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"We're finally seniors,"<a href="">I</a> said excitedly to my girl Sharnique as we walked to first period together.

"Girl tell me about it! we finally here!!! Did you finally tell Marcus about how you felt," she asked.
"No I haven't got around to that yet...why?"
"He was talking to me this morning about how he was going on a date this weekend and i thought it was know he likes you,"<a href="">she</a> said as we walked in class and took our seats.
"That's bullsh** and you know it! how is it that he talks to you but don't even talk to me?...I just don't get it."
"Maybe he's shy can't expect everyone to step up to you."
"Its not that easy to talk to a guy who looks at you like you disgust him or something....and you call that being shy?"
She sighed. "Natalie I really think you're just overreacting about all of this."

Before I could say anything back to that class had begun with our teacher passing the syllabus around as she talked about what her expectations were for music class this year. My thoughts were all over the place to even pay attention to Ms. Woods...I just find it funny that Marcus talks to all of my friends with no problem but with me its like i don't exist. I just wish i knew why.


Man!! Rih was about to get her ass beat! No thirsty ass b**** you cannot get a hug! Damn f*** outchea! Ooooo! Me and my boo in my boo coupe ridin'! Lol, he ain't have to ask me twice shiiiittt!! That's afree f***ing meal. Yay!!!! London got her man back! I'm so happy they're back together. Hallelujah! Uh-ohhhh! What is it Aminah....I hope Drew don't trip out and leave. I really like them together. Lol, Chris done got my boo sick! Oh s***! He can cook....Nat don't leave him! He's a keeper. Rih ain't about to try s*** if she know what's good for her. Sharnique should be a reason not to f*** with us.....I mean the b**** on crutches! Oh no! So much f***ing drama.....Tyler what did you do?? Ugh!
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“Man come on Rih lets go,” Sharnique said making sure not to make any eye contact with us. Rih looked at me one last time before she spoke.
“This aint over by a long shot,” she spat as she tried to make her way around me to get to Chris as I blocked her.
“The exit sign is behind you…I don’t think you want me to escort you out,” I said as she looked over my shoulder at Chris.
“Chris can I at least get a hug,” she asked with pleading eyes.
“You heard what she said Rih….i don’t appreciate you disrespecting her when she aint done sh*t to you this conversation is done you’re dismissed have a nice f******* life,” Chris spat at her. It looked like she wanted to say something to Chris but instead she stormed off with Sharnique in tow.


“Hey yall wanna go get something to eat,” Rissa fine a** asked as Natalie sneezed.
“Bless you,” we all said backing away from her as she eyed Chris.
“On that note how about you and I go grab something to eat and get better acquainted Natalie don’t look to good,” I said to Rissa as Natalie playfully punched my arm.
“Yall two lovebirds go get to know one another I’m going home,” Natalie said sniffing as Chris and her said their goodbyes leaving as everyone else left too leaving me and Rissa.
“So… gon leave me hanging,” I smirked at her.
“No why would I turn down a free meal,” she said laughing.
“Oh….shawty got jokes I see its cool,” I said laughing with her before I continued. “I wouldn’t let you pay anyways even if you tried,” I said to her as we headed to my car.
“Why is that? you just met me,” she said looking over at me as opened the passenger door of my car for her as she got in.
“Because I’m a gentleman and treat women with respect….especially a beautiful girl like yourself. And also because I’ve taken interest in you and want to see where things will go only if you’d like,” I said looking over at her while I waited for the light to turn green.
She smiled. “I’d like that a lot.”
I smiled a little myself at the thought of us getting to know one another. She was beautiful and secretly mine. There’s just something about her.


I had just made it home from the talent show which was a success. I’ve never performed in front of people before and it felt really good like this is what I’m supposed to be doing. It just felt right. There was a knock at my door as I went to go answer it.
“Cel?,” I said as I opened the door seeing <a href="">him</a> standing there with his hands shoved in his pockets.
“I miss you,” he said as he moved towards me kissing me passionately as he walked in closing the door behind him.
“I miss you too,” I said breaking the kiss trying to hide my smile.
“where’s your mom and dad,” he asked. He was real close to them even though they were barely around. My mom worked night shifts as a nurse and my dad worked out of town as an architect only coming home on the weekends.
“Dad wont be back until next week he has a big project to work on and mom is out of town in ATL,” I said to him as he nodded.
“Can we talk…..about us?” He asked as I nodded with us heading up to my room shutting the door behind me and sat next to him on my bed.
“First let me start off and say that I forgive you about everything and I’m truly sorry. Things were at fault on both ends and we need to communicate more and be there for each other. I talked to Sean the other day and we’re good and have an understanding between one another. I can’t go on another day without you by my side…I want my Lon back,” he confessed as I smiled.
“I’m sorry Cel for my actions and they were wrong and shouldn’t have happened. This situation can only make us stronger and closer. I love you Cel,” I said as he kissed me while holding me close. It felt so good to be in his arms again.

<a href="" target="_blank">Aminah</a>

“Aye you cheated!!!” I said to <a href="">Drew</a> as I pouted folding my arms.
“Aw po lil tink tink,” he said laughing kissing me on the cheek. “Maybe next time.”
We were at the park and had played one on one in basketball with the score being 19-22. We were sitting down on the swings cooling off.
“You couldn’t even keep up with me,” he said laughing a bit. “You’ve done gained a some weight since the last time I saw you…you still look good though.”
I smiled but soon it faded. I hadn’t been out here in California in about a year because I’ve been going through a lot and keeping secrets from everyone including London. I’m not sure how everyone is going to take the news but I had to do what I had to do.
“What you thinking about,” he asked taking me out my thoughts.
“Oh nothing nothing….but I do have a question,” I told him.
“Whats up?”
“Will you come out to Atlanta with me next month I just need to pick up some things and I don’t want to go by myself,”
“Sure sure…I don’t mind just let me know when,” he said as I nodded. Drew and I were becoming more serious about each other and this is something I cant keep in any longer. I just hope he doesn’t flip out.


“I’m hot,” Natalie exclaimed as she started yanking off her clothes leaving her in just her bra and some boy shorts. She was laying on my bed as I came out my bathroom from taking a shower. I already had my boxers on so I went to my dresser and put on some pajama pants.
“Well if you stop talking maybe you’ll cool off,” I said to her putting on a white beater as she threw one of my pillows at me pouting.
“Chris!!!” She said glaring at me while trying not to sneeze.
“ah..ahhh Chooooo!!!!!” She sneezed as her hair went all over her head. “You got me sick.”
“I’m sorry baby,” I cooed as I went over towards her side and checked her temperature. I wasn’t feeling good myself but it seemed like she’s feeling way worse than what I am. My nose was just a bit stuffed up.
“Baby you’re burning up….imma go warm you up some gumbo I made last night and give you some medicine.” I said as I kissed her forehead multiple times and headed downstairs seeing my mom in the sketching in her notebook. My mom an artist/fashion designer and runs her own business.
“hey ma,” I said kissing her on the cheek as I grabbed a bowl out of the cabinet.
“Heard the good news,” she said smiling at me as I grinned from ear to ear.
“She’s finally mine ma after all this time,” I said sitting down next to her at the island as I waited for the gumbo to heat up.
“Im proud of you both now give me some grandbabies,” she said laughing and I stared at her blankly.
“I’m just playing boy but I’m happy to see you two together. She way better than that girl I cant hardly understand,” she said as I chuckled.
“Her and Nat kind of exchanged words after the talent show tonight asking why did I choose her and calling her names and all that with Sharnique not to far behind her.” I said as the microwave beeped as I got up getting it out grabbing a spoon stirring it up.
“Just be careful Chris…you know Rih would do anything to have you back in her arms to herself. She doesn’t want to see you happy….dont let her ruin it for you….same goes for Natalie.”
I took in her words as I headed back upstairs to tend to my baby. Rihanna has gotten under my skin once luring me back her way and I cant allow that to happen again . Natalie means so much to me…


I was about to call Kiara like I do every night before I go to sleep until I saw her <a href="">picture</a> flash up on my screen as I answered.
“Hey baby,” I said smiling but that soon faded when I heard the tone of her voice.
“Tyler we need to talk,” she said and I knew it was serious since she called me by my first name.. She sounded pissed…I wonder whats going on we were fine earlier….

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Nat finna got ham on them!!! I think Rih is so outta line. Haters much? I think so.
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Awwe sh*t run it !!!!!! Sh*ts getting heated !!!

Ooooooooo!!! I'm so happy for them! Hey Tyga!! Fine ass! Who the f*** Rih and Sharnique think they are?! They ain't s*** compared to Natalie. b****es got me and Jas f***ed up! Just because you on crutches or look like who did it and what for don't mean we won't beat that ass. Just know I want Rihanna to hit her so I can just stomp that b**** face in. I swear I almost broke my laptop again....whew. I might need anger management after this.
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Chris kissed me one last time as he put me down heading off the stage to meet up with everybody as people stayed around talking or leaving out the auditorium.

“Congrats girl,” <a href="">Kiara</a> said as she hugged me.
“Thanks,” I smiled as <a href="">Tyler</a> dapped Chris up.
“Alright man break her heart if you want to and she want happens,” Tyler said as Chris laughed.
“N***a I’m serious af,” he said giving Chris a serious face before he laughed.
“Congrats!!!!!” Tyga said hugging me lifting off the ground as I laughed.

“Hey hey hey get yo paws off my girl,” Chris said jokingly.
“This fam I can do what I want,” he said kissing me all over my face as I laughed and screamed for him to out me down.

“Tyga I want you to meet my girl Rissa…Rissa this is my cousin Tyga,” I said introducing them as he put me down.

“Got d*** girl you fine no disrespect,” he said looking her up and down as she blushed.
“Sexy a**,” she mumbled.
“I heard that sh*t,” he said as they cracked up laughing. I definitely can see them two together as a couple. I took my eyes off Chris and the crew noticing that <a href="">they</a> were staring at me as Rihanna started making her way over with Sharnique not too far behind. Everyone stopped conversing amongst themselves as they followed my gaze.

“What’s up Rih,” Chris said grabbing onto my hand.
“Why her,” she said as I felt my blood boiling as Sharnique stood a lil ways behind her smirking holding on to her crutches.
“TF! She just say,” Rissa said getting riled up as Tyga held her back.
“B**** I suggest you wipe that smirk off yo face before you end up in a wheelchair next along with yo friend,” Jasmine said to Sharnique.
“B**** I haven’t said sh*t to you so shut up talking to me,” Sharnique spat.

Jasmine laughed. “I see b****es wanna be bold cause this trick here,” she said pointing at Rih.
“Ol I cant handle my own lookin a** b****,” Rissa chimed in.
“Ol I’m on crutches scared b**** a**,” Jasmine added as we all doubled over in laughter.

“Chriiiisss are yuh gonna answer my question or what,” Rih asked in her thick accent as she folded her arms. He pulled me close as he kissed me deep in front of her before he answered leaving me breathless….D***

“Because this woman right here is the love of my life, my future, my heart, and do take note that I said WOMAN I don’t have time for little girls,” he said as Rih glared at me.
“Yuh said yuh luv me Chrriss!!!,” she said in tears as Chris chuckled.
“I said I have love FOR you Rih…my love died out the day I found out your a** been around the whole d*** school spreading your legs when I did nothing but be faithful to your a** so you can save the bullsh*t a** crying for someone who gives a F*ck cause I don’t,” he spat.
“I thought we were friends Chrrisss,” she said as tears rolled down her face now.
“That ended when you questioned my d*** relationship with Natalie. We had talked about things and I forgave you for what you’ve done to me plus you already knew about how I felt about Natalie beforehand but I see you still on this bullsh*t.”
“We have history Chris!!! I’m worth more than her!!,” she yelled as some peole stopped and looked on at what was going on.

He shook his head. “See that’s where you’re wrong Rih. Natalie is a jewel inside and out. Priceless beauty in my eyes I might add and the list goes on. Rih you’re a beautiful girl,” he said smirking at Rih as she smiled in returned before he continued.
“But all you’re worth is a good f*ck ,” he finished wiping the smirk off her face as we all laughed.

“F*ck you Chris and that skinny a** b****,” she spat.
“B****,” Jasmine and Rissa said in unison as they tried to get to her but Tyga held Rissa back and Chris grabbed Jasmine as I walked up to her.
“This skinny a** b**** is in yo face…now I double dare you to say that sh*t again to my face…I’d hate to make some rearrangements so I suggest you walk away you and your little puppet b**** behind you,” I said with a smirk as we stared down one another as she balled her fists up. “Try me b**** I’m waiting,” I taunted with a smile.

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About time they got together lol

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About damn time lol RUN IT

OMFG!!! He sung for her!!! That was too cute! I would do something like that forreal. No hiding when I'm around. YAAAAASSSSS!!! Tyga sexy as hell! That's mine.....he just doesn't know it yet.
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Awwww that was to cute yes they together run it

bout time they finally got together.!!!
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bout time they finally got together.!!!
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Awww they are just too cute!!! I'm glad they are finally together and a great they did it!!!
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Awww they are just too cute!!! I'm glad they are finally together and a great they did it!!!
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About damn time!,

“Chris I…”

“Chris nothing you shouldn’t even have to think about it Nat….stop holding yourself back happiness…you deserve to be happy,” I told her as I pulled her closer to me and peck her on the lips a few times as I thought of an idea.


*Couple days later *


“You should definitely go to the talent show Nat,” <a href=""_blank">she</a> said as I rolled my eyes playfully at the thought. Rissa and I had become mad cool since the whole blow up with Sharnique and Marcus. She’s my b****!!! Lol
“Why so I can hook you up with my cousin,” <a href=""_blank">I</a> asked as she playfully pushed me while laughing as we sat outside in my backyard by our pool. My cousin moved into town not too long ago and Rissa had her eyes set on him. His name is Michael or as he likes to be called <a href="">Tyga</a> for reasons I’d rather not know his nasty a** smh.
“D*** right!!! Girl he is fine as f*ck!! Once he meets me he’s mine watch you’ll see,” she said as I laughed. “Now come on so I can go see my man!!!!”
I sighed as I grabbed my keys about to head downstairs until Rissa stopped me.
“You not going up there dressed like that,” she said as I looked down at what I had on.
“What’s wrong with this,” I asked her.
“You need to dress up more especially for ya boo,” she said as I rolled my eyes.
“Chris and I aren’t together”
“Yet,” she interjected. “Which is why I brought over some outfits for you to wear tonight,” She said smiling as she pulled out a few outfits.
“Do I really have to,” I said looking over the choices..I only dressed up if I had to but other than that I dressed very comfortably.
“You don’t have a choice,” she said as she begun dressing me up including make up and hair. When she finished <a href="">I</a> looked at myself in the mirror as I thought about Chris.
“You ready,” Rissa asked bringing me out of my thoughts as I nodded.

We headed downstairs to my"">car</a> my dad brought for me as we headed to the school where the talent show was being held in our auditorium.

The talent show was pretty good so far as I watched <a href="">London</a> do her thing until I felt my phone vibrate. I pulled it out my clutch unlocking it seeing a message from Chris.

C- Where are you? I came by the house and your dad said you’re out with Rissa
N- I’m at the talent show..thought you’d be here =(
C- I was gonna go until I started feeling bad..i think I’m coming down with something. I need you to nurse me back to health ;-)
N- lol ewwww…I don’t want your germs
C- lol well babe gon ahead and enjoy the show and just call me later
N- K!! =)
C- Love you Marie!!! MUAH
N-Love you too Chrissy!!!!

As Chris and I convo ended I clapped for London as she walked offstage as the announcer called up the next performer.

“Alright yall this the last performance of the night. Don’t forget to place your votes in the ballot for who you think the best performer of the night is….The results will be revealed during our morning announcements tomorrow…..please welcome to the stage Breezy!!!!” The announcer said as the lights dimmed down a bit as music started softly playing. My heart stopped when I saw <a href="">him</a> come on stage. I’ve never really heard Chris sing before like I mean he would hum but OMG his voice is beautiful.

When he finished his performance we all stood up and applauded for him as the he asked for us to quiet down.

“Is it alright if I say a few things,” Chris asked looking over at the announcer as he nodded.
“Alright so first and foremost I need Natalie Henderson to come to the stage,” he said pulling a chair on the stage sitting In it as I sat there in shock.
He laughed. “Don’t be shy….i can come find you,” he said.

Rissa jumped up. “She right here Chris!!!!” She said as she pulled me up and pushed me out in the aisle with me giving her a look. I shyly walked up on stage as Chris patted his leg to sit down.

“Chris what’s going on,” I asked as he placed his finger on my lips signaling me to be quiet.

You mean to me
What I mean to you and
Together baby, there is nothing we wont do.
Cause if I got you
I don’t need money
I don’t need cars
Girl you my all
I’m in to you and girl no one else will do.
Cause with every kiss and every hug
You make me fall in love.
And now I know I cant be the only one
I bet there’s hearts all over the world tonight
With the love of their life who feels what I feel when I’m with you….,” he sung as I felt tears welling up in my eyes.

“So Natalie I ask you again will you make me the happiest man on earth and be my girl,” he asked as the crowd went crazy.
“YES YES YES YES,” they chanted as I covered my mouth in amazement as Chris put the mike up towards me.
“Well,” he said as I took a deep breath while he held the mike up to me.
“Yes…100 trillion times yes,” I said as Chris picked me up in his arms and spun me around kissing me. He was right I deserved to be happy and with him I can honestly say I was.

I have a surprise for @_Cheerio_ in the story!!!!!!!

and thanks for all the comments and the runs!!!! yall comments be having me laughing!!!

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Those quotes were so touching....I almost cried. I love the passion in between the two. I like how she got Chris' favorite quote PERMANTLY tattooed her. If that doesn't show some type of love, then I don't know what does. shouldn't even ask what she's going to say. Nat ain't crazy....I am! And I will hunt her ass down until I find her, beat her ass, and then make her go out with Chris......if she says no. So I'll let you choose Natalie's fate...choose wisely -evil smirk- HAHAHAHAHA!! I'm such a damn weird ass.
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She stated that she didn't want Marcus she loves chris, she got that tattoo so she better say "Chris... As long as you'll be mine" or some sh*t lol RUN IT !!!!!!!!

She's need to say yes!!! they need to be together. he wants to protect her and I dont think he would hurt her purposely. That was sweet her first tat was something of his...
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s*** aint no rhink she betta say yea cus im gtn tired of them goin back n forth s*** be together already damn run it lol

I still had my eyes covered until Natalie started speaking….I was truly amazed as I slowly uncovered my eyes at what I saw and heard as she turned to the side covering her chest.
“I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.
I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;
so I love you because I know no other way
than this: where I does not exist, nor you,
so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,
so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep.,” she said as I stood there in shock.

I can’t even explain how I feel right now but Natalie has my heart racing. She got her first tattoo of my favorite quote on her side as a feather went through it. I’m amazed that she went through the pain to get this done and for me. I’ve recited the whole poem to her in a way to express how I felt without her even knowing it…but that happened to be one of my fav lines in the poem…I definitely was not expecting this.

I walked up to Natalie and wrapped my arms around her waist and kissed the back of her neck causing her to flinch.
“When did you get this,” I asked her.

“A couple of days ago,” she responded. “I was playing on my guitar playing a new tune as I stopped to pick up my notebook as a folded piece of paper fell out. I opened it and came across the quote remembering the first time you read it to me.”

*FLASHBACK 1 year ago*


Natalie and I were sitting in my room working on our English project. We had to pick our favorite poem or quote and explain what they meant in our own words.
“So what’s your favorite poem Nat,” I asked her as she stopped writing looking up at me.
“Inside Out by Angie Flores,” she said.
“Hmm…never heard of it can I hear it,” I asked as she nodded.

“Outside lives a girl with a smile that will brighten up the room,
yet inside hides a girl with a frown full of despair.
Outside lives a girl with eyes of joy that brings you to ease,
yet inside hides a girl shedding tears of sadness.
Outside lives a girl with a beautiful laugh that's contagious,
yet inside hides a girl screaming her lungs out in unwanted anger.
Outside lives a girl with the personality everyone envies,
yet inside hides a girl full of insecurities and shame.
Outside lives a girl who is fearless and tough,
yet inside hides a weak girl who lives in fear.
Outside lives a girl full of life,
yet inside hides a girl full of pain, wanting to die.
Outside lives a girl with a perfect image,
yet inside hides a girl with regrets and mistakes.
Outside lives a girl of innocence,
yet inside hides a girl with tremendous guilt.
Outside lives a girl with goals and aspirations,
yet inside lives a girl lost in confusion.
What you see on the outside is my personal disguise,
What hides underneath you can't even begin to imagine.”

“This poem is about yourself isn’t it,” I asked as she looked up at me with tears in her eyes as she nodded. I can tell that she’s been through a lot just by looking into her eyes screaming for help.

“What’s yours,” she said changing the subject before I could even respond.
“Mines is Sonnet XVII by Pablo Neruda,” I said before I cleared my throat continuing.
“I do not love you as if you were salt-rose, or topaz,
or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off.
I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,
in secret, between the shadow and the soul.
I love you as the plant that never blooms
but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers;
thanks to your love a certain solid fragrance,
risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body.
I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.
I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;
so I love you because I know no other way than this: where I does not exist, nor you,
so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,
so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep,” I finished as her eyebrows rose in confusion.

“I don’t understand,” she said.

“Because you’ve never felt love before,” I said as I took a sheet out of my notebook and wrote down the poem for her handing it to her as she took it from me tucking it inbetween some blank pages of her notebook. “One day you’ll read this and understand,” I said hoping that she’d also understand and see how much I loved her.


“I love you Chris,” she said her voice cracking with emotion.
“Turn around,” I said whispering in her ear.

As soon as she turned around I kissed her with so much passion taking her completely off guard tonguing her down as she wrapped her arms around my neck. I picked her up and laid her down on the bed with her legs wrapped around me. I kissed down her neck as I stopped when I got to her breasts cupping them in my hands as I attacked them one by one giving them both equal attention .

“mmmm…Chris,” she moaned as I felt her hands traveling down my pants as I backed up kissing her on her forehead. I laid down on the side of her as she decided to straddled me. This girl gon make me hurt her….sitting on me like this.
“Why’d you stop,” she asked as I closed my eyes trying to control myself.
“Because I wanna make love to you the right way with you as mine….I want you to feel what I feel…I want all of you baby,” I said lowly opening my eyes to see she put her bra and shirt back on. “Be mine,” I asked her as I waited for her response.
“Chris I…”

What do you think Natalie is going to say???
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Oh my gosh! They make me so angry! I get where Chris is coming from with the whole 'ignoring his feelings', but Nat's been hurt and she needs time. I mean her own mother turned against her, whose NOT going to have some damn trust issues with people. Ooooooooo!!!!! Chris she wants you! Literally -winks- Take it off Nat! I'm sorry, lol.
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aww mane they need to get on the same page asap!
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