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Not What It Apppears

Have you ever looked at yourself seeing the real you. Only you know the truth as everyone on the outside looks in envying you. But you really envied them but only you knew. Hiding the truth as they put you on a pedestal when really deep down you are falling apart. Thinking no one will understand and they can't save you from this pain. The good girl image is what she was known for but that wasn't the truth. <a href="http://thatgrapejuice.net/wp-content/uploads/2012/03/Rita-Ora-TGJ11.jpg">She</a> had a dark truth that no one ever knew......

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Run it

I like this. Chris handled that. Trey is silly. Kayla is mad funny.
Run It!!!

Jesse stood still as she looked around for a escape route as she cursed herself for not leaving out when Shad did.

"I'm sorry Jesse" Reggie said as as he stepped into the room

She studied him and knew this apology and words were all to familiar now "Stay away from me"

"I didn't mean to hurt you baby I love you"

"Love doesn't hurt Reggie, look at me is this love" she said leaning onto her crutches

Reggie didn't say anything as he stayed silent not knowing what to say.

"Its over don't try and get in contact with me, don't even send me anything I want nothing from you" she said as she walked past him but he grabbed her as she held in the pain she felt from the grip.

Reggie did not know Chris, Shad and Trey were waiting incase he tried to hurt Jesse.

"Its not over until I say so"

"Let me go Reggie"

"She said let her go" Chris said as he walked in followed by the rest of the guys.

Soon Reggie released her and looked at Chris and then back at Jesse. "Oh so you with him now I knew you was a hoe"

"I suggest you not disrespect her while I'm standing here or I will f*** your ass up" Chris said feeling his anger rise

"Whatever nigga get the f*** out my house" Reggie said waving him off

Chris picked Jesse up and Shad grabbed her crutches as Big Pat followed close behind them as they downstairs. But Trey stood there as he looked at a vase in the room and picked it up.

Reggie looked at him "Put my damn vase down f*** boy"

Trey smirked and soon dropped the vase on the ground as it crashed into the hardwood floor as he walked out the room. When he went downstairs he flipped over the glass table causing it to shatter and went into the kitchen as he saw a fresh pizza hut box sitting on the counter as he grabbed it and left out eating it. But while he was closing the door he slammed the door hard as hell as the pictures on the walls crashed to the ground.

"Who the f*** boy now" Trey yelled out as Reggie could hear him and walked to the car and eating a pizza slice.

Shad and Toni looked at Trey as they shook their heads at him

"What did you do" Shad asked looking at him

"Nothing he said as he grinned still eating

Jesse looked around as she did not see Kayla "Where did Kayla go?"

Soon she saw the garage door lift up and she walked out calmly walking up to the group"Ya'll ready"

Everyone looked at her knowing she did something "What did you do Kay" Toni asked folding her arms

"Nothing just gave Reggie's cars a makeover that's all" as she walked over to Chris car putting the spray can back in the car and walking to hers getting in.

Soon everyone got in their cars as they headed back to Mama J's house.

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After dropping her stuff off at Mama J's house she went to go spend time with Kayla and Toni and soon came back home at around midnight.

As she turned on her light in the room she looked over towards the mirror and seeing a different handwriting. Making her way over closer she looked at the writing and began to smile as a tear came down her face. As she sat down seeing the sayings wrote.

For her black eye they wrote beautiful, her neck was talented, the bruise on her head was intelligent,on her arm were strength and the circle for her heart said guarded for now. At the bottom of the mirror there was a quote written from a song

<em>LET IT BE BEAUTIFUL-CB</em>

Run it!!

run it

adding later on

oh no!!! wheres chris at?!! run it!!

Run It...

I forgot to add the song I was listening to when typing the part of Jesse looking in the mirror it's called Insecure by Deliliah

Aw s*** how they aint see that nigga go in the house n wer is chris girl jus run as best u can run it

Jesse had woken up out of her sleep as she had a nightmare about that day. She looked around to see she was safe slowly exhaling a breathe she felt she held for so long.

There was a knock at her door and then they entered closing the door behind them as the turned on the light.

Jesse looked over to see a shirtless Chris as he rubbed his eyes seeing the sleepiness visible on his face.

"You okay?"he asked with a groggily voice

She looked at him" I'm fine just a little bad dream that's all"

He nodded but knew she was lying because he heard her scream and yell out no in her sleep"You sure"

Jesse looked down"No"

Chris turned off the light as he laid down under the covers pulling her closer to him slowly rubbing her hair as she soon fell into a deep slumber.

He looked and saw that she was sleeping as the moonlight hit her face and she was still beautiful to him."No ones gonna hurt you ever again I promise" He whispered as he kissed her forehand and falling asleep himself

(Morning)

Jesse opened her eyes to see that Chris was still sleep with his arm around her. As she tried to move he pulled her in more.

"Stay" he said with his eyes closed

"I have to use the bathroom Christopher" she replied smiling

Soon he released her as she made her way to the bathroom with her crutches. When she opened the bathroom door she saw Chris sitting up now shirtless watching tv.her eyes wonder down as she scanned his body as dirty thoughts with through her mind.she snapped out of her trance and looked at him.

Jesse laughed at him as she made her way back to the bed sitting up also.

Chris looked over at her"What's so funny?"

"You always watching cartoons like a big ass kid" she chuckled

"Don't act like you don't either cause if I remember you were watching them with me yesterday."

"So" Jesse said in a baby voice as Chris laughed at her

"Can I ask you something?"

"Yeah"

"Would you mind going with me to go get my things I don't want to go alone.Plus I would feel safer with someone there with me"

"Yeah sure Im going to call up others so it won't take as long"

"Okay he usually is gone around this time so we should start getting ready now" Jesse said looking at the time on her phone

"Alright" Chris said as he got up from the bed making his way out to go wash up and get ready

They both were dressed as <a href="http://www.avalaya.com/articles/media/blogs/FashionMusings/2012_11_07/rita-ora-london-street-style-1.jpg">Chris</a> texted on his phone telling his friends to meet him at Jesse's address to help her as <a href="http://www.avalaya.com/articles/media/blogs/FashionMusings/2012_11_07/rita-ora-london-street-style-1.jpg">she</a> did the same telling Toni and Kayla.

He opened the door for her to get in and taking her crutches and putting them in the back seat as they pulled of towards their destination.

They soon arrived and in front were cars of their friends waiting for them. Chris got out first and helped Jesse out and soon everybody followed him.

She reached the door and open it to see he was not there. The entered behind her as they followed her upstairs.

Jesse walked into the room seeing it looked the same as before glass broken and there laid her phone shattered on the floor she soon tensed up.

Chris touched her shoulder and suddenly she felt calm and relieved that he was there with her.

She grabbed her suit cases as the boys and Chris went into the closet and drawers putting everything in the boxes.

"Damn Jesse this is a lot of s***" <a href="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lvt8opf5Uc1r1yfxjo1_500.jpg">Shad</a> said as he took the last box downstairs to the car

Jesse laughed at him"Thats the last one Shad"

"Yeah" he replied waking down the steps

Jesse was still in the room and looked at the picture of her and Reggie as they smiled happily in
love but now things have changed since then.

As she turned around and looked down still holding the picture. She looked up losing all coloring in her face as the picture left her hands hitting the hard wood floors cracking instantly. There was Reggie standing at the door staring back at her suddenly her heartbeat began to quicken.

Authors note: Listen to
(Three Days Later)

<a href="http://bebopclothing.com/wp-content/uploads/2013/01/rita-ora-in-mirror.jpg">Jesse</a> looked into the mirror as she analyzed her face. The bruises reflected the pain she endured and the black eye was evident to the world that it was hurt and not love.

<em>So you're afraid, what about me?</em>
<em>Dare to claim that you can't breathe</em>

Slowly she rubbed her hands over her neck still seeing the bruises of his hand imprints on her. As she looked at her lip the swallowing had gone down but the cut was still visible.

<em>Don't let go cause how I feel</em>
<em>Is what you've made me</em>

She continued to look at herself not noticing that Chris was now staring at her from the bedroom door as he rested against it.Slowly she took a tube of red lipstick and circled the mirror of where the marks were. She wrote words by the circles.

<em>Stole my heart for all to see</em>

For her black eye she wrote blind,her neck was weak, the bruise on her head was useless,bruises on her arm were worthless and then she put a circle for her heart and wrote foolish.Finally she put the cap back on the lipstick and soon grabbed her crutches and turning to stand she saw Chris as she looked into his eyes neither saying a word.

<em>Dry my tears cause I can see</em>
<em>Just what I've made me</em>

"You're none of these" he said referring to the mirror

<em>I realize that it's me being so cold</em>
<em>Trapped in a box where my heart's been for so long</em>

"We'll that's what I've been for so long" she said before walking towards the door as he stepped aside watching her and then looking back at the mirror

<em>I'm insecure</em>

(The afternoon that day)

Jesse was back in the room watching tv thinking. She hasn't talked to any of her friends and knew they were worried about her. Soon the door bell ringed and Mama J answered it.

"She's in the room" she told them as she pointed towards the room

They walked over knocking on the door as she told them to come in. As she looked up from the tv she saw <a href="http://worldofblackheroes.files.wordpress.com/2012/03/teyana-taylor-2.jpg">Toni</a> and <a href="http://media.onsugar.com/files/2010/06/22/5/834/8340334/image_0.jpg">Kayla</a> standing there as the rushed to her side pulling her into a hug.

The all continued to hug as Jesse finally let the tears fall as they did the same.

(Three weeks later)

Jesse was still staying low at Mama J's house not wanting to face the public yet since the report on Reggie had gotten out.

The only ones that knew she was staying there was Toni, Kayla and Chris. She had gotten a new phone and changed her number since. Though she still hasn't returned home yet but she had to do it soon to get her belongings.

The cast on her foot was not to come off until three more weeks since she was healing quickly as the doctor said. Slowly she grabbed her crutches from the side of the bed and leaned on them for support.

Walking into the living room she saw that <a href="http://www.x17online.com/images/photo-sets/conv/cbrownbasketball032211_X17/cbrownbasketball032211_02-full.jpg">Chris</a> was there on the couch watching cartoons. She smiled and made her way over to the couch as he still kept looking at the tv.

"Where is Mama J" she asked him as she made herself comfortable on the other couch

"She went to the store real quick"

"Aw okay" she said still looking at him as he faced the tv still

"What" he asked her now looking at her

"Nothing"

"Don't lie J what is it"

"It's just I notice you have been here quite a lot these past weeks that's all"

"I wanted to make sure you were okay friends help friends right" he said smiling at her as she did the same

"Yeah they do" soon she returned back to facing the tv as he did the same

Run it

Jesse stood on her crutches as Chris stared back at her both not knowing what to say to one another. Mama J stared between the two trying to figure out what was going on

"Do you guys know each other" she replied

"Umm this is who I was talking to you about the other day Ma" Chris explained

"This the beautiful girl you couldn't stop thinking or talking about" Mama J asked as she smiled

Jesse begin to blush and Chris did also but out of embarrassment

"Yeah" Chris replied

"Okay well Im just gonna leave you two to talk" Mama J said as she winked at her and walking up the stairs

Jesse soon made her way over to the couch sitting down carefully making sure her broken leg was elevated.

Chris looked over her studying the bruises and bandages thinking who could do something like this to her.

"It was Reggie my ex-boyfriend now" she answered him out loud

Chris began to get angry thinking about Jesse getting hit by Reggie not saying a word.

"Don't" she said to him

Chris knew what she was telling him not to do "He deserves it"

"I know he does but I don't want you getting involved in my mess okay"

"Okay what if I don't touch him but get someone that will does that still count"

"Christopher it does so don't go doing anything okay think then act" she said looking him straight in the eye "Plus I feel safer now being here with Mama J she's sweet"

Chris smiled at the sight of her saying that "Yeah she is"

Jesse didn't say anything as she turned on the tv and flipped through the channels. Chris kept looking at her even under all the bandages and bruises he saw she still was the most beautiful woman to him.

"What are you looking at?" she asked not even looking up from the tv

"You"

"Why"

Chris shrugged "I think you look beautiful today. I mean even with you know what happen" he said looking away like a little child

Jesse looked over towards him and smiled "Thanks"

"Welcome" he replied now facing the tv

Author's Note:Sorry this add is boring but I just wanted to put something else up since you guys have been asking for it fr so long but I will add alter on today when I wake up.

Jesse sat in the hospital as they bandaged her up as she told the police what had happened with her. As the lady rubbed her back to console her.

Even though Jesse didn't know the lady there was something about her spirit that she was drawn too and felt safe with.

The police left after she gave them Reggie information. As of today she did not care if she never saw him again and fed up.

"Sweetie do you need a place to stay" she asked

Jesse couldn't go to Toni or Stacey right now looking like this plus her phone was still at the house so she could not call anyone and did not want to even go near the house in fear that he may still be there. Plus her friends didn't know that Reggie was beating her and feared what they may do because she would have to tell them before it got out in the media.

"Yes I do" she replied

"Okay you can stay with me you will be safe no one will hurt you" she said "by the way I'm Joyce but you can call me Mama J if you want to"

"Okay Mama J" Jesse said

They left the hospital and soon arrived to her house as Jesse got out as Mama J helped her since she was on crutches from her leg being broke.

Mama J opened the door as she stepped aside to let Jesse in"Your house is beautiful" Jesse complimented

"Thank you-"

" Jesse but you can call me J like my friends do" she said

"Okay Jesse" she smiled at her

Mama J had sat up a room for her and a pillow under her leg as she watched television. Soon She came back with a try of food.

Jesse saw she cooked up good as her mouth began to water"Thank you"

Mama J was walking out the room as Jesse called after her and she turned around

"Yes baby"

"Thank you for everything you didn't have to do all this"

"You're welcome and it wouldn't sit right in my heart if I rode pass you. Everyone needs help sometimes J nothing wrong with that" she turned and left the room

Jesse began to eat as she let the last words that Mama J say linger in her mind.

(Next Day)

Jesse woke up to hear Mama J talking to someone that sounded like a male voice

"Mama you got to be careful she could be some scam artist for all you know"

"Boy she needed me and I was there for her. You did not see the look she had in her eyes. The same one I had back then too"

Jesse so grabbed her crutches and made her way to the living since there was a room on the first floor that was a guest room.

She reached the living room to see a figure not facing toward her as Mama J soon took her eyes

"Hey are you alright sweetie" she asked

Jesse turned around and saw it was a lady as she stood there with as the other person action was on their phone and directed them towards her.

"Hey how are you feeling sweetie"

"I'm fine thanks for everything" <a href="http://www3.pictures.zimbio.com/gi/Joyce+Hawkins+Irqq7lTF0VSm.jpg">she</a> said as she smiled

"No probably are you hungry I can make you something"

"Baby it's no problem but I want to introduce you to someone, my son. Chris this is Jesse"

Jesse held onto her crutches and walked closer to the couch and looked down at the person on the phone. Soon his attention was of the phone and he looked up and was shocked to see it was her as she was feeling the same towards him.

He scanned her over as his eyes softened" Jesse" he said

"Christopher" she replied

run it

Run it

run it!!!

Jesse sat in the hospital as they bandaged her up as she told the police what had happened with her. As the lady rubbed her back to console her.

Even though Jesse didn't know the lady there was something about her spirit that she was drawn too and felt safe with.

The police left after she gave them Reggie information. As of today she did not care if she never saw him again and fed up.

"Sweetie do you need a place to stay" she asked

Jesse couldn't go to Toni or Stacey right now looking like this plus her phone was still at the house so she could not call anyone and did not want to even go near the house in fear that he may still be there. Plus her friends didn't know that Reggie was beating her and feared what they may do because she would have to tell them before it got out in the media.

"Yes I do" she replied

"Okay you can stay with me you will be safe no one will hurt you" she said "by the way I'm Joyce but you can call me Mama J if you want to"

"Okay Mama J" Jesse said

They left the hospital and soon arrived to her house as Jesse got out as Mama J helped her since she was on crutches from her leg being broke.

Mama J opened the door as she stepped aside to let Jesse in"Your house is beautiful" Jesse complimented

"Thank you-"

" Jesse but you can call me J like my friends do" she said

"Okay Jesse" she smiled at her

Mama J had sat up a room for her and a pillow under her leg as she watched television. Soon She came back with a try of food.

Jesse saw she cooked up good as her mouth began to water"Thank you"

Mama J was walking out the room as Jesse called after her and she turned around

"Yes baby"

"Thank you for everything you didn't have to do all this"

"You're welcome and it wouldn't sit right in my heart if I rode pass you. Everyone needs help sometimes J nothing wrong with that" she turned and left the room

Jesse began to eat as she let the last words that Mama J say linger in her mind.

(Next Day)

Jesse woke up to hear Mama J talking to someone that sounded like a male voice

"Mama you got to be careful she could be some scam artist for all you know"

"Boy she needed me and I was there for her. You did not see the look she had in her eyes. The same one I had back then too"

Jesse soo grabbed her crutches and made her way to the living since there was a room on the first floor that was a guest room.

She reached the living room to see a figure not facing toward her as Mama J soon took her eyes (Next Day)

Waking up in Toni's guest room Jesse felt the after effects of the alcohol. Slowly she removed herself from the bed as she made her way downstairs to the medicine cabinet and taking two Tylenol with water.

As they eased down her throat Toni came downstairs after holding her head as she wore sun glasses.

"I hate hungovers" Jesse said softly as she sat down on a stool

Toni walked over to the cabinet taking the same dose as Jesse and sat down next to her on the stool.

"I'm never drinking again"

"Ugh it's all Stacey fault every time we with her ass we be f***ed up" Toni said as she layed her head down on the counter.

Suddenly Stacey came into the room humming and pouring a cup of orange juice"Morning sunshines such a beautiful day isn't it"

"Why you talking so loud" Jesse replied softly as she held her head

"Yeah b**** you got us f***ed up I'm never drinking with you again"

"Me too"Jesse added in

"Both you b****es always say that s*** since high school and guess what. You always end up f***ed up" Stacey said laughing

"f*** you" Toni replied

"Love you too darling" Stacey said as she walked up the stairs back to her guest room

"Never again"Jesse said and soon returning back to the guest room as she threw the sheets over her and going back to sleep

(3:00pm)

Jesse woke up and was feeling much better.She looked over and grabbed her phone off the nightstand to see she had at least twenty missed calls from Reggie and also text messages. She went the text messages he sent.

Where you at?
Call me now
Answer your phone!
Why are you not answering?
You can't text now either huh
You bet not be cheating on me

Jesse rolled her eyes at the messages and continued checking her messages some where for business and her manager. Soon she stopped on one from Chris and read it.

Hey beautiful just wanted to say I had a good time talking to you last night, hopefully there are more to come :)

Jesse smiled at the message he sent and simply replied back

Maybe Christopher...

Soon she exited her messages and quickly got dressed grabbing her things to leave. On her way out she told Stacey she would text them later on since Toni was still sleeping

She arrived home after calling a taxi and entered the house.She made her way upstairs and jumped in the shower as the warm water hit her body. Soon she returned back to the bedroom to see Reggie sitting I. The edge.

Jesse was startled by the sight of him since he scared her"Reggie what the f*** say something you scared me" as she continued to put on lotion and then her clothes.

Reggie sat there not saying anything at first"So you stayed out all night and walk in like s*** sweet"

Jesse turned around as she put her shirt on and looked at him like he was crazy"same s*** you do"

Reggie walked over to her and grabbed her by her arm roughly. Jesse was trying to fight him off as she looked into his eyes seeing nothing at all like he wasn't even there.

"What you say to me"

Jesse stood there in fear as to what may happen next if she says something an kept quiet

"Can't say nothing now huh" Reggie said as he held her arm tighter

"Let go of my f***ing arm you're hurting me" she yelled at him

Soon he grabbed her by her neck chocking her as she tried to fight him off but he was too strong and she was gasping for air

"Don't get f***ing smart with me b****. You not going out no f***ing more and you not finna see them friends of yours understand"

He let go of her neck as she gasped for air and soon she looked at him as she was still catching her breathe.

"f*** you bastard" she said

Soon as those words left her mouth he slapped her in them."Don't talk back to me"

Jesse grabbed her mouth as bleed came out and looked at him. This was not the person she fell in love with he was no longer here.

"You will not tell me s*** I'm a grown ass woman Reggie and you ain't my damn daddy"

Reggie slapped her again but she kept going

"I f***ing hate you it's over get out now" she yelled as she backed away for him as he came closer

"You breaking up with me" he said as he walked up to her

"Yeah I'm tired of the cheating and staying out all night it's over" she said

Soon Reggie was full of rage and he started to punch her over and over as she faught him off but he kept going. She fell down to the ground and he kicked her three times and grabbed her by her hair as he screamed out for help.

"Stop it Reggie" Jesse yelled out as she soon scratched his face and hit him in the eye but that did t stop him

He grabbed her and pushed her on the bed."Since this the last time lets make it memorable" he said as he ripped her shirt

"Stop it" she yelled as she tried to get up but he pushed her down. She reached up and hit him with the lamp on the night stand and took off running down the stairs and out the door. She ran all the way down the street not looking back until finally stopped as she heard a car pull up beside her.

Jesse didn't look over to see who it was and kept going as they rolled down their window.

"Hey are you alright sweetie" <a href="https://www.google.com/search?client=safari&hl=en&biw=480&bih=268&tbm=isch&sa=1&ei=fVb7UbjpJ6KbygHJj4GoDg&q=joyce+hawkins&oq=joyce+haw&gs_l=mobile-gws-serp.1.0.0l5.2010.6856.0.9290.8.8.0.0.0.0.845.3023.1j1j0j2j0j1j2.7.0....0...1c.1.23.mobile-gws-serp..5.3.721.kSrzEKZ5qEc#biv=i%7C17%3Bd%7CMxK8dYDOPEEy6M%3A">she</a> asked

Jesse turned around and saw it was a lady as she stood there with as the other person action was on their phone and directed them towards her.

"Hey how are you feeling sweetie"

"I'm fine thanks for everything" she said as she smiled

"No probably are you hungry I can make you something"

"Baby it's no problem but I want to introduce you to someone, my son. Chris this is Jesse"

Jesse held onto her crutches and walked closer to the couch and looked down at the person on the phone. Soon his attention was of the phone and he looked up and was shocked to see it was her as she was feeling the same towards him.

<a href="https://www.google.com/search?q=chris+brown+polyvore&client=safari&hl=en&source=lnms&tbm=isch&sa=X&ei=pl_7Ub7xFuamygGS34HYAw&ved=0CAcQ_AUoAQ&biw=320&bih=356#biv=i%7C56%3Bd%7CSv4aFWYzXkdpnM%3A">He</a> scanned her over as his eyes softened"Jesse" he said

"Christopher" she replied

(Next Day)

Waking up in Toni's guest room Jesse felt the after effects of the alcohol. Slowly she removed herself from the bed as she made her way downstairs to the medicine cabinet and taking two Tylenol with water.

As they eased down her throat Toni came downstairs after holding her head as she wore sun glasses.

"I hate hungovers" Jesse said softly as she sat down on a stool

Toni walked over to the cabinet taking the same dose as Jesse and sat down next to her on the stool.

"I'm never drinking again"

"Ugh it's all Stacey fault every time we with her ass we be f***ed up" Toni said as she layed her head down on the counter.

Suddenly Stacey came into the room humming and pouring a cup of orange juice"Morning sunshines such a beautiful day isn't it"

"Why you talking so loud" Jesse replied softly as she held her head

"Yeah b**** you got us f***ed up I'm never drinking with you again"

"Me too"Jesse added in

"Both you b****es always say that s*** since high school and guess what. You always end up f***ed up" Stacey said laughing

"f*** you" Toni replied

"Love you too darling" Stacey said as she walked up the stairs back to her guest room

"Never again"Jesse said and soon returning back to the guest room as she threw the sheets over her and going back to sleep

(3:00pm)

Jesse woke up and was feeling much better.She looked over and grabbed her phone off the nightstand to see she had at least twenty missed calls from Reggie and also text messages. She went the text messages he sent.

Where you at?
Call me now
Answer your phone!
Why are you not answering?
You can't text now either huh
You bet not be cheating on me

Jesse rolled her eyes at the messages and continued checking her messages some where for business and her manager. Soon she stopped on one from Chris and read it.

Hey beautiful just wanted to say I had a good time talking to you last night, hopefully there are more to come :)

Jesse smiled at the message he sent and simply replied back

Maybe Christopher...

Soon she exited her messages and quickly got dressed grabbing her things to leave. On her way out she told Stacey she would text them later on since Toni was still sleeping

She arrived home after calling a taxi and entered the house.She made her way upstairs and jumped in the shower as the warm water hit her body. Soon she returned back to the bedroom to see Reggie sitting I. The edge.

Jesse was startled by the sight of him since he scared her"Reggie what the f*** say something you scared me" as she continued to put on lotion and then her clothes.

Reggie sat there not saying anything at first"So you stayed out all night and walk in like s*** sweet"

Jesse turned around as she put her shirt on and looked at him like he was crazy"same s*** you do"

Reggie walked over to her and grabbed her by her arm roughly. Jesse was trying to fight him off as she looked into his eyes seeing nothing at all like he wasn't even there.

"What you say to me"

Jesse stood there in fear as to what may happen next if she says something an kept quiet

"Can't say nothing now huh" Reggie said as he held her arm tighter

"Let go of my f***ing arm you're hurting me" she yelled at him

Soon he grabbed her by her neck chocking her as she tried to fight him off but he was too strong and she was gasping for air

"Don't get f***ing smart with me b****. You not going out no f***ing more and you not finna see them friends of yours understand"

He let go of her neck as she gasped for air and soon she looked at him as she was still catching her breathe.

"f*** you bastard" she said

Soon as those words left her mouth he slapped her in them."Don't talk back to me"

Jesse grabbed her mouth as bleed came out and looked at him. This was not the person she fell in love with he was no longer here.

"You will not tell me s*** I'm a grown ass woman Reggie and you ain't my damn daddy"

Reggie slapped her again but she kept going

"I f***ing hate you it's over get out now" she yelled as she backed away for him as he came closer

"You breaking up with me" he said as he walked up to her

"Yeah I'm tired of the cheating and staying out all night it's over" she said

Soon Reggie was full of rage and he started to punch her over and over as she faught him off but he kept going. She fell down to the ground and he kicked her three times and grabbed her by her hair as he screamed out for help.

"Stop it Reggie" Jesse yelled out as she soon scratched his face and hit him in the eye but that did t stop him

He grabbed her and pushed her on the bed."Since this the last time lets make it memorable" he said as he ripped her shirt

"Stop it" she yelled as she tried to get up but he pushed her down. She reached up and hit him with the lamp on the night stand and took off running down the stairs and out the door. She ran all the way down the street not looking back until finally stopped as she heard a car pull up beside her.

Jesse didn't look over to see who it was and kept going as they rolled down their window.

"Hey are you alright sweetie" <a href="https://www.google.com/search?client=safari&hl=en&biw=480&bih=268&tbm=isch&sa=1&ei=fVb7UbjpJ6KbygHJj4GoDg&q=joyce+hawkins&oq=joyce+haw&gs_l=mobile-gws-serp.1.0.0l5.2010.6856.0.9290.8.8.0.0.0.0.845.3023.1j1j0j2j0j1j2.7.0....0...1c.1.23.mobile-gws-serp..5.3.721.kSrzEKZ5qEc#biv=i%7C17%3Bd%7CMxK8dYDOPEEy6M%3A">she</a> asked

Jesse turned around and saw it was a lady as she stood there with her shirt ripped and blood coming from her mouth her eye black and swollen with bruise ribs.

Run it

Run it!!!

runt it

Jesse had mixed feelings about Chris since he was always in the media either good or bad but mostly bad. She did not want to pass judgement on him since she k owns what's it like to be in the spotlight also and all the rumors surrounding her.

She finally released his hand as he did the same taking the hint and went back over to the balcony but would glance over his shoulder to keep Jesse in his view. He was attracted to her instantly but somehow he wanted to get to know her more, the real her that no one else knows.

Toni and Jesse saw <a href="http://m.stylebistro.com/lookbook/Meagan+Good/WGUn6crDhKR">Stacey</a> as she spotted them and they hugged

"Oh my god J I missed you" Stacey said hugging her " And you too T my girls are all here" she said as she hugged them again and then they released

"Time to turn up!" Toni said as she grabbed a bottle and poured up for all including herself

"Y'all know Reggie hates when I come home drunk"

"f*** Reggie, tonight it's all about you" Stacey said downing her drink and pouring more "Plus he be c**k blocking the fun and s***"

"True" Toni added in and looking at Jesse

Jesse knew they were right and felt that she deserved a night out of no worries and what tomorrow would bring. Stacey and Jesse sat down as Toni went to stand by Chris overlooking the balcony.

"So Toni told me what has been going on with you and Jesse" Dtacey said staring at her

"Just the usual arguments"

"Mmmh if you say so, I never liked his ass" Stacey said eyeing her friend carefully

"I know Stacey, you told me every chance you got" Jesse said drinking down the rest of her glass and pouring another

"I just want you with someone who will let you shine and not dim your light out" Stacey said as her eyes softened "you deserve nothing but the best"

"I know" Jesse said" so how are have you been" she replied changing the subject

Stacey let it go but would talk about it later with her" The usual girl auditioning for roles and stuff"

"How has it been" Jesse said looking over quickly at Chris an returning her attention back to Stacey

"Same old either I get them of dont but I love acting too much,allows me to escape the real world and enter someone else's. But how is the album coming along"

"I just finished today thank god" Jesse said downing another drink as she felt a little buzz coming on

"I can't wait to hear it"

"I'm a little nervous you know"

"Girl believe me I know when I have to go to movie premieres with myself in the movie I just don't like it."

"Exactly "

Toni came over to ask them to dance and they joined her on the dance floor. Jesse could feel someone watching her and turned around to the balcony to see Chris staring at her from V.I.P. He smiled and gave her a bod as she did the same I return. She let the music take her away as she drunk more feeling numb as she let everything out on the floor.

Soon Jesse got tired and decided to return to V.I.P. as her friends co to yes to dance. She sat down on the couch. Suddenly her phone began to vibrate letting her know she had a text. It was for Reggie asking where she was. as she was about to text him suddenly a figure came and sat next to her and as she stopped texting and looked up from her phone she saw that it was Chris.

He leaned over towards her ear as the music was loud" you having a good time"

"Yeah I am actually has been a while" Jesse said as she poured another drink"I see you have been watching me this whole time I have been here" The more Jesse drank she became bolder about situations even more so than she was sober.

Chris like that she got straight to the point"Well I was captivated by you beauty. I just want to get to know you"

"Know me how as in sex" she replied taking a sip from her drink

"That would be nor too but as a person"Chris replied as he drinked straight from the bottle

"I have a boyfriend"

"I know that but I don't see him anywhere"

"So what's your point?"

"The point is if I had you I wouldn't let you go anywhere"

Jesse laughed at the comment since it really was a true statement about
Reggie."I see"

"Yeah but I wouldn't mind being friends with someone as beautiful as you" Chris admitted

Jesse like his bluntness and was attracted to him also"that doesn't seem ba at all" she pulled out her phone and gave it to Chris as he put his number in as she did the same for him

She looked over as he out Beautiful J as the contact name for her and smiled"Call me anytime I would like to get to know you a little more Jesse you interest me" he replied

"We will see Christopher nice meeting you" Jesse said as she walked off not knowing Chris was watching her every step.

run it

run it

Run it

run it!!

(Two Weeks Later)

<a href="http://cdn.buzznet.com/assets/users16/kattty/default/style-icon-rita-ora--large-msg-134133252179.jpg">Jesse</a> sat in the studio letting the music take her mind off all the problems and worries she was having lately. Suddenly someone walked in interrupting her and she turned around to see her best friend <a href="http://sandrarose.com/wp-content/uploads/2012/08/Teyana-Taylor-at-Target-SPL.jpg?42e305">Toni</a>.

"Hey girl" Toni said as she went to hug Jesse

"Hey, I missed you"

"I missed you too J. It's been too long since we last talked which was a week ago" Toni said jokingly

"Yeah"

"We need to go out J its been so long since we had a girls night out"

"I know it has but you know how it is with Reggie and all"

"Yeah but we need to release some stress and plus my friend is having a party tonight at club LUX so I was wondering if you wanted to go with me"

"I don't know T" Jesse said unsurely

"Come on you know we always have a good time when we're together and plus Stacey coming too."

Jesse thought about the fact that Reggie hated when she went out sometimes and would go out but come back just at midnight since he would blow up her phone. She needed a night away from Reggie and just have fun like her and the girls use to do. Ever since Reggie had came into the picture her friendships with them has not been the same but tonight she would forget about him and enjoy the time being since he had no problem coming in whenever he wanted.

"Okay I'll go"

"Yes that's what I'm talking about" Toni said as she got up heading towards the door "I'll text you when I'm outside you place we leave at 11"

"Okay I'll be ready" Jesse said

"Alright boo see you then" she said as she exited

Jesse had feeling that something about tonight would change but she did not know what. She turned back around as she resumed playing her music letting it consume her as she closed her eyes turning the volume higher.

<strong>Oh oh, I'll make this the night to remember</strong>

Jesse bruises had cleared up on her body and so far Reggie has still been hitting her and the abuse was getting worse just earlier that day he just hit her out of no where but there was no bruises left on her.She got home and looked at the clock to see it was nine o'clock which would give her enough time to do her hair. Once she reached the bedroom there was flowers but on her nightstand with a note saying sorry. Jesse took the note putting it in the drawer with the rest and proceeded to the shower.

Once she got out she got ready and did her hair. Her phone started going off as Toni texted her saying she was outside. <a href="http://i5.cdnds.net/13/14/450x775/rita-ora-90s-double-leather-groucho-club.jpg">Jesse</a> put the finally touch on her make up as she put her lipstick on to complete the look. She climbed into the car and the pulled off.

"Toni who you looking good for tonight"

"Nobody but myself" <a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-VW4JgfhXdoU/UITaQH2LImI/AAAAAAAAEB4/TjBWhGO_dvU/s1600/thebreakofdawnonline_teyanataylor1.png">Toni</a> said keeping her eyes on the road

"Mmmhh whatever you say"

"Okay detective J but Stacey is already there so we will meet he up in V.I.P."

"Okay" Jesse said as she sat back enjoying the ride

They soon pulled up to the club as Toni turned off the engine and exiting the car. Jesse eyed the crowd that was wrapped around the corner.

"So who is your friend"

"Oh it's-" Toni was cut off by a phone call as she hung up "Security is coming to escort us in

"Okay Jesse said as she stood by the car as a big man approached them

"Jesse this is Big Pat, Pat this is Jesse"

"Hello" Jesse said as Big Pat gave her a nod and smile not saying a word

"Y'all ready" he asked

"Yeah" Toni said as she linked her hand with Jesse's as Big Pat blocked the paparazzi as they entered the club and going up to V.I.P. Jesse looked down at the dance floor and around the club thinking whoever was throwing this party had to be celebrity but she did not know who it was.

Toni was in front of Jesse so she could not see who was hugging her but only saw the arms of a guy covered in tattoos. Finally they released from their hug as Toni stepped aside to introduce the two. The lights in the club were flashing and the guy had a hat covering his eyes.

"Jesse I want you to meet my brother Chris, Chris this is Jesse" Toni yelled over the music introducing the two

"Nice to meet you" Jesse said as she shook the hand of the mysterious guy as she felt a indescribable feeling until finally he turned his fitted cap backwards and looked up at her with a smile. Suddenly the lights stopped flashing in the club and became a little brighter and Jesse finally saw who it was.

"The pleasure is all mine beautiful" <a href="http://pics.celebritycarsblog.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/04/Chris-Brown-Snapback-Hats.jpg">he</a> replied as he smiled at her

run it!!