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Don't Judge Me

The girls and I began to get ready for the Chris Brown concert. It was my 18th birthday and I've always been a die hard Chris Brown fan even through all the bad stuff he went through and all the changes. I did the finishing touches on my hair and make up then put on my sexy baby blue dress and the silver heels. I did the accessories and checked out the ending results in my full length mirror. Just looking at myself all I could say was DAMN!! I confidently walked downstairs and all eyes landed on me. I heard my step brother's friends whispering about how sexy I looked. He snapped himself out of the lil trance he was in and hit them.

"Well damn girl just make us look like some Goodwill swap meat rejects!"

Sasha yelled out and we all laughed. I hugged my mom and step dad then my step brother and we left.

The girls and I sat front row as Chris Brown performed 'Dont Judge Me', 'Countdown', 'Biggest Fan', and a throwback 'Invented Head'. In between songs he would clown, dance, and bring on other artists. The show was coming to an end in about 15 minutes. I swear those 2 hours went by as I glanced at the time on my iPhone 5.

"Now for this last song I'm gunna need a special lady up here. Where's my special lady at?? Let me hear ya!"

The girls began screaming at the TOP of their lungs. Chris looked around the audience then his eyes landed 1 place I thought they never would. On me.

"Shawty right there. I wan you."

My girls screamed as he pointed at me. The security guards came and escorted me to the top of the stairs then Chris gently took my hand in his and brought me to a chair.

"What's ya name gorges??"
"Well Ms. Kiara I hope you don't mind this."

He said as he pulled my body close to his and wrapped his arms around me from behind.

"Can I hold you like this??"

I nodded my head and bit my lip.

"What about if I do this??"

He began kissing on my neck and lightly sucking on it. I moaned a little and he smirked.

"Do you mind that??"

I shook my head no unable to speak fearing that another moan would escape. The beat to '2012' dropped and the crowd went wild. He sat me in the chair and gave me a sexy ass lapdance sneaking kisses in and sucking on my neck. After that song came on they came and took the chair then the 'Sweet Love' beat dropped and the crowd really went wild. He serenaded me as we grinded and he was shocked that I could keep up and move like this. After a lil while he laid me on the stage floor and humped me. I bit my lip and flopped him over so I was humping me. I rubbed my hand on his abs and I could feel him hardening. We stood up and he kissed me as the song ended and we disappeared under the stage.

"Damn. How old are you??"

He asked examining my body closely and biting his lip. Damn that man does things to me!

"As of today 18."

He nodded his head.

"You here alone??"
"I came with my girls."
"Well do me a favor. Let them know you're not leaving with them tonight."

I smirked and did just as he said then found him again and we left to his hotel room after he took pics with fans and signed autographs. From the time we hit the limo to the bedroom neither of us could take it anymore. Let's just said we definitely did it like it was the end of the world. ;-}

As much as I look back on that night and think about it I was not expecting the events that were to come ..


Few more runs & I'll update

Yea the doctor did something and they need to hurry up and find out so Chris can be a father run it

I think the doctor did something to the test. Happy Thanksgiving!!
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I got up at 8:30 and washed Diamond then got her dressed and put her long braids into a cute bun. Ms. Joyce was already dressed so she took Diamond and fed her. I took a shower and chose fitting jeans with rips in them, pink/black/white Diamond Turf Nikes, and an off the shoulders shirt. Since I got my long hair blown out I just put on a matching headband. I added accessories, got my purse, then we headed out. Once we got there Chris pulled up an hour later. It was 11:45.

"Christopher where have you been!?"

Ms. Joyce yelled at him.

"I was busy. I already know the results anyway."

She just shook her head at him. The doctor took Diamond 1st and Ms. Joyce went with her. Chris was on the phone talking about he's mad he has to be here and all this s***. He talked about having a party when the results came that the brat wasn't his. I just shook my head. I was next then Chris then the doctor said we would receive the results in 3 days. She acted like she didn't like me or something, but she flirted with Chris. I rolled my eyes and we left him there then went to the park.

Chris, his 2 friends, Ricky, Mikey, Chris' manager Tina, Ms. Joyce, and I were in the living room when the envelope came. Ms. Joyce held it in her hands.

"Now whatever the results may be I don't want any drama. Chris if she's yours you till be taking care of her. Kiara if she's not you're welcome to stay here till you get on your feet. I've already grown attached to Diamond and I would hate to lose her. Well here goes."

She slowly took the results out of the paper and read them carefully.

"He's not the father..."
"SEE I KNEW IT b****!!!!"

He stood up in happiness and dapped up his friends.

"The results are WRONG she's yours!!"

He took the paper from Ms. Joyce and threw them at me. I read them and they said she wasn't his.

"Damn I'm glad I dodged that bullet. Better let ya brat know you had the wrong guy."

Tina smiled and told Chris they have a plane to catch then they left. I sat there and cried as Ms. Joyce held me.

"Something is wrong Joyce. I swear he was the only one I was intimate with."
"I know sweetie we'll get to the bottom of this. There's no way she can look like him and not be his."

I just cried.

Writing now. =]

Btw Happy Thanksgiving everyone!!!!!!!

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Ms Jouyce is heaven sent. She knows ats her grandbaby why Chris is trippin is beyond me. He knows it to and when this DNA test comes back saying shes his. He gone be looking stupid. RUN IT!!!

From Chris point of view he does have to be like how he is acting because some people do be lying but since they said diamond is a spitting image of Chris them idk why he trippen so hard I know he sees it too run it

Chris, you disgust me. I mean s***, you could've at least said something to Diamond, I would've went upside his head for that s***.
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Chris, you disgust me. I mean s***, you could've at least said something to Diamond, I would've went upside his head for that s***.
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i so dont like hiz attitude ryte now! ugh!

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Just as Ms. Joyce said we definitely took a shopping trip. Diamond got a closet full of clothes, shoes, jewelry & babygirl smell goods then got a bin full of toys. I tried to just get a few outfits, but she wasn't having it. I got a closet full of clothes for all occasions, heels/shoes/sneakers, jewelry, purses, shades, and got grown woman smell goods. She took us to the hair salon then the nail salon. I let Diamond get hers painted while I got tips and designs. By 9:00 we were all exhausted and she had spent at least 2-3 gs. When we got back to her house Ricky carried all of Diamond's stuff in while Mikey carried all of my stuff in. They had to make 3 trips while Diamond and I helped Ms. Joyce with hers. As she cooked dinner I helped Diamond set up her already furnished princess room then she played with her toys while I went and did my room. All the rooms were huge and beautiful. It was straight out of a magazine for the rich and famous. I went into my walk in closet and by the time I was finished it was 70% full. I fell back onto my bed and fell asleep.

I woke up to Diamond tapping me and telling me dinner was ready. I washed her hands and mine then went downstairs. I helped Ms. Joyce set the table then we all began eating. We were laughing, joking, and just having a good time when the door opened.


The sound of his voice made me cringe as flashbacks of yesterday played in my mind.

"In here Christopher."

With evert footstep he took towards the dining room my body tensed up.

"Mom why you calling me by my full name?? I know you're not still mad about yesterday."

He said stopping when he saw Diamond and I.

"Ma what are THEY doing here??"
"Oh you mean YOUR daughter and YOUR baby mother?? They live here until Kiara gets on her feet."
"How you gunna give a home to a lying stranger??"

I shook my head as Diamond stood up and walked over to Chris.

"Daddy don't you love me??"

He didn't say anything then she ran upstairs to her room crying. I sighed and stood up walking to the door.

"I wouldn't put my child through all this drama knowing you weren't her father. You can have a DNA test done, but you know in your heart she's yours just like your mother does. Goodnight Joyce."
"Goodnight sweetie. Give my grandbaby a kiss for me."
"I will."

As I walked out I heard Chris suck his teeth then Ms. Joyce told him to sit down. I went up to Diamond's room and she was just sniffling. She didn't wanna talk so I bathed her, said her prayers with her, then gave her a kiss for Ms. Joyce and me. I turned her nightlight on and her lights off then closed her door and turned around. Chris was standing there.

"9:30 tomorrow morning. My mom will bring ya. After it says I'm not her father I want ya gone and out of my life and my mother's."

I nodded my head.

"Ok. When it says you are her father I want support. Not just financially, but physically and mentally. You've put her through enough and she's only known you for 2 days. You owe her. Big time. Goodnight Christopher."

I went and showered then went to bed.

I dislike Chris so much right now! Joyce is such a sweetheart!
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Keep the runs coming & I'll update as soon as I get settled at home !!!!!!!!!!

Good I'm glad ms.joyce was there now we need a DNA test for Chris a** run it

Keep the runs coming plz!!!!!!!!!!

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Love it!!
I feel so bad for kiki and diamond how dare him!
I woulda slepped the dog sh*t outta him he sounds super childish n like a deadbeat
Im glad for ricky mikey n joyce at least some people are willing to b there for their family even tho the person that should b wont

We walked for about half an hour until we reached a shelter for teenage mom's and their children. Luckily there was 1 bed left so we got settled then I looked at the little bit of money I had left. $15 was the only thing left to my name. There was a McDonalds across the street. 1 of the elderly workers said she didn't mind watching our bags while we went. We left for about 10 minutes and when we got back the lady was sleeping and our bags were gone. I argued and searched everywhere, but everybody claimed they didn't know where it went. After we ate Diamond fell asleep. Shortly after I cried myself to sleep.

I woke to 2 men touching me. I screamed as they covered my mouth. They yanked my pants down and ripped my underwear.

"Ay get ya hands off of her!!"

A male voice yelled. I heard 4 pairs of feet then the guys ran. I quickly pulled my pants up and saw Diamond coming from the bathroom. I thanked God she wasn't harmed or there to witness it. Mama Joyce, Ricky, Mikey, and another lady appeared. Diamond ran to Ms. Joyce as she picked her up and squeezed her.

"Get your things you're coming home."

Ms. Joyce said.


I started to object, but she cut me off.

"I'm a grown woman just like Chris is a grown man. He doesn't control me. Just because he doesn't want to own up to his responsibilities doesn't mean I'm not going to be there. Now I said get your things you're coming home."
"... Our things were stolen."
"Well then a shopping trip is in order."
"Ms. Joyce-"
"Please call me Joyce and don't argue with me child. I'm taking you 2 shopping as her room and your room is being furnished."
"We can share a room-"

She looked at me like if I object 1 more time she was going to slap me. I gave in and we left.

he sound like a young ass stupid ass boy!!! ima need him 2 get his mind ryte real quick!! how tf his mama know off rip but he wanna act like he cant c thats his child??? i swear i hate that some niggas r really like this!! dumb af!!

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Chris need to stfu and look at that little girl before he say some stuff smh somebody need to stop her and have her wait until the DNA test for she leave run it

NEW READER:Chris is a d***. He knows he could've reacted a little better then that instead of calling the baby a brat and calling Kiara a hoe. Poor baby only 2 and has had a hard life, that nasty about how perverted James is sick sick man. I hope Kiara and Diamond dont have to go back to them ever.

one of them needs to whoop chris ass damn nigga could atleast ask for DNA test before he got to running his damn mouth and when he find out she is his he gon feel salty as f***

ewwwww and that f***ing pervert touched that precious little child with his sick ass somebody need to beat his ass too!

I bet sasha is clueless as f*** about what happen!

Kiara i applaud you for being strong in the matter even after what he said you still kept it cool

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I looked at him confused.

"Excuse me??"

He walked closer to me and everybody looked in our direction.

"If you hadn't came here with that bulls*** about me being the so called father of ya f***ing daughter my mother wouldn't be in this mess!"

Mikey stood up.

"Chris man calm down. You heard the doctor is was nobodies fault. Mama wasn't taking care of herself like she should've been."
"Man I don't wanna hear that bulls***. When ya told her the news about that little brat-"

I stood up in his face.

"Watch ya mouth about my daughter. If you want beef with me fine, but don't you dare put my child in this!"
"b**** please. You brought ya poor ass excuse of a mother self to MY mother's home with bulls*** about me being ya so called babydaddy. b**** I don't even remember ya name or ya face. Even if I did f*** you that proves you're a hoe since you let me hit without even knowing me. I'm not taking care of no lil ass girl that ain't mines. Don't you EVER bring ya ass or that brat near me or my family EVER again!"

I was so pissed to the point where I couldn't see straight. Most of all I was hurting BAD for my daughter. I stepped back and turned to Mikey.

"Can you let Ms. Joyce know I won't be needing her home any more and I apologize for the drama I have caused. I will figure out a way home."

Mikey tried to stop me.

"It's fine. Thank you for the hospitality while I was here even if it was only for a few hours. I don't want my daughter or I staying somewhere that we're not wanted."

I turned to Diamond as she looked at me with tears.

"Mommy I don't wanna go back there. That man is going to hurt me again. Mommy please!"

She gripped my legs tight as I picked her up.

"Who hurt you??"
"Auntie's boyfriend. He touches me. He said if I ever told anyone he would kill us."

She cried harder as my grip tightened around her. The whole room was silent as we cried together. I looked at her.

"We won't go back there sweetie I promise, but we can't stay here either."
"Where will we go??"
"... I'll figure it out baby girl I promise. It was nice meeting you."

I said to Mikey as Ricky brought our bags into the hospital. I grabbed them then walked out.

ahhh stfu chris!! be a man!

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Update when I get home. Keep the runs coming!!!!!!!

No Chris, this is all your fault! Should've wrapped it up!
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Ummm how is it her fault run it

He went straight to the front desk and they spoke for a lil while then she pointed over to where we were and he walked over with the other people.

"What's good Ricky and Mikey??"

They dapped then he sat across them with his head in his hands until a doctor came out. He said she had passed out from exhaustion and dehydration plus she didn't take her meds that day. She was up & asking to see me so I stood up with Diamond. Chris kinda gave me a stank look then I went to see her. She was laying there drinking juice.

"Ms. Joyce I'm so sorry-"

She waved me off.

"You have nothing to be sorry about. It was my fault because I haven't been taking care of myself the way that I should be. It's a good thing you guys were there."

She looked down at Diamond.

"There's no doubt in my mind that's his daughter. A mother knows. I just wanna know why it took 2 years."

I made sure Diamond was preoccupied with the game on my phone then I spoke.

"... To be honest with you Ms. Joyce I was just a 1 night stand with Chris. I'm not a hoe or anything that was out of my character that night, but I guess I got caught up with him being Chris Brown. When I found out I was pregnant I contacted his manager so that I could talk to him, but she basically told me that I was lying and even if I was than he has an image. She told me never to dial that number again so I didn't. I was kicked out of my home when I told my mom and stepdad I was pregnant. I stayed with a friend and her boyfriend. He sexually harassed me. He even made comments about .... Things he would do to her."

I said nodding my head in Diamond's direction.

"I made some phone calls and used the little bit of money I had to come here. I had to get her out of there. Ricky and Micky saw me and here I am."
"Wow. Well this is a lot to digest, but you're welcome to stay with me."

I smiled. We talked for a while then I walked out after Diamond gave her grandma hugs and kisses. Chris went after me to see her. He returned maybe 15 minutes later and walked over to us with an unreadable expression. He looked towards me.

"This is all your fault!"

Omg Chris is abou to walk through the door I hope he accepts his daughter run it run it