I lied still, staring up at the ceiling; the feelings of regret and shame ever so present in my soul as I looked over to Michael, who lay peacefully sleeping, exhausted from what we just encountered.
I sighed to myself, already disappointed that somehow he was able to get me in his bed, again. Only for the next day and the rest of the week to more than likely not hear from him. I don't know how I always end up in this compromising position, but each time I would hope that something would change. That he actually meant the words he said and really wanted this to be more.
But he never did.
I swallowed the last bit of pride I could muster and carefully removed myself from the bed, ensuring that I didn't wake him.
I threw on my clothes that I had worn to the party that night in haste, and hurried out of his room, making my way downstairs and exiting his house.
He had driven us over here because I rode with my roommates to the party. I kicked myself realizing the time and that the buses stopped running this late. I was in for a long walk home.
The walk could give me some time to clear my head, and truly annualize what all this meant, or just to ridicule myself for not listening to my Better Judgment in the first place.
He was always my Better Judgment.
He gave me that warning look, that he always gives before I run off somewhere with Michael. My hopeless romantic ass always would anyway. Thinking maybe, this time would end differently for me.
I cursed to myself as I continued to walk a fast and steady pace to my house near campus. I wasn't as alarmed as I normally would be walking in the city at this time of night. There was a calm over me.
Just as the feeling came, my phone vibrated against my palm.
I looked at the screen, seeing the goofy pic of him and I as the caller ID for his number. A sigh of relief escaped my lips before I answered it.
"Where you at man! I check ya room and you still not home. It's 3 AM Quinn.." He nagged before I even had a chance to speak.
"Walking on 4th-" I was soon cut off.
"His punk ass got you..." He paused, I assumed taking a deep breath. "I'm on my way."
The call ended and I frowned bracing myself for the lecture to come once I got picked up.
Within five minutes his car pulled up beside me, as I reached a stopped sign on the sidewalk. I looked over at his car worriedly as he rolled the window down.
"You better get in this car girl.." He smirked while reaching his arm over to open the door for me. I smiled softly before hopping inside. Internally grateful not to have to be on my feet any longer.
I flashed him a fake smile before burying my head deep in my hood and looking out the window. Finally letting the lone tear escape my eye.
Chris was always there to save me in my time of trouble and despair. Maybe if I actually listened to him more often, I wouldn't always end up in this position.
I was thankful for my Better Judgment however, no matter how much I ignored his advice.
"..Wanna talk about it?" He finally asked, breaking the silence that had consumed the vehicle. I shook my head wearily.
I could see him give a nod of understanding through my peripheral vision and allowed the silence to consume us once more.
We reached our house, and Chris pulled up in the alley that led to our backyard to park in the makeshift driveway. He gave a loud and obnoxious yawn while turning the car off as I crossed my eyes at the annoying habit.
We stepped out of the car and I swiftly went to the back door, trying to avoid any glares from Chris about the decision I made tonight.
The house was dark, meaning our other two roommates had retreated to their rooms for the evening.
Good, I thought to myself. Last thing I wanted to hear was their mouths on top of Chris' daggers of disappointing looks.
I didn't wait for Chris to enter before I went upstairs to my room and instantly began stripping my layers of clothing, preparing to wash off all memory of tonight in the shower.
I grabbed my towel and the clothes I planned to wear and waltzed into our bathroom. After my shower, I felt more calm and relaxed and ready to put this Friday night behind me.
As I entered the room, I wasn't at all shocked to see Chris sleeping peacefully on 'his side' of my bed. He was the biggest baby whenever he came home and I wasn't there. Always wanted to be up under me to make sure I was safe and not leave his sight. He's been protective of me like that since we were little.
I shook my head before tossing my towel and dirty clothes in the hamper and jumping into my side of my bed. Chris instantly draped his arm over my torso, careful not to pull me close.
"Goodnight Quinn. Luh you." He said softly while getting himself more comfortable.