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In Transition

"Let The Drummer Kick"

As Citizen Cope gracefully soothed her mind, she stood companionless in the middle of the empty community college gymnasium right in the middle of the faint halfway line of the basketball court, looking pleasant and light-hearted on the outside, but feeling nervous and disgruntled on the inside.

With the ball trapped just between the fat on her bicep and ribcage, she looked up at the horribly painted red and white walls and read the different banners and pennants from previous years and even before her time that hung there decorating the walls. There were plenty for her to go through.

A quick indrawn breath escaped her lips.

"I hate transferring.." she mumbled under her breath.

Because her music was so loud, she wasn't able to hear the sound of a whistle being blown from the coaches lips as he trudged in front of his team of varsity senior boys. As the screeching sound came to an end it was replaced by the squeak of twelve different pairs of sneakers pacing against the freshly waxed wood floors of the gymnasium.

In single file they ran behind one another. The vibration coming from the floors underneath her feet is what snapped at her attention. She turned to her left and in time she caught sight of the team running laps around her. She met eyes with their feet until she met with the last pair and brought her eyes up to the face of the owner.

<a href="">Josiah</a> jogged at a good pace behind his team making sure no one fell behind and everyone stayed in line, but every few seconds his attention was pulled over to the girl standing in the middle of the court. His eyes didn't want to stay on her for long, but something wouldn't let him pull away. Her presence was like a gravitational pull. He couldn't see her face for a while until he came around the front end of the court to catch her staring at the ground by his feet, he wanted a better look though, so he kept his eyes locked on her face for as long as he could and as if she felt his burning stare, she finally looked up from his traveling shoes, to his eyes.

They were locked on one another.

She wasn't sure why she felt the need to stare, her mother had taught her better than that.

A tap on her shoulder had her snap out of her mind and around to face the person whom the finger belonged to. The coach stared down at her with questioning eyes, causing her to squint in confusion before she removed a bud from her ear.

"I said I'm sorry, this is a closed practice. No spectators miss..." Asked the well built <a href="">man</a> in all Adidas wear.

"J-Jade..Vice." She stuttered, nerves getting the upper hand.

"Ahh, from the Wakelin Community College Hornets varsity team, right?" Asked the coach. <a href="">Jade</a> nodded shortly before letting her eyes dart over to the jogging team, coincidently landing on Josiah's once again.

"I heard through the grapevine that you'd be joining us soon. I'm Coach Mack. It's nice to meet you." Said the coach holding out his hand for her to shake.

She tore her eyes away once she saw that he was looking right back at her. She wondered if he were staring at her, or the conversation between her and his coach. Looking out in front of her she joined hands with Coach Mack and smiled small.

"Nice to meet you too, Coach." She replied softly.

"You trying out tomorrow afternoon? My girls varsity could really use a good point guard. Emphasis on the "good" part." He asked with a brow raised. Jade smirked dryly. She wasn't so sure she wanted to go through the whole process of joining a team again. She had been snatched right out of her comfort zone and dropped into a brand new life that she knew nothing about.

"I'm not sure I want to this time around..too much I gotta do right now with classes and catching up and what not..I don't know.." She answered with a simple shrug of her shoulders.

"Give it some thought, and if you decide it's what you want..then I'll see you here tomorrow at 2:30pm sharp." He rested a comforting hand on her shoulder, patting it gently. Jade offered him a smiled and nodded.

"Transition's always tough but, you're gonna like it here..and I'd love to have you on our team Miss. Vice." He encouraged. Jade, feeling very conflicted at the moment, only smirked at his words.

"Thanks Coach.." She spoke lowly, almost instantly falling into a depression over the matter. She'd have a new coach, a new team even. Building relationships with people was never her strong point.

Josiah had managed to perfect the art of not seeming like a creep in the time he'd been running laps with his team. His teammate for a year, <a href="">Ryder</a>, spun around on his heels and began jogging backwards, grabbing Josiah's attention.

"Ey dawg, who's that talkin' with coach? I ain't never seen him so nice, even with girls." He asked eyeing the two bodies in the middle of the court as his face twisted up in confusion. Josiah only shook his head and looked back over to her, thinking that since Ryder was doing it, there was no way he'd look weird doing it as well. He couldn't see her face anymore, only her back and the outline of her small frame. She was tall, but not freakishly tall in his opinion. He judged by the ball tucked underneath her arm that she was a baller, which immediately caught his attention when he first laid eyes on her.

"I don't even know man. Look like she a baller though." He breathed trying to pace himself and speak to his friend, who shrugged and returned to his jog, spinning on his feet to face the front once again.

Jade locked eyes with him for what must had been the fourth time now. She couldn't deny that from where he was he looked absolutely gorgeous. His glistening caramel complexion and tattoos really did wonders for him. His toned legs and defined biceps really had her taking second looks. He had almost all of her attention.

"Give it some still gotta go though. It's still a closed practice." Smiled Coach Mack. Jade pulled her eyes off of the boy and focused on the man, delivering a light hearted chuckle and a nod.

"See you around Coach." She paid one last look at the team and then the last runner, catching his eyes yet again before she turned on the heels of her shoes and trailed out of the gym at a smooth pace.

From what she could gather the coach was a cool and down to earth man. He was young, and vibrant with every word he spoke. She liked that.

Josiah watched as she retreated out of the gym. Her long flowing dark hair sweeping her cheeks as she moved with a calm he hadn't seen anyone walk with in a while. He wondered what her story was, knowing by the way she looked at him, that she has one.

"Ey Coach can we stop man?!" Yelled a tired Ryder. The coach laughed and blew on his whistle, signaling for them to stop and meet in the middle of the court to do some stretching.

"Ey Coach who was that fine piece of tail you was talkin' to?" Asked another of Josiah's of teammates and friend, <a href="">Dev</a>. Coach Mack threw him a look.

"A piece of tail you will never get to Devon, so hush." He told him. The gym was then filled with laughter. Josiah had to laugh himself.

"I see you Coach.." Muttered Dev with a sour look.

"Nah but for real though Coach..who she be?" asked Josiah with curiosity written in the creases of his forehead. Coach Mack looked over at the captain of the senior varsity team and smirked.

"I'm surprised you don't already know." He said. The boys all looked at one another with confusion.

"Jade Vice. Former point guard for the Wakelin Community College Hornets. She transferred from there last week. She's well known back where she's from." He told them, watching as they switched stretches.

"Which is?" Asked Ryder.

"Brooklyn." He replied.

"Woo..damn! Shorty came a long way dawg. From Brooklyn to Atlanta?" Spoke Dev. Josiah's eyebrows raised in slight surprise. That was quite a random change in scenery. Shaking his head, he also shook her out of his thoughts knowing he had better things to worry about.

"Aight, aight enough with that talk. Let's go everybody to the base line! I want suicides let's go!" Said the coach as he blew his whistle and watched the boys jog to the base line, ready to work hard.

"We got our first game of the school year on Friday! Exactly one week! First game of the semester! And I want a win! So we gon' work! Let me see y'all put in work!" His yells echoed throughout the gym as he strolled along the half way line with his hands behind his back. The teams feet pounded against the wooden floors leaving skid marks at every line.

As Jade stood outside the gym she was immediately met with the fresh air of the day, the breeze was calm and sun was bright and high in the afternoon sky. The campus was flooded with students mingling and horse playing with each other in their groups. Jade stood there, alone and in her own world as she looked over everything in front of her. This was the view of her life now. Things were so different from her city life.

Digging into her pants pocket, she pulled out the folded paper with the directions to her dorm room and the blueprint to the college campus. She read over the title at the top of the page.

<em>Welcome to University of Atlanta!</em>

Groaning internally, she began to move in the direction which she hoped was right and would take her to her dormitory.

<em>"Let the drummer kick, let the drummer kick that.."</em>


I'm annoyed with you gonna help someone if you cant help yourself and then tryna make her and his sister to be friends SMH annoyed and his attitude is getting old real fast...

Lol they are sooo awkward but somehow it's cute lmao.

I'd wish Breanna would just roll over and die already.

Run it!

"You guys win?" Asked Jade breaking the silence that had fallen over them for minutes now. Josiah looked up with a toothy grin.

"Yeah, 13 points from ya boy." He said c**kily. Jade chuckled.

"Nice." She smiled.

"Y'all got a game on Monday night right?" He asked. Jade nodded yes.

"Yeah." She smirked.

"You hype?" He smiled. Jade smirked feeling her mood change from dark to light.

"Pretty much. First game at a new school. Kinda nervous though." She chuckled.

"Ah, I was hella nervous too. It'll be cool though, the adrenaline will take that ass over." He said earning a laugh from Jade.

Josiah grinned at the sound of her laugh. He had never heard it before.

"You got dimples?" He asked surprised when he saw one form on the left cheek of her face.

"Just one." She smirked, the dimple disappeared back under her skin.

"Never noticed before." He said.

"That's because you didn't want to.." She responded.

Josiah said nothing as he finished up the last of his food.

"So what's the story behind your eyes?" Asked Jade out of the blue. Josiah looked up confused by her question.

"What you mean?" He asked her. Jade gave him a soulful look.

"I mean, you know my secrets..what's one of yours? For instance what's up with that whole "incapable of love" thing you got going on?" She asked pushing her empty plate forward.

Josiah sat back in his seat looking elsewhere for a moment with a lazy smirk on his face. He wasn't looking to share stories with Jade even if they were on better terms now; they still weren't close enough for him to want to voluntarily.

"Don't read into it, ma." He said trying to end the subject.

Jade rolled her eyes slightly annoyed.

"You practically know my entire life and you can't even tell me that iddy biddy little secret?" She spoke slightly sad that he couldn't find it in his heart to trust her the way she had him.

"It's different. It's not cause I don't trust you, I just don't wanna talk about it right now." He said trying to be nice.

Jade said nothing as she studied him quietly. There was definitely something hiring his soul, but he was great at hiding it which made it difficult for her to point out. She didn't want to push him, but she was a little offended that he wouldn't tell her anything about himself. She thought that they were making progress.

Josiah could feel her stripping through his soul trying to get to the bottom of him.

"I got an older sister.." He blurted out.

"She's 22, goes here. Studying fashion." He continued. Jade would have never thought he had any siblings. He seemed like an only child with the way that he carried himself.

"She pretty dope. Y'all two would probably click more then you and I." He chuckled, so did Jade.

"To have to meet another person like you would drive me" She joked earning a giggle from Josiah.

His phone buzzed with a text message. He reached into his pocket and pulled it out to reply.

Jade watched him with curious eyes. She caught the smirk on his face and the way he shifted in his seat as he read over his message and immediately assumed it was a girl, judging from the sly look on his face.

"Onto the next?" She voiced, sipping on her orange juice. Josiah didn't bother looking up at her and kept the grin on his face.

"I'm a single man now. Time to get back to me. Besides, I owe it to myself after a year of Brianna crazy ass." He rolled his eyes. Jade scoffed in agreement.

"So, you just gonna do the whole hit it and quit it, have a different girl for everyday of the week thing now?" Smiled Jade.

Josiah looked up at her wondering why she even cared.

"Is she programmed into your phone under Saturday?" She chuckled. Josiah smacked his lips.

"None of ya business, girl. At the end of the day I'm a free man. I'll hit any girl I want no problems--"

"Please. Spare me." Begged Jade dryly, not in any mood to hear Josiah flaunt about his new status which consisted of the many women on campus.

"I'm just sayin'--"

"I'm just sayin' you're a free man for now, until Brianna finds out and kills every other girl on campus and then you're forced to get back with her because she's the only one left.." Spoke Jade pointing to her bruised face.

Josiah thought about what she said as he eyed the bruise under her eye. He knew he'd have to keep his business away from Brianna's ears to avoid the drama.

"These didn't appear because I fell down the steps." She spoke calmly, but just below the surface, Jade wanted to murder Brianna herself for putting her hands on her.

"Yeah.." Josiah muttered under his breath.

He knew he needed to put Brianna in her place before she took things even further than she already had.

Josiah stuck a fork full of food into his mouth and chewed quietly, resting a finger which belonged to the hand holding his fork, on his chin. He eyed Jade's face and the bruises and scratches on it before looking back down to his plate. Her eye was a little swollen and blue underneath, but not enough to alarm anyone. Her lip was busted at the corner, and there was a dark bruise on the inside of her bicep that peeked just around her arm.

He shifted uncomfortably in his seat.

"You take care of them injuries on ya face yet?" He asked. Jade kept her eyes on her plate of food as she swallowed her eggs.

"As much as I could without irritating them. My eye wasn't as bad as I thought it was. My back is what hurts the most." She said. Josiah grew concerned.

"You shouldn't be running then, ma." He said. Jade shifting under his gaze.

She began to feel small again.

<em>Jade stood in the bathroom mirror, staring at her battered reflection. She felt nothing for herself, no appreciation, no love and no respect. Those feelings had disappeared the night everything was taken from her. A single tear ran down her face as she blinked. The pain from the sudden movement with her eye had caused her to wince. It was swollen shut.</em>

<em>"...Disgusting." She spat harshly at herself.</em>

"Vice?" Called Josiah for the third time. The girl in front of him seemingly lost somewhere in her mind, sat in front of him with an empty look suddenly.

"Sorry." She muttered.

"Get out ya head, ma." He said while scooping up some more food on his fork. Jade shook her head wishing she could.

"It's not that easy." She said.

"Never said it would be, but you gotta try." He replied. She sighed and rested her fork down on her plate.

"I can't just..pretend to be okay when I'm not Josiah and I can't just distract myself forever. I mean I may just have to take those pills out of the garbage when I get back to my room." Released Jade growing frustrated. Josiah's brow rose in question.

"You threw your pills out?" He asked in surprise.

"I promised myself I would try. That was me trying." She admit. Josiah had to admit that he was a bit proud of her for going that far.

"I wasn't expecting you to do all that." He voiced. Jade sniffed.

" neither. My mind keeps f***in' with me though. They may not be in there for long. Just know that I am trying." Said Jade.

Josiah noted her change of attitude and he too rested his fork down.

"I know that..but this distracting you thing seems to be working for you. Aight? So don't give up yet." He said. Jade eyed him momentarily before nodding. Josiah picked up his fork and resumed filling his stomach.

He was right, for the most part it was working.

"You gotta start somewhere right? This is a start." He said shoving food into his mouth.

Jade looked deep into his eyes.

"Why are you even helping me?" She asked the number one question on her mind.

"I knew you was gon' ask me that." He chuckled lightly.

"I'm serious. Why? Is it because you pity me?--"

"No. Damn girl, nah..Relax, I just want to help. You ain't got no one else; at least it seems that way. You need a friend right now--"

"Two days ago you didn't even want to be my friend." She countered.

"Yeah well, I changed my mind. I'm allowed to do that." He eyed her holding his fork in hand.

They sat there calculating each other.

"....just tell me when man, I can change it back--"

"Don't try that with me--"

"Look all you gotta do is tell me straight up you don't want my help. Simple." Jade rolled her eyes at his words.

"Look, I just don't want you to feel like you have to do this for me Josiah. That's all I'm trynna say." Spoke Jade shrugging her shoulders.

"And I just want you to see that I'm just trynna be ya friend and help you through this...ain't that what friends do?" He exclaimed earning a smirk from Jade.

"Yes." She breathed.

"Aight. So enough of that then. Just learn to trust me in the meantime aight? I ain't got no reason to hurt you." He said to Jade who simply nodded and went back to eating her meal.

She was especially hungry after her morning jog around campus. Josiah watched her in wonderment.

"Why do you eat so much? Ain't girls supposed to eat like only half a bagel and lemon water with umbrellas in em and s***?" Asked Josiah trying to lighten her mood, swallowing his pancakes drenched in syrup. Jade was almost disgusted with the amount he used.

"What are you five? Of course not, I just have an athletic appetite." She answered cutting into her buttered waffles with whipped cream on top.

"Yet you have like no meat on your bones..don't get me wrong you got curves but like, you still skinny." He pointed out eyeing her exposed arms. Jade rolled her eyes slightly.

"You're trynna talk about skinny right now?" She scoffed.

Josiah took slight offense to her words and looked up his arms examining himself.

"Whatever." He said mean mugging her.

Yay! RUN IT!

I'm so happy she opened up to someone about what happened -- I really think this is gonna be good for her and Josiah as well.
Run It!!

run it!!


nice story really love that jade and josiah are becoming friends! run!!!

Awww shiiieett Josiah and Jade getting breakfast together. eating out and getting to know each other. mhmmm i like this :)
I sense a love connection coming onnn!
Josiah and Jade are lovers and they don't even know it *futures voice* lol
RUN ITTTT!!!!!!!!

Thanks for the love guys, I've been adding like crazy these days. I don't have to work this week :) Vacation is the sweetest! Anyway! Love y'all. Run for me and I'll run for you!

Much Love.

thoughts ;p

"EY!" He hollered from across the way watching her jog at a light pace. His calling seemed to go unnoticed and it was the headphones over her ears that made him realize that she couldn't hear him.

After a quick curse word Josiah jogged after her in a hurry to catch up before she got too far from him. He tapped her from behind and she screamed nearly jumping out of her skin.

"Josiah! Jesus! I'm off my meds don't sneak up on me like that!" Yelled Jade as she clutched her chest and removed her headphones from over her ears to around her neck. Josiah chuckled at her reaction.

"My bad ma, you couldn't hear me, I was callin'!" He defended himself pointing in the direction of where he once stood.

Jade caught her breath and rested her hands on her hips trying to rid herself of the cramp in her chest and the shaking in her fingers.

"Oh, we'll then my bad. What's up?" She asked.

"Chillin'. I thought you uh, had somewhere to go early this morning--"

"Yeah I did, but plans got cancelled last minute, so I decided to keep myself busy for the day." She replied.

Josiah rose a brow.

"By runnin' laps all day?" He questioned curiously. He knew she had to distract herself from her mind but he didn't want her to run herself into the ground trying to do it.

"Well...yeah." Answers Jade unsurely. Josiah chuckled.

"Vice." He said.

"What?!" She exclaimed.

"You can't run around doin' laps and doin' exercises all're gonna run yourself into a coma dude." He smiled. Jade frowned when she realized he was right.

"Well I don't know what else to do!" She said her voice raising a few octaves.

Josiah wanted to laugh, but held it in.

He thought for a moment looking around campus for nothing in particular. Jade eyed him, waiting for words.

"Aight well, I was about to go and get a workout in, but I'll scratch that off my list until later, 'cause I'm pretty hungry. You wanna go eat somethin'?" Proposed Josiah.

Jade was a little surprised, not only because he wanted to hang out with her, but because he had asked her to hang out with him.

"Uh...sure?" She breathed. Josiah chuckled at her reaction. He was shocked himself that he had asked her to go for breakfast.

Just a few days ago he wouldn't even say a word to her.

But he didn't want her to be alone and wind up having a breakdown that would cause her to fall back into the arms of her medication. He wanted her to have the chance to be herself and live with without it.

"Aight let's go. I know a place not too far off campus." He smirked showcasing his dimples.

Jade smiled back and fell into step with him as they headed off campus.

Jogging against the paved way Jade moved through campus at a slow pace, exercising her legs. She let the music bring her mind to peace as the warm wind beat gently against her cheeks as she ran.

Josiah walked through campus with his headphones on and his workout gear stuffed in his gym bag. He watched all over campus at the few amount of other students enjoying their morning. He loved how quiet campus was over the weekends, almost everyone had either went off to visit families or friends.

He walked at a slow pace, bobbing his head to his music and texting his latest interest that he had met the same day he broke up with Brianna. He knew he wasn't going to take things far with her, he only wanted someone to have casual sex with and both he and his interest were okay with that.

Because to him, love didn't exist in his heart anymore, or at least right now.

<a href="">Josiah</a> locked his phone after sending a quick text back and looked over to his right. He wondered about Jade as he was passing the field where they held their first conversation together and couldn't help but smirk. He had to admit that being her friend wasn't bad at all; it wasn't nearly as hard as he thought it would be.

He hadn't seen of heard anything from Brianna since last night. He shook his head thinking back to the moment he saw her and two other girls fighting against a defenseless Jade.

"Crazy b****es.." He breathed, shoving his hands into the pockets of his track pants.

His gaze fell upon a figure all too familiar to him. There was Jade running across the way in a random direction. The tight shorts she wore clung nicely and fittingly to her toned legs, showing off curves that Josiah never thought she owned. Though her chest was sporting what looked to be a B cup, he never felt the need to hold that against her.

He was impressed with what he saw.

I was so sure she was gonna take the pills. Throw them away tho? I'm lowkey fearful of this day for Jade lol. Hope we have a better day than the one before.

Run it!!

<a href="">Jade</a> woke up, but laid still in her comfortable bed. Her ringing phone caused her to leave her peaceful dream and wake up to answer it. Groggily she reached out for her cell and answered it, her eyes closed shut the whole time.

"Hello.........yeah, no I'm up......................serious?................aight....nah it's whatever I'll just..see y'all Monday night at the game then.......aight. Love you too ma. Kiss daddy for me...okay bye." She hung up with her mother exhaling tiredly.

"Now what do I do?" She complained to herself quietly. She was disappointed that her parents had cancelled on her, she was looking forward to spending more time with them; she missed them.

She rose her head up and peeled open one eye to see if Tina was in bed, but finding her bed neatly made reminded Jade that she too left campus on weekends to see her family.

"s***." She cursed. Looking like she'd have to make new plans, Jade conjured up new options in her head.

Without her family there to keep her distracted she knew she's have to do something quick. Jade swung her legs over the edge of her bed and planted them firmly on the cool floor beneath her. She rested her elbows on her knees and her face in her hands while she thought. Josiah ran through her brain for a moment before he disappeared, she shook her head not able to get over the fact that yesterday had really happened. She hadn't taken a look at her face yet, but it hurt and she secretly feared for the aftermath of it.

"Crazy b****es." She mumbled under her breath looking around her room at nothing in particular. Her phone's 9:30am alarm went off; she grabbed it and shut it off.

Lazily, she grabbed her pills out of her bag and eyed them carefully, thinking about what to do with them.

Signing and coming to terms, she fixed her hands into shooting form and shot the bottle right into the garbage can across the room.

Jade then rose from her bed and grabbed a few of her necessary toiletries before heading to the bathroom to start her day.

Yo those adds gave me sooo much life!!! Soo good. And I'm proud of Jade for realizing her strength!

i love jade and josiah relationship its adorable!!! run it!!!

yo , im hooked
run it!

All I can say is "WOW!!"



I just sat here and imagined I was Jade beating the hell out of Brianna, she pisses me off bro I was just imagining killing her.

so proud of jade!! and so happy her and Josiah are now friends..he is gonna be that support system that she needs in order to get through this! LOVE IT..RUNNNN

So glad Jade finally clocked Brianna! hahaa anyhow I was hoping Josiah would help rescue her and he did and i give jade props for opening up about being raped.
I'm glad they're friends now too so they can continue to support one another.
I'm starting to like Josiah more and more. He aint that bad
Run itttt!

Awwwwwwww, I'm so happy for Vice! Brianna and her girls are definitely going to get theirs! RUN IT!

"So..I mean you seem to be doin' okay right now. How you feel?" Asked Josiah nervously as they lay there in the field watching the skies. His hands rested behind his head while Jade's rested on her tummy. They still trembled, but not half as bad as before.

Somehow she had managed to calm down.

"I'm doin' okay for the time being I guess..keepin' myself distracted helps." Said Jade her smirk lingered.

"What else helps?" He questioned curiously. He wanted to know if there were other ways he could help.

"," She answered. Josiah kept that in mind.

"Well looks like we gon' have to keep you seriously distracted until you can manage without em." He replied.

Jade didn't know how to thank him.

"I mean, you ain't trynna take your meds no more right?" He asked. Jade thought about it for a moment.

"No. I know when I take it, I'm just numbing myself. It's like I'm too chill when I'm on's not normal. I want to manage without the Prozac." Said Jade with determination. Josiah nodded.

"One day at a time, ma." He spoke knocking his shoe with hers. Jade knew it would take time, they both did.

But she was ready and willing to work at it. And with a friend there to help her out, she knew she'd finally have someone there to help her cope.

"So it isn't so bad being friends with me is it?" She asked. Josiah chuckled. He would admit that she was cool, even without the medication.

"You ain't so bad." He shrugged trying to play it off though he couldn't hide the smirk.

"Yeah. You aight." She admit.

"I'm gonna get going. Gotta head outta here early in the morning." Said Jade as she sat up slowly and then stood to her feet cautious of her back. Her hand cradled it softly, sure not to press on her skin.

Josiah caught her wincing and hopped to his feet, worried she was hurt.

"You aight? You get hurt?" He asked eyeing her from the feet up. Jade smirked at how quick he was to react to her pain. Just a day ago he wanted nothing to do with her.

"I'm good, just had a hard fall when they knocked me on my ass, I'll be fine."She said.

"You know you could press charges on them girls right?" Asked Josiah. He wished she would.

"Nah, I don't want that kind of drama in my life right now. I'm good." She told him waving him off before she slowly walked off.

"So you ain't gon' tell me where you goin' tomorrow? Even after I done became your friend?!" Yelled Josiah from behind her. She noted the smile in his voice. She stopped and turned to face him.

"Only best friends get those kinds of answers!" She smirked standing there. Josiah chuckled and shook his head. As she went to walk off again Josiah made to call her out again.

"Ey Vice!" She turned lazily this time with a tired look on her face.

"Congratulations. You were strong enough make it twenty four hours without ya pills.." He grinned shoving his hands into the pockets of his jacket.

Realization hit Jade like a ton of bricks and the smile snuck up on her face. She turned around quickly trying to hide the smile from Josiah and continued her walk to her dorm.

She sighed in content, knowing she was in fact strong enough.

i kno you can do it vice hang in there
run it

"I'm probably gonna be kicked off of the team now." She chuckled.

"Don't worry about all that. And Brianna gon' get hers." Spoke Josiah, still upset about her trying to jump Jade. As much as he and Jade butt heads, he never wanted to see that happen to her.

"Yeah. How did you put up with that for a year?" Asked Jade in confusion. Josiah smacked his lips.

"Man, I didn't even recognize her when I came out there and saw all that. She done changed on a nigga. I'm so done with her ass, I swear." He shook his head using one hand to play with the blades of grass.

"What am I supposed to do when I see her now? What if she tries me again?" Asked Jade. The last thing she wanted to do was lose her spot on the team.

"Be strong, and ignore her. Show her and yourself that you have strength way beyond her and your medication." Advised Josiah.

Jade nodded as silence fell over them.

"This isn't gonna be easy Josiah, I'm practically goin' cold turkey. This is an obstacle for me." Admit Jade. She didn't want to force him into being her friend and she didn't want him here out of pity because of what happened to her.

"I know--"

"I mean I never got the chance to really live with my loss--"

"I know. Vice, I's cool. I ain't gon' hound you every second, I'm sayin' you ever wanna talk imma be there. That's all." Explained Josiah.

Sighing, Jade took a seat on the ground slowly, wincing as her spine curved with the movement. Gently she rested on the ground pulling her knees into her chest and resting her arms around them. Josiah followed her to the ground and sat cross legged in front of her ready to know her story.

"My parents moved to Atlanta, because my father got a promotion at an office here. I was against the idea of moving, so I stayed back with my grandma. We were close me and her, she was my best friend. Things were good, I had a life, friends, no enemies." She whispered. Josiah nodded, listening intently.

"One night, my grandma and I were watching a movie like we did every Tuesday. I decided to sleep early that night because of this stupid hated watching movies by herself so she decided to call it a night too, but she stayed downstairs to clean up before heading upstairs. I was about to shut my eyes not even ten minutes later, when I heard her scream....and then shots went off.." She wiped her tears.

"I called the cops, and ran downstairs to get her when I saw him there...and my grandma..dead on the floor in front of the door." Jade shook her head trying to shake the memory of her grandmothers lifeless eyes.

Josiah couldn't believe what he was hearing.

"He saw me and chased me up the stairs, into my room. I fought him off as long as I could. At one point I knocked him out and when I went to leave the house I heard someone else, so I hid under the table in the ended up being a cop. He tried to help me, but the guy caught him off guard and he sh...he shot him. In the head." Jade said.

Josiah cringed in disgust.

"He beat me up before he raped me...and as he was leaving another cop came in and shot him dead." She finished. Josiah wanted to hold her, he wanted to console her and apologize for his words.

Had he known the reason behind her depression he would have never butt in.

"They said his name was Frank Doverman. He was brought up on all kinds of charges before me..He didn't have any connection to us he just..did what he did. I was picked at random."

"My parents got the call as soon as it happened so they flew me out to Atlanta to live with them until I was better, because they felt like it was better for me. I fell into depression for about two weeks. I couldn't look myself in a mirror. I attempted suicide once, but I didn't cut deep enough...they put me on watch until they finally decided that medication was the way. I responded well to it, no tantrums, no dark clouds just..a straight novacane feeling over my heart." She explained further.

"I can't even remember who I am without them, before the depression I mean. The pills they help, because they make me forget and they make me feel okay..and normal. They allow me to feel the loss and understand it in a better way. Without them..I don't know what to do with myself." She finished.

"Then why would you stop taking them if you knew you couldn't handle it, ma?" Asked Josiah confused.

"Because you had the guts to break up with I thought that I could do this too. I didn't think it was still gonna be like this." She answered sadly.

"I'm sorry, had I known I wouldn't have even bothered you." He said feeling guilty, scratching behind his head. Jade shook her head.

"..I'm glad you did. Because now I know...I'm not strong at all." She shrugged simply coming to terms with the fact that she would be living with medication for the rest of her life.

Josiah looked up into her eyes. He read the sadness that lived there. He still felt like somewhere in her she had the strength to be okay without her medication, she just needed help getting over her struggles.

"Don't give up so easily." He advised her. Jade looked into his eyes for the first time in days. Noting the seriousness in them, she pulled away from his gaze and searched her mind for strength.

She couldn't figure out where to start. How to return to her sanity and leave behind her depression without her medication.

"I can't do this by myself." She replied shaking her head, unable to stop the shaking of her fingers.

Josiah followed her gaze down to her trembling fingers and his eyebrows sunk into his forehead. He exhaled softly. Jade couldn't do this without moral support and he knew that.

She needed a friend and at that moment, he was all she had.

He reached over and closed his hand over hers stopping the shaking instantly. Jade looked up feeling the warmth of his palm over her hands. His comfort ceased her trembling.

"You gon' need a friend so..." He said trying to act nonchalant about his offer, though inside he was nervous for a reason unknown.

This earned a smile from Jade, the first one of the day.

"Yeah." She replied, her smile slowly fading. She licked her lips and looked down to her hands covered by his.

"I'm sorry for your loss, I know it's not easy." Said Josiah offering his condolences.

"Thank you Josiah." She replied. To him it may have seemed like a small thanks, but to Jade it was much bigger than that. He was helping her cope for the moment and she truly grateful.

She can't sit there and blame Josiah for that. She was the one who didn't take them. And he's right, she shouldn't have let him get into her head if she wasn't ready to be without them. It's extremely sad what happened to her. but I feel its a lil unfair for her to make Josiah out to be the bad guy here. I truly hope she gets herself together.

I hope Jade pulls through this!! From the flashbacks, it seems like she had a traumatic experience. Rape is such a horrible thing!! That s*** sickens me. Brianna is a f***ing b****!! She know Josiah breaking up with her crazy ass ain't nothing to do with Jade. She been starting stuff with her from the jump. And from the jump she needed to be put in her place. And her and her lil b**** ass flunkies tryna jump somebody! FOH!! I'm glad Jade got one good hit on her to show her, she wasn't playing!!