOU DON'T WANT THESE PROBLEMS. I BET YOU WANT HIT ME NIGGA!" See, I hated when ANYBODY placed they stanky ass finger in my face. I don't give a f*ck who the person was. That's how problems arise. I had to put this b*tch in place right now because she was ruining my day before it even started! I can't have this type of sh*t in my life. I grabbed her by her neck and slammed her into the wall roughly, while leaning toward her, "I don't wanna f*cking hurt you. So, just leave Nikki. I tried to treat yo ass like you was worth something. BUT YOU AIN'T worth a damn dollar! You understand me?"

The look in her eyes said it all. She stood there quiet. That's when I saw her bite her bottom lip. This b*tch was turned on. I rolled my eyes at her and grabbed her stuff. I then slung it out of the door. I came back and dragged her out of the house. I locked the door and got into my car. Do you know this b*tch thought I was playing? I shook my head and drove off from her ass. I went over to my nigga Justin house. I knocked on his door. "What's up boy?" He asked, while opening the door. "Nigga, too much," I replied, walking in and sitting on his couch. A few minutes later, I got a text from Rocky: Lol oh I thought U were mad at ME, but that's cool.I replied: Nah, never that Peanut. What u got planned for today? Justin sat beside me, "Nigga is everything cool? You seem kinda off."

"Man, no... Nikki crazy ass showed up to my apartment yesterday.. So I f*cked her, but it wasn't my intentions. I mean this crazy ass woman just started talking stupid and sh*t like she was my girl... to make a long story short, I kicked her ass out my s*** a few minutes ago. But I'm not even worried about her. Rocky on my mind," I stated. He rose his eyebrow, "Flat-chest, weird Rocky from high school?" "Yes, her. She's even more beautiful now. I really love her nigga... She doesn't know it. I just don't wanna mess up her relationship with ole dude. I don't know what to do," I replied, with my face in my hands. "Nigga, is she feeling you in the same way or has shown ANY interest?" "I don't know... I think she likes me as a friend--" "As a friend? But you in love with her though? Look, this b*tch ain't worth you losing your manhood over. I told you not to catch feelings for these hoes man. F*ck 'em and leave 'em like I do," He spat, now taking out some weed and rolling it into a blunt. I shook my head, "Nigga she not a b*tch or ho! That's why yo ass single now! You don't know how to treat women. You need to slow down with these bad ass habits!"

"F*ck all that! Women are the sneakiest creatures of this earth. They all want something! Whether they admit it or not. I don't have time for it. That's all I'm saying. You keep thinking she won't play you. Be a fool all you want," He remarked, lighting the blunt and puffing on it. Sometimes I wonder why I even take advice from this nigga. As I kept wondering, I got a text from Rocky: I might chill with my man today. I was definitely in love with her and she didn't see it or cared to see it. I somehow hoped she would leave that nigga alone and be treated like the queen she was with me. I know that I can only dream, but maybe it'll come true.

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I woke up before Mike and got into my car and decided that I was gonna check up on a few things. I had to put a few things in perspective. So, I drove to a hospital that Mike visited frequently. Why? Because I wanted to make sure that nigga wasn't cheating or caught anything! Well, that was a year ago I made him come here a lot. I had a friend who worked here. She had access to a lot of s***. I arrived at the hospital and got out. I walked in and soon found her. "Kamryn? What's up?" She asked, with a smile. "Girl, a lot but I need a huge favor," I stated.

She stared at me, "A favor like what?" I whispered, "I need access to some files. Especially Mike's." She shook her head, "Kam, you know I can't do that. I could get in a lot of trouble! And so could you," She shouted in a loud whisper. "Denise, please. I never ask you for anything," I pleaded. She pulled me into the restroom and handed me some keys, "Here, but be f*cking careful. I'm serious." I smiled, "Thanks and I will trust me." "Uh huh," She stated. I walked out of the restroom and quickly snuck into a room where I found files. I dug through the sh*t looking for Mike's name. I continued until I found something that made my eyes widened. "Hell Naw!"
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Short & sh*t, but I wanted to add. And I'm sleepy af lol.

So he doggin 2 chicks? Rocky you are a damn fool baby. Dont let him play you like that girl! Nikki is one crazy b****. She need to get over Noel. That b**** is a psycho! Update Soon

Chapter Two:

Something Isn't Adding Up

I sat on my bed, just now coming back from shopping. I must admit. Rocky looked so good today. It's been a long time since I last saw her and it kinda brought me to a place that I forgot existed. I remember seeing her at school and thinking about how much I wanted her and liked her. She was so cute back then. Now she's beautiful. It was just something about her and I couldn't figure it out. 

Being her lab partner, I remember being so close to her. We were always in each other's personal spaces. I remember inhaling her scent for the first time. It was something about the way she eyed me. Back then my face was full of pimples. I used to be called "Pizza Face" by my peers at times. Luckily, I invested in some Clean & Clear. And now I'm all good. I don't think Rocky was feeling me in the way I was feeling her. If she was, she sure didn't act like it. It seems that she found somebody else the way our lunch date almost didn't happen. "NOEEEEEL!"

I was brought out of my thoughts by someone who sounded a lot like my ex girlfriend. I looked out my apartment window to see in fact that it WAS her. I buried my face in my hands and then answered, "What do you want Nikki?" She rolled her eyes through the window, "What the f*ck you mean what I want? I just wanted your damn time, but you act like you don't know me anymore. I'm the reason you are so damn suave now! You used to look like s*** until I helped you out nigga! LET'S NOT forget that!" I sighed heavily and I don't know why I'm even entertaining her. Nikki is my ex for a reason. She is loud, annoying, crazy, and clingy.The stuff she was saying is partially true. But I found my own damn swag. She only polished me a little. Only a little. And that was the only credit I was giving her ass. 

I rolled my eyes, not really wanting to be a part of this bullsh*t. I had to make her leave and fast. I just didn't want a migraine right now. So I replied, "Nikki, what do you want?" She popped her gum, "What else Noel? I missed you and you acting like you don't care for me anymore."

"You broke up with ME! You didn't seem to give a sh*t when you made that huge decision to end s***, which was the best thing you could do honestly. I'm not feeding into your bullsh*t. Sorry, I got other things to worry about. And you are definitely not one of them," I spat now closing my blinds so she could be out of my sight. She continued banging on the window and then started banging on my door.

She was seriously trying to get me put out. I'm very certain of that. I bet my neighbors had some smart s*** to say. I shook my head. I could either let her in or leave her out there to cause more terror. I sighed loudly and made my way to the door. I opened it and she brushed past me and walked into my bedroom, "You got any b****es in here?" I smacked my lips, "If I did? It's not your business. Look, I'm trying to be nice, but you about to piss me off."

She giggled loudly as if I made a joke. She searched in the closet, the bathroom, the kitchen, and under my bed for "b*tches." This is what I get for messing with this broad in the first place. She walked back into my bedroom. I looked at her agitatedly, "Are you done?" "Now I am. Noel, I don't think you that my feelings for you are still there. So, I get a little crazy. But I really love you and I couldn't see myself happy, but with you," She confessed. "Oh really? Cuz all we did was fight and argue. There was no trust Nik. No trust at all. So, you can save that sh*t," I spat, sitting on my bed, now turning the tv on.

"I know I'm not perfect. I never claimed to be, but love makes you do and say crazy sh*t. At the same time, you know I had a reason not to trust you. All 'dem hoes that were on your d*ck! No, I wasn't letting s*** go down like that. Now, you can dwell in the past or you can see that I want to build a future with you," She retorted, looking into my eyes.

Like I stated before, I was not into that type of stuff. If we can never be happy with each other, then there's no use. Besides, it's a lil' too late at this point. I still am looking at so many options. I hoped to be with Rocky, but I now see that it wouldn't happen no time soon. I looked at her, trying my best to break it to her easily that all the little feelings I had for her are completely gone. "I'm sorry. I just don't feel that way anymore. I moved on. And you should to. Everything we had, been died a long time ago."

Once again she laughed and then looked at me with disbelief, "Yeah. Alright. If you say so." She took off her shoes and then sat on my bed. Before I knew it, she was in her bra and panties. She stood in front of the bed slowly stripping and teasing me. I couldn't front, her body always was on point. It was very irresistible. I tried not to enjoy it, but my d*ck was starting to really like it. She climbed on top of me. She slowly bucked her hips onto my d*ck and then traced her lips down my neck.

My hands started to have a mind of they own as I found myself cuffing her ass, causing her to giggle. She blew on my ear and then licked on it. From that point, I really lost control. Her underwear soon came off and I was giving her the satisfaction of giving in and giving her what she wanted. It's f*cked up what sex could do to the mind.

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My mind wouldn't allow me to let the thought of Mike cheating go. I mean, I dealt with all of his bullsh*t before. I wasn't about to go there again. It wasn't a good place for me. There were many times when I thought it was my fault. You know how you start talking stupid and letting your brain put those dumb images in your mind. So, I was completely blind to the lies. I finally woke up and caught him in his lie. And I broke up with him. After awhile, he convinced me he was worthy of my forgiveness. Our relationship hasn't been the same since.

I sat on the bed as he sat across from me, watching television. I retrieved my laptop and logged onto Twitter. I kept looking at her messages she sent me. Everything that happened between Mike and I replayed in my head. That was something he wasn't telling me. However, I was going to get to the bottom of this sh*t. I needed to know everything that she knew about him. Because sh*t wasn't adding up to me with either of their stories. It just wasn't. One of these muthaf*ckas lying.

I got disgusted as I went to her tweets. They were all about love and her "boo." She never mentioned his name in the tweets so I guess she wasn't that bold. I just wanted to know a lot more about this so-called fairytale that she painted. Hell, she made it seem like her and this nigga were having walks on the beach everyday and romantic dinners.

I just shook my head. I went to her followers list to see that she was indeed following Michael. I just continued to shake my head. This b*tch right here! Mike did say he knew her from Middle School. But I was going to do what I needed to do. And fast. He soon looked up at me, "What you shaking your head for?" I ignored him 'cuz he betta be glad I'm shaking my head versus smacking him upside his. 

"I see you tripping again. You stay with that sh*t. Why can't we be happy?" He questioned. "Michael, I didn't do anything but shake my head. You don't even know why you just quickly attacked me," I roared, now going back to her profile. She had just uploaded another picture and all I could do was shake my head at the caption: My baby really loves me :) Mwahhh to my love for thinking of me.

I immediately became upset. I don't know if she were talking about Mike or somebody else. But a b*tch was gonna piece this s*** together soon. Michael sighed and spat some more stupid sh*t. I decided I wasn't going to put up with his PMSing ass right now. So I got up and went into the living room and called Destiny. She answered on the first ring, "Girl what you want?" I sighed and spoke softly, "This Rocky b*tch needs an intervention. She got nothing but love tweets and bullsh*t about how she in love. And all this other sh*t!"

She giggled a little, "Don't let that b*tch wear you out. Mike lil lying ass need to own up and be a man about it. 'Cuz 9 out of 10 times he f*cking or f*cked her ass! Especially if she know so much about the nigga! You need to whoop his ass!" "What boggles my mind is that the nigga did admit that he knew of her in middle school, but he claims that's it." By her tone of voice, I could tell she was rolling her eyes.

"That nigga ain't s*it I swear! See he lying. It's so much more to that damn story than what's he telling. You need to check that nigga. Or get with Noel. I'm telling you! That muthaf*cka is much better and finer!" She exclaimed. I shook my head, "Child I told you that I'm not interested in that man. He was funny looking when he was in high school. I remember when he was in my class, but he transferred and went to another school," I reminisced.

"Who in the hell gives a f*ck about what he looked like BACK then? He fine now and that's all that matters! Look, I got his number and sh*t so I--" "Anyway, back to the situation. What the f*ck I'm gon' do man? I don't know what to believe! I wanna beat his ass, but hers too.  I don't give a f*ck if she pregnant. She ain't showing so, I can't get charged for beating her ass!" I spat, getting heated. "You need to think more about that 'cuz I'd be kicking both they asses. That's a trifling b*tch. She knows he's in a relationship with you, but she has the nerve to f*ck around with him! Hoes these days!"

"I know right! Ugh, I really don't know what I wanna do! But I think I might talk to her ass soon 'cuz we gotta figure something out! And that's for damn certain!" I uttered, continuously looking at her tweets. "I hear you, but I gotta go. My date here, but call me later and tell me what you gon' do," She stated. "Aight, have fun ho! But not too much fun," I teased. She laughed, "I definitely will!" I then hung up.

I now clicked on Michael's page and went through his tweets. He hasn't really been tweeting lately. Maybe I should trust him, but I needed to talk to her and see what the f*ck going on. Because all I knew was that if anything she said was true, all hell would break loose. And I would surely snap a b*tch and nigga neck. I tried not to feed into negativity, but there was no way in hell I was letting this s*** go into I got answers.

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I stood in my bedroom still in awe at my surprise. There were flowers across my bed. Like maybe three bouquets of them with a card attached to them from him that read: I'm sorry for leaving without telling u, but if I didn't, I wouldn't be able to buy you these. Stop tripping. U know u got my heart. -Mike I reread the card over and over again. This was the best surprise ever. I placed the flowers in separate vases and then landed on my bed.

I was so in Lala land that I didn't feel my phone vibrate. It was a message that read: Did u get my flowers? It was Mike. I smiled widely and responded: Yes I did. I got da card too :) Thanks baby. U could've turned da tv off b4 u left tho! I couldn't hide the feeling I was feeling right now. It just felt too good. I wish he was here right now so I could kiss him.

He soon replied: I did? well i forgot 2 but glad u liked dem. But hows da baby doing? I smiled again, remembering that I was carrying his child. I was so in love with this man that he could do no wrong in my eyes except be with thar girl. Now, I truly didn't understand why he would, but whatever. I responded: Good. Very good. But ur other baby is missing u :( dnt tell me ur with that Kamoflauge b**** or whateva her name.

He responded in an annoyed voice I'm sure of: KAMRYN is my girl. And u makin it hard. I told u about her. Remember what I said? I sighed and replied: That she was delusional & that u really wasnt feeling her like that & that it was me havin ur baby, BUT STILL Michael I wnt all of u nt jus half of u! I got sadder as I thought about how I was wanting all of him, but only receiving a little of his attention. The sh*t was hard keeping to myself.

He soon texted back: Rocky u know what's up wit us. So pls stop dis bullsh*t. Play yo role. Or get cut out of da scene. Simple as that. That kinda hurt my feelings. He was talking to me as if I was his ho. I hated when he talked to me like that. But he always defended Kamomile and sh*t was pretty stupid to me. If he didn't really like her like that then why he always defending her. Something wasn't adding up, but I needed to know the deal with them. Like are they serious with each other or what?

After getting myself together, I texted: Really? That's WTF u say to me? U da one who got my head screwed up. Eitha u with me or u not. He texted back after a few minutes: I'm with u. But I'm with her 2. Deal with it. I didn't text back because I didn't wanna say something stupid and make him end everything we worked so hard for. So, I decided to text Noel back: Sorry that I was kinda bein a jerk :( Me & my bf was havin a few problems n it's been on my mind, but I miss u 2 Freckles n I love da blonde on u :) I laid in my bed waiting for him to text back. After thirty minutes of waiting, I decided that he must've took it to the heart or something and then drifted off into a nap. 

Thank you pimp. That really means a lot to me. <33

I learned not to compliment you back 'cuz it leads to an argument & denial lmao.

Maaayyynnn I got excited thinking that you posted!

*walks out post crying*

ohhhh sh*ttttt .
add soon!

Runnn It :)

Lol thank you everyone. I will add soon.

Fine, I won't.

I'll touch Noel though..

She all crazy and s***.. or is she telling the truth..

RUNN ITTTT

Chapter One:
Everything's Not What It Seems?

I was with my boyfriend of five years, Michael. We had our ups and downs. I mean we weren't the perfect couple. That lifestyle fairy sh*t wasn't us at all. We had sweet moments, but they didn't necessarily last long. I wouldn't trade him for anything though. And I'm sure he wouldn't trade me either. We were on our way out of our apartment, when she burst through the door. "Giiiirl! Where y'all going? Guess who tryna get with me?!" She yelled, clapping her hands, while sitting on the couch. I laughed loudly. 

Michael, however wasn't too fond of her at the moment. At all really. He couldn't stand her. She was Destiny, my best friend since kindergarten. She had my back and she knew I definitely had hers. We been through everything. Yeah, she's loud as hell at times, but that's my girl. "Who loud ass?" I asked, looking at her. "I'm sure the whole world will know now with yo loud mouth ass!" Michael spat, shaking his head. She sucked her teeth and then positioned her finger into the air, now rolling her eyes. "ANYWAY! Derrick girl. That sexy, fine piece of chocolate. Mmm, that nigga make me want a Hershey's bar," She fanned herself. 

I laughed, "Chile please. That man ain't checking for yo ass. Move on." "Really?then why we going to dinner tonight! Boop! Just popped your bubble!" She roared, getting up putting her hand in my face. Mike rolled his eyes, looking at her with disgust. I sighed, being tired of his rudeness, "Michael..." He matched my sigh and grabbed his snapback. "I'll be in the car KAMRYN," He retorted, stretching my name and walking out of the door. 

"What the f*ck is wrong with your pet? You didn't feed him or some? 'Cuz he just rude for no reason," She remarked, shaking her head and popping her gum. "I don't know what's wrong with him. Lately, I been questioning this sh*t. We not really clicking like we used to. I miss laughing with my man. Now, the only emotion we get out of each other is anger. Ugh," I spat, sitting on the arm of the couch. "Don't worry yourself over Mr. Lizard. You need to get with that fine ass, highlighter boy. What's his name?" She spat, tapping her lips. 

"Ms. Joyce son Noel? Girl no. He's like a little brother to me. And besides the nigga need to eat. No thanks," I uttered loudly, shaking my head. She stared at me, "B*tch, he can't be no worse than that nigga skinny ass! He the one who looks like he needs a good meal. Maybe if your ass knew how to cook, he wouldn't be so damn tiny." I waved her off, "That's his Asian blood in him. He can't help that he's small. Leave my baby alone." She blew her breath, "I don't care. I'm just saying. He's short as f*ck and probably can't defend you, but light bright on the other hand, he look like he into that mixed martial arts sh*t. And he sexy. And you saying it like y'all that far apart from each other through age. Y'all just a year apart," She stated, trying to win me over. 

I paid her no mind, "Ehh. Still I have a man Destiny." "You can have two. One who actually is worth something, and the other who is only good for eating 'cuz I know his d*ck game whack!" "Pshh, his sex game is far from whack! You need to get yo fake Janet Jackson in Poetic Justice ass up outta here with that before I beat that ass over my man," I roared. 

She giggled, "You ain't gotta tell me twice b*tch. I'm about to roll the f*ck outta here." I laughed and rolled my eyes playfully, "Uh huh." She now became serious, "But seriously, Kam I am only trying to look out for you. You been with him for five long ass years and he got you living with him and abandoning your mama. And now he got b*tches DMing you telling you how they f*cked him. Speaking of that, have you asked him about that Rocky broad?" 

I sighed and folded my arms, "Yeah, but he denies it. I don't know what to believe man. This girl knows sh*t about him that most people don't know." "Then, she's not lying. Check your nigga. 'Cuz sh*t ain't adding up, but I got to go get ready for my date. Talk to yo ass later," She retorted, walking out of the apartment. I sat down and sighed as I thought about everything she said. This girl Rocky sent me a DM on Twitter a few days ago claiming to be in a relationship with him. 

And she told me she was pregnant. I asked him about it and he swore up and down he didn't know her. I showed him her pic and everything. Right now, I'm between a rock and a hard place. I don't know what to believe anymore. But I did know that if this b*tch was telling the truth, it was over between us. I dealt with all of his cheating in the past and he just gained my trust back last year. 

I was not going down that road again with him. Besides, we held on so long to this relationship that our grip was no longer strong. I kept getting lost in my thoughts until I heard a loud car horn. I looked out the window to see Michael in the car, honking the horn. I rolled my eyes and grabbed my purse, while walking out the door and locking the door behind me. I strolled over to the car and slowly got in and strapped on my seatbelt as he drove off. 

"Do you really have to be so damn mean to her Michael?" I asked, while looking at him.  "Yes, I do. She always filling yo head up with bullsh*t. The b**** ain't never liked me. And you know that. So don't act like you didn't. She don't like me and I don't like her. It's that on that," He spat, speeding. I sighed and looked out the window, "I don't understand you. And don't call her a b*tch. Y'all bumped heads 'cuz you the one who always eying her up and down or looking at her crazy. I don't treat yo niggas like that. I gave them a chance and I don't like they broke, retarded asses." 

He sighed, "See, that's what the f*ck I mean. You always talking sh*t to them. They don't even do sh*t to you. You don't like Sean 'cuz he dumped yo damn friend. Sh*t, I'd dumped her annoying ass too and she crazy. Let's not forget that. My nigga was scared in his own damn house!" I sighed loudly, "No, I don't like him 'cuz he did her wrong and you f*cking know it! He cheated on her ass with her f*cking cousin! And with other b*tches like you did me!" I roared, now completely annoyed. 

He damn near crashed as he made an abrupt stop. I looked around to see we were at the mall. He was driving so damn fast that I didn't even notice. He parked the car and looked at me, "I thought we were moving past that sh*t Kamryn. Not going backwards." "All that sh*t changed when that b*tch blew up my f*cking DMs! This b*tch knows too much sh*t about you! And frankly, you better pray that this b*tch is lying. I know that much," I spat. 

He screwed his face into annoyance, "Baby, I told you. I don't know that b*tch. My Facebook page is listed on my Twitter so more than likely that's how she getting all this damn information. I'm telling you that I don't know her!" "Wait, you said that y'all went to school together!" I roared. 

"Yes, middle school, but I don't know her like that. All I remember her being is the quiet girl. She was weird too, but that's it. We made it too far to backtrack. Please trust me," He begged, staring into my eyes. I sighed. I wanted to believe him so badly, but something wouldn't allow me to let this go. I nodded my head and grabbed his hand and walked through the mall with him.

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"Hey Rocky." I turned around to see him pushing a basket. I was grocery shopping and man did I hate doing this sh*t, but I had to survive. "Noel?" I questioned, looking at him. I hadn't seen him in years. We were lab partners in high school. He smiled that bright smile, "Peanut, it's me. Wow, you are still gorgeous." I rolled my eyes playfully, "And you are still annoying I see. It's been awhile since I seen you. I see you still didn't get braces and your acne cleared up." 

"And I see you gained boobies. You know you used to be flat-chested. But yes, it's been a long time. I'm all grown up now. And I see you are too. You still weird?" He laughed, while pushing his basket closer. "You still got that rash?" I spat back, raising my eyebrow. He laughed sheepishly, "No! That been cleared up. Thank you very much honey." 

"Mmmhm," I teased, while picking up food. "No seriously. Don't try to play me Rocky," He joined me, adding items to his basket. "I guess I believe you, but I was just doing some shopping. So, let me get back to it," I stated, pushing my basket and walking off. "Wait! Peanut. You not even gon' comment on my blonde hair? And how you been?" He questioned, walking next to me. I looked at him closely, "Oh yeah, I didn't notice it. I see you finally did your end of the bet." 

He chuckled, "I guess, but I also wanted to try something new. You still didn't tell me how you've been." "Fine. I'm wonderful Freckles," I stated, honestly. I could see his mouth form a smile, bringing out his dimples. "It's been a while since I've heard you call me that," He grinned. "Yeah, although you have only a few of them, they still stand out to me." "Well, I'll allow you to go back to your shopping, but before I do that, I was wondering if I could take you to get a bite to eat sometime?"

He replied, checking my face for approval. I sighed,  "I have a man Noel..." He looked at the floor, "Oh, that's cool." He then looked back up, "We still can have lunch as friends. Who said I wanted to be your man? You can't handle all this no way Peanut," He joked. I laughed, "Yeah right. If you say so Freckles. And okay, I guess that's fine." 

"Well, put your number in my phone," He instructed, while handing me his iPhone. I quickly typed in my information and handed it back to him. "We will play catch-up soon. And if I haven't said before, you have a nice rack," He winked, while laughing. I pushed him, giggled, and then continued shopping. After, Noel was out of sight, I couldn't help, but think about Michael. Why would he play like that? I didn't understand him sometimes. 

Maybe 'cuz he was around Kayak or whatever her name is. I brushed the feeling off and finished shopping. I paid for everything and then walked out of the store. I put the groceries in my trunk and got in. I was prepared to drive off until I felt my phone vibrate. It was Noel and I prayed that he didn't get on my damn nerves. It read: :P Big head I replied:  Ugh Noel. U gettn on my nerves already. He replied: Lol I didn't do sh*t yet :( 

I drove off and didn't text back. I would probably text back later when my mind is clear. I made it home and to my surprise she was standing on my door step. "Mama? How long you been out here?" I questioned, now getting out and unlocking my apartment door. 

"For about 10 minutes, but that's not important. I came over because I am worried about you. You all crazy over this guy. And I know it 'cuz yo sister told me everything. And I mean EVERYTHING," She stated walking in. I rolled my eyes and walked into the kitchen, sitting the groceries on the counter. 

"Rocky, look at me. Everything ain't always what it seems. This boy has your mind gone and you're pregnant by him. And on top of that you don't even know him that well. Get yourself together before you raise a baby in this world Rocky. You understand?" I silently became infuriated with my big mouth ass sister. 

This is the last time I tell her ass something. I ignored my mother preaching and looked at the counter. I kept looking until I heard something coming from my bedroom. It sounded like the tv was on. I know it was off when I left. My mother looked at me with worry, "You okay?" I nodded my head, "Yes I'm fine mother. I'm tired. I'm going to go take a nap." I wasn't really tired, but I was ready for my mom to leave. 

"Okay, but remember what I told you," She stated,  walking out the door. I sighed and locked the door. "FINALLY! But that was quicker than normal," I shrugged as I walked to my bedroom. A big smile crept onto my face. I was more than happy with what I was witnessing. "Well aren't you the romantic one?"
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Lol I made up my mind that this will indeed be short.

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But I am trying to update tonight.

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